http://www.rhjunior.com/NT/00833.html

Yep. Not going down easy.

I still need to get that last panel framed...

Dunno how many of you have been following it, but I've had a Cameo Arc going in the webcomic Nip and Tuck for a while now (mostly due to sporadic updates, sadly). Recently, I made a post in the forums on a thread concerning this strip:

http://www.rhjunior.com/NT/00832.html

Some people there seemed to think that if I lost the match, the whole thing would be pointless. A "Shoot The Shaggy Dog" kind of ending.

This is the post I used to set them straight.

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No offense, but I think a few of you are confused... and a might fewer number seem to have gotten it right.

It ain't about logic... logic is a thing of the mind.

It ain't about winning... we all must fail some times in our life.

It ain't about weight classes or rules... this jack@$$ wouldn't abide by them anyway.

What is it about?

It's about the heart. A battle for my soul, if you will. The Father of Lies has already made his move; you can see it in the first two panels. Most people would think those are just thoughts, things we all think from time to time. Harmless. I know better.

I should stay down. I need to stand up.

It's about standing up when the bullies knock ya down.

It's about fighting for what you believe in.

It's about taking no guff from any two-bit, peanut-brained, low-class, misogynistic fool who thinks he has the only opinion that matters.

It's showing him who I am.

"I should stay down" can easily lead to "I'm a loser". I refuse them. The words are empty. With one slow, steady action I cast them back into the black abyss of the devil's heart. I'm not a loser. I will not stay down. My heart is good, and God knows it. So do I.

It ain't about winning the match no more. In truth, it never was.

It's a battle for my heart. And I've already won.

Now pardon me while I go inform this over-sized grand slam breakfast of the truth.

*gets up and heads back for the center of the ring*

Enough of that emo post.

Anyway, I've been taking some St. John's Wort. The herb seems to help my depression. Unlike drugs, this shouldn't have any nasty side effects (like going crazy and shooting people o.o;; I was on a drug that did that to somebody), so things should be more manageable.

One thing I've learned, life is difficult enough without being moody all the time. At least with this stuff, I can keep a clear head to make better decisions, and the decline from forgetting to take it is less sharp. No more curling up next to the gas fireplace and thinking I'm hearing God speak either!

N. - the sensation one feels after having masturbated only to realize there is no one to curl up with in bed afterward




This. v.v I has it.

Gakked from  lilifox who gakked it from  vinci_nicolaides

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1 – Do you and your "fursona" look alike?

Well, somewhat. I have blue eyes and light brown hair, like him. However, he's more athletic and definitely in better shape. =P But there are few who don't present their "fursona" as better looking.

Scary fact:  bakasukonku made my icon for me as a gift, though I had to have it resized by a friend. He got my eye and hair color exactly right... without being told or ever having seen a picture of me! And we've yet to meet irl! o.o;; The skunk is psychic. Must come from playing a children's card game.

2 – Do you and your "fursona" share attires?

Well, yeah. I mean, t-shirt, jeans, shoes and maybe a necklace... do you really need more than that. =P 'Course, I wear glasses and he doesn't, so that's one thing that's different.

3 – Do you share the same sexuality as your fursona?

Hmm... I'd have to say... "kinda". I see Bandit as an ideal version of myself, something to work toward in my life. A little more reachable than my other "fursona" though, Strange Wulf (google him if you like, but keep in mind I was younger, more stupid and a lot more "die-hard conservative" than I am now), who was, and still is, a wizard with mastery over the three magics of his world, as well as a hybrid between raccoon and my own fictional race of anthropomorphic canines.

Yeah. =P Bandit is far more normal.

Anyway, likely Bandit has learned to deal with the bisexual urges and thoughts that still crop up in my own head. Either he's eliminated them entirely or has found a way to at least minimize their impact on his life. Again, this is an ideal to shoot for. It'll probably change as I grow, and eventually Bandit may need to be altered to fit me instead. Time will tell.

4 – If you hadn’t already made your fursona look like you, if you would to change how she looked like to make him/her look more like you, how would you think he/she would look like?

He has my hair and my eyes. Aside from making him human, and perhaps a bit overweight, I can't get much closer than that.

5 – Did you work hard to develop your fursona? What is the (brief) history of your fursona?

Eh, I kinda did that already a couple questions ago. In any case, after Strange Wulf started feeling like his own character instead of a representation of me, I let him go and sought out Bandit instead. Although, at the time I first thought of him, he was a blatant knock-off of Sly Cooper. =P Like any of you can talk. I doubt many of us haven't had a bout of "fandumb" at least once in our lives. I liked Power Rangers too y'know!

Anyway, Bandit evolved from a coon to a wolfcoon after I decided both species had traits I shared. Granted, I could be wrong, but this is the best fit for now. I may change my "fursona" later in life, or give it up altogether. Time will tell.

(Also, I still intend to write the Sly Cooper fanfics I have planned, especially the latter one with Bandit in it. I hate Mary Sues, so it's going to take an interesting turn in later chapters...)

6 – Do you and your fursona share relationship status?

I'm single. Bandit is single. So, yeah. =P And that won't change until I say so.

7 – Do you find yourself jealous or upset if you get paired with someone you don’t like or your partner does?

*coughs and blushes* Ummmmm.... <.<;; I plead the Fifth on this. Not like I'm popular enough for it to happen, but...

8 – How would you like your character not to be used?

A slut. Forgive my language, but I don't like that idea. I've wrestled with similar thoughts myself, and I've realized that, in truth, I'm a romantic. If I ever "pimped out" Bandit (or whatever the term is), it'd probably be like what  bagheera does. He won't pair his character with slutty characters, and I won't either. I doubt I'd get as many requests as him though. =P I'm still workin' on developing the habit of drawing often. And my anatomy sucks.

However, I won't mind if anyone wants Bandit to show up in a boxing pic with anyone. I'm kind of a sucker for that sort of thing, though I'd prefer he be in a clothed match. No sex and/or nudity, thanks. =P

9 – What’s your fursona’s specialty?

...he's an amateur boxer who will defend his favorite woman boxer's honor in front of complete strangers?

10 – At a score of 1-10 how much are you and your fursona alike?

*shrugs* Dunno. I'm guessing 5 or lower. He's not me, and I'm not him. Yet I do intend to change that somewhat. =P It just doesn't include genetic alteration. I'm human and I'm fine with staying that way.

I didn't exactly leave FA. I've just been lurking and watching stuff. And I've been considering active posts again, which I guess this journal qualifies as.

Anyway, I've been pretty good about the porn lately. I just don't look at it near as much as I used to, and the binges don't last as long. Plus, it's not always FA that's the source (I still have to go through the hassle of flipping my answer to "yes" on viewing adult submissions), so I may be able to come back and be part of the community a little, maybe encourage and nurture some folks. I mean, I'm on the internet already; might as well do some good here.

Least I left with as little drama as possible. I'm sure someone could still use this as a way to smear me, or hurt me if they wanted. "Oh, so you never really left! You just wanted attention, like all the other emo idiots!" Which, in all honesty, is a lie. I left because of personal struggles with the adult content on this site, which is still on-going. And although I do want attention, I'm starting to grow up a little... and I want to help others here grow into their potential. Who knows? A few people may even meet Jesus through me, which I'd consider the greatest honor possible.

In any case, I doubt I'm noticeable enough for someone to accuse me of trying to garner attention. Satan might slip a whisper into my head, but I've been fighting that jerk since grade school. I know his tricks. And I can take more pain. What I can't bear, I'll give to God. And that makes me stronger.

So, I'll give it a whirl perhaps. And we'll see what develops.

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