Oh right, I have this thing!
Posted a year agoI keep forgetting to check here and stay in contact I’m terrible at doing that tbh. I’m still alive and kicking. I got a doggie 2 years ago with my wife he’s an incredible anxious little ball of energy (I say little but he’s a 60lbs boy) he’s a pittie, blue heeler, Australian Shepard mix (yep pretty much a 3 way split we had him take a dna test) we adopted him from a foster family. His previous owner had some issues and their family members told the foster family to “just drop him off at the pound” my heart melts hearing that as he’s the sweetest most caring boy ever! In our time with him he has only had 2 accidents inside 1 he was fresh off IVs after he was neutered and the other he was sick (I think that’s amazing tbh)
I had a change of employment which resulted in me commuting 37 miles to and from work (yes 37 one way) and a complete change of time schedule ( I work graves pretty much 4pm-4:30am) I now instead of printing billboards I make diamonds …yeah what a change of careers right! 😂 though they’re not jewelry grade still diamonds 😂.
But now we moved closer as we both were making that commute so it’s now more like 15-20miles maybe less I haven’t paid attention all I know is my 45-50min drive is now down to 20mins.
Anyways I will try my best to pop on here and there.
I had a change of employment which resulted in me commuting 37 miles to and from work (yes 37 one way) and a complete change of time schedule ( I work graves pretty much 4pm-4:30am) I now instead of printing billboards I make diamonds …yeah what a change of careers right! 😂 though they’re not jewelry grade still diamonds 😂.
But now we moved closer as we both were making that commute so it’s now more like 15-20miles maybe less I haven’t paid attention all I know is my 45-50min drive is now down to 20mins.
Anyways I will try my best to pop on here and there.
Hope everyone had been well during these crazy Times
Posted 5 years agoJust throwing out that I’m still around lol and I really hope everyone has been safe.
So life update because I have been kinda reclusive.
Posted 9 years agoSo as of today September 18th I am officially in a relationship with a wonderful woman whom has stolen my heart.
spent 22hours with her this weekend and we text non stop when apart I really hope this relationship lasts long because I am happier then I have been in years.
Haven't been on FA in a long while been kinda reclusive and spending time with the new girlfriend :D
hope everyone has been wonderful lately.
spent 22hours with her this weekend and we text non stop when apart I really hope this relationship lasts long because I am happier then I have been in years.
Haven't been on FA in a long while been kinda reclusive and spending time with the new girlfriend :D
hope everyone has been wonderful lately.
Haven't done this in a while...
Posted 9 years ago
I need to really get my life together and try and avoid all the drama going on in my life it seems like everyone comes to me for their problems IRL and I honestly have no idea what I possibly can do except be physically there. If you know me I tend to stay to my own life and peacefully live out day to day without any stress or as little as possible some days are good some days are really bad.
my phone is not working no service yes bill is paid thought it was the sim card nope stopped in at Verizon today after work got a new sim card had full bar of service when leaving half way home it died out on me and rather then bothering my friend to drop me off at Verizon I said fuck it and went home after getting a ride from work.
I feel like I've lost a lot of weight so that's a plus in my life everyone verifies it too by saying "Hey Atom have you lost weight ...you've had to have! your looking thinner!" stuff like that.
not going to share the drama from friends and family because that is their business all I can say is it is effecting me and I am stressing out over shit I cannot control because I don't want to see my family and friends hurt physically, emotionally, spiritually, or any other form of pain there can be.
I know I tend to be silent and kind of anti-social (working on that I swear!) but some days I just really wish I were somewhere else away from humanity in general.
out in the woods perhaps just me and nature but that seems like a stretch right now. oh well sorry for ranting, rambling, and just typing useless shit out to get stuff off my chest ^_^;
Hope everyone has a wonderful day/night week/month
...I also feel a need to get some art done but until payday I be broke! but gotta be a responsible adult and pay the bills ect. before doing anything that could put me behind and unable to buy food or anything.
don't know of a good title
Posted 10 years agoSo today at work I found out one of my co-workers who was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer passed away this last Saturday I'm sad he is gone but I'm glad he is no longer in any pain and I am glad I met him I regret not being able to say goodbye to him as he didn't want anyone to see him at all these last few weeks
(we found out 3 weeks ago he had Cancer)
be sure to tell those you care for how much they mean to you.
I haven't really been active too much here on FA I have my group of friends I adore a lot of really talented artists but I really haven't given anything truly to a community that is so open and kind like the one I've found here.
Hope you all have a great night and a bright tomorrow Rest well and be safe.
-Atom
(we found out 3 weeks ago he had Cancer)
be sure to tell those you care for how much they mean to you.
I haven't really been active too much here on FA I have my group of friends I adore a lot of really talented artists but I really haven't given anything truly to a community that is so open and kind like the one I've found here.
Hope you all have a great night and a bright tomorrow Rest well and be safe.
-Atom
And here I am...
Posted 11 years agoEveryone is asleep and here I am just sitting around waiting to download a new album... because... I want it so bad! like ...Right now! :P
>.> new In this moment album if anyone is wondering or even cares :P
should probably go to sleep... I probably will.
(oh and if you were going to say "hey! it doesn't come out until monday!" I will simply reply "Pre-ordered off amazon and they promised it the 16th :P" ...its purely digital too so ...yeah no chance to win awesome stuffs from a random "golden" poisoned ticket >.< lol)
...oh well this bird is going to wrap up in some blankets and stare endlessly at his phone for a download until passing out. ^_^
>.> new In this moment album if anyone is wondering or even cares :P
should probably go to sleep... I probably will.
(oh and if you were going to say "hey! it doesn't come out until monday!" I will simply reply "Pre-ordered off amazon and they promised it the 16th :P" ...its purely digital too so ...yeah no chance to win awesome stuffs from a random "golden" poisoned ticket >.< lol)
...oh well this bird is going to wrap up in some blankets and stare endlessly at his phone for a download until passing out. ^_^
life update? idk :P
Posted 11 years agoSo just a small update (though I suppose it isn't really needed.) most people know it already but I've been starting to work out a bit trying to better myself I'm just done being who I use to be.
Monday 0 push-ups
Tuesday 70 push-ups
Wednesday 80 push-ups
Thursday ....200 push-ups (well that escalated fast!)
Friday 225 push-ups
I need to work in some stuff focusing on my core soon probably start doing planks and flutter kicks.
for the art stand point I really don't do anything unless the mood strikes and even then I think it's crappy and not good enough for anyone to see because I have a self loathing mindset (which I am working on getting rid of)
on a social side I am trying to be more vocal too trying to break free of my shy tendencies. ^_^; so if you ever just wanna shoot the breeze with me go for it lol.
>.> I am in love with this song right now... if you are interested lol here's a link.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6CBbKcJarxY
So in case anyone was worried.
Posted 11 years agoSo I haven't been active in anything lately or very rarely active I should say.
been taking Hunter safety and been playing a lot of D3... and just been pretty busy.
Went out shooting today for some practice before my test which is coming up soonish.
did well the groupings of my shots were pretty good I still feel I should go out and practice a bit more.
tried a few skeet shots with a shotgun ...don't think I will be doing much of that because my hand eye coordination is pretty shitty ^_^;
I am cross eyed (for those that know what the term means when shooting ect.) so I need to fix that issue soon (simply need to prevent the use of my now dominate eye or learn to adapt.)
so yeah...
I would love to get into archery hunting/shooting more then I have before I think it would be fun just going out to the range and shoot a few arrows ect. ect.
so yeah that's what I've been doing ^_^;
hopefully people don't hate me now.
been taking Hunter safety and been playing a lot of D3... and just been pretty busy.
Went out shooting today for some practice before my test which is coming up soonish.
did well the groupings of my shots were pretty good I still feel I should go out and practice a bit more.
tried a few skeet shots with a shotgun ...don't think I will be doing much of that because my hand eye coordination is pretty shitty ^_^;
I am cross eyed (for those that know what the term means when shooting ect.) so I need to fix that issue soon (simply need to prevent the use of my now dominate eye or learn to adapt.)
so yeah...
I would love to get into archery hunting/shooting more then I have before I think it would be fun just going out to the range and shoot a few arrows ect. ect.
so yeah that's what I've been doing ^_^;
hopefully people don't hate me now.
Suppose I should do this as well lol.
Posted 12 years agoI'm feeding my Addiction known now as Pokemon X
if you desire my friend code just yell :)
if you desire my friend code just yell :)
Growing my facial hair out!!!
Posted 12 years agoSo my co-worker was like "hey! lets have a beard growing contest!" so I shaved off my goatee that I was already growing out came into work today he still was full beard and I was like ...The hell man!? I thought we were shaving Sunday.
...oh lol nah.
...5'o clock shadow ...itchy as all hell GRRRRRR I shoulda just kept my goatee how it was! :P
oh well! :P
I decided I will totally grow my hair out again (for those that have actually seen me :P) I use to have long wavy/curly hair that would go all crazy and wild.
Super excited though!
I really haven't lost any weight but neither have I gained ^_^ still totally neutral lol!
saved some cash yay! uh nothing really too new in my life but just figured to share that I will be a furry birdy at the end of the month! lol might just not shave until I want to (or just end up keeping what I deem nice trimmed up mhmmm :D)
...oh lol nah.
...5'o clock shadow ...itchy as all hell GRRRRRR I shoulda just kept my goatee how it was! :P
oh well! :P
I decided I will totally grow my hair out again (for those that have actually seen me :P) I use to have long wavy/curly hair that would go all crazy and wild.
Super excited though!
I really haven't lost any weight but neither have I gained ^_^ still totally neutral lol!
saved some cash yay! uh nothing really too new in my life but just figured to share that I will be a furry birdy at the end of the month! lol might just not shave until I want to (or just end up keeping what I deem nice trimmed up mhmmm :D)
Can't sleep yay....
Posted 12 years agoSo lately I've been having issues sleeping well and been getting up later then normal and all that great fun stuff.
but today I wake up at 2 and cannot for the life of me fall back asleep so I browse about decide to deactivate some subscriptions to various things.
stretch out and just relax try to tire my eyes by looking at the screen in a dark room ect. ect. (yeah bad for my eyes I shouldn't do that.)
A thought came to my mind and well I'm really considering getting corrective surgery for my eyes so I don't have to depend on glasses to see things 5 feet away from me...
It's been weighing on my mind for a while.
Work's insurance has vision included so that might take some of the blunt force of the bill so yay! but right now I'm living with my mother, my elder brother, his fiancee and their baby girl I pay 100% of the rent and utilities so ...they technically live with me and not the other way around.
I never have any money it seems but I'm content. thing is If I do get lasik I would need some kind of savings to fall back on just in case shit hits the fan. Asking for their help is like pulling teeth.
eh maybe I'll just wait for taxes to do this. whats a few more months huh lol.
but today I wake up at 2 and cannot for the life of me fall back asleep so I browse about decide to deactivate some subscriptions to various things.
stretch out and just relax try to tire my eyes by looking at the screen in a dark room ect. ect. (yeah bad for my eyes I shouldn't do that.)
A thought came to my mind and well I'm really considering getting corrective surgery for my eyes so I don't have to depend on glasses to see things 5 feet away from me...
It's been weighing on my mind for a while.
Work's insurance has vision included so that might take some of the blunt force of the bill so yay! but right now I'm living with my mother, my elder brother, his fiancee and their baby girl I pay 100% of the rent and utilities so ...they technically live with me and not the other way around.
I never have any money it seems but I'm content. thing is If I do get lasik I would need some kind of savings to fall back on just in case shit hits the fan. Asking for their help is like pulling teeth.
eh maybe I'll just wait for taxes to do this. whats a few more months huh lol.
Can't sleep yay....
Posted 12 years agoSo lately I've been having issues sleeping well and been getting up later then normal and all that great fun stuff.
but today I wake up at 2 and cannot for the life of me fall back asleep so I browse about decide to deactivate some subscriptions to various things.
stretch out and just relax try to tire my eyes by looking at the screen in a dark room ect. ect. (yeah bad for my eyes I shouldn't do that.)
A thought came to my mind and well I'm really considering getting corrective surgery for my eyes so I don't have to depend on glasses to see things 5 feet away from me...
It's been weighing on my mind for a while.
Work's insurance has vision included so that might take some of the blunt force of the bill so yay! but right now I'm living with my mother, my elder brother, his fiancee and their baby girl I pay 100% of the rent and utilities so ...they technically live with me and not the other way around.
I never have any money it seems but I'm content. thing is If I do get lasik I would need some kind of savings to fall back on just in case shit hits the fan. Asking for their help is like pulling teeth.
eh maybe I'll just wait for taxes to do this. whats a few more months huh lol.
but today I wake up at 2 and cannot for the life of me fall back asleep so I browse about decide to deactivate some subscriptions to various things.
stretch out and just relax try to tire my eyes by looking at the screen in a dark room ect. ect. (yeah bad for my eyes I shouldn't do that.)
A thought came to my mind and well I'm really considering getting corrective surgery for my eyes so I don't have to depend on glasses to see things 5 feet away from me...
It's been weighing on my mind for a while.
Work's insurance has vision included so that might take some of the blunt force of the bill so yay! but right now I'm living with my mother, my elder brother, his fiancee and their baby girl I pay 100% of the rent and utilities so ...they technically live with me and not the other way around.
I never have any money it seems but I'm content. thing is If I do get lasik I would need some kind of savings to fall back on just in case shit hits the fan. Asking for their help is like pulling teeth.
eh maybe I'll just wait for taxes to do this. whats a few more months huh lol.
hmmmmm
Posted 12 years agoSo Yesterday I went and played DnD with some RL friends :) was such a great time
I decided to make a defender great news no one can hit me unless they crit bad news is my rolls are being all crappy lol!
so I would get the attention of 5 creatures and they would miss me almost all the time but I would miss them as well :( but I got people to kill for me muahaha!
lately I've been neglecting my diet too :( I am so weak willed!
I lost 5 pounds this last week so that's great! right? :D
work is slowly picking back up we have a steady but slow stream of work.
I want to go to Comic con. here in SLC on the 5th 6th or 7th of September but I don't want to spend money where I don't need to and focus on bills and save up for when I have slow weeks in the future.
you know ...prepare for the future.
Rather have it and not need it then need it and not have it. ^_^;
I want to try and attempt to draw something but I doubt I would share it here or anywhere :S lol oh well
hope everyone is having a great day/night/morning ect. ect. ect.
I decided to make a defender great news no one can hit me unless they crit bad news is my rolls are being all crappy lol!
so I would get the attention of 5 creatures and they would miss me almost all the time but I would miss them as well :( but I got people to kill for me muahaha!
lately I've been neglecting my diet too :( I am so weak willed!
I lost 5 pounds this last week so that's great! right? :D
work is slowly picking back up we have a steady but slow stream of work.
I want to go to Comic con. here in SLC on the 5th 6th or 7th of September but I don't want to spend money where I don't need to and focus on bills and save up for when I have slow weeks in the future.
you know ...prepare for the future.
Rather have it and not need it then need it and not have it. ^_^;
I want to try and attempt to draw something but I doubt I would share it here or anywhere :S lol oh well
hope everyone is having a great day/night/morning ect. ect. ect.
Today I am pretty proud of myself.
Posted 12 years agoRode 3 miles to work without taking a break worked till noon (we don't have much work right now its all being approved) then rode 3miles back home without a break :D
then ...I played Minecraft the rest of the day ....Should have done some situps and pushups at least >.< oh well tomorrow is another day where I can do such things :D
sleeeeep ...lets hope no waking up 5 times throughout the night.
then ...I played Minecraft the rest of the day ....Should have done some situps and pushups at least >.< oh well tomorrow is another day where I can do such things :D
sleeeeep ...lets hope no waking up 5 times throughout the night.
Ramblings of a Birdy
Posted 12 years ago^_^ who knows maybe I will get to drawing and all that fun stuff again one day but currently.
all I have is a little sketch here and there to ease the mind of its troubles nothing serious.
Just thinking of life reflecting on my past choices and I can say I am pretty happy with myself today.
I provide for my family I work my best to keep them safe and sound and not out living on the streets I don't have a lover but I am surrounded by love so that isn't that bad.
I love my body but I am working on bettering it so I don't have all the health problems my elders have when I reach their age.
Reflecting back I have made poor decisions but they were in the past and what is in the past is in the past you cannot dwell on the past forever or it will consume you.
for now I must look forward towards the future and just live one day at a time learning, loving, caring, and strolling along with the ride.
my inner conflicts and insecurities (known as Steve) aren't really bothering me of late I'm not getting depressed as often nor am I the happy bouncy self I normally am.
I'm comfortably numb not sad nor happy but somewhere in between.
all I have is a little sketch here and there to ease the mind of its troubles nothing serious.
Just thinking of life reflecting on my past choices and I can say I am pretty happy with myself today.
I provide for my family I work my best to keep them safe and sound and not out living on the streets I don't have a lover but I am surrounded by love so that isn't that bad.
I love my body but I am working on bettering it so I don't have all the health problems my elders have when I reach their age.
Reflecting back I have made poor decisions but they were in the past and what is in the past is in the past you cannot dwell on the past forever or it will consume you.
for now I must look forward towards the future and just live one day at a time learning, loving, caring, and strolling along with the ride.
my inner conflicts and insecurities (known as Steve) aren't really bothering me of late I'm not getting depressed as often nor am I the happy bouncy self I normally am.
I'm comfortably numb not sad nor happy but somewhere in between.