So an awesomefur pointed out Furvilla is now up and playable and oh my gosh yay! Pretty excited to give it a try!!! I decided to my my villagers me and my sisters, maybe if they open up lots of room I am gonna make characters for some of my past family <3 I think it would be a nice memorial since I don't really play Gaiaonline anymore

ANYWAY! If you are on there already Add me!! TinyTera

if you haven't started yet

http://www.furvilla.com/register/37463

Boop! Use that and get started <3 <3 Love you all!

I texted the biofather....I told him everything. I told him all I was unable to say in words.

It hurt....typing it all out and then sending it was very painful. I sat in the bathroom for 10 minutes racked with guilt and pain.

Then my phone rang....it was him...

He told me he was hurt that I couldn't tell him something. And that he accepts my decision, he used SON and male pronouns an excessive amount but...but there was no scream or yelling. I am certain someone had told him and he had time to digest it because his words seemed rehearsed but for the first time I am hiding from no one.

I am free, that former life and title can finally die....that is me no longer and never do I have to wear that mask again.

Tears stream down my face as I type this but I am finally able to breathe freely and be me.

Tera Rubi Noctem

I was excited about working my first day today for UBER, Really happy to finally find work since being laid off from Blizzard in April.

I took a nap before I was gonna go drive...I get woken up to a bunch of texts and a phone call....my biological aunt found my personal facebook....not just her a few of my cousins and aunts....they have been talking about me and my "Condition" unsure of what to make of me. They want me to take down a bunch of stuff and also tell my biofather that I am trans and to stop hiding it from him.....

I have been trying to come out to him for a long time and his instant rage and insanity and over reactions have completely broken me apart.

I gave up trying to tell him and that family and was happy to move to Texas....now....now it is tell him myself or they will.....

I don't know why this bothers me so much....I feel hallow....damaged....like the mirror self I dreamed of has been cracked....

I know what he is gonna to....he is gonna scream and hollar, he is gonna break anything that reminds him of me in that house...

He is gonna tell me I am vile and wrong in the eyes of god. he is gonna tell me i need to find a doctor and get fixed.

He is gonna destroy what I have built up... I have been trying to avoid this....i am still shaking and this was hours ago.....I don't know what to do at this point...

before going to work, literally just prior to walking out the door. I received a call from the people who employed me to Blizzard. I was told my services where no longer needed.

I have moved half way cross the country, I sold off the major majority of my possessions and watched some of my precious ones destroyed all to live out this dream of working for a company I have idolized for over a decade.

I asked why, my performance was very good, one of the best in the class, my attendance was the same. So.....why....? because I broke a policy....I asked which. their answer was, I broke one and I was being insubordinate. No further details where given. I am beside myself at the moment. I planned out everything around this job I was supposedly promised full time work till August then there was decision time if I moved up in the company.

No I find myself unemployed in a new state, after the UPS disaster where my TV and Monitors and computer where smashed to bits, I had to spend what was left of my savings trying to get back to status quo, which shouldn't have been a problem because I was pulling in a good amount of money from being stably employed.

What hurts the most is I really liked this job, I was good at it, I could be me there, I went to work in leggings or a cute dress and everyone was super awesome about it.

I might be MIA for a bit as I sort things out.

Weirdest mental state since the move.
Had an absolutely amazing day with more packages arriving today and even the biofather sent a care package and some of my stuff which will arrive tomorrow.

Work was amazing i really didnt even realize time was flying by, i got to help 20 people today and learn a lot. Made a new friend who is pretty freaken awesome and we nerded about computer stuff. All and all pretty great day. Finally got home about 2:30am hung out with my roommates and got stuff set up for tomorrow. Decided to wind down checking messages, emails, social media stuff like that and suddenly became really depressed.

I noticed 95% of the furs i met at TFF who where so excited to hang when i got to Texas i haven't been able to catch up with. Heck the few people I know down here i don't see much of.

It isnt a horrible terrible thing just...kinda a sour note on a great day. I really wanna make more friends, hang out with people, eventually make my way back into meets and hang outs and who knows maybe the dating scene when i am ready.

Just weird thoughts before bed i guess but i wanted to let ya all know you are awesome and things are going great down here. Always feel free to drop me a line! Hopefully this weekend i am gonna be able to take a ton of pictures and a video or two!

Till next time!

Okie so I have 3 Ideas I really wanna get drawn and a new OC too!!!!
I am not 100% on some details and would love to work with some of my Artfur friends to kinda flesh some of it out, get prices and maybe commission stuff!

First is a Comic:
Maybe 5-6 panels long
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that kinda set up? maybe?
Better two of my sonas having a wizard duel

Next is another comic between me and my two sisters Rina and Kyobi with the 3 of us gaming on 3ds on a couch
kinda have an idea for this one too but still sorting it out a bit

3rd
I wanna get updated references of my sonas

finally i have a new sona who still needs a solid name I'm going with Asami atm she is a technoKitty it was inspired by my trip to TFF

<3 thanks to anyone who can make suggestions or wants to know more!!

What a babyfur ish evolving?!?!
*giggles* not exactly mew!!! In fact I have never felt more tiny!!!
As promised lots updates and pictures!

Since leaving on the magical plane to Texas on wednesday I have done quite a bit and my life has very much changed!
I landed in Texas around midnight Thursday morning, my "Mommy's " very maternal friends not partners, came and picked me up and brought me to their house, they offered a couch or a pile of blankies and pillows they called a den. Guess which this babyfluff took *giggles*

I spent Thursday being a bump, I stayed cuddled up in my blankie fort happily padded and sorting out address stuffies and looking for a place to live and a car.

Friday I woke up to my friends roommates getting ready for work (they are also furries and super sweet) and heard "good morning little one" *happy crinkles and swishie tails!!!!* we wound up hanging out later in the day they kept feeding me cause I kept forgetting to eat getting lost in my work. The roommates Lava and Muu then offered for me to come with to the magic the gathewing pwewelease of shadows over innistrad!!! I went 3-1!!!!! I did sooooooooooooooooooo gewd!!!!!

Next morning was orientation and Mommy Aria takies me there lots early, they loved me!!! One of my bosses actually ran up and hugged me and said how excited she was that I made it down safe!!! We got given homework to play a game called World of Warcaft *giggles* i have been playing for 12 years and am rank 176/16,000,000 in pet collection and battle!!! Most fun homework ever!!!! Mommy Aria took me to go see a pretty car, Then I got to go with Lava and Muu to a bookstore after Mommy dropped me off at home!!

Sunday was amazing I met a friend I have known for over 8 years online in person, she ish also a little but also a mommy! *squees* we hung out all day I got my eyebrows done and my hair cut and then she dyed it for me!!!! I came home very happy only to get more great news the car would be availble tomorrow, lava and Muu wanna move out to help a friend but want me to take over their room which meant I would get to live in a wonderful place for very cheap with amazing roommates!!! Mommy aria pulled me in her lap put my paci in and pet me till I fell asleep in front of the whole house while we watched tv!!

Monday I got my new car!!! And I had my first day at my new job as an Assistant Game Master!!!! *squees* i am learning sooo much and having so much fun! !!!

I love you all soooo lots much!!!

TLDR
I am happy and safe in my new home

My plane leaves on wednesday!!! <3 I will land super late in Austin, Still hunting a place to stay but i am so excited

So i found out today my loan was denied and the 2 places i had in mind to stay are both not possible. I move in 7 days.....*facepaw*

If any furs near Austin Texas could reach out, I am looking to a room or place to rent in the area, any and all help would be greatly appriciated!

Okie lots to get through, This last week or so has been truly life changing, I head to TFF in Dallas Texas. I have never gone to a convention so far from home not even taking into account being on a plane *shivers* But with a lot of encouraging words from dear friends I did it! TSA was a bit....weird yet again but it is okie! TFF Was beyond anything i could have hoped for! I went to a ton of fun panels, hung out and made a bunch of new friends, conquered some fears and even learned to play some new games and kicked butt in a tournament.!!!

There was something i was very much interested in finding out about called the cub hub and thanks to that and the amazing furs from there I know I have made some really awesome friends!

As you saw in the title I have a new job!!! I am moving to Austin Texas in 9 days to start working as an assistant game master for a very big gaming company!!! <3 <3 <3 I am so so excited for this chance to get far away from where I live and start a new life down there. One of the most exciting parts about the interview was when i was asked my prefered name and pronouns and was told there was no issues with any of my requests! So I will be hired as Tera! <3

In 9 days I leave New Jersey for a new life in Texas, I won't pretend I'm not terrified but at the same time this is a chance to change my stars. If you are in NJ or Texas and wanna meet up before I leave I would very very very much like that, I want to get to say my good byes in person.

Now I must get back to selling off everything I own!!!!
Wish me luck!!! BAI BAI!!!

After an absolutely amazing time down in Texas for TFF I returned home with a bit of con-crud but still in high spirits. I really really didn't want to leave but...I know i needed to return to settle things around NJ. Getting back to the house I realized i couldn't find my keys and while hunting my fathers dog kept yapping which made my biofather get up, he tended to the dog and waited as i fumbled about in the cold for 10 minutes before finding my keys and unlocking and getting in. All so he could say "You made a lot of noise out there and scared Teddy" [the dog]

After an extremely horrid night of sleep equip with night terrors and sleep paralysis I woke up super sick at 9 to start my day.

He pretty much left me alone till about 6 when he called for my brother and i to come down for dinner. I should have said no, I know I should have said no but I was hungry so i joined him. Him and his finance spent the last 40+ minutes ripping me apart from my social life to my plans to move being stupid, telling me how I am destined to fail how I will never find what I am looking for by moving away from the family, how i am a loser and my ex left me for a reason stuff like that. Thanks....Thank you so so much! I really needed to be reminded why i need to get so so far away from you.

Okie so ya know how sometimes your friends tell you something will be fun and you really wanna believe them so you take a leap of faith and try something?

I traveled from Nj to Texas on that notion, a chance to meet new furs and make friends. A chance to start over in a new place. I wont pretend it was easy getting down to texas from issues with money, family, schedules, TSA, flight delays and all that crazy stuff and me being a big baby about things and my body and mind freaking on me, oh boy.

The result? Im in pure bliss. This has been hands down one of the best desisions i have made. Im rooming with two amazing furs very dear to my heart, not cubs but very tolerant and accepting. I met their friends/house mates both of which very nice furs.

Then there was the con, saying i was nervous is an understatement like saying the ocean is damp. But i got here, i ran around in my light up cat ear headphones and blast fun music for people, i won a tiny plushie from a game and got to meet some of my all time biggest furry idols.

Matthew Ebel was awesome to meet even if my credit card decided to poop out on me, Noxychu and Cadistra where unbelieveable absolutely amazing, i rambled on like a fangirl dork for forever and they where both super amazing about the whole thing!!!! I got a sketch from Cadi and a button from Noxy and oh my gosh even a bigger fan girl now.

I ran into a few amazing furs walking around like my two new friends from the airport, dottedbow and her mate. And the. Got to meet MarciMcAdam can't commision her just yet but oh my gosh she is super sweet!

I caught up with my roommates at the javelin toss event thing and met an amazingly cute girl there and work up the courage to say something, oh my gosh soooooo glad i did, we clicked almost instantly, both of us a bit shy but when we both realized it we laughed it off and had an even better time. Cereal is one of the coolest furs i met on my trip so far, we hung out almost all day even went to the cubhub and though both super shy i got to make some truly outstanding furs, truly if any of you are reading this, from the bottom of my heart thank you, the panels and hang outs and chats helped mend my heart and mind in ways i couldnt dream of only a few short days ago. I got back to my room and fell asleep with a big grin on my face, peaceful, and happy.

Items aquired so far:
Furoticon Deck and promo card
Noxychu button
Matthew Ebel CD
Art Badge by Kay and paci clip
New tail by ???
Bandana by ???
Some truly amazing new friends.

Talk to you all soon

At Philadelphia airport to head to Texas for TFF. Super excited and nervous and oh my gosh!!! Main goal is to make friends down there with as many furs as possible, have a great time and maybe some partying. We will see!

If I die before I land let it be known I love you guys and hope you have a great year!!!

1. What is your fursona's name?
Saiya Sunofureko
Tera Kuro Noctem

2. How old is your fursona?
Saiya - 23
Tera - 1

3. What is your fursona?
Saiya - Grey and Pink Timberwolf
Tera - Black and Blue Kitsune

4. How much time have you had your fursona?
Saiya - Half a year
Tera - 5 years

5. Is your fursona inspired by something?
Saiya - World of Warcraft character, a dreanei shaman who loved to stay in wolf form. Everyone assumed she was my fursona and finally it clicked.
Tera - Tera was a baby dragon shifter but my love of foxes over took and she stays as a kitsune

6. How much art do you have of your fursona?
Very happy to say many of Tera not so much of Saiya

7. You made your fursona or you buy it?
Both completely mine.

8. Why do you consider your fursona special?
My sona's are me, they make up who I am. My courage and my happiness.

9. Does your fursona act too much as you or are they different from you?
My sona's are me, though Saiya is much braver and a bit more athletic

10. What kind of hair your does your fursona have?
Saiya: Pink pixie cut usually
Tera: Black with blue tips


11. Put some drawings of your fursona you like the most:
Saiya: NSFW http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19094127/ by  RanBlush
Saiya: NSFW http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18053739/ by  Viceryl
Saiya: NSFW http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16404716/ by  xTwilightStarx
Saiya: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17408971/ by  happylittleCloud
Tera Little: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18613529/ by  Citrine_Topaz
Tera Little: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18116649/ by  Aricub
Tera Big: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18291831/ by  grandifloru

12. What music represents your fursona?
Tera: J-Pop, K-Pop, anything happy and bouncy
Saiya: Metal, Punk, Ska

13. If your fursona were insane what music would represent them?
where....insaine? Sanity passed me years ago
went insaine? like full crazy mode? ummm
Saiya: Heavier Metal?
Tera: I....i have no idea Baby Metal?


14. Do you wish your fursona were real?
you mean if i was either of my sona's fur tail and the like? I would love it

15. Do you have any games of your sona?
Almost had one with Tera in it, did the voice acting and everything but game fell through

16. What would you do if you met your fursona in real life?
Saiya: Go drinking and lose at a lot of games
Tera: Cuddle and snuggle the heck out of her

Q: Where are you staying?
A: Wyndham hotel

Q: When will you be arriving and leaving?
A: Super nervious about flying but I'm traveling with  Dottedbow Arriving on Wednesday to Texas for the first time ever! And Leaving Monday. *hugs  DottedBow*

Q: Who will you be rooming with?
A:  LilianaFrost and Aria

Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
A: Not a clue! I have never been this far from NJ before for a convention and this will be my 2nd big Furcon so probably hiding behind any big furs.

Q: What/where will you be eating?
A: Food? I...I don't know

Q: Will you be having a room party?
A: Not my room.

Q: Will you be drinking and/or getting drunk?
A: If it happens I guess I will drink

PERSONAL STUFF:

Q: What is your gender?
A: female

Q: How tall are you?
A: 5' 7"

Q: If I approach you, will you chat with me?
A: Yes though warning I am super shy at first but after I am warm up to people I love to talk.

Q: If I see you, how should I get your attention?
A: Just yell Tera!!!! or just come over and introduce yourself!

Q: How many furry conventions have you attended?
A: This will be my second mew

Q: Do you own a fursuit?
A: Sadly not yet but one day!

PERMISSIONS:

Q: Can I hug or snuggle with you?
A: I love them lots much!

Q: How can I find you?
A: spotting me out of the crowd? I'm not sure, I have pictures up, if you want to text or telegram me that would probably be easiest.

Q: Can I look in your sketchbook?
A: I dont usually bring one with me but if I have it on me sure.

Q: May I buy you drinks?
A: I don't know why would would but okie

Q: May I take your picture?
A: Please ask but yes

MISCELLANEOUS:

Q: Do you do do free art, trades, commissions, badges?
A: I haven't done commissions in a long time, i might doodle

Q: Do you have a table in the Artist Alley / Dealer's Den or a panel in the Art Show? If so, what are you selling?
A: *giggles* no

Q: Do you plan to volunteer?
A: no, I'm there to meet furs and relax mostly

Q: What's your goal for the con this year?
A: make new friends, I might be moving to texas in the future and I would like to get to know the furs and the area.

Okie so as the days go on i am noticing more of a split of interest and likes between my little innocent self Tera and my bratty playful self Saiya. It is a bit weird but also kinda exciting, i have found a lot of stuff while in Saiya mentality i really like that didnt appeal to me in little Tera mindset, so should i divide the account, give Saiya her own space?

Okie so a close friend and i where talking about conventions and money and various other stuff and she kinda hit me with an interesting question and now I am curious.

If i started doing art again, like actually drawing and what not, would anyone actually be interested in buying it? I have posted my 10 minute doodles and some of my quick sketches in the past. I haven't really sat down for a full piece in a bit truth be told.

I'm not nearly as talented as some of the great furs on here so they would be cheap things [price not amount of effort] but they would go to getting me back on my paws and clear away some of the debt and medical stuff i have pushed off for a while, as well as let me go meet some of my fur friends in a few months and not explode, [joking]

let me know what you think, even if it is no, or get some talent you tator tot!

Another year old, feels kinda weird. Honestly am amazed I am seeing this birthday. Very grateful to those who remember and oh my gosh some of you....thank you....thank you very much.

Stolen from

 SierraFox


1.What did you do in 2015 that you've never done before?
A lot, I went out Fem for the first time, went to my first munch, went to my first furmeet and ended the year with going to my first Furcon!

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
my what now? I made new ones i am doing well keeping so far

3.Did anyone close to you give birth?
Negative

4.Did anyone close to you die?
Yes sadly

5.What countries did you visit?
I have never left mine

6.What would you like to have in 2016 that you lacked in 2015?
I want to be less shy and more active!

7.What dates from 2015 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Early in the year i was left by my Master. I lost everything and tried to take my life.

8.What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Rebuilding my life and letting others see me for who i am.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Getting a C+ in Public Relations Class.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
A lot

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Wow...um.....no idea

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
*blinks* I...I don't know

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Really don't wanna dwell on this...pass

14. Where did most of your money go?
food and gas

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
my first fur convention and the possibility of moving in with my furmommy in the UK

16. What song will always remind you of 2015?
Fall Out Boy - Uma Thurman

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier
b) thinner or fatter? thinner?
c) richer or poorer? poorer...i think?

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
spend time with friends and been less shy

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
cried and hid

20. How did you spend Christmas?
my bio-mothers house

21. Did you fall in love in 2015?
I found more people to trust and love

22. How many one-night stands?
1

23. What was your favorite TV program?
Constantine

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Yuuppppp

25. What was the best book you read?
Space Wolves by William King

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I wanna learn to play a ukalale and learn how to spell it too

27. What did you want and get?
a squishable whale shark

28. What did you want and not get?
pretty sockies

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
2015? Avengers probably

30. What did you do on your birthday?
a small party and then had my heart ripped out hoping in 2 days to make a better memory

31.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
having a mate who stayed with me

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2015?
at least she tried

33. What kept you sane?
what is sane?

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Chris Pratt

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Prop8

36. Who did you miss?
my pack and my close friends

37. Who was the best new person you met?
my pack was pretty amazing and new to me though i did me some truly amazing furs on here that kept me going [you know who you all are]

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2015:
smile, cause not everyone can

Im starting to feel my old doubt and paranoia coming in strong, i had truly hopped this vacation would help me unwind and i have enjoyed parts i cant help but feel very out of place and alone.

What worries me truly though is more then that. I feel like for some i am a friend of conveniance and others a friend out of sympathy. I have had a long history of being bad talking to people or too shy to do it at all. Some of my friends i worry i bother when i speak, i will post to them and see them read it and not respond for hours or days. I wonder if my words are just a nuisance. I am not ignorant to people having a life or being just too busy to respond or heck needing time to form their thoughts, but the more and more it happens the more i find myself slipping back to my old ways.

It has been brought up i am too friendly, i befriend people too easy and it comes off weird or creepy. I am sorry about that. I just want to be the best friend i can be to those i like.

I fear my neediness and longing for friendship and affection might have pushed away some people who could have been great friends, and especially one who....who meant the world to me, one i was willing to change my life for.

My birthday is at the end of the week and i want to smile and be brave, be the happy baby girl i was, explore my new sonas and play groups but i worry i am making effort in vain.

Any advice? Thoughts? You can note me if it is easier.

I'm leaving tomorrow with my biofamily to florida. Not entirely sure why or how i got an invite for a vacation for the first time in 15 years but I am gonna go enjoy warm weather. I will return the day before my birthday I'm gonna try and go to disney while I'm down there! Are you a florida fur? or a Disney fur? Let me know I would love to meet friends from that area while I'm down there!!! Please please let me know!! <3 I'll cya in a week or so! <3

[updated to fix mispelt names and a missing paragraph.]
I really wanted to put 2015 was awful and painful but I am looking forward to 2016 and just be done with it but the more I look at it yeah 2015 was really bad at parts but it helped shaped me more and gave me more drive then most years past.

the start of the year was a surgery to prolong my life, it was successful but it left me in a weird place. I was prepared to die, a small part of me accepted and welcomed it. I was told to think of things that I wanted to still do and see as a means to keep fighting, I remember aside from the usual family answer what things did I want to see or do. A furartist on here actually was a big push.  BabyStar if you have never heard of her or read her comics or listened to her music you are really missing out. I know babyfurs aren't everyone's thing but still this is a truly amazing person who helped me hope for the future. I remember wanting to see what her next comics would bring, I remember hating myself for the fact i was always too shy to contact any of the artists I admired, too shy to get myself out there and be social. After my surgery I had a moment of clarity and decided I survived I should try and face my fears, I contacted some of the artists I truly admired and let them know as such and the feedback was....staggering is the understatement of the year. The furs I met truly helped me smile again. I began talking a lot to  Ursa-Mina who quickly saw through my shy big girl act and saw the giggly babygirl underneath, slowly but surly she helped free me and help me smile bright again, i had always admired her writing and sculptures and the fact we kept in touch through notes made my heart flutter happily, in time she would add me on skype and after long sessions of chat she decided I should be her Little Lady and I couldn't be more happy for that. I love my Mommy Ceres.

As 2015 continued my fiance and I went through a really rough situation which lead me to sitting alone in a hotel room homeless alone and in pain, i had a bottle of pills and i was determined to end everything. It was again thanks to friends and dumb luck that I failed so amazingly. I told my friends after and was overwhelmed by the amount of people who cared. It through me off to know there was so many who wanted me to keep going.

I moved to my biological fathers house after spending a bit on the road, I can't say this was a smart move, he is very abusive verbally and mentally but it did give me the chance to meet [and remet] a lot of people I now consider amazing friends.  Manathevixen,  RedPandaAsca, Seth,  Vaprrenon,  demonlord261  dottedbow  sea-monster-cupcakes

As the year pushed on I got and lost a few jobs, went out for my first time full Fem thanks to some amazing friends and was introduced to a kink event group called the Babygirl DaddyDom Social. This would help me further my courage, sprinkle in some meet ups, an amazing LARP group who let me play a little wolf girl named Saiya, some amazing online friends in WoW and a few other games I grew and became happier.

In time I would return to school and even start going to game nights at my friends house socializing with some amazing furs which would get me to go to my first furry conventions! FAU for a day and then Furpocalypse for a whole weekend. I haven't been able to keep in touch with all the furs I met which is sad but I am so so very grateful for every memory I made with each of them, you helped me step out of my shell a bit more each second I spent with you all and for that I am eternally grateful.  Aricub Thank you for helping me feel super awesome! <3 Junius,  CrescentZealWolf , Tegan,  MaxwellPup Lance, Pop,  Bazel, Fawnix, Manji, Falconeo, Muse, Gally, Scrumpet,  Necroluna just to name a handful of amazing furs I met in person this year and that doesn't count all the great ones I met online.  ApolloStormbane,  ScampRabbit  ZoeTheFox,  Citrine_Topaz,  diaperedwolfzt  Dyriuck_kaos I love you all so very much

There where bad parts of this year, being attacked, being homeless for 3 months the storms and the fighting the betrayals and the lose of people i care about but as I wrote this journal I realized something....its ok....every year is gonna have its bad things, bad days, weeks months, in my life I have gone through plenty of pain and suffering to know that. But....its ok. I kept writing about the amazing furs and great times and realized the good outweighed the bad.

2016 will be a great year, I am gonna not just hope for it but I am gonna make it so. I am gonna continue to strive to better my life and those around me. I'm learning new games, new tricks and other fun stuff.
Resolutions:
1. I'm gonna be braver ~ socialize more, be less shy
2. I'm gonna go see a doctor [I'm terrified of all doctors] to sort out the rest of my health problems
3. I'm gonna drop down to 200 pounds [biggest pipe dream]
4. I'm gonna see a gender therapist/doctor
5. I'm going to go to more conventions and meet ups
6. I'm going to make more friends and have a good times! <3

Thank you so very much for reading this! I hope you have a truly spectacular New Years, and a great 2016.

Ok so you need to check out  lunaazzurro 's page cause she is doing a raffle and  RiRiRi is helping her, aside from getting a shot at pretty arts they both are awesome furs! So go make a friend! <3 Ja Na!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18489402/ another fur in need, please help if you can

Stealing this from someone really awesome <3 <3

Ask Tera or Saiya or Asami anything you wish!!!

<3 <3