Sup Everyone!

It has been a hot minute since I have signed into my FurAffinity account here. And I wont be surprised if I dip again for a few years. A lot in my life has changed. I let go of extremely toxic people. I live with a friend I met in the hospital almost two years ago, he saved me from my abusive poly relationship with my former roommate. I met the love of my life, and we are approaching our one year anniversary in June! Things have been better as far as home life and luckily I have managed to stay away from catching COVID-19 so far. My health has been of slight concern lately and I have been trying to change much of my diet but things have been rocky. And lately I have been helping my friends and others (including Damien Leonhardt aka Jessi Slaughter) take action against the pedophile serial rapist vocalist himself Dahvie Vanity of BOTDF/Kawaii Monster/Master of Death/Sinners are Winners. This stuff has been taxing on all of us, but we went in fully knowing this wasn't going to be easy. But their justice and peace matters the most, and the more horror stories I hear from that monster's victims/survivors, the angrier I get.

And since this is a time for exposing the truth, justice, growth and healing I am going to speak my truth that I have been hiding for years because I was scared. But these brave women have inspired me to come forward about this. And soon I will be making a very large beware post of this person with receipts that I still have from over the five years that this person was in my life. To put things shortly for now, the user  lazulihusky is many of these things: a zoophile, incestuous, serial abuser, and manipulator. He also attempted and had cyber sexual conversations with a minor when over the age of 18. He claims he is a werewolf, Karkat from the comic series Homestuck, and that he can switch bodies with famous musicians, actors, and fictional characters. He preys on young people with broken families or traumatic pasts and manipulates them to believe his lies and sends his victims into a state of depressive psychosis. He has personally physically, emotionally, verbally, and financially abused me. There are multiple occasions where he has even attempted to murder me, and the only reason I believe he held back was to make me fear him and be submissive to him. He uses his victims to take care of him, and sexually gratify him. He will make grand gestures for you and if you don't comply to his absurd requests or impulsive ideas, he will gaslight you with those "favors". It was constant gaslighting and I have seen him become violent and dangerous to everyone around him. He is emotionally unstable and will use suicide to gaslight you, and use the alters you are attached to against you. HE IS DANGEROUS. He is also a self admitted zoophile and I have personally witnessed him make out with his sister's pitbull and has a MASSIVE folder on his phone and laptop FILLED with zoophile porn (evidence to come soon). I have multiple victims with hard evidence that may also come forward. This is a MASSIVE beware of Lazuli Husky, now going by the fursona Jake Muttz. Jake Muttz is his FTM Pitbull fursona. AVOID AT ALL COSTS.

I will also add after that statement I wasn't clean either during those five years with Jake/Lazuli. I made mistakes, I was emotionally unstable. I said shit I shouldn't have. I gaslighted early on. But here is the difference between the two of us. I sought out change, and I improved myself and my life. I no longer tolerate any kind of abuse or manipulation. I don't abuse animals. I don't abuse and use the people close to me. I don't use my past trauma and disabilities to excuse my shit behavior anymore. And anyone in my life right now that I live with and am close to will 100% vouch for me on this. I grew up. He didn't as of the last time I have seen him. I have witnesses to my claims. I have evidence. Logs, screenshots, everything. I will put them all in a Beware journal in a dropbox folder very soon. It is a long story that spans over five years. I do not want to see any more people completely broken and damaged by him. STAY AWAY!

Anyway, I am happy to be back and soon will be uploading artwork that I have stored in a folder, some even NSFW! Stay tuned for more content. And I will end this journal with on this note: I am sorry if I do not respond to notes very often. I am an introvert and social interaction is difficult for me. Especially since the abuse I went through. Thank you all for listening. All...30(?) of my watchers that are probably not even active anymore.

EDIT: His FurAffinity account seems to be no longer active and hasn't been for a few years now. He is 22 years old now. Will link below his current Twitter account. Do not report the account, just block him. He isn't breaking the guidelines on Twitter itself. Do what you can to distance yourself from him. He specifically targets females and transmasculine people the most.

JAKE MUTZ TWITTER LINK: https://twitter.com/jakemuttz

~Ash

Sorry for the lack of activity on here folks but I'm back!

[center]So I have a current update, I am a house owner now in southern Illinois, and just waiting to start my new job so I need a little extra income on the side. I have THREE slots open right now with base prices ranging from $3-11! The price sheets will be listed in my submissions with examples both on the price sheet and in gallery of course!

Commissions will start with base prices and there will be a $7.25/hr service fee after the second hour! Will do anything from sketches to colored and shaded to headshots to full bodies, reference sheets, multi-character projects and much more. [/center]

Note me if you are interested!

I know I have been inactive for a few months. It has been very stressful, running into some very unpleasant people. It has affected me in a way to which I began to isolate and fall into a deep depression. Some of you may have seen me at Furry Migration in Minnesota. That con, just like any other convention I have been to, has went terribly wrong that affected my overall mood and even my physical health. I have made a vow now to never attend a convention again. Not only is it because of the bad things that happen to me every time I go to a con, but I am always alone too because I don't party, I don't drink or smoke, and my social anxiety makes it hard for me to make new friends. My experiences with the fandom were overall more negative than positive. Obviously being a fan of anthropomorphic animals makes me a furry so I can't just say "I quit".

On another note, my commission income is skyrocketing. Last month within 2 hours of opening commissions I filled up all of my slots. I made $40 that day. But after completing the commissions I had to close due to the stress that is currently going on in my life. But I will soon get back on track and be able to draw more for everyone.

Another update, I was living in Minnesota for a month with a new roommate but due to conflict and complications it couldn't work out. I am currently living in the St. Louis area in Missouri again. Ever since I moved to Missouri I have felt as though there was a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. I don't have to hide my emotions anymore. I am more accepted and comforted. There are no fights. No anger anymore. It is so much better here than anywhere I have been. I am glad to have friends down here that understand and care and help me so much more.

So that's my update!

So we made it to Pittsburgh and back to Wisconsin without dying so I say that is a plus. Overall, the con itself was very well organized. My experineces however, kinda made Anthrocon a con I am not sure of attending again. It was BIG. And normally my anxiety is peaked in large crowds. I lacked a lot of sleep which made me overly emotional. But I did get to meet some awesome iconic fursuiters. I hung out with Glitch Husky. I met Telephone (out of suit), the crux's, TSebrasos, Miles Cougar, Rika Pawser, Majira Strawberry, and many more. But Anthrocon to me isnt all that it is hyped up to be as advertised to be. I will be attending MFF this winter and from what I hear it is better than AC. Super excited to go to that!

We are just around the corner from the world's largest furry convention! I am announcing I have a hotel booked and I will be attending this years events! I am looking forward to meeting new furs and reuniting with old friends and family. Anyone going is more than welcome to say hi to me! Hugs are more than welcome! One rule I have is to please not pull on my tail, as the material has been stretched from being pulled at other events. I'm open to conversation, and pictures, but if I have to decline, I do apologize because I probably have somewhere to be. But I can get back to you of you reach out to me at a different time. But my ultimate goal is to have an amazing first experience at Anthrocon, and just to have fun. You guys are all amazing! I love you all!

-Sincerely,
Ashes Wolf 💜💙🐺

My friend Rex Wolf and I created this support group exclusive to furries for help with any mental illness ranging from depression to schizophrenia. So far we have members from all over the world. Five are from The United States, one is from the United Kingdom, and one is from Finland. This group's purpose is mainly about support of other furs, education, and just making new friends and having fun! If anyone is interested in joining out group feel free to note me on here, or message my friend Rex through his kik: niceteen10. He is the green and white wolf! You can watch and note the group if you please FHAD. We welcome new furs to the group in with open arms!

-Ashes Wolf 💙💜🐺
Furry Help Against Depression

On June 12th there is a scheduled Fursuit outing for a full weekend at Game Haven in St. Louis for E3. There is going to be a large attendance and a lot of games. Key word. Fursuits! And it is absolutely free. I haven't met a lot of furries because Anime STL was happening the same weekend as GFM and some furries wanted to hang there too. So I am hoping to meet more people, share art and stories, and so much more!

For my first con, I would have to say that the Missouri Furs are a one of a kind! I had much more fun than I even expected. They all welcomed me into the hotel with open arms, my friend Puppy, the cyan (head of security) boarder collie helped me have a fantastic Saturday. I was starstruck to be able to chill in Frosti Bunni's room before the fursuit parade, and I had the honor to meet other popufurs like Roxy (Clawshawt), and Chux the Astrosquirrel. Everyone else was super friendly, I meet an awesome friend and Fursuit handler there who offered me to dinner with his friend at a nice Italian restaurant. There is so much kindness to the furry community and that is what I love most about us. We are just one big fuzzy happy family. And I am looking forward to the next furcon soon. 🐺🐾

Hey everyone I will be showing off my new Fursuit next weekend at GFM 2016! This is my first time ever fursuiting in public. If anyone is going, feel free to come up to me and say hi. My fursona does talk but he is probably going to be a smartass at first. I only hug with permission, noseboops are fine, I am open for conversation. I will be in St. Louis all weekend, and return to Wisconsin directly afterwards. I may go fursuiting with my fellow friends that are also Wisconsin furs, take some pictures. I may not be good at art, but I might be good at suiting. We will see.

I have recently been pointed out by a user on this site that it is illegal to change the lineart on a drawing. And it is illegal to trace Fursuit as well. I apologize to those that I have so rudely disrespected as artists themselves and took down the traced pictures. My dad told me that tracing is the key to improving my art. I shouldn't have went this far. And I thought crediting the orignal artist made it okay. I am new to the community I just started last year. I am sorry to phoenixwuff and all of the others I have done that to. Only 3 pictures were actually traced on this account. And I took them down. I'm just so ashamed that I am not as good as I should be. I have been practicing my ass off ever since I was only 12 years old...and I haven't really made much improvement. My dream of become a comic illustrator seems to be failing and I can't afford going to an art school. So...out of the shame of doing such a horrible action like that...an artist sin, I am going to stop art. I already put my tablet on craigslist, and I threw away my art, and got rid of the 200 prismacolor markers and artist ink for my comics. I...I'm a fraud. I've tried. I wanted to be like my dad...I used to watch him draw comic concept art all the time, all of the superheroes and robots and apocalypse stories excited me and really drew my interest. I shouldnt play the victim at all. Its wrong. But I'm done with art...I'm sorry.

Hello fellow furs! I just want to update since I haven't been very active! Well today, my group of furry friends and I went to the theater to see the movie we were waiting for for almost a year. Disney's Zootopia. And one of the main animators of this movie is infact a furry himself. And here on my thoughts on the movie.

Plot: Judy Hopps (the protagonist) of the movie is a small rabbit who instead of follwing in her family footsteps as a carrot farmer dreams to one day be a police officer in the big city of Zootopia, "where predator and prey live together in peace and harmony". But EVERYONE doubted her. She trains hard and becomes top of her class at the academy. When she moves to Zootopia. She is assigned to a case and needs help from a fox named Nick Wilde. An uncommon team of natural enemies, they help solve one of the toughest cases on the police force.

Thoughts: The movie was somewhat predictable at the suspense scenes. Overall, the movie's comedy is golden, and the storyline was great. Like almost all Disney movies, it focused on social morals that can be compared to the human world such as racism and discrimination. There is a very heartwarming lesson the characters learn, and of course, they're anthropomorphic animals. The movie focused on their animalistic personalities too unlike most movies with anthropomorphic animals. There are some parts of the movie that are very relatable to the audience and some parts in where even I nearly cried (and I normally don't cry at movies). I would watch it over and over again. In conclusion this movie is a must see.

Rating: 9/10
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LADIES AND GENTLEFURS I AM OPEN TO TAKE ANY COMMISSIONS FROM ANYWHERE BETWEEN BADGES, TO COMICS BASED ON ANY SCRIPT YOU DREAM OF (EVEN FETISH ART)! YOU CAN SEE SOME EXAMPLES IN MY ART GALLERY. IF YOU WANT MORE EXAMPLES EITHER NOTE ME ON HERE OR EMAIL ME AT:

mychemicalromancewolf[at]gmail.com

PRICES FOR ART COMMISSIONS RANGE FROM $3 TO $10!

ROCK ON!

Okay so, I set myself strictly for furry art for FA. So I will leave a link directly to my DeviantArt from my FA account. There you will see all of my non-furry art and my old furry art when I first joined the community. A lot of it is comic based or MCR fanart. One of my goals is to become a comic book illustrator and hopefully illustrate for one of my own father's comics. I am not sure if am at that skill level yet but I will keep practicing.

http://mychemwolf96.deviantart.com/

Just got off of Skype with Hogwash Husky, aka Raket. The guy was super funny and very down to earth. He played his videogames while we talked with him and got to ask all the questions we had on our mind. Fun fact, he is a HUGE pop-punk fan, so we jammed out to MCR, Blink-182, Fall Out Boy, ect. Even David Bowie!

Had to say, he is really cool and hopefully someday I will meet him at a furcon and hang out. My year has been made being able to have the privilege of talking to my fursuit idol and hopefully have even more conversations with him soon!

Today, I'm finally commissioning my friend Pawz Wolfey to make my partial! I'm so excited cause she lives in my area and I can see her progress in person. I'm so happy to finally see my character, my inner self, finally become real. I would like to thank her for making her suits at an amazing low cost for a good quality. Affordable, but great! Expect some suit selfies withing the next few months! You can see me this year at Gateway Furmeet in St. Louis, MO, this May!