So yeah I kinda went on the road again due to unfortunate things with my siblings. But! I am once again in a warm house and stable. I have somewhat of a job and will be tying to draw again soon. In the future I may have some mushing videos even some tutorials. My plans for the future other than fixing my car, is that in 2020 I will be in the iditarod, I will be crowdfunding that venture including the qualifying 5 races. So far I have 2 sponsors already and soon will have more. Until then ttyl

So those that read these things, I have been in a bad spot. I want to firstly thank all those that have helped by passing my gofund me along, and to those that have or tried to donate. Now I havent even got anything near my goals, the situation is still pretty bad, miracles do not happen I guess. To those that dont know, the link is bellow:
https://www.gofundme.com/y59dgbq4

So tommorow I will sell my computer and all my electronic devices, books, and thats it really, thats all I have. I will sell it all and go get a tent, and try to continue to save money for a car.
I will try to update things as I can, but In the mean time I will be walking eastward towards Ohio, and staying where I can.
Thanks everyone, wish I had better news, but this will be fun (I think) Please continue to pass on the word.

So the crowd funding is going Ok, Still need more. To clarify why I do not get a bus or plane ticket, I have issues with Confined spaces with lots of strange people (thank you Military) and I have a sled dog trained to be a lead dog, she is worth alot of money because of the training we have done, and she is my family, I will rather die than part from her. I also have a service canine whish isn't an issue, he can go anywhere no questions asked. I need a car anyways I figure I can kill two birds with one stone so I can continue with my life and be productive. I will be Pawning everything else I own, computer, TV, music stuff, and books.
If you can just pass it on to people, that is all I ask but here is the Gofund me once again:
https://www.gofundme.com/y59dgbq4
Thank you peeps!

So drama strikes us all, in short: I am about to be homeless.
My mom has made a gofund me while I figure out things at the VA here is the link, I would rather not talk much about it.
https://www.gofundme.com/y59dgbq4

So the 25th was my birthday, wasnt a good one, I had 2 puppies die on me (likely parvo) one on the night of the 23rd and the other on the the morning 25th, yay happy birthday. The other 4 are in pretty good health so far.
As for everything else I have mentioned before that I have been doing mushing with my huskies, well the dryland variant. I plan on going longer distances this next year, but that has been keeping me busy hence my lack of activity here. I will post a basic draft of a gear list I am composing for my group that I host, everyone can benefit from it, just ignore the mushing equipment. And I will try to post some gear pics and such in the future. Oh if anyone has some of this gear available and isnt using it, please let me know.

Thank you everyone.

Does anyone want vids of us learning to Mush?
Also we are looking for boots for the pups. Any fursuit makers out there know how to make rubber pads?

Hey so this may be odd, but are there any mushers here near SD cali? I have a bit of a wishlist of items that I wouldnt mind getting used, mostly ganglines and utility lines and picket lines. Anyways let me know peoples....

So not everyone that reads these things, but for those that do, thanks. Still waiting for the Oceanside or Carlsbad Ca peeps, but oh well, NEWS : So I kinda hinted that I was training dogs, and have a service dog, well things are more than just that now. I am a coordinator for a Siberian husky group for San Diego, cool but wait there is more. I have been mentoring/ training people as well as dogs for/ about Urban mushing. As well as the normal behavior of doggies. I got another Husky a few weeks ago, her name is Luna, and she is 2 months younger than my boy but is a fast runner and hard puller for sure, they are my current team and someday I will have some pics of them pulling.
Anyways that is all.

So yeah its that wonderful time of the year again where I am all depressed, I kinda want to do something different this year so I am less depressed. I would like to meet up with someone you know trying to make friends and such. So if you are in the SanDiego/ Oceanside area or know of anyone, hit me up. I dont get out much but maybe that can change. I have come to the stark realization that I dont have many friends I would like to fix that.

Some times I wonder why do I even try... I trey to draw, byt my hands hurt soo much I cant even hold a pencil, I try to make friends here, and noone seems interested, I try to talk to people here and noone wants to talk. Meh.. more useless venting...

I dont like posting things let alone anything personal but right now I have soo much rage and noone to talk about it with...

So I went to the VA shrink today and we talked about my life in the military. I told her about how hard it was for me to identify with the people I was stationed with and how I was treated like crap where I was stationed by my co workers and superiors, mainly because I did not womanize and on top of that because I wasnt straight. I also spoke to her about how I had to terminate a relationship I had for 4 years to try to appear normal and for myself to feel better about it. Then she asked if i have ever been in a relationship with anyone male or female since then. The answer was no. She then asked me how I identify, and I told her that I dont feel straight or gay, because I dont have any interest in anything. Long story short, and several tears later, she comes up with the conclusion that I was sexually traumatized through psychological torment. The conclusion of this is that I hate things even more, and she says it may take still a longer time to fix all the damage done... But she did atleast let me know why I never feel comfortable about anything around anyone. And atleast now I know for sure why I have been alone.

Anyone on Oceanside? I am looking for a room mate for 2 semesters, If interested let me know I can split rent on a house if interested, only for 2 semesters though. Please I hope someone answers this, my current room mate hates animals and he is just a control freak. I will say pets are welcome, I dont mind dog sitting, but I do ask that you are relatively sane, and clean, I hate messy and obnoxious room mates, I dont think anyone likes that. But yeah, please If you are in Oceanside California, or know anyone who is, I can throw down 600-700 a month combine that with 2 or 3 people thats 1800 -2100 which means that is a 3 bedroom 2 bath apartment or a nice little house. Something to consider, anyways note me or email me asap so we can plan/talk about it maybe even meet up.
Email = ayreo.greywolf[at]gmail.com please subject Housing Ideas (else I may not see it)

Though who decided that this point in our orbit was the beginning or the end, it isn't even at the apogee in fact it is far from it. Ok, I will stop ruining Newyears with my neardiness, I will enjoy my mead and ham! God wishes to everyone those I know and those who I dont. Let the new year be bountiful and fun filled for all!

No FC for me, though I plan on building a new computer and entering it in a build contest, since I love making things my professor said I should to this to vent my creative talent and possibly earn money doing it or atleast building a client base.

So as you all may have noticed, I has some arts. I post when ever I can, but I want to get this ship think off my chest first, its been more or less haunting me for over 8 years now. And please if you have questions ask them.

I want to make a 'My Little Pony' Glue factory. Yep, a one way trip for those old nasty ugly things to make them into something potentially useful in the word. I said this to my foster sister who still has a massive MLP collection and continues to acquire them, even after being 17 years old, and having 2 actual ponies and a barrel racing horse ( a bay I think) She cried and called me a Grinch for Christmas. It was pretty funny, I thought I'd share.

Well about a month ago, my good computer basicly died, in short the southbridge cooked.( and no I did not overclock it) Yeah some idiot asked me that, I dont know why one would overclock a southbridge. Anyways so I revived my old Dell. It's drive is now starting to go bad. Just so you know IDE drives are getting expensive, and I honestly have no intent on trying to make this 6 year old dell last another 6 years. In order to fix my 'good' computer, I would need 400 dollars in part. A motherboard and a PSU for the new generation motherboard. Luckily AMD hasnt changed much, I figured I could get a new motherboard, like the sabertooth, for upgradeability , and when I make enough take my little 3core on a micro ATX later on down the road and get a 12 core but thats just a dream I guess.
Honestly I dont know why I chose to post this, not like anything will come of it, atleast the 3 friends I have will know why I havent talked to them in a while.