So...what happened? I fell through on stuff once again as April got busier than expected. Especially with work deciding to hand me more hours to do as of late. To a point where I feel like I can't do much on most days even when half of it isn't working. I think I've found myself at a wall again despite finally getting some motivation to do stuff back in March. And with how this month is looking to me, I might not get a chance to really do much on my end. Specifically with a wedding I have to attend to on my dad's side of the family next weekend and the following is me going to ACEN with my sister and close friend. But there is some other news on top of all that.

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During the end of April, mom settled on getting a new puppy and I am for this idea as we haven't owned a dog since moving out of my childhood home in 2012(But dad and my brother thankfully took care of the ones we sadly left behind in our place). In the link is to said puppy, Sonny, and he has been a handful. He's only almost 3 months old as of now and has been rather energetic, but also teething a lot on stuff like my slippers. So part of my time has been devoted to making sure he doesn't do too much wrong and playing with him. This is taking some time to adjust, but hopefully I can be cozy with owning a dog again after this long.

Now as for other things, I do have an idea or two in mind for Summer. I want to work a bit more to get my room improved at my place for I don't feel comfy with the clutter it has. And I have a tiny bedroom, so you can imagine how having a Queen sized bed for 2+ years in this new house has made it hard to navigate through. I'm simply wanting to downsize on my bed and other stuff just to make everything look more clean and neat, to put some sanity back into me and make my mind feel less cluttered about all this. But on top of that, I also aim to get parts to beef up my PC, hoping this will improve my ability to stream through said PC. I've been wanting to use a capture card for my PS5 or Series X for a long time, but last I checked, the capture card didn't work with them. I'd prefer streaming through my PC to get more use out of it than just simply gaming on it. But as you can imagine, this will require me to really work my ass off quite a bit more just to make this all possible. Just hoping that I don't stop talking entirely at some point cause I haven't been the most chatty lately in the last couple or so weeks.

And that is my last topic I wanna get on: Chatting more. Just getting my words and thoughts out there on random stuff, even if they are funny or not. I just feel like it would to be in my benefit to really just talk more with others, even if my time spent doing other stuff is more limited than usual. I usually go on about figuring stuff out with them on my life, but I feel like I am running in circles at this point and not finding a solution to it. So just one thing I intend to do is just start talking more about anything. Maybe by then, I'll have more of my thoughts sorted and sifted through thanks to others just being around me.

Anyways, sorry if this came off as rambly. Just been cluttered as of late and needed to get some stuff out there to you guys. One thing I want to say before I end things off, now that I think about it, is that teaser story from April Fool's. I don't know when I will get around to this, but I plan to make a standalone story for Arnoch, the big Bre you're all used to seeing on here, and give him a refreshed look. But there is another thought I've had in mind for both my FA profile on here: I do want to change Arnoch out with my sona, Justin. Sounds a bit scary for me to consider a change like this, but after some thought, I haven't been as attached to him in recent times and he isn't feeling like a part of me as much. He'll still be my OC and all, but just not as in front of things as before. Not sure when I will do the profile refresh on here yet either, but I'll keep you guys posted. In the meantime, I hope you all just have a wonderful month and until next time...

The title doesn't lie, but I plan to come back more into streaming regularly after a year. I've done a lot of on and off streaming throughout a year, not settling in to do a full play thru of a game on Twitch. Well, I plan to fix that starting this April. I know a month is a while, but it gives me time to mentally prepare myself for more consistent streaming. My plan is to stream once or so a week on Twitch while announcing it ahead of time from 3 hours to a day in advance. How long I stream entirely depends on me and the game I plan to play. Speaking of games, I plan to return to streaming by finally 100%ing one game I've neglected for a year after my finger surgery: Kirby & The Forgotten Land. I haven't done post game yet, but this will be a way to come back into things. Unsure as of now if I will stream other games I once started live like Tales of Arise as that game took me a full 80+ hours to get through, but I want to play titles that are tamer in length. Outside of that, I am gonna need some advice on managing a better layout for stuff. Since I lack a camera, all I need to do is figure out a stream layout with screens and transitions. I know I said I'd be doing this as early as...was it last year or this year? I forget, but I'm going to push myself to do this and take it seriously. I hope you all look forward to coming back and playing games live more consistently!

Also, as a side note, I might be doing random streams just to show off a game or play alongside another friend as my external capture card seems unable to work on my PS5 and likely my Xbox Series X. I can't tell if this is because my PC is limited by its performance to work with these stronger consoles or if my capture card is at fault here, but any advice on this would benefit me greatly.

Onto other stuff, I've worked up the motivation to get to work on my OCs more. As for a story, I am unsure if I will get one out, but I got an idea cooking as of now. One major thing I feel like bringing up is how underutilized I've made my big Umbretina, Arnoch, as of now, but I aim to change that soon. One is to give him a new story that takes place a while after that whole arc I've been writing about(Which I'm horrifically slow at). That and is separate from the events of it.

Though, if I may be real for a moment, I feel like I don't say my simple opinions on stuff and just state stuff whenever I'm talking online. Mainly whenever I get to posting anything like a Tweet on Twitter or comment on Discord. Hopefully I can just start communicating more so it doesn't feel like I'm an outsider, you know? Anyways, I'll just leave this journal at that. Thanks again for reading this, if you got this far.

I gave it a thought and I'm going to save some extra cash to finally get stuff for other characters of mine. I really haven't done much with other OCs in a hot minute and need to get around to making their presence known. Gonna give it a month-ish before I go for other comms, buuuut I still got some images to post that I haven't gotten around to thanks to work(And also being secluded to playing God of War 4 & Ragnarok). So expect some stuff to be posted soon on my end!

So I played a good deal of games back in 2022 or continuing off from 2021. Gonna say what games I've played and give some short thoughts on each one. I might have more opinions over others, so hope ya like a look into my thoughts on games! I'll be scoring these as I go and these won't be in any particular order.

> Tales of Arise - Played on PS5 - 7/10 - A pretty fun action RPG with a somewhat decent story. Feels by the numbers in terms of the story department for me and some parts feel anti climatic. That or parts are pretty predictable. The ending of the game started to drag me down cause the second to last major area you visit is almost nothing but cutscenes and dialogue that goes on for more than an hour, but haphazardly tosses in a mini dungeon that doesn't prepare you for a boss fight only to then give you a ton more story stuff and then another boss fight with no dungeon to crawl through against 3 enemies that are higher level than you. It was a gripe I had with the game where I felt like the story was not done well enough in my eyes, but dragged scenes out for too long. THANKFULLY, the gameplay made up for most of this as it was fun comboing enemies with various Arts, Boost attacks, and so on. Though, in some circumstances, you have to watch yourself as certain enemy types like to be BS with their moves or status ailments heavily get in the way of fights. I would say this game is amazing overall if not for one thing: The DLC. Bandai put a crap ton of DLC into this game and sold 3 different versions of it(2 of which being digital only) that contain DLC that does affect the gameplay. Specifically certain costume sets that unlock "Titles", which in this game allow you to unlock stat bonuses and perks to each of your party members. Some of these are game breaking as well and the Ultimate Edition of the game seriously snaps the game in half with not just the bonus Titles, but weapons that make the first quarter or so of the game more of a cakewalk if you don't want to deal with early game enemies. On one hand, I do like playing with broken stuff, but on the other hand, I shouldn't need to pay a grand total of $110 before taxes to get all the DLC. I get nothing physical out of this and not even a soundtrack nor digital artbook. I say if you do want to get the DLC from the Ultimate Edition, wait for a sale. I did that and saved a great load of money. Or just buy the standard edition without any of the DLC. It's your call and GEEZ, I had more to say on this than I thought. MOVING ON.

> Pokemon Legends Arceus - 9/10 - Been a good while since I was hyped for a Pokemon game and PLA definitely was a fun start to 2022. It's an RPG, but hard to tell if it's really action or more turn based. I say it's a hybrid of both. The gameplay of going around and sneaking up on different 'Mons to catch was what hooked me the most over battling as I always felt like I wanted to keep moving. Shiny hunting in this game was pretty fun as well and hearing that shiny jingle play always got me excited. Made it worthwhile to get the shiny charm for this game and go hunt for whatever Pokemon I felt like hunting. Furthermore, the battles aren't too bad, but a bit jank due to how turn orders are handled in this game. The final real boss can certainly throw you for a loop if you came unprepared. Hope ya like deadly pianos! But I did feel like the story was serviceable albeit a bit dumb at times with what characters decide to do and whatnot. The landscapes could've had a bit more added to them, but the art style definitely made things pop to me. It was also a story I found myself somewhat captivated by as well from the various characters that are the ancestors to ones we know from the current timeline of the series. I really do hope the next game is about Unova cause I feel like Kyurem needs to be a bit more explored here. That and the full form of Reshi and Zekrom. Just saying.

> Pokemon Violet - 8/10 - This game was a blast to play thru as well and a refreshing change of pace for the series to let ya do things out of order. The story was surprising to me as well while I pressed on in each path, but the final path certainly got me the most. The music I wanna say is better than PLA to me as it is more catchy and toe tapping to some beats. Gameplay was fun as well with using Miraidon to explore the wide open areas to find and capture Pokemon. This was the second time in a Pokemon game to go shiny hunting and before I even finished the game, I found two shinies throughout the main story! Overall, this is one of Pokemon's best games yet and would be scored higher...if not for the obvious reasons. Technically, the game is a mess, textures and environments don't look too appealing, the main trainer design is odd to me, and the pop-in in some places stick out. Second to last thing wasn't an obvious thing to others, but it is my criticism with the game, but I ain't here to bash on it too hard. It gave me a good experience, but I really hope Game Freak and Pokemon decide to put more time into their next generation when it comes to the technical side of things. That and maaaaaybe not release two games by the same devs in the same year? Getting some deja vu with Sw/Sh all over again.

> Bayonetta 3 - 7/10 - For the 3rd installment to a franchise like this, in some aspects, it's great, but in others? It falls flat on its face. While I did enjoy the gameplay aspect, I did feel like the Demon Slave system does most of the work for DPS output and if you didn't go out of your way to explore the environments, you'll be left with a short experience. However, exploration is rewarding as you find a variety of things from each chapter and even have a chance at unlocking more gear or specific demons and weapons for Bayo to use. Although, despite this game having 3 total playable characters - Bayo, Jeanne, and newcomer Viola - Bayo gets much more of the spotlight in terms of gameplay and story, which is to its own detriment. To say the least, the ending was confusing in tone at some points and seriously undermines Viola as the next generation to the Bayo series. The story was poorly handled in my eyes comparing it to 1 and 2's. Story wise, this is the worst of the 3, but the gameplay could be 2nd or best of the series overall. I did wish this game gave you a better reward for getting all the Bewitchments - this game's version of achievements - as I found out you get N O T H I N G for doing all of them, which is a massive letdown to me. Made the time put into getting them wasted in my eyes. I do hope for the next mainline title in the series, it does a better job at tightening up the story and rewards players better for getting the Bewitchments. Bayo 1 & 2 at least gave you something for those, to my knowledge.

Sonic Frontiers - Played on PS5 - 8/10 - The music really slaps in this game and I felt like the open zones were the best parts of the game. I always like music that goes in on tense moments like Metal Gear Rising does or when the climax hits in other action games. As for the zones, I enjoyed going around them even if they didn't have a ton to do. The pop-in wasn't too annoying to me, but I had to get used to it being there. Most if not all enemy types felt easy-ish to beat even when I cranked the game up to Hard. Except the true final boss - which you must be on Hard mode to fight - felt like a pain and took me an hour and a half to beat. I'm thankful a game one time shows pity on me for sucking at bullet hells and gave me extra hit points after enough deaths. But other than that, the story? Definitely a fun one and I was surprised by how every character acted this time around. The voice direction was solid too as I enjoyed how everyone interacted with Sonic. I felt the most impressed from how Eggman and Amy acted in this game. Eggman for how he handled the predicament he got himself in and Amy for being more than a woman lusting for Sonic. Seriously, I felt a breath of fresh air with this game, but of course, it did have a bit of a nasty issue: The Cyberspace levels. These were pretty short and unremarkable to me. Not to mention after the first island's stages, the rest were pretty easy to get the missions done. Took me very few tries to get everything, but DAMN, I wasn't expecting these to be so easy on me. Now I just hope the updates really add a good layer of extra content to do once they start rolling out this year.

> Xenoblade Chronicles 3 - 10/10 - I can't understate how much fun I had with this game and how engaged I was with the story. Although it can feel complex at first, the story is pretty deep and explores what life means to everyone - especially when about everyone in this game is on a time limit until the end of their 20th year in life, but are born at the age of 10 to fight in an endless war. I felt drawn to about every character introduced and the side content enhanced my enjoyment of everyone. Even important quests meant to improve one of your Heroes - allies that you meet along your journey and act as your 7th party member - or gaining them are voiced to show just how important they are. Not to mention each one belongs to a colony you find throughout the game and the pretty huge landscapes. I explored about every corner of all the maps that had everything to offer - even if some landed me into death traps more times than not. And the combat felt very fun to mess around with! Having everyone being given the ability to use every class in the game allows for tons of strategies in battle. Some safe, some broken, and some that makes you feel unstoppable with the right party set up. The Ouroboros transformations really come in handy for not just dealing a lot of damage, but using them at the right time to either get the most out of said transformation or to survive an attack that could nuke the entire party. Although this game can take you into the hundreds of hours to complete, I felt like my exploration and curiosity was worth it. To see everything this world had to offer and finding the references to the past Xenoblade games in here. I fell in love with the series thanks to Xenoblade 2 and that inspired me to play the remaster on Switch when I heard the announcement years later. I still gotta finish Xenoblade 2 properly, but I should be able to do so eventually in my life. But I did take away one major thing from this game: You shouldn't let everything in life burden you. Instead, take things in stride and walk on. ...I think that's how the saying goes, anyways.

But those were all the major games I fully beat from last year to memory...OH RIGHT.

> Sonic Unleashed - Played on an Xbox Series X - 9/10 - THIS is a childhood classic of mine I completely forgot to talk about. I now the Werehog sections aren't perfect, the music in his battles gets annoying after a while, the repetition you need to do to 100% the game can be irritating to some, QTEs can suck when they're present almost all the time, story is a bit too simple for its own good and somewhat predictable, and Eggmanland is one of the hardest Sonic stages of all times. So...why a 9? Get this: I'm not too phased by all this. I am a guy who played 06 without realizing it was a shit game cause I had no idea what the internet was like growing up and I talked to no one about my gaming life. Unleashed was my introduction to Sonic as a whole and although the years have been rough on the Blue Blur, this game was the spark of my life. It's fun blasting through stages at speeds so high it makes the game hard to handle, but for the most part, I enjoyed my time with it. And the Werehog? I love his stages, actually! It became far more fun to play as him when I found out several things about his stages: You can run by literally most enemy encounters in stages, there are more shortcuts to find and use, combat becomes RIDICULOUSLY easy once you know knockdown and guard piercing hits are busted as hell, and the biggest thing of them all? The night time stage themes are wonderful. Hell, the OST is great as a whole minus the blaring Werehog battle theme. I listen to the Holoska Day and Night village themes every time the winter season hits as those songs perfectly fit in with the time of year. Give them a listen to sometime if you can! But other than the OST, this game was great to play again cause I found out SO MUCH more than when I originally played this game. It is a long Sonic game, but sometimes, you gotta think outside the box and get curious on things. You'll be rewarded more times than not like how I was when researching stuff to 100% this game. Though, don't do the DLC maps. They may be a grand total of $10 for extra stages, but those things are NOT to be fucked with if you're a casual. They WILL kick your ass if you aren't careful.

But that is all the games from last year. I know I exed Kirby & The Forgotten Land from the list, but I technically haven't fully finished that game yet. BUT I do plan to stream the remaining part of the game where I last left off at some point. Other than that, what do you guys think of the game I managed to beat? Let me know any thoughts on any of these games I mentioned and until next time...

I know I've gone over some parts of my year in previous journals, but I wanted to think back some to what this year gave and took away from me here. I can't lie, this year was both a good and bad year to me for various reasons. As to why, I'm about to get right into that.

The Negatives
So the year didn't start smooth this year due to some inner turmoil I was dealing with when it came to keeping up with others. As of now, I still struggle to do that very thing on my end and it's often just me wanting to be alone more often than not. I've secluded myself more than go out most of the time and don't have a big social life outside of the house. I talk about just anything, but it's either what I say isn't important or if it is, it sails over someone's head. I feel like I still struggle to make a presence wherever I go and don't provide enough to some to come off as even a decent friend. I want to be someone that I can be talked to without fear of not responding. These days, I've been busier than ever and doing what I can to keep up with others despite the lower amount of free time I got. I honestly should be using my free time more wisely with them and actually doing something with them than just sitting and relaxing alone so often. And that's not the worst part of the year, either.

This year only got tougher when my current job decided to screw me out of hours and making a living wage. Hell, I got mixed up with other people on this job and it bothered me how disorganized the movie theater I once worked at is. I still believe it to be as such now despite getting a new job and not being there since October, but that is yet to be seen on my end. That place didn't help my mental wellbeing either with how toxic the work environment was: Working with ushers that often didn't follow along the job, ushers that don't care about anything I say even when it's important, being disrespected by being belittled, and even management hardly cared about the work I did. Back in early May, I still had a cast on my left finger after surgery and I was told to usher, but I couldn't cause of the risk of exposure to germs and infection. My boss DID NOT fucking care and when I basically said I'd do ticket rip stand, he got a shift lead to pull me into his office and told me 2 things: The doctor's note I had didn't label me as physically disabled from the cast and the biggest thing he told me? He said I can go back out there to usher or I could walk out the theater and not come back. RIGHT AFTER saying he appreciated me working more days for opening week of Multiverse of Madness(Second Doctor Strange film). That just showed I wasn't really cared for and he just saw me as a tool to keep this place running whenever I came in. I'm glad I don't work there anymore, but it's not like my current job hasn't been helping either. I've been experiencing more anxiety and frustration working at Panda Express due to being put at drive thru so damn often. It got to the point where I have done drive thru more than front register for dining room. What gets me so frustrated is how often I have to constantly be pushed to get an order out faster than those in front of house registers due to a constant timer ticking above me. 3 minutes is all I have to get an order taken, made, and then do the transaction. It can be easy on paper, but not when there are rushes and info sometimes not properly being relayed back to me. Sometimes I have been left to struggle, of what it feels like. But to wrap this part up as I am taking a bit with it, while I do appreciate being hired here, I have had small thoughts of finding somewhere else to work due to the high amount of stress I've been through. The pay is good and I do get the benefits I need for when I turn 25, but it's just...mucky to me how things feel to me at the moment. I am hoping to get things more sorted with this job as I keep working.

But It didn't really prepare me for other things. This year, I had two deaths in the family that affected me...again. I don't know what gives, but I'm noticing a disturbing trend that began in 2020 where people or animals I've grown up with are passing away before my very eyes or suddenly when I am off elsewhere. This year's deaths were a pet beta fish named George and my Grandpa Pat. George was the only pet I had left to really be around with after Angel passed away last year and Davidson the year before, but it broke my heart trying to feed him when I'm home alone one night only for him not to eat at all. He struggled to swim and before I really knew it, he passed away on the beaded bed of his tank. Although a fish can't do much, he was the only pet and being I knew I could talk to whenever nowhere else is around. And now...well, it's harder to just simply talk to myself and only myself when I am alone. Matters were made worse when my Grandpa Pat was suddenly taken to the ER and had to be hooked up to an oxygen tank. Some days later, as I finish hanging out with a friend, mom calls to tell me he won't make it through the night and that I should go see him. I took that chance and got to see him one last time, but since he had that machine strapped to him, he couldn't talk. I just explained to him my plans for the year and how I'll basically put on a brave face(Damn, how dumb I was to say that). I spent half an hour with him before leaving and as mom said, later that night...he was just gone. A man I knew my whole life just...gone again. For the 3rd year in a row, no less. But it was hard for me to really feel any emotion from this due to a couple factors: 1.) He died the day before my interview with Panda Express. And 2.) His funeral was held a day before my 24th birthday. As you can imagine, trying to remain happy during those days wasn't easy in the slightest. But I kept up a good enough facade to show I could power through, but that's been failing me in recent times. I just don't feel too emotionally strong right now on things after how this year went in terms of those aspects. Hell, this loops back to my first subject.

It's been a rough one on me to be emotionally stable around most people and hell, I know my attitude on some stuff has landed me in shit before or my behavior or my actions, even. Not to mention a lot of things I didn't live up to doing like streams and getting a story out there despite it being in my head for so long. I feel like I let down in a lot of places and this could've been the year where I really implode on myself from a lot of things I didn't have the strength to do. I hate to tease that possibility, but it's...something that lingered in my mind for a bit of time. Yet, here I am, still talking and typing to you all. I have many reasons as to why I keep going, but there are several things this year I wasn't expecting to really get me to where I am today.

The Positives
Although I've been through a lot this year, there was some good to be found in all of this. I've written a bit during the year, even if I did slow down come the Holiday season. There are still ideas I am ironing out and wanting to make for all to see, hoping to really make a good tale or two everyone can enjoy. But I feel like this year in gaming for me has given me a lot to bide my time with and given me a few new ideas because of it. Heck, I even got a couple of major ideas in the works, but that's for later to say.

Onto something a bit less messy than what I said, gaming has been interesting this year. There are quite a few games I got around to beating on my end and enjoying throughout this year. Bayo 3, Tales of Arise, Xenoblade 3, and especially Pokemon Violet. I get the game isn't the greatest in terms of design or technical aspects, but I really enjoyed myself with this game and made sure I completed it to the best of my ability. I'm still even discovering a couple extra things as I play, which is a fun aspect of this game. I feel like I can also participate in things more easily with friends such as battles and Raids, something I felt like I wasn't able to do in Sword/Shield so well when it first launched. It feels so good to actually build Pokemon that can be considered competitive and I don't need to breed for hours on end for the right 'Mon to be made. If the game really does get DLC, I seriously hope it's something good and fun to try out unlike Sw/Sh's DLC where I just gave up on it due to how I felt on it after a while. That and also be worth the price to me like the other games I bought are.

But while gaming has been present for me in 2022, so was my social life outside of FA, Twitter, and Discord. In late February, I ended up meeting someone that really changed my life. To keep him anonymous for now, lets call him "E" for short. I ended up being paired with him on my second half of an usher shift at the theater and the one aspect about him immediately caught my eye as we worked: He had a Furry themed face mask. I eventually asked him if he was one and he is. In all my life, I didn't know someone in person who is a Furry and one that I can keep a good conversation with. We talked so much during the shift that we both exchanged Twitter contacts and I even went over how long I was meant to be on shift. It felt...refreshing to be with someone new. And as the year went on, we both hung out a lot to see various films like "The Batman", "Everything Everywhere All at Once"(Favorite film of 2022, by the way, you MUST see it), "Morbius", and many others! Although we did slow down seeing films together once October hit due to our schedules being rather busy, he really help change my life for the better. Remember how I mentioned I got a job at Panda Express? That was thanks to him referring me to the manager there. He left the theater in early June for reasons I'll keep to myself for his privacy and landed a job at Panda after a bit. We both work there now and although it's been hectic with me figuring things out there, I am glad he is the guy who gave me a chance in life to really grow more beyond what I am. I haven't grown this close to a person in so long and he really got me to come out of my shell more. If you're seeing this E, I truly thank you for making my year and my life a lot brighter these days. I hope I'm continuing to do the same for you, my close friend.

And there's another thing I want to speak of: Movies. I never thought I'd love seeing so many films this year, even if some of them were dumb like "Thor: Love & Thunder", "Morbius", "Morbius 2: It's Mor- Wait, that's not a film, why am I listing that? Dumb joke aside, I grew up watching films as a kid due to the fact mom couldn't pay for cable, so we were stuck with antenna TV and that lasts me only so long. She once visited a guy at a bar not too far from home to get some cheap films off them for my siblings and I to watch, but I did most of the watching. It was how I came across one of my all-time favorite films: The Fantastic Mr. Fox. You could say this is why I love foxes to this day and you'd be right, but it's also a fun film that I enjoy coming back to time and time again. E even gave me a Criterion copy of the film earlier this year and I couldn't be happier. I lost my DVD copy of the film back in the day and to have this is something I'll forever treasure. Films as a whole open me up to seeing a lot of concepts and ideas done that I wish to see, but I do got my limits on what I feel like seeing, of course. I can only go so far with gore before it starts feeling extremely unsettling to me. Other than that, I got a lot more films to watch this coming year and to enjoy once again. I know I need it.

For the Year to Come...
Last year was filled with a lot of moments, almost too many to name. My first time going to Midwest Fur Fest, heading with E to see a tour event of "Clerks 3" in Iowa City, going to ACEN earlier in the year as well, spending various Holidays with others. I could go in depth with those, but I'll keep those to myself for the time being. Right now, we're all in the New Year. 2023 has finally arrived and I am praying this year will be better than the last. But that doesn't come without a few new resolutions that I have in mind.

> I want to write more this coming year and aim to get done with this arc I've been making over time. I came up with a couple more ideas and hoping to implement them into the ongoing story, but I'll be sure to at least release one new story a month based on the arc. I've left a lot of unfulfilled stories piling up and I want to get to them sometime throughout the year. I do aim to get the next story out by the end of the month and something smaller on the side. I seriously just need to give myself the time to do it and that leads into a bigger resolution I'll be pushing for.
> Making time for myself and others. This is something I struggle with on a daily basis and often am alone more than not, doing almost nothing. I don't get enough sleep and that often has lead me to waking up so late in the day. For this year, I'm looking to find ways of sleeping better and making better use of my time not just on myself, but for others and on my own hobbies. I need to stop beating around the bush on so much and just do it. Even talking and socializing more online would be a good start, but work is something that will hinder that on me.
> Giving other game series a shot is something lingering in my mind for a while. God of War and Spark the Electric Jester are a couple series I haven't delved into, but I've heard great things about them. Of course, with other games coming later this year, I need to make sure I put in a good amount of time on certain titles to get the most out of it. Going further into this...
> Streaming is something that I dropped off on due to how icky Twitch is being on some stuff. I'm considering YouTube to stream on, but I don't know if they're restrictive or not on some stuff. It's something I hope to figure out this year and even finish up on some games I never got to finish on stream. Likely in April is when I finally get around to finishing Kirby and the Forgotten Land, but we'll see.
> A big one for me: Trying out a non-Pokemon OC/sona. This thought has prodded at my mind for about a month or so now and I am considering giving my Mewsona such a form to use whenever, but unsure if I should make them separate or not. This is an idea I'll be having a work in progress for throughout the year, but I also aim to change a few aspects on some OCs. I even have an idea to redesign Arnoch again as I haven't felt the need to push him out there so much anymore. I don't want to give him away, but I need to do something that'll spice things up with him. And I might have just the idea, but it'll be a WiP.

But outside of those resolutions/plans, this year is feeling like it'll be an interesting one to me long as I push myself along. Lets all hope this year can go smoother than last and have a great time together. Stay safe, eat well, and most of all...have a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

This is just a journal on a couple things I hopeto do before the end of the year as I haven't given myself the time to really get to things. So, let me quickly give you all the deets.

> New short story - This one I aim to be about Stella and Amber and it isn't going towards the arc I'm writing about. Just something small and meant to show some characters interacting, but maybe it'll have weight gain involved? Haven't stuck a nail on what the story will be about, but hoping to get it written up this week and posted.

> Stream(Maybe?) - I want to at least stream one more game before the year's end and it will be one I have been playing. Either some Tera Raid hunting in Violet, finishing Bayo 3, or Sonic Frontiers. 2 of those games are ones I have yet to fully 100% while Violet has been finally completed on my end. I'd like to hear what you guys would think on me streaming this week.

> Movie night in my server - As part of a thing in my server, I got Movies Anywhere now and now have a few films I'd like to show to others. Of course, this means sacking my hardware accelerator for a while just to let people watch a film and likely sacking the resolution, but I wish for others to see films I loved and enjoyed. If you're already in my server, I hope you consider joining! And for reading this, I am putting a link to my server right below this note! Just if anyone has been interested for a while.
Server Link: https://discord.gg/dPFW78Ep

> Twitter still not looking great, so I need suggestions - For other platforms I can consider keeping in touch with others on aside from Discord. Wouldn't mind hearing what you all got to suggest me and I'll think about making an account for it.

With those notes done, I also aim to give my little year in review journal right on New Years Eve. So until then, you all have a great rest of your weekend and have a Merry Christmas or Happy Holidays!

Just got to the convention center for MFF and getting settled into things here. Con itself hasn't started, but I'm here until Sunday with a friend! Hoping for a great time at my first Fur con!

Hey there! I'll be streaming Pokemon Violet at noon CST today on Twitch, but should that not work into my favor due to the weather, I'll be streaming myself playing the game in my server! Server invite is only open for a day, so if you've been wanting to join, now is the time!

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It's time for another update from my end! First off, this past month has been a bit rocky from things throwing me off on the job to other random occurrences in my life. Just getting this out of the way now as this isn't the point of all this, I feel like I need to think things through a bit more on the job while also balancing stuff out with friends and family. I think I once said it, but I forgot and need a verbal reminder of it. Anyways, lets get to a couple of main things.

Thanks to Mr. Musk over here, I've been seeing people slowly jump ship from Twitter and going to other platforms. This makes me worried as I've only had Twitter and Discord as my main social media accounts for the last couple or so years here and makes me think it'll be harder to find people I know should they not be on a certain platform I'm not on. That and it'll be harder to see what everyone is posting about outside of art and games. I tend to keep up to date with people on Twitter by keeping notifications turned on their specific accounts just so I can see what's up. But with Twitter being the way it is, I'm considering other options for me to find people and vice versa. Right now, I only have Discord as my other social media account, but I keep it private unless asked after getting my server raided last year. I have been considering opening up my server again for a day just for people to join probably tomorrow before I stream Pokemon Violet, but all I do hope is that no fucking B O T S don't join or raiders again. Plus, I want to at least extend my server out to other people wanting to reach out to me or others at all. Hopefully some good can come from it, but I do wanna ask: What other platforms should I expand myself out to? Let me know so I can get some ideas.

And you probably saw the second part of the title, but yes, I am heading to Midwest Fur Fest(MFF) for the first time in my life! I've never been to a furry convention before and hoping for my first time here, I can have fun and meet some people I've came to know online here. Does depend if certain people I know are going there, but at least I won't be alone on my trip. A very close friend of mine is going with too and I am looking forward to this with them. And hey, if you're heading there too, LET ME KNOW. I'd like to meet some friendly faces. All I ask is to please respect my boundaries as I am a germophobe in person and don't do a lot of physical interaction like hugs and handshakes unless I can get my hands clean fast. I'm weird, I know.

But other than that, I hope to get one more little story out before the end of the month and right before Thanksgiving. The Holiday season is about to be a busy one on me once again, but hoping I can deal with things better than I have in the past. For now, hope you all have a great day and until next time...

It's my 24th birthday as of writing this! I'm surprised that some stuff this year went smoother than expected despite a few harsh bumps along the way. The past year has been a difficult one, but what did I get to show for it as of now? Well, one noteworthy change is this(For anyone that hasn't seen my Tweets): I finally got out of working at the theater and now work at a Panda Express! After what felt like an eternity, I'm free and working more often now! I have to wait until the 21st for my first paycheck, but I'm on my way to being financially stable again!

And as you can see, that means it'll be harder for me to make stories and the such going forward, but trust me when I say that I still intend to write more tales of my various OCs. I just gotta make time and put effort into making the story. Not sure what to make next, but if you all remember the recent one I posted, I teased at another character. They'll mostly be on the side, so not gonna make a full on ref of them or anything should I get any future comms. Speaking of which, there is one idea I have in mind for a comm, but I'll save that surprise for when the time comes. All I can say is a certain someone is getting a reworked look and a bit of their personality.

Although, this all isn't happy news here. A few weeks ago, the day before my interview with Panda Express, my mom and older sister called to inform me that my Grandpa Pat was in bad condition at the hospital and wouldn't survive the night. At the time, I was just about done with an afternoon of hanging out with a friend till the news arrived, but I was thankful he came with me to see my grandpa, even if he couldn't go up to the room with me. It was almost heartbreaking to see grandpa hooked up to an oxygen tank, but I said what I wanted to say to him and that was just about how things are going for me. That and I'll be improving myself going forward. Later in the very early morning hours, it was true: He didn't last the night and passed away. Just yesterday - the 12th - we attended a funeral service at Abe Lincoln's Cemetery, I believe it was called. He was an army veteran, so a lot of us were there to morn our loss. Mom especially as this was his biological father here, so this got her the most out of anyone. I'm gonna miss him and it's even more unfortunate when I realized that this is the second grandpa I lost within the span of a year. It makes me realize how limited time is on most and how sudden that time can be ripped away from us. So I'm doubling down on hanging out more with others however I can cause I don't want to suddenly lose someone and not tell them how I feel.

Aside from that, though? I'm going to keep my head high and stay strong however I can. I got a lot to do and I don't want to wallow in grief or despair like I often did growing up. Now is a time for action and I plan to do what I can going forward. Oh, and before I forget, streaming is gonna be side lined in favor of just writing more stories. I'm gonna try every now and again to stream, but don't expect it to be consistent from me going forward. With how Twitch and YouTube are, I personally don't see myself getting much out of it with the way things are now. I know I said I'd be developing things over the year with streaming, but I realize that may not be possible. Least, as of now. We'll see how my future shakes out.

But before I end this, I got one more thing to say: Thank you. All of you for sticking with an insane man like me over the last few years. It's almost been 10 years since I started my time on social media as a whole and I'm surprised as to how far I came in the past few years. I grew a lot thanks to the help of many friends and experiences from others. I got a lot more to go in growing(In more ways than one), so hope you all stick around to see more from me! Until next time...

Soooo it's about to be September here, the dry month and nearly the end of Summer as a whole. I've been fairly busy this past month with going to Wisconsin for vacation to playing a LOT of Xenoblade 3 in my personal time, but other things for me have been alright with a dash of anxiety mixed into it. And plenty of heavy handed thoughts floating my way(And not the fun kind of "heavy"). Because of how things went this month, I haven't worked that much and have lost a lot of money on my end through buying a lot of stuff I personally like, but aren't essential to living like Pokemon cards and video games.

Which is why I'm trying to restructure myself. Streaming is something I've been interested in doing, but making time to do one has been difficult on my end. I need to start figuring out a schedule for that, but also for work. My job hunting has been decent as 2 places have given me the chance to be interviewed and waiting on a response. With things being very dry at the theater in terms of customer activity, a lot of us are going to get cut/have fewer hours to work for a whole month. And this comes at the worst time, no less, as I'm trying to work more hours to make up for not only lost time, but lost funds as well. For my own sake, if you wish to help me out on staying in the green with my funds, my Ko-Fi is down below.

But outside of that, I'm needing to push myself more. Chat with others, be more active online, and actually work more to make a living. Cause I think I've been having it too easy this summer and need a change of pace. Again. Like maybe posting some journals again with more fun topics or post Tweets talking about whatever. Cause take it from a guy like me: Remaining silent and waiting for others to say something to you doesn't take you many places. I'm only now just starting to wake up to that fact. But that'll do it from me for now. You all have a wonderful day/evening now. Ciao for now!

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I'm streaming Xenoblade Chronicles 3 all day on Twitch, so pop on by and lets explore Aionios together!

So I'm doing some job hunting right now and things are a little rocky, but I'm pushing myself to get things done more than ever. I've been aloof for long enough and it's time I got serious. This extends to me writing stuff as I got one in the works currently that should be up sometime later today, so stay tuned for that. And lastly, before I head off to bed, I plan to stream Xenoblade 3 all of Friday, but I might be doing a test stream before then to see how things are looking. Pop on by, if you can, but for now...

Yeeeeeeeeeah, so...last month didn't pan out like I'd aimed it out to be, but now I realize more than ever that I've set too many goals and expectations for myself here. I tried writing one story a week and even wanting to get Stella's story out for everyone to read, but I've not made time for myself to do such a thing. Same goes for getting a new job. It's been harder than I thought it would be, but I've only really applied to 2 places right now with no call backs. That being said, I'm rethinking a few things as to how I go about stuff. It's still a work in progress, but I'm going to just write stories as I go. No set times or dates as to when to have it out. Just make one and post it when I'm ready. Cause this adds stress to myself when I don't follow up on what I said. And to be honest, I've done this far too many times as it is.

As for streams, I feel like I'm out of my element right now. This summer has been busier on me than I thought with real life things going on a lot. If there is gonna be a stream at this point, I'm only going to see how I feel on doing one on Thursdays, Fridays, or Saturdays. Other days will be considered, but that is something I am ironing out as I go. There is a lot I have to work on more than I expected, but this will be a time of me trying to better learn a few things.

I'm not gonna keep this update long, but it's my honest thoughts on things. I've been too ambitious in trying to make something big of myself when, really, I need to work on it bit by bit and myself as time goes. "Plan it by the year" is a saying I've started to learn more about thanks to my grandpa. But that won't mean I'll stop doing what I enjoy doing. I just gotta give myself a bit more time, is all. Anyways, with that all being said...

We're already halfway into the year and quite a lot has happened in my personal life the last few months. Met some new people, gained more experience in some areas, and came to realize a lot more than I thought. One of those realizations is how I slack so often on doing mostly anything. I've felt distant in some places, my presence online(Somewhat) most of all. I feel like I haven't been really chatting with others as much as I'd like on things and I believe it's time I do something about it. And for those that know me personally, I mean REALLY try something.

For starters, I'm going to be starting a job hunt this month as the theater hasn't been doing well with how people act on the job. Been dealing with a lot more jerks(and that's putting it lightly) on the job and people I know are quitting left and right. Plus, with how increasingly expensive things are getting, minimum wage really isn't cutting it. I'm going to finish revising my resume and start applying to places around where I currently work as I have a feeling other places would be better than here. I may need some days to myself just to make sure things are in order, so if I'm not responding to DMs, just understand that I'm doing this for myself and to move on from my semi-toxic work environment. I've been needing this for a long time and I owe it to myself to finally move on. And before I close this part off, due know that my work days are Sunday and Tuesday, 2 PM to 8 PM CST right now. This is just for those wondering how often I work and a 6 hour shift there isn't friendly on me most of the time.

For anyone following my non-fetish Twitter account, FuxionJustin, I typically post on there about other things more often than I do on my fetish account. I don't have as much to say nowadays on fetish related stuff and I feel like I'm somewhat burnt out of it. Emphasis on "somewhat". It doesn't mean I'm completely dry on it, but feel like I want to push myself into something that doesn't always got to emphasize on that. You might've seen that when doing my stories especially as I like making things that are long and detailed, but with little focus on fetishes. I might just need to revitalize myself on it just to get back into the swing of things, which will mostly be after I find a better job to mentally and financially stabilize me. Hope you all understand where I'm coming from on this and I'll elaborate more if need be.

Speaking of my non-fetish content, what about the streams I was doing? I haven't done a full on stream since April due to the surgery I had on my left index finger, but it's mostly healed up now and I've been able to do things normally again. Just gotta keep flexing it to ensure it doesn't stiffen on me, but with my recovery being mostly complete, I plan to return to streams tomorrow and set myself a schedule unless I say otherwise. Thursdays or Fridays will be days I plan to stream on, but I'll be attempting to make it early in the afternoon and do roughly 4-6 hour streams. I still got a lot to learn on how it works and how I can better the quality of my streams, so I'll be seeking some guidance in about any way possible going forward. It'll be a slow update on the quality of things, but I want to make the most of this growing hobby of mine. And to just get this out there, I plan on streaming around 4 PM CST tomorrow to prep myself for Sony's State of Play presentation. The following week, I'll be aiming to hop right back into Kirby and the Forgotten Land once more, so stay tuned for that!

Next up is my server. I haven't done a lot of update it in a while and I feel like an extra mod would help keep things in line there. I have one mod there as is, but a second one would help benefit the place as a whole. Another thing I wish to do is clear some cluttered roles and maybe group things together. After all, people do have the ability to simply mute channels on Discord and leave them ignored for however long they wish. But I may need some recommendations from those in my server on what to change and what to keep. I wish to open my server again at some point to let more people in outside of simply asking me, but I've been keeping quiet about my server after having it suddenly raided several months back. I wish to avoid having that happen again, so tightening stuff up there would help me and others a lot. We'll see how updating my server goes first to see about re-opening it to the public for a day.

No one probably is asking me this, but WHERE HAVE THE STORIES BEEN??? I've not felt all too motivated for a while to make stories to put out and I even had some doubts on how parts of stories I currently make would flow. Is "Writer's Doubt" such a thing? I don't know, but that's how I've been feeling about writing. HOW-EVER, I've been thinking of various ideas to write about over time consisting of characters like Stella, Justin, and many others. I like to be a tease on stuff, but I might cut back on that just to have a more satisfying ending to a story I make. I want to deliver more tales, whether they be lighthearted or perhaps dark in tone. Which is why that I'm going to push myself this month to write 1 short story or 2 a week. Starting Friday, you'll be getting a short story from me and I aim to deliver the origin story to Stella by the end of the month in a full on "Tales from Nasurah" entry. I want to start bringing you all the best I got to offer and show you the ideas I've been thinking about. Not to really gain social acceptance or fame, but to see those enjoy what I write. Cause I've inspired some friends from my own ideas I've come up with and they inspire me. So sit tight on this and you'll get to see what I'm really made of. OH, and before I forget, the idea of doing story commissions that I mentioned back at the start of the year isn't going to quite happen just yet. I want to focus on my own stories first before I start trying for that.

Beyond all the updates, I'm starting to feel excited about this month and for the potential future of this remaining year. Thanks for reading to the end and lets make the rest of the year something better, okay? I aim to do that and I bet anyone reading this can too. With that being said...

Hard to believe that a lot of time has passed this year already. It's something for me to think about as, while I haven't accomplished too much of what I thought out doing, I did get other things done and making some efforts in other places. Streaming a bit more consistently has been one of them, but I got back into seeing movies in more of my off time thanks to a now close friend of mine I met while working at the theater. He's been a bright spot in my life currently and helps me get by things a lot faster than what I normally can manage alone. Heck, I even started collecting movies on DVD, Blu-Ray, and even nabbing a couple 4K copies. It's getting me to explore more ideas than I could from reading.

But now since my finger is slowly beginning to heal up, I'm going to be pushing myself back into writing and take some time making the next story. I might also go ahead and write another short story for fun. Though, I do wish to ask something to those that read my stories: What do you think of my style so far? Any ideas for changes or improvements in my writing style? I'd like to hear your thoughts on this.

You read it right. I just came home from getting surgery on my left index finger to get an unknown round thing out from the joint of it. It's gonna be harder to respond to people for a while, but hopefully the recovery process is swift on me. Gaming will be harder as well, so this should be...interesting, to say the least.

Join me on Twitch as I begin the finale to PLA's story! I'm right before the final boss, but I plan to do something to give extra time for people to join. May switch things up later with Monster Hunter World to stream as well with a friend!

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I FINALLY wrote a new "Tales from Nasurah" story and will be posting it tomorrow before I go in for work. It's 28 pages long, longer than the story I made for Amber. I hope you're all ready for a probably confusing tale of a "Malroark" coming out to play~

It's been about a month on my end since the New Year began and has much changed? Well...not really, no. Things were starting off fine, but some things happened that ended up rocking a few things around me. Even some relations to others. I am trying to improve myself, but I am being tugged around in terms of what to do. I think the one thing I'm struggling with is being realistic on stuff. "How should I go about my day? I know! I can play a game and do this and that!" That's just naming a bare bones example, but I tend to try and tackle too much at once or not enough in other places. I honestly should consider seeing some sort of psychiatrist, to be frank about all this, as I feel like my thought pattern has been out of whack for a long time. I really don't know what to say or talk about most of my time these days, even writing this journal. It feels like I have a conflicting voice in me that goes either direction on so much and maybe it's about time I get it sorted out. Don't know when I will do it, but I hope to do it soon as I can. Sorry for this rambling journal. Just a ton has been invading my mind as of late.

A little late on this, but 2021 is FINALLY over and done with. It's good to be out of that hellish year I've endured. Then again, I wouldn't say it was a complete hell hole of a year, but some spots definitely felt that way to me. If I didn't have people to talk to online, and I'm being real with this, I very likely wouldn't be the same man I am today or...I'd probably not be here at all. There were points where I did have those thoughts, but I pushed on past it despite those coming up every once in a blue moon. Besides, I promised myself never to do it, but that's getting a bit too deep into my thoughts right there. What happened in 2021?

2021: Year in Review
January wasn't an easy start with crap going on with my step father, Chuck "the Fuck", as I personally call him in my head or chat about him with friends. I didn't sleep well going into New Years Day after mom woke me up to tell me how he planned to start charging me $300 a month if I didn't have plans to go to college or, get this, go to work. I later told him I was still going to college and that work hadn't reopened cause of you-know-what screwing up the whole world. So no rent charges there, but as the month was nearly over with, the man was massively pissed at me for not filling up a tire with air or for not knowing there was a hole in my tire. By the way, said tire was meant to be new and my parents took my car to a auto shop nearby to finally get me new tires for my car, so for him to be pissed at me for one of the tires already being flat is all on him, but he kept pushing this all on me. This made my weekend a nightmare as I dealt with him being extremely aggressive towards me, yelling at me often and to my mother. Even took out our wifi cause of his behavior. And at the end of the weekend, he comes back from work and is still pissed, but already cracked open a beer, having mom come get me to talk to him. How did that conversation go? Well, he belittles me for my behavior, including making them wait on New Years Eve for them to go celebrate at another bar, and furthermore on the tire situation. I felt extremely uncomfortable around him and couldn't say much to defend myself. I tried getting away, but then he rose my voice at me until it got to a question as I reached my bedroom door: "Why don't you go live with your dad?" I had many reasons, but I only got one out of my mouth - "He doesn't have wifi" - and then Chuck literally walks away from the staircase, saying out loud with his arms raised that I proved him right. And what happened next? I had a mental meltdown, kicked my own solid wood door to the point where it couldn't close right till it was fixed, and cried in my room. And then the asshole asks if I want a hug from him, but mom got both him and her out of my room. It took me 1-2 hours to calm down. The start of this year was complete shit and things weren't looking too great beyond that.

February to May, I had to deal with college and my job at the theater being reopened yet again. Given the amount of help an usher like me gets - which is hardly at all - it was a struggle to keep up with stuff on the job along with getting several tasks to do and much more than any other position on the job. And cleaning shows were a hassle since we had to spray seats, put new tape on them whenever to say they're either clean or not able to be used, and pick up garbage on top of all of it. But the worst part is that there would be only 1-2 ushers on at a time to do any of this for a good long while. This especially came ahead when June hit and Fast & Furious 9 came out. On one Tuesday, it was another usher and I cleaning shows after a new guy had a very short first shift. Because of it being only the two of us, it was hell to clean shows and no one offered help till it was 15 minutes before the 2 of us needed to leave...only to stay an hour longer and see how management fucked me over on next week's schedule. Because of that one shift alone, I grew tired of my job for a while and blew off 2 shifts straight. I tried finding a new job with what remained of summer, but no dice. But I was thankful I was able to cut back on how many days I worked once the new and final semester of college hit...but you all know how that went by now.

To be short, college this semester was a nightmare from how I had 2/3 classes be online, hard to follow in most places, and dealing with one teacher being lazy at her job. It was a ton of emotional baggage to carry throughout this semester, but it's over with. I need to wait for my diploma to come by the end of this Spring semester and I'll at least have an Associates of Arts. Something I neglected to mention were 2 critical events from this year that drastically affected me: The death of Angel and Grandpa Frank. Angel, my last childhood pet that lived at my dad's place, ended up slowly dying in his home and I was there to see it most of it happen. We were meant to get her to a vet, but she died in my dad's arms. As if it weren't bad enough, my Grandpa Frank had to go to the hospital during the year and was bed ridden after he stopped eating for a while. From summer to the very beginning of September, he hardly said anything nor could do anything but barely eat anything he was given. It wasn't until I was working a lone usher shift at my job on Sept. 5th that I was asked to come to the box office for a phone call from my older brother and mom that he passed away. I was able to leave work early and go see him one of two last times before he had his body taken away that same day. Days later, we had his funeral/wake and said our final goodbyes to him. I tell you all, he was one hell of a man. Despite being wheelchair bound, he still found something to do, even if he didn't have a ton of freedom at his age. I'll be missing these two for what they brought me in my life. But I believe that's enough negativity for this. I've went on for too long about the bad stuff, so lets talk about some positive stuff somewhat out of order.

Summer was the time that I got to hang out with a couple of my friends more as we went to a couple of museums - Illinois Railway Museum and Volo Auto Museum. Volo was by far my favorite for having a lot of vehicles used in movies, TV shows, and even from other places(Including Trump's dumb car. W H Y ?) The shop they had there stretched across 3 buildings and all had a wide assortment of items. One of which were Pokemon cards and I was impressed by what they had there. It felt like a treat to be there as I enjoyed my time with friends and the stuff on display. While the trains weren't that eye catching to me, other things were. Oh right, I did mention Pokemon cards. Despite this year being hard to find most of the TCG products, I've came across a lot of good cards in my time. And I even got to share that with my older sister, Jacquelyn. I gave her any cards I had already and even got her a small binder from one of the Celebrations boxes I managed to snag off of the Pokemon Center site. As to how my luck goes with opening packs, I feel mighty lucky given how many cards I managed to snag and fill up my binder with. I'm a guy that collects and enjoys the art in each card, not selling them. Or at least, not until I feel like I desperately need more funds for whatever reason, but I doubt that would happen. Currently taking a break from collecting cards given how much I spent in October and November on cards. Plus, after getting that Mythical Squishies box from my sister, I'd say my luck is tapped out for a while. And that box came from a special place I'd like to share with you all on.

December 17th's weekend was the time where I got to go my very first convention, which was an anime themed one. "Con-Alt-Delete", it was called. My sis said it was her and her friend's last time going cause of a guy that helps runs this thing not being very good, to say the very least, but who knows? Maybe that'll change. Anyways, I spent all weekend at the Hyatt Regency where I got to see plenty of amazing cosplayers, look at different panel events, and browse the vendors. The vendors made part of my experience worth it as I got so many good things from there including a stainless steel replica of Red Queen, Nero's weapon from DMC4/5(Though, it was the variant from 4 and not 5. Sad, but it's fine). I also got the Mythical Squishies box from one of the vendors and my sister said it was a gift from both her and her boyfriend, Jim. The cards I got were ridiculously lucky for me, so safe to say I was done with cards for the year. Other items I got were little figures, an aluminum poster, and other items made by artists. There was a section where artists could sell their work in various forms like stickers, posters, and much more. But one of the most memorable things from this was meeting a couple voice actors and getting two of my games signed by a couple of them, which are John Swasey and Quinton Flynn. I was nervous between seeing both of them, so you can imagine I didn't have much to say to them. After we left, though, we did go to an Asian market called "Mitsuwa". They had a lot of different foods from there - which I ate most of it when I got home - and had different items to sell. Movies, mangas, figures, figure sets, but the one item that caught my eyes was an adorable Mizutsune chibi plush. It now sits with my Lugia plush in my bedroom. Overall, this weekend was amazing and hope to go to another convention with my sister again.

Lastly, from all the good stuff this year, I tried many different games. Some from this year, but also older games as I either got them on PS5 or on my new pre-built PC. This was the year I got to finally experience PC gaming and it feels wonderful so far. I even got to dip my toes into a series I've heard about for years: Psychonauts. I ended up loving the game for how it's a platforming collect-athon and the writing it had, so you can imagine how I felt when I streamed Psychonauts 2 and loved that game even more than the original. It felt far more polished and less punishing in for finding a majority of collectables. Honestly, it gets my game of the year despite the actual award ceremony not given a single reward to this gem, WHAT THE FUCK, GAME AWA-...Sorry about that. Anyways, besides that game, I also played Ratchet & Clank: Rift Apart live on Twitch as well. That game was a load of fun to play through, but I do admit that the story could've been more fleshed out. I honestly love the world of R&C to bits and want to learn about their lore more, but unsure if we'll get a game that delves deeper into that anytime soon given Insomniac is busy with Spiderman and Wolverine, but a man can dream still. Besides that, the only other games I've touched are Metal Gear Rising Revengeance on my PC(Still have to finish 100%ing it eventually) and Pokemon BDSM...I mean BDSP(YEESH, they make those acronyms too close to one another). Not much to say on those games as of now, to be honest. But with this all being said...lets get into the real stuff I wish to share with you all about. And sorry for the walls of text, a ton happened this year.

What comes next?
With college about to be behind me, I aim to do several new things this year. First off, you all have noticed I've been writing stories here and there, yeah? I want to start pouring time into writing new Tales from/Slice of Nasurah stories for you all to read on my characters, see how they develop or what they tackle given their mindsets. I once remembered a time where I used RPs in a public community to tell my stories at a more blissful time, but I now want to write and actually show you what I see my characters doing. And with writing comes an idea I've had in the back of my head. Say I start doing story commissions, would any of you be interested in it? It's something I wish to experiment with, so I'd be doing some test comms first the chance I open stuff up. Likely going to limit this just to be safe and be sure that it can't be a very long story. I aim to make short stories, not long ones, for others. But this is something to try. I'm unsure how well this would go, so do let me know your thoughts on that.

Going more into my gaming life, I've successfully bought an Xbox Series X! This means I have 4 platforms to play on: Switch, PC, PS5, and Xbox. But likely going to sack my PS+ subscription given that I hardly play games on there with others. But besides that, I want to play more games with people this year and have more fun, unwind and care less about winning or losing. I've had a nasty habit with most competitive games where I get angry or frustrated to where stuff goes south. I aim to change that about myself as this year goes, but I also want to attempt to clear up any old games I've yet to finish in my time. This does mean buying less games, by the way, so don't expect me to nab every game out there to play, but I am willing to play games I already have like Monster Hunter World: Iceborne(Xbox & PC) and even Rise(Switch only right now). Ask me about what games I play and I can see what to do on that. Yes, I play Destiny 2 and even the big game of them all: Fortshite.

Another thing I aim to change is my job. Ushering at a theater has taken its toll on me and the recent vaccine mandate has screwed a lot of people out of working here, so we're left with fewer workers and open for less hours. Not to mention people are gradually leaving this place over time and after more than 2 years, I think this is my time to leave too. I plan to revise my resume and go job hunting while continuing my work at the theater. Much as I'd like to outright quit, mom is having me save money to pay for my car insurance coming up in February. Plus, I need money to survive these days anyhow. Lets hope this next job I get is a good enough improvement from my old job to stay at the new one.

And finally, the one thing I want to do is talk more with this community I'm in. Actually interact more with my friends and new face I come across. I hardly do that as is with how hectic my schedule gets, but I want to start growing a presence more than ever. That and to make some new connections with others. Most may not believe it, but I tend to get my help through hard times through talking to people. To me, the more people to talk to, the better as it provides different types of feedback for me on a variety of things. Without the help I have today, as I said, I wouldn't be here.

So to all my friends throughout the year of 2021 and beyond or before, thank you. THANK. YOU. For helping me push through 2021. I have a ton of people to thank, so I will list off whoever comes into mind. Matt, Solar, Emerald, Mike, Apollo, Carl, Light, DarkTails, Luca, Eli, Aureolus, Ikun, Illusionfoxx, Lorenzo, Maxi, Spirit, Lorisider, Sierra, Lorejuniper, Xevee, Shiny, Equinerhael, and Dani. That is everyone I could remember, so sorry if I did miss you being mentioned, but do know that you're still appreciated for your time with me in the past year. Lets make 2022 our bitch and make it a better year than 2020 NG+, shall we? I hope to all the readers out there that got this far to stay tuned on stuff as I plan to push into this year doing more than I have in a long while. For now...that's all. So ciao for now!

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays from the friendly Reinoch and Santa Phox!

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An idea dawned on me and for those that aren't on Twitter, I'll tell you all here about my idea first. I have a few images backlogged on my end after months of not posting them and while posting all of them in a day may work, it would take away the focus of one of the images. Then, a lightbulb lit up and I got an idea.

Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to my 11 Days of Fat-Mas! From today till Christmas Eve, I'll be posting one of the images I haven't gotten to post till now! Some will include friends such as  CrowRed that you saw recently. That and I plan to give a bit more time on the description to flesh things out to the relates image. Hope you all like a lot of fat and vore related stuff, cause that's where this is all heading! Oh, and one more thing? I plan to get out the epilogue short story of "Responsible Awakening" this week. Unsure how many pages it'll be, so stay tuned! For now...

So tomorrow is the last day I can work on a project from Social Psychology, BUT that means I'm about done with college. And to be honest, I'm glad to be this close to being done. Today and tomorrow, I plan to put a lot of work into finishing off this semester and hoping to have high enough grades to pass. I didn't do so well this semester in a class or 2 out of the 3 taken, which should be obvious to any of my friends I've told this to already. However, I really should be thanking them and everyone else whose helped me get by this semester. I don't have a list of who to thank just yet, but it relieves me to know that people are out there to help a man like me out. And for that, you have my thanks.

I don't have a definitive plan just yet on what's gonna happen going into the future, but you bet I'll be trying my best to write more stories. And some that I want to be more serious on. Lets hope I don't come off as edgy or anything with going along a much more serious plot, should that come up. I want to at least toss some things in there that gets the reader to enjoy the tale more. Anyways, that's all I got today.

To all the biggins out there, hope you all have a Happy Stuffing Day and enjoy it with family and friends alike! I'll be out for the day, so responses will be infrequent from me. Have a good one!