What if I'm not truly meant to be an artist. What if I've been wasting all my time trying to get better at something I'll never be truly good at. What I've been spending a majority of my life pursuing the wrong career, taking the wrong classes and just generally making all the wrong choices. I just feel like I'm not getting any better and its all just pointless. I just know what to do anymore. Part of me wants to keep going with my art, but the realist part of me realizes that I'll probably never go anywhere with it, end up penniless and destitute and a burden on others. I just don't know what to do.

Its...

777

So yeah, that kinda awesome. Now I can instantly do 777 damage to anyone I fight with >3

~This random journal was brought to you by the letter 7~

YOU JUST WOKE UP NAKED IN BED NEXT TO ME...

While using only three words, what would you say if this were to happen?

Note: If you comment, please copy and paste this as your journal, so I may comment on yours as well.

(Sorry. I'm bored and was reading through old journals on old accounts X3 )

Yes, I am finally going to start being active again 'w'

I finally got a lot of major stuff done, like failing my driver's test (Y_Y) and all my exams and crap. I have a lot work I still owe people and a lot of personal stuff I wanna work on. Also, I gotta work on my college porfolio, so that another thing. Either way, I pormise to be more active, starting with an art avalanche right....NOW!

Edit: Turns out a bunch of my pics are too big, and I can't shrink them while at the library, so that avalanche will be moved to Saturday.

Heya peoples, long time no see. Some of you might be suprised that I am, in fact, still alive. I've been super busy with school stuff and I haven't had time for art, or sleep. But now, with my Tennis season ending and some of my more major exams out of the way, I'll be able to work on art and stuff. Now, so that I actually remember to do this, I'm making a list of art I owe that will stare me down till I get it done.

-request for  nero9295
-trade for  buffaluffalo
-trade for  lucieth
-pic for  tehweenus
-request for  fionagrace
-request for  corro7
-Kiriban for  darkverose
-request for  dominekoyasha
-request for  dragonfurry123
-finish my personal art that has been piling up
-if I've forgotten something, please tell.

Articus out!

After much consideration, I've decided to discontinue my offering of vore drawing by request.

It has come to my attention that, a lot of my newer watchers have been attracted to my vore drawings, and that a number of my more recent favorites, with several obvious exceptions, have been of my vore art. Since I do not wish to be known for drawing vore, I will no longer be drawing. I might retract this once I become more established as an artist, but until further notice, I will take no new vore requests.

For those people who have asked for vore related requests, I will fulfill my obligations to you and finish your requests.

~This has been a public Tigulf Message

Okay, let start by apologizing for neglecting these journals. I've been distracted with homework stuffs as well as having musical rehearsal everyday for the past month till 6 o'clock every weekday. All in all, I've been pretty strapped for any good journal topics XP

But, today I do have a good topic; music.

Now here is something almost everyone can relate to 'w' So, I'm asking you guys to tell me all about your favorite kinds of music, favorite songs and stuff like that. Okay, so...

Favorite genres?

Current Favorite musician/bands?

Current Favorite song?

Current Favorite music video?

Strangest music video you've ever seen?

Your Current Favorite Band that no one knows about?

If you became a singer and took on a stage name, what would it be?

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For those who care, here are my answers.


Favorite genres? indy, pop, barogue pop, alternative, rock, glee, punk etc, etc...

Current Favorite musician/bands? Florence + The Machine, Panic! at the Disco, fun., Christina Perri, The Brobecks, Sex Bob-ombs, The Clash at Demonhead, P!nk, Lady Ga Ga, and a whole heck a lot more

Current Favorite song? The Gambler by fun.



Current Favorite music video? currently its...Won't Give Up (Lyric video) by Jason Mraz



Strangest music video you've ever seen? Florence+The Machine's viedo for Dogs Days are Over. Awesome video, but totally out there >w<



Your Current Favorite Band that no one knows about? The Brobecks



If you became a singer and took on a stage name, what would it be? Full Metal Articus (My real name is hardly interesting enough for a rock star X3)

Now now, before you get your pickforks and torch, hear me out.

I have the week off, and I would have been working on art; but I had to watch my dogs while my madre ran some errands. So, as it was a weekday, I flipped through a bunch of boring tv shows. I finally settled on one show.

My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic

I watched a couple of episodes, and I can say that they weren't all that bad. Now, I'm not about to draw ponies constantly; though I may draw an anthro Applejack. That said, I can now see where people would like this show. It was kinda fun to watch an animated show that wasn't stupid funny (ie a lot of CartoonNetwork's new stuff) Its not that I didlike stupid funny stuff, but you can have too much of a good thing. Anyway, I'm just say that I kind liked the show and might watch it again.

TTFN, Ta Ta For Now

~Articus

No, that is not a mock title, this journal is actually gonna talk about giant boobs, and hyper in general.

Okay, so this journal comes from a question I've been wondering on for a while

What's attractive about giant boobs?

Even when I believed myself to be straight, I never understood the appeal of giant boobs, or any other overtly large body parts of a certain nature. I mean, what's the appeal? I mean, I have nothing against people who do enjoy hyper, but I'd like to know how it appeals to people. So, if any of my watcher can help me with this, I'd glad be open to any discussion ^w^

Yes, today I'm making an official statement.

AS of last night, the person known as  silverpalth is now my official furry godfather. Until stated otherwise, I hold this statement to be true and established by the powers of the Universe.

That is All.








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Seriously, there's nothing more. Go, go home. Well, comment then go home, and don't leave any rubbish behind. We can't have rampant rubbish, its indecent.

Heya furry peoples, its my BIRTHDAY!!!

Yep, I'm now old enough to get a license in the Empire state. So, you best stay off the means streets of the west half of the NY.

I had school today, which of course meant that I was repeated wished a happy birthday, even sung to a few times.

Also...I got some gifts. I got
-a large bag of swedish fish
-a brown paper bag filled with candy canes
-a cute little valentine card
-thanks for giving people little bags of Fun Dip ©
-a tiny little Transformers valentine
-more candy
-hugs and stuff
-I may also get the Legend of Zelda: Skyward Sword box set.

BUT, not be content with getting things I decided to spend most of my day giving out candy and "Happy Valentine's Day"

Now that I've about myself so much, I wanna know you guys did. Any and everything please and thank you ^w^

I'm feeling in an inexplicable romancy mood at the moment, so I decided ask you guys about...

<3 Le Romance <3

Okay, so...

What is the most romantic thing you would like to happen to you? Why?

What is the most romantic thing you have ever done?

What is your dream date? Why?

What is your favorite song about love?

What is your favorite romantic movie? Why?

What is best way to let someone know you like them?

On a scale of disbeliever to hopeless romantic, where would you place yourself?

My 200th Watcher!

Yes,  darkverose is my 200th watcher, and will be given a free request in gratitude.

Oh my gosh, I never thought I'd get 200 watchers, especially since the last time I got close, two watchers dropped off. I'm so happy right now, you have no idea at all.

I'm just gonna bask in this happiness for a moment -w-

TTFN, Ta Ta For Now

Okay, today's issue is a bit of a questionaire. I want to get you people's opinion on how I can possibly improve my art, gain more watchers, and general questions like that. I know its all been done before, but not by me really, so here we go.

Art
-What about my art appeals most to you?

-What about my art appeals least to you?

-What do think I need to work on most?

-Are there any subjects you'd like me to do?

-What advice would you give me on my art as a whole?

-What is your favorite piece by and why?

Popularity

-In your opinion, what subject manners could I do to appeal to a wider fanbase?

-What type of journals could I post to appeal to a larger fanbase?

-How should post art to reach a larger fanbase?

-Should I try and ask people to advertise me to help get my name out there?

So, I recently got Matilda (One of my all time favorite old time movies 'w') on DVD and I was checking out all the special features. There were extremely dated and some of them wer definitely aimed for little kids. I did however, end up enjoying the one game. It had all these test with silly questions. The first two were excessively simple, but the last one had all these questions with funly obvious answers. Like, they made total sense, but could definitely trick those who are speeding through them. SO, I decided it'd be fun to post them up here and see if any of you can get them all right on the first try.

1)Which is heavier, a pound of bricks or a pound of feathers?
-the bricks
-the feathers
-they weigh the same
-there's no way to tell

2)A farmer had 15 sheep, all but 8 died. How many are still alive?
-0
-7
-8
-15

3)What is the human body's largest organ?
-the lungs
-the brians
-the skin
-the heart

4)You have 6 black socks and 6 white socks. With your eyes closed, how many socks would you have to grab to grab one matching pair?
-2
-3
-4
-7

5)Which of these is not a continent
-the Artic
-Antartica
-Australia
-Asia

6)How much dirt is in a hole that is 1 footx1 footx1 foot
-0 cubic feet
-1 cubic foot
-2 cubic feet
-3 cubic feet

7)If there are 5 apples and you take away 2, how many do you have?
-0
-2
-3
-5

8)Joe built a square house. If all side of his house face south, where did he build his house?
-At the South Pole
-On the Moon
-On Mount Everest
-On the North Pole

9)Sally's Mom has three kids. The first one's name is "One" The second one's name is "Two" What is the third kid's name?
-three
-zero
-there's no way to know
-Sally

10)Which one of these numbers is eleven thousand, eleven hundred?
-11,100
-12,100
-11,110
-10,110

Anyone who can get them all gets a suprise 'w'

TTFN, Ta Ta For Now 'w'

Today's edition is going to cover what few real fetishes I confess to having. Let it be known that this gonna be a journal thats like "blah sex sex sex blah" I'm just gonna say what fetishes I enjoy seeing in clean art and my opinions on them in general. It should also be noted that most all of these are 99.99% constricted to the fandom, adn that I really don't exihibit them outside of it.

So now, in order of appearance, my fetishes.

My first fetish, an the one that really got me into the furry fandom is...

Vore
This one I blame on old-school cartoons. Seriously, they are just filled with it. Anyway, yeah, I'm into vore. I'm not SO into it, however, that I fave any and all vore I see. I demand a certain degree of artistic talents in a vore picture or story. Also, I have certain things that attract me in vore. I enjoy unwilling, same size vore with male preds and bulgy bellies. My favorite pred types are horses, boars, and bulls. Theoretically, if I were to be in a vore image, which I am saving till I find a specific pred and artist combo that truly and utter appeals to me, I'd most definitely be the prey of it. This probably relates to my somewhat submissive nature.

Okay, next is...

Muscles
This one is seperated between furry life and real life. In the furry department, I'm definitely in to the well muscled type. At the same time, I find that I can only enjoy so much beef. Like, I'm not really into SUPER hyper muscle types. Its just to ridiculous for my tastes. By far though, the best kind of muscles for me are the lean kind. Just enough to be noticable, but so much that its in the extreme end. That last part is what most applies to mytastes in real life. In real life, extremely muscled people just kinda creep me out. I mean, I have nothing against them, I just would date someone that huge. Another thing is that I personally wouldn't want to be overly muscled either. I'd like to have a decent set of lean muscles.

Now, the final true kink that I enjoy is
Bondage
Now, let me specify. I'm into one specific variety of bondage, for its mere aesthetic qualities only. Leather bondage gear, for whatever reasons is extremely appealing to me. Its not even so much the fetish itself, but just the associated gear that appeals to me. I mean, it appeals to somewhat from my mildly submisive personality, I guess; but its mainly black leather bondage gear that I like.

So, those are my "fetishes" as they stand. Hope you had fun reading this.

TTFN, Ta Ta For Now
~Articus

I've decided to try to a journal a day.

I've decided, in order to get to know people better, as well them getting to know, I'm going to do a fun, personal, or poll journal everyday that I am on FA. So here's the first one, the First of the Tigulf Times reports.

My Birthday

Its nest month, on the Fourteenth. Which means I am a Valentine baby. A fact that tends to be extremely ironic. I am notoriously horrible at being romantic if I like someone. Usually, I avoid them and admire from afar OR try an overtly direct approach. Then again, I could also cite my lack of success in relationship from the fact that I was unknowingly in the close the whole time, but eh.

Anyway, just thought I'd mention it to me friend in case they want to give certain...things. Gifts perhaps *whistles innocently* 939

Nah, you guys don't have draw me anything if you don't want to. As much as I'd like it, I'm not gonna be one of those people who expects his friends to have nothing better to do than give me things ;3

Ta Ta For Now!
~Articus

I'm overcome with a desire to draw magical girls now...

Then head on over to  myuu_mitsu's journal and stake your claim

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3121596/

Yes, I'm looking for a pen pal. Why, you may ask. Well, for no particular reason what so ever, I've been overcome with the inexplicable desire for mail. Don't really know where its coming from, but its there.

So, what I'm looking is as follows.

I am looking for someone who I know to some moderate degree (no total stranger) to exchange written correspondance with. I'll aceept at most two, and its not first come first serve. Just apply by answers the following.

Why would you like to be my pen pal.

Extra points for good reasons 'w'

Okay, we're firing the guy in title making department, but I felt I should update a little.

Okay, art. I was working on a bunch this week, but stuff came up. I had to have my wisdom teeth removed so that took up a couple of days. Also, my family and I went to the Trans Siberian Orchestra with some neighbors, which was mind blowingly awesome. ANYWAY, I'm writing a list to keep myself reminded of things I MUST do.

Okay, here goes
-request for Nero
-request for RMPSI
-trade for Raichul
-trade for Xantuoke
-Finish halfway finished pieces
-gift art for peoples and stuff
-write story for myself and stuff

Okay, that SHOULD, be all of it, and if I owe you something PLEASE speak up. I'm prone to forgetfulness.

Now, a second. I need to start being more social. I want to be able to have fun conversations with people. So, I'm goon do no hold barred ask me stuff thing. I will answer any and all questions with 99.999999% honesty, unless I find them to be invade my personal privacy (like asking where I live or something extremely like that) otherwise, ask me questions....or else *dun dun DUN*

And if you have questions, well for now stow 'em

I woke this morning at a quarter past six.
I did not wake my familty, lest they beat me with sticks
I fell back asleep wrapped most snuggly
In a tiger comforter that is far from ugly
I rose again at a quarter to eight
Then I had to wait wait wait
When eight o'clock rang
From my bed I sprang
Dressed in yesterday's clothes, not caring for looks
I got up my folks on the hour, by the book
My camera was used for documentian
Of this most joyous Christmas day celebration
Though not of my list, my gifts were enjoyed
And shortly there after, quickly employed
Numerous DVD's of all different types
Adele's Cd, man she's got some nice pipes
Okami for Wii
Or should I say for me
Five pounds of fish, of the swedish variety
And a shiny new camera, straight here from Sony
A new Mp3 to replace the one washed
Eight gigbytes, oh my good gosh
Now for the food
Which was tasty and good
breakfast of bacon and pancakes, truly devine
That later, lunch/dinner in a house so fine
It would come to an end with trip to net
To tell my friends of what I did get
Now we've come full circle, a complete rotation
Finely expressed with products of my education
I leave you for now, to work on works of art
The first of which is satirical at heart
a poke at an journal by
BnG, wow what a guy
The rest are personal or present
to late for the holiday that many resent
Of other, I still have yet to start
but when I do, I'll use all my heart
I have a great many days free
Which I shall dedicate to thee
Thee o' art, with your curves and lines
so that I might not end up behind
So with these final words, I part with you all
A joyous yuletide, and may your expressoes be tall

Sincerely, Arty Claus

Well, its nearly Chirstmas, its the third day of Hanukkah, there's three days to Kwanzaa and I'm pretty sure Yule started a couple days ago.

I hope you're all having a very merry holiday season. Mine's been mostly good, except for the fact that I've had no voice for like the past three days. I've been drinking hot cider and honey like a fish; that and gatorade (magic cure-all ^o^;;)

Its doesn't feel like Christmas here, though I've been able to imporve this by using the power of necklace wishes >w<


SO, what are you guys doing for the holidays. We're having friends and family over for Christmas Eve and the we're...having Christmas. We don't really do much, but its still fun.

So, whatcha doing?

Catches your attention, don't it X3

Yeah, I thought I'd tell you, my beloved watcher, that I have recently realized that I'm gay. It wasn't an easy process, but I've felt so much better since I had this realization.

If you'd some more details, you can ask. I'm not gonna go into super detail, just because its personal and not necessarily all of it needs to be put out there.

Now that I've said that, let me say this. I will not tolerate any "flaming" or any other type of harassment. This is my decision, and if that upsets you, you can suck it. I'm not really gonna act any different. I'll still art, talk, and all my usual stuff, I'll be a homosexual while doing it.

So, yeah, I just felt this needed to be said. Oh, one thing though. Not that I'll be like telling people that I'm not, could you guys like, not yell this from the rooftops; ESPECIALLY IF YOU KNOW PERSONALLY. The reason is that there are a lot of assholes at my school and I really don't want to have deal with their stupidity constantly.

Well, that's all. I just wanted to you all 'w'

Okay, so some major changes are coming... Well, Kinda.

My old desktop is kaputs, so I'm in the process of switching to the other one we have in our house. I tried to put this off as much as possible, but its gotten to the point where I couldn't go on with the old one.

This is means I won't be able to scan any of the art I have done until I move the scanner/printer from the new one, since my old one won't work cause we don't have the software for it anymore. I also have to figure out how to get it to scan like the old one, which had all my preferences all set in.

I'm also changing some details about my fursona again. I've decided to change his special abilities. I'm taking away his alchemy and pocketing and replacing it with him be a summoner. I think it more fits him and his new design. Also, I get to come up a cool summoner outfit >w<

As such, I'll be redoing my ref, again, especially since I've slightly improved since then.

Also, I will try and get my butt up and get cracking on those requests and trades I have due.

So, once I get my computer and scanner all situated, expect a slight rush of art in the near future.