Mutteo Cleafurry / Amazing Mallard? I loved their art but they just dissipeared, even their Deviantart is gone.

I made one, it is here https://discord.gg/cb6YxQ 18+ please

Due to a very bad case of OCD, My hands are in a bit of a bind quite literally, due to overwashing them out of fears of keeping my room clean, they have become weak and easily scarred, that is my excuse for not doing art in so long, so uh sorry if you don't like pixel art cause I may end up posting a lot of it until my hands fully heal.

All I draw is foxes... Not that that's a bad thing, But I do it TOO much.

I'm gonna be posting more D&D chars, mainly due to being in a LOOONG fallow period of 0 sketches or painted sketches and I don't see (do we ever see?) an end in sight of this mood.

BASICS
What day are you getting there?
Whenever

How are you traveling?
Plane, cause I love flying

Where are you staying?
Wherever it takes place, or wherever's close

Who will you be rooming with?
if I can get a room for two, just me and my hubby.

How long are you going?
however long it is

PERSONAL
What do you look like?
That's classified

What is your gender?
Male.

How tall are you?
Also classified

Can I talk to you?
why not? don't expect something elegant and nice though, expect something short and blunt. I'm not much for socializing in person (I'm a shy boi) as I've probably indicated somewhere above or below.

Can I touch, hug, or snuggle you?
I'm too sensitive to germs and other things, as much as I wish I weren't, the fear of tainted murrsuits and such gets to me like an existential nightmare that won't end. unless Anthrocon specifically bans those for whatever reason then yeah hug away friends, I need more fluff in my life, So much fluff, and calm and cute and things that keep away the blues of the world.

Are you nice?
I try to be, even if this post shows a hard exterior as formed due to life and mental reasons taking over and throttling me.

Are you taken?
I'm Happily in a monogamous relationship and very protective of my Husband.

ART

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Why not? it might be allready full though...

Can we get art?
prolly not, Im a lazy artist as bad as it is, and making a promise I can't exactly keep isn't good for an artists image...

CONVENTION

Will you be fursuiting?
I wish, but no, I has no monies for a suit, much less the spikey steel toes of my sona.

Where will you be most of the time during the days?
everywhere if I can, mainly macro panels and such or things involving paws.

What is the best way to find you?
Ill tell you in person

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Message me on discord

Are there any panels you might be attending?
The macro stuff

Will you be going to parties?
Maybe, if there's a chill lounge or whatever I'd probably be there, where time just stops, quiet surrounds me and I can drink and think.

Will you be performing?
No, Id think I'd feel like a clown personally, unless somehow I got used to playing the clown, dancing, talking, socializing isn't my thing as much as I wish it were.

What/where will you be eating?
Whatever I can get my hands on, take out or otherwise.

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
I don't think Id be making food for more than two, also I don't think I'm fun outside of roll playing and or hosting games over steam. unless somehow there was a LARP game going on alongside Anthrocon then I'd be all over that shite.

Can I visit your room?
Dunno how to feel about this one

Can I buy you drinks?
Why not, but make sure its either homemade or something exotic, like whiskey, trappist beer, mead or a nice amontillado.

Can I give you stuff?
why not? just nothing Icky, say if any of you are into woodworking. Id love a replica mary rose tankard. if not, you can always just sketch something quick or sculpt a D&D mini or whatever you do... though you don't have to, like I said. Im lazy, I'm not giving you anything, so why should you?

Can I take your picture?
Only if you ask.

What are your goals for the con this year?
just experience my first con

-This will be updated as the years go on and when I finally do get to go to my first Furrycon.

There where sodas without all the sugars and WEREN'T diet, that stuff just tastes nasty. Maybe something fruity.

So today is paw day, hope I can draw today cause this is a bit of a big thing for furries into paws.

People unwatch me? what am I doing that is making you unwatch me? I know I'm slow but I'm not a wealth of ideas Like I once was. But why?

Mainly about kinks and such, even though I'm probably gonna get the same answer of "you do what you like" rather than "here is how you do x y & zed without feeling 'the guilts" as it is called in some BDSM community's.

And yes this goes back to my distaste of bodily destruction and other "why macros macro" things...

should furrys have neck floof? I mean its only natural being that's what every Tod and Vixen knows is that foxes and other fuzzy critters are basically tubes of fluff, even their neck. but then that brings the argument of what season their coat is in, summer or winter, cause if its summer then most have shed their awesome coats, winter is when they would come in and look gorgeous.

then again it all comes down to what looks hot and prefrences

ah just some ramblings, hiding within is a strange thought...

also I wonder if my thoughts and questions on certain things hit too close to home, questioning why do macro's macro? and such.

Wish there where jobs that involved being insane, Dunno why though; making miniatures, blank grimiors and yarn tails sounds steady enough, even if the pay is bad and I might be barred from commissions until my abilities are up to snuff.
...
I think the thing I fear most is stigma when it comes to talking about things like this, being labeled crazy and having ones patrons and loved ones leave due to such negativity or other things I might vent about, I just wanna be normal (even though I am quite normal and sane, feeling like I'm at the end of my line brings desperation and panicked questions for my watchers to gawk at).

Foxy isn’t feeling too well, just blew chunks a few minutes ago; I dunno how but I think it was some old garlic in my pea and lentil soup that just wasn’t fit for consumption anymore.

Compounded with having to do 2 papers that are important to my survival as an artist... I just Ughhed out for 5 days till this happened.

Hope I get better, my English instructor does not give a damn whether your sick and have a note or sick and tell a friend to tell her.

If only there was a way to commision a personalized book of the dead (or "going forth by day"), not that the reaper's at my door right now.

But the idea of having such a book sounds nice; in this age when we probably know enough about the structure and meanings of such ancient texts, as to bring them to the modern world, who knows nothing of the Yaaru, the Judgement after the journey into the Duat, The words needed to face what might await on said journey. The layout of such ethereal places.

Purple velvet sounds nice, tooled steel with faux blue cabochon gems at the books corners, two clasps at its opening, and at its center is a simple flat Anhk, Scarab or Eye of Ra in brass, Filled with beautifully aged and strengthened paper or vellum.

But that is just mine, modeled after my interest in beautifully bound and tooled Codices, treasure bindings.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8682151/ so "no one k's" post on fatal really struck me with a sense of being in the same boat as mine when it comes to fatal macro/micro things.

Sans the getting overemotional about it (even though that also possibly happens, but is more of a background sorta process), the addiction to kink, and generally being wrecked by it.

And the thought that such people would betray me in trying something I really don't like in order to find some enjoyment from it, they might just be turned off by a friend who isn't into fatal or gore.

It probably comes down to me just overthinking a bit of text or a character who's as real as the paper their drawn on is... or something

anyway I hope this is the time at which I stop rambling like a madman about my problems, you don't like hearing them (Unless you do in which I give my deepest thanks for hearing and wanting to help me out in times like these.)

say a grudge or a feeling that brings pain?

Also, how do I cry? its so hard to force it, that other forces have to act on me just to shed a tear., such as a yell or scream for my presence, even though that brings my heart rate up.

I've always wondered, how do I enjoy the destruction aspect of being a macro?

Being a submissive (who wants to learn to be a switch), I could never really understand the loss of life, carnage and gore surrounding the subject. Or how one gets heated from it. Yes I know its a loss/gaining of power thing, but how Do I ENJOY it?

it probably could all be summed up as not being my interest. Ah the ramblings of a foolish foxxo who loves to create, finding destruction as weird...

If there's one emotion I hate, It's jealousy, It eats at me, and I just don't like feeling it.

Feel like they are in a race to have their art be more original than anyone else, or is that just me? And yes I know the old maxim of everything already being written, that once you've seen it there's no reason to go back. but how do I turn that Idea on its head?

as for my absence in the art department, I'm just outta Ideas, unless you wanna see sketches...

Happy V-Day everyone! ^W^

So I finally got a pair and was quite blown away, they are quite comfy. Didn't think they'd be poofy though ^W^. (Now to Draw my sona with some...)

That needs to exist, and I probably need to draw it.

He's someone I need to draw someday. no not the nun, but the Egyptian doge god.
possibly in something kinky, or the simple shendyt.

If only there where a way to individually make journals mature...

Well Goodbye 2017, hello 2018 and all of the things that come with that!