2013 my friends mom overspent on xmas when they money for food and i had to help

2014 my mom and his mom did it and i was totaly fucked

Now i have payday loans more than my check, pluss finance fiees, plus credit card payments i have to take out one finance fea to pay for the two i have and another to take care of the other stuff......on top of that no one here bas a job and im the only one with income right now and we are barly paying for a thing.

Guess what still getting people gifts and stuff.

Why the fuck cant people just go oh well we cant aford xmass this year.... or at the very least only get things for the kids.

Why am i always being fucked over and why did i wait till i was 100% fucked to get the whole you cant help people trusting they will hit you back when you cant aford to not get the money back......

Dont do me a fucking lick of good now.

Im ready to just give up on my stuff in pawn for the amount the fees have cost trying not to lose my stuff i could have bought them all over again and new stuff.

Ive not hurd back from getting a heathcare serogate ether....

I just dont have it in me to keep this stuff up..... i want my stuff and i want comics but would rather just lose everything than have to worry about it anymore ... i would just give up on and sell my comics but i dont know if anyone would buy stuffnlike that from some one whp never sold anything

And now moms doing the same kinda screaming that scared and fucked me up when she eas all crazy but nows shes in pain pain and that makes it worce and stirs up same old trama recations only worce to the point my bodies got a nurvois twitch right now.

I wish i was never born or could just die an awful lot i can take thingsngetting steadly worce and worce but after 15~20 years I can't deal with it any more, I just want it over ive lost any hope of things getting better a long time ago now ive just lost hope it will stop getting worce.

Its not going to get better and its not going to stop getting worce

night time and little daylight to be had even when it's not u.u

I am quite interested in teaming up with people, I'm playing on a no greefing server and have laid claim to the oasis. ^.^ how lucky is that.... the person who had calmed it quit. It is such a nice little spot no metal or anything but plenty of every other resource. Lots of fish in the lake for meat, lots of cattails for fiber and berries, lots of rocks and trees down the vallies leading to it, and duckbills and triceratops live there making good place to get hide. Only bad thing is some times raptors show up, or a pack of dilophosaurus will wonder through.

But on the other hand that means you can train your own dilo's and raptors if you can knock them out and catch them. ^.^

I got one of those little spitting bastards watching my farm

http://store.steampowered.com/app/244850/

Check it out, it's rather awesome, if you like games like mine craft, and you like realistic space games.... this is freaking awesome. Lots of mods too.

I've plaid it quite a bit and it is awesome. Only down side is building truly massive ships takes a toll on your system, particularly when you try and move them.

Things hitting other things can be a muck up too if there is a lot of collisions ate once, due to the crumpling of bulkheads. They dent and bend and crumple to set physics and lots of them impacting at once can be a mess...... but you shouldn't be doing that unless your fighting some one. lol

Everything's been one slow and steady decline over the past 15+ years and tring to get through and help keep the people i care about from ending up on the street has made it way worce, i've tried just about everything i beg for help and people ignore it, did a go fund me got a whaling 30$ from the person that suggested I try it and no one else even looked at the page let alone forwarded to others, i got a credit card just inin time for a horrid moth that maxed it out getting through it and didn't solve a Damon thing but to leave me with more debt, and all my shit is in pawn.

Im learning lots of terrible things about my famely and people i tru as ted that are all lying to me in one way or another, this town is full of nothing but horrid le terrible people and it is getting worce.... the people who i thought where good at least aren't they just k ow how to put on a good face.

I can't live here im not like these people i can't understand them and all they do is treat me like shit and take advantage of every one. I keep finding out the government offices are lying out there assets to me about things so as to minimise the amount of help they give me and i keep getting the run around people saying they arnt the people that deal with it let me get you in touch with them and then that goes o. Forever or till there just like well i do t k ow what to tell you, they handle it i don't know what's going on over there its not my department from everyone.

I need to get out of this town, i need to get out of this state, me and my friend both score it kills us.

But we are like 2000-3000$ in debt, have no car, can't get jobs here, and no one gives a fuck about us.

Check it out:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:47213800

lol

I'm nearing the end to caravan 5, and OMG, the insect glave.... I love it so much.... <3

It's so easy to mount and knock stuff out of the sky with that, and doge and well all sorts of stuff.... that staff vault is so useful

1907 - 9663 - 6802

Just thinking about it.... all the advances we are making faster and faster

We know what makes us age, genetic damage over time.. there is like a buffer for it then when that is worn away are cells start to copy wrong

Some of the longer living species have ether active stem cell production, or cellular regeneration. We are doing stem cell research and we only need to find a way to turn production back on, and it looks like there may have been a time people didn't stop producing stem cells some time durring early childhood....

Also they have cracked what drives cellular regeneration and everything has it....its just not active for that particular purpose and only serves to hold cells together rather than reconstruct them.... but if we can find a way to turn that stuff back on it would mean people would pritty much make a full recovery from anything they can live through. O.o. there some parts of the body it is active and they took active material from a pig ground it upinto a powder and sprinkled it on some guys chopped off finger and it grew back...... and he had feeling in it and it bad the same finger print his old finger had. O.o

Toy and get this they couldn't get the ok for medical trials so they gave everything they had to the military for field tests.. it saved some lives here and there but what it really did was save the quality of lives. You would not believe how many people got saved from amputations by that stuff.... wildest one was some guy had his whole inner thigh mussel blown off by an IED, nothing of the mussel was left, and repeatied allocation grew back 70% or so (was some number over but it was 70something) of it back......It looks like his leg is mummified or something.... i mean the skin is all warped and stuff, there limits i guess in things growing back right and that was far ro much lost at once for pictures from pigs to fix lol.... but he would have never walked again and probably lost the leg.....instead he just nedded some physical therapy due to the loss of mass and he was walking just fine

Oh yah best part about that 'pixydust' its cheep as hell..... they scrap it off a layer of skin inside the pigs blatter. ...parts butchers literaly throw away, so it only cost as much as hey don't throw that away I'll give you _____ a piece if you save them for me.....and wages for some people to cut, peal, and scrape them

They always are like.... well something is wrong but it's not an imediate threat, go home....

and then I wait two months to see the doctor and something comes up and i miss and have to wait another two months to see the doctor and they tell me they got no clue whats wrong.....

I can only think it's the freaking stress on top of my high blood preasure.... so stress over powers the medication and puts me into danguriously high blood preasure....i think.....IDK.... i need to look into it...

I just know I have had a hard time breathing the past week and keep getting a lot of pain in my chest and arm..... but my heart is fine..... x.x

I think things are fixed for now... stuffs tight but ... it might... might change... I hope this is all right but things might finaly get better.... o.o

i'm in shock and I don't know if it's real....... but i'll know in a month or two....

How is it people still find amusement or a sense of superiority from this kinda thing anymore?

I mean it's so over done it became sad like 10 years ago, and now is just this festering zombie of what should be a dead joke/trolling. This is so far beyond being sad that it's more a disbelieve that people still resort to it. It's been like 26~28 years or so sense trolling really got rolling, you think they would have a new base line standard.

How is it something makes some one feel superior if it's the lowest and most pathetic available option they could go with?

O.o

Totally boggles the mind.

Ok......Not right away and only for PC..... but hey! lol




Seriously though, look at the assets in the game and throw the modding paradise that is Bethesda games.

1. We can build settlements from set pieces, this tells you right away you can expect to see LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS of downloadable set pieces. Ranging from meticulously crafted and highly detail art, to minecraft and Lego blocks, and the enviable 50 story horse dong. >.< But hey, the good with the bad right.

2. They made it super easy to make mods that add locations to the game, and are actually giving us the program they are using this time.... that is.... wooooo hell yah. So you will have access to ALL the set pieces to build what ever you want.

3. This means the modding program will have vault set pieces in it. ^.^

You can rather quickly exspect for several people to rip the set pices out of the modding program and throw them into the game, and some one else (or the same person) to give you a big underground cavern to build your own vault into.

I'm sure you can expect to see build it yourself space ships and various other things to come too.

Building your own settlement is just the tip of the iceburg to what the set pieces once modders get a hold of it. :3


Now here is hoping they make a set piece built air ship that you can actually fly around in and ether land or have like a rope dragging from it or something. lol





I sooooo love this set piece system.

Then there is the weapon/armor mods, I can only imagin the kinda mod mods people will throw in, along with one of a kind weapons that you always get.

And there is the nice little fact there is an air port where we can throw in a working Vertibird and plenty of ports to throw in a working ship. We got the whole world open up to be modded in, and heck... maybe even the moon.

I love it when gaming companys think about moders, and even when they don't there are happy things that pop up,

I just hope they still have a food/water/weapon repair 'hardcore' mode

There is one show on now where they give two totaly desolate, horably off, struggling to survive families 1,000$... and then give them 100,000 that they can decide to keep to themselves, give to another family that's supposedly worse off than them (though there both told this), or divided it up between them.....

So A. they don't tell them the other family has the same choice and has 100,000$ as well, B. the while time they constantly make them out to be monsters the whole time for even considering to keep a single dime because this other family is so much worse off than they are..... C. they are equally assholes on both family's and of course if one famely some how ends up with more than 100,000 they make them feel like the worst people that ever lived

how nice of them......

There is one in england where they take people collecting benifits, or making less than $23,700 (yes homeless people and people not making anything need not apply....) and they do the same kinda elimination style reality tv game show that is so popular.... only they are made to do back braking work, and the people that are seen not to be working hard enough are sent home.... and the winner gets a years minimum wage ($23,700) and the others get told they are shitty workers and are sent home with nothing

x.x

and now I just saw another comeditive reality TV game show where people are taking a run down near unlivable house and restoring and remolding it....... yes that kinda ridiculous amount of work..... so the ones that win get to live in the house, because these people don't have homes............
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THE FUCK

I got the CC and I used it to stabilize things, but I was late on my wii and they put it out, lost my zelda games and two of the three meteoroid games. u.u

fffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuuuccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

I'll keep the go fund me up: http://www.gofundme.com/z3e7m8z

Hopefully I can start crawling out of this hole.

But it's not so bad they will sell the metroid trilagy as a pack, and maybe they will pack the zelda games sometime too.

Maybe I'll be out of the hole by the time the Nintendo NX comes out. ^.^;

IT sounds so awesome if they deliver on what they are saying, a console cradle docking portable system? Please and thank you. Guess Sega is swinging some more weight around, wasn't that there idea that they never got around to?

Didn't ask anyone to donate just share the link, but I guess the only people who care are random browsers.

I am so sick of this shit everyone acts like there a friend but they just want something, here I'm fairly sure it's just attention and art.

What's wrong with this world that people find it second nature to use love (ok newly forming friendship isn't much love but still) as a tool.

I wish I wasn't born into this place or least not with so much love and no hate, there isn't much place in this world for that crap.

Just makes me hope if one of them here kills the selfs there curtious enough to kill me first

I don't see any way out of it, even if I got money from some one there is no way to get it into physical cash in time.

So unless I find some IRL help...

But I might be able to get my stuff out and turn my debt into credit card debt, maybe they sent it fast enough that I'll get it in time I don't need help there.

On a card I can pay it off slowly, and everything will be ok.

For those that haven't seen it or don't watch SciFi, thought I would share that.

It's a rather interesting idea for a TV show, I'm going to guess they to a time skip at the end of each season .... at least that is how I would do it if possible. After all the book took place over like a span of what? 100 years?

seriously .... WTF!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!!?

I can't be the only one that was disappointed in how quick that was over?

I remember saying some one saw my town on the top 10 most corrupt towns in America....

Well turns out it's just flat out the second worse and next to last you would ever want to live in..... lovely....

I think for once I am starting to see the appeal of Mind erasing/rewrighting/destroying TFs

Better happy and some one else than this shit

That's all there is to it.....

No fucking computer....

No physical rehab....

No meds monies.....

Everything's falling through because people that where counted on blew of other people and house of god damn cards

Once again it's not even the fucking 7th and in scraping for food and finance fees mode ....

Every time things seam figured out or I get help or I get hopes up fucking gone and things are worse than before and I spend 25 days scraping for nothing till the next first when I get up and try and put everything together again only to get kicked in the fucking teeth.....

What ever powers that be know I'm going to help everyone I can so why they keep making sure doing so destroies me

I even put myself before others this month, or least I was fucking shit

I can't tell some one they can't eat because i got to go to the doctor, let alone just cuz I haven't seen my computer sense last year

Yay

I'm sick of this shit

Getting my computer back and having money for the stuff Medicare don't cover because my Heath is getting worse fast

I should get money back soon but I'm so sick of shoulds and may maybies and putting things odd over and over, I should have started with health stuff months ago but it just won't happen

I am sick of fluctuating around having no money and struggling to take care of anything, and every month more and more goes into pawn, and I'm sick of not getting any help with my defeating health.

I'm just sick of everything really, and I'm sick of not even my own family giving a fuck.

And the only person that cares is worse off than me.

there just isn't as much a comunity as i thought.... I see it in various places here and there.... and it is like 9 out of 10 (if not more) people are only care about you if they think your sexy or something.... idk what it is....

but i've been desperate enough to beg for help three times and I'm lucky if I even get some show of concern or well wishing..... some artist can stub there toe and 50 people are wishing them better..... but my friends trying to kill himself and no one cares.... not even people I thought were friends.

I'm not sure what i'm going to do but I just don't feel welcome you could say.... or that anyone cares at all about anyone else unless they think they might one day get something out of it...

but thats looking to be the whole world isn't it..........

I would say more but i'm getting ranty and depresing sounding.

My friend has committed himself, and is suicidal, I want to make sure he don't lose his stuff in pawn and I can get his mom to the doctor.

I am barely holding myself together, but I am trying to focus on getting stuff done so his mom can get the help she needs and he don't lose all his stuff.

He's a really good person who's been abused and used and has just had more than he can take, but his mom is in really bad condition and still working and I just want to help her for him and do this stuff... mainly because he deserves help and also because if I don't do something I'm liable to have to commit myself too.

I am rather bad off, I just made to many promises to to many people to not act on dumb stuff.

His mother had that mesh put in her and the doctor just..... well tore her up on the inside, and they tried to take it backout and tore her up even more..... there isn't a day that goes by that she's not in pain, and her ... well down there is all cut up and swolen and in pain.... there taking medds and she has to go to some one to look and see if surgery to get it removed (by the best of the best) is even a possibility or if it's to much of a mess to get out. She has to see if it can be removed, it can't stay in there unless it's going to kill her taking that out.....

I need to get them up there to see the doctor, and I need to get his stuff out of pawn (or least pay for it) .

I need to do it or something.... i just can't.... I can't do nothing about it, I can't keep sitting around doing nothing when all that happens is things get worce and worce and I wait for money to come at the start of the month and it's not enough to do anything but hold off things going to hell...... but there just constantly slowly going to hell.... and my health is being mostly pushed to the side and it's getting to where I can't keep doing that ether.....

I just.... I need help

I know it's praobably pointless when I have little to nothing I can do in return but I have to try.