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Posted 12 years agoBirthday coming up
Posted 12 years agoSo my birthday is fast approaching and I really don't want to celebrate it. It has nothing to do with getting a year older, I actually find that very interesting. To see what I have learned over the year and what new people I can count as friends.
No, this year, I hate my birthday! The very idea is very depressing and I just want to curl into a ball, wrapping my tail around me and crying till I have no more tears to shed. For all my life I have shared this day with my mother. Yup that's right...I was the best gift she ever gave herself, how could I ever top that (*chuckles sadly*). That was my fav saying I would tell her ever year, then she would remind me of the labor and we would both just laugh. Yeah that is right all...I was born on my mother's birthday.
So this will be the first time in my life that I will be celebrating it alone, that is why I just want to cry my heart out. She's been gone only 2 months and the pain of her loss still makes me catch my breath.
No, this year, I hate my birthday! The very idea is very depressing and I just want to curl into a ball, wrapping my tail around me and crying till I have no more tears to shed. For all my life I have shared this day with my mother. Yup that's right...I was the best gift she ever gave herself, how could I ever top that (*chuckles sadly*). That was my fav saying I would tell her ever year, then she would remind me of the labor and we would both just laugh. Yeah that is right all...I was born on my mother's birthday.
So this will be the first time in my life that I will be celebrating it alone, that is why I just want to cry my heart out. She's been gone only 2 months and the pain of her loss still makes me catch my breath.
Sad Mothers day
Posted 12 years agoI don't know how to feel about this Mother's day. Its too soon after the passing of my mom, just a lil over 2 wks. I find myself remembering all the good times we had. How she saw my life turn from hell to paradise...hell she made it happen for me. For that I can never repay her.
It's also my first Mother's Day, I am still away from home on the other side of the country. My mate and new family are in NC while I have been here in Cali dealing. I thank them for all their love and support, without it...I just don't know.
My son is 10 mths and has been my salvation through my sorrow. I am going to try to find some solace with him in the up coming days till I return home.
5 days to go *sigh*
It's also my first Mother's Day, I am still away from home on the other side of the country. My mate and new family are in NC while I have been here in Cali dealing. I thank them for all their love and support, without it...I just don't know.
My son is 10 mths and has been my salvation through my sorrow. I am going to try to find some solace with him in the up coming days till I return home.
5 days to go *sigh*
she is gone
Posted 12 years agoGoodbye my beloved mother. may you rest you weary soul and be filled with joy forever more.
How life can change in the blink of an eye...
Posted 12 years agoOne day I'm speaking with my mom on Skype, then a few hours later. I'm being told my mother had a brain aneurysm that has ruptured. I dropped everything and fly across the country to California to get to her sick bed with my lil 9mth son (thank you my beloved mate for making that possible).
Its been hell this pass week and seems to be getting worst. My mom is a fighter and stubborn as all hell, I have to have faith that she will pull through. She's had surgery and so many procedures done these pass days that I am getting very worried. She is in a coma and has had a few stokes that has caused some brain damage and paralysis since the operation on Thursday.
I feel so damn helpless right now. Knowing that there is nothing I can do for her but pray. My heart is tearing up for my mother and my son who is my strength and my joy. He loves her, knows her, smiles when he hears her voice on the phone and laughs when he sees her on the computer. I have already lost my father, I can't lose her.
Tomorrow the doctors want to speak to us, her children, together. Told us to discuss what my mom would want...can't think about that just now. Can wait till tomorrow when we know for sure.
People are telling me stories of people having the same things happening to someone they know and coming out of it and taking a few months, still others tell me of those that didn't make it to the hospital alive. I know I should count my blessings that she has made it this far, I even got to talk to her before she went to surgery, so she knows that both I and my son are here waiting for her to wake and get better.
I just feel so lost.
Its been hell this pass week and seems to be getting worst. My mom is a fighter and stubborn as all hell, I have to have faith that she will pull through. She's had surgery and so many procedures done these pass days that I am getting very worried. She is in a coma and has had a few stokes that has caused some brain damage and paralysis since the operation on Thursday.
I feel so damn helpless right now. Knowing that there is nothing I can do for her but pray. My heart is tearing up for my mother and my son who is my strength and my joy. He loves her, knows her, smiles when he hears her voice on the phone and laughs when he sees her on the computer. I have already lost my father, I can't lose her.
Tomorrow the doctors want to speak to us, her children, together. Told us to discuss what my mom would want...can't think about that just now. Can wait till tomorrow when we know for sure.
People are telling me stories of people having the same things happening to someone they know and coming out of it and taking a few months, still others tell me of those that didn't make it to the hospital alive. I know I should count my blessings that she has made it this far, I even got to talk to her before she went to surgery, so she knows that both I and my son are here waiting for her to wake and get better.
I just feel so lost.
My countdown begins...aaahhhhh!
Posted 13 years agoWell, its getting closer to flight time. Just 6 days till takeoff and I still have so much to do. I am sooo excited to seeing my family (all of my family) again but not a true fan of the metal winged ship. *sighs* The great thing is that I will have my mate with me for support and our newborn kitt to keep me occupied on the 7 1/2 hr flight. *groans*
I will miss my fur family here at home for the Yuletide but I am planning on perhaps having a small get together for the New Year.
This vixen must get back to work *continues with checklist which is mostly kitts stuff*
I will miss my fur family here at home for the Yuletide but I am planning on perhaps having a small get together for the New Year.
This vixen must get back to work *continues with checklist which is mostly kitts stuff*
For my Beloved, my heart weeps for your loss.
Posted 13 years agoI hope this poem brings you some small comfort. It did for me when I lost my father.
How mournful seems, in broken dreams,
The Memory of the day,
When icy Death hath sealed the breath
Of some dear form of clay.
When pale, unmoved, the face we loved,
The face we thought so fair,
And the hand lies cold, whose fervent hold
Once charmed away despair
Oh what could heal the grief we feel
For hopes that come no more,
Had we ne’er heard the Scripture word,
“Not lost, but gone before.”
Oh sadly yet with vain regret
The widowed heart must yearn;
And mothers weep their babes asleep
In the sunlight’s vain return.
The brother’s heart shall rue to part
From the one through childhood known;
And the orphan’s tears lament for years
A friend and father gone.
For death and life, with ceaseless strife,
Beat wild on this world’s shore,
And all our calm is in that balm,
“Not lost, but gone before.”
Oh! world wherein nor death, nor sin,
Nor weary warfare dwells;
Their blessed home we parted form
With sobs and sad waterfalls.
Where eyes awake, for whose dear sake
Our own with tears grow dim,
And faint accords of dying words
Are changed for heaven’s sweet hymn;
Oh! there at last, life’s trials past,
We’ll meet our loved once more,
Whose feet have trod the path to God―
“Not lost but gone before.
~Caroline Elizabeth Sarah Norton.
How mournful seems, in broken dreams,
The Memory of the day,
When icy Death hath sealed the breath
Of some dear form of clay.
When pale, unmoved, the face we loved,
The face we thought so fair,
And the hand lies cold, whose fervent hold
Once charmed away despair
Oh what could heal the grief we feel
For hopes that come no more,
Had we ne’er heard the Scripture word,
“Not lost, but gone before.”
Oh sadly yet with vain regret
The widowed heart must yearn;
And mothers weep their babes asleep
In the sunlight’s vain return.
The brother’s heart shall rue to part
From the one through childhood known;
And the orphan’s tears lament for years
A friend and father gone.
For death and life, with ceaseless strife,
Beat wild on this world’s shore,
And all our calm is in that balm,
“Not lost, but gone before.”
Oh! world wherein nor death, nor sin,
Nor weary warfare dwells;
Their blessed home we parted form
With sobs and sad waterfalls.
Where eyes awake, for whose dear sake
Our own with tears grow dim,
And faint accords of dying words
Are changed for heaven’s sweet hymn;
Oh! there at last, life’s trials past,
We’ll meet our loved once more,
Whose feet have trod the path to God―
“Not lost but gone before.
~Caroline Elizabeth Sarah Norton.
Funny thing happened today....
Posted 13 years agoSo today on an outing with my mate and newborn son, I received the cutest comment to date from a 4 year-old. As you may know, me and my mate wear our tails everywhere and so we tend to get some interesting stares and comments. However, today, while I was carrying Baby Isaac in the carrier, a 4-year-old, who noticed our tails, told her mom, "Hey Mom! Look at their tails! But where is the baby's tail?" To which I immediately replied, "It's growing. You just can't see it yet." Cutest 4-year-old ever! :)
Thanks to my Fur Family
Posted 13 years agoI know that this is a bit late but I wanted to thank all of my fur family, (& U Know Who lol) for helping us move into our new place. We could have never done it without you. My Kitties and Wolfy. Plus our newest friend, the mastiff mix Blaidd.
From Myself, Isaac and Shogunfox, thank you from the bottom of our furry warm hearts <3
From Myself, Isaac and Shogunfox, thank you from the bottom of our furry warm hearts <3
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Posted 13 years agoNothing like mother's love.
Posted 13 years agoIt's an amazing feeling being a new mom to baby Isaac and I can say without a doubt that it makes you view the world in a new light. Everything has taken on a whole different meaning, simply looks and touches are breathtaking. Love can be found in the simplest tasks. Everyday I find great joy in my son, from his smiles to just counting his tiny toes. Yes, nothing can compare to mother's love. So with that said... I love you mom and I truly appreciate all that you have ever done for me. I really understand it all now, lol.
BABY ISAAC!
Posted 13 years agoOn Saturday July 7th at 10:23 PM, Isaac Faelan was born. He weighed 7 lbs 11 oz. Everything is good and the baby came safe and sound!
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Posted 13 years agoShe rocks and is in need of your help!
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The First Night Away
Posted 13 years agoSo alone, alone in the bitter darkness, so cold, still and silent. How I miss the warmth of my own personal sun, my mate. His burning kisses that fueled such heat to block out the nights chill. His embrace, a furnace of ever flowing love, wrapping tenderly around me in the inky shadows of our bedroom.
Now, I lay tangled amongst the cold bedsheets, caught in half sleep and half dream where I can almost feel him with me, just touching. I'm torn between the wanting to wake and see, feel if he is truly with me or surrender to my tired and restless mind. A mind full of wants that keep pulling me under to what I know to be false. But those dreams can be better than the shock reality brings.
For tonight, at least, I think I shall dream. Let my mind close down and where visions bring me back to your touch, your kiss, your love, till I wake and you are by my side staring at me as only you do. Loving to watch me sleep, "so peaceful", you always say with a smile filled with affection.
So to my beloved mate, kisses and sweet dreams on our first night away from each other.
Now, I lay tangled amongst the cold bedsheets, caught in half sleep and half dream where I can almost feel him with me, just touching. I'm torn between the wanting to wake and see, feel if he is truly with me or surrender to my tired and restless mind. A mind full of wants that keep pulling me under to what I know to be false. But those dreams can be better than the shock reality brings.
For tonight, at least, I think I shall dream. Let my mind close down and where visions bring me back to your touch, your kiss, your love, till I wake and you are by my side staring at me as only you do. Loving to watch me sleep, "so peaceful", you always say with a smile filled with affection.
So to my beloved mate, kisses and sweet dreams on our first night away from each other.
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