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Posted 3 years agoMinor technical issues, stream will be starting at 1 PM PST!
TRELLO TIME!!!
Posted 4 years agoMy Trello is finally up and running! You can check my queue at: https://trello.com/b/fFOPDFy8
**PLEASE NOTE: May/June pics will be updated with WIPs as the dates get closer. D&D and Halloween pics are not listed--they'll be getting worked on independently over the next few months and posted later this year during my Halloween and D&December events**
**PLEASE NOTE: May/June pics will be updated with WIPs as the dates get closer. D&D and Halloween pics are not listed--they'll be getting worked on independently over the next few months and posted later this year during my Halloween and D&December events**
Post Barrage + PATREON!!!
Posted 4 years agoRealized as I was going through my Twitter that I've neglected to post most of the pics I've done to FA for the last...oh, two years or so. Whoops! I'll try and be more on the ball about that in the future. In the meantime, enjoy the 50 or so pics that are about to land in my gallery.
Also, for those interested, I am launching a Patreon at patreon.com/badcoyote ! I'll be posting sporadically there for the next few months, with regular posting (including a BRAND NEW COMIC) beginning there in June. If you're interested in helping your favorite yote stay fed and getting some hot exclusive content in return, please check it out and suscribe! <3 <3 <3
Also, for those interested, I am launching a Patreon at patreon.com/badcoyote ! I'll be posting sporadically there for the next few months, with regular posting (including a BRAND NEW COMIC) beginning there in June. If you're interested in helping your favorite yote stay fed and getting some hot exclusive content in return, please check it out and suscribe! <3 <3 <3
Important End-of-Year Art Update
Posted 5 years agoIf you're reading this, CONGRATULATIONS, you made it through (almost all of) 2020! What an absolute nightmare this year has been. I know it's been harder on some of you than others; it's definitely been a serious coping challenge for me personally. I was already teetering on the verge of depression before the pandemic started, and due to my T1 Diabetes, I'm considered high-risk and haven't been able to go much of anywhere. Btween the isolation and increasing pressure to compete or change careers, depression spiraled into full-blown catatonic breakdowns at several points throughout the year. It's been a hard road (filled with lots of therapy and the loving support of my husband and roommate) to get my mental health back to a mostly-stable place. I was even able to take a small vacation finally...albiet one that ended in disaster as I discovered how deep my parents' hatred of all things gay, liberal, and non-MAGA goes. Being disowned by my family over the holidays for not being a good little Trump supporter was rough, to say the least. But it also gave me some badly-needed perspective about the importance of communication and empathy.
We don't talk much about empathy in the furry community, or mental health for that matter. Sure, we pay lip service to the idea of standing up for one another, of being welcoming and caring to all members of the fandom. But we have a bad tendency to push that aside the second we want something, and that goes for artists as well as commissioners. More often than not, fandom members treat me like a corporate hotline or a retail salesperson--someone that they can dump all of their rage and frustration on without consequence, secure in the justification that I deserve it because their product is late, or a single detail is off, or for no better reason than wanting to capitalize on an attention bandwagon to satiate some need for validation that they never got in high school. Admittedly, I haven't been much better lately, as the increasing hostility and neurotic behavior I've been subjected to by others has in turn made me more short-tempered and less amenable to hearing out people's concerns or treating them with kindness.
This toxic dynamic utterly turned me off to producing art of ANY kind. It diminished my spark, my joy, my motivation and my sanity. I spent endless long nights holding back tears as I desperately tried to produce work that never seemed good enough--countless hours fighting the voice in my head that whispers "You're not as good as your competitors. Your work is garbage. You're a piece of shit and no one would care about you if you couldn't draw porn. You should start this pic from scratch or just refund the commissioner. You are 35 and people 10 years younger than you have way more skill. You'll never be a REAL artist."
Day in, day out, I labored to produce work under the spectre of that crushing anxiety and self-hate mixed with the enormous demands of my husband's political career, the growing impatience of my customers, and the spiteful antics of rabble-rousers. They had no empathy for me...but I wasn't showing any for them, either. I kept closing off, withdrawing into myself for my own protection, breaking off art communications which only seemed to cause dread....until the trauma and isolation eventually made something in me snap. When it did, I spent a full week not talking to anyone at all, not leaving my room, barely eating. I felt a horrible, seething pain inside my chest--not the white-hot pain of suicidality, but a cold, hollow void where my passion used to be. It had been festering there for longer than I cared to admit, and it threatened to swallow everything I was, rendering me nothing more than a jaded, joyless husk unable to function or relate to anyone on an emotional level.
It became clear that I had lost my anchor. Art used to be something I loved which connected me to my own hopes and dreams, getting me through the worst of my inner turmoil when life got sucky. But the last 8 years of working in the fandom had twisted that lifeline into a noose. Now my hobby was a soul-crushing job that obligated me to manifest the hopes and dreams of others. There was never enough time for my own, anymore. There was always a new skill that had to be mastered, a new deadline to meet, a new harsh voice critiqueing my work and tearing my self-esteem apart over the smallest flaws. Every time I felt like I had made personal and professional progress, someone or something came to smash it to pieces and force me to start from scratch. I was angry. I was hurt. But more than anything, I was tired. Tired of being broke, of being yelled at, of being diabetic and sick all the time, of having no identity beyond this fandom or the shadow of my husband's philanthropy. Just very, very tired.
So I stopped. I ceased all commission work this year knowing that my continued involvement would prevent any kind of psychological healing, and instead I did the one thing I needed more than anything else--I got help. Talking with a therapist and the people close to me about what I was going through was the best decision I could have made, and gradually I found that I was starting to get a better handle on things. My depression isn't cured, exactly, but I've been learning how to cope with it in healthier ways, and how to recognize the warning signs and communicate before things get too severe.
But the one place my communication has still been sorely lacking is with you all. I'd like to believe I'm decent at initial communication--I certainly never kept it a secret from any of you when I started your commissions that the goal was to make every picture to the best of my abilities. And I hope I made it clear that such dedication would mean each pic could take a long time. Despite all the frustrations, I genuinely believe that the time I spent was worth each and every final product. As you look through my gallery, there's not a single commission that isn't painstakingly detailed all the love, effort, and obsessive perfectionism I could pour into it.
But for me to put that much time and love into art means that customers had to be willing to accept what might colloquially be referred to as a "European schedule." The kind of schedule that focuses more on the inherent value, craft, and quality of the final product rather than rapid-fire shipping. Not everyone jives with that, and for those that don't, I failed in my duties to better about ongoing communication and to inform everyone about where each piece was at. I did not treat each of you like equal partners in my artistic endeavors, and for that, I am truly sorry.
Going forward, I recognize that there need to be a number of changes, both for my own personal health and the satisfaction of you, my fans and customers. Here is my early New Years Resolution list, i.e., what you can expect from me as this year closes and a new one commences:
**Speed up by eliminating perfectionism in favor of the 80-20 rule. Obsessing over getting each piece "perfect" has made pics that could reasonably be considered finished in days take weeks or months instead. This places an undue burden on your patience, and an impossible standard on me. From now on, each pic will have a more realistic completion standard, with room of minor adjustments, and I will instead use my personal time to push forward on new techniques and strategies. I will be holding myself to a 3 month completion time for all overdue work, and a one month completion time for any new work I take on next year, with a money-back guarantee on both (barring natural disasters, acts of god, or extended hospitalizations).
**Communicate in a clear and timely manner. This means that people with overdue or ongoing commissions should expect an update from me this week and every 2 weeks until the work is finished, and future commissioners can expect a similar frequency of contact. It also means that I will be regularly posting monthly journal updates every 30 days or so on average. What it does not mean is that a client or fan has the right to harass me for not immediately responding to a flood of messages (I get an average of 20 requests and messages a day, and I'm only human). If you message me and I don't respond right away, please be patient--it may mean I missed your message, or I'm waiting a day or two to respond when I have a meaningful content update to share.
**Take time for me. I need to start doing personal work more. Both my therapist and I agree that it's the only way for me to reconnect with my passion for art, so I'm setting aside some time each week to work on my own projects. Anyone, and I mean ANYONE who gives me shit for spending 1-2 days a week working on my own stuff will find themselves the immediate recipient of a ban. I will not allow any more people to make me feel shitty for needing a balance between work and personal life. And speaking of personal work...
**Transition away from a commission business model to Patreon and mainstream work. In the last week I've produced three completed pics at high quality because I wanted to without anyone forcing me or breathing down my neck. That's a damn good feeling. And the work I'm producing is content you all enjoy--Digimon, WoW art, holiday-themed pics and more! I want to build a healthier artist-client relationship where I get to draw the things we all love without the panic-inducing demands that ironically slow me down 10x more than if I can approach art from a relaxed state of mind. I've begun working on a WoW and a GW2 themed comic that I know you'll all enjoy, and I am also pushing more into mainstream work as I hone my craft and seek new opportunities for long-term employment. It'd be nice to have an industry job on my resume again and the skills I learn there will naturally be applied to fandom work I generate as well.
**Take fewer commissions and charge more. Yeah, I know, not what everyone is hoping to hear. But I've spoken to a number of other professional artists, and they've all concluded the same thing: my low self-esteem has made me charge way less than my skills are worth. As a result, I've been forced to take on way more work than I can possibly complete just to keep up with bills, and every time I do it just digs the hole deeper and worsens my anxiety and depression because I can't finish 30+ pics in a short time frame. Now, this doesn't mean I will take NO commissions....but it does mean I will be running them through Patreon, and that I will be far more selective on which ones I take. Though I will be charging more, you will get more consistent quality and faster completion times as part of the bargain, and I get to have peace of mind knowing that I will not be constantly overwhelmed or forced to take on commissions that fail to bring me joy or align with my artistic values.
**Embrace positivity but take no shit. I owe you guys a lot, and would never have made it this far without you. I fear nothing so much as turning into the kind of rage-filled assholes my parents are, and so I vow to be more patient and friendly in the way I approach concerns over art production while working to understand your needs and extend the benefit of the doubt. With that being said, I also plan to stop rolling over and letting toxic, hateful assholes ruin my life and reputation over unresolved angst. Respect and tolerance are what you can expect from me, but I expect them to be returned in kind, and I will not hesitate to publicly drag those who take advantage of my empathy or who default to nasty tactics rather than civil, productive methods for seeking resolution. I am done being angry and equally done taking abuse.
So there you have it. New art, new approach, new committment, and a few old pics to finish. It's strange to look at my work in progress and realize that after all the heartache, struggle, and even triumphs, I am nearing the end of a queue nearly 6 years in the making. After spending so much time working and reworking these pics, their conclusion comes as a sad sort of relief. When you do art for this long, the pics become a part of you, intimate and familiar, even the parts of them you don't like. It's hard to say goodbye to them, but I know there will be new opportunities and challenges on the horizon. Having already started on the final pics, I know that a chapter of my life is closing, and I am very excited to show you what the next chapter brings.
I will be publishing all art here and update journals here on a regular schedule moving forward; if you have positive/constructive thoughts please feel free to share them!
Thank you for sticking with me so I could finally get back to doing this the right way.
See you in 30 days,
-BC
PS: I want to give a huge shoutout to Lobo, who helped me edit this post and made some excellent vocabulary recommendations. I don't always give him enough credit--although he can be a bit aggressive and overly protective, he's also the person writing rhymes, running streams, and working his ass off to donate thousands to charitable causes like wolf conservation and youth toy drives. He acknowledges and is working to correct his part in my production inefficiencies this year (he's even more of a perfectionist than me, with an uncanny knack for finding even the smallest mistake on a picture and recommending it be reworked) but he has also helped me grow tremendously as an artist and as a person. Without him my page and this community would shine a little less brightly. Love ya to pieces babe <3
We don't talk much about empathy in the furry community, or mental health for that matter. Sure, we pay lip service to the idea of standing up for one another, of being welcoming and caring to all members of the fandom. But we have a bad tendency to push that aside the second we want something, and that goes for artists as well as commissioners. More often than not, fandom members treat me like a corporate hotline or a retail salesperson--someone that they can dump all of their rage and frustration on without consequence, secure in the justification that I deserve it because their product is late, or a single detail is off, or for no better reason than wanting to capitalize on an attention bandwagon to satiate some need for validation that they never got in high school. Admittedly, I haven't been much better lately, as the increasing hostility and neurotic behavior I've been subjected to by others has in turn made me more short-tempered and less amenable to hearing out people's concerns or treating them with kindness.
This toxic dynamic utterly turned me off to producing art of ANY kind. It diminished my spark, my joy, my motivation and my sanity. I spent endless long nights holding back tears as I desperately tried to produce work that never seemed good enough--countless hours fighting the voice in my head that whispers "You're not as good as your competitors. Your work is garbage. You're a piece of shit and no one would care about you if you couldn't draw porn. You should start this pic from scratch or just refund the commissioner. You are 35 and people 10 years younger than you have way more skill. You'll never be a REAL artist."
Day in, day out, I labored to produce work under the spectre of that crushing anxiety and self-hate mixed with the enormous demands of my husband's political career, the growing impatience of my customers, and the spiteful antics of rabble-rousers. They had no empathy for me...but I wasn't showing any for them, either. I kept closing off, withdrawing into myself for my own protection, breaking off art communications which only seemed to cause dread....until the trauma and isolation eventually made something in me snap. When it did, I spent a full week not talking to anyone at all, not leaving my room, barely eating. I felt a horrible, seething pain inside my chest--not the white-hot pain of suicidality, but a cold, hollow void where my passion used to be. It had been festering there for longer than I cared to admit, and it threatened to swallow everything I was, rendering me nothing more than a jaded, joyless husk unable to function or relate to anyone on an emotional level.
It became clear that I had lost my anchor. Art used to be something I loved which connected me to my own hopes and dreams, getting me through the worst of my inner turmoil when life got sucky. But the last 8 years of working in the fandom had twisted that lifeline into a noose. Now my hobby was a soul-crushing job that obligated me to manifest the hopes and dreams of others. There was never enough time for my own, anymore. There was always a new skill that had to be mastered, a new deadline to meet, a new harsh voice critiqueing my work and tearing my self-esteem apart over the smallest flaws. Every time I felt like I had made personal and professional progress, someone or something came to smash it to pieces and force me to start from scratch. I was angry. I was hurt. But more than anything, I was tired. Tired of being broke, of being yelled at, of being diabetic and sick all the time, of having no identity beyond this fandom or the shadow of my husband's philanthropy. Just very, very tired.
So I stopped. I ceased all commission work this year knowing that my continued involvement would prevent any kind of psychological healing, and instead I did the one thing I needed more than anything else--I got help. Talking with a therapist and the people close to me about what I was going through was the best decision I could have made, and gradually I found that I was starting to get a better handle on things. My depression isn't cured, exactly, but I've been learning how to cope with it in healthier ways, and how to recognize the warning signs and communicate before things get too severe.
But the one place my communication has still been sorely lacking is with you all. I'd like to believe I'm decent at initial communication--I certainly never kept it a secret from any of you when I started your commissions that the goal was to make every picture to the best of my abilities. And I hope I made it clear that such dedication would mean each pic could take a long time. Despite all the frustrations, I genuinely believe that the time I spent was worth each and every final product. As you look through my gallery, there's not a single commission that isn't painstakingly detailed all the love, effort, and obsessive perfectionism I could pour into it.
But for me to put that much time and love into art means that customers had to be willing to accept what might colloquially be referred to as a "European schedule." The kind of schedule that focuses more on the inherent value, craft, and quality of the final product rather than rapid-fire shipping. Not everyone jives with that, and for those that don't, I failed in my duties to better about ongoing communication and to inform everyone about where each piece was at. I did not treat each of you like equal partners in my artistic endeavors, and for that, I am truly sorry.
Going forward, I recognize that there need to be a number of changes, both for my own personal health and the satisfaction of you, my fans and customers. Here is my early New Years Resolution list, i.e., what you can expect from me as this year closes and a new one commences:
**Speed up by eliminating perfectionism in favor of the 80-20 rule. Obsessing over getting each piece "perfect" has made pics that could reasonably be considered finished in days take weeks or months instead. This places an undue burden on your patience, and an impossible standard on me. From now on, each pic will have a more realistic completion standard, with room of minor adjustments, and I will instead use my personal time to push forward on new techniques and strategies. I will be holding myself to a 3 month completion time for all overdue work, and a one month completion time for any new work I take on next year, with a money-back guarantee on both (barring natural disasters, acts of god, or extended hospitalizations).
**Communicate in a clear and timely manner. This means that people with overdue or ongoing commissions should expect an update from me this week and every 2 weeks until the work is finished, and future commissioners can expect a similar frequency of contact. It also means that I will be regularly posting monthly journal updates every 30 days or so on average. What it does not mean is that a client or fan has the right to harass me for not immediately responding to a flood of messages (I get an average of 20 requests and messages a day, and I'm only human). If you message me and I don't respond right away, please be patient--it may mean I missed your message, or I'm waiting a day or two to respond when I have a meaningful content update to share.
**Take time for me. I need to start doing personal work more. Both my therapist and I agree that it's the only way for me to reconnect with my passion for art, so I'm setting aside some time each week to work on my own projects. Anyone, and I mean ANYONE who gives me shit for spending 1-2 days a week working on my own stuff will find themselves the immediate recipient of a ban. I will not allow any more people to make me feel shitty for needing a balance between work and personal life. And speaking of personal work...
**Transition away from a commission business model to Patreon and mainstream work. In the last week I've produced three completed pics at high quality because I wanted to without anyone forcing me or breathing down my neck. That's a damn good feeling. And the work I'm producing is content you all enjoy--Digimon, WoW art, holiday-themed pics and more! I want to build a healthier artist-client relationship where I get to draw the things we all love without the panic-inducing demands that ironically slow me down 10x more than if I can approach art from a relaxed state of mind. I've begun working on a WoW and a GW2 themed comic that I know you'll all enjoy, and I am also pushing more into mainstream work as I hone my craft and seek new opportunities for long-term employment. It'd be nice to have an industry job on my resume again and the skills I learn there will naturally be applied to fandom work I generate as well.
**Take fewer commissions and charge more. Yeah, I know, not what everyone is hoping to hear. But I've spoken to a number of other professional artists, and they've all concluded the same thing: my low self-esteem has made me charge way less than my skills are worth. As a result, I've been forced to take on way more work than I can possibly complete just to keep up with bills, and every time I do it just digs the hole deeper and worsens my anxiety and depression because I can't finish 30+ pics in a short time frame. Now, this doesn't mean I will take NO commissions....but it does mean I will be running them through Patreon, and that I will be far more selective on which ones I take. Though I will be charging more, you will get more consistent quality and faster completion times as part of the bargain, and I get to have peace of mind knowing that I will not be constantly overwhelmed or forced to take on commissions that fail to bring me joy or align with my artistic values.
**Embrace positivity but take no shit. I owe you guys a lot, and would never have made it this far without you. I fear nothing so much as turning into the kind of rage-filled assholes my parents are, and so I vow to be more patient and friendly in the way I approach concerns over art production while working to understand your needs and extend the benefit of the doubt. With that being said, I also plan to stop rolling over and letting toxic, hateful assholes ruin my life and reputation over unresolved angst. Respect and tolerance are what you can expect from me, but I expect them to be returned in kind, and I will not hesitate to publicly drag those who take advantage of my empathy or who default to nasty tactics rather than civil, productive methods for seeking resolution. I am done being angry and equally done taking abuse.
So there you have it. New art, new approach, new committment, and a few old pics to finish. It's strange to look at my work in progress and realize that after all the heartache, struggle, and even triumphs, I am nearing the end of a queue nearly 6 years in the making. After spending so much time working and reworking these pics, their conclusion comes as a sad sort of relief. When you do art for this long, the pics become a part of you, intimate and familiar, even the parts of them you don't like. It's hard to say goodbye to them, but I know there will be new opportunities and challenges on the horizon. Having already started on the final pics, I know that a chapter of my life is closing, and I am very excited to show you what the next chapter brings.
I will be publishing all art here and update journals here on a regular schedule moving forward; if you have positive/constructive thoughts please feel free to share them!
Thank you for sticking with me so I could finally get back to doing this the right way.
See you in 30 days,
-BC
PS: I want to give a huge shoutout to Lobo, who helped me edit this post and made some excellent vocabulary recommendations. I don't always give him enough credit--although he can be a bit aggressive and overly protective, he's also the person writing rhymes, running streams, and working his ass off to donate thousands to charitable causes like wolf conservation and youth toy drives. He acknowledges and is working to correct his part in my production inefficiencies this year (he's even more of a perfectionist than me, with an uncanny knack for finding even the smallest mistake on a picture and recommending it be reworked) but he has also helped me grow tremendously as an artist and as a person. Without him my page and this community would shine a little less brightly. Love ya to pieces babe <3
XXXmas Slots Now Open!!!
Posted 7 years agoIn honor of the 12 Days of Christmas, I will be opening for 12 slots--with the goal of completing 1 per day before Christmas arrives!
And because it's the season of giving, I am giving all of you 25% off ANY slot that is bought as a gift for (or includes a character for) someone other than yourself. Slots may be Inks, Flats, or Cell/Soft Shades. Limit of 2 characters per slot maximum. Payment is due at time of slot confirmation.
Additionally, gamer and other queued pics will continue to be worked on, and the Charr folks who have waited so patiently will be getting a two-week long special stream event in mid-January. Doing this 12 day gauntlet will be a great chance for me to hone my skills and ensure more streamlined production schedules now and in the future
And because it's the season of giving, I am giving all of you 25% off ANY slot that is bought as a gift for (or includes a character for) someone other than yourself. Slots may be Inks, Flats, or Cell/Soft Shades. Limit of 2 characters per slot maximum. Payment is due at time of slot confirmation.
Additionally, gamer and other queued pics will continue to be worked on, and the Charr folks who have waited so patiently will be getting a two-week long special stream event in mid-January. Doing this 12 day gauntlet will be a great chance for me to hone my skills and ensure more streamlined production schedules now and in the future
I RETURN!
Posted 7 years agoStarting next weekend, I'll be back to streaming and catching up on the art I owe you all. Thanks for being patient while me and Lobo were on the campaign trail and settling in to our new jobs <3
FALL NEWS+Howloween/Meatoberfest Info!
Posted 7 years agoHey there everyone! Fall is finally upon us, and that means it's time for turning leaves, pumpkin spice, brand new art, and slutty vice!
But before all that, a bit of news: First, my dog recently got out of surgery (she had a skin tumor) and is recovering well. Thank you to all those who shared warm wishes and support during that harrowing experience.
Second, and far more cheerfully, Lobo and I recently got new jobs! I am officially a graphic designer for a web company that works exclusively with humanitarian causes, and Lobo was hired as the company's project manager. It's a great opportunity for both of us to advance our mainstream careers and learn awesome new skills.
On the flip side, this means that art from me will be slowing down for the foreseeable future. I understand that this may cause some frustration, but I want to assure everyone with pending commissions that your visions will still be completed with the utmost professionalism and care. Priority is going to past Halloween pics which I aim to complete by month's end.
On a similar note, Lobo has been volunteering on a local political campaign in the evenings, and as a result he can't be around to run streams for me until Nov. 6th, the date of the US Midterm election. Because of that, MEATOBERFEST (and the Charr commissions in progress) is STILL ON, but will be officially postponed until the week after the election (if you're an American citizen and haven't made a plan to vote, do so NOW to ensure your voice gets heard!)
I'm also going to attempt a little giveaway Howl-o-ween stream this weekend, but no promises, as it will depend on my current work schedule. If it doesn't happen this week, I will try to hold a raffle or something fun like that for you guys instead
TL;DR--dog beat cancer, me n' the gnoll got new jobs, art is gonna be slow but steady, and sexy kitties+seasonal fun are on the way! Thank you all for your patience, and have a spooktacular October.
But before all that, a bit of news: First, my dog recently got out of surgery (she had a skin tumor) and is recovering well. Thank you to all those who shared warm wishes and support during that harrowing experience.
Second, and far more cheerfully, Lobo and I recently got new jobs! I am officially a graphic designer for a web company that works exclusively with humanitarian causes, and Lobo was hired as the company's project manager. It's a great opportunity for both of us to advance our mainstream careers and learn awesome new skills.
On the flip side, this means that art from me will be slowing down for the foreseeable future. I understand that this may cause some frustration, but I want to assure everyone with pending commissions that your visions will still be completed with the utmost professionalism and care. Priority is going to past Halloween pics which I aim to complete by month's end.
On a similar note, Lobo has been volunteering on a local political campaign in the evenings, and as a result he can't be around to run streams for me until Nov. 6th, the date of the US Midterm election. Because of that, MEATOBERFEST (and the Charr commissions in progress) is STILL ON, but will be officially postponed until the week after the election (if you're an American citizen and haven't made a plan to vote, do so NOW to ensure your voice gets heard!)
I'm also going to attempt a little giveaway Howl-o-ween stream this weekend, but no promises, as it will depend on my current work schedule. If it doesn't happen this week, I will try to hold a raffle or something fun like that for you guys instead
TL;DR--dog beat cancer, me n' the gnoll got new jobs, art is gonna be slow but steady, and sexy kitties+seasonal fun are on the way! Thank you all for your patience, and have a spooktacular October.
Stream Postponed til Monday
Posted 7 years agoUPDATE: No stream today. GPU is fragged. I'm out buying a new one but its going to take time to get the new GPU installed and running so I'm taking the afternoon off to fiddle with it. The stream will resume tomorrow afternoon. Thanks everyone!
Stream Resuming at 2pm PST
Posted 7 years agoLike the title says, the stream will return at 2pm PST today!
Sad News, and LoL Stream Scheduling
Posted 7 years agoHey everyone, just popping in to share some news.
lobosan's grandad suffered a stroke and lost most of his mental acuity. As of this past weekend he has been moved to a fulltime medical care facility, which is why I postponed the LoL stream. It will be returning this SATURDAY, however, and be going through Monday! There was some confusion over slots, so I will be re-posting the slot page with those whose slots I've confirmed, plus 1-2 newly opened slots.
Thank you all for your patience and understanding.

Thank you all for your patience and understanding.
WoW Stream Time Change
Posted 7 years agoHey gang! Lobo caught a stomach bug, and since the stream wouldn't be the same without him, I am shifting the official WoW event to Sat-Mon beginning at 12pm tomorrow. The other stream schedules for September will not be affected. Thank you for understanding, and please remember to pay for pre-reserved slots before the stream starts!
STREAMING THIS WEEKEND, and Other Summer Updates!
Posted 7 years agoWHEW. It's been a while, huh FA? Summer's in its final month, and that means it will soon be time for the annual POOL PARTY YCH! Slots will be posted next week, but in the meantime, come hop by an impromptu "Gettin' Shit Done" stream this weekend! Going from 1PM Pacific on Friday to 8pm Pacific this Sunday, I'll be taking the weekend to stream completion of various queued pics for you all. Swing by, you don't want to miss out on all the fun!
And speaking of miss, I've missed a lot of you these last few months. It's been tough not getting to stream while learning to get by without the use of my feet. The various medications I was put on slowed my thinking to a crawl, but I am glad to say that I am finally on the road to recovery, and that means I'm producing a lot more work, and FAST! Thanks to my new doctor, for the first time in 6 years my blood sugar is at a reasonable level and I can work without all the fog that's been clogging up my brain. The queue is shrinking at a rapid rate now, and I am pleased to announce that all Superstream Pics will be posted by day's end, and all other outstanding work (except for full-color pics) will be finished by the end of the month if not sooner.
As always, I want to thank you all for your patience, your persistence, and your patronage. Without you guys, I would never have had a chance at living a healthier, happier life. I am and will always be eternally grateful to you guys for making this community a fun and meaningful place to do art.
If anyone has questions or needs an update, please holler at me here via note (slower response), on DM my Twitter bigbadyote (faster response). And with that out of the way....
LET'S GET READY TO PARTY!!!!
And speaking of miss, I've missed a lot of you these last few months. It's been tough not getting to stream while learning to get by without the use of my feet. The various medications I was put on slowed my thinking to a crawl, but I am glad to say that I am finally on the road to recovery, and that means I'm producing a lot more work, and FAST! Thanks to my new doctor, for the first time in 6 years my blood sugar is at a reasonable level and I can work without all the fog that's been clogging up my brain. The queue is shrinking at a rapid rate now, and I am pleased to announce that all Superstream Pics will be posted by day's end, and all other outstanding work (except for full-color pics) will be finished by the end of the month if not sooner.
As always, I want to thank you all for your patience, your persistence, and your patronage. Without you guys, I would never have had a chance at living a healthier, happier life. I am and will always be eternally grateful to you guys for making this community a fun and meaningful place to do art.
If anyone has questions or needs an update, please holler at me here via note (slower response), on DM my Twitter bigbadyote (faster response). And with that out of the way....
LET'S GET READY TO PARTY!!!!
SUPERHERO STREAM BEGINS FRIDAY MAY 4th!
Posted 7 years agoWith the St. Patty's Day and Charr pics shipping out and the Avengers: Infinity War movie in theaters soon, there's no better time for the long awaited, much anticipated, Superhero Theme Stream!
This 3 day long stream will offer themed trivia, games, and prizes--and of course, it's your chance to get your character drawn as a superhero (or supervillain, we won't judge!). Plus, as a special bonus for this event only, I am waiving the usual charge for weapons or bonus power effects so you can look your best while strutting your super-stuff.
This deal is in a league of its own, so don your capes and costumes and get ready to assemble with all your friends for this weekend-spanning powerpalooza starting Friday, May 4th at 4pm Pacific!
This 3 day long stream will offer themed trivia, games, and prizes--and of course, it's your chance to get your character drawn as a superhero (or supervillain, we won't judge!). Plus, as a special bonus for this event only, I am waiving the usual charge for weapons or bonus power effects so you can look your best while strutting your super-stuff.
This deal is in a league of its own, so don your capes and costumes and get ready to assemble with all your friends for this weekend-spanning powerpalooza starting Friday, May 4th at 4pm Pacific!
April Update
Posted 7 years agoFor those who don't follow my twitter over at https://twitter.com/BigBadYote , I'm writing this to let you guys know why I've been quiet lately. I recently sliced my toe open while outdoors, and due to my diabetes (which fucks up blood flow and healing, among other things) what should have been a simple cut became an extremely dangerous infection. I was put on heavy antibiotics for blood poisoning as my big toe became blackened and cracked--and although my condition temporarily improved, I am once again in very real danger of losing the toe.
Unfortunately, the antibiotics have left me feeling extremely strung out, and having to constantly go back to the hospital for IV and blood work hasn't helped, either. Lobo's internship ended successfully, but the job position he was originally offered no longer exists due to political funding BS at the state level, so that's been a source of frustration as well. His prospects are looking up at least, but in the meantime, I'm stuck at home feeling like the floor is spinning and hoping for the antibiotics to work before I lose my toe.
I apologize for any delays in communication or artwork this has created, and I will be working hard to complete commissions as best I can this week. I'm open to any questions folks may have, and look forward to continuing to serve this awesome community.
Unfortunately, the antibiotics have left me feeling extremely strung out, and having to constantly go back to the hospital for IV and blood work hasn't helped, either. Lobo's internship ended successfully, but the job position he was originally offered no longer exists due to political funding BS at the state level, so that's been a source of frustration as well. His prospects are looking up at least, but in the meantime, I'm stuck at home feeling like the floor is spinning and hoping for the antibiotics to work before I lose my toe.
I apologize for any delays in communication or artwork this has created, and I will be working hard to complete commissions as best I can this week. I'm open to any questions folks may have, and look forward to continuing to serve this awesome community.
St. Patty's Stream at 3 pm
Posted 7 years agoSt. Patty's day stream will be up at 3 pm Pacific today. I can't wait to see everyone there!
Year of the Dog Stream Continues at 3pm Pacific Today
Posted 7 years agoLike the title says! Link for it is here: picarto.tv/badcoyoteart
YEAR of the DOG STREAM BEGINS TONIGHT!
Posted 7 years agoCalling all mutts, purebreds, and wild breeds--this is your moment to howl! The Chinese Lunar New Year has arrived, and so we enter the YEAR OF THE DOG! What better way to celebrate than with a stream that celebrates canines in all their drooly, dirty glory?!
The stream will begin TONIGHT, Friday the 16th, at 6pm Pacific time, and will continue from 2:00pm-9:00pm pacific on Saturday and Sunday. Sketch and ink commissions that adhere to a dog/wolf/coyote/etc theme will be taken in the order submitted, and will be completed within the stream. Additionally, there will be canine TRIVIA, with great art and gift prizes!
For those still waiting on other pics, never fear, your hopes haven't gone up in smoke! Although my computer along with all in-progress work was destroyed in the Thomas Fire, I have made good headway on catching back up, and will be showing updates throughout this weekend, as well as streaming that work's completion over the next two weeks. This includes the Charr and Halloween pics, as well as a few misc. ones that fell through the cracks. Thanks for your patience and support!
So come give us a bone (and maybe get one in return!) as we get ruff and wild all weekend long!
LINK: https://picarto.tv/badcoyoteart
The stream will begin TONIGHT, Friday the 16th, at 6pm Pacific time, and will continue from 2:00pm-9:00pm pacific on Saturday and Sunday. Sketch and ink commissions that adhere to a dog/wolf/coyote/etc theme will be taken in the order submitted, and will be completed within the stream. Additionally, there will be canine TRIVIA, with great art and gift prizes!
For those still waiting on other pics, never fear, your hopes haven't gone up in smoke! Although my computer along with all in-progress work was destroyed in the Thomas Fire, I have made good headway on catching back up, and will be showing updates throughout this weekend, as well as streaming that work's completion over the next two weeks. This includes the Charr and Halloween pics, as well as a few misc. ones that fell through the cracks. Thanks for your patience and support!
So come give us a bone (and maybe get one in return!) as we get ruff and wild all weekend long!
LINK: https://picarto.tv/badcoyoteart
THANK YOU
Posted 8 years agoI haven't had as much time as I would have liked this week to personally thank everyone who donated or offered kind words to me and Lobo during this difficult time. You guys are AMAZING, and your support means the world to us. Because of you, I'll be able to replace the burnt tablet and computer and get started on art again after Xmas!
I hope you all have a wonderful holiday season <3
I hope you all have a wonderful holiday season <3
A Yote in Need (Thomas Fire Item Replacement Fundraiser)
Posted 8 years agoHey everyone. I'm sort of struggling with how to say all this, so bear with me while I ramble. The TL;DR version is: WE NEED HELP. https://www.youcaring.com/badcoyote-1041204
This has been a rough year for us. A VERY rough year. My Type 1 Diabetes has been getting progressively worse, I've had to deal with spiteful campaigns to slander my name, and of course, as many of you remember, one of our vehicles literally exploded in August from faulty wiring. But I thought, hey, at least that would be the last of our fire troubles and the year would close out smoothly.
Boy, was I wrong.
Monday night on the 4th, I was frantically woken by my panicked husband who had been returning from a job interview in San Diego. We had just enough time to grab the dog and evacuate the 8 macaws we watch over for his uncle before the flames crossed the canyon and were on our street. After ensuring our safety, Lobo spent the rest of that night offering his military experience to Incident Response Teams, assisting in animal rescue, and setting up the evacuee shelter at the Ventura County Fairgrounds.
As I went to pitch in with the Red Cross the next morning, he gave me news that broke my heart. Our entire neighborhood had been devestated by the Thomas Fire. Though our home was one of the few still standing, many of our treasured belongings were less fortunate. My sketch books, containing years of hard work and memories, were destroyed. Most of our clothes were burned. And my electronics (PC, tablet, monitors, etc.) which I rely on to do professional art, are beyond repair. Compounding this hardship, my local job hours at a nearby Christmas tree farm were cut because customers are still fleeing the fire and smoke.
I know, I know, it's a regular tale of woe. It sucks, but you're here for the porn, not some sob story, right? Here's the thing about that: there is more to my art than the dicks you see on screen. For starters, there are the physical tools I use to create the art you follow me for--tools the fire has robbed from me. Without them I cannot make you new porn (or finish the already queued porn), and you will never get to spank it to my fearsome charr or beefy tauren again!
There is also the love of a husband who has unwaveringly stood beside me, encouraging me to learn new techniques and never stop producing for you. His life, his family home, and his job opportunity all suffered from this fire. There is the inspiration, passion, and dedication to this community that I put into every brush stroke you see on screen. Those values come from my belief that this fandom is GOOD, that its people look out for one another and value friendship, kindness, and loyalty above all else. And finally, that leads me to you, the fans, who are behind every pic. We've spent countless hours prepping entertainment for you, giving away free art, scouring the interwebz for cool trivia, and going above and beyond on commissions (even if I sometimes take too damn long), because WE LOVE YOU GUYS.
Why am I listing all these? Because right now, we need you to show that love back. Show us that you care as much about the artist as the art, and that faith can be rewarded, even in this dramatic, quirky, kinky fandom that we each call home. We're not perfect people, nor is anyone who proudly wears the mantle of "furry". But what we are is FAMILY. Families grow distant. Families fight. Lobo and I are both guilty of these. But no matter what, families support one another when shit goes down. We are asking you, our family, to support us by donating in our time of need. Your donations will ensure we have enough funds for basic necessities like food next month and will replace the items we lost so that we can get back to serving the art community we love and cherish.
For those who can't or won't donate, I understand. Money is tight, especially in the Christmas season, when I'm asking you all for nothing short of a miracle.
But for those who do donate, no matter how big or small the amount, I cannot thank you enough. YOU ARE WHY I DRAW.
LINK TO DONATE IS HERE: https://www.youcaring.com/badcoyote-1041204
This has been a rough year for us. A VERY rough year. My Type 1 Diabetes has been getting progressively worse, I've had to deal with spiteful campaigns to slander my name, and of course, as many of you remember, one of our vehicles literally exploded in August from faulty wiring. But I thought, hey, at least that would be the last of our fire troubles and the year would close out smoothly.
Boy, was I wrong.
Monday night on the 4th, I was frantically woken by my panicked husband who had been returning from a job interview in San Diego. We had just enough time to grab the dog and evacuate the 8 macaws we watch over for his uncle before the flames crossed the canyon and were on our street. After ensuring our safety, Lobo spent the rest of that night offering his military experience to Incident Response Teams, assisting in animal rescue, and setting up the evacuee shelter at the Ventura County Fairgrounds.
As I went to pitch in with the Red Cross the next morning, he gave me news that broke my heart. Our entire neighborhood had been devestated by the Thomas Fire. Though our home was one of the few still standing, many of our treasured belongings were less fortunate. My sketch books, containing years of hard work and memories, were destroyed. Most of our clothes were burned. And my electronics (PC, tablet, monitors, etc.) which I rely on to do professional art, are beyond repair. Compounding this hardship, my local job hours at a nearby Christmas tree farm were cut because customers are still fleeing the fire and smoke.
I know, I know, it's a regular tale of woe. It sucks, but you're here for the porn, not some sob story, right? Here's the thing about that: there is more to my art than the dicks you see on screen. For starters, there are the physical tools I use to create the art you follow me for--tools the fire has robbed from me. Without them I cannot make you new porn (or finish the already queued porn), and you will never get to spank it to my fearsome charr or beefy tauren again!
There is also the love of a husband who has unwaveringly stood beside me, encouraging me to learn new techniques and never stop producing for you. His life, his family home, and his job opportunity all suffered from this fire. There is the inspiration, passion, and dedication to this community that I put into every brush stroke you see on screen. Those values come from my belief that this fandom is GOOD, that its people look out for one another and value friendship, kindness, and loyalty above all else. And finally, that leads me to you, the fans, who are behind every pic. We've spent countless hours prepping entertainment for you, giving away free art, scouring the interwebz for cool trivia, and going above and beyond on commissions (even if I sometimes take too damn long), because WE LOVE YOU GUYS.
Why am I listing all these? Because right now, we need you to show that love back. Show us that you care as much about the artist as the art, and that faith can be rewarded, even in this dramatic, quirky, kinky fandom that we each call home. We're not perfect people, nor is anyone who proudly wears the mantle of "furry". But what we are is FAMILY. Families grow distant. Families fight. Lobo and I are both guilty of these. But no matter what, families support one another when shit goes down. We are asking you, our family, to support us by donating in our time of need. Your donations will ensure we have enough funds for basic necessities like food next month and will replace the items we lost so that we can get back to serving the art community we love and cherish.
For those who can't or won't donate, I understand. Money is tight, especially in the Christmas season, when I'm asking you all for nothing short of a miracle.
But for those who do donate, no matter how big or small the amount, I cannot thank you enough. YOU ARE WHY I DRAW.
LINK TO DONATE IS HERE: https://www.youcaring.com/badcoyote-1041204
Hospitalization, Round 2
Posted 8 years agoAs those who follow my Twitter already know, I had to deal with an unpleasant hospital visit over the last two weeks, due once again to my T1 diabetes. I'll spare the grisly details, but the short version is that my extremities, particularly my feet, are becoming dried out and actually cracking. My feet cracked badly enough that they were bleeding and I couldn't walk, so I went in for treatment. As bad as this sounds, I was one of the fortunate ones--people can and do lose toes or even whole limbs to these symptoms and I am grateful to have caught it in time.
Sadly, the doctors are limited in what they can do--while they have given me some medicines to help with the dry-out and will be checking in on my kidney functions, I don't have the kind of insurance which would provide for a pump or advanced home glucose monitoring system, and my finances limit how well I can tailor my diet. Not complaining, as I am doing better than many diabetics. Just offering an explanation so that folks will understand that this isn't something I can hand waive away.
Sometimes, diabetes makes me tired. So much so that sometimes whole weeks go by where I can't accomplish any work, because thinking feels like trying to start a lawnmower filled with molasses instead of gas. Other times it makes me grouchy and withdrawn from the pain that comes with nerve endings flaring up and dying off, so I don't always want to talk or converse, and I have an increasingly hard time doing it without Lobo's help. Some days are totally fine, and I feel like I have a good handle on it. And other days, my feet and legs swell up so badly I can't move, or, as happened last week, they outright crack and bleed.
Despite this, I'm not offering excuses for the work I had promised not being finished. Although the reasons I couldn't hit my targeted completion date should be evident here, I am offering a full refund to those commissioners waiting over 3 months whose work has not been started, or a partial refund to those whose work is in progress (note me, otherwise I will continue work on your pic!). Again, I simply want everyone to understand that the lack of progress or communication on my part is never intentional, and that I will continue to work diligently towards finishing your commissions and upholding your trust, even if that means taking a harsh financial hit over the short term.
To that end, I will be taking NO further commissions and hosting NO formal streams until the last of my current queue is complete, after which time I will be resuming my short hiatus from fandom work to tend to my personal and medical needs. I will re-announce when commissions reopen, and I appreciate your patience, support, and kindness in these difficult times.
Sadly, the doctors are limited in what they can do--while they have given me some medicines to help with the dry-out and will be checking in on my kidney functions, I don't have the kind of insurance which would provide for a pump or advanced home glucose monitoring system, and my finances limit how well I can tailor my diet. Not complaining, as I am doing better than many diabetics. Just offering an explanation so that folks will understand that this isn't something I can hand waive away.
Sometimes, diabetes makes me tired. So much so that sometimes whole weeks go by where I can't accomplish any work, because thinking feels like trying to start a lawnmower filled with molasses instead of gas. Other times it makes me grouchy and withdrawn from the pain that comes with nerve endings flaring up and dying off, so I don't always want to talk or converse, and I have an increasingly hard time doing it without Lobo's help. Some days are totally fine, and I feel like I have a good handle on it. And other days, my feet and legs swell up so badly I can't move, or, as happened last week, they outright crack and bleed.
Despite this, I'm not offering excuses for the work I had promised not being finished. Although the reasons I couldn't hit my targeted completion date should be evident here, I am offering a full refund to those commissioners waiting over 3 months whose work has not been started, or a partial refund to those whose work is in progress (note me, otherwise I will continue work on your pic!). Again, I simply want everyone to understand that the lack of progress or communication on my part is never intentional, and that I will continue to work diligently towards finishing your commissions and upholding your trust, even if that means taking a harsh financial hit over the short term.
To that end, I will be taking NO further commissions and hosting NO formal streams until the last of my current queue is complete, after which time I will be resuming my short hiatus from fandom work to tend to my personal and medical needs. I will re-announce when commissions reopen, and I appreciate your patience, support, and kindness in these difficult times.
HALLOWEEN SCREAM STREAM: What Themes May Come
Posted 8 years ago(First up, I'd like to announce that all of last year's Halloween pics are finished or verrrry close to it, and I will be releasing them each throughout the month of October leading up to this year's stream event. I will not take as long on the second go-around--and I appreciate everyone being understanding of all the pretty craptastic RL stuff that happened to delay things this past year. You guys are the best, and that's why I put so much work into these pics and ideas! So, without further adieu....)
THE FOLLOWING ARE THE SELECTED THEMES FOR THIS YEAR'S STREAM. VOTE IN THE COMMENTS BELOW!
Bloodborne/Dark Souls Theme
Shadowlands. Purgatory. Underworld. The Upside Down. The Umbra. The Mists. A dark mirror world with a thousand names and a thousand faces, this haunted realm is a mystical landscape of fevered dreams and savage nightmares. Only the mad would DARE enter its writhing depths. Within lurk twisted demons borne of man's inner darkness, who stalk the bloodied moors and crumbling castles to slake their unholy lust and feast on the flesh of wayward souls. Escape from these hunters is impossible. Survival is unlikely. But perhaps salvation lies in embracing your inner monster, and walking the path of the damned together...
(Grimdark/gore rating: 5/5)
Modern Horror Movies Theme
Tinseltown. Hollwood. The grand stories it writes on the big screen are as timeless as they are terrifying. But their glimmering facade hides a sinister secret. For there is a town where their darkest stories come from. A place of mischevious mayhem and sexual scares where the horror tropes aren't just viewed, they're lived! They've got killer deals on the local motel, a school where the cheerleaders only come out at night, puzzle boxes for all ages, stylish crop circles, a rustic farmhouse, forests filled with unique "wild"life, and even a camp down by the (definitely not shark invested) waterfront! So stop on by--we know you're DYING to visit...
(Grimdark/Gore rating: 3/5)
Attack of the Costumes Theme
Trick or treat. Lick my meat. Give me something good to eat! We all love the tradition of Trick or Treat--the candy, the costumes, the pranks and pals. But something is different this Halloween. There's a funny taste to this candy, and the shadows keep swirling in the corner of your eye. Something's strange about these costumes, too--something clingy. Itchy. Almost like a second skin. The other furs on the street have really nice costumes though--that zombie guy is so detailed, so realistic....HEY! Why'd you bite me? Man that HURTS! And why do these mummy bandages suddenly feel so tight? It's like the costumes are coming to life....
(Grimdark/gore rating: 1/5)
THE FOLLOWING ARE THE SELECTED THEMES FOR THIS YEAR'S STREAM. VOTE IN THE COMMENTS BELOW!
Bloodborne/Dark Souls Theme
Shadowlands. Purgatory. Underworld. The Upside Down. The Umbra. The Mists. A dark mirror world with a thousand names and a thousand faces, this haunted realm is a mystical landscape of fevered dreams and savage nightmares. Only the mad would DARE enter its writhing depths. Within lurk twisted demons borne of man's inner darkness, who stalk the bloodied moors and crumbling castles to slake their unholy lust and feast on the flesh of wayward souls. Escape from these hunters is impossible. Survival is unlikely. But perhaps salvation lies in embracing your inner monster, and walking the path of the damned together...
(Grimdark/gore rating: 5/5)
Modern Horror Movies Theme
Tinseltown. Hollwood. The grand stories it writes on the big screen are as timeless as they are terrifying. But their glimmering facade hides a sinister secret. For there is a town where their darkest stories come from. A place of mischevious mayhem and sexual scares where the horror tropes aren't just viewed, they're lived! They've got killer deals on the local motel, a school where the cheerleaders only come out at night, puzzle boxes for all ages, stylish crop circles, a rustic farmhouse, forests filled with unique "wild"life, and even a camp down by the (definitely not shark invested) waterfront! So stop on by--we know you're DYING to visit...
(Grimdark/Gore rating: 3/5)
Attack of the Costumes Theme
Trick or treat. Lick my meat. Give me something good to eat! We all love the tradition of Trick or Treat--the candy, the costumes, the pranks and pals. But something is different this Halloween. There's a funny taste to this candy, and the shadows keep swirling in the corner of your eye. Something's strange about these costumes, too--something clingy. Itchy. Almost like a second skin. The other furs on the street have really nice costumes though--that zombie guy is so detailed, so realistic....HEY! Why'd you bite me? Man that HURTS! And why do these mummy bandages suddenly feel so tight? It's like the costumes are coming to life....
(Grimdark/gore rating: 1/5)
Stream and Slots Starting at NOON PACIFIC Today!
Posted 8 years agoHad a slight delay. Starting very soon though! See you all there
MY CAR EXPLODED
Posted 8 years agoFor those wondering where I/the stream went the last two days, look o further than the journal title. My car literally exploded, massive fire, totally BBQed. Nearly killed Lobo, who barely managed to escape in time. I will post details and images shortly, for those who do not yet follow my Twitter.
GAME OF THRONES STREAM RESUMES AT 10 AM Pacific SUNDAY!
Posted 8 years agoLike the title says, part 2 begins at 10am. See you guys there!
Hospitilization
Posted 8 years agoThis is just to let everyone know why I've been so quiet over the last couple days. Had to spend a few days in the hospital because Type 1 Diabetes sucks and my kidneys are...not doing super great. I'm out now and doing alright, and will be taking another day or two of rest before getting back to notes and commissions. Thanks for understanding!