Well I rarely go on here but I am alive!

Right now my life seems stale. No matter what i do i just cant find a better job than the one ive been stuck at for nearly 3 years. I dont have a car and even if i try and get one it would take forever as i pay rent which takes 80% of my pay check. I just dont know what to do now. All the jobs i apply for never msg me back. Just kinda using this Journal as a vent page so dont mind me.

dafuck http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5259913/

go go go
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5233234/

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5221431/
Go get it folks

go check out this awesome fur, you might get a free pic
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5222446/

Cool artist i follow has a server and need people to play, so ya go here
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5218259/

Hey this really great artist  Lapres is having a amazing raffle that i think everyone should participate in
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5169693/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11818365/
Doin a pokemon giveaway. and very interesting ticketing scheme

go here for a awesome watchers raffle http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4992285/

These guys here are doing a awesome fursuit part or prop raffle. check it out http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4970858/

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4971186/
go here for a chance to win one of 5 chances to win a icon :D

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4957256/
There doing a drawing for a nsfw art piece.

So  HybridStudios doing a raffle for a free fursuit head.Im not big on suiting myself but i figured id give it a go.So lets see if i get it :3

So this fur is doing a raffle, but not for art but for music. Check it out they have a good sounds and a intersting prize.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10885168/

So i know i dont have many followers and even less people who read this, but for those who do i need some help emotionally. Today i found out my mother asked my father, her husband for the last 20 years for a divorce. I dont know what to do or what to think.Im at a loss. I found this out while at work i was in 3hrs to my shift when i saw a msg and got the news. I left work 4hrs early ready to drink it all away. But after getting away from all of it and relaxing im more stable. But im still at a loss, what do i do, what do i say, how do i feel?

So a band i like release a cover of Diamonds by Rihanna
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tU-V.....ature=youtu.be


Its purely awesome

Ok so this looks awesome as hell and i cant wait to see it even if i dont get chosen
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10791402/

So my personal friend has recently gotten more active drawing so she is doing a special sale here= http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4618891/

Check her out and enter her contest as well

So this is just a small rant so i can get things off my mind. The topic for this is dating and relationships.
So ive tried to date. Never ends well to be honest. No matter what happens it always ends pretty badly.
Like the first time I ever dated someone was when i was 18. Never dated or had a girlfriend before. She asked me out. Now i never really had any feelings for her but i was 18 never been out with a girl so i said yet. Long story short she used me a month in and dumped me less than 12 hours after she "used" me.

After her i dated i think 2 other girls. Keep in mind that none of them ever went about dating to girlfriend. Those basically ended the same way. At this point I am pretty much over dating and i have come to realize even though i am male i havent found any enjoyment from sexxual activitys of sorts.

After 2 years of this i stop dating.
Then along comes perfection. The one girl who got me interested and had me ask her out. She said yes. I finally thought"Awesome a girl who is beautiful, smart, funny, and knows how to have fun." I thought it was going great. 3 months of us dating and im loving it. Then she tells me she just wants to be friends as shes not looking for anything serious. Im like ok i can understand that. But that was untill 2 weeks later she got a boyfriend who i found out she was also dating at the same time as me and hes now her boyfriend. I can understand dating more than one person at a time but i would have liked to know that it was a open dating kinda thing. Now if shes happy im all for that, i just dont like to be lied to.

Also when ever i try to date things in my life just go to shit.Nothing ever works out how it should. Its like cupid is playing cruel tricks on me.

Now i havent given up on dating completely but for now i have. I find there is no use in having a relationship.

~rant over~

So this guy http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4501152/ is doing free animated icons.I think its really cool so why not check it out.

So i made a ask page for my sona AppleBite on Tumblr. Its pretty much just writing back do to i dont know how to draw. lol but feel free to ask away.
http://ask-applebite.tumblr.com/

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4541450/
go here to check it out

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4541450/
go here to check it out

So this person is doing a intersting Pony raffle for a internet wiggit.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10288620/