I was planning on posting this sooner, but then FA went offline for a few days. Anyway, my friend  thisisgabe is taking commissions for music, animation, and art!

Okay, for the past few years, I've been desperately trying to work on all of these art requests, but now... I don't know if I'm ever able to get them done. Here I am, free for the summer, wanting to work on them, but when I start... I either hate how it's turning out and start all over, or I end up losing interest in drawing.
I've been trying also to hang out with my friends, but when I hang out with them, I'm usually the one that sits alone, at a separate table while they're doing stuff. I try to go out, to get inspired, but I lose my inspiration after I find it. I try and go get a job, but everyone I've tried applying to, continue rejecting me.
Every single day I tell myself "Okay, you've got to get this done! They're counting on you to get it done!" I try and I try, but to no avail... I end up quitting before even making any progress.
I'm on the verge of deciding whether or not to stop drawing completely. There's nothing I can think of to try and cheer up and get to working on all those drawings. I end up playing on the xbox, hoping that playing video games might fill that void... I'm not sure what I can do to get out of this depression... I act all happy and such because I don't want my friends and family to worry, and when they're concerned and offer their help; I end up pushing them away and separating myself from them.
I don't know what to do...

Yep, today I officially turn 20, and left my teenage years. Also, I haven't been able to work on anything, especially with finals are coming up. Again, sorry everyone, but these things are extremely important to finish.

this scaly paws icon made by my good friend  zarus195

For those that have been waiting for me to update my gallery with their requests and such. truth is... I haven't been working on artwork because I've been depressed for a long while, so I don't really have the enthusiasm to draw anything. I've been trying to get over it, but it just won't go away... again I'm really sorry for having you guys all wait for something.

I'm gonna get my laptop checked by the Geek Squad tomorrow, so I won't be online on messengers for a few days. I will be posting up some of my artwork that I've been doing for my ART 110 - Freehand Drawing when I get my laptop back.

I'm so buying this game :3

And I must say, it was such an enjoyable and spectacular show to go and listen to Final Fantasy music. This piece, Memoro de la Stono ~ Distant Worlds, is my favorite~!

Hey, if there are any furs that live in California, did anyone see a huge ball of light around 8 pm to 8:45 pm? My friend is freaking out about it and I'm looking for other witnesses. I wasn't able to see it because at 8:45, it disappeared and him and his family saw the light.

FYI, got back on Friday. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to draw cuz I didn't have much privacy.
Plus today is the first day of the new semester, so I'll post up my projects from ART-110: Freehand Drawing.

I'll be leaving tomorrow around 5 AM, and going to Clear Lake, CA with a friend and his mother. I'll be back around the end of next week, and I'm taking my sketch book, so I'll be working on all of your requests as fast as possible.

From what my friend has told me, there is no internet connection where we're going, so that's why I'll be absent on MSN, yahoo, Steam, skype, etc.

Apparently  silverwingcid has informed me that there's a troll on MSN messenger(?) that's been adding musclefurs to their contacts just to screw with them. I'm just helping spread this message. Avoid this address benj92[at]hotmail.co.uk
That is all...

I'm unable to draw. I dunno why, but I'm just too scatterbrained to think of what I want to draw. I wanted to see if I was able to even draw my dragon-sona, but... GAH!!! The snout is killing me when I'm trying to draw him looking at the viewer. *sigh* back to square one again... I seriously need help.

I've been trying to find a job to earn some money so I could start buying supplies for writing my own manga that I've been planning for a few years now, but so far I was turned down at Knott's Berry Farm and I'm not sure about the other places I tried to apply for.

So here's my question: Do you guys think I should start doing commissions? I'm still trying to improve my artwork and try to color, and shade, a lot better, but I'm having trouble finding the books/ help I need to improve.
I want honest opinions and/or helpful suggestions. Thanks

I wanna help out Slaverce by spreading the word about his YouTube account! Go check it out and subscribe: http://www.youtube.com/user/simainslave
Then also there's his online comic:
http://www.smackjeeves.com/comicpro......php?id=104299

I kept forgetting to add this, but I've returned home from Hawaii last Wednesday. I've drawn a couple of sketches since I was out being a tourist with my family. I'll post them up later.

Hey guys, sorry I haven't updated in a while, but anyway, my family and I are taking a trip to Hawaii to visit relatives and stay there for a week. I will try and draw and post whatever I doodle along the trip. I'll be back home in Cali on June 8th.

I just got the Orange Box for pc, and I'm looking for some people to play with.
My steam is azurebahamut

I'm excited, for today, I am now 19! X3 Yay!

http://azurebahamut.blogspot.com/
I'll have to update it later. It's late over here. I needz my sleep.

F5 if you haven't already

Have any of you had strange visions of the future? Before I constantly get them when I sleep, but now, I haven't seen a thing different. Sometimes they are foretelling a major event, other just some random moment in an upcoming day. It's so strange that I get deja vu and at that very moment it happens, I realize that I've seen and just done what happened.