I will admit on the net now, I am quite paranoid to log into fa, my email or fb.
I get scared to add people on msn or aim. idk whats gonna come of it. if its gonna be harassment or an impersonator.

I get quite scared, and worried and a small cold sweat.

yes this shows weakness, and probably makes those that cause it smile.

but I still log into all those things, I don't change them, or block people. I'm not giving in despite my fear.

okay I'm sick of all the spam I have to filter in my email that I have been getting for the last few days.
both my .live and gmail are getting more random ass spam then ever before.

also this will become noted on my main page soon, but any one that wants to add me to their aim or msn they must must must must pm me. I can't filter everyone that keeps trying to add me to spam me, or trying to impersonate some one then try to make an idiot out of me. even tho I have caught everyone in the trap call them out and never heard from them before. also having every spamer ask me for a doll to get me to add them won't work.

msn you must pm me on here. aim send me a message thing thru aim, saying who you are, where I met you, or what. and if your an mi fur please state the name you use in chat.

I was forced to get one.
so now bother the shit out of me on it or something

aschearschi[at]aim.com

send me a pm first shit as normal
can't trust people on the net any more.
so ya little security measure.

I wish people would just leave me alone. I'm getting a little sick of the msn attacks of people impersonating psye.

a wall was made I got tossed away I would have nothing wrong with being friends. but things can't go back at all. they never would.

Idk who to believe any more. but I would rather take my chances with draken.

my fuzzy friends have proven to be very accepting and loving of me and have helped me greatly I thank them for that.

had a lot of fun with draken today
and not that kinda fun.

he bought a hookah, and then we went to see how to train your dragon, and we had an empty theater, also (sp) seria was there as well and the movie was very different then what I though it would be, and it turned out very good and heart warming.

also then did said hookah and watched through the wall - pink floyd, and that was very interesting and very different.

but ya today was a blast, haven't that much fun with people in a while.

I am very good at remembering dates
and I kinda hate it now
<3

okay I am doing something for free to get the cute little badges I make, for free.

there is one condition this isn't open to everyone, just people I really really know well or people I really really like. thats about it. so please message me first leave a comment on this. please don't get mad if your not picked. those that don't get picked with have a 50% off badge made and sent.

I'm not hating I am just respecting people that I have known for a very long time.

1. crazy mew
2. kit
3.Silverna
4. draken
5. shugo

I mite consider adding slots.

okay art dump time. I have had most of these in my sketch book for like months since about august, of 09. I was suppose to get art pens for valentines day didn't happen, so I got them my self as a chear up your single now gift. and then finished the art.

I have been having an inside battle to up load most of these, due to half of the 9 contain psye. they will not be removed cept for the single one of him only if he asks.

these are being uploaded due to the fact I made them, and for the artistic purpose.

these are also the last images that will be shown in this style due to being at fcn everyone liked the style but hated the eyes for the anime look. so I am working on changing the eyes. which is hard to do for cartoon like things. but hey. we will see what happens.

so found a fur that happens to live really really damn close to me. but only during the summer.

so him and I wanna make fur suits, and are gonna try our hands at it while making some meets out our way.

the goal is to get to mmf. which we are both quite far from getting.
me getting there is the question due to, I don't like putting miles on my car (love my car a little too much to do that to it) so idk if I am gonna car pool since that is a small phobia of mine (well I have a problem where I like to be able to leave any situation and that some times requires a car, and I don't like asking for food runs) so idk if I wanna take a train since no stations come close to that area, or take the convenient plane across the street. carpooling for free would be my fave idea right now.

also suit construction not sure how or what I wanna do, I know well think I would be the first serval suiters (hey look its a cheetah fucking kill you) and run around with fact sheets about servals (educate you silly peoples)

but ya thats about it. mff is a little ways off, so a lot of things are in limbo right now, first and for most making a suit, I want the attentions.

just got home and like every time I leave for a weekend my parents always for some reason go in my room and bathroom and ran sack it..... and they can't figure out why I won't leave for more then one day at a time.

but any way.

went to the con, had a lot of fun, got to try a lot of new things (no drugs, or sex like things) had a lot of fun over all.

the con was kinda dry but I was just there for the dance, and thats what I did.

had a fun rubber band fight with bushy cat, and have welts to prove it, hugged some suiters, and watched a blendtec blender blend its self and then try to kill the audience. that was magical.

over all it was pretty good time.

apparently some childish fairy too it upon its self to delete my twitter.

so I made a new one for those that care.

http://twitter.com/asche_arschi

apparently when something happens to some one else's stuff its automatically my fault.

but till twitter and I get my main account fixed this is my side one. so ya have at it.

happy easter one and all, may all your wishes come true.

and any one that has parents that get them ipods for easter, you suck.

I have like one of these every 2 or three days
who the hell keeps making them then deleting them
I keep wondering what the hell the journal was
and thats all I can think about all day.
you evil evil person you.

so I've been having a lot of wacky dreams lately stopping me from moving on in any way.

most contain psye and something with me when my friend/new bf, is gone to basic and most of its just too real for words in a creepy way. trying not to read too much into it, but basically the more I don't let my heart leave from liking psye the less likely / vivid the dream....

I would like to move on and be happy but this is just putting to much on my plate. also being labeled at psycho, for trying to apologies and be friends made me quite livid.

still working on the other art its just ya a little hard. also if some one would be so kind as to get me a flat bed scanner that will work with win 7 (my old one only works with xp and I don't like the feed scanner cause my camera dose a better job.

I still make dolls and scarfs for people currently trying to work on a lasin one, so my little baby fur can come to life (psye used to say I breathed life into people characters so ya w/e)

this is just so kinda long ramble.

I am confused very much right no so any one that wants to talk to me or anything you can pm me for things, and I will send.

currently also trying to get with the current fur group.

when out and bought me the pens I asked for for v-day but never got.

and went thru my comp and found some art that was finished that never got uploaded so doing a bit of an art dump of what I find that was never put there, or disappeared or god only knows what.

finishing the rest of the art in my sketchbook, even the stuff with psye or dealing with him. which even doing those makes me sad but I don't want to leave them undone. I want to get them out of the way asap, and move on to asche and lasin, and them maybe asche, lasin and lasins maybe new dad. idk how he would take it, but hey, kids gotta have a dad.

so ya who ever signed my phone up for all those astrology things, and all those services that cost 9.99 a month and prank phone call lists that call you during the night its not funny at all. I got 4 people in mind that are doing this to me,

recently psye left me due to me being too 'controlling' and all my 'friends' only put up with me due to the fact of who I was dating, since that ended they had no reason to be nice to me. but of all the things to do this is getting pretty low and childish. I get called childish and stupid and and yet signing some up on prank lists is such a smarter idea.

The Furry Achievement Meme.
How to play:
- Write yes or no and an explanation under each achievement [if you want]. Try to keep the format, and use your own judgement!
- Add up your score.
- Post your score total with the journal's subject. (ie., "Furry Achievement Score: X")

"Waited In Line For Blotch Porn"
Parameters: Go/went to a furry convention.
Score: 50
Completed?: lol no didn't know blotch was so well knowen

"Rug Burn"
Parameters: Do/did the business, with one or more partners in a fursuit.
Score: 50
Completed?: DEAR GOD!! no and hopefully no and never unless drunk badly. or drugged

"It's Like A Miniature Convention!"
Parameters: Go/went to a furmeet.
Score: 30
Completed?: no but I mite be going to one

"FURtune 500"
Parameters: Have over 10,000 views.
Score: 30
Completed?: on da I do

"High Roller"
Parameters: Have your character drawn by an artist that has over 100,000 views.
Score: 30
Completed?: never paid for art

"Friends In High Places"
Parameters: Have gift art of your character from an artist.
Score: 20
Completed?: ya but any one that draws a squiggle is an artiest so ya.

"Different Strokes"
Parameters: Own/owned/used an animal-molded, or furry-oriented, sexual toy.
Score: 20
Completed?: *blink* wtf.... no

"So, Yeah"
Parameters: Have more furry friends than non-furry friends in real life.
Score: 20
Completed?: idk I think so

"Stalker"
Parameters: Be friends with an artist.
Score: 20
Completed?: again any one that draws a squiggle is an artist.

Parameters: Have a total combined buddy count [on AIM, MSN, Skype or etc.] of 200 or more.
Score: 20
Completed?: I have about 6 or 7 friends on msn... and steam...

"Just For The Art"
Parameters: Draw anthropomorphic art.
Score: 20
Completed?: yes

"Dramatic"
Parameters: Have a LiveJournal, Facebook, FurAffinity, DeviantArt, and a Twitter account.
Score: 20
Completed?: fa da twitter

"Get Over It"
Parameters: Have/had a spouse/partner/significant other/mate/whatever, in real life, that is a furry.
Score: 20
Completed?: yes

"Vanilla"
Parameters: Have nonsexual art of your character.
Score: 10
Completed?: everything I have is non sexual art... excluding lassin

"O MURR"
Parameters: Use/used the word 'yiff', 'scritch', or 'paw' when talking to a non-furry friend in real life.
Score: 10
Completed?: Ironically, so I dont know if it counts.

"And All I Got..."
Parameters: Own a distinctly 'furry' t-shirt [something made by furries and/or for furries].
Score: 10
Completed?: No

"I'm Not Even Trying"
Parameters: Have some form of furry porn on your desktop [whether as wallpaper or a file].
Score: 10
Completed?: no

"UNLESS IT'S A FARM!"
Parameters: Play/played Team Fortress 2 on a furry server.
Score: 10
Completed?: I played on the fa server one time to realize its full of a bunch of butt aching butt hurt butt fucking furries.

"Such A Cock"
Parameters: Listen/listened to a 2 the Ranting Gryphon rant.
Score: 10
Completed?: Who?

"Friends With Benefits"
Parameters: Commissioned/commission artwork of a friend's character.
Score: 10
Completed? no

"Anti-Uppity"
Parameters: Have sexual artwork of your character.
Score: 10
Completed?: yes but some one else made it because I refused to make it

"Don't Knock It 'Til You Try It"
Parameters: Roleplay/roleplayed your character over a messenger service/in a game of some sort.
Score: 5 for having done it at all, +5 for having done sexual roleplay.
Completed?: I hate role playing with a fucking passion

"NO FRATERNIZING WITH THE ENEMY!"
Parameters: Post/posted on 4chan or SomethingAwful.com
Score: 5
Completed?: ya I lurk and post but normally nothing about furries. just cause you go there doesn't mean anything. everyone goes there idiot.

"Furries Ruin Everything"
Parameters: Post/posted a furry image on 4chan.
Score: 5
Completed?: ya its called furry friday, aka a rage fest

"You're Doing It Wrong"
Parameters: Post/posted on fchan or TGFB (http://dammitfreehaven.com/).
Score: 5
Completed?: nope

"The Greater Good"
Parameters: Post/posted an image on e621.net.
Score: 5
Completed?: what is that

"O.. murr"
Parameters: Use/used the word 'yiff', 'scritch', or 'paw' when talking to a furry friend in real life.
Score: 5
Completed?: ya to tell some one I don't like yiff

"How Did That Get There?"
Parameters: Have a folder dedicated to furry porn.
Score: 5 for having a folder, +5 for having a folder of 1gb or larger.
Completed?: for furry friday

"THIS IS THE REAL ME! YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!"
Parameters: Commission art of your character.
Score: 5
Completed?: Maybe one day but as of right now no.

"SRS BSNS"
Parameters: Tell/told a parent/friend that you are a furry.
Score: 5
Completed?: lol fuck no my mom just found out what pony play is and now thinks furrys are pony play

"Ding, DONG"
Parameters: Have a male character.
Score: 5
Completed?: nerp... well lasin but he makes no sense or gender clarification

"Tits or GTFO"
Parameters: Have a female character.
Score: 5
Completed?: yes cause I am a female

"It's A Trap!"
Parameters: Have a herm/shemale/transgendered/etc. character.
Score: 5
Completed?: lasin cause munks made him into one

"Dime A Dozen"
Parameters: Did/do another furry meme.
Score: 5
Completed?: idk

"You're It!"
Parameters: Tag at least 1 person after doing this meme.
Score: 5
Completed?:fuck you

Score: 230
wtf how many is this out of.

okay out of 490 and I think I missed one so its like 500... okay happier now.

if you really really want a doll or scarf or a bunch of drawings and can't afford it?
well my fine friend then I have a deal for you.


buy be zero gear (got addicted during the trial)

I think its like 15$
if you buy it for me or want to. respond or pm me or something, and tell me what you want and I'll make it. just give me time to get the shippin money.

Male side:

[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[ ] Dogs are better than cats
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[x] Shopping is torture
[x] Sad movies suck
[] You own an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[] You watch sports on TV. (I watch Mariner's baseball)
[] Gory movies are cool.
[x] You go to your dad for advice.
[] You own, like, a trillion baseball caps.
[x] You like going to football games. (soccer football)
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[] Sports are fun.
[ ] Talk with food in your mouth.
[] Wear boxers.

Male Points Total= 12

Female side:

[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[] You love to shop
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[ ] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] You wear the color pink.
[ ] Go to your mom for advice.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[x] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall. (only for ddr)
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[ ] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[ ] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] You wear girl underwear.
[ ] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[ ] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

Female Points Total= 4

I am making ufo catcher dolls again and have lowered the price a lot again, I can make one for 20 bucks and shipping. I am also making scarfs, 15 and shipping. normally in the us shipping is about 3-9 from what I have seen, and can figure it out when I get your address. I can make custom shapes or faces to attach to the scars and can put some shapes into the scarf depending on the difficulty,

I am also making professional grade ufo dolls of characters, I can normally just look at your art and tell from that what I need to do, very rarely do I need a character sheet, the only thing I request is what you want the character wearing, and maybe a drawing of that, if its not a common clothing.

I also have a lot of rainbow scarfs still. those mite start going for 10 and shipping

if you are psye and I are looking for room mates for the weekend. idk how much I will have to spend but if any one wants to room with us we can stay on a pull out couch or I can get an air mattress or something.

that's right hand drawn (I'm a lot better at this) sketches mailed in a large paper sized envelope to your location. 5$ to all those in us 7$ to those out of us, until I find out the real damage it will cost. cause I'm really hurting during the season.

also custom scarfs, any colour any kind, I also have rainbows. 15 to make 5 to ship to us 10 to ship over seas. I can make almost any pattern you want, and if you want a small icon on it, I can add on in felt of your choice no extra charge.

happy holidays.

I'm beggin here.

okay so I know my shipping costs now and I can take 10$ off the price of one so they are 20 now for any one that wants one, of any type I make.

my phone broke again, and its breaking more. any one who likes my art that wants me to make something for them, I will for about 7-10 for them more complex things maybe a bit more.

I am also makeing scarfs, rain bow and other colours. they are 20 + the shipping to your area. I also have two other colours I am makeing them from.

well my phone died for good
and I still need 40$ to get a new one
so I guess I am open to commission again
I need them really bad right now.