Hello all! I hope everyone's enjoying this great weekend! Especially for Father's Day and Juneteenth this year.

I am especially thankful to to all who took the time to reach out to me in the past week. From comments on FA, to personal messages on Discord, Telegram, and even on Twitter, thank you all who took the time to comfort me in this trying week. If I missed your message I am sorry; know that I appreciate every message I receive. The outpour of support has kept me going through mundane work and days leading up to the funeral for my aunt. It's been a few days since the funeral has completed, yet such support has pushed me further than that day to look ahead.

Before she died, my aunt made mention of what I could do for writing. She knew I could write something big and had faith in me, even when general life hasn't shown that. My own parents too have shown support; especially by my mom's encouragement of writing a book and my dad sharing his old D&D adventures and materials with me. You've all shown that support too. I remember writing something, what took only 30 minutes which to me felt like napkin scribbles unworthy of my friend, making my friend so excited I teared up behind my screen. I remember being late by years for a gift writing I promised; arriving on my knees in forgiveness and handing what - to my perception - written scrap I could hammer together. It is still my friend's most favorite story as he reminds me on a monthly basis. I tremble at the thought of writing commissions; fearing none would like it, or none may buy it, perhaps even if I let someone down. I know it's amusing to imagine an over 10 foot tall, built just as wide, solid golden, titanic dragon trembling like the boogie man's under his bed. But this is what my over-thinking mind has done to me all the time. Thankfully friends remind me they enjoy the writing I do, sometimes to a rapturous applause I feel I'm too undeserving of.

I don't mention this to jerk my ego off. It's quite opposite in fact; to bring up how my inner self has beaten me up when the world around me wants to see what I can do. There's a lot in my life to reflect on; the long days of work where nothing happens, the passing of my aunt and the words she offered, the encouragement of you all, not to mention meditation, a focus on my mental health, and especially what joy writing really brings to me. (An abridged version? A lot!)

To come back to writing for me feels like pulling tarps off sections of an abandoned forge. I can feel the rust in my moments like I've carried 80 more years on my frame than I should have. But to write something - even this journal entry - makes me smile. It rings in my ears like a hammer fall on anvil. To forge worlds, to tell stories, to share visions of giants, growth, silliness, or more serious worldbuilding to come. I've turned away from it out of so many doubts both virtual and real.

I think I want to give it another shot. This time as well? I think it's time I finally attempted commissions. Allowing my writing to pen the stories others have and maybe to make a humble trade at this. I'll be writing some stories at first; some for pleasure and some for testing this out. But if you have patience for me? If you're willing to see what I can do? I'd be humbled beyond measure if you wanna see what I can do. Likewise too if you want to support me still and see where this grows from here.

No amount of writing I can forge can match the generosity and care of you all. No matter what comes, I am forever grateful to have you all in my life. Perhaps it's finally time I left some relics of that appreciation in more than just journal entries. Thank you as well for taking the time to read this journal entry - I know it's rambling and meandering. I hope you all have a great weekend and weeks ahead! I'll keep all in updates as I experiment with this. Perhaps this is what I've always been meant to do. I smile at the thought and look forward to it.

I hope this finds you well, and that you’re doing ok through the year. My last entry was all the way back on Christmas, and I’m sure people have wondered where I’ve been. The good news is I’m not going anywhere; I’ve been spending my days researching ADHD, meditation, possible therapy and medication. Likewise, I’ve spent my days contemplating what I’m going to do in this community, what I can write, how I want to write it.

I wish my main reason for writing this entry was far happier than it is. To my friends here, on Discord, on Telegram, and more, I will be away for a time. I learned this morning that an Aunt in my family passed away. There will be viewings and a funeral for her. While she wasn’t always in my life, it hits close to me as it’s the first death in my family with someone I’ve grown up with – like at holiday gatherings or for morning breakfasts out at a restaurant with other family.

From June 12th to June 18th, I’ll refrain from all D&D games, all RP’s, anything Twitter, interaction on FA, and will most likely remain inactive on chats like Discord or Telegram. You may still contact me if you wish; I won’t fully recluse during this time of mourning. Please understand I may be late to reply or choose not to during this time; I would rather grieve or find ways to relax. I am not wailing or completely decimated by her loss – rather I believe I owe her this time out of respect for her and what she’s meant to myself and my family.

Ill write again in some weeks I promise, rather than months like before. I appreciate you all at this time; especially those who have taken the time to interact with my inactive FA or the time to say hi to me. I was never good at timely replies, and I’m especially grateful for the support you’ve all given before and now.

When I return I’ll add more. I’ll showcase more. I’ll be there more. But for now I’ll be inactive for this time. I appreciate you all and thank you for your understanding at this time.

Dear you,

Seasons greetings! It's been a while since I last checked in at all. But as the dust settles across the Walmarts I work at, the Christmas retail frenzy of 2021 is now complete. Eggnog is stocked by the pallet, paws now rest on an ottoman, and multiple blankets now cloak me like actual dragon wings.

On this end I've done a lot since the last entry! For example, an art contest of a lioness hosted by Ritualist has filled the void between sleep and work. I've collected ~24 pages of notes about the lioness, the culture, and especially important to me story ideas. Outside of that, I'm exploring my mental health by better understanding my ADHD. I've come to the realization therapy and possibly medication will help a lot. So life is going well!

But this is about you, dear you. You who matter so much to me that I debated writing you a unique, grateful Christmas message. Each and every one of you would have gotten this. But there's just so many of you who have made a positive difference in my life, that to do this I would have to have started since last Christmas - assuming no days off even!

So as an open letter to all,
To those especially who helped me heal when I was at my worst,
To those who were there for me even at the earliest hours of the morning,
To those who's friendship spans years,
To those who's new acquaintance filled me with joy,
To those who helped me grow as a writer,
To those who made my actual job so much better just by talking with me,
To those especially who I've cherished magical nights together with,
And finally, to those like you who read this - for if I've shared a link to this journal directly to you then you especially either are or have left a beautiful gift in my life.

Thank you.

I am grateful to know each one of you. There's so many to talk to, and I am terrible at keeping up with messages. So to you and to you all, I say this. My front porch light is always on, the door always unlocked, and if you ever need me you can contact me anytime. It could be days, months, years, I won't mind. I'll still treat you the way we were the second you left, as if no time has passed. If I can't reply or if I miss you, forgive me I'm still trying my best. But know I'll always be there for you because you matter more to me than all the dragon hoards, macro growth contraptions, and stories I could ever hope to come across.

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and a beautiful New Year to you all! Here's to another year - for I know I can face anything with gifts like you in my life.

Balans

Hello everyone! It's the spooky month! It's a time for inktober and inktober-related themes as well! But for me it's been a time of reflection, to turn a leaf if you'll forgive me for making puns about the fall.

I realized on Monday this week, through a horrible time, that I should come clean of something. On Monday, for lack of a better term, I think I suffered a stress attack or a stress burnout. Imagine trying to relax with a laptop, but inside of you there is an urge to do everything in one second. It's like a car engine on lowest gear, with maximum RPM's but you barely move anywhere. I could only feel guilt over unfinished projects, or fear for my future, or regret over not doing something right. I couldn't figure out how to solve it. Like I'm stuck on a highway in a car and can't move forwards but I must. The stress became so much that I felt myself becoming more impatient even with my relaxation. Eating more food faster, clicking through YouTube videos to see the end, picking up and dropping my phone for text messages every second sooner than before.

Thankfully there were friends online that night. I spoke with them like a DIY therapy session. I admitted to them, as I do to you dear reader, one of my biggest problems in the fandom. When people make beautiful art or show off incredible fursonas, I become euphoric. I imagine so many ideas, worlds, and stories for them that I must give them that. So I promise to them that I will write them something someday. Well, a few chat rooms later in the same day I might promise 10+ stories. Over the week, I learn the hard way that my overthinking self (remember the previous journal entries?) makes each story more complex. Each day I fail to write only reinforces a negative feedback loop; I feel terrible going into the next day, so my guilt keeps me from writing. The next day, even more guilt over the past dissuades me to even consider writing; only to feel even more pain the next day.

So I need a reset button, starting here. If I promised you anything in the past for no pay; a story, a gift art, something, anything, then I can't fulfill that. I'm dropping every one of these promises to help my mental state. I think if I hit the reset button, I can focus on what I want to write and to be a better person. As a writer, to become an expert and a professional. As a friend, to be there for more than just RP or stories. As someone of the fandom, to be a better fan while contributing to this fandom. But in my own way. This isn't to say I won't ever do those promises either! There may come a time I can fulfill them! Perhaps even do all of them!

But for now I need to work on my writing. Well, that and my life and life goals as well. Which is why I mention inktober. Now I won't be doing inktober, but I might try a variation on it. I won't promise I will have every day done; I want to see what I can accomplish with this reset button pressed. But if it all goes well? I might just share it here if people want to see it! I think it might be nice. A writing prompt per day to sharpen my skills, and a way to turn that new leaf.

So to that end, I hope the world is doing well! Thank you all so much for your understanding, heartfelt comments, and the time you spend with me. I will never deserve friends and loved ones like the ones I have in you. But I hope, with a new leaf, to slowly be as worthy to you as you are to me.

It started with a different turn than normal from work. I went straight instead of left to go home. Moments later I pull up to a building I should have visited ages ago, yet never bothered to until a month ago; my local library. I open the doors and open my eyes. A month later here I am. A heater by my legs, slippers on my feet, and the swing of a Traverse Town jazz remix in the air. There's a golden glow like college long ago from a shelf lamp behind me. Stars that gleam back to me like Traverse Town itself, peering down from heavenwards through my basement window. Who knew one book would take me from my library to this. My own Traverse Town retreat, where I can finally continue writing.

The book? The Modern Library Writer's Workshop by Stephen Koch. Quite honestly, there is no book on writing I have found or known better suited to help a writer. It is as essential to a writer as The Elements of Style by William Strunk Jr. and E.B. White is to the copy line editor. It's from this borrowed book, that I learned to keep a notebook of all my ideas as I work. Or how I need only a place to write, and to just begin, to make stories come to life. Perhaps the best thing of all that I learned is what a Vignette is, and how I can write daily every day now. Well, as much as life allows haha!

So what's a Vignette? Google will tell you it's "a brief evocative description, account, or episode." That's close to what it is! But the way I am learning about it is the old saying "A picture is worth a thousand words." In the book, it suggests writing about 1,000 words a day if that's your range (don't worry it's actually not that scary when you do it). So if an image is worth 1,000 words, and a vignette is an image of an account, then a vignette could be 1,000 words to describe some setting or idea. Thus, writing a vignette per day caught on pretty well!

I have written three of them thus far. I have plans to make another five more at least. Before long, they'll be one per day if I can help it. As many as can fit a normal schedule. My question for you all; would you like to see what I make? Typically this kind of writing is not refined. There will be typos, grammatical mistakes, missed opportunities for bad puns, and more. They would also be what I call N.C.P.P. - Non canon, pura passio, which is just me being unnecessarily fancy for "Non-canon". So if Balans appears in them and does a thing, it wouldn't be canon to what he actually does for example. But it could still make for good reading!

I'd love to hear what you all think. For now, I am just excited to be back into writing again. Even if it's not like Underwater Halfdan-ce, a short story. I am working on more of those I promise. For now, it's just good to find my own Traverse Town to write in. I have my flame, I have my writing, I have my reflections. I think it's time to write again.

But after sleep. It's 12:30 am as I write this haha! Goodnight all, and see you again soon!

Last journal entry, I discussed a target audience. I still am learning about myself, including posting and expressing more of myself. I have a target audience now. But for years I needed my “why”. What is my motivation for writing these stories or for commissioning artworks? I described this as my fire, or what keeps burning and keeps me warm when all else fails. I lost that when I burnt out in college, and stepped away for three years (since the journal entry called “Looking Ahead, Looking Behind”). I think I found it again, and it’s not like before.

Before, I thought I could recreate the love and memory of a talented artist I knew. DNAPalmHead is a legend in the muscle macro subgroup of the furry world. I adored his growth stories, mixed with humor blended in wholesomeness and Looney Tunes style wit. It wasn’t about how many X’s one could write to a XXX Story, or the unhinged lust abounding around muscle, macro, and size play. It was just fun! Silliness, fun times, corny jokes, and humor infused into a kink-turned-obsession with me.

When he left around 2018, the world light felt like it died. Felt like is the key phrase. When I started this account, I thought I could be the literature extraordinaire who instills DNA style for print instead of digital painting. I wanted to be that next DNA, known for wholesome macro and muscle fun, just like he was. I didn’t see a subculture I loved lasting without that light in it, and I wanted to keep it alive.

Life is funny. Around 2018 was also when I found Discord, Telegram, and other chat rooms. I’ve been told I am gifted in writing RP’s among close friends, and soon that became my dominant form of writing. The FA account became a favorite-artwork-only spot over time, as college life and online life shoved it away.

When I came back earlier this year, I thought I knew what I wanted. But now I am not so sure. I didn’t have my voice in writing; there was no idea on who to write for, and I’ve been writing RP-style for so long that story-style writing rusted shut. I thought I wanted to be the next DNA, but there’s only one DNA. Only he could do what he did. When he started there was no legacy. So why was I adding that? He was just being himself. I think the final nail to my first fire’s coffin was in seeing the fanbase DNA still has today. They’re incredible; sharing his free artworks, discussing what he was like, you know, keeping the light of wholesome fun alive in his place. I adored it, but if all my reasons to write are mute, then why would I write?

I needed a concrete reply. Throw away all the words of uncertainty. No buts, and’s, uh’s, you name it. I needed a new fire, so what was my fire? What really motivates me to write stories, create RP’s, commission artworks, and interact with this subgroup? It took weeks, but I think I have an answer:

I create for my past self to show a giant world he could never explore before.

The original love for huge and strong started with a google search gone wrong. I found DNA artworks right from the start. I remember the awe I had with an innocent, impressionable mind. There was a magic to it; as if the force of tectonic plates came in anthropomorphized form. The movement of suns was as basic to this plethora of innovative titans as moving billiard balls are to us. Let alone their physiques - be they of muscle, fat, or more - defying limitations, eclipsing those we humans call bodybuilders. They appear as nothing more than egocentric ants a millimeter larger than their kind in the colossuses gaze.

Then there’s this gentleness to it. Inevitably there is the macro who’d happily stomp a building to powder; but there were the ones acting like support beams to prevent their collapse. Giants who carried sinking ships like toy boats from a bathtub to drydock. Derailed trains are model toy trains to be picked up and casually placed back on tracks. No matter how vast, a bear hug was always there for those they loved.

I want to share that same magic. If someone unaware of macros arrived here, I want them to see this giant world they’d never know before. They might think me insane, or they might love it, or both. That is why I’ll write and create. That is my new fire. I think it’ll burn lovely compared to its old one.

I hope you’re all doing ok out there. I appreciate you all staying and reading my rambles, too. Comment questions and concerns: To see them all is great and I appreciate them! I hope you can find your fire too, and as always I’ll see you in the next entry.

I'm learning more about myself in the two months since my last entry.

To start, thank you to all of you out there. Those who have checked on me, given me a favorite on my first story in ages, expressed a desire to commission me, or who were just there for me, you're all valued. I'm terrible at consistent replies, so I hope you all can forgive me for being quiet.

For while I was quiet, I was learning more about myself. As I posted "Renew" (the previous journal entry), I had plans. I wanted to write a story a month, dabble in a whole bunch of new stuff, write endless gift stories for my dozens of friends, possibly even open shop with commissions. I began to think. I started to overthink again. Would people like this? How many words per hour can I type? What should I charge? What legacy am I going to leave behind? What is my target audience?

My overthinking shut me down again. It's been a few weeks since I've last made progress on Project BiG - the next story for FA and my first crack at a macro story. I needed to reboot again, and in my absence I realized my target audience.

What's a target audience? It's a terminology in communications and public relations; it's the intended audience or readership of a publication, advertisment, or readership catered specifically to that audience. You know like: You make a macro story, because your target audience are presumably fans of macro-related content.

Only that's not my target audience. It's taking me a long time to realize this, but what is your target audience really? We're in the furry fandom, a world of self-expression and an explosion of colors so vibrant it makes the pride flag look like a black-and-white cartoon. In this world of self-expression, who is really my target audience? What is your target audience?

Me. You. The one making the thing. That is our target audience.

I've grown up around giants - both physically and influentially. I've always seen it as a legacy, like what DNApalmhead left us in the muscle/macro community. I wanted to spread the same joy as he did, have the same affect on the community as he did. But there was a time when he was just starting out as much as I. And he didn't loose sight of himself - he just made what he liked. He did what made him happy, and everything else formed around that. Friends, commissions, a legacy that we still talk about after he's been away for years.

So who is my real target audience? Me. I post this because I think there's others out there who feel overwhelmed or worry their works won't be loved. To that I say; You are your target audience first. Are you happy? If so, then you succeeded! And your friends, followers, projects, whatever you wish to do, will flow from you being honest to you - not target audience this and business model that.

I'm going to continue work on Project BiG. Then after that? I'm going to find my balance of what I want to be. I want to make myself happy - making stories I adore and I hope you all do too. I'll still do the occasional gift art too; they won't stop coming haha! But I hope to never forget that I need to care for myself too, and write what I want to write. To not be afraid of what the world will think about it (within reason of course), and to just go for it.

I am my target audience. And right now the audience craves more and I am happy to provide. I hope my ramble helps someone out there; you are your target audience - you are the legacy - so go for it!

I hope this journal entry finds you well. I wish you all a great day, week, and time-zone related partings (good morning, afternoon, evening). Most importantly, I wish you happiness and fun as you make wonders for your target audience too.

I love you all! Take care, and until next time.

Hello everyone! I hope everyone's doing ok as always!

In theme to the previous "Anew", I'm keeping this one short. I've needed to find myself again. This time, I can say I'm getting back into writing! But for real this time; I'm actually writing the first muscle growth story in years for me. It feels great! I'm not sure when it'll be done, but it feels great!

In truth, it's been a long time coming. I've been writing RP's since 2019 and haven't written anything outside of that. In that time I have doubted myself. I was wondering what I was missing. Was there something wrong with me doing all those RPs?

Well, "no but actually yes" is what I've eventually come to. I started writing RP's to learn how to better show muscles, masculinity, and macro or size-related fun in written form. But when I started that and kept to it, that was all I was writing. I never realized I missed my humor, comedy, and just giving all those things a humorous angle. All I was writing was a kink-related indulgence for myself and the RP partner. Compounding this was my insistence on overthinking everything. Short stories aren't possible after all without well, thought out characters. Plus they need worldbuilding for their town. Then for the planet, while you're at it. What about how they grow and change? Does it make sense? Or the plot, what's the plot?

I'm just telling myself to forget all that. I was overthinking myself into thinking I couldn't write. I was RP kink-writing myself away from my wholesome self - what inspired me to write for the fandom - into ever more lustful stuff. Those two things we're keeping me away from writing, and I'm happy to say I'm over them both I think!

I write this in an open, public journal entry so I won't forget it again. Will I still RP and write those things? Probably! But when I do it, I want to do it my way, with the humor and wholesomeness I was inspired by in the fandom from the start. Like with writing again after two years, it feels really good. Really, really good! I know where I want to go again.

I have come back renewed! I have writing ideas anew! And I'm eager to get to it, one writing night at a time.

Hey everyone! It's been a while, hasn't it?

Well, awhile is putting it mildly. Since May 30th, 2018, so much has changed. I graduated from college, yet still, hunt for the job I desire. Part-time work, reminiscing about the past, RP's by the dozens but written works missed by day and by year. A lot has changed.

But not everything has changed! I still want to write and add to the community as I wanted to when I was 18, and again when I was 21. Now at 24, I want to try again. Unlike last time, where I dreamed like a castle in the sky's worth of work all at once, I think I just want to take this slow. A story, a commission or two, little by little getting back into it. I would be honored if you would like to follow me as I write.

I look forward to writing stories for you all. I don't know what the future holds, but I feel good about this. I think it's going to get better here, and more stories will come of it.

For now, the profile will change. The gallery too. But new will be coming! I hope you all enjoy this wild ride with me as I write to you all again.

So. Yeah! It's good to be back! It'll be even greater in the future. I know it.

First off, I want to thank everyone who as contacted me and watched, favored, and followed me on this site. I didn't think that so much could happen in such a short time. The page now has 100 watches, and it nears 2,000 page views. That's incredible, and I'm forever greatful to all who follow me. Your all awesome, you know that?

I feel you're awesome enough to know why I've been away for 18 days, unable to reply to messages, and what the future holds for the site and me. So in this jounral post, I'll let the world look behind to see what's happened to me so far, and ahead to see what's in store. In advance warning, this will be a long post haha.

So why was I away? I went to look ahead.

Those who were here before know that I was working hard in college, and was swamped with work. I'm glad to say that, as of this past 11th, I'm free from college. There's only one more year to go before I'm off into the blue on mad adventures. The semester ended strong, as I didn't earn a single C, only A's and B's, in my courses. After the hard work I faced, I wanted some down time to relax; to accomplish this, I decided to distance myself from the site. It was nothing personal, I just needed time to arrange my summer.

For while summer is here, there is no rest for this industrious dragon. I've been writing blog posts and brainstorming posts for a digital marking company so far while I manage my own blog. I also am working on more stories, and have even had some great RP sessions with this great community. Two weeks into this great summer, and so much has already happened. I couldn't be happier with the progress. Now with summer looking more controlled in my life, I want to return to FA and share new gift art I got, RPs I had, and more.

So with that established, I turned around and looked behind.

I reevaluated my life, and looked for ways I could improve it. I found that most of my writing time is being eaten up by my love of discord and telegram. Don't worry, I have no intentions of leaving them. But I think I'll be establishing 'office hours' for them. In reality, it's 3 hours blocked off for each app over the week where I can meet the community without worrying about missing any of my friends. Anyone's welcome to say hi to me during these times at these places:

Telegram - Weekly on Friday, 9 pm to 12 am EST

Discord - Weekly on Sunday, 9 pm to 12 am EST

With these times blocked off, I can always reach the community and I can pencil in time to write for people. And I have loads of new things in mind! For a start, I'll be posting new gift art that I've received over my 18 days away. I'll also be posting cleaned up RP sessions onto FA so people can see the stories that I write with others. There will be a scheduling system so people can schedule RPs with me over a given week, and we can share a story on a day. It's all exciting stuff and you don't want to miss it.

So with all of that established, it's good to be back on FA. If you want my contact information and if I'm ok with you having it, send me a note and I'll let you know what my discord and telegram is.

Again, thank you to everyone who has stayed with me and even joined me while I was away. I'm glad to be in your company again, and can't wait to share more awesome works. I hope to see you all soon, and I hope everyone has a great day!

It was a brutal week at college. I'll forever remember it as the 'April Showers'. I knew last week was going to hurt, but I didn't expect five projects within a week to flood my life. I'm glad to say I survived. There's only three tests left to take and the junior year of college is complete. I'm finally able to see the May flowers the April showers brought, and I'm estatic.

So what's first on the to-do list this summer? First things first, I want to get a rough draft of "Balans Meets Sean" onto FA! It's been a long time coming, but with the storm of work settling down I now have time to work on it. It's currently in an RP format, so I'll have to reconfigure it into a good writing style. I'm looking forward to how it'll do!

Much like my main FA account here. I can't believe how quickly it's grown, even during the times I have been away. At this time, I know have five things in my gallery and only three of them are final projects. I'm greatful for the support everyone has given me, and I can't wait to show some more works in the future.

With summer coming up, I have a plan for how FA will go. I want to complete one story every week, for at least four weeks. With a growing audience, I want to treat them right to all sorts of stories for them to enjoy. Ill try to space them out so there's one for a different genre of FA stories, if possible. I'm looking forward to the stories, and I hope everyone else does too!

Who knows? I might even get commissions set up once I got a portfolio on the site. Should be a good time! Oh also, while it's on my mind I wanted to ask everyone what they thought about me posting RP sessions onto FA. Those who know my discord and telegram know that I RP a lot, and I've had a debate in my mind about posting them or not. Let me know in the comments if you want to see me post my RP sessions.

Right that should cover everything for this update! I'm looking forward to this summer, and I can't wait to see what stories I create for people. I'll see you all on the next journal update!

I hope everyone's having a great day! It's been a week since I've posted a journal. It's about time I fixed that with some Dragon of Balance insight!

I've been trying to weave together two of my favorite things to do: Roleplays and writing. I've seen them as separate things for the longest time, and I felt like I was burning too much time on RP's. But now I think I figured it out, and I'd love to see where this goes!

So here's what I'm thinking: What if I transformed my RP's (with the other person's permission of course) into a story? I've written dozens of growth stories, but they're all in RP form. So I think I want to take that and transform it into a written story. I even have a series planned out: "Balans Meets _____", in which Balans meets your fursona and the interaction is published with you being a co-author. I could also use it for personal, funny stories. For example, a "Balans Meets Libraries", in which he tries to learn what a library is haha. The best part is that your profile will get linked, so people learn more about you and me. It also makes it harder for theives to steal our characters, as the co-authors can back each other up while the theif is left alone. Let me know what you think. I'd love the feedback and maybe Ill even have some first RP guests who'd like to try it out!

That brings me to RP's that I've already gotten done! I've already done a "Balans Meets _____" as a pilot story with a friend on telegram. I'm really excited for this one, as this is the first time his character is being introduced! I think people are gonna love him and also its author. In addition, I might have more RP's and stories coming up, including a spur-of-the-moment muscle drain story (for those like me who are into that) that's semi-SFW (like, dicks are exposed but there's no sex scenes in the act). I'll be working on these stories while college piles up with work, and hopefully I can get something out in that time.

For now it's college time. It's two weeks before finals, and I am buried under so much work. Pages on pages of college stuff to write and even some projects. It'll be some time before any serious progress is made, but I'm looking forward to it. I'll also keep people posted as I work.

So that should be it. Roleplays are being turned into artforms, stories are in the works, and college is building pressure but I still stand 50ft tall and proud. ;) If your curious about anything here, want to learn about RP opprotinities with me, or just want to say hi, then leave me a comment down below! I love comments, and I'll answer them as soon as I can!

For now, that should end off this journal entry. I hope everyone has a great day and I'll see you all in the next journal entry!

It's been a week since the last journal entry, and I think it's a good time to talk more about what will be coming up for the site.

I think I've mentioned before that I'm in college. Well, the good and bad news of that is that I'm swamped with work right now. There are loads of projects that need completing and I need to stay on top of those. So as a result, things on this page might be quiet, in terms of writing anyway. I'll try to get some shorter works out the door so people have something to read, but for the most part, it'll be hard for me to get writing done since I'm busy with college.

But that's also assuming that I have something to write about. I've been trying to get in contact with the people from the last journal post and there's been no word on the stuff. Not to blame them though. Afterall they're probably just as busy as the rest of us in college or in life. So this is no means to bash them, in any way. However, I need to think about what I'll be writing next, which is both fun and daunting haha. I think I'll be writing more shorter stories, perhaps even flash fiction, while this semester is close to wrapping up.

If you have any story ideas that you would love to see or even some basic genres of stories like growth, shrink, etc. let me know. I'd be delighted to dabble in the work! Until then, I'll continue to work and keep in touch with everyone in the community. Hope everyone has a great day!

To start this journal off on a grand note: The final copy of Balans's Introduction is complete! It only took me two weeks to get everything sorted with it (college work and life do eat a lot of time). I wish I could have gotten this work out sooner, but I'm happy that I went for quality over quantity with this work. I hope to do something like this story in the future. After all, I think I got this system figured out for future writing.

I don't have any official name for it yet, but for now, let's call it the Creative Assembly System.  xsini and I talked over discord for a while, and he suggested that my way of writing (which you can see from my rough drafts and final copy) is almost like a Henry Ford assembly line. Since this system feels good for writing, I'll probably keep this style of writing for a while:

* Rough Draft stage (Draft 1)
- The initial writing of the story. This is just getting my ideas down onto paper, with a simple motto of "fuck grammar".

* Draft 2 stage
- The writing gets hacked and slashed by any means necessary. Chop off any wordiness. Cut out anything that does not work. In addition, any comments made by reviewers of the first draft should be handled. If people didn't understand something in the writing, this is the time to fix, edit, remove, change that. Finally, any grammar that was incorrect in the first draft is fixed in this draft.

* Draft 3 stage
- With wordiess removed, it's time for the holy crusade against any excessive past tense use. Think of all the "-ed" ending words. Those words, unless needed, are cut from the text. Past tense puts people to sleep, so this is when the past tense is switched to present tense wording. Additional feedback from reviews will guide future changes. If this copy is good to go, then it moves onto a "3.5" stage which is formating for the final copy. Otherwise, repeat draft stages until satisifed with work.

* Final Copy
- Post it. Kick back. Relax. Enjoy the story!

Feel free to comment below if you think of a good name for this system. Really any name is good for this one. I'll look forward to what the suggestions are! In the mean time, while college work is piling up, I got a special story coming up that's gonna come in front of all the other stories I mentioned before. For this story will be my first muscle growth story on FA!

Have you met  otterplop (AKA Lexi) yet? She's an amazing otter and loves a good story as much as I love to write them up! We've been talking for a while on discord and over FA notes, and we think a nice, short story is in the works for our characters Balans and Lexi. As things stand right now, it's looking to be a SFW growth story with a simple plot and story. Something short, sweet, fun, and delightful! I'm looking forward to this otter-tunity (not sorry for the puns haha) and I'd love to make my first growth story about her character Lexi. If you want to learn more, go check out her work! It's really awesome!

Hey everyone! I'm totally amazed by the growth of the FA account. Did someone slip it a macro growth potion or something?

When I first started, it took me 16 days to hit 200 views and 100 comments. Four days later, that's now doubled. My profile page has doubled in numbers, with only a 1/4th of the time. I'm so greatful for these numbers, and even happier to say that the views and comments arnt the only things that's doubled!

The number of stories have doubled too! Well, "stories". I finally got the 2nd draft of Balans's adventures completed! I'm looking forward to more stories for FA, assuming this first one is almost done.Theres so much more in the works...

So much so, that to end this journal entry off I'm going to list all the ideas that I have planned and the order that I want to get to them in. Look over the list and let me know what you think!

1. The First Annual Kled Bodybuilding Contest
*Balans competes in his first contest
2. The Biggest Railfan
*A town discovers railway tracks are slowly reaching to them, and no one knows who or what is building this railway.
3. Mobile Moving
*A macro had an unexpected way of leading a community around the world.

This list is in no way exhaustive and there can be more stories, better stories, and sometimes some ideas might not make the cut. Really depends on what I can make and what everyone else wants.

So for now, let me know what stories you'd want to see! Thanks for reading to the end and I'll see you next time!

Hey everyone! How's it been? Hopefully, life has been as good, if not better, than it's been for me.

Within the first 16 days of joining the site, I've been amazed by the communities support for me joining. I've done my best to reflect that and help others via comments. That comments counter just keeps growing as I comment, and it makes me smile when I see it. To me, that's (hopefully) someone out there who has a better day because of a supportive comment. That and, hopefully, it gives back to the community that's welcomed me in.

A community that appears to be flowing right through my page, to be precise! I never expected to get 100 page views in this time, and I passed that mark in a week. 16 days since joining the community and the page has 200 page views while my small gallery has had favorites and views far outpacing what I thought it would be. For that, I'm forever grateful. There are so many awesome people in this community, and I hope that my content is cheering people up.

Which brings me to the content that I'm working on. Right now I'm still working on the 2nd draft of "Balans Introduction", which is currently getting an editors glance to check for grammatical errors. Unfortunately, my college work is piling high within the 10th week of the spring semester. Soon there will be finals, and long papers, and (hopefully not) long nights well into the morning just to keep up. As a result, I'm not sure of when the story will be completely finished. I'll still work on it as I have the time, and I'll probably work on even more stories too!

There are story ideas that I've been thinking about for a while, and I think I can shed some hints on them in this journal entry (as compensation for reading with me for this long haha). So after the introduction story is completely finished, I first want to type up an exchange / RP that my friends had on Discord. I want to really polish it up and make it into a real story for everyone to enjoy, in honor of those who made it with me. For anyone who is a fan of bodybuilding contests, or of bulky furs showing off, I think you'll be a fan of this upcoming story!

Of course, that's not the only thing in the works. Farther down the (rail) line I got an idea for my first macro story. I'm wondering how to give Balans a caring story, much like himself. I don't imagine it would be too long. Perhaps a few short installments to write up and share. I'm excited to brainstorm this story for everyone, as I think it'll be fun! It'll be SFW, polished up with editing, and yes I'll even share the rough draft copies as they come out. It should be a good time!

Sadly, these good times will have to wait, for this journal post comes to an end. If you have any comments or questions about anything mentioned, do let me know! I'd be delighted to answer any feedback. Thank you all for reading through his journal entry, and I hope to see you all soon!

Hello fluffy, scaly, and basically the awesome side of the internet!

My paws remain frozen over the keys of my keyboard as I write. There are so many words I wish to write about myself and how I have begun as a person. I guess I'll open with the jaw-dropper about myself. FurAffinity will say that I've first joined today. It's not a wrong assessment, but it's not entirely true either. Today marks day zero of me being an offical member of this great community. But unoffically this is the 7th anniversary since I've discovered FurAffinity and the whole furry world.

I first found FA when I was just 14 years old, all by a happy mistake (as often happens in my life). I won't dive too much into the story for now, but my basic rationale was I wanted to wait until I was ready to give the community amazing stuff. I waited until a month or so after my 21st birthday, and picked my spring break from college as a good time as any for joining the community.

Which brings me to college and more about myself! As I write this, I'm currently a junior in college (2nd semester) and I'm studying for a Communications major with minors in Public Relations and Professional Writing. This professional writing aspect of my life you will all see in action soon enough. For I love to write.

I've had enough writing experience that it deserves its own paragraph. I started with two fanfics at 14 years old. Humanity will be relieved to know that I've properly burned, beaten, and buried said fanfics and have redeemed myself from my sins. (No offense to those who write fanfics of course!) I completed my first RP sessions when I was 15 years old. By 16 I wrote loads of short stories for DeviantArt, which carried over to my high school graduation. Currently, in my college, I'm taking to heart the lessons I learn from my Copy and Line Editing class, as well as my Writing for the Workplace and Writing for Social Media classes. I've even done blogging, as I've hosted two smaller blogs before settling on my current blog. Now I write short posts for the blog, short stories for all to enjoy, RP's with those who I feel comfortable with, and so much more. If you're wondering what this FurAffinity's profile has in store, it's stories and writing. Endless stories for all!

What will those stories be about? Well for the FurAffinity community, the stories will sometimes concern nice, cute stories (for lack of a better term), and other times they'll consist of what I love. The short list of what I love? Macro, Muscle, Growth, Size swap, Size transfer, Size thief, and maybe even some more... hot stories in the future. I apologize now to those who hope for these stories, but I do not have intentions to ever write gore or vore related content. Nothing personal, just not exactly my thing.

I'm sure I'll have much more to write, and I look forward to sharing my writing with you all. I'm extremely friendly and open, so feel free to add me or message me. I'm even on discord if you want to say hello! You can find me on Discord with my username: The TWP Dragon#5645. Alternatively, I'm also a member of two awesome fur communities on Discord: Tower Inferno and Skull Island. (I know, lovely names and yes they do make great vacation spots for macros like myself and micros!) The links to the discord servers are linked below.

So yeah! That's about it! I'm ecstatic about finally becoming a member of FA, and I look forward to creating loads of stories, and some of them so big that they might just be bigger than the macros they honor haha. Send me a message or contact me through discord. I'd love to hear from you all!

I hope everyone has a great day! Even my future self as he reads this now. (P.S. Future Self, don't worry about you're future. It worked out well for you now, didn't it?)

Discord Servers:

Skull Island: https://discord.me/page/theskullisland

Tower Inferno: https://discord.gg/hFwPxCu