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General | Posted 10 years agoMoved accounts over to 
SpazzTwizzler PLEASE WATCH ME THERE IF YOU EVER WANT TO SEE ART FROM ME THANK YOU.
SpazzTwizzler PLEASE WATCH ME THERE IF YOU EVER WANT TO SEE ART FROM ME THANK YOU.IMPORTANT TO ANY WATCHERS
General | Posted 10 years agoI have moved accounts! This one I am no longer useing you can find me over at SpazzTwizzler please watch me there for updates and the like this one will be disabled soon!
SpazzTwizzler please watch me there for updates and the like this one will be disabled soon!Lookie here a Raffle
General | Posted 11 years ago
GlitterRat is holding a free raffle here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15376492/ Feel free to check it out! You can either win a tutu or a Bracelet, I think they look pretty nice not going to lie. So go take a peek.Sometimes you just need to vent
General | Posted 11 years agoWhich I feel deep down in doing so, it's been along time since I vented about anything. Well I guess I'll go ahead and start...
I hope next year will be better than this year, I mean it... I am amazed at the sort of luck I've had this year really I am. First and foremost was when a good friend of mine decided to stop being friends with me because of my own personal choices, and then another one up and turned around saying I wasn't a good friend. I still blame myself everyday, wondering what I did wrong or what I could have done differently... It's always a repeat, year after year and I am still clueless as to what I seem to do wrong.
I play World of Warcraft a lot alright, I've gotten back into it because it's the only escape I seem to have besides other internet things... I'm annoying it appears, not sure how. It's alright for people to brag at me what they have or what they had gotten, but if I even talk about what I got let's say, a mount or something in real life... I get told, Why do you only talk to me to brag at me, IT's very annoying." ... Alright, so I'll stop talking about anything and just sit there being happy for what you or others have instead.
Christmas was a hard day for me this year, the holiday was sort of... like a normal day. I suppose it's due to knowing I couldn't wish a friend merry Christmas because they had passed away this year... So I stayed minding my own thoughts instead of bothering others, because I didn't want to hear, Aska seriously or Aska stop being this or that, or Aska you always do this or that blah blah wrong wrong.
I found out from my mom, I love her dearly that my aunt think's I'm messed up in the head because I was to be male not female, that I am a woman and should act like one... -Grunts- It's very stressful and makes me want to cry sometimes, school did the same thing. I feel lost, I feel trapped, I feel confused... I grow tired of the daily told this or that, or to do this or that... I am trying so hard to be myself, to be someone that cares and can be looked forward to speaking to... but it's failing.
I somewhere along the lines forgot about myself and forgot how to take care of myself, I have weight issues, I don't like being told I'm getting fatter. My aunt told me yesterday I'm getting wider and gaining weight. I don't eat junk food hardly, I go walking, I do all sorts of things but... it's more stress... It's saddening. I want to scream, I want to just scream at the world. I'm not apart of my pagan group anymore, they didn't want me there after the one fight me and one of the folks had because she was high and drunk... I got told all I do is antagonize people, I haven't been there in months... I finally left a note and said I won't be coming anymore since it is clear I wasn't invited to show my mug around.
My uncle seems to think it's okay to nag me sometimes, I do things differently. His family does, and so does mine... All over a milk carton who knew, it was cold and rainy that day, I didn't want to get sick but he got upset because I didn't go out in it to toss the carton in the trash. So i did, and got cold. Ah well.
Being a furry isn't easy I am realizing, when people see my Sona they seem to avoid me? Not sure why, he's not that scary. In all truth he'd cuddle the hell out of someone and be that person whom you could throw all ones issues on and still try to smile. Sort of like how I am... Spazz Twizzler has become part of my life more than any other sona I own, I just wish that I could be as cheery as he could be even when times are hard...
I like to draw traditionally. Not going to lie, Digital art causes me a lot of pain in my wrist and hand. So when I get told I'm better at painting digitally it makes me feel stressed, when I get told Eh on my traditional that I spend more hours on than my digital I start to question things... As an artist, what I draw on paper is my life, it's what I enjoy the most... I never could get the hang of digital at all...
Bah I guess that's the end of my ranting venting for now... in other news, IT'S ALMOST NEW YEARS.
I hope next year will be better than this year, I mean it... I am amazed at the sort of luck I've had this year really I am. First and foremost was when a good friend of mine decided to stop being friends with me because of my own personal choices, and then another one up and turned around saying I wasn't a good friend. I still blame myself everyday, wondering what I did wrong or what I could have done differently... It's always a repeat, year after year and I am still clueless as to what I seem to do wrong.
I play World of Warcraft a lot alright, I've gotten back into it because it's the only escape I seem to have besides other internet things... I'm annoying it appears, not sure how. It's alright for people to brag at me what they have or what they had gotten, but if I even talk about what I got let's say, a mount or something in real life... I get told, Why do you only talk to me to brag at me, IT's very annoying." ... Alright, so I'll stop talking about anything and just sit there being happy for what you or others have instead.
Christmas was a hard day for me this year, the holiday was sort of... like a normal day. I suppose it's due to knowing I couldn't wish a friend merry Christmas because they had passed away this year... So I stayed minding my own thoughts instead of bothering others, because I didn't want to hear, Aska seriously or Aska stop being this or that, or Aska you always do this or that blah blah wrong wrong.
I found out from my mom, I love her dearly that my aunt think's I'm messed up in the head because I was to be male not female, that I am a woman and should act like one... -Grunts- It's very stressful and makes me want to cry sometimes, school did the same thing. I feel lost, I feel trapped, I feel confused... I grow tired of the daily told this or that, or to do this or that... I am trying so hard to be myself, to be someone that cares and can be looked forward to speaking to... but it's failing.
I somewhere along the lines forgot about myself and forgot how to take care of myself, I have weight issues, I don't like being told I'm getting fatter. My aunt told me yesterday I'm getting wider and gaining weight. I don't eat junk food hardly, I go walking, I do all sorts of things but... it's more stress... It's saddening. I want to scream, I want to just scream at the world. I'm not apart of my pagan group anymore, they didn't want me there after the one fight me and one of the folks had because she was high and drunk... I got told all I do is antagonize people, I haven't been there in months... I finally left a note and said I won't be coming anymore since it is clear I wasn't invited to show my mug around.
My uncle seems to think it's okay to nag me sometimes, I do things differently. His family does, and so does mine... All over a milk carton who knew, it was cold and rainy that day, I didn't want to get sick but he got upset because I didn't go out in it to toss the carton in the trash. So i did, and got cold. Ah well.
Being a furry isn't easy I am realizing, when people see my Sona they seem to avoid me? Not sure why, he's not that scary. In all truth he'd cuddle the hell out of someone and be that person whom you could throw all ones issues on and still try to smile. Sort of like how I am... Spazz Twizzler has become part of my life more than any other sona I own, I just wish that I could be as cheery as he could be even when times are hard...
I like to draw traditionally. Not going to lie, Digital art causes me a lot of pain in my wrist and hand. So when I get told I'm better at painting digitally it makes me feel stressed, when I get told Eh on my traditional that I spend more hours on than my digital I start to question things... As an artist, what I draw on paper is my life, it's what I enjoy the most... I never could get the hang of digital at all...
Bah I guess that's the end of my ranting venting for now... in other news, IT'S ALMOST NEW YEARS.
OH WOW
General | Posted 11 years agoOkay so, I finally got a new computer! But problem is I don't have the files from anything digital I did so guess what, anyone I owe art to, which I still owe, all I can do is traditional right now since I seem to have misplaced my tablet cord as well as the screen on this desktop not taking to kindly to me drawing with it lol the screen is an old one I have hahahaha. So um, please NOTE ME! ANYONE THAT I OWE ANYTHING TO! NOTE ME AND I WILL GET IT DONE ASAP SEND ME REFS ECT! I DEEPLY APOLOGIZE!
Holyballs.
General | Posted 11 years agoI was unable to check to see what I needed to do again, due to FA being down like it was D: also my laptop has been blue screening of death alot lately, I'm going to start working on things again also, I finally found Nier! This is exciting, but yeah man that downtime is crazy, friggen DDOS attacks :c I apologize for the long as hell wait ;n; I swear, stuff will be done, and I'll pick up the pace, life has been a little hectic too x_x like normal. -Snuggles everyone-
Yay! Tablet came in!
General | Posted 11 years agoAwesome! Finally got it, hahaha I like it, just strange to use because I'm used to using a broken piece of poop... To those I have to do art for I will get them done, the person who wants the naga done please Note me with what you want etc, as well as anyone else I have things for.
Rizen That dragon will be done one of these days lol damn scales driving me crazy so I'll figure something out. Might throw it into photoshop and paint that way idk -ded-
Anyone else, yeah things will be done x____x had a hectic week, missing a friend but I'll learn to get over it, who knew someone would blow up that easily... -Sigh- Mistakes happen I guess, so it's over oh well, I left my school too, for my own health so I can get in better shape. Caffine headache go away...
I'm going to do some adoptables or try to do something different would anyone be interested if they'e super cheap? needing to raise up money for a new laptop this one has blue screened so much ;n;
Rizen That dragon will be done one of these days lol damn scales driving me crazy so I'll figure something out. Might throw it into photoshop and paint that way idk -ded-Anyone else, yeah things will be done x____x had a hectic week, missing a friend but I'll learn to get over it, who knew someone would blow up that easily... -Sigh- Mistakes happen I guess, so it's over oh well, I left my school too, for my own health so I can get in better shape. Caffine headache go away...
I'm going to do some adoptables or try to do something different would anyone be interested if they'e super cheap? needing to raise up money for a new laptop this one has blue screened so much ;n;
Update on things.
General | Posted 11 years agoAight making a new journal as a reminder of things.
I apologize for not having things finished! School has been hectic with tests, I also have another day added to the three days I already went so ;n; please forgive me. I am trying.
PRICE LIST:
2-3 dollars for Icons.
5 Dollars for sketches
10 for flat coloring
15 for shading coloring/Reference sheets
EXTRA PRICE INFO:
simple Backgrounds - Still deciding
Extra characters still deciding on prices.
Detailed backgrounds still deciding.
I am also fine with working something out like Art trades and such if you can't fully afford something.
PAYPAL:
Captainaska[at]gmail.com
ADOPTABLES:
Five dollars each depending I'll link the ones I have for sale. I am willing to do some as customs too.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14679664/
ToS
Working on this.
COMMISSIONS
1. Rizen One dragon[Paid][Needs coloring] and one art trade[Have to sketch]
2.
sekymew Two sketches[Paid][Sketching]
3.
dru_anderson Chibi of their sona from my past Rafle[Still trying to sketch.]
4.
bancky Chibi of one of their sonas[Still trying to sketch.]
5.
MakoKenova Chibi for their streams.[Still trying to sketch.]
PEOPLE TO GO LOOK AT
dru_anderson Traditonal Artist
RadicalHat Has a fun looking digital style.
Rizen Friend of mine, she's good.
YaoiMeowMaster Lovely Digital work.
SythraWolf Lovely Digital work.
Rhinoceros. Has some awesome adopts up.
Halloweve Has fun looking characters and is good at digital art o3o
sekymew
dru_anderson
bancky
MakoKenova
RadicalHat
YaoiMeowMaster
SythraWolf
Rhinoceros.
HalloweveBringing some Awareness to this artist!
General | Posted 11 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6147427/ Go take a look! We should all help each other out somehow, I'd do it but I'm unable to, they have some really nice traditional art!
One ugly little rant because I need it.
General | Posted 11 years agoI apologize for just posting up WIP pieces and nothing that I owe right now, been stressing over school and dealing with hearing a bunch of fighting in the house. I live in a toxic negative household so my moods are always being effected due to being an emphatic and it's really shitty to be honest so I'm in my room more often than not, alone talking to maybe a couple of people here and there but downright trying not to be social so I don't cause problems. Paranoia and other things have been kicking in and I've been kicking myself in the ass for not being that fantastic at art, gods I wish I could be as good as my friends who draw...
I could wish upon a million little stars but all the years I've been drawing not much has improved. Yeah I can draw figures and snouts, eats and faces... whatever it may be but I as a person feel that it's of little worth deep down because it's how I've viewed myself all the years and it's a hard fight to even view myself as something more than a spec in a whole star system... Trying to find my reasoning and purpose and doing art I enjoy but I cannot bring myself to finish anything I do for myself... Because of how I view things...
When it comes to someone else, damn straight I'll do my damn best and try! But... Gah I've fallen between a rock and another rock and seem to be stuck, I'm only doing this because a friend got me back into it yet here I am losing hope and motivation to keep going.... I blame my psychology class.
That class has made me realize how little I care for myself, how much I give and give towards others in which only gets me into a deeper pit of hell, hey there's a spot reserved for me if you look, the crater to the right yeah that one... I see the good in everything, I try to interact but.. gah, yeah it's hard.
That and depression is hard to deal with too, that's been flaring up more ever since I've been going to this class... I just wish I didn't sit alone.. I kid you not, I am avoided like the plague, as if me even saying hello yes it gets a hi back but that's it. I get a turn of the shoulder and not spoken to anymore, there's this one person that talks to me but that's because she does it out of kindness...
The world is a big place and I feel really small and alone in it, I want to move so bad.. I want to live with a friend or something so I can get better, I want to do all these things but that motivation is slowly slipping from my fingers and right onto the ground like liquid in which it's escaping me as I chase a silly little dream... I want to run a bookstore as well as do art for others... do designs for games... help out and do something useful for once, feel like I matter and that I'm important even if I'm really not... I don't want attention, I don't want pity I don't seek things that I never get in my own house hold due to being so used to it...
I don't even want acceptance anymore... Hell I don't even know what I want anymore... I'm going to just head to bed and curl up in a little ball and not move... Hope english class goes well since I have to catch up from last week.. I'm still sick by the by, it's shitty.
I could wish upon a million little stars but all the years I've been drawing not much has improved. Yeah I can draw figures and snouts, eats and faces... whatever it may be but I as a person feel that it's of little worth deep down because it's how I've viewed myself all the years and it's a hard fight to even view myself as something more than a spec in a whole star system... Trying to find my reasoning and purpose and doing art I enjoy but I cannot bring myself to finish anything I do for myself... Because of how I view things...
When it comes to someone else, damn straight I'll do my damn best and try! But... Gah I've fallen between a rock and another rock and seem to be stuck, I'm only doing this because a friend got me back into it yet here I am losing hope and motivation to keep going.... I blame my psychology class.
That class has made me realize how little I care for myself, how much I give and give towards others in which only gets me into a deeper pit of hell, hey there's a spot reserved for me if you look, the crater to the right yeah that one... I see the good in everything, I try to interact but.. gah, yeah it's hard.
That and depression is hard to deal with too, that's been flaring up more ever since I've been going to this class... I just wish I didn't sit alone.. I kid you not, I am avoided like the plague, as if me even saying hello yes it gets a hi back but that's it. I get a turn of the shoulder and not spoken to anymore, there's this one person that talks to me but that's because she does it out of kindness...
The world is a big place and I feel really small and alone in it, I want to move so bad.. I want to live with a friend or something so I can get better, I want to do all these things but that motivation is slowly slipping from my fingers and right onto the ground like liquid in which it's escaping me as I chase a silly little dream... I want to run a bookstore as well as do art for others... do designs for games... help out and do something useful for once, feel like I matter and that I'm important even if I'm really not... I don't want attention, I don't want pity I don't seek things that I never get in my own house hold due to being so used to it...
I don't even want acceptance anymore... Hell I don't even know what I want anymore... I'm going to just head to bed and curl up in a little ball and not move... Hope english class goes well since I have to catch up from last week.. I'm still sick by the by, it's shitty.
Look! Someone doing art commissions!
General | Posted 11 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/view/14578562/
They have art commissions open go take a look! It's all traditional! c:
They have art commissions open go take a look! It's all traditional! c:
Hey, just letting those watching me know, I fell ill.
General | Posted 11 years agoYep, woke up feeling a little worse, took some medicine we'll see how that goes, but my nose is stuffed up, head hurts, ears are not working right and my throat is sometimes scratch or my nose decides to be the great falls... I'm working on the commission I was paid to do first, and then I'll get to the free ones. Opening up commissions as well as soon as I get these done I'm thinking since I'm a bit of a slow person when it comes to drawing and life being hectic.
Prices I'm doing is going to be as fallowed.
3 for Icons.
5 for sketchs
10 for lined
15 for colored/References and the like.
Unless other wise told that's what I'll stick with since I need to start out cheap.
Note all I do is draw SFW so please don't ask me to delve into NSFW right now ;n; I'm not comfortable with it just yet.
Prices I'm doing is going to be as fallowed.
3 for Icons.
5 for sketchs
10 for lined
15 for colored/References and the like.
Unless other wise told that's what I'll stick with since I need to start out cheap.
Note all I do is draw SFW so please don't ask me to delve into NSFW right now ;n; I'm not comfortable with it just yet.
Hosting a Free Art Raffle!
General | Posted 11 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/view/14529360/ <--- You can find it there! All you need to do is post a reference sheet and I'll pick someone via random.org as soon as I get 100 page views! Warning, I will not draw you anything NSFW as I am not ready to delve into such things.
Bringing some awareness to this person
General | Posted 11 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6109086/ Please do take a read at this! :c It makes me sad when I see this happening to people, mainly to those whoes only form of income is art and when they can't do their work nothing comes in :( Man, wish I had a place or something I could let them bunk at until they could handle themselves.
Seeking some Old games etc
General | Posted 11 years agoSo I'm just trying to find people that don't want or wouldn't mind selling me some of these old games because most of mine went missing during moves or were stolen from me.
Lost kingdoms II for the gamecube
SaGa Frontier 1 and 2 for the Playstation 1
Lunar Sliver Story Complete for the Playstation 1
Skies of Arcadia Legends for the Gamecube
.Hack//INFECTION for the ps2
.Hack//MUTATION for the ps2
.Hack//OUTBREAK for the ps2
.Hack//QUARANTINE For the Ps2
.Hack//G.U. Vol 2: Reminisce for the ps2
QUEST N64
Mystic Quest For the Super Nintendo
Super Mario for the Super Nintendo
This is about it for right now, again I'm just curious and I'm truthfully broke for a long time at the moment but I can offer over traditional art if need be.. Might add more to this as I think of it. Oh!
I have also two Ps2 games sealed
Guitar Hero: AeroSmith
Guitar Hero III: Legends of Rock
There's also a bunch of Inuyasha DVD's that I own sealed as well but so many it would take forever to list them all lol.
I have some Original Xbox games if anyone is interested!
Aeon Flux
Bicycle Casino
Outlaw Golf: Holiday Golf
Outlaw Tennis
Outlaw Volleyball: Red Hot
Rogue Ops
Tom Clancy's Ghost Recon
Tom Clancy's Rainbow Six 3: Black Arrow
Most of these are complete boxs, with the case, game and manual. I am not sure on how to price them but I really don't want to throw them away, I can post pictures of them as well if need be.
Anywho this is just me looking around and such, thanks!
