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Hello Again, FA! Commissions + Comeback
General | Posted 6 years agoI’ve been way less active here as I took a lot of time to consider why I wasn’t having as much fun doing furry art anymore. I think my tastes may have largely outgrown my style, and it was hard for me to understand where I wanted it to go.
But now I have an idea, and I want to draw a lot and try new things! My style should be more mature now—like grown up. Elegant, maybe even a little spooky. I’ll post a lot here as I practice, but I may be super super clearing out older pieces in my gallery as I go so don’t be surprised! I really want the feel of a fresh start here.
While I’m working in my sketchbook and trying different things, I’ll be opening sketch commissions in very limited slots to try different kinds of characters.
The first round opens now, with 3 $25 sketch slots. I’m starting with just one character per drawing for now, but you can claim multiple slots. Sketches will be 8x10, full of pens and pencils and all sorts of things as usual, and can be shipped to you for $5.
DM me to claim your art!
But now I have an idea, and I want to draw a lot and try new things! My style should be more mature now—like grown up. Elegant, maybe even a little spooky. I’ll post a lot here as I practice, but I may be super super clearing out older pieces in my gallery as I go so don’t be surprised! I really want the feel of a fresh start here.
While I’m working in my sketchbook and trying different things, I’ll be opening sketch commissions in very limited slots to try different kinds of characters.
The first round opens now, with 3 $25 sketch slots. I’m starting with just one character per drawing for now, but you can claim multiple slots. Sketches will be 8x10, full of pens and pencils and all sorts of things as usual, and can be shipped to you for $5.
DM me to claim your art!
Streaming PWYW Commissions $25+
General | Posted 7 years agoCome get y'all art and say hi to my face
https://www.twitch.tv/ashhavynn
https://www.twitch.tv/ashhavynn
https://www.twitch.tv/ashhavynn
-no nsfw
-no kink art
-if you try to push it after I ask you to stop I'm kickin ya
-be badass
https://www.twitch.tv/ashhavynn
https://www.twitch.tv/ashhavynn
https://www.twitch.tv/ashhavynn
-no nsfw
-no kink art
-if you try to push it after I ask you to stop I'm kickin ya
-be badass
Picarto updates! Have I stopped making art?
General | Posted 8 years agoHey all! I know you've noticed that I don't post art on FA regularly anymore... Why!? Because not all of my art is furry, and I don't feel like non-furry art really belongs in my FA gallery. I've actually been posting more art than ever! You can find the bulk majority of it on my instagram, but I also regularly update tumblr with non-furry art, and have been much more active posting timelapse videos to my youtube channel. Catch up on the art you've missed:
Updated with most art: https://www.instagram.com/ashhavynn/
Also good: http://ashhavynn.tumblr.com/
Timelapse videos: https://www.youtube.com/user/AshHavynn
I'm also setting up a bit of a streaming schedule for 2018, among other things. My goal is to steadily work up to streaming once a week, with two commission streams and two independent art streams a month. Independent art streams will most likely be fan art, mixed media paintings, figure studies, and work on my comic in progress, where stream goers will get all that behind-the-scenes bullshit <3 Streams will be Fridays or Saturday nights, and I'll announce them here with an art post first, but you can follow my picarto channel to get notified when a stream begins: https://picarto.tv/AshHavynn
A goal I have set for myself this year is to be able to fund a premium picarto account so I can also offer private streams, where I redline others' art and do some personal art tutoring for those who need help, but I'll need to hit $125 a month on my Patreon ( https://www.patreon.com/ashhavynn ) or get enough subscriptions to reasonably afford it, so I'm gonna be working hard this year （ ･`ω･´)b ~*
Which leads me to my next point! I enabled subs on my picarto. I... did not know you could do that? But it would certainly make streaming a lot more worthwhile, especially for teaching streams and mixed media stuff and what not.
Whew, that was a lot of link dropping. Thanks for reading everything! 2018 is going to be a good year. I speak that into existence DX
What goals are you setting this year?
Updated with most art: https://www.instagram.com/ashhavynn/
Also good: http://ashhavynn.tumblr.com/
Timelapse videos: https://www.youtube.com/user/AshHavynn
I'm also setting up a bit of a streaming schedule for 2018, among other things. My goal is to steadily work up to streaming once a week, with two commission streams and two independent art streams a month. Independent art streams will most likely be fan art, mixed media paintings, figure studies, and work on my comic in progress, where stream goers will get all that behind-the-scenes bullshit <3 Streams will be Fridays or Saturday nights, and I'll announce them here with an art post first, but you can follow my picarto channel to get notified when a stream begins: https://picarto.tv/AshHavynn
A goal I have set for myself this year is to be able to fund a premium picarto account so I can also offer private streams, where I redline others' art and do some personal art tutoring for those who need help, but I'll need to hit $125 a month on my Patreon ( https://www.patreon.com/ashhavynn ) or get enough subscriptions to reasonably afford it, so I'm gonna be working hard this year （ ･`ω･´)b ~*
Which leads me to my next point! I enabled subs on my picarto. I... did not know you could do that? But it would certainly make streaming a lot more worthwhile, especially for teaching streams and mixed media stuff and what not.
Whew, that was a lot of link dropping. Thanks for reading everything! 2018 is going to be a good year. I speak that into existence DX
What goals are you setting this year?
TIFU by not posting Artwork
General | Posted 8 years agoAmong the chaos of preparing for the move a couple months back and everything else I had on my plate, I finished like 10 commissions I'd owed. Wow! So badass I thought! I'll upload them all before I have to pack the computer away!
...And then I promptly forgot to post them all for 2 months, like an absolute fucking asshole.
Guys it has been a fuckhead bullshit year. Shit broke. Money was lost. A lease was terminated. I've dropped the ball so many god damned times there's a hole in the floor, and this has got to be the dumbest bullshit I've ever done.
But y'all have stuck it through with me, many of you with only the utmost kindness and concern for my well being. This time last year I felt like I was gonna die, and I know I've said it, but every bit of support and every kind word I've received from y'all meant everything to me and kept my head above water.
I can't thank you enough.
...And then I promptly forgot to post them all for 2 months, like an absolute fucking asshole.
Guys it has been a fuckhead bullshit year. Shit broke. Money was lost. A lease was terminated. I've dropped the ball so many god damned times there's a hole in the floor, and this has got to be the dumbest bullshit I've ever done.
But y'all have stuck it through with me, many of you with only the utmost kindness and concern for my well being. This time last year I felt like I was gonna die, and I know I've said it, but every bit of support and every kind word I've received from y'all meant everything to me and kept my head above water.
I can't thank you enough.
Life Update + Public Commission Queue!
General | Posted 8 years agoSomething I'm sure you've all been wanting for a very long time, I now have a live updating art queue that will show you the status of your commissions!
As a hint, almost all of them from FA are done, and will be uploaded today or tomorrow. You can click here to see!
My orders are down to 12, which is the lowest they've been since my financial situation shat itself about this time last year. Feels good. Once I get caught up with these, if I can make manage, I may only take commissions 1 slot at a time by stream for a bit just to keep myself cool. I do not ever want to be this overloaded again.
Which leads to the next bit of news: In about three weeks, I'll be moving back in with my parents. On the one hand, it sucks and I wish I were more financially secure.
On the other hand, the other night I heard 7 gunshots and a broken window outside my apartment and you couldn't get me out of here fast enough.
I should be juuust about moved by my birthday next month--August 15th. I wanna look forward to it but I am Very Broke so I'm probably just gonna watch Monsters University for the millionth time with my soon to be no longer roomate.
As a hint, almost all of them from FA are done, and will be uploaded today or tomorrow. You can click here to see!
My orders are down to 12, which is the lowest they've been since my financial situation shat itself about this time last year. Feels good. Once I get caught up with these, if I can make manage, I may only take commissions 1 slot at a time by stream for a bit just to keep myself cool. I do not ever want to be this overloaded again.
Which leads to the next bit of news: In about three weeks, I'll be moving back in with my parents. On the one hand, it sucks and I wish I were more financially secure.
On the other hand, the other night I heard 7 gunshots and a broken window outside my apartment and you couldn't get me out of here fast enough.
I should be juuust about moved by my birthday next month--August 15th. I wanna look forward to it but I am Very Broke so I'm probably just gonna watch Monsters University for the millionth time with my soon to be no longer roomate.
What is UP, Fur Affinity
General | Posted 8 years agoI am god damn EXHAUSTED and half dead but HERE WE MCMOTHERFUCKING ARE.
I had my first Official Real No-Bullshit Day Off ™ this week in... actually months, probably. I spent it playing Ocarina of Time on my 3DS.
Please talk to me about Zelda things or something Cool that happened in your life or a cute dog you petted
I had my first Official Real No-Bullshit Day Off ™ this week in... actually months, probably. I spent it playing Ocarina of Time on my 3DS.
Please talk to me about Zelda things or something Cool that happened in your life or a cute dog you petted
Being Poor is Exhausting + Why I Don't Post More Often
General | Posted 8 years agoMan if you're poor, too, right now I just. -high fives you through the internet.- This shit is honestly the most stressful and exhausting thing, and when money becomes all you can think about as a survival mechanism, your quality of life really goes to pot. Literally. That shit takes your health down with it.
But anyways, it looks like I'm only really posting between once a week to once a month here at FA, which... sucks. I post a bit more on my Tumblr, but a solid 90% of what I'm posting is commissions. I'd like to be able to draw and paint more, and share my own stories and OCs without feeling afraid of if my rent will be paid. Commissions are great until they feel like they're the only art I'm "allowed" to do. I want to do more.
So that aside, I am completely and totally asking for help. There are a few ways you can help, and a couple don't cost a thing.
1. If you have money to spare, joining my Patreon helps me monthly. Patreon funds help me make speedpaint and how-to videos and pay my internet bill so I don't get cut off. Even as little as $1 a month helps. You can check it out here, obligation free, and even follow my feed for my free posts without pledging: https://www.patreon.com/ashhavynn
2. If you don't want to pledge but you'd like to buy some art, consider checking out my shop, getting yourself a print, or telling your friends about it. You can see my online shop here: http://ashhavynn.storenvy.com/
3. If you're on deviantART, you can help me loads just by following my deviantART and favoriting stuff as you normally would. You'll even get to see some art I don't post to furaffinity. You can find my DA here: http://ashhavynn.deviantart.com/
4. If you're on Tumblr, following my art blog and just reblogging the posts you normally would from me helps new people find my art. It does a lot more than you think, and it doesn't cost a dime. My blog is here: http://ashhavynn.tumblr.com/
Thank you again to everyone who supports me, I'm gonna put my nose back in my art for now <3
But anyways, it looks like I'm only really posting between once a week to once a month here at FA, which... sucks. I post a bit more on my Tumblr, but a solid 90% of what I'm posting is commissions. I'd like to be able to draw and paint more, and share my own stories and OCs without feeling afraid of if my rent will be paid. Commissions are great until they feel like they're the only art I'm "allowed" to do. I want to do more.
So that aside, I am completely and totally asking for help. There are a few ways you can help, and a couple don't cost a thing.
1. If you have money to spare, joining my Patreon helps me monthly. Patreon funds help me make speedpaint and how-to videos and pay my internet bill so I don't get cut off. Even as little as $1 a month helps. You can check it out here, obligation free, and even follow my feed for my free posts without pledging: https://www.patreon.com/ashhavynn
2. If you don't want to pledge but you'd like to buy some art, consider checking out my shop, getting yourself a print, or telling your friends about it. You can see my online shop here: http://ashhavynn.storenvy.com/
3. If you're on deviantART, you can help me loads just by following my deviantART and favoriting stuff as you normally would. You'll even get to see some art I don't post to furaffinity. You can find my DA here: http://ashhavynn.deviantart.com/
4. If you're on Tumblr, following my art blog and just reblogging the posts you normally would from me helps new people find my art. It does a lot more than you think, and it doesn't cost a dime. My blog is here: http://ashhavynn.tumblr.com/
Thank you again to everyone who supports me, I'm gonna put my nose back in my art for now <3
Fall 2016 Queue is Still Moving
General | Posted 8 years agoHey guys, just checking in again with another journal. You can see every so often I upload a handful of sketch commissions and then go quiet a bit, it's because I'm going through my queue here and then getting non-furry commission orders finished and posted elsewhere (like Tumblr for instance).
It's worth repeating again that last year... had a lot of $$$ shit hitting the fan for me, and none of it ended very well. I stretched myself way beyond my means, and wound up in debt both in money and in art. My queue was over 50 for a while, I had to drop out of school anyway (and still owe hundreds of dollars), drop my health insurance, ect ect, and each month I still have to take new work to make ends meet despite the queue of last year's commissions growing older. I don't say this as an "oh, pity my poor soul" thing, it's simply the reality of the situation, and I've come to terms with it. I'm doing what I can daily to catch up on the owed work, keep new orders from being this tardy, and still make my bills, and I've managed to get it down from over 40 outstanding orders to just 9 orders left from 2016.
Some of you have been waiting a very long time for your art, and I want to thank you for your understanding. You reached out to me in one of my greatest times of need, and I want to make sure you know how much I appreciate it.
You're all amazing and I literally have a roof over my head because of you. I remind myself about that a lot. So every day I try to be better and better of an artist for you. Thank you!
It's worth repeating again that last year... had a lot of $$$ shit hitting the fan for me, and none of it ended very well. I stretched myself way beyond my means, and wound up in debt both in money and in art. My queue was over 50 for a while, I had to drop out of school anyway (and still owe hundreds of dollars), drop my health insurance, ect ect, and each month I still have to take new work to make ends meet despite the queue of last year's commissions growing older. I don't say this as an "oh, pity my poor soul" thing, it's simply the reality of the situation, and I've come to terms with it. I'm doing what I can daily to catch up on the owed work, keep new orders from being this tardy, and still make my bills, and I've managed to get it down from over 40 outstanding orders to just 9 orders left from 2016.
Some of you have been waiting a very long time for your art, and I want to thank you for your understanding. You reached out to me in one of my greatest times of need, and I want to make sure you know how much I appreciate it.
You're all amazing and I literally have a roof over my head because of you. I remind myself about that a lot. So every day I try to be better and better of an artist for you. Thank you!
So Far So Good + Patreon!
General | Posted 9 years agoSo far I haven't had any other noticeable problems with the new rig. I haven't gotten to test it out with any video recording/editing or gaming or anything fun, but hell, it runs photoshop and SAI so I'm better off than I was before.
Been fighting some... very borderline dangerous depression bouts this week, not really gonna get into it, but I'm doing the best I can. Work is still slow OTL
I'm also still trying very hard to share my Patreon around, since all pledges I get really do help me get by. I'm finding it takes a lot of a toll on my well being to be all work and no play, but I'm currently just not in a position where I can afford to work less. Patreon is currently paying my phone bill and some of my groceries. Even if you can't donate, it'd mean a lot to me if you just followed my feed for free or shared the link around. Sometimes I see a like on one of my public posts by someone who isn't on my patrons list, and it always brings a smile to my face to know people care.
https://www.patreon.com/ashhavynn
https://www.patreon.com/ashhavynn
https://www.patreon.com/ashhavynn
I wanna draw that stupid asscrack sweater meme so bad on a few of my girls, but I get to draw my own ocs so little I... don't even know if y'all know any of them! If you do, and you have a preference for who I draw this ridiculous slutty sweater on, let me know in the comments. It will go on patreon first as a thank you to everyone who is supporting me this month <33
Been fighting some... very borderline dangerous depression bouts this week, not really gonna get into it, but I'm doing the best I can. Work is still slow OTL
I'm also still trying very hard to share my Patreon around, since all pledges I get really do help me get by. I'm finding it takes a lot of a toll on my well being to be all work and no play, but I'm currently just not in a position where I can afford to work less. Patreon is currently paying my phone bill and some of my groceries. Even if you can't donate, it'd mean a lot to me if you just followed my feed for free or shared the link around. Sometimes I see a like on one of my public posts by someone who isn't on my patrons list, and it always brings a smile to my face to know people care.
https://www.patreon.com/ashhavynn
https://www.patreon.com/ashhavynn
https://www.patreon.com/ashhavynn
I wanna draw that stupid asscrack sweater meme so bad on a few of my girls, but I get to draw my own ocs so little I... don't even know if y'all know any of them! If you do, and you have a preference for who I draw this ridiculous slutty sweater on, let me know in the comments. It will go on patreon first as a thank you to everyone who is supporting me this month <33
Pray to the Computer Gods
General | Posted 9 years agoSo we're pretty much done fucking with Windows 10 at this point, we're gonna install 7 and see if that fixes all these damn issues
And I'm just... really hoping.
Like, I have not had a functioning computer, to my name, since like... June. Like 8 months. My computer and laptop died at the same damn time.
I'm so so so ready for shit to stop going so damned wrong all the time lmso
Let my shit stop breaking
Let my sources of income stop falling through
Let me stop being poor every fucking month
Let me get on meds that actually help
I know my recent journals have all been really negative and full of complaining but just... LORD can I catch a break. I am... tired...
And I'm just... really hoping.
Like, I have not had a functioning computer, to my name, since like... June. Like 8 months. My computer and laptop died at the same damn time.
I'm so so so ready for shit to stop going so damned wrong all the time lmso
Let my shit stop breaking
Let my sources of income stop falling through
Let me stop being poor every fucking month
Let me get on meds that actually help
I know my recent journals have all been really negative and full of complaining but just... LORD can I catch a break. I am... tired...
Lmfao Nevermind
General | Posted 9 years agoComputer is already fucking up, gotta troubleshoot a problem s the hdmi cable <33
I just transferred everything off my bro's laptop <33
Will continue to keep you all updated, hopefully this gets resolved soon and I can just..... have a computer......
I just transferred everything off my bro's laptop <33
Will continue to keep you all updated, hopefully this gets resolved soon and I can just..... have a computer......
NEW COMPUTER NEW COMPUTER
General | Posted 9 years agoBREATHES
IT'S HERE
My brother is wonderful and got built me a new computer to replace the one that died in June. As a lot of you know, I've been borrowing his laptop for months, now. I'm so excited to get my workdesk back in working order and set up my software <3 I've got just a couple of orders to post up tonight but I'm going to scan them in on the new rig <33
IT FEELS SO GOOD TO BE USING THIS KEYBOARD AGAIN, I CAN'T WAIT TO GET MY WEBCAM SET BACK UP!!
IT'S HERE
My brother is wonderful and got built me a new computer to replace the one that died in June. As a lot of you know, I've been borrowing his laptop for months, now. I'm so excited to get my workdesk back in working order and set up my software <3 I've got just a couple of orders to post up tonight but I'm going to scan them in on the new rig <33
IT FEELS SO GOOD TO BE USING THIS KEYBOARD AGAIN, I CAN'T WAIT TO GET MY WEBCAM SET BACK UP!!
Help my friend win a pretend fight game for fun!
General | Posted 9 years agoMy friend is currently in second place in a Fighting Tournament here!
You cam vote for him by faving this piece (1 vote = 1 fav): http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22282025/
Thanks you guys!
You cam vote for him by faving this piece (1 vote = 1 fav): http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22282025/
Thanks you guys!
I'm Dying Squirtle
General | Posted 9 years agoBeen working long shifts every day and my sleep schedule decided to get fucked, and depression just decided it's time to hate myself because I am Bad At Everything.
And the worst part is, it looks like I'm constantly in and out of hiatus here bc half my orders are really non furry? So I? Don't? Post them here?
Gonna upload a couple today to feel better about myself but good lord I feel exhausted and awful and it's never enough and I'm still in debt :')
I had all my taxes saved up and then I had to pay for shit I wasn't supposed to have to and now I;m probably going to get slapped w a $100 late fee bc I can't raise this money in time and just
man oh man it's great being poor.
Sorry for the negativity, hopefully when I feel less pgysically tured and awful I'll perk up jesus
And the worst part is, it looks like I'm constantly in and out of hiatus here bc half my orders are really non furry? So I? Don't? Post them here?
Gonna upload a couple today to feel better about myself but good lord I feel exhausted and awful and it's never enough and I'm still in debt :')
I had all my taxes saved up and then I had to pay for shit I wasn't supposed to have to and now I;m probably going to get slapped w a $100 late fee bc I can't raise this money in time and just
man oh man it's great being poor.
Sorry for the negativity, hopefully when I feel less pgysically tured and awful I'll perk up jesus
Merry Chrimyears
General | Posted 9 years agoMy roomie bought me some kahlua for the new years countdown, so now for the fun journal about all the sweetness in my life!
So, I'm 26, I'm living in my first apartment, the last two years have had... a lot of upheaval and change in my social life. I really didn't expect anything for Christmas. I gave what I could, but my roomate and I aren't exactly well off and she just returned from her honeymoon with the hubby. I bought myself one present so I'd have something to go "hurr hurr" at on the 25th: an order of aquarium plants that came with a free piece of driftwood. They were all on sale, and the tiger lotus bulbs I'd been drooling over for months were $4, when they're usually $8 each anywhere. I've been wanting the driftwood. It was a good time.
So my order comes in, and I'm planting everything, and I get messages from two friends in different parts of the country to check the mail. I was SPOILT this year you guys. One of them sent me 2 coffee mugs for my addict ass--one a replacement for a mug my friend had broken (it had been a gift from her to begin with, so I'd been sad), and one with this gorgeous photo of jellyfish on it that she'd taken herself. She also sent me chocolate, tea, and a ballpoint pen with Kylo Ren on it. Damn I was flattered. (By the way, said friend who'd broken it bought me a really cute mug to make up for it... lmao I have so many I'm a coffee mug hoarder)
Then I get the second package, and my other friend had just... stealth gone through my amazon wishlist without telling me. He bought me an aquarium light you guys. Holy shit. And some ink refills for one of the pens that got stolen a few days later LMAO but I'll be set on refills for a good time once the replacement comes in. But you guys... An aquarium light.
If you don't know me, then you need to know I fucking love my aquariums. I have five betta fish and as many nerite snails, and a jack ton of plants, and even some fish bowls with plants and marimo balls in them. This is my hobby, I do this to escape, I look at them when I'm upset. It's something I feel like I'm good at even when I'm bad at other things. I almost cried over that aquarium light you guys.
And in other good aqua nerd related news, I took a look inside my smallest fishbowl the other day and found all sorts of shit. The duckweed I salvaged from my plants order is growing and I'm crossing my fingers it'll grow enough for me to transfer into my tanks, there's like... daphnia or something in there, and some of the fairy shrimp (think freshwater sea monkeys) are almost adults! I thought they'd all died off, but there's some adolescents and even a handful of late stage nauplii. This makes me way happier than it should omg.
If any of my followers are betta/freshwater plant nerds like me plz tell! I love this shit <3
So, I'm 26, I'm living in my first apartment, the last two years have had... a lot of upheaval and change in my social life. I really didn't expect anything for Christmas. I gave what I could, but my roomate and I aren't exactly well off and she just returned from her honeymoon with the hubby. I bought myself one present so I'd have something to go "hurr hurr" at on the 25th: an order of aquarium plants that came with a free piece of driftwood. They were all on sale, and the tiger lotus bulbs I'd been drooling over for months were $4, when they're usually $8 each anywhere. I've been wanting the driftwood. It was a good time.
So my order comes in, and I'm planting everything, and I get messages from two friends in different parts of the country to check the mail. I was SPOILT this year you guys. One of them sent me 2 coffee mugs for my addict ass--one a replacement for a mug my friend had broken (it had been a gift from her to begin with, so I'd been sad), and one with this gorgeous photo of jellyfish on it that she'd taken herself. She also sent me chocolate, tea, and a ballpoint pen with Kylo Ren on it. Damn I was flattered. (By the way, said friend who'd broken it bought me a really cute mug to make up for it... lmao I have so many I'm a coffee mug hoarder)
Then I get the second package, and my other friend had just... stealth gone through my amazon wishlist without telling me. He bought me an aquarium light you guys. Holy shit. And some ink refills for one of the pens that got stolen a few days later LMAO but I'll be set on refills for a good time once the replacement comes in. But you guys... An aquarium light.
If you don't know me, then you need to know I fucking love my aquariums. I have five betta fish and as many nerite snails, and a jack ton of plants, and even some fish bowls with plants and marimo balls in them. This is my hobby, I do this to escape, I look at them when I'm upset. It's something I feel like I'm good at even when I'm bad at other things. I almost cried over that aquarium light you guys.
And in other good aqua nerd related news, I took a look inside my smallest fishbowl the other day and found all sorts of shit. The duckweed I salvaged from my plants order is growing and I'm crossing my fingers it'll grow enough for me to transfer into my tanks, there's like... daphnia or something in there, and some of the fairy shrimp (think freshwater sea monkeys) are almost adults! I thought they'd all died off, but there's some adolescents and even a handful of late stage nauplii. This makes me way happier than it should omg.
If any of my followers are betta/freshwater plant nerds like me plz tell! I love this shit <3
Panic Attack Over
General | Posted 9 years agoI got a few basic pens to tide me over until I can get actual replacements for the ones lost. I'm currently building an amazon list of things I still need replaced, and my roomate is helping me get a few things as well.
https://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/ls/?ie=UTF8&lid=1LIB8CK8K3WU
This should be the link to the list, or you can donate at paypal.me/ashhavynn if you'd like to help!
I got caught up on a couple of orders off of FA, might collage them together and post them to scraps. I have an an alarm set to remind me to scan in some of the finished stuff for FA tomorrow.
This is just kind of an update journal, but later this evening I'll make a happier post about Christmas and Aquariums.
https://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/ls/?ie=UTF8&lid=1LIB8CK8K3WU
This should be the link to the list, or you can donate at paypal.me/ashhavynn if you'd like to help!
I got caught up on a couple of orders off of FA, might collage them together and post them to scraps. I have an an alarm set to remind me to scan in some of the finished stuff for FA tomorrow.
This is just kind of an update journal, but later this evening I'll make a happier post about Christmas and Aquariums.
Someone stole my art pens
General | Posted 9 years agooh my god
my entire bag of pens what the fuck
I need to do these commissions -now-
it was the day after christmas how fucking could you
my entire bag of pens what the fuck
I need to do these commissions -now-
it was the day after christmas how fucking could you
Work Checklist/Commissions CLOSED/Life Updates
General | Posted 9 years agoSort out the freakin queue: Check.
Clean up inbox so I can find order references: Check.
Respond to messages JFC where did these come from: Check
Make a better system for organizing orders: Dear god check
Marathon through orders: In progress! It is 4 AM here and I've been working in batches so I can upload several at a time. Next to be posted should be HeavenlyCondemned, HauntedFate, ZombieAddict, RandoChris, Toomanyrobots and a couple of off-FA orders.
My queue is currently 34 orders long. 34. That's bullshit and I'm gonna get that number down. WIPs and sneak peeks are going up on my Instagram as I get through them, link should be at the bottom of the journal. Commissions are currently CLOSED until I can get this queue down to where it needs to be.
As a question: When I post the WIPs to instagram, show of hands, who would want me to post the same pics in my scraps? I think I'm gonna do that. That way they should pop up in your feeds, and I won't look like I dropped off of the face of the planet.
Already planning my New Year's Resolution for 2017: Practice cognitive skills for fighting the ADHD and keeping my time perception in check. Time perception has got to be a thing you can like... train on or something. If any of you have BAD problems with time perception and know any tips for keeping on track, do share!
Lastly, I don't recall if I've mentioned this before, but my mom gave me the brilliant idea to look for ADHD/task management apps for my phone. My psychiatrist is always telling me "Just set an alarm," which is really... not helpful, because the second I acknowledge "Oh, it's time to do XYZ," and turn the alarm off, it just evaporates out of my mind. It's bad. But while digging, I found this app for Android/iOS AND web browser I believe, called Habitica. It's like a cute little interactive to-do list app that formats your chores/task list into a simple RPG. You get exp and gold for doing the shit you're supposed to, and you take health damage if you miss a task. You level up, find items and pets (I already have a big purple dragon <3) and can use the gold to buy like, armor upgrades and stuff. Or you can make your own rewards to buy, like, "play a video game all day" for however much gold you feel is justified... Which, kind of gives your chores and obligations a kind of monetary value that you can use to help balance "how much work do I feel this luxury is worth." And a cherry on top is that the tasks are in bold, colored boxes. You can set it to like, "this task needs to be done every friday" or whatever, and on the days it isn't active it's grey, but on the day it needs to be addressed it will be a bright color. I just found out the better you get at doing a task when it's supposed to get done, the more blue the box gets. But if you're really bad at doing it and checking it off, the box starts to turn dark red.
I am insanely visual, and my mind's first reaction to seeing lots of text is usually to check out and go party elsewhere. One of the reasons to-do lists generally don't help me much. But I can see a block of color and immediately just "get it."
Obviously some cute little app isn't going to just FIX my brain, but it has helped me so much lately that I have to share it with you. I still lose health a lot of days and some of my tasks are pretty red from me struggling to do them, but some of my daily Adulting chores are bright green or blue and that's a lot of improvement. Things like, "feed the fish" or "change the fishes' water" aren't things I can just forget because of the ADHD and not have dire consequences. And if I'm not hyperfocusing on pets that can't yell at me, I absolutely can and have neglected them out of sheer spacing out. Even written to do lists and recurring alarms have not helped, and nothing makes me feel shittier than suddenly "waking up" and seeing my animals or their habitats in poor health.
My fish have not gone hungry since I got this app.
I don't know why my ADHD got worse. I didn't think it did that. Or maybe it didn't. Something I once read was that very clever students with ADHD can often appear to function at a decent level until some point in adulthood, usually college. At some point or another, their life demands more of them than they are able to manage, and the symptoms of their ADHD finally have consequences. Like they finally get overwhelmed. That's kind of what it feels like. But I'm really glad that I've gotten better at something this month, even if I'm still so far down the shitter. It means I can do this. Just gotta keep trying because I don't like who I am right now, and even if it's not nearly as fast as I want it to be, I'm not going to stay in a place I'm not happy in.
Clean up inbox so I can find order references: Check.
Respond to messages JFC where did these come from: Check
Make a better system for organizing orders: Dear god check
Marathon through orders: In progress! It is 4 AM here and I've been working in batches so I can upload several at a time. Next to be posted should be HeavenlyCondemned, HauntedFate, ZombieAddict, RandoChris, Toomanyrobots and a couple of off-FA orders.
My queue is currently 34 orders long. 34. That's bullshit and I'm gonna get that number down. WIPs and sneak peeks are going up on my Instagram as I get through them, link should be at the bottom of the journal. Commissions are currently CLOSED until I can get this queue down to where it needs to be.
As a question: When I post the WIPs to instagram, show of hands, who would want me to post the same pics in my scraps? I think I'm gonna do that. That way they should pop up in your feeds, and I won't look like I dropped off of the face of the planet.
Already planning my New Year's Resolution for 2017: Practice cognitive skills for fighting the ADHD and keeping my time perception in check. Time perception has got to be a thing you can like... train on or something. If any of you have BAD problems with time perception and know any tips for keeping on track, do share!
Lastly, I don't recall if I've mentioned this before, but my mom gave me the brilliant idea to look for ADHD/task management apps for my phone. My psychiatrist is always telling me "Just set an alarm," which is really... not helpful, because the second I acknowledge "Oh, it's time to do XYZ," and turn the alarm off, it just evaporates out of my mind. It's bad. But while digging, I found this app for Android/iOS AND web browser I believe, called Habitica. It's like a cute little interactive to-do list app that formats your chores/task list into a simple RPG. You get exp and gold for doing the shit you're supposed to, and you take health damage if you miss a task. You level up, find items and pets (I already have a big purple dragon <3) and can use the gold to buy like, armor upgrades and stuff. Or you can make your own rewards to buy, like, "play a video game all day" for however much gold you feel is justified... Which, kind of gives your chores and obligations a kind of monetary value that you can use to help balance "how much work do I feel this luxury is worth." And a cherry on top is that the tasks are in bold, colored boxes. You can set it to like, "this task needs to be done every friday" or whatever, and on the days it isn't active it's grey, but on the day it needs to be addressed it will be a bright color. I just found out the better you get at doing a task when it's supposed to get done, the more blue the box gets. But if you're really bad at doing it and checking it off, the box starts to turn dark red.
I am insanely visual, and my mind's first reaction to seeing lots of text is usually to check out and go party elsewhere. One of the reasons to-do lists generally don't help me much. But I can see a block of color and immediately just "get it."
Obviously some cute little app isn't going to just FIX my brain, but it has helped me so much lately that I have to share it with you. I still lose health a lot of days and some of my tasks are pretty red from me struggling to do them, but some of my daily Adulting chores are bright green or blue and that's a lot of improvement. Things like, "feed the fish" or "change the fishes' water" aren't things I can just forget because of the ADHD and not have dire consequences. And if I'm not hyperfocusing on pets that can't yell at me, I absolutely can and have neglected them out of sheer spacing out. Even written to do lists and recurring alarms have not helped, and nothing makes me feel shittier than suddenly "waking up" and seeing my animals or their habitats in poor health.
My fish have not gone hungry since I got this app.
I don't know why my ADHD got worse. I didn't think it did that. Or maybe it didn't. Something I once read was that very clever students with ADHD can often appear to function at a decent level until some point in adulthood, usually college. At some point or another, their life demands more of them than they are able to manage, and the symptoms of their ADHD finally have consequences. Like they finally get overwhelmed. That's kind of what it feels like. But I'm really glad that I've gotten better at something this month, even if I'm still so far down the shitter. It means I can do this. Just gotta keep trying because I don't like who I am right now, and even if it's not nearly as fast as I want it to be, I'm not going to stay in a place I'm not happy in.
I was feeling crappy earlier
General | Posted 9 years agoBut then I drew some weird vent art, listened to Zootopia's "Try Everything" like 500 times and got back to work. Honestly thank god for a song that literally says "you are gonna fuck up and it is going to happen a lot, and that's ok you can still do the thing" because I really needed that message. Somehow I always think it's the end of the world any time I'm not as good at something as I want to be.
I am poor, behind on bills and my queue looks like a dragon pissing on a train wreck but that does not mean I'm not gonna get better at this forever. I just have to keep trying and keep practicing until I succeed more than I fail.
And drink. So much coffee.
I am poor, behind on bills and my queue looks like a dragon pissing on a train wreck but that does not mean I'm not gonna get better at this forever. I just have to keep trying and keep practicing until I succeed more than I fail.
And drink. So much coffee.
Florida Sands and Wedding Bells
General | Posted 9 years ago...Not my own, of course! My BFF/roomate who has been pretty well adopted into my family by both my parents (I've been calling her my sister and will be from now on) is getting married on Saturday. Mom and I made the drive all the way to Florida to help and join her for the occasion. We get one day to visit the beach and collect seashells and ease the bride's nerves, and then it's the big day. Immediately the morning after, we'll be making the 12 hour drive back home.
I've never been this far from Texas before, and I've certainly never been to a manicured beach in a tourist town before. I'm nervous and excited for the wedding, guilty for "being away from work" when I'm so behind, and excited for the beach tomorrow where I'll have something of my first real vacation. I've been told repeatedly that the beach we're visiting is beautiful.
In other news, someone suggested using unconventional organization apps to combat my adhd. I'm giving one a try this month to help me remember meds and hopefully get a grip on my time perception again. Wish me luck!
I've never been this far from Texas before, and I've certainly never been to a manicured beach in a tourist town before. I'm nervous and excited for the wedding, guilty for "being away from work" when I'm so behind, and excited for the beach tomorrow where I'll have something of my first real vacation. I've been told repeatedly that the beach we're visiting is beautiful.
In other news, someone suggested using unconventional organization apps to combat my adhd. I'm giving one a try this month to help me remember meds and hopefully get a grip on my time perception again. Wish me luck!
Helltober: Dropping Out of School
General | Posted 9 years agoSorry for disappearing on you guys. October wasn't a good month for a lot of reasons. Primarily my absence has been from the standard depression/anxiety/ADHD combo getting out of control, even though I've been working my ass off to get by. A few days last month, I'd sit down to eat or feed the fish or something, and I'd entirely zone out so bad that I'd forget what I was doing or where I was, and when I'd come out of it I'd find hours had past. On "normal" ish days, I'd be busy working on stuff all day only to not... have anything to show for it? Or not remember what I had done. I'd know I'd been busting ass all day, but only remember doing one chore. Despite this, my psychiatrist isn't convinced that my medication isn't working, and there's been no change in my prescription.
To add to this, I can't afford school. I still have to pay for it, though. And the workload on top of routine housework and pet care is impossible for me right now without fucking up my commissions sideways, as you may have noticed. That drives me mad. So I'm dropping out to work full time. It'll be next week before I can get this shit together, but I'll make it up to everyone I have late orders with. Sorry again.
To add to this, I can't afford school. I still have to pay for it, though. And the workload on top of routine housework and pet care is impossible for me right now without fucking up my commissions sideways, as you may have noticed. That drives me mad. So I'm dropping out to work full time. It'll be next week before I can get this shit together, but I'll make it up to everyone I have late orders with. Sorry again.
Today, I Learned How to Burn Hamburger Patties.
General | Posted 9 years agoI am not a cook. Even when my mom tried to teach me things, my ADHD made it to where I only gathered an incomplete set of directions, or I fully forgot what she taught me after learning it. Now that I'm living on my own, learning how to cook is trial-and-error, just like it has been for many others.
I take great joy in anything I can cook in a frying pan on the stove, because I can do that!
I attempted to cook several hamburger patties today (so some could go in the fridge for lunches), and I burnt two so bad they had to be thrown out. I'm pretty sure I even overcooked the ones that don't physically look overcooked. I also made the grave mistake of seriously underestimating how long it takes to cook these patties. It was meant to be my first meal of the day. By the time I had my plate, I was shaking from low blood sugar, and taking my adderall without food fucked me up. Never again. Not for the first meal.
I take great joy in anything I can cook in a frying pan on the stove, because I can do that!
I attempted to cook several hamburger patties today (so some could go in the fridge for lunches), and I burnt two so bad they had to be thrown out. I'm pretty sure I even overcooked the ones that don't physically look overcooked. I also made the grave mistake of seriously underestimating how long it takes to cook these patties. It was meant to be my first meal of the day. By the time I had my plate, I was shaking from low blood sugar, and taking my adderall without food fucked me up. Never again. Not for the first meal.
Ask Me Anything!
General | Posted 9 years agoGonna do a Q&A journal while I get in gear today. I'm havin one of those inexplicably anxious days and feelin kinda awful, and I could use some casual jabbering about myself or art. Indulge me?
Journal Header Feature for Feature!
General | Posted 9 years agoI'm following in 
akuva's footsteps and doing a F4F in my header. If you'd like to be featured:
*Comment here so I can check out your stuff!
*Feature me in your journal header!
That's it! I'll pick a handful of my favs to add to my header, and after a couple of months I'll switch em out to feature some new people.
akuva's footsteps and doing a F4F in my header. If you'd like to be featured:*Comment here so I can check out your stuff!
*Feature me in your journal header!
That's it! I'll pick a handful of my favs to add to my header, and after a couple of months I'll switch em out to feature some new people.
And I Crashed!
General | Posted 9 years ago...asleep that is!
After spending weeks working my ass off and one VERY crazy weekend, I kinda crashed out asleep for nearly three days.
I've got some neglected housework to catch up on and then I need to sort out the budget and plan for this month. I'm going to catch up on my queue some before I do any other big sales pushes for upcoming bills, but there will be more streams!
I'll be putting together a discount sale involving Halloween flavored art, too, so look out for that.
After spending weeks working my ass off and one VERY crazy weekend, I kinda crashed out asleep for nearly three days.
I've got some neglected housework to catch up on and then I need to sort out the budget and plan for this month. I'm going to catch up on my queue some before I do any other big sales pushes for upcoming bills, but there will be more streams!
I'll be putting together a discount sale involving Halloween flavored art, too, so look out for that.
