When I first saw the term "pansexuality", I wasn't one of those people that thought it was romantic/sexual attraction to frying pans. When I first saw the term on Wikipedia, I was confused and a little offended. The definition of pansexuality "is sexual attraction, sexual desire, romantic love, or emotional attraction toward persons of all gender identities and all biological sexes." http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pansexuality Now, I'm not saying that pansexuals or pansexuality doesn't exist, but I don't think that they should make a seperate orientation on somthing like that. I have researched pansexuality and even reread the Wikipedia article and realized that pansexuality is actually "less picky bisexuality" when you really look at it. Some of these pansexuals act like they are "speshful shuperior snowflakes" and like they are the only ones that like people on personality and not by their looks or what's in their pants. I know there are transsexuals that are offended by pansexuality because pansexuals treat them like they're some third gender or something when they're THE SAME GENDER THEY ARE TRANSITIONING INTO. Note that I'm a queer/bisexual that would date pretty much anyone: males, females, androgynes, cross-dressers, drag queens, drag kings, genderqueer people, transgender people, anyone except transsexuals and intersexuals or hermaphrodites (no offense against those people), but that doesn't mean that I'm not open-minded or anything. Call me a bigot, but I'm kinda skeptic over something that's not an actual dictionary term (Wiki doesn't count) and the demographic of these people are 16-year old scene poser girls with dyed hair and go to Hot Topic. Until pansexuality is proven with professional scientific evidence and becomes a term in dictionaries, I won't believe it. I don't see how you can get hard or wet over the fact that your BF idendifies as a girl, or vice versa. Just because I don't label myself as pansexual does not mean I'm lustful or only in it for the person's genitals. I am attracted to a person's physical appearance as well as their personality, just like anyone that is straight, gay, bi, or asexual, the four actual orientations. That's my take on it.


BTW, Happy Year of the Snake, you guys, and I will try to make some more writing updates soon. Sorry I deleted all of them. I have writer's block at the moment. I was thinking of uploading my memoir I did for English. Peace out!

Sorry I'm a little late, but I'm here to talk about the suicide of quote-on-quote "cyberbully victim", Amanda Todd that happened a little over a week ago. And I put that in quotes because the word "cyberbullying" is so complex and can mean different things to a lot of people. And, sometimes, it can be overused. An example: a person criticizing someone else over the net, and thinking they're harassing them. Well, in this case, "angel" Amanda Todd, was a 15-year old girl that did video chats to people online. On one occasion, a stranger threatened her into flashing her chest to him, or otherwise show the picture to her friends. Without doing the more logical choice of reporting it, she flashed to him, and so, within a year, the photo was circulated around the Internet. As a result, she suffered extreme bullying school so severe, that she had to move to another school. When the guy came back to her, he had the picture of her boobs as the profile picture. With that, she had to move again. In that school, she met a guy who thought liked her, and had sex with her. The following week, she had been punched by several girls, while others watched and filmed it. Over the next year or so, she made attempts to kill herself by drinking bleach, self mutilitation, and OD'ing on antidepressants.

Verdict and opinion: Now, I won't say that she deserved to die or deserved to be humiliated like that, but why is she so special? While the media and public are going up in arms about this, there are more people comitting suicide by much worse causes every day. Do people give two turds? Of course not. While people are starving in third-world countries, and we find ourselves losing the polar ice caps and the Rainforest by the day, we are crying over an upper-middle class girl who partially had it coming to her. And in the midst of this hype, Anonymous has allegedly found the "wrong guy" who threatened Amanda Todd. While many of the commenters on her Youtube video and Facebook page are saying stuff like, "Why did they bully her? She's so beautiful", how many of those people would sit to the lonely kid at lunch? Or not say words like "faggot", or "weirdo" in school? I bet when the hype is over, people would forget about her like Kony and Trayvon Martin earlier this year and return to being the usual monsters that they are. So, here's my two cents on the subject. And, also, she's not that innocent as the news and the mainstream make her out to be. It has been known that she had flashed multiple times before, slept with a guy who she already knew he had another girlfriend, and has flipped the bird in one picture. She's so amazing, isn't she? I know people aren't perfect, but come on.

Here is the link to her video if you want to see it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vOHXGNx-E7E

I was looking at these "It Gets Better" PSA's and one of them was from Disney. On the comments page, one commenter said that Merida from Disney/Pixar's "Brave" might be gay. Now, it's not known for sure what her sexuality is. Heck, we don't know most of the time whether if a character is gay, straight, bi, or transgender unless they're with a love interest. But, you know, fandoms like to analyze and theorize stuff. Including me. ^^ There are plenty of animated characters that I think could be LGBTQ. One includes Mulan. I always thought she was bi. Another one is Horton. He was pretty flamboyant. I thought he was bi, too. I know, I'm weird like that. :3 But, hey, that's my opinion. So, are there any characters that you think may be non-heteronormative? Just an interesting topic that I wanted to bring up. But, when the day comes when openly gay animated characters become reality, my dreams would come true and I would be able to die happy. *sigh*

I know I've made this rant a couple of weeks ago, but I came back to tell you more about the dark side of celebrity fandom. Just today, a female (an MJ fan, of course), made a reply to my comment on a video titled, "This Video is Proof That MJ is NOT GAY". Now, I'll remind you that My comment was a response to the uploader of the video talking about how "straight people are oppressed" BS like that to another user who said that it shouldn't matter if MJ was gay or not. And I agree with that person. Some, I won't put MJ fans in a box, but some fans are the most hypocritical, psychologically unstable, religiously zealous, homophobic cult you can ever meet up with.

Now, to my comment. I told the uploader this. "He wasn't saying that it was offensive for a straight person to say they were straight. He just said that people treat gayness like the plague, like this video. I know that you are proving that he's not gay because of how he looked or the allegations, but it screams "HE'S NOT GAY, HE KISSED WOMEN, GAY IS GROSS", when it shouldn't even matter. How much do you want to bet that most of these fans wouldn't be fans if he was gay?"


(Weeks later) Girl's response to my comment: "I would lose respect for him, HONESTLY! I know he wasn't Gay, so that is not a problem!!! And if that wasn't bad enough, she commented to another user this: "You are right, because straight is normal. In the beginning it was Adam and Eve not Adam and Steve, GO READ A BIBLE!!! I am pretty sure Michael knew about all of that, and HE IS NOT GAY!!!"

I looked at her feed, and in one video, she proudly said that she was a Christian against gay marriage and abortion. Sickening. It makes me ashamed to be bisexual, possibly a transman. Not only does she bring the "Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve" BS, but she honestly said that she would lose respect for MJ if he was gay. Yet, they preach that "It's all for L.O.V.E." nonsense down our throats. Yes, they spell love like that. If you were a true fan of ANYONE, you would care less about their race, color, religion, gender, or who they slept with. That's all I have to say about the subject. I'm PO'ed at the moment. If you would like to put your opinion on the subject, write them on the comment box below and see what you think. Thanks! =)

Okay, so, remember the time when I had a crush on MJ and I made a video about him then? Well, I'll admit, I was stupid then, because I didn't know this person. I'm glad that I got out of that obsession, because everything other than MJ then didn't quite interest me, and I was usually depressed.


To be honest, I was never really a fan of MJ's. The only reason that I pretended to be one was because of all the hype after his death, and to not seem like a hater in front of those "fans". You know, the people that were ridiculing him when he was alive, and started praising him when he was dead? *rolls eyes* Now, when you crack one joke about him, or even say you don't like his music, prepare for a flame war. Now, I don't believe the rumors of the guy or even the allegations, but most of the people would believe those same rumors and be calling him a "white female gay child abuser" and stuff like that. Now they want to cry over him when a week before, they were joking about his nose.

The MJ fandom: The fandom has a wide spectrum: people that are not really fans, but respect his music (like me), people that adored his music since the Jackson 5, and the psychotic, over-zealous, obsessed fans. These are the fans that think they are engaged or married to MJ. O_o They also write fantasies of "getting it on" with him. And some of these fantasies almost drove me to the point of puking. I don't care if a celebrity is your hero. I don't even care if you call him/her a mother/father figure. Heck, I even call Dr. Seuss my "second father" because of his wisdom. But to stalk someone that you never even met is creepy.

Granted, I used to be obsessed, but I was only obsessed to fit in, but inside, I didn't feel satisfied. I just wanted to impress everybody else. It's sad that now, people want to buy his songs on iTunes and think his crap don't stink, when a real fan would know better. That's why I stood away from the fandom, because some are just flat-out hypocrites who praise his music and criticize everyone else's, or just loved him now that he's dead, or psychologically unstable, perverted fans. Now, being real and mature with myself, I got out of that so-called "Celebrity Worship Syndrome" and became my own person, and realized I didn't have to join the hype to be happy about my life. Like Patrick Star said, "Hero Worship is unhealthy." Sorry if it sounded like nonsense rambling. I'm just relieved and a little enlightened at the moment.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tVACUjHn6yU Come look at this video. Funny stuff! ^^ NOTE: It's not meant to be taken seriously, anyone offended. Just sheer comedy.

I now identify as genderfluid, but it appears I'm slowly drifting into the transgender side. I realize that I prefer gay guys over straight ones, and girls, so this is why I'm now questioning my gender identity. As a kid, I felt like a boy trapped in a girl's body, but also felt like a girl. it was confusing to me. :S I thought that God put me in the wrong body. There would be times that I would do boyish things, and I will get talked down by my mom and be told, "Don't do that, that's not ladylike", and that bothered me. I felt forced to conform to my gender roles. One time, I went to a ballet recital with makeup, but inside, I didn't feel satisfied with being who I was. Throughout the rest of my childhood, I dressed up in Halloween costumes boys would usually wear, and if I haven't told you already, played Dr. Seuss for a wax museum. Even to this day, my mom is upset on why I don't wear a lot of makeup as other girls, but even though I feel hurt knowing I can't ever make my mother happy with that, this is my life and I'm not going to have people define it for me. I know I'm too young to be thinking about a sex change or that kind of stuff, and I have plenty of time to think about it, but if I choose to change my gender in the nearby future, I hope people would still love me the way I am. After all, I'd rather be hated for being who I am, than loved for who I'm not.

"Why must we all conceal what we think, how we feel? Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide? I won't pretend that I'm someone else for all time... When will my refllection show who I am inside?"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iHKMSUKIc9w Song from the Disney movie "Mulan". Great song, with a message everyone should listen to.

"Today you are youer than you. That is truer than true. There is no alive who is Youer than You."-Dr. Seuss

Yes, I am back from the dead. Hehe I actually had more fun than I thought I was going to have. It was my first time on a Disney Cruise, or a cruise for that matter. We spent the first couple days in Florida, visiting Magic Kingdom and Animal Kingdom. Then, we went on the Cruise and visited Nassau, Bahamas and their private island in Castaway Cay. I have to say that I like the parks and the Cruise, but the Cruise was a slice of heaven all in itself. There was a movie theater (saw the Avengers there), clubs for kids, teens, and adults, a water slide, Broadway Style shows, and more! Plus, the crew there was a LOT nicer than the ones at the parks. I have pictures, but it might take awhile for me to submit them because I have to get them onto the computer. I hate going back to reality, but there's no place like home.

I'll be away on vacation at Disney and then the Cruise Line, so that means I won't be online. I'm excited, yet anxious at the same time. Vacations are good and all, but they don't mean anything if you don't have a loving family, and that's what I think is missing in my life. :( Anyway, see ya'll. I'll miss you guys. You all are like a family to me, and I really mean that from the bottom of my heart.

OK, so we all know that Day Of Silence is yesterday. For those that don't, DOS is a national day where students in school vow to remain silent for the day to speak on behalf of LGBT bullying, who feel like they have been silenced. Instead of putting duct tape on my mouth as most people did, I just had tape written "Silence" on it on my chest. Granted, I may have uttered a few sentences out of the whole day, but hey, everybody makes mistakes. Most of the time I was silent and made sign language. Though, I'd like to note that yesterday one kid pushed me and thought it was funny. I don't what his deal was, but it doesn't surprise me because I encountered him once and made rude remark behind my back. But, since I'm sensitive, 99% of the time, I don't talk back for fear of making the situation worse. What did you do for DOS?

Before I go, I'd like to show you this touching video that I favorited.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M7Rs.....N10v047WUvbiw=

*sigh* These people wouldn't know about "autism awareness" if it bit them in the rear end. People think it's all about the marches, lighting things about blue, and wasting billions of money on a possible "cure". In my opinion, I don't think autism should be cured at all. It's just what makes a person unique. It's like what they did in the 70's when they tried to "cure" homosexuality. It's no wonder nobody wants to know what autism is, because everytime the media talks about autism, they talk about it like it's the plague, when in reality, it's nothing like that. Sure, there are severely autistic people out there, but even their caretakers don't see it as an illness. Well, at least some of them. If people would find the proper accomodations for disabled people, there wouldn't be a need to frantically look for a "cure" that simply won't happen in a thousand years. Another problem with these pro-cure organizations is they are planning for a eugenic screening for supposed autistic fetuses just like for Down's Syndrome. Now, I'm neutral on the abortion issue, but this has gone too far. These people are looking for a "normal" race of people, but really, what is "normal"? I wish people will stop looking for the differences in people and see all humankind as equal, no matter of race, religion, gender, sexual orientation, disability, etc. One day, tI hope hings like autism, ADHD, dyslexia, OCD, etc. will not be feared, but accepted, like people of color, the LGBTQ community, females, religious minorities, etc. Because after all, the neurodiversity quote says that "It's not about what's in here (brain), but what's down here (heart)." I know not a lot of people know about neurodiversity or the controversy of the pro-cure and anti-cure movements, but how society praises "normal" and expects people to be the same or else they'll be outcasted is terrifying. That's why there are wars, or why Trayvon Martin died. I believe that if the world embraced nonconformity, the world will be a much better place.

I don't know, but it seems like for every religious denomination, you are forced to accept what they think is the afterlife after you die. But, here's my question: If heaven is supposed to be complete bliss, serenity, love, peace, etc., shouldn't it be the place of our dreams? I'm not dissing on anyone's religion or faith, so if I offended you, I apologize because I didn't intend it to be that way. If we are confined to be in a place and do some certain things, then that's not Paradise. That's prison. Whether if our interpretation of heaven is a beach, an amusement park, a meadow, or going to "Avatar"'s Pandora, they should be allowed to make that heaven. Any one else agree?

Late last night, I saw a "moving star" unlike one of a plane or a helicopter and it created a weird looking cloud. I wish I had some pictures, but I was so shocked that I didn't have time to tell everybody. Have you ever seen something like this before? Or is it a possiblity that there is indeed extraterristial life?

I wanted to make two, if not one group of my own. But I don't know where to start. Do you need another person to help, or make another account? The FA instructions for it was a little confusing. Does anybody know?

My computer is running slow, and some videos take a lot of time to load, and I'm thinking it's because of it needs to be upgraded. I'm afraid this new account is going to forget my account and stuff, and I already almost had that tramautic experience of not getting it back. Did anybody upgrade to IE 9 yet? If so, did it forget your account?

QUOTES! :D

"I don't believe in reincarnation. But if I were to be reincarnated, I want to have my next life in the animation universe."-Me

"If I were to meet five people, it would be Hayao Miyazaki, Walt Disney, Dr. Seuss, MJ, and Coretta Scott King."-Me

"I don't let autism define me. I define it. I put the AWE in autism, baby!"-Me

I just came home from watching the movie based off the Dr. Seuss book, "The Lorax". It's basically, as most of you know, a story with a powerful, yet sadly controversial messeage. The socially conscious issue of environmentalism, and the horrors of consumerism. Even back in the '70's, when the book was published, made a heated debate in politics. And it's still happening today. One politican stated that the movie "was Obama and Hollywood's way of pushing their left-wing propaganda at us" or something like that. Trying to protect the environment is not propaganda. Ah, politics and greed can go together. It makes me sad and angry. From where I live, in New Jersey, the water is murky, and it was only when I went to the Caribbean, that I actually saw what a BLUE ocean looks like. It's a shame that future generations might not be able to look at a blue ocean, or a blue sky, or some species of animals, etc. I'm sure Dr. Seuss is applauding his adaptation of his work up there, and I pray that now that his message comes back into the light, people would wake up and realize what's happening to our planet before it's too late.

A friend from YT asked me to update Skype to talk to him, but I think that is one of the biggest mistakes I made in my life. He bascially wants to talk to me everyday, even when I tell him I need a break for a couple days. He also had the nerve to insult my parents. I always put my family first before anybody; next to God and my mate. I don't want to hurt his feelings, but he's starting to become a nuisance now. What should I do?

I know it's late, but I just wanted to wish all my friends and watchers a happy Valentine's Day, whether if you're single or mated, gay, or straight. BTW, don't just celebrate it with your special someone. Celebrate it with your family, friends, coworkers, etc. According to my personal religious beliefs, I believe that everyone has a soulmate, so if you're single, or heartbroken, don't give up looking because there is hope. To my mate, I love you so much I feel like my heart will burst like a beach ball. BTW, it is not a person on Furaffinity, but it is someone that's changed me for the better and made me feel a little better about myself. :) Link here. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6976638

Whitney Houston, A.K.A "The Voice", the woman behind classics like "I Will Always Love You", "One Moment In Time", "Saving All My Love For You" has passed away today. I got the news when I was watching the Charlie Brown Valentine's Day schedule, when it got interrupted by a breaking news story and there it was: Whitney Houston passed away at age 48. This is the most shocking musician death to me since Michael Jackson. She is one of my inspirations of singing one day and I am truly heartbroken by the death of another legend. R.I.P. Songbird.

15. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R764zNgkfMw Cheesy CGI effects, no wonder it's called "Cheesy Shield".

14. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gb4bz_IPuPQ This logo is downright creepy, and gave me nightmares growing up.

13. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dlV5-mdUgdA The computer graphics and the music is a little offsetting.

12. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5_65xX86jYA I hated the fact that this logo came on after the Christmas specials. It always bugged me.

11.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e5tqnBXd89I The funeral music at the beginning and the unexpecting fanfare near the end can be startling for some.

10. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h9JPF7TBYlc The loud fanfare and the movement of the words MGM/UA can frighten some viewers.

9. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EUWygGsyCyY This logo always used to scare me after "Arthur" came off.

8. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Typfg0tGruQ The red font and black background may put off some viewers.

7. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iqsgUCbUCEs Poor, cheesy CGI effects, white background, a creepy-looking "G" that crawls out of a book in a horror movie type way, makes weird movements and a jig, this also gave me nightmares as a kid.

6.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8tveRQHHHAE Eerie music, black backgound, a poorly-drawn lightning bolt, this is another nightmare factor for some.

5. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oHym_zghsBY With loud fanfare, words zooming at you at lightning speed, creepy silence and FBI warning in the end, this has also scared a ton of people.

4. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQ7zZRud1B0 AH MY EARS!!!

3. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J0go.....eature=related AKA, the "V of Doom". The ginormous "V" looks like it's going to jump out of your screen and kill you. Run for your lives!

2. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xGtmAAXwXP4 AKA, the "Other S From Hell'. With blasting music, and a monstrous "S", this one of the other biggest nightmare factors.

And the number one is...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hR-w2g1mgqc The only thing I can say about this logo is.. WTH?!? A decapitated head for a logo. Seriously?? This is a logo often seen in Russia, and I wonder how many kids suffered nightmares from this logo.

There are many other logos that scare me or creep me out, including Hannah-Barbera (star logo), Morgan Creek, Renaissance Pictures, etc., but these are my top 15 scary logos for me. So, did any of these logos scare you? Are there any logos that scare you that I didn't mention?

Sorry I'm late. Been quite busy into thinking up of possibly a new poem and video for YouTube. But anyway, in case you didn't know, my zodiac sign is a rat, and my element sign is fire. A person with a rat sign has a charming, charismatic, loyal, and zealous personality, like me! :) Being a Fire Rat makes that personality even more fiery. Also, they say that I relate to monkeys and dragons better, and my dad's a monkey, and I can relate to him a lot. But, I should stay away from horses. My mate's a dog, and even though they don't suggest rats and dogs in relationships, they're not as bad as being with a horse. My star sign is Leo, BTW, but I'm not that crazy about astrology. I prefer the Chinese Zodiac because it makes more sense, and you don't need astrology articles to predict your life. :P So, what's your Chinese Zodiac sign? Rat pride! :P

"Home is not a house, or a place where you eat or sleep or protects you from the rain. You can be in the most beautiful house, and it still doesn't feel like home to you because of a dysfunctional family, depression, or anything else. Home is being in a place of supreme beauty and happiness and being with the people you love most, where you truly belong, where you no longer feel outcasted, sad, or alone. Home is knowing what's in your feelings, your mind, heart, soul. When we realize that, we are always home in our hearts."-Me, inspired by the movie "The Wiz" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cnKQ.....p;feature=av2e

"Why would people want to cure who I am? Why would people want to remove my devout spirituality and childlike innocence from me? Why do they want to take away the way I focus on the detail of the moonlight on the street, the hairs of a character in a computer-animated movie, or the hyposensitivity I enjoy when I feel the cool grass on my feet, or how I get lost in all the colors in Disney World? If you take away my autism, it will be like killing me. I would be a totally different person. I would have to start my life all over again. Can someone explain this to me?"-Me

As you know, Google and Wikipedia appear to be "blacked out" because they are protesting a bill that will turn the Internet (and possibly, the world), upside down. I know a banner is on top of me, but this is a very important issue. Companies like Paramount, Viacom, and the RIAA are trying to turn you into slaves. They are money-hungry leeches that will do anything to get what they want, even if it means sending you to jail for simply uploading a video without a trial, or worse, like those other countries that will chop your limbs off by doing a harmless mistake. Spread the word. Wake up. It's the secret societies and the Illuminati desperately trying to take your freedom. During your spare time, click on Google and sign the petition. The fate of our freedom depends on it.

I know it's late, but I wanted to get this out. MLK is a national holiday where we take a break from school or work to celebrate a true leader. A leader who told us that we are all equal in God's eyes, and that He does not judge people based on race or color. To me, it means to never give up on what you believe in, and fighting for your rights. It means I'll fight for equal rights for gay and disabled people, even though some might disagree. What does this holiday mean to you? I think if it weren't for MLK, there wouldn't be an FA. :P

"I have a dream that my future offspring will one day live in a world where they will not be judged by their neurology or ability, but by the content of their character."-Me

My nose bled this afternoon and I had my blood pressure checked by my parents and assumed it was high blood pressure. I have a very strict diet, so now it is going to be very hard of watching my diet AND my blood pressure. I have an eerie feeling that this high blood pressure is going to kill me one day. I have suicidal thoughts now and then, but I don't really want to die. Not this young. :(