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How A Basically Blind Girl Can Play Nintendo Games
General | Posted 12 years agohttp://kotaku.com/how-a-basically-b.....mes-1212247471
Even though I'm in the process of moving (accounts) I think I'll post here every once in a while about stuff like this. This is an article about the Wii U and how it helped a near-blind girl play video games for the first time. I thought this is especially significant, as my good and only FA friend
suffers from blindness and is an advocate for accessibility, I thought it would be good to share this story with him and the rest of FA.
As for myself, due to MS it is often exhausting to stare at a TV screen for longer than an hour or so, and being a fan of JRPGS, extremely limits my ability to play and get through them, not to mention due to the same illness, my eyes can no longer focus properly for extended periods of time as well. This makes it so I can only really play handhelds. So I was thrilled when I got a Wii U for my birthday.
I can play on the TV, and then when I get too tired I can lie down and have the screen close to me while I play, so I can keep playing without damaging my health.
This all is really important, because a lot of people don't realize how disabilities limit people being able to play and making it so they can tends to get ignored completely. And a lot of people insult the Wii U and act like it's the worst gaming system to ever exist, but I think when it comes to accessibility, it's a huge step in the right direction and for some people, a miracle. I hope that seeing this helps people realize this fact.
Even though I'm in the process of moving (accounts) I think I'll post here every once in a while about stuff like this. This is an article about the Wii U and how it helped a near-blind girl play video games for the first time. I thought this is especially significant, as my good and only FA friend
suffers from blindness and is an advocate for accessibility, I thought it would be good to share this story with him and the rest of FA. As for myself, due to MS it is often exhausting to stare at a TV screen for longer than an hour or so, and being a fan of JRPGS, extremely limits my ability to play and get through them, not to mention due to the same illness, my eyes can no longer focus properly for extended periods of time as well. This makes it so I can only really play handhelds. So I was thrilled when I got a Wii U for my birthday.
I can play on the TV, and then when I get too tired I can lie down and have the screen close to me while I play, so I can keep playing without damaging my health.
This all is really important, because a lot of people don't realize how disabilities limit people being able to play and making it so they can tends to get ignored completely. And a lot of people insult the Wii U and act like it's the worst gaming system to ever exist, but I think when it comes to accessibility, it's a huge step in the right direction and for some people, a miracle. I hope that seeing this helps people realize this fact.
One more thing, need advice
General | Posted 12 years agoLast year I ordered a kigurumi from 
and when they sent it, they had forgotten to include the hands and feet with it. I mentioned this to them and they said that they forgot them and would would send them, but they didn't do so. I messaged them again several months, and they said they would send them ASAP.
I was very polite about it but clearly that doesn't work because I still didn't get them. This all happened over a year ago ago. I messaged them a few months ago as well, but didn't get a response.
I'm at a loss of what to do. I'm very happy about what I did get, but I feel ripped off that I paid for the whole thing and still didn't get the rest over a year later. So I'm not sure what I should be doing at this point.
and when they sent it, they had forgotten to include the hands and feet with it. I mentioned this to them and they said that they forgot them and would would send them, but they didn't do so. I messaged them again several months, and they said they would send them ASAP. I was very polite about it but clearly that doesn't work because I still didn't get them. This all happened over a year ago ago. I messaged them a few months ago as well, but didn't get a response.
I'm at a loss of what to do. I'm very happy about what I did get, but I feel ripped off that I paid for the whole thing and still didn't get the rest over a year later. So I'm not sure what I should be doing at this point.
I feel an explaination is needed
General | Posted 12 years agoI'm sure I offended a lot of people who didn't just outright come and say it. And I have to say I don't really like when people do that.
I don't like using this as an excuse, but rather an explanation; I'm pretty sure many who still bother with me are aware that I have Asperger's. And I do mean it sincerely, I am not one of those self-diagnosed people out there who use it as an excuse to be a jerk. In fact the opposite; I WANT people to let me know when I've hurt them because honestly, most of the time I have NO clue.
It's not that I don't care. In fact, many people with Asperger's are more empathetic than their neurotypical counterparts, partly because we are often significantly more sensitive. However we often come off as rude and uncaring because we have trouble realizing how we come off, as well as being aware of other people's feelings without being directly told those feelings. Now, assuming the emotional state of another person based on social cues is possible, but it is true that it's something that we have to learn, like one would learn math. Anyway, ask anyone who knows me well and they'll tell you I am one of the most empathetic people they know, [b]ESPECIALLY/b] towards the disabled and mentally ill (I CANNOT stress that enough). They would also say the same thing about me being honest, which brings me to my next point.
I am extremely direct in how I talk. And I do mean extremely. I've learned that most people talk very indirectly, they don't outright say what they mean or what they are thinking, they avoid directly saying so many things and talk through implication rather than the words themselves. I cannot do this. Aside from sarcasm (which I am quite fond of) I say what I mean. It's extremely difficult for me to lie. I am blunt. I know for a fact that online (less so in real life, because I am softspoken to an extreme) I can come off as rude and angry (In fact, if I AM upset, I'm actually less direct). Please let me know when I am doing this because 99% of the time I am completely unaware. Do not assume I am implying something, or actively trying to hurt you, because most the time I am not. I hate hurting peoples feelings.
I feel all this has lead to a lot of misunderstanding both here and on other sites. Here, there were a few babyfurs who decided to take things I've said completely without context or understanding and made it seem like the absolute opposite of what I actually meant. They had made journals about me ragging on me and encouraging people to call me horrible things behind my back. That is not okay. It really isn't. Because if you have a problem with me, say it to my face instead of spreading your lies (for example, claiming I'm sexist when I react negatively to me *not Aura* being called a woman, when the true reason is because I exist outside of the gender binary) and mocking me to people you don't even know. And that is why I said what I did about babyfurs, because it was the final straw. It's why I left, but I've come back on the realization that even though my fading interest in the furry fandom and this site is real, if I leave, then the bullies win.
Now, I have only met a SINGLE babyfur who did not hurt or betray me in any way, or otherwise wasn't a complete immature selfish idiot. I see them act all welcoming but in general I've never seen a group that is more exclusionary and cliqueish. Even babyfurs that I like and respect, I feel like I've been shut out by them. And not due to lack of trying. Like they secretly hate me and all that niceness they outwardly show is just fake. Some of these people are not bad or unkind (I can think of 3 in particular) but I still feel hurt by them.
This group also, is not just like that to me. I've seen babyfurs outright attacked by other babyfurs for asking for help in a dire situation, despite the fact that many others do this. I do not believe babyfurs are generous, rather, they only help you out if you're popular. Because that's what I've seen. It's basically how the furry fandom itself is but made 1000x worse.
This does not mean that all babyfurs are awful. I'm sure there are plenty out there that I have not met yet who are kind, mature and truly accepting rather than it just being a show. But as I've said I've only ever met one who I feel fits those things.
I do hope that people take the time to read through this. I do not post things for the sole sake of attention and this one is no different. Yes, sometimes I write and draw things to vent, it's not a crime. I just want people to understand where I'm coming from, and I apologize if I've done a poor job of that in the past.
I don't like using this as an excuse, but rather an explanation; I'm pretty sure many who still bother with me are aware that I have Asperger's. And I do mean it sincerely, I am not one of those self-diagnosed people out there who use it as an excuse to be a jerk. In fact the opposite; I WANT people to let me know when I've hurt them because honestly, most of the time I have NO clue.
It's not that I don't care. In fact, many people with Asperger's are more empathetic than their neurotypical counterparts, partly because we are often significantly more sensitive. However we often come off as rude and uncaring because we have trouble realizing how we come off, as well as being aware of other people's feelings without being directly told those feelings. Now, assuming the emotional state of another person based on social cues is possible, but it is true that it's something that we have to learn, like one would learn math. Anyway, ask anyone who knows me well and they'll tell you I am one of the most empathetic people they know, [b]ESPECIALLY/b] towards the disabled and mentally ill (I CANNOT stress that enough). They would also say the same thing about me being honest, which brings me to my next point.
I am extremely direct in how I talk. And I do mean extremely. I've learned that most people talk very indirectly, they don't outright say what they mean or what they are thinking, they avoid directly saying so many things and talk through implication rather than the words themselves. I cannot do this. Aside from sarcasm (which I am quite fond of) I say what I mean. It's extremely difficult for me to lie. I am blunt. I know for a fact that online (less so in real life, because I am softspoken to an extreme) I can come off as rude and angry (In fact, if I AM upset, I'm actually less direct). Please let me know when I am doing this because 99% of the time I am completely unaware. Do not assume I am implying something, or actively trying to hurt you, because most the time I am not. I hate hurting peoples feelings.
I feel all this has lead to a lot of misunderstanding both here and on other sites. Here, there were a few babyfurs who decided to take things I've said completely without context or understanding and made it seem like the absolute opposite of what I actually meant. They had made journals about me ragging on me and encouraging people to call me horrible things behind my back. That is not okay. It really isn't. Because if you have a problem with me, say it to my face instead of spreading your lies (for example, claiming I'm sexist when I react negatively to me *not Aura* being called a woman, when the true reason is because I exist outside of the gender binary) and mocking me to people you don't even know. And that is why I said what I did about babyfurs, because it was the final straw. It's why I left, but I've come back on the realization that even though my fading interest in the furry fandom and this site is real, if I leave, then the bullies win.
Now, I have only met a SINGLE babyfur who did not hurt or betray me in any way, or otherwise wasn't a complete immature selfish idiot. I see them act all welcoming but in general I've never seen a group that is more exclusionary and cliqueish. Even babyfurs that I like and respect, I feel like I've been shut out by them. And not due to lack of trying. Like they secretly hate me and all that niceness they outwardly show is just fake. Some of these people are not bad or unkind (I can think of 3 in particular) but I still feel hurt by them.
This group also, is not just like that to me. I've seen babyfurs outright attacked by other babyfurs for asking for help in a dire situation, despite the fact that many others do this. I do not believe babyfurs are generous, rather, they only help you out if you're popular. Because that's what I've seen. It's basically how the furry fandom itself is but made 1000x worse.
This does not mean that all babyfurs are awful. I'm sure there are plenty out there that I have not met yet who are kind, mature and truly accepting rather than it just being a show. But as I've said I've only ever met one who I feel fits those things.
I do hope that people take the time to read through this. I do not post things for the sole sake of attention and this one is no different. Yes, sometimes I write and draw things to vent, it's not a crime. I just want people to understand where I'm coming from, and I apologize if I've done a poor job of that in the past.
lolsrsly
General | Posted 12 years agoPeople are mad because of something I just said despite having said it at least 4 times in the past and no one cared. It's been known I learned to hate babyfurs in general because how they've treated me and others for a long time now.
The only reason someone has to get defensive about it is because deep down they know they're awful anyway and are afraid of the truth. If you're not awful then you've nothing to worry about. Why they weren't upset until now is absolutely beyond me. It only just shows how little people pay attention.
The only reason someone has to get defensive about it is because deep down they know they're awful anyway and are afraid of the truth. If you're not awful then you've nothing to worry about. Why they weren't upset until now is absolutely beyond me. It only just shows how little people pay attention.
Bet this was seen coming
General | Posted 12 years agoI'm not entirely back, and I have no intentions to be. But I think it might be good to leave a comment once a while. I doubt I will post any more art or even interact with anyone much. Especially if they are baby/littlefurs. As I've discovered, they're pretty much the scum of this entire site and I now understand why people hate them. No one'e better at pretending to be nice and then backstabbing you. There are some exceptions, though. They know who they are.
Anyway I could talk about how I've recovered and stuff, but I know no one really gives a shit so I won't bother, haha. I have little desire to say much. I will say that I don't consider myself a furry anymore though. Aura is...maybe not dead, but definitely no longer a fursona.
Anyway I could talk about how I've recovered and stuff, but I know no one really gives a shit so I won't bother, haha. I have little desire to say much. I will say that I don't consider myself a furry anymore though. Aura is...maybe not dead, but definitely no longer a fursona.
What Really Happened
General | Posted 13 years agoAlright, here's the deal. I've got one more thing before I leave for good mostly because I can't stand the fact that people are misinformed.
First off; about my last picture. Yes, it was vent art. No, it's not for sympathy or whatever crap some idiots are spewing around. I've done plenty of vent art before and no one ever said that stupid shit before. Seriously if I just wanted attention I would, quite literally say so.
I hate to do this but I guess I should explain. I've dealt with suicidal ideation since I was 6, for reasons I'd rather not get into. It came back a couple months ago, again, for reasons that are none of anybody's business. I draw pics like that all the time to calm myself.
Now, I've been dealing with a lot of dysphoria issues pretty much ever since puberty. I have done vent art about the subject before. This is part of the reason why I have become increasingly uncomfortable as having Aura as my fursona. At first it didn't bug me that she was a she, but as time went on it did. I also became increasingly uncomfortable associating her name with my fetish art. So I decided to kill her off. I had wanted to do so for a while now, so it's not really that sudden. That's all there is to it, mostly anyway.
As for the laughing, it's a representation that people don't take mental illness seriously. They think it's a thing to pity or look down upon. As did a certain user here, who had the gall to not only express that when I admitted something quite personal, but as I found out several weeks later, made a journal with the intent to not only turn around my response to such mocking from him into something else entirely (in response to him saying he pitied me, I explained that a large portion of the furry fandom is mentally ill, so he shouldn't have such an attitude) He of course made it look like I was saying that furries were crazy. He was doing this to fuel his own ego as many people flocked to it and left very hateful and ignorant comments about me without even knowing what really happened, and he egged them on. He was just looking for validation through bullying. Of course, when I found out I explained to the people what really happened, and he soon deleted the journal after that...further proving that he intentionally trying to be hostile and get people to make fun of me without knowing what happened. And then some douchebag who, after asking what happened, I confided in them, decided to make a journal themselves with the purpose of saying terrible things about me =/
I drew the picture not just with me in mind, but all the people who have fallen victim to harassment because of their differences and such horrific attitudes like this person has. It was a bit of a tribute to all the people who have suffered due to the likes of them and society as a whole.
It's funny, I've often gotten attacked when I've stood up for other people. The whole thing started because I explained that they were being insensitive towards people who suffer from painful periods (they made a completely irrelevant joke about a song title that I used to describe my mood) and they were going to act that way, hopefully they aren't dating a girl since such a comment would probably be hurtful. Any decent person would never make a joke about that, as I know a few people who really suffer greatly, so in respect for those people, it's not good to joke about.
In the whole thing, perhaps I worded things badly, but I don't think what I was getting at was too hard to understand. Apparently people, including him think I called him sexist, when I merely stated that what they said was sexist. It's funny since they accused me for being sexist when I said it was offensive for them to misgender me. (I don't mind female pronouns, as I don't care either way being agender, but don't call me a girl or woman)
Ah well. It's not the sole reason I left, but kinda the nail in the coffin so to speak. I never really had much of a problem with other furries as a whole, they are generally nice and quite relatable as many of them have similar issues as myself. However babyfurs...
It's kinda odd that I still had baby/littlefur followers after making a post pretty much asking them to unfollow me...considering I hate the majority of them. Issues like above are faaar from the first time I've had a babyfur act like that towards me. (Normal furries, never such a problem) So there are only a few that I like. Despite calling them cliqueish, selfish, ignorant, and immature, they still followed me. (Yes I will admit it when I do or say mean things) Kinda funny as I actually did insult them, and no one got upset, yet when I didn't even insult anybody, I get journals about how I called them this or that when I didn't.
I doubt anyone will read this since it's too long, but it bothered me to know that people are so misinformed. So I make this just in case, to ease my mind anyway.
First off; about my last picture. Yes, it was vent art. No, it's not for sympathy or whatever crap some idiots are spewing around. I've done plenty of vent art before and no one ever said that stupid shit before. Seriously if I just wanted attention I would, quite literally say so.
I hate to do this but I guess I should explain. I've dealt with suicidal ideation since I was 6, for reasons I'd rather not get into. It came back a couple months ago, again, for reasons that are none of anybody's business. I draw pics like that all the time to calm myself.
Now, I've been dealing with a lot of dysphoria issues pretty much ever since puberty. I have done vent art about the subject before. This is part of the reason why I have become increasingly uncomfortable as having Aura as my fursona. At first it didn't bug me that she was a she, but as time went on it did. I also became increasingly uncomfortable associating her name with my fetish art. So I decided to kill her off. I had wanted to do so for a while now, so it's not really that sudden. That's all there is to it, mostly anyway.
As for the laughing, it's a representation that people don't take mental illness seriously. They think it's a thing to pity or look down upon. As did a certain user here, who had the gall to not only express that when I admitted something quite personal, but as I found out several weeks later, made a journal with the intent to not only turn around my response to such mocking from him into something else entirely (in response to him saying he pitied me, I explained that a large portion of the furry fandom is mentally ill, so he shouldn't have such an attitude) He of course made it look like I was saying that furries were crazy. He was doing this to fuel his own ego as many people flocked to it and left very hateful and ignorant comments about me without even knowing what really happened, and he egged them on. He was just looking for validation through bullying. Of course, when I found out I explained to the people what really happened, and he soon deleted the journal after that...further proving that he intentionally trying to be hostile and get people to make fun of me without knowing what happened. And then some douchebag who, after asking what happened, I confided in them, decided to make a journal themselves with the purpose of saying terrible things about me =/
I drew the picture not just with me in mind, but all the people who have fallen victim to harassment because of their differences and such horrific attitudes like this person has. It was a bit of a tribute to all the people who have suffered due to the likes of them and society as a whole.
It's funny, I've often gotten attacked when I've stood up for other people. The whole thing started because I explained that they were being insensitive towards people who suffer from painful periods (they made a completely irrelevant joke about a song title that I used to describe my mood) and they were going to act that way, hopefully they aren't dating a girl since such a comment would probably be hurtful. Any decent person would never make a joke about that, as I know a few people who really suffer greatly, so in respect for those people, it's not good to joke about.
In the whole thing, perhaps I worded things badly, but I don't think what I was getting at was too hard to understand. Apparently people, including him think I called him sexist, when I merely stated that what they said was sexist. It's funny since they accused me for being sexist when I said it was offensive for them to misgender me. (I don't mind female pronouns, as I don't care either way being agender, but don't call me a girl or woman)
Ah well. It's not the sole reason I left, but kinda the nail in the coffin so to speak. I never really had much of a problem with other furries as a whole, they are generally nice and quite relatable as many of them have similar issues as myself. However babyfurs...
It's kinda odd that I still had baby/littlefur followers after making a post pretty much asking them to unfollow me...considering I hate the majority of them. Issues like above are faaar from the first time I've had a babyfur act like that towards me. (Normal furries, never such a problem) So there are only a few that I like. Despite calling them cliqueish, selfish, ignorant, and immature, they still followed me. (Yes I will admit it when I do or say mean things) Kinda funny as I actually did insult them, and no one got upset, yet when I didn't even insult anybody, I get journals about how I called them this or that when I didn't.
I doubt anyone will read this since it's too long, but it bothered me to know that people are so misinformed. So I make this just in case, to ease my mind anyway.
Attn: Baby/littlefurfur followers
General | Posted 13 years agoThanks to a friend of mine it seems I've gathered several baby/littlefur follwers, which is neat. But I hope no one is disappointed that I'm not really a babyfur, I just do art sometimes (My fursona does have a little form but I've pretty much abandoned that side of me)
The thing is I've had a lot of issues with them in the past. Those who act like they want to be my friends who aren't, or those who are just really freaking ignorant, selfish, and immature (I mean yeah, actual children are like that, but when you're an adult, regardless of babyfur status, you should not be those things). They pretend to be welcoming but are actually THE most clique-ish group in the furry fandom and I've gotten a huge impression that I'm not wanted there. What bothers me the most is people who act like they accept everyone or is nice to everyone but actually are no better, or usually worse, than everyone else. I've never felt accepted anywhere and because of such things I realize now that I just don't belong anywhere, because seriously if they don't accept you...well, there's really no where else to go.
But I'll give it another shot if anyone wants to be friends with me. If you want to be friends with me, this goes for anyone not just babyfurs, that'd be really nice of you, so and feel free to contact me.
The thing is I've had a lot of issues with them in the past. Those who act like they want to be my friends who aren't, or those who are just really freaking ignorant, selfish, and immature (I mean yeah, actual children are like that, but when you're an adult, regardless of babyfur status, you should not be those things). They pretend to be welcoming but are actually THE most clique-ish group in the furry fandom and I've gotten a huge impression that I'm not wanted there. What bothers me the most is people who act like they accept everyone or is nice to everyone but actually are no better, or usually worse, than everyone else. I've never felt accepted anywhere and because of such things I realize now that I just don't belong anywhere, because seriously if they don't accept you...well, there's really no where else to go.
But I'll give it another shot if anyone wants to be friends with me. If you want to be friends with me, this goes for anyone not just babyfurs, that'd be really nice of you, so and feel free to contact me.
It's been eventful
General | Posted 13 years agoOriginally, I had intended to go on to a 4 year college once I graduated. I was apprehensive about it though, mostly due to being away from my cat (who I'm pretty much with 24/7 when at home) and I know there's no way in hell I'd be able to deal with having roomates that aren't people I know already. A friend of mine suggested a program with people with disabilities and said they could help with school, so I got into it and find out they only help with schooling financially. But they could help me get a job, and I thought that was a good idea because I don't want to go on to a 4 year school and want to think things over. Due to the MS I don't have much energy, so going into psychology may not be a good idea. I'm still interested in helping others though.
Through this program they helped me find a job, but the commute is kind of far. At first it was a full time job and I was absolutely exhausted and miserable only after the 2nd day. I felt like a total failure because there was no way I could do it. Driving there was a risk in my safety due to the exhaustion and stress aggrivated the MS and made my legs so numb that I couldn't walk and didn't have the strength to drive. I was starting to feel extremely depressed again and useless because it was way too much for me. And at first the job coach and the person I report to didn't seem very understanding, but suddenly they seemed to get it when I came to work with a severe limp and walked with a cane. The job coach talked with her and managed to lessen my hours and I think I can do it now.
I really do like the job and don't want to have to leave, I just wish it wasn't so far away. Hopefully things will go okay now, though I can't help but still feel worried. It's all new to me and lately I guess I actually feel like a disabled person which sucks. All the issues I have with MS, AS, depression and anxiety have been worse for a while. So of course, things with other people haven't been going well either...
On a good note, we got a working desktop and I can now play windows games. Of course that includes TF2, but also of course, I have no friends to play it with =/
Through this program they helped me find a job, but the commute is kind of far. At first it was a full time job and I was absolutely exhausted and miserable only after the 2nd day. I felt like a total failure because there was no way I could do it. Driving there was a risk in my safety due to the exhaustion and stress aggrivated the MS and made my legs so numb that I couldn't walk and didn't have the strength to drive. I was starting to feel extremely depressed again and useless because it was way too much for me. And at first the job coach and the person I report to didn't seem very understanding, but suddenly they seemed to get it when I came to work with a severe limp and walked with a cane. The job coach talked with her and managed to lessen my hours and I think I can do it now.
I really do like the job and don't want to have to leave, I just wish it wasn't so far away. Hopefully things will go okay now, though I can't help but still feel worried. It's all new to me and lately I guess I actually feel like a disabled person which sucks. All the issues I have with MS, AS, depression and anxiety have been worse for a while. So of course, things with other people haven't been going well either...
On a good note, we got a working desktop and I can now play windows games. Of course that includes TF2, but also of course, I have no friends to play it with =/
So back from I-con
General | Posted 13 years agoMight as well post about it!
I had a seriously amazing time. This is the 2nd best I-con for me ever! (Nothing can beat my first time, I spent pretty much the entire con going to Vic Mignogna panels xD) There weren't any anime guests I was interesting in seeing but that's okay. I'll see if I can do an overview of what I did
Friday: I had to go on a different line than my friend because he pre-registered and I didn't (I didn't know what state I would be in so I didn't want to buy a ticket and end up being too sick to go) There was some guy blowing bubbles on line and the person in front of me was apparently a famous furry artist and I got to look at his art and stuff, it was cool. I think he was Speet or something, I'd have to look at the card again. It turns out I didn't have to wait on the line anyway due to having MS and if you have a disability you could go to disability services but the person holding that sign was all the way at the front of the line so I didn't see it until I was done. Waiting on line pretty much killed my legs for the entire con which sucked. And I was hungry and wanted churros but Stonybrook doesn't sell them anymore D: I was so looking forward to them too.
Anyway, as soon as that was all taken care of I went to the dealers room and I got some dice, 2 posters, and a Knuckles plushie. (I've wanted a Knuckles plushie for literally 10 years so it was awesome, and the posters were only 2 dollars which was also awesome) My friend went with me but then went to a Doctor Who thing, and after that we went to an anime trivia game. He said it was boring but I had fun xD They didn't call on me very often though because I was kinda near the back so they didn't always see me =_= I could've answered one of the questions that everyone else was stuck on (what pokemon types has Ash yet to acquire) we got candy for answering right and I got some. After that we went to another thing but it didn't start so we went over to open console gaming, I was hoping that there would be DDR (it would be a bad idea to play it but I would anyway because I'm dumb and love DDR) but there wasn't. It was okay though because I met a cool person and exchanged FA usernames, and got a piggyback ride from a Yoshi.
Oh, and I wore my growlithe Kigurumi and got a bunch of picture requests wich made me happy. I'm really glad people liked it! I'm a derp though and forgot to have someone take a picture for myself xD
Afterwards we went to Denny's and had an interesting adventure getting there involving both of our GPS's telling us the wrong place and not recognizing the address. We had to call them to find out where the hell they were. It was delicious though and awesome to have french toast at 1am xD But then it took them 20 minutes to give us the check and we had to go to the front desk because they forgot about us...
Saturday: It was horribly rainy so I didn't cosplay for most of the day. Also, Friday night I realized I had accidentally left the stuff I got from the Dealer's Room in Open Gaming but it was still there when I arrived and that was great. I'm happy no one stole it. My friend went to some more Dr. Who stuff (there were a lot of Dr. Who guests this year) while I went to Yo Mama anime fight and participated. I then went to Fandom Feud and it was cool since I met some cool cosplayers and got to participate with them but none of the questions were anime or video game related so I didn't know as much as I'd hoped. After that I spent more time in the Dealer's Room and got a bunch of cool stuff, including another poster and the entirety of Pandora Hearts (I actually asked if they had it on Friday and they told me to come back on Saturday when they restocked so I did) and met up with another friend. I spent some time resting too and met a cool Fiona from Skies of Arcadia cosplayer and ran into them several times after (It was amusing because I was in different outfits/cosplays each time xD) I also got a nice top hat and a fully functional cane, the latter was amazing because I seriously needed it. I looked fancy with them xD Also On my way to the Dealer's Room I got to see some amazing (mostly Vocaloid, led by a male Miku) cosplayers doing dances. I hope that goes up on youtube soon because it was really cool.
After that the rain let up so I donned the growlithe kigu again and went to Cosplay Courtcase which was really amusing. There was an amazing Weevil cosplayer and also an amazingly in-character Joey cosplayer. Antics were had there. Then we went to a pannel called "Ecchi! Can they really do that in anime?!" where they showed funny ecchi-like clips from anime that aren't actually ecchi. Unsurprisingly, I was one of only 3 girls there. It was hilarious, especially since they showed some stuff from Golden Boy and FLCL, and another anime that was apparently PG-13 with "brief nudity" but showed more than I knew was allowed. The funniest one was from (deeep breath) "Onii-chan no Koto Nanka Zenzen Suki Janain Dakara ne!!" which was actually a BL scene. Before they put it on they asked the audience what BL was I raised my hand first so I had to answer too xD also, THE MOON IS WATCHING! There were technical difficulties so we ended up watching the first episode of a show called Kore Wa Zombie Desu Ka?! or something like that. It was pretty cool. In the same room there was a pannel about the Legends of the Hidden Temple and I thought it would be cool but it was boring. We had to leave soon after it started anyway to line up for Voltaire, so after that we went to a Voltaire concert which of course was awesome, and then went back.
Sunday: The best day. Spend pretty much the entire time playing my first Tabletop RPG (Maid) It was Black Butler themed and I got to be Sebastian. I may make an entirely new post about how that went. Oh, and I got a picture of a Eureka cosplayer from Eureka's castle and it was amazing. I cosplayed as Kyouya myself and got some picture requests too. I'm glad people liked my cosplays this year. I almost got in trouble for the cane (seriously people had to have brightly colored foam swords peace binded...) but they let me go when they realized it was for medical reasons.
I didn't take as many pictures as I usually do but that's ok. I saw an epic Grell cosplayer too and got a picture of them. And that's about it. This is already long enough so I'll end it here.
I had a seriously amazing time. This is the 2nd best I-con for me ever! (Nothing can beat my first time, I spent pretty much the entire con going to Vic Mignogna panels xD) There weren't any anime guests I was interesting in seeing but that's okay. I'll see if I can do an overview of what I did
Friday: I had to go on a different line than my friend because he pre-registered and I didn't (I didn't know what state I would be in so I didn't want to buy a ticket and end up being too sick to go) There was some guy blowing bubbles on line and the person in front of me was apparently a famous furry artist and I got to look at his art and stuff, it was cool. I think he was Speet or something, I'd have to look at the card again. It turns out I didn't have to wait on the line anyway due to having MS and if you have a disability you could go to disability services but the person holding that sign was all the way at the front of the line so I didn't see it until I was done. Waiting on line pretty much killed my legs for the entire con which sucked. And I was hungry and wanted churros but Stonybrook doesn't sell them anymore D: I was so looking forward to them too.
Anyway, as soon as that was all taken care of I went to the dealers room and I got some dice, 2 posters, and a Knuckles plushie. (I've wanted a Knuckles plushie for literally 10 years so it was awesome, and the posters were only 2 dollars which was also awesome) My friend went with me but then went to a Doctor Who thing, and after that we went to an anime trivia game. He said it was boring but I had fun xD They didn't call on me very often though because I was kinda near the back so they didn't always see me =_= I could've answered one of the questions that everyone else was stuck on (what pokemon types has Ash yet to acquire) we got candy for answering right and I got some. After that we went to another thing but it didn't start so we went over to open console gaming, I was hoping that there would be DDR (it would be a bad idea to play it but I would anyway because I'm dumb and love DDR) but there wasn't. It was okay though because I met a cool person and exchanged FA usernames, and got a piggyback ride from a Yoshi.
Oh, and I wore my growlithe Kigurumi and got a bunch of picture requests wich made me happy. I'm really glad people liked it! I'm a derp though and forgot to have someone take a picture for myself xD
Afterwards we went to Denny's and had an interesting adventure getting there involving both of our GPS's telling us the wrong place and not recognizing the address. We had to call them to find out where the hell they were. It was delicious though and awesome to have french toast at 1am xD But then it took them 20 minutes to give us the check and we had to go to the front desk because they forgot about us...
Saturday: It was horribly rainy so I didn't cosplay for most of the day. Also, Friday night I realized I had accidentally left the stuff I got from the Dealer's Room in Open Gaming but it was still there when I arrived and that was great. I'm happy no one stole it. My friend went to some more Dr. Who stuff (there were a lot of Dr. Who guests this year) while I went to Yo Mama anime fight and participated. I then went to Fandom Feud and it was cool since I met some cool cosplayers and got to participate with them but none of the questions were anime or video game related so I didn't know as much as I'd hoped. After that I spent more time in the Dealer's Room and got a bunch of cool stuff, including another poster and the entirety of Pandora Hearts (I actually asked if they had it on Friday and they told me to come back on Saturday when they restocked so I did) and met up with another friend. I spent some time resting too and met a cool Fiona from Skies of Arcadia cosplayer and ran into them several times after (It was amusing because I was in different outfits/cosplays each time xD) I also got a nice top hat and a fully functional cane, the latter was amazing because I seriously needed it. I looked fancy with them xD Also On my way to the Dealer's Room I got to see some amazing (mostly Vocaloid, led by a male Miku) cosplayers doing dances. I hope that goes up on youtube soon because it was really cool.
After that the rain let up so I donned the growlithe kigu again and went to Cosplay Courtcase which was really amusing. There was an amazing Weevil cosplayer and also an amazingly in-character Joey cosplayer. Antics were had there. Then we went to a pannel called "Ecchi! Can they really do that in anime?!" where they showed funny ecchi-like clips from anime that aren't actually ecchi. Unsurprisingly, I was one of only 3 girls there. It was hilarious, especially since they showed some stuff from Golden Boy and FLCL, and another anime that was apparently PG-13 with "brief nudity" but showed more than I knew was allowed. The funniest one was from (deeep breath) "Onii-chan no Koto Nanka Zenzen Suki Janain Dakara ne!!" which was actually a BL scene. Before they put it on they asked the audience what BL was I raised my hand first so I had to answer too xD also, THE MOON IS WATCHING! There were technical difficulties so we ended up watching the first episode of a show called Kore Wa Zombie Desu Ka?! or something like that. It was pretty cool. In the same room there was a pannel about the Legends of the Hidden Temple and I thought it would be cool but it was boring. We had to leave soon after it started anyway to line up for Voltaire, so after that we went to a Voltaire concert which of course was awesome, and then went back.
Sunday: The best day. Spend pretty much the entire time playing my first Tabletop RPG (Maid) It was Black Butler themed and I got to be Sebastian. I may make an entirely new post about how that went. Oh, and I got a picture of a Eureka cosplayer from Eureka's castle and it was amazing. I cosplayed as Kyouya myself and got some picture requests too. I'm glad people liked my cosplays this year. I almost got in trouble for the cane (seriously people had to have brightly colored foam swords peace binded...) but they let me go when they realized it was for medical reasons.
I didn't take as many pictures as I usually do but that's ok. I saw an epic Grell cosplayer too and got a picture of them. And that's about it. This is already long enough so I'll end it here.
The Spoon Theory
General | Posted 14 years agoI wanted to share this because I can very much relate to it, and I think that some of the people I know can really relate to it too. On top of that it helps explain disabilities to those who don't have them in a really good and understandable way.
http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/a.....e-miserandino/
http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/a.....e-miserandino/
Meme
General | Posted 14 years agofrom now on, you can't tell lies, are you ready?
Yes.
Think back eight months ago, were you single?
I think so?
What do you carry with you at all times?
Something to entertain myself with (usually a book or a game system)
Are you a cuddler?
No.
What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?
My bed doesn't have an underneath.
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you text messaged?
How are you feeling?
Tired.
Is something wrong right now?
Kind of.
Are you mad at someone?
Kind of.
How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?
Don't care. Not interested.
What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
Today? I dunno.
How many TRUE best friends do you have?
One.
Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
I need a lot of sleep. I'm not lazy. It's hard for people to understand...
Where is your number one friend on your friends list?
will always be my best friend. Do you have anyone crushing on you?
Maybe? I dunno.
When was the last time you talked to your most recent ex?
My "ex" is my best friend.
Do you sleep with the TV on?
No.
Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
Never.
Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
No.
Are you jealous of someone right now?
Kind of.
Where is the person you like like like right now?
...huh?
What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Cookie.
What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Sleeping.
What is the sexiest part of the opposite sex's body?
Do glasses count?
Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes. At a con.
Could you handle a long distance relationship?
Easily. Much easier than one in person, in fact. I don't see why people have such a big problem with them. Physical contact...just isn't something I desire.
Could you cry right now?
Maybe? I'd rather not.
Are you okay with the life you live?
I guess.
Did you enjoy your day today?
Not really.
Do you have a tattoo?
No.
Would you ever get any piercings on your body, other than your ear?
No.
Ever had a song sang about/for you?
Yes, actually x3
What was the last thing you spent money for?
A game.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
My mom.
Do you call it fall or autumn?
Fall.
11:11… Make a wish?
A cure for MS and all other incurable diseases.
Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
and What were you up to at 9pm last night?
Probably playing Katawa Shoujo.
Do you hold grudges?
A lot. Unfortunately.
Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
No.
What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
No different than "straight" relationships. I don't see why people have such a problem with them,
Who was your last text from?
My mom.
Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
Compared to other people, no. But 5th grade was for me. 5th grade was the year I lost my dad and had an abusive teacher, a cruel aide, and a racist teacher though, and was the worst year of my life. Things stayed bad but started to get better when I was around 15.
One thing you're looking forward to?
Getting a job.
Are you shy at first when it comes to meeting people?
Yes.
Has anyone ever called you sexy?
Only creeps.
What color is your camera?
Silver.
Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
A teacher apologizing for causing trauma to a 10 year old child that continues to last even 11 years later? Let alone a teacher apologizing for hurting a child at all?
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Interestingly, I'm better at it in real life.
Are you wasting your time on someone?
Yes, but not in the romantic sense.
Have you ever overheard a conversation you weren't supposed to?
I've been told things I wasn't supposed to know, but not through overhearing a conversation.
By the way, what is your name?
Alex.
Are you currently in a relationship?
No. And don't want to be.
Do you give out second chances too easily?
Yes but it's hard for me to fully forgive people.
What color is your favorite hoodie?
Black.
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
I don't like kissing.
I had an epiphany last night
General | Posted 14 years agoThanks to this song, which made me feel a lot better:
https://youtu.be/XnrsWfJlM9k
I know it's kind of lame to say, but this song really spoke to me. Of all the things in my life, Pokemon is probably one of the biggest parts of it. Pokemon music also effects me on a level that no other music can do.
I go in and out of pokemon phases, but it's always been with me. Really, when it first came out, there was NOTHING up till that point that brought me as much joy as pokemon did. It gave me a way to communicate with others...something that I was pretty much incapable of doing as a child.
Someone asked on tumblr what fictional world I would live in, and this was my answer: "Pokemon. It’s a world where the helpless (ie. children) actually have power in the world. In that world, bonds with non-human (pokemon) are the norm and they are considered friends. It can be a scary world but is ultimately better than our own."
I believe one big reason why pokemon got so popular is this. In a world where children have no say in what happens to them, where they are powerless and always told what to do and their feelings completely disregarded, pokemon is the complete opposite of that. 10 year old kids can completely take down evil orginizations. They are free to roam the world without constant adult intervention. They have the freedom to choose; wheather it be a starter pokemon or a team. Really, western games are always praised for their customization, but pokemon is one of the most customizable games out there. Sure the plot is linear, and the metagame is full of the same pokemon over and over, but you can beat the game with whatever you want.
Pokemon was a safe place in an otherwise absolutely terrifying and stressful world. (The worst years of my life was my childhood afterall) A world where a child actually has control and choice, and a voice. They learn about friendship, they learn the terms to help communicate and relate to other children, they even learn vocabulary (I've learned a bunch of actual, real words from pokemon). It encourages reading and learning...it's encouraging, in general, something that school is not.
it's really no surprise that I like pokemon as much as I do. It's always been a big part of me even though I'm not obsessed with it 24/7. But I really, really like it. I questioned myself, what is it that I like? my answer is pokemon. Pokemon is what I like. I loved it, I love it, and I always will love it.
(I just wish I had more people to play with...)
https://youtu.be/XnrsWfJlM9k
I know it's kind of lame to say, but this song really spoke to me. Of all the things in my life, Pokemon is probably one of the biggest parts of it. Pokemon music also effects me on a level that no other music can do.
I go in and out of pokemon phases, but it's always been with me. Really, when it first came out, there was NOTHING up till that point that brought me as much joy as pokemon did. It gave me a way to communicate with others...something that I was pretty much incapable of doing as a child.
Someone asked on tumblr what fictional world I would live in, and this was my answer: "Pokemon. It’s a world where the helpless (ie. children) actually have power in the world. In that world, bonds with non-human (pokemon) are the norm and they are considered friends. It can be a scary world but is ultimately better than our own."
I believe one big reason why pokemon got so popular is this. In a world where children have no say in what happens to them, where they are powerless and always told what to do and their feelings completely disregarded, pokemon is the complete opposite of that. 10 year old kids can completely take down evil orginizations. They are free to roam the world without constant adult intervention. They have the freedom to choose; wheather it be a starter pokemon or a team. Really, western games are always praised for their customization, but pokemon is one of the most customizable games out there. Sure the plot is linear, and the metagame is full of the same pokemon over and over, but you can beat the game with whatever you want.
Pokemon was a safe place in an otherwise absolutely terrifying and stressful world. (The worst years of my life was my childhood afterall) A world where a child actually has control and choice, and a voice. They learn about friendship, they learn the terms to help communicate and relate to other children, they even learn vocabulary (I've learned a bunch of actual, real words from pokemon). It encourages reading and learning...it's encouraging, in general, something that school is not.
it's really no surprise that I like pokemon as much as I do. It's always been a big part of me even though I'm not obsessed with it 24/7. But I really, really like it. I questioned myself, what is it that I like? my answer is pokemon. Pokemon is what I like. I loved it, I love it, and I always will love it.
(I just wish I had more people to play with...)
Stanford's Sapolsky On Depression in U.S.
General | Posted 14 years agoThis is interesting...it actually makes me feel less bad/guilty for feeling this way.
Especially interesting that OCD-like obsessive thoughts and depression are similar. It's true, but I never made that connection until I saw this.
It's long, but worth a watch if you're interested.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NOAgplgTxfc
Especially interesting that OCD-like obsessive thoughts and depression are similar. It's true, but I never made that connection until I saw this.
It's long, but worth a watch if you're interested.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NOAgplgTxfc
An oddity...
General | Posted 14 years agoI feel the most nostalgic about the time period where I was most severely depressed. (between 7th and 9th grade)
Back then despite depression, or perhaps because of it, I could really invest my energy into things, because I lived in a fantasy world. My obsession with Sonic was a literal obsession...I thought about Sonic stuff nearly all the time. My imagination was amazing. I would write comics about Sonic and his friends all the time. I learned how to use the internet because of my Sonic obsession. I had a ritual of listening to my entire playlist of Sonic music. I would sit there and listen to a Sonic radio station while doing nothing else but listening to it. I would write original stories, as well as fanfiction (not always sonic for the latter) I was always writing or drawing...
I had more passion towards video games and anime too...nowadays I just can't get into them as much and get bored so easily. I loved Yu-Gi-Oh, Pokemon, and especially Yu Yu Hakusho. Besides Sonic, Okage was my favorite game. I remember waking up in the morning to Digimon Frontier. I would eat canned pineapple pieces for breakfast. (I also had an addiction to skittles, and wouldn't eat much else besides those two things.) Because of my depression my life revolved around these things as a coping mechanism. When we had to write in english class, a large portion of my writing was fanfiction. This stuff was my life...it kept me alive.
I remember coming up with Midnight Eternity, Tony's Story, and a whole bunch of others which I barely have the memory of anymore. I could write something without having to come up with a plan. Actually, everything I did was on a whim and improvised...I just wrote and drew and it would come. I can't do that anymore.
I remember parachat, where I met someone who is my best friend even today (We've known eachother for almost 10 years now!) I remember some other people and experiences from there, some good, some bad. I remember discovering TechTV, watching Silent Mobius on Anime Unleashed, running back to the computer during the commercial to talk to a friend whose username was keitaro on there, and then running back to the living room when it came back on. I remember rping as Aurora Silverrain, and her alternate personality, Natasha. I would watch TechTV after school while I did my homework. I'd watch Call for Help, and then X-Play. Later on, I would watch a show with music videos while it would show letters people wrote and confessions and such they sent in as they played.
I remember having trouble sleeping during the summer. But it was okay because there was Adult Swim. That channel helped relieve my depression also, because shows like Trigun and .hack//sign really deeply spoke to me. Trigun was my first box set. I loved Case Closed too. I would stay up just waiting for these shows to come on. Oh, and I remember Toonami too. Sonic (and Shadow...oh my obsession over Shadow knew no bounds) was my main obsession, but I obsessed over a lot of other stuff and characters.
I'm a more functional person than I was back then. I don't want to go into just how bad my depression was back then, I was delusional, nearly killed myself due to malnutrition (though I was suicidal) and was pretty much legit crazy. I had no friends in real life, and for good reason!
I'm doing so much better now, though depression is back. Yet it's manifested itself entirely different...I have even less motivation than I normally do. I can't bring myself to write anyway nowadays, and now I can't even play games much because I hardly have the energy to even do that. All I feel like doing is sleep. I want to be inspired again...I don't know how to do that...I don't know what to do. I had such inspiration and imagination back then. I have nothing now.
Nostalgic things from that time:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1tlvXbzW7vw Battle B-daman, another show I used to wake up to. And then I would go to bed to Shinzo.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6oNFpVOfxp4 Silent Mobius, I remember the show originally gained my attention because a combination of the name (relating to Sonic of course) and there was a character (Rally) who looked like Natasha did in my mind.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qpRntRj_EQU Nightwalker...this, combined with what's still my favorite book, "A demon in my view", made me like vampires when I used to hate them. I have no idea why I originally hated them. Interestingly, this was pushed onto me by a girl on my bus would force me to watch anime. She was crazy, but if it wasn't for her I wouldn't have discovered DNAngel (It was my last real, long-lasting obsession.)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mqpdD2Ysj9M Most nostalgic video ever, to me, and I'm not sure why. It's about Okage.
I could go on and and on and this is already tl;dr. Basically I'm writing this because it's on my mind and I can't sleep. I remember when I first discovered Youtube. I remember the first AMVs I saw, it got me into Sukisho (A show I would definitely dislike nowadays xD) and Getbackers. I wish I could find some of the old AMVs...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w5NjB60a14g Here's one at least. Akabane was my first ever cosplay. I still wear the trenchcoat I used for it even today.
Back then despite depression, or perhaps because of it, I could really invest my energy into things, because I lived in a fantasy world. My obsession with Sonic was a literal obsession...I thought about Sonic stuff nearly all the time. My imagination was amazing. I would write comics about Sonic and his friends all the time. I learned how to use the internet because of my Sonic obsession. I had a ritual of listening to my entire playlist of Sonic music. I would sit there and listen to a Sonic radio station while doing nothing else but listening to it. I would write original stories, as well as fanfiction (not always sonic for the latter) I was always writing or drawing...
I had more passion towards video games and anime too...nowadays I just can't get into them as much and get bored so easily. I loved Yu-Gi-Oh, Pokemon, and especially Yu Yu Hakusho. Besides Sonic, Okage was my favorite game. I remember waking up in the morning to Digimon Frontier. I would eat canned pineapple pieces for breakfast. (I also had an addiction to skittles, and wouldn't eat much else besides those two things.) Because of my depression my life revolved around these things as a coping mechanism. When we had to write in english class, a large portion of my writing was fanfiction. This stuff was my life...it kept me alive.
I remember coming up with Midnight Eternity, Tony's Story, and a whole bunch of others which I barely have the memory of anymore. I could write something without having to come up with a plan. Actually, everything I did was on a whim and improvised...I just wrote and drew and it would come. I can't do that anymore.
I remember parachat, where I met someone who is my best friend even today (We've known eachother for almost 10 years now!) I remember some other people and experiences from there, some good, some bad. I remember discovering TechTV, watching Silent Mobius on Anime Unleashed, running back to the computer during the commercial to talk to a friend whose username was keitaro on there, and then running back to the living room when it came back on. I remember rping as Aurora Silverrain, and her alternate personality, Natasha. I would watch TechTV after school while I did my homework. I'd watch Call for Help, and then X-Play. Later on, I would watch a show with music videos while it would show letters people wrote and confessions and such they sent in as they played.
I remember having trouble sleeping during the summer. But it was okay because there was Adult Swim. That channel helped relieve my depression also, because shows like Trigun and .hack//sign really deeply spoke to me. Trigun was my first box set. I loved Case Closed too. I would stay up just waiting for these shows to come on. Oh, and I remember Toonami too. Sonic (and Shadow...oh my obsession over Shadow knew no bounds) was my main obsession, but I obsessed over a lot of other stuff and characters.
I'm a more functional person than I was back then. I don't want to go into just how bad my depression was back then, I was delusional, nearly killed myself due to malnutrition (though I was suicidal) and was pretty much legit crazy. I had no friends in real life, and for good reason!
I'm doing so much better now, though depression is back. Yet it's manifested itself entirely different...I have even less motivation than I normally do. I can't bring myself to write anyway nowadays, and now I can't even play games much because I hardly have the energy to even do that. All I feel like doing is sleep. I want to be inspired again...I don't know how to do that...I don't know what to do. I had such inspiration and imagination back then. I have nothing now.
Nostalgic things from that time:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1tlvXbzW7vw Battle B-daman, another show I used to wake up to. And then I would go to bed to Shinzo.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6oNFpVOfxp4 Silent Mobius, I remember the show originally gained my attention because a combination of the name (relating to Sonic of course) and there was a character (Rally) who looked like Natasha did in my mind.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qpRntRj_EQU Nightwalker...this, combined with what's still my favorite book, "A demon in my view", made me like vampires when I used to hate them. I have no idea why I originally hated them. Interestingly, this was pushed onto me by a girl on my bus would force me to watch anime. She was crazy, but if it wasn't for her I wouldn't have discovered DNAngel (It was my last real, long-lasting obsession.)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mqpdD2Ysj9M Most nostalgic video ever, to me, and I'm not sure why. It's about Okage.
I could go on and and on and this is already tl;dr. Basically I'm writing this because it's on my mind and I can't sleep. I remember when I first discovered Youtube. I remember the first AMVs I saw, it got me into Sukisho (A show I would definitely dislike nowadays xD) and Getbackers. I wish I could find some of the old AMVs...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w5NjB60a14g Here's one at least. Akabane was my first ever cosplay. I still wear the trenchcoat I used for it even today.
3DS friend code for swapnote
General | Posted 14 years agoIf anyone wants to use swapnote with me. Dunno who would but I'll put it here anyways.
Name: Alex
Code: 1075-0768-2713
I could also give out my pokemon black friend code if anyone wants to trade or battle with me or whatever. I don't think I have any other games that use it besides those two.
Name: Alex
Code: 1075-0768-2713
I could also give out my pokemon black friend code if anyone wants to trade or battle with me or whatever. I don't think I have any other games that use it besides those two.
Fetish meme
General | Posted 14 years agoStolen from 
I thought this would be interesting to do. I do identify as asexual as I do not find any physical body attractive, though I do have fetishes (though they generally apply only to fiction).
The Fetish MEME
(+++) Ooooooh God yes!
(~) Yeah baby!
(+) I like it
(_) Not my thing, but it doesn't bother me
(-) Nah
(?!) No, go away
(---) GAAAAAH!!! WTF?!?!?!
(?) Huh?
Anal on Males (_)
Anal on Females (-)
Breasts (_)
Breast Expansion (-)
Weight Gain (_)
Bondage (+)
Clothing (+++) (Turtlenecks especially)
Leather (_)
Socks/Stockings (+)
Shoe/Boots (+)
Shoe Loss (_)
Suit and Tie (+++)
Muscle, Male (_)
Muscle, Female (_)
Herm (_)
Cub (?!)
Baby/Diaper Play (+) (Consenting adults only)
Transformation (+)
Macro/Micro (+)
Impregnation (?!)
Pregnancy (?!)
Lactation (?!)
Anal Vore (---)
Soul Vore (_)
Cock Vore (---)
Standard Soft Vore (---)
Standard Hard Vore (---)
Paw/Foot (_)
Incest (_)
Yuri (F/F) (_)
Yaoi (M/M) (~)
Hetero (M/F) (_)
Bi (_)
Girly Boys (-)
Butch Girls (_)
Mind Control (_)
Rape (?!)
Uniform (+)
Orgy (_)
Subbing/Doming (+)
Biting (+++)
Cheesecake (?)
Solo Masturbation; Male (+++)
Solo Masturbation; Female (_)
Scat (-)
Inflation (_)
Fat/Pudge (_)
Tech (?)
Watersports (+++) (Specifically omorashi though. Other kinds not as much.)
Glasses (+++)
Tentacles (_)
Oviposition (_)
Masochism (+)
Sadism (+)
Multiple body parts (_)
Partial Nudity (~)
Gore/guro (+)
Snuff (-)
Hyper (_)
Zoophilia (_)
Electricity (_)
She-males (_)
Cross-dressing (_)
Skunk spray (_)
Oral (+)
Asphyxiation (~)
Wet-look (_)
Mud/Quicksand (_)
Sinking (?)
Spooge (_)
Body Paint(_)
Plants (_)
Tickling (_)
I thought this would be interesting to do. I do identify as asexual as I do not find any physical body attractive, though I do have fetishes (though they generally apply only to fiction).
The Fetish MEME
(+++) Ooooooh God yes!
(~) Yeah baby!
(+) I like it
(_) Not my thing, but it doesn't bother me
(-) Nah
(?!) No, go away
(---) GAAAAAH!!! WTF?!?!?!
(?) Huh?
Anal on Males (_)
Anal on Females (-)
Breasts (_)
Breast Expansion (-)
Weight Gain (_)
Bondage (+)
Clothing (+++) (Turtlenecks especially)
Leather (_)
Socks/Stockings (+)
Shoe/Boots (+)
Shoe Loss (_)
Suit and Tie (+++)
Muscle, Male (_)
Muscle, Female (_)
Herm (_)
Cub (?!)
Baby/Diaper Play (+) (Consenting adults only)
Transformation (+)
Macro/Micro (+)
Impregnation (?!)
Pregnancy (?!)
Lactation (?!)
Anal Vore (---)
Soul Vore (_)
Cock Vore (---)
Standard Soft Vore (---)
Standard Hard Vore (---)
Paw/Foot (_)
Incest (_)
Yuri (F/F) (_)
Yaoi (M/M) (~)
Hetero (M/F) (_)
Bi (_)
Girly Boys (-)
Butch Girls (_)
Mind Control (_)
Rape (?!)
Uniform (+)
Orgy (_)
Subbing/Doming (+)
Biting (+++)
Cheesecake (?)
Solo Masturbation; Male (+++)
Solo Masturbation; Female (_)
Scat (-)
Inflation (_)
Fat/Pudge (_)
Tech (?)
Watersports (+++) (Specifically omorashi though. Other kinds not as much.)
Glasses (+++)
Tentacles (_)
Oviposition (_)
Masochism (+)
Sadism (+)
Multiple body parts (_)
Partial Nudity (~)
Gore/guro (+)
Snuff (-)
Hyper (_)
Zoophilia (_)
Electricity (_)
She-males (_)
Cross-dressing (_)
Skunk spray (_)
Oral (+)
Asphyxiation (~)
Wet-look (_)
Mud/Quicksand (_)
Sinking (?)
Spooge (_)
Body Paint(_)
Plants (_)
Tickling (_)
No Subject
General | Posted 14 years agoCat:
[x] - You take pleasure in fooling/tricking people (I'm honest, but I do love pulling pranks)
[ ] - You're easily scared
[x] - You hate getting dirty
[ ] - You can be really flirty when you want to
[x] - You keep your hair long
[x] - You don't like getting wet unless you're bathing
[x] - You like to just lounge about (Depends of the definition of lounging. If I'm not doing or looking at anything I get bored VERY easily. If surfing the internet counts as lounging than yes.)
[x]- You get annoyed easily
[x]- You like seafood
[ ]- You can spend hours trying to make yourself look good
Total for 'cat': 7
Dog:
[ ] - You're almost always smiling
[x] - You're nice to most people and like to get to know people before you judge them
[x] - You rarely resort to violence
[x] - You would NEVER hurt your friends (Not on purpose, anyway...)
[ ] - You really like tickling people, just to see if they're ticklish
[x] - You stand up for others (I do this a lot. Unfortunately it just makes people hate me because I stand up for people that others love to mock or be mean to)
[ ] - You would tell everyone that you love them if it wasn't so hard on your reputation
[x] - You don't get angry easily (I get annoyed easily, but rarely angry)
[x] - You share your food with people who are out of lunch money (Either that or buy it for them, I've done that before.)
[x] - Your favorite color is either blue, yellow, or purple
Total for 'dog': 7
Fish:
[ ] - You're really good at swimming
[x] - You like to swim
[x] - You like sparkly things
[ ] - You are really ticklish
[ ] - You can fit through almost any space
[ ] - You've gotten stuck in a net or/and rope before
[x] - You're romantically lost (Don't care for romance. Honestly I think the obsession most people have with it is completely stupid.)
[x] - You're really good at keeping a straight face when you need to
[ ] - You aren't very drawn to people who "stand out"
[ ] - You can wear just about anything And look good in it
Total for 'fish': 4
Bug:
[ ] - You like to wear bright colors
[x] - You like vegetables
[ ] - Your entire life revolves around sparkly things
[x] - You always worry about falling prey to bullies/gossipers
[x] - You're terrified of things that other people aren't scared of
[x] - You aren't afraid of some things that other people are terrified of
[x] - You have been told that you lack emotion
[ ] - You keep your opinions to yourself
[ ] - You can be social one minute and a loner the next
[x] - You are a good impersonator and/or you like to dress up as things you're not
Total for 'bug': 6
Rodent:
[x] - You're always prepared for something bad to happen
[x] - You make little piles of things in your room that your friends/parent(s)/guardian(s) claim is 'unorganized'
[x] - You run rather than fight from danger
[ ] - You designate people to hide behind (Sometimes I use people as sun-shields though, do to my sensitivity to light and heat)
[x] - You say "uh/er/um" a lot
[ ] - People have told you that you talk really fast before
[x] - Sometimes you stutter
[x] - You like to have pets
[x] - You far prefer animals to people
[x] - You can't trust very many people
Total for 'rodent': 8
Deer:
[x] - You are prone to spelling errors
[x] - You have been told that you are pretty before in any given way
[x] - You are modest
[x] - You would rather run from a fight than actually fight
[x] - You would protect the ones you love.
[x] - When you get really frustrated you cry
[x] - It breaks your heart to see ads about animal cruelty
[ ] - You love your friends but sometimes they're mean to you (Anyone who is intentionally mean is NOT a friend, people!!)
[x] - You never say so, but you think that you're kind of pretty
[ ] - When you were little you wanted to be a princess/prince
Total for 'deer': 8
Horse:
[ ] - You personally think that you are pretty
[ ] - You always have boys/girls asking you out
[ ] - Sometimes you aren't very smart in decision making, and have some regrets following you around in the back of your mind
[ ] - You hang out with an exclusive group that isn't open to just anybody
[ ] - You never leave the comfort of your own home without your makeup on/your hair brushed
[ ] - You are constantly altering your body
[ ] - You are quick to judge people
[ ] - You're always up to date on the gossip going around
[ ] - You take ridiculously good care of yourself
[ ] - The only thing you like about school/College/Work is having friends there
Total for 'horse': 0
I'm a rodent/deer xD
[x] - You take pleasure in fooling/tricking people (I'm honest, but I do love pulling pranks)
[ ] - You're easily scared
[x] - You hate getting dirty
[ ] - You can be really flirty when you want to
[x] - You keep your hair long
[x] - You don't like getting wet unless you're bathing
[x] - You like to just lounge about (Depends of the definition of lounging. If I'm not doing or looking at anything I get bored VERY easily. If surfing the internet counts as lounging than yes.)
[x]- You get annoyed easily
[x]- You like seafood
[ ]- You can spend hours trying to make yourself look good
Total for 'cat': 7
Dog:
[ ] - You're almost always smiling
[x] - You're nice to most people and like to get to know people before you judge them
[x] - You rarely resort to violence
[x] - You would NEVER hurt your friends (Not on purpose, anyway...)
[ ] - You really like tickling people, just to see if they're ticklish
[x] - You stand up for others (I do this a lot. Unfortunately it just makes people hate me because I stand up for people that others love to mock or be mean to)
[ ] - You would tell everyone that you love them if it wasn't so hard on your reputation
[x] - You don't get angry easily (I get annoyed easily, but rarely angry)
[x] - You share your food with people who are out of lunch money (Either that or buy it for them, I've done that before.)
[x] - Your favorite color is either blue, yellow, or purple
Total for 'dog': 7
Fish:
[ ] - You're really good at swimming
[x] - You like to swim
[x] - You like sparkly things
[ ] - You are really ticklish
[ ] - You can fit through almost any space
[ ] - You've gotten stuck in a net or/and rope before
[x] - You're romantically lost (Don't care for romance. Honestly I think the obsession most people have with it is completely stupid.)
[x] - You're really good at keeping a straight face when you need to
[ ] - You aren't very drawn to people who "stand out"
[ ] - You can wear just about anything And look good in it
Total for 'fish': 4
Bug:
[ ] - You like to wear bright colors
[x] - You like vegetables
[ ] - Your entire life revolves around sparkly things
[x] - You always worry about falling prey to bullies/gossipers
[x] - You're terrified of things that other people aren't scared of
[x] - You aren't afraid of some things that other people are terrified of
[x] - You have been told that you lack emotion
[ ] - You keep your opinions to yourself
[ ] - You can be social one minute and a loner the next
[x] - You are a good impersonator and/or you like to dress up as things you're not
Total for 'bug': 6
Rodent:
[x] - You're always prepared for something bad to happen
[x] - You make little piles of things in your room that your friends/parent(s)/guardian(s) claim is 'unorganized'
[x] - You run rather than fight from danger
[ ] - You designate people to hide behind (Sometimes I use people as sun-shields though, do to my sensitivity to light and heat)
[x] - You say "uh/er/um" a lot
[ ] - People have told you that you talk really fast before
[x] - Sometimes you stutter
[x] - You like to have pets
[x] - You far prefer animals to people
[x] - You can't trust very many people
Total for 'rodent': 8
Deer:
[x] - You are prone to spelling errors
[x] - You have been told that you are pretty before in any given way
[x] - You are modest
[x] - You would rather run from a fight than actually fight
[x] - You would protect the ones you love.
[x] - When you get really frustrated you cry
[x] - It breaks your heart to see ads about animal cruelty
[ ] - You love your friends but sometimes they're mean to you (Anyone who is intentionally mean is NOT a friend, people!!)
[x] - You never say so, but you think that you're kind of pretty
[ ] - When you were little you wanted to be a princess/prince
Total for 'deer': 8
Horse:
[ ] - You personally think that you are pretty
[ ] - You always have boys/girls asking you out
[ ] - Sometimes you aren't very smart in decision making, and have some regrets following you around in the back of your mind
[ ] - You hang out with an exclusive group that isn't open to just anybody
[ ] - You never leave the comfort of your own home without your makeup on/your hair brushed
[ ] - You are constantly altering your body
[ ] - You are quick to judge people
[ ] - You're always up to date on the gossip going around
[ ] - You take ridiculously good care of yourself
[ ] - The only thing you like about school/College/Work is having friends there
Total for 'horse': 0
I'm a rodent/deer xD
I'm done with them
General | Posted 14 years agoI thought perhaps I shared similar interests as babyfurs/littlefurs that perhaps I could belong. It prided itself on accepting everbody, being a small tight-knit group of friends who were super nice. Now I realize that it's mostly just a group of immature manchildren wanting an excuse to act like babies without any reprecussions. They are the most exclusive group I've ever met. Their attitudes are, at the core, exactly the same as the popular kids in high school. Not all of course (one of the nicest people I've ever met is a babyfur), but in general.
So I'm done. Little Aura, not just the account, but the character herself is dead. Not like anyone would miss her anyway.
Things I want to say to people:
1. I was one of the first, if not THE first person you met here. I was extremely nice to you and was the person who introduced you to RPing. Of course, now I mean nothing to you because you're popular and know a bunch of popular furs. I feel stupid for thinking I could ever be your friend.
2. I thought you were really cool, tried talking to you numerous times. You acted like you'd include me and be nice to be like you were with everyone else. But that doesn't matter because that's not the case. I feel most shunned by you most of all.
3. No, it's NOT because you speak your mind. It's because you're inconsiderate and immature. Mocking people on 3 different occasions in such a short time span? Real classy. And then trying to get your hugbox together because 'oh poor me i speak my mind and now people are being mean to me baaw' is super classy too. Oh, and then claiming to be the most caring person ever. Yeah, you know you're a liar.
4. I'm sorry for trying to be your friend. I forgot you had too many friends for it to matter. Complain about being alone and yet having a huge group of people who love you and talk to you. Last time I try and be helpful.
So I'm done. Little Aura, not just the account, but the character herself is dead. Not like anyone would miss her anyway.
Things I want to say to people:
1. I was one of the first, if not THE first person you met here. I was extremely nice to you and was the person who introduced you to RPing. Of course, now I mean nothing to you because you're popular and know a bunch of popular furs. I feel stupid for thinking I could ever be your friend.
2. I thought you were really cool, tried talking to you numerous times. You acted like you'd include me and be nice to be like you were with everyone else. But that doesn't matter because that's not the case. I feel most shunned by you most of all.
3. No, it's NOT because you speak your mind. It's because you're inconsiderate and immature. Mocking people on 3 different occasions in such a short time span? Real classy. And then trying to get your hugbox together because 'oh poor me i speak my mind and now people are being mean to me baaw' is super classy too. Oh, and then claiming to be the most caring person ever. Yeah, you know you're a liar.
4. I'm sorry for trying to be your friend. I forgot you had too many friends for it to matter. Complain about being alone and yet having a huge group of people who love you and talk to you. Last time I try and be helpful.
Respect in the community
General | Posted 14 years agoOften people talk about non-furries attacking furries, but I do remember reading that furries are the biggest trolls of other furries. I think that's true. For a community that pretty much demands tolerance from others, there's a huge amount of intolerance of others from within. "Oh I'm not one of THOSE furries who have sex in fursuits, those are sick weirdos, I'M not like that." (Does it really matter? I think it's weird to spend so much money on something nice like a fursuit and ruin it by having sex in it, but whatever...if that's what they wanna do, y'know? *shrug*)
It seems so hard for people, especially furries, to have a live and let live attitude. Obviously if someone does or likes something one doesn't like, they have to make a huge deal of it going out of their way to mock others who do like it. I've seen a lot of artwork mocking art styles or fetishes and such. Fetishes are the weirdest in that aspect. Does it make sense to you for someone who has a strange or obscure fetish to mock or insult someone else who has another strange or obscure fetish? I remember seeing on a forum ABs (Adult babies) making fun of people with a balloon fetish like the balloons were the weird things, completely unironically too. (Interestingly, I find ABs and babyfurs the most intolerant, it's like the more flak a community gets from outsiders, the more jerkish the community is.) I've had some tell me omorashi was unsanitary by someone who was obsessed with hard yaoi. That was pretty funny.
In reality, the furry community is just as clique-ish as a high school. You have furs that like one thing attacking those who like another thing, being exclusive about who they want in their "group", all that stuff. But they don't want to admit that they are no different from the same people who treated them badly. In high school I never fit in anywhere, and it's the same thing here.
It's fine to express dislike. Vore disgusts the hell out of me, but I'm not going to spend my time whining and hating on people who do. If I happen to come across it by accident, I just look away. If someone I know likes it or posts it (and I know plenty who do) I won't attack them for it. I like what I like and they like what they like. Shouldn't be a problem unless they try to force it on me. If they do, I'll just block them.
Anyway, I don't get why it's so hard for people to just deal with other people being different from them. It's especially weird in communities like this, because they constantly complain about getting attacked because of perceived differences, yet they do the exact same thing to others. I don't expect people to get along and be happy sunshine all the time, but it's still pretty rude. It shouldn't be so difficult to be like "Oh, this is different, I don't understand it, I don't like it...but that's okay, especially because I like things that are weird to others too. Different strokes for different folks as they say." As long as it's not hurting anyone who doesn't want to get hurt, I think it's fine. But apparently that view is rare...if you respect other people, I respect you too.
On an unrelated note, it's weird when suffering becomes a competition. Everyone has problems, some worse than others. But everyone's problems are valid. I've seen so many people act like they win some sort of competition because of how bad their life is, and try to one-up others when they talk about their problems. I can understand just regular ranting, but I see this so often and it's rather tiresome. In me it tends to produce the opposite effect (they are trying to gain sympathy but it makes me lose it instead.) Everyone deserves to have their feelings validated, they shouldn't have to act like they are the most important person in the world to get it.
It seems so hard for people, especially furries, to have a live and let live attitude. Obviously if someone does or likes something one doesn't like, they have to make a huge deal of it going out of their way to mock others who do like it. I've seen a lot of artwork mocking art styles or fetishes and such. Fetishes are the weirdest in that aspect. Does it make sense to you for someone who has a strange or obscure fetish to mock or insult someone else who has another strange or obscure fetish? I remember seeing on a forum ABs (Adult babies) making fun of people with a balloon fetish like the balloons were the weird things, completely unironically too. (Interestingly, I find ABs and babyfurs the most intolerant, it's like the more flak a community gets from outsiders, the more jerkish the community is.) I've had some tell me omorashi was unsanitary by someone who was obsessed with hard yaoi. That was pretty funny.
In reality, the furry community is just as clique-ish as a high school. You have furs that like one thing attacking those who like another thing, being exclusive about who they want in their "group", all that stuff. But they don't want to admit that they are no different from the same people who treated them badly. In high school I never fit in anywhere, and it's the same thing here.
It's fine to express dislike. Vore disgusts the hell out of me, but I'm not going to spend my time whining and hating on people who do. If I happen to come across it by accident, I just look away. If someone I know likes it or posts it (and I know plenty who do) I won't attack them for it. I like what I like and they like what they like. Shouldn't be a problem unless they try to force it on me. If they do, I'll just block them.
Anyway, I don't get why it's so hard for people to just deal with other people being different from them. It's especially weird in communities like this, because they constantly complain about getting attacked because of perceived differences, yet they do the exact same thing to others. I don't expect people to get along and be happy sunshine all the time, but it's still pretty rude. It shouldn't be so difficult to be like "Oh, this is different, I don't understand it, I don't like it...but that's okay, especially because I like things that are weird to others too. Different strokes for different folks as they say." As long as it's not hurting anyone who doesn't want to get hurt, I think it's fine. But apparently that view is rare...if you respect other people, I respect you too.
On an unrelated note, it's weird when suffering becomes a competition. Everyone has problems, some worse than others. But everyone's problems are valid. I've seen so many people act like they win some sort of competition because of how bad their life is, and try to one-up others when they talk about their problems. I can understand just regular ranting, but I see this so often and it's rather tiresome. In me it tends to produce the opposite effect (they are trying to gain sympathy but it makes me lose it instead.) Everyone deserves to have their feelings validated, they shouldn't have to act like they are the most important person in the world to get it.
On an unrelated note...
General | Posted 14 years agohttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SckkqIlAJW8
This song makes me feel nostalgic.
I wish I could play that game again.
This song makes me feel nostalgic.
I wish I could play that game again.
Meh
General | Posted 14 years agoSorry to anyone I haven't been talking to lately. I just haven't been feeling up to it...
Still having issues with the geology teacher. There's not much I can do at this point other than hope I don't fail... he's pretty much intentionally setting us all up to fail because he's bitter. It has nothing to do with how hard we work, there's a classmate majoring in earth science with a 4.0 gpa and she too is barely passing. He's not just screwing me over. There are a bunch of people whose financial aid may be cut because of this class too.
I hate how long it's taken me to get through school. I would have been done already if I wasn't sick. If I fail I'll have to go another semester, making it my 4th year at community college. I'm so close to getting to Stonybrook...because of this one asshole I may never be accepted there because not only won't I graduate, my GPA will be killed.
And even though I know sort of what I want to do, I don't know what degree to do. I've been told you can't really get a job with a degree in psychology. But I don't know if I have what it takes to get a Masters, even though I want one. I kind of want to go into special ed, where there are more job oppurtunies and I don't need a Masters, but I don't know if I could deal with it. I've also considered going into social work. But both jobs pay is abysmal for the amount of stress put through.
And I've gotten into a fight with my best friend. He got mad at me because I thought he didn't care. It's because he doesn't show it and his word tone shows hostility. I know he cares about me, but often I feel like he just wants me to shut up. He says I ignore all the good things. And if that's the case I'm no better than an ex-friend of mine who was too mentally ill to be a friend.
My anxiety has worsened too. I'm becoming more and more uncomfortable about people walking behind me, probably because I walk slowly due to the MS. I hate people behind me breathing down my neck and judging me, and I hate being in their way. I've been taking longer routes to class because of this. I hate feeling like a cripple.
On top of that I accidentally overwrote my original save file in Skyrim (Yeah I have in and got it...) when I started a new game just to mess around. It could've been worse...because I have an earlier save from that character (thank god)...but it's waaaaaay far back from where I was. I'm so mad at myself because I don't even remember overwiritng the save. I remember making a new save file for my own character, so I have no idea how it could've happened. I also forgot to turn autosave off so all the autosaves I have are from my new character and not my old one. It's not the first time I overwrote a save file either. I feel like I pretty much wasted my entire weekend and don't want to play anymore. At the same time, I don't really have the energy to do anything else =(
I just feel...sad and stupid.
Still having issues with the geology teacher. There's not much I can do at this point other than hope I don't fail... he's pretty much intentionally setting us all up to fail because he's bitter. It has nothing to do with how hard we work, there's a classmate majoring in earth science with a 4.0 gpa and she too is barely passing. He's not just screwing me over. There are a bunch of people whose financial aid may be cut because of this class too.
I hate how long it's taken me to get through school. I would have been done already if I wasn't sick. If I fail I'll have to go another semester, making it my 4th year at community college. I'm so close to getting to Stonybrook...because of this one asshole I may never be accepted there because not only won't I graduate, my GPA will be killed.
And even though I know sort of what I want to do, I don't know what degree to do. I've been told you can't really get a job with a degree in psychology. But I don't know if I have what it takes to get a Masters, even though I want one. I kind of want to go into special ed, where there are more job oppurtunies and I don't need a Masters, but I don't know if I could deal with it. I've also considered going into social work. But both jobs pay is abysmal for the amount of stress put through.
And I've gotten into a fight with my best friend. He got mad at me because I thought he didn't care. It's because he doesn't show it and his word tone shows hostility. I know he cares about me, but often I feel like he just wants me to shut up. He says I ignore all the good things. And if that's the case I'm no better than an ex-friend of mine who was too mentally ill to be a friend.
My anxiety has worsened too. I'm becoming more and more uncomfortable about people walking behind me, probably because I walk slowly due to the MS. I hate people behind me breathing down my neck and judging me, and I hate being in their way. I've been taking longer routes to class because of this. I hate feeling like a cripple.
On top of that I accidentally overwrote my original save file in Skyrim (Yeah I have in and got it...) when I started a new game just to mess around. It could've been worse...because I have an earlier save from that character (thank god)...but it's waaaaaay far back from where I was. I'm so mad at myself because I don't even remember overwiritng the save. I remember making a new save file for my own character, so I have no idea how it could've happened. I also forgot to turn autosave off so all the autosaves I have are from my new character and not my old one. It's not the first time I overwrote a save file either. I feel like I pretty much wasted my entire weekend and don't want to play anymore. At the same time, I don't really have the energy to do anything else =(
I just feel...sad and stupid.
The worst part about any type of abuse
General | Posted 14 years agoAre the people who sit there and watch and do nothing.
http://www.alternet.org/newsandview.....d_did_not_act/
http://ramblingbeachcat.blogspot.co.....-focus-is.html
I hate them just as much as I hate the person who did this. They are just as responsible.
http://www.alternet.org/newsandview.....d_did_not_act/
http://ramblingbeachcat.blogspot.co.....-focus-is.html
I hate them just as much as I hate the person who did this. They are just as responsible.
Queer Meme and ABCD meme
General | Posted 14 years agoQueer meme stolen from 
Sex:
Birth Sex: Female
Current Physical Sex: Female
Identified Sex: Either/Neither
Ideal Sex: To be able to switch at will.
(Birth Sex: What you were born as. Male, female, intersex)
(Current Physical Sex: What sex you are now.)
(Identified Sex: What sex you'd like others to see you as, all things being the same)
(Ideal Sex: If you could choose what sex you'd be, which would you choose?)
Gender:
Primary Gender: Neither
Masculine? Somewhat
Feminine? Somewhat
Preferred pronoun: "She", only because that's what I'm used to. I don't mind being called anything else.
(Primary Gender: What gender you identify as)
(Masculine? : Are you masculine?)
(Feminine? : Are you feminine?)
(Preferred pronoun: What pronouns do you like people to use for you?)
Attractions and stuff:
Sexual Orientation: Asexual Paraphiliac
Romantic Orientation: Aromantic
Polyamory? Wouldn't do it, but don't care if other people do.
Notable fetishes: Omorashi
Other fetishes: Guro, humiliation, a bunch of others
(Sexual Orientation: Who do you want to have sex with?)
(Romantic Orientation: Who do you want to have a romantic relationship with?)
(Polyamory?: Are you okay with multiple sexual/romantic relationships?)
(Notable fetishes: Main fetishes)
(Other fetishes: Fetishes you have, but not as strong as the notable fetishes.)
----
ABC meme stolen from
A - Available? ---
Not taken, but not avaliable.
B - Birthday? ---
August 26
C - Crushing on? ---
Someone who've I known a long time.
D - Drink you last had? ---
Water
E - Easiest person to talk to? ---
F - Favorite song? ---
Either Sleepwalking Past Hope by HIM: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U2Tipkv7PX4
or Daybreak's Bell by L'Arc~en~Ciel: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r-02UKnuy2o
G - Gummy bears or gummy worms? ---
Gummy Bears.
H - Hometown? ---
Somewhere in New York
K - Killed someone? ---
....o_O No, what kind of question of that?
L - Longest car ride? ---
I don't know how long it was, but it was a trip to Boston. I think it was 6 or 7 hours?
M - Milkshake flavor? ---
Vanilla.
N - Number of siblings ---
0
O - One wish? ---
I have no idea, maybe for people to be more accepting of eachother.
P - Person you texted last? --
Q - Question you are always asked? ---
Usually I'm the one asking questions (and then people get mad xP)
R - Reason to smile? --
Friends, good music, something amusing, art, animals, there's lots of reasons to smile ^^
S - Song you last listened to? ---
I dunno, but I have Rolling Star (Yuri's Mixx) stuck in my head. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L6Gd3LC1fME
T - Time you woke up? ---
10am
U - Underwear color? ---
White.
V - Violent moment you had?
Apparently in 5th grade I physically attacked one of my classmates which almost led to me being sent to some sort of institutional school. I have no recollection of this, though.
W - Worst habit? ---
Dermatillomania.
X - X-rays you had? ---
I had an X-ray of my ribs once when I couldn't breathe due to breathing in cement glue. And I've had about 3 CAT scans (Maybe one of them was an MRI? I don't remember exactly).
Y - Yoyos are? ---
Cool.
Z - Zodiac sign? ---
Virgo.
Sex:
Birth Sex: Female
Current Physical Sex: Female
Identified Sex: Either/Neither
Ideal Sex: To be able to switch at will.
(Birth Sex: What you were born as. Male, female, intersex)
(Current Physical Sex: What sex you are now.)
(Identified Sex: What sex you'd like others to see you as, all things being the same)
(Ideal Sex: If you could choose what sex you'd be, which would you choose?)
Gender:
Primary Gender: Neither
Masculine? Somewhat
Feminine? Somewhat
Preferred pronoun: "She", only because that's what I'm used to. I don't mind being called anything else.
(Primary Gender: What gender you identify as)
(Masculine? : Are you masculine?)
(Feminine? : Are you feminine?)
(Preferred pronoun: What pronouns do you like people to use for you?)
Attractions and stuff:
Sexual Orientation: Asexual Paraphiliac
Romantic Orientation: Aromantic
Polyamory? Wouldn't do it, but don't care if other people do.
Notable fetishes: Omorashi
Other fetishes: Guro, humiliation, a bunch of others
(Sexual Orientation: Who do you want to have sex with?)
(Romantic Orientation: Who do you want to have a romantic relationship with?)
(Polyamory?: Are you okay with multiple sexual/romantic relationships?)
(Notable fetishes: Main fetishes)
(Other fetishes: Fetishes you have, but not as strong as the notable fetishes.)
----
ABC meme stolen from
A - Available? ---
Not taken, but not avaliable.
B - Birthday? ---
August 26
C - Crushing on? ---
Someone who've I known a long time.
D - Drink you last had? ---
Water
E - Easiest person to talk to? ---
F - Favorite song? ---
Either Sleepwalking Past Hope by HIM: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U2Tipkv7PX4
or Daybreak's Bell by L'Arc~en~Ciel: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r-02UKnuy2o
G - Gummy bears or gummy worms? ---
Gummy Bears.
H - Hometown? ---
Somewhere in New York
K - Killed someone? ---
....o_O No, what kind of question of that?
L - Longest car ride? ---
I don't know how long it was, but it was a trip to Boston. I think it was 6 or 7 hours?
M - Milkshake flavor? ---
Vanilla.
N - Number of siblings ---
0
O - One wish? ---
I have no idea, maybe for people to be more accepting of eachother.
P - Person you texted last? --
Q - Question you are always asked? ---
Usually I'm the one asking questions (and then people get mad xP)
R - Reason to smile? --
Friends, good music, something amusing, art, animals, there's lots of reasons to smile ^^
S - Song you last listened to? ---
I dunno, but I have Rolling Star (Yuri's Mixx) stuck in my head. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L6Gd3LC1fME
T - Time you woke up? ---
10am
U - Underwear color? ---
White.
V - Violent moment you had?
Apparently in 5th grade I physically attacked one of my classmates which almost led to me being sent to some sort of institutional school. I have no recollection of this, though.
W - Worst habit? ---
Dermatillomania.
X - X-rays you had? ---
I had an X-ray of my ribs once when I couldn't breathe due to breathing in cement glue. And I've had about 3 CAT scans (Maybe one of them was an MRI? I don't remember exactly).
Y - Yoyos are? ---
Cool.
Z - Zodiac sign? ---
Virgo.
Essay about Bullying
General | Posted 14 years agoFor my Child/Adolescent Psychology class I decided to do my Term Paper on bullying. I thought that I'd post it here, perhaps some people may be interested, and I am hoping for some feedback on what I could do to make it better as it is due tomorrow. Sorry for the weird formatting, it looks a lot better on paper, as there are parapgraph spaces xD
Also, feel free to discuss the issue in general. I'm interested in the subject and it's interesting to hear other peoples opinions.
On an unrelated note: I finally picked up my DDR matt and started to play again since I've been feeling a little better. Perhaps this may get me to start playing regularly again like I used to.
Okay here's the essay:
Bullying in Schools
Bullying is a serious problem that has always been around, but has been getting more media attention as of late. Schools are supposed to be a safe place, an environment where a child can learn and grow as a person, but when a child is bullied it hinders their ability to develop and learn, and also scars them for life. For some kids, school is not a safe place, and may even be described as a living hell for them, yet it still continues, sometimes for years. Everyone knows about bullying, but not much has been done to effectively deal with it.
Contrary to popular belief, bullying consists of more than just the easily noticeable physical attacks. Bullying may be defined as “the repeated oppression, physical or psychological, direct or indirect, of a less powerful person by a more powerful person or group where there is always a power imbalance that makes the ill-treatment of the victim possible.” [Sofronoff, Kate, and Elizabeth Dark, and Valerie Stone (2010) p. 1] It can be differentiated from normal conflicts by noting that unlike a normal conflict, bullying is done repeatedly and on purpose, there is only a strong emotional reaction from the victim, and the bully shows no remorse; they blame the victim, saying things such as “they deserved it.” In the past it was believed that only troubled, socially maladjusted kids with low self-esteem were the bullies, but it has been shown that this is not the case. In fact, many bullies have high self-esteem, and are liked by their peers and authority figures. Bullies are master manipulators, and often feign innocence when confronted. Bullying behavior is also frequently encouraged by peers, while unnoticed by adults. Such encouragement makes it more likely to occur. [Snyder, M. nd] Bullying behavior is linked to aggression and desire to be popular, it is not uncommon for popular students to be bullies. It seems that bullies don’t behave that way due to abuse, in fact, evidence seems to show that they do it for the simple reason of “because they can”. [Luscombe, B. 2011] Their perceived strength, popularity, and social prowess allow them to gang up on weaker students; the victims.
Unlike bullies, victims generally have a negative outlook on violence and are not as aggressive. As it turns out, victims have the traits that were once thought to be the profile of a bully; they often suffer from insecurity or low self esteem and tend to be weaker and have less friends than their peers. It is also not just as simple as bully and victim, as it is possible for a child to be both; it is said that around 16 percent of children will be both a bully and a victim at some point in their lives. [Snyder, M. nd] It isn’t uncommon for victims, and peers, to keep quiet about the bullying in fear that it would make the bullying worse, or target them as a victim as well. [Shulkin, J, 2010]
Children with learning disabilities are often targets for bullying, more than their normally developing peers. Often with disabilities, children exhibit emotional and behavioral difficulties, which can pin the child as a target. They also may have difficulties fitting in due to their differences from the other children. As it was mentioned earlier, victims often have low self esteem as well as being physically weaker, they may also be oversensitive or over-react to things, which are traits commonly seen in children with ADHD. [Snyder, M. nd] Autistic children, or children with Asperger’s syndrome, are especially prone to it, due to their social ineptitude and naivety, which has shown to be the biggest reasons children on the spectrum are bullied; they can be tricked into doing things that will get them in trouble, and children take advantage of this. Researchers have also noticed that there are generally two types of children who are victims of bullying: passive targets, who tend to be anxious and solitary, and proactive targets, who tend to be irritating and provocative. These are traits that together are said to create a “single profile of a child with AS (Asperger’s Syndrome)” [Sofronoff, Kate, and Elizabeth Dark, and Valerie Stone (2010) p, 1, 3, 15] Children on the autistic spectrum (including Aspergers), are often perceived as very different from their peers, and are usually not as able to understand the situation or defend themselves as well as normal children do. This has such a profound effect that it is said that 9 out of 10 autistic children are bullied, while it is rarely expressed that an autistic child is a bully, perhaps because of their inability to manipulate. [Heasley, S. 2011]
We all know that students bully, but the teacher’s influence is even bigger than one of another student. They are of a position of authority and are supposed to be role models, yet teachers and their attitudes towards other students, and bullying itself, are a major contributor to bullying. Many people do not believe this, however it is clear that the teachers’ role is huge, occasionally going so far as to bully the students themselves. In fact, many bullies perhaps get away with their behavior because the child knows that they are favored by the teacher, and thus will not experience repressions. Another big reason for the teacher playing a big role, is that students learn from their behavior. The teacher may treat low-performing, non-conforming, non-engaged and just plain different students in a negative manner. The school setting is one that is ruled by fear and conformity, and the teacher may use shaming, humiliation, and teasing as tactics in order to try and force a child to behave to their liking. They believe that bullying is an acceptable form of classroom control, and blame the student for their reluctant behavior, without seeing that they are partially to blame for it. [Page, B. 2007] And as children imitate what they see, they learn to imitate the teacher’s behavior and attitudes. On top of this, children who are in the autistic spectrum, who as mentioned before are already prone to bullying from students, are especially susceptible to bullying from a teacher as well, due to the fact that they are prone to behavioral problems. In one case, a Kindergarten teacher made a child who was in the process of being diagnosed with Asperger’s stand in front of the classroom while telling the students to berate him and insult him. The student was then voted out of the class Survivor-style, 14 to 2. [Wixon, C. 2008] On top of this, many teachers are completely reluctant to do anything about bullying and can have a nonchalant attitude that allows bullying to continue, and parents express concern that the school isn’t doing enough, and that the teacher doesn’t care. Only one in five cases did a parent learn about bullying from the school, 2 out 3 cases lasted several months. [Heasley, S. 2011] Teachers may not see bullying, and instead punish only the victim if they have an outburst brought on by the bullying, thus worsening the situation. [Shulkin, J. 2010] In some cases, the victims’ parents are forced to switch classrooms, or even schools, if that is even an option.
Bullying can hurt children in ways that are not immediately obvious. They may feel lonely, friendless, and abandoned. [Snyder, M. nd] They may relive the incident, much like how a PTSD sufferer relives their trauma. [Wixon C. 2008] Victims are likely to visit the nurse’s office more often, which shows that even verbal bullying takes on physical form, and the emotional strain suppresses the immune system. [George, C] A child who is bullied is likely to remember it vividly, even into adulthood. This shows that bullying causes long-term psychological damage to the victims, and as we have seen in the media reports, can even lead to suicide. Despite this, a bully, student or teacher, may be completely oblivious to the harm they are causing to a child. They may not even be aware that what they are doing is bullying. Especially when it comes to teachers, they may mean to make a positive impact, but end up doing the opposite. [Page, B. 2007] This suggests that schools need more education regarding bullying.
It can be seen that the very nature of school itself, such ‘one size fits all’ model it uses, as well as the fearful environment it creates, makes a big impact on bullying within the school, as well as our “blame the victim” culture. It is a constant show of power and authority over another, whether it’s student against student or teacher against student, with the victim often walking away upset and even scarred for life, while the bully walks away with no repercussions. Luckily, people are now taking bullying more seriously, as laws are just now being put in place to help better the issue. We have a long way to go, but with knowledge comes a better way to understand and deal with the issue. While it’s still a big problem now, maybe some day, schools will become a safer environment for all children to learn and grow.
Sources:
George, C. School nurse visits may signal a child’s involvement in bullying. Chron.com (2011, Apr. 25 ). Retrieved Nov. 8th , 2011, from http://blog.chron.com/medblog/2011/.....t-in-bullying/
Heasley, S. 9 In 10 Kids With Autism Bullied At School. disability scoop.com. (2009, Nov. 13) Retrieved November 6th 2011, from http://www.disabilityscoop.com/2009.....ng-survey/6184
Luscombe, B. Why Kids Bully: Because They Can. Healthland.time.com. (2011, Feb. 8 ). Retrieved November 5th, 2011, http://healthland.time.com/2011/02/.....ds-bully-more/
Page, B. The Teacher as Bully. Educationnews.org (2007, Dec. 3 ). Retrieved November 5th ,2011, from http://www.educationnews.org/articl.....lly/Page1.html
Shuklin, J. Bully. Worcestermag.com (2010, Sep. 22 ). .Retrieved Nov. 6, 2011, from http://www.worcestermag.com/city-de.....-103539679.htm
Snyder, M. Understanding Bullying and Its Impact on Kids With Learning Disabilities or AD/HD. Greatschools.org (n.d). Retrieved November 5th, 2011, from http://www.greatschools.org/special.....es-or-ad-hd.gs
Sofronoff, Kate, and Elizabeth Dark, and Valerie Stone. (2010). Social vulnerability and bullying in children with Asperger syndrome" The National Autistic Society (2010): 1-16. Retrieved November 6th, 2011, from http://www.assesscompetency.com/pap.....ing_in_ASD.pdf
Wixon, C. Teacher lets Morningside students vote out classmate, 5. Tcpalm.com (2008, May. 24 ). Retrieved November 5th, 2011, from http://www.tcpalm.com/news/2008/may.....t-classmate-5/
Also, feel free to discuss the issue in general. I'm interested in the subject and it's interesting to hear other peoples opinions.
On an unrelated note: I finally picked up my DDR matt and started to play again since I've been feeling a little better. Perhaps this may get me to start playing regularly again like I used to.
Okay here's the essay:
Bullying in Schools
Bullying is a serious problem that has always been around, but has been getting more media attention as of late. Schools are supposed to be a safe place, an environment where a child can learn and grow as a person, but when a child is bullied it hinders their ability to develop and learn, and also scars them for life. For some kids, school is not a safe place, and may even be described as a living hell for them, yet it still continues, sometimes for years. Everyone knows about bullying, but not much has been done to effectively deal with it.
Contrary to popular belief, bullying consists of more than just the easily noticeable physical attacks. Bullying may be defined as “the repeated oppression, physical or psychological, direct or indirect, of a less powerful person by a more powerful person or group where there is always a power imbalance that makes the ill-treatment of the victim possible.” [Sofronoff, Kate, and Elizabeth Dark, and Valerie Stone (2010) p. 1] It can be differentiated from normal conflicts by noting that unlike a normal conflict, bullying is done repeatedly and on purpose, there is only a strong emotional reaction from the victim, and the bully shows no remorse; they blame the victim, saying things such as “they deserved it.” In the past it was believed that only troubled, socially maladjusted kids with low self-esteem were the bullies, but it has been shown that this is not the case. In fact, many bullies have high self-esteem, and are liked by their peers and authority figures. Bullies are master manipulators, and often feign innocence when confronted. Bullying behavior is also frequently encouraged by peers, while unnoticed by adults. Such encouragement makes it more likely to occur. [Snyder, M. nd] Bullying behavior is linked to aggression and desire to be popular, it is not uncommon for popular students to be bullies. It seems that bullies don’t behave that way due to abuse, in fact, evidence seems to show that they do it for the simple reason of “because they can”. [Luscombe, B. 2011] Their perceived strength, popularity, and social prowess allow them to gang up on weaker students; the victims.
Unlike bullies, victims generally have a negative outlook on violence and are not as aggressive. As it turns out, victims have the traits that were once thought to be the profile of a bully; they often suffer from insecurity or low self esteem and tend to be weaker and have less friends than their peers. It is also not just as simple as bully and victim, as it is possible for a child to be both; it is said that around 16 percent of children will be both a bully and a victim at some point in their lives. [Snyder, M. nd] It isn’t uncommon for victims, and peers, to keep quiet about the bullying in fear that it would make the bullying worse, or target them as a victim as well. [Shulkin, J, 2010]
Children with learning disabilities are often targets for bullying, more than their normally developing peers. Often with disabilities, children exhibit emotional and behavioral difficulties, which can pin the child as a target. They also may have difficulties fitting in due to their differences from the other children. As it was mentioned earlier, victims often have low self esteem as well as being physically weaker, they may also be oversensitive or over-react to things, which are traits commonly seen in children with ADHD. [Snyder, M. nd] Autistic children, or children with Asperger’s syndrome, are especially prone to it, due to their social ineptitude and naivety, which has shown to be the biggest reasons children on the spectrum are bullied; they can be tricked into doing things that will get them in trouble, and children take advantage of this. Researchers have also noticed that there are generally two types of children who are victims of bullying: passive targets, who tend to be anxious and solitary, and proactive targets, who tend to be irritating and provocative. These are traits that together are said to create a “single profile of a child with AS (Asperger’s Syndrome)” [Sofronoff, Kate, and Elizabeth Dark, and Valerie Stone (2010) p, 1, 3, 15] Children on the autistic spectrum (including Aspergers), are often perceived as very different from their peers, and are usually not as able to understand the situation or defend themselves as well as normal children do. This has such a profound effect that it is said that 9 out of 10 autistic children are bullied, while it is rarely expressed that an autistic child is a bully, perhaps because of their inability to manipulate. [Heasley, S. 2011]
We all know that students bully, but the teacher’s influence is even bigger than one of another student. They are of a position of authority and are supposed to be role models, yet teachers and their attitudes towards other students, and bullying itself, are a major contributor to bullying. Many people do not believe this, however it is clear that the teachers’ role is huge, occasionally going so far as to bully the students themselves. In fact, many bullies perhaps get away with their behavior because the child knows that they are favored by the teacher, and thus will not experience repressions. Another big reason for the teacher playing a big role, is that students learn from their behavior. The teacher may treat low-performing, non-conforming, non-engaged and just plain different students in a negative manner. The school setting is one that is ruled by fear and conformity, and the teacher may use shaming, humiliation, and teasing as tactics in order to try and force a child to behave to their liking. They believe that bullying is an acceptable form of classroom control, and blame the student for their reluctant behavior, without seeing that they are partially to blame for it. [Page, B. 2007] And as children imitate what they see, they learn to imitate the teacher’s behavior and attitudes. On top of this, children who are in the autistic spectrum, who as mentioned before are already prone to bullying from students, are especially susceptible to bullying from a teacher as well, due to the fact that they are prone to behavioral problems. In one case, a Kindergarten teacher made a child who was in the process of being diagnosed with Asperger’s stand in front of the classroom while telling the students to berate him and insult him. The student was then voted out of the class Survivor-style, 14 to 2. [Wixon, C. 2008] On top of this, many teachers are completely reluctant to do anything about bullying and can have a nonchalant attitude that allows bullying to continue, and parents express concern that the school isn’t doing enough, and that the teacher doesn’t care. Only one in five cases did a parent learn about bullying from the school, 2 out 3 cases lasted several months. [Heasley, S. 2011] Teachers may not see bullying, and instead punish only the victim if they have an outburst brought on by the bullying, thus worsening the situation. [Shulkin, J. 2010] In some cases, the victims’ parents are forced to switch classrooms, or even schools, if that is even an option.
Bullying can hurt children in ways that are not immediately obvious. They may feel lonely, friendless, and abandoned. [Snyder, M. nd] They may relive the incident, much like how a PTSD sufferer relives their trauma. [Wixon C. 2008] Victims are likely to visit the nurse’s office more often, which shows that even verbal bullying takes on physical form, and the emotional strain suppresses the immune system. [George, C] A child who is bullied is likely to remember it vividly, even into adulthood. This shows that bullying causes long-term psychological damage to the victims, and as we have seen in the media reports, can even lead to suicide. Despite this, a bully, student or teacher, may be completely oblivious to the harm they are causing to a child. They may not even be aware that what they are doing is bullying. Especially when it comes to teachers, they may mean to make a positive impact, but end up doing the opposite. [Page, B. 2007] This suggests that schools need more education regarding bullying.
It can be seen that the very nature of school itself, such ‘one size fits all’ model it uses, as well as the fearful environment it creates, makes a big impact on bullying within the school, as well as our “blame the victim” culture. It is a constant show of power and authority over another, whether it’s student against student or teacher against student, with the victim often walking away upset and even scarred for life, while the bully walks away with no repercussions. Luckily, people are now taking bullying more seriously, as laws are just now being put in place to help better the issue. We have a long way to go, but with knowledge comes a better way to understand and deal with the issue. While it’s still a big problem now, maybe some day, schools will become a safer environment for all children to learn and grow.
Sources:
George, C. School nurse visits may signal a child’s involvement in bullying. Chron.com (2011, Apr. 25 ). Retrieved Nov. 8th , 2011, from http://blog.chron.com/medblog/2011/.....t-in-bullying/
Heasley, S. 9 In 10 Kids With Autism Bullied At School. disability scoop.com. (2009, Nov. 13) Retrieved November 6th 2011, from http://www.disabilityscoop.com/2009.....ng-survey/6184
Luscombe, B. Why Kids Bully: Because They Can. Healthland.time.com. (2011, Feb. 8 ). Retrieved November 5th, 2011, http://healthland.time.com/2011/02/.....ds-bully-more/
Page, B. The Teacher as Bully. Educationnews.org (2007, Dec. 3 ). Retrieved November 5th ,2011, from http://www.educationnews.org/articl.....lly/Page1.html
Shuklin, J. Bully. Worcestermag.com (2010, Sep. 22 ). .Retrieved Nov. 6, 2011, from http://www.worcestermag.com/city-de.....-103539679.htm
Snyder, M. Understanding Bullying and Its Impact on Kids With Learning Disabilities or AD/HD. Greatschools.org (n.d). Retrieved November 5th, 2011, from http://www.greatschools.org/special.....es-or-ad-hd.gs
Sofronoff, Kate, and Elizabeth Dark, and Valerie Stone. (2010). Social vulnerability and bullying in children with Asperger syndrome" The National Autistic Society (2010): 1-16. Retrieved November 6th, 2011, from http://www.assesscompetency.com/pap.....ing_in_ASD.pdf
Wixon, C. Teacher lets Morningside students vote out classmate, 5. Tcpalm.com (2008, May. 24 ). Retrieved November 5th, 2011, from http://www.tcpalm.com/news/2008/may.....t-classmate-5/
How can people be like that?
General | Posted 14 years agoHow can you look at someone, and automatically assume what their life is like?
Why is it so okay, so socially accepted to mock and ridicule people for being overweight? Why is it okay to assume to that their weight is because they are extremely lazy and gluttonous?
I try to argue with people that many people have a valid reason to be overweight. Many people are born overweight. Many people have a medical condition. My mother has hypogylcemia. They spend their lives exercising daily and counting calories and are still overweight. Even if they aren't born that way, that is how they live, and yet nothing changes.
I know more overweight people who are hardworking and healthy than skinny people I know. The skinniest people I know, are the ones who are the most lazy, gluttonous, and unhealthy.
When I had severe depression and refused to eat, I was complimented on my weight. Even though the doctors told me my low weight could KILL me and I was extremely unhealthy and anemic. WHY would anyone consider that a good thing? Having some fat on you is a sign of good health. Of course it's not good to be morbidly obese, but why would you be so mean to someone who already knows they have a problem? It is an illness. You don't go up to someone who has cancer and treat them like shit because of their cancer. Even if it's their own fault (ie. smoking), smoking is a problem that is very hard to stop, and people go through great lengths to try and quit.
Yet, these people are treated like the scum of the earth on a daily basis. They eat anything and its 'oh look at that fatty eating a sandwich, they need to stop eating sandwiches if they want to stop being a fat lazy ass lolololol!' what if the sandwich is all they had to eat all day, and all they will have eaten for the rest of the day? Some people have a medical condition in which they NEED to eat. They are worrying all the time, they don't need to bullied and judged on a daily basis because of it. Treating someone badly for being fat is like treating someone badly for being gay. Except for with fat, you can't hide it. And both are extremely wrong to hate someone for.
Is it wrong to care about the well-being of strangers? Sometimes it seems like it's wrong to care at all. I get slapped in the face when I try to stand up for others or help them, yet I still do it anyway. Why is so easy to not care for everyone else?
Why is it so okay, so socially accepted to mock and ridicule people for being overweight? Why is it okay to assume to that their weight is because they are extremely lazy and gluttonous?
I try to argue with people that many people have a valid reason to be overweight. Many people are born overweight. Many people have a medical condition. My mother has hypogylcemia. They spend their lives exercising daily and counting calories and are still overweight. Even if they aren't born that way, that is how they live, and yet nothing changes.
I know more overweight people who are hardworking and healthy than skinny people I know. The skinniest people I know, are the ones who are the most lazy, gluttonous, and unhealthy.
When I had severe depression and refused to eat, I was complimented on my weight. Even though the doctors told me my low weight could KILL me and I was extremely unhealthy and anemic. WHY would anyone consider that a good thing? Having some fat on you is a sign of good health. Of course it's not good to be morbidly obese, but why would you be so mean to someone who already knows they have a problem? It is an illness. You don't go up to someone who has cancer and treat them like shit because of their cancer. Even if it's their own fault (ie. smoking), smoking is a problem that is very hard to stop, and people go through great lengths to try and quit.
Yet, these people are treated like the scum of the earth on a daily basis. They eat anything and its 'oh look at that fatty eating a sandwich, they need to stop eating sandwiches if they want to stop being a fat lazy ass lolololol!' what if the sandwich is all they had to eat all day, and all they will have eaten for the rest of the day? Some people have a medical condition in which they NEED to eat. They are worrying all the time, they don't need to bullied and judged on a daily basis because of it. Treating someone badly for being fat is like treating someone badly for being gay. Except for with fat, you can't hide it. And both are extremely wrong to hate someone for.
Is it wrong to care about the well-being of strangers? Sometimes it seems like it's wrong to care at all. I get slapped in the face when I try to stand up for others or help them, yet I still do it anyway. Why is so easy to not care for everyone else?
