Hello again, it's me. I'm back on the website now.

Alright, let me get into what I've been up to.

Artistic side, I've been on-off working on a couple pieces. Right now I'm getting done a multi-version piece of a Serperior. One where it's just sort of existing, one with a pregnancy-implied belly, and one with a very large, vore-implied belly. The Serperior has a smug look on its face, reminiscent of a certain Latias I was previously acquainted with. I've also finished the linework for the piece of Munch drumming on his belly, however I was dissuaded personally from working on it further due to personal reasons I won't really get into. The piece I intend to make for  barn-flakes (or I guess, not really for him since I don't know him personally, but it's a piece of fan-art like the Umbreon (her name's Lulu, but in that original flash game she didn't have a name yet). I dunno really, social stuff is still kind of weird for me, so I want to do it but also not have it be like, a parasocial relationship, as I've followed his art and animations for a long time, but haven't interacted with him before he commented on the piece) isn't in the works yet, but I still have the concept in my head.

Personal matters. Still depressed, shocker. However, I'm going to be doing another wave of TMS (trans-cranial magnetic stimulation) with another office. I was booted from my previous spravato clinic because the insurance decided they didn't cover that office anymore. Fortunately for me, I was only missing a single appointment. However, that meant that it probably wasn't worth going through all the steps to get another clinic set up with me, just for a single appointment, and the person I talked to agreed that wasn't a good idea, and neither was me going for another full set, but offered TMS instead, which I took. Hopefully, it'll help me.

I don't want to be depressed, I want to get better, and be a better man. For myself, for those I know, for those I knew who still see me struggle, and for those I'll meet.

I think that's all I can really say right now. To anyone happening across this, take care of yourself. I believe that you can do great things. Hopefully that can help in some way, as little as it may.

Yours truly, Artian Set S Arty

I'm taking a break from being on here for personal reasons, and I'm sticking to it. I will still be on the site on the basic functions of checking my notes. However, I will not be favoriting anything or posting artwork. I will be still trying to make artwork in the background while this hiatus goes on. I don't have a time frame, but expect at least a month. Sorry.

Been nearly a month since last update. Let's start with the basics.

Still no true effort is being put into actual art projects. I haven't been motivated still. I still have the plans of what I'm going to do when I do eventually regain it however. Here's the list again: Munch from Tribal Hunter belly drumming, a piece of preg Poke-gal fanart for  barn-flakes, possibly creating a full character concept for "Something5", with preg alt for obvious reasons, and some kind of Poke-vore. Those are the main things on my to-do list. Intermittent pieces may come out inbetween them as motivation strikes.

My own personal situation has not changed, bar for the fact that the hotel's elevator is out of service, and we're on the 4th and highest floor in the building. Every time both me and my mother leave the room at the same time, we take valuables with us, which means I have to lug down a heavy backpack containing my laptop, headphones, laptop stand, drawing tablet box, nintendo switch, and laptop cables, a bag with a furry art guidebook, regular book, mini keyboard I shouldn't have bought and never use, and my Munch plush, and a bag containing my switch accessories and meta quest. Then, when coming back, lug it up said 4 flights of stairs. It's quite combursome.

Getting through it. I had a rough week last week. However, I'm still trying my best, even if my best isn't enough.

Hope everyone who sees this has had a good new year so far.

Yours truly, Artian Set S Arty

To cut things short, I ended up self harming on Christmas. In front of both parents. While telling my father to leave the hotel room.

It was bad.

Hope everyone's Christmas was better than mine. I belong in a mental institution.

Lately, doing artwork hasn't satisfied me, for a myriad of reasons, but the main ones being that I've not found the effort enjoyable, for a product I don't consider being that great, presented to an audience of little to none. So, I've decided that for a while, I'm going to be taking a break from doing digital artwork.

I understand that even among the around 12 people who follow me, only a couple will even see this, and aren't likely to really be affected that much anyway. When I get proper back into artwork, I want to make artwork that makes me happy firstly, while also trying to cater to my belly-fond audience.

Here's what's slated for sure when I do get my act back together. Munch from Tribal Hunter drumming on his big round belly like a tanuki, and a proper attempt at realizing a vore-themed protogen I've had in the back of my head as a concept for ages. I may also just try my hand at smaller, lower-quality pieces meant to be nothing more than filler, like various Pokemon in vorey situations, or other concepts I've had in my head which again, pertain to my interests firstly and fore mostly, a couple of the ideas involving my fondness for pregnancy. I know there's not always an overlap between the communities of various belly lovers, purists are to be expected and I understand if what I do isn't taken as warmly as others. Point is: I want my own happiness to come first, as with the depression I've been dealing with, finding joy in things has to take priority.

I'll also use this as a bit of a Christmas update as well; I'll still be spending it in a hotel room away from my disheveled house. I had planned to make a Christmas-themed piece, but the way it was turning out seriously made me question whether or not I was still fit for digital art. I hope everyone has a merry Christmas and happy holidays regardless of the fact mine's a bit dreary.

I've been improving as a person, but I've had lapses which have caused me to revert to unfortunate self-destructive behaviors. I'm not like I used to be with friends, fortunately enough, where I lash out and take my pent-up self-hatred out on them. I'm always looking for new friends as honestly, I feel quite lonely a lot of the time. However, that's not my choice as me reaching out to new people is scary for me, and generally a lot of whittling away at my innate barriers has to be done before someone can come to truly enjoy being friends with me. It's happened, though. I've been told by a fair number of people that I am a nice person, and I guess I can believe it despite wanting to disregard all positive remarks about myself. I've hurt people in my past, and I regret it every day, I wish bonds could be reforged and repaired, but that's not possible all the time. Sometimes people just don't want to be around you anymore. As a social recluse for the majority of my life, having that information explode into my worldview caused me an immense amount of stress when it happened to me. I'm in an unfortunate sense of denial, but I'm desperately trying to move past things as much as possible, trying to understand that not everything can be fixed. Due to my nature though, if I feel something can be repaired, I'm going to seek to try, but if the answer turns out to be no, then I think I can take it in better stride that I just aren't welcome in that person's life anymore.

TL;DR: I'm taking a break from doing artwork for a while, and also seeking improvement on my mental health and the way I interact with others.

Yours truly, Artian Set S Arty

Wow. Been nearly a month since that last update. Well, let me see what I have to say.
Commissions state is still closed. I'm still in the hotel. Progress on getting stuff out of the house is so incredibly slow it's not even worth mentioning. Half the days we don't even do anything with it because my mom's too tired after work to get things done before she comes back to the hotel room. I've not really been able to keep up with artwork that well, but I'm trying to. The Munch belly drum piece has only recently been started back up. I'm making progress, but it's slow and intermittent.

The mental state of affairs. Well, I'm a lot better than I was many months ago, but still depressed, but I've been far better in terms of actually managing to be good friends with the few people I know. Just wish it were a little bigger. I'm trying my best to improve, for everyone's sake including my own.
My esketamine therapy has been going well, the staff are nice and know me well, plus one even knows what my Munch plush is! That was awesome when I brought him in as my "comfort item" the first time, and I've been bringing him in ever since. It's nice to relax for a bit, and I've noticed that I've been less anxious and depressed than I was before I was on it, I'm on the tail-end of the treatment, once a week now instead of twice. Plus I think just being more active and open with my few friends has been helping me not feel isolated. Regular therapy is going alright, but I wish it wasn't bi-weekly, but I can't change that so just have to accept it.

I'm getting help, I'm getting better, slowly and with unfortunate hiccups, but it's a long road. I'm always open to meeting new people, just keep in mind that I am socially reclusive. But I've generally been seen by most people as being nice. Well, anyway, I think that's all for now. Art when there's art, and nothin' when there's nothin'. Hope everyone who reads this has a good thanksgiving if you celebrate, otherwise good days all around, and I'll be here.

Yours truly, Artian Set S, Arty

Hi. The piece I was working on to get out on Halloween may very well be not happening. Despite having worked on it for over a month, and it near completion, I am not sure my mental state will allow me to even be able to finish it tomorrow to be posted in time for the holiday. All it needs is shading on the second version's arms. I was too upset to do them yesterday, and today I was in a loose coma plagued by nightmares from said upset state. There is a high enough chance that my mood with prevent me from doing this piece on time. To the zero who care, I make this post. More about a way to prove to myself that even when I put a lot of effoet into something, I mess it up anyway. It'll either show up Halloween or not at all. Thanks. At least a crowd of nobody can't boo me.
Yours truly, disheveled ArtianS. Arti



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i ifnished it

I'll make this short.

My house flooded and we've been displaced until further notice. Moving everything that we can out has been difficult and mentally taxing. Constantly moving in and out of a hotel room, the ripped apart house and storage facility has been mentally and physically taxing. It's possible for me to continue artwork, but I haven't been able to physically or mentally in the past 5 days.

I'm exhausted.

So, not that anyone cared to begin with, commissions are closed, and artwork is going to be sparse if even done at all.


[October 15, 2024 Update]

Asbestos was found in my house, which further delays the time it'll take for me to get back. Estimated time is... two months. I... don't even really know what to think of that anymore. I have been able to somewhat keep up with doing artwork using my laptop, but it's been very rough for me mentally. I plan to get a piece done for halloween. I swear I will.

[October 31, 2024 Update]

The insurance covers very little, but that battle is finally over. Getting a professional removal service would cost too much, somewhere to the tune of 20k. So, after a new water heater is installed by my dad, it's going to be up to us to move/trash everything from the house we haven't deemed important enough to go straight to a storage unit. We're going to have to get an on-site storage unit like a Big Box in order to make it easier on us. There's no set plan for how things will go. Oh, and the insurance isn't paying for the hotel stay, or basically anything. But we got what we could and that's what matters.
Regarding artwork, commissions are obviously still closed. The stress of making a piece under a time limit, even when it was an entire month, hurt me mentally a lot, so I will be taking however long of a break I need from attempting artwork. My next piece I have planned is of Munch from Tribal Hunter drumming on his belly like a tanuki. I believe it'll be a nice, simple and fun piece.

I'll make this short.

My house flooded and we've been displaced until further notice. Moving everything that we can out has been difficult and mentally taxing. Constantly moving in and out of a hotel room, the ripped apart house and storage facility has been mentally and physically taxing. It's possible for me to continue artwork, but I haven't been able to physically or mentally in the past 5 days.

I'm exhausted.

So, not that anyone cared to begin with, commissions are closed, and artwork is going to be sparse if even done at all.

I'm returning to this site, albeit cautiously. I will not be very active in maintaining my presence, but I have no better avenue to post my more specialized artwork. I've just got to tread carefully. My road to recovery is very rocky, but I've made serious improvements recently. All in part thanks to good friends who help me pick myself up.

Expect posts tomorrow! Yes, an exclamation point out of excitement! It'll for sure satisfy the few belly lovers I've managed to pick up along the way. Sadly, the art you came for is no longer here due to internal complications regarding who they were for and depicted, and depending on the future will never see the light of day again, but don't fret, I'm still the belly-loving proot I've always been. Sorry though if tomorrow's isn't to your liking, it's not vore, it's pregnancy. To me, a belly's a belly.

All in good faith though, I wish that those who've been waiting (if you even exist honestly...) have been doing well. And to all who stumble upon this message, may good fortune rain upon you.

ArtianS, signing out.

I cannot work on any art. My mental state is in shambles. Not that anyone cares. Nobody cared about my art when I made it, I saw it clear as day. The few who did learned who I was and threw me aside like the trash I am.

Plain and simple, I'm not doing well mentally due to having been forcefully removed as the friend of a person I consider to be the best friend I've ever had.

It speaks upon my failures of a friend, and the fact this has happened before with others I considered my friends within these last 4 years of my depression, have made me come to rethink whether or not I am actually able to be friends with people.

I've never had many friends growing up, and got used to it. My eyes were opened with friendship, and I strove to be the best friend I could be. However, my issues kept making me stumble. Hurt my friends. And they've decided, multiple times through my life on different occasions, that I simply, inexplicably, was not worth it.

Now I see it for myself. I'm being taught that I'm not a good friend. I'm a manipulator. Regardless of how kind I am and how 'fun' it can be to know me, I'll still end up having an uncontrollable mental episode, which clouds my judgement heavily, makes me act out aggressively, and then within the span of a few days, return to my previous state. That is unacceptable.

I am unacceptable.

Ships sail.

After some trials regarding my mental health, I've (who'd have guessed it) decided to make a return to the site.
I won't be super active, but I'll post my art every so often, whenever I make it.

Nobody cares. It was foolish of me anybody would. So they're closed now. Thanks for nothing. Well, I guess thanks for reminding me that I'm a worthless piece of shit.

Not like I'll get any, but for whatever it's worth, I'm open to doing a maximum of three unshaded commission slots.

For $15 dollars you can get a piece of your (or someone else's) character doing whatever. Yes, that includes vore, inflation, or generally any other belly shenanigans.

Rules are that more complicated elements are not allowed, such as background detailing (I am absolutely abhorrent with backgrounds), vehicles, or overly complex accessories/equipment (such as intricacies with firearms or technology).

It will also be suggestive at best. Nothing NSFW, or inherently, overtly sexual in nature. If your request is not something I am comfortable drawing, to which the list is too varied to type and frankly I'd like to do it case-by-case, I will inform you professionally that I am not willing to do that kind of artwork, and ask we go on our separate ways.

This will be of a singular character, though I am willing to add another for an added $10. Sounds steep I know, but art can put a lot of stress on me, and while I have forayed into multiple characters at once before, every time it was an ordeal in one way or another. I still don't think the price I've decided to set is outrageous, but if you disagree, then don't buy it.

Inquire through a message sent directly to me to get information of how the payment works, I'm new to this so be patient. It will be through PayPal direct payment, and I'll provide info at the time of commission.

Payment will be upfront. I cannot guarantee an exact window of when to expect it completed, but I will set myself to work on it exclusively.

This will be edited when slots are taken.

SLOT 1: closed.
SLOT 2: closed.
SLOT 3: closed.

The title is basically all there is to it, I'm a horrible person.

I'm re-uploading deleted items, so forgive notifications being bombed. They aren't new creations.

For the time being, I will be not interacting with this site at all. Not looking at submissions, favorites, profiles, comments, or anything. I will stay away from this site period.

This is a declaration made to an empty auditorium. However, should somebody wander into it, they will at least see the sign on the podium stating such information.

Goodbye, good luck, best wishes, take care.

-J

Regardless of whether or not anyone affected sees this, I would like to make it be known that I resent my actions taken upon said others affected.

It was wrong, and I should not have done it. However, I did. I could give reasons as to why, but I feel those would be just deflections upon what truly matters; the fact they did happen.

Reasons or not, it was wrong. I have been seeking and will continue to seek help regarding my behavioral issues, but I am not using the fact I am trying to get better to remove the impact of what I have done. I do not expect a return to normalcy, or to be viewed the same by others. The reactions given are justified.

Do not forgive me, I did wrong.

I know this will fall upon blind eyes, but I will be taking an undetermined break from doing artwork. At the time of writing, it's been around 9 days since I last worked on anything creatively.

I know nobody cares, those who see this probably will stumble upon it by chance and move past it without a second thought. "Oh, some random artist isn't going to post anything for a while." isn't exactly big news.

Well, I guess I'll be back when I am, whenever that is. Not that it matters.

I've demonstrated multiple times over that I'm a horrible friend. It's due to my depression, but also due to the fact I was born broken. Does that make it my fault? Of course it does, because despite the fact they aren't things I can control, they are still things I cause.

I know you will see this. You know who you are. I'm upset at you because you just kick me and my issues down the road every time they're so much as suggested. "Time will fix it" is not something which is true. Time will not fix me. I am broken the way I am, I have been broken my whole life. I get you want to avoid situations that may be uncomfortable to you, but that means me. I am an uncomfortable situation. So whenever you use that excuse of "give it some time" and choose to ignore it, but then say things like "I'm here for you" well, yeah it kind of makes me upset. So good job.

I wasn't born with happiness in my future. You have no idea how I live. The terrible situation I call my everyday. So to see you just casually enjoying your life, and to treat me like I'm in your same position, it just breaks me even further. I do not have friends, I cannot play games, I can't talk casually. If you really still want to be friends with me, drop your mask and confront the issues that are me head on, instead of trying to turn away until I wear myself out flailing into the darkness.

Or don't, and perpetuate the cycle. Whatever you want I guess.

Hello to all 3 of you who know me! I've decided that in the coming months, I may open up commissions!

Now, this is still up in the air, so don't immediately set aside a reserve for my commissions, but if you are interested, just keep an eye out. I will inform and display if/when they become available.

As for the nature of it being rather undecided, that means I haven't decided quite yet on prices, either. A rough, on-the-fly estimate would be something hovering around the $25-$40 range. Additional costs for complexity of course, as well as based on what specifically is asked. Again, this is an ESTIMATE price for a HYPOTHETICAL commission in the future.

That all being said, it's not that I need the money, but rather would like to see others happy by having their ideas come to life by my hand. But, I would want to be compensated for my time as drawing is time-consuming and takes effort.

If I do end up doing commissions, I bet I won't get very many (if any) clients, but I still want the option to be available should it arise.

Arti, my fursona, has been officially killed off in-universe by an unknown assailant. His screen was smashed.

However, we can rebuild him. We have the technology. This isn't his first foray in death. He will be brought back, with a new design befitting his third incarnation.

With blackjack! And hookers!

I'd say it's a happy new year, but it's not.

I wish everyone (all zero of you who see this) as best a new year to come as possible. Don't bother wishing for me.

I have decided to distance myself socially due to myself being a danger to myself and other's mental health.

However, I saw one of my friends somewhere, and while it was a small, brief and what should've been otherwise commonplace sighting, it filled me with sadness, and I almost cried. (Big deal for me due to asperger's)

I don't know what to do. I think I miss them, but at the same time I don't want to hurt them. I've chosen a distance period of a month.