Well, Y'all was all kinds of interestin' over at Yiffy today. I was rollin' in laughter so much from what I saw that I had to break my year of silence to tell you all myself!

"Ooh, someone has my art in their chat!"

Now, I'm not about to start a fight with you folks over this, I'm just letting off steam. If I were to raise a stink on any o' y'all, I'd have to drop my stone for I could not throw it.

I admit myself to borrowing art from around the net for my YI profiles.

I never mean anything of it. I like the art and it fits my personal, visual image of a character I'd had envisioned. I myself am unable to draw because of weak muscles in my hands. I can type whole stories, but goddamn the minute I pick up a pencil, or brush and I try to make something my hands are burning red by the time I'm done.

All this from someone who wants to make it in the movies, too.

and I know I could, should probably just ask for commissions, then there's the other thing. I'm not very adept with the computer, I've never bought a thing online before, I don't even know how it works. I personally feel safer when money is passing hands in person, because then I can tell the person with my face and words what a good job they did.

It's how I've always been. I'm a real emotional type.

At work, I have to clean around the tables and I still have trouble going near tables when people are still eating because then it makes me scared that I'm bothering them and I'll just look like some idiot.

So if I... knowing my ineptitude involving online business transactions, I were to try to ask something of someone, I'd be afraid of bothering them, making myself seem a fool in their eyes.

the point I'm trying to make... is everyone has reasons. Most people are better off taking the easy route. I don't like it myself. I particularly loathe doing anything the easy way. Easy's not fun, it's boring. You have to work to earn your fun.

On that same thought, it's taking the easy way when you go for words such as thief.

But I won't begrudge anyone for taking that route because I have fallen by that wayside myself.

What I am trying to say is... talk it out. If you are unhappy with what someone, especially myself, has done, tell me or them, in your most sincere way, as sincere as text on a computer will allow complex beings as ourselves can express our voice.

People aren't as doomed as Friedrich Nietzsche or someone else would lead us to believe. We all deserve a chance, a doubt.

Thank you and...

I still love you all, FA. <3

Oi! People just coming in I'm moving a little slow on the gallery, be sure to check the scraps though, I'll be entering my short stories there for your enjoyment in the meantime.

I am clearing out all of my entries, all of my fiction until I finally figure out what it is I want to do... I'm sorry for any friends out there who were reading my stories and looking forward to more... X(
Jarfond, Yelleena, if you're still watching... I hope I can get back on track soon enough...

In honor of my 500th pageview, a song...

When I wake up well I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who wakes up next to you
When I go out yeah I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who goes along with you

If I get drunk well I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who gets drunk next to you
And if I haver yeah I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's havering to you

But I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
Just to be the man who'd walk a 1,000 miles
To fall down at your door

When I'm working yes I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's working hard for you
And when the money comes in for the work I'll do
I'll pass almost every penny on to you

But I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
Just to be the man who'd walk a 1,000 miles
To fall down at your door

When I come home oh I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who comes back home to you
And if I grow old well I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's growing old with you

But I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
Just to be the man who'd walk a 1,000 miles
To fall down at your door

When I'm lonely well I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's lonely without you
When I'm dreaming yes I know I'm gonna dream
Dream about the time when I'm with you

When I go out well I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who goes along with you
When I come home yes I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's coming home with you

But I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
Just to be the man who'd walk a 1,000 miles
To fall down at your door

Thank you.

Whilst going over my bevy of characters, I've come to this startling conclusion.

I think I have a tall fetish. I mean, look, Jimmy's 6'2, Jacob's 5'8, Hidaya's 6'0, even Jill's kid brother, Junior is 5'2, that may not seem that tall, but that's how tall I am in real life. I think maybe, the shortest character I have is my mouse character, Marty, and still he's 4'9, which is still tall for short people. I think this may all be rooted to the fact that I had always been the shortest kid growing up and so I was always looking up to a lot of people and usually I ended up trying to befriend always the tallest kids in my class. Recently, I had met a college student who had moved to Texas from California and he was not just tall, he was rippling, had a deep voice but not so deep and he was the one guy out of all the other drama students I really like got along with. He was one of the people I had first shown the first draft of my prologue to, and it was he that got me really like thinking about ways I'd want to take my characters to. Sadly, he moved away at the beginning of the fall semester and is attending a college in San Antonio and I guess, that is what really led me into the funk that got me to just stop trying in my studies.

This is Batboy stepping down from his soapbox once more.

MLK Jr Day is coming and for me this day has always had a different meaning than to others. While everyone is at home probably watching movies or TV specials about Martin Luther King Jr and about civil rights, I am in mourning on this day. One of my favorite cousins was taken from this world by some bad people on this day. This year marks the tenth anniversary of his death and so I'll probably not be doing much time online for that week. I'll be sure to get back with high spirits when the time has passed.

I'm so happy now! I'm beginning to form something of a fan base here, yay! Granted it's only four people I've found who seem to like my style, but it's still a start! Now I can go back to college this coming eleventh of January with head up high! Thank you,  jarfond123,  rosethorn225,  charn,  konubadger, all of you for being so generous to this poor autistic underdog vampire bat. Thank you!

This is the complete list of every gift I had received this year.

three shirts, money and Family Guy pajamas from my parents
money from my aunt and uncle
a black shirt with a tiger on it from my favorite aunt and her family
money from my sister
24 season 7 DVD set from my niece
a new wallet and Punisher War Zone from my uncle on my mom's side
Casablanca, North By Northwest, Ricochet and Toy Soldiers from amazon.com
Reese's Minis and Thin Mints from Herr Christkind

Merry Christmas

People have finally begun replying to my work. It warms my heart. Yes, it does.
They've been giving me their most sincere and honest opinions. I am a lot happier than I was a week ago. I honestly do not know what I was thinking on my Well! journal entry I was just venting. Though, i must admit that I did find what the people said on there was pretty useful/funny. It takes such little effort to catch someone's attention.

Si, yes! Fun-tastic! One of the great men of the cinema who drives my very existence is finally back. After ten years, he is back. He is back with a movie about blue people. Blue people who get the Irag treatment from us for profit. Have I ever mentioned that I've decided never to vote as long as I live. I just don't see the point in it. I personally didn't care for either of the people running. I was just glad the whole thing was finally done. Now we can get on with our lives. Really my only real reason for ever watching any of the debates was just to see that incredibly attractive if not somewhat questionable mommy dearest from Alaska, Sarah Palin. Now, there is a woman I wouldn't mind seeing in the political running sometime in the future. I mean think about it. Other countries would probably hate us a lot less if we had her as Lady President.

Edit: I just noticed that I had gotten 300 pageviews. So here goes the shameless plug. SPARTA!

It would seem as though my assumptions have proven correct.

I've gone and I've whored myself out to the masses. I've made my words bigger and easier to read, I've added 1.5 spacing between my lines so my readers don't accidentally start the same sentence over. (I can not tell you how much of a pain in the ass that is) and I've begun adding sex scenes to my work. Now I am getting more views on my work and STILL NO ONE IS SAYING ANYTHING!!! I mean, I'm glad more people are starting to pay attention but, come on, even I've got my limits! I've so far only had two favorites neither with any comments. I'm actually starting to get a little mad here! For fuck's sake! We're one month away from the new year and no one has even thought to tell me if they thought it had sucked... Even that'd be enough for me! Something! Anything! It would be appreciated. I've already tried everything else I could think of. I've begun to lose count of the plays I've auditioned for and then had my hopes dashed by the following Monday. I've tried for the foreign exchange program to Germany and then was refused because they said my answers were to brief. I've even auditioned for a movie and I don't think they even thought twice about me. I'm becoming disenchanted. I'm beginning to wonder if people are even looking anymore. Perhaps, people are just clicking something and they get my stuff by accident. *sob* Someone say something please. I'm serious. A writer deserves to have some feedback. everyday the fighting in my home just get's louder and more pointless. I need to be noticed. I need to be more than just another retarded person that's so much smarter than everyone else. I don't want to be smarter. I just want people to like me for my creativity. *sob* I've just shed a real tear. Thanks for nothing! That's five months without a nervous breakdown.

Edit: and the trap is sprung. *evil laugh* As if I were ever to stoop so low.
People. are. gullible. They'll believe anything when you sprinkle it enough with those things what do you call them? oh yeah, emotion. This desperate cry for attention is nothing! I'm fucking autistic and an honors student and I've been watching and reading furry porn since the fourth grade and NO ONE HAS BEEN THE WISER! I'm the type of person who used to force myself into a nervous breakdown so I get to skip school. I mean what school in their right minds allow such a clearly distraught soul to disturb their important schedules. People all they do anymore is amuse me. Whoo! Took four months too, for me to build up the proper "tension". I proved a teacher wrong and got a 100 for it. I avoided ever being beat up in school by being simply too weird or funny to beat up. If there's anything I have some kindred feelings to it was never meant to be people. They're simply not interesting enough.

Well, I really don't have anything smart to say right now.

CUT IT!!!

Any loyal readers of Jacob that I may have, I feel I must apologize in advance. I'd been thinking of doing a complete total re-haul of my work. I'd only just noticed I had begun to deviate from previous format and unaware I had one. Autism is weird like that. What this means of course I'll be taking off my work. Not permanently, just so I can update my old work. This also means I'd have to remove my current work so everything is in the proper order when it comes back.

So once again any readers of mine out there I apologize profusely for any incovenieces of possible feelings of betrayal.

Oh, hot sweet mama bejesus! It's good to be back and seeing familiar faces on here once again. HOLY MOTHERFUCKING CHAINSAW WIELDING ROGER EBERT!

... so yeah it's been hard trying to live these past days without fur affinity and my good friends  sillyserpentine,  champ and  panzergulo who had been so accommodating to me since my induction back in July. Especially you, Serpy... I can honestly say that I had missed your delightful witticisms most of all.

In other news, college is out for winter break so I might be getting more to work on Empire of Tails and maybe if I can, Highest Seas. I had been able to finish up on a few chapters for EoT and will be submitting as soon as possible.

Jimmy Lee Darrell, signing off!

I just got back from watching the new action movie from Wachowski Brothers and Joel Silver, Ninja Assassin. Bad Ass! Blood everywhere! The almost orgasmic sound of fine steel cutting through the air! The awesomely hot lead role by Korean pop star, Jeong "Rain" Ji-hoon, was fucking awesome!

4 ninja stars out of 5

P.S. I've decided I'm going to be moving my Non-Jacob related material to scraps. Don't ask why, I just need thinking space.

200 Pageviews!!! 200 Seitenzugriffe!!!
200 Páginas vistas!!! 200 Pages vues!!!
200 Pagine visitate!!! 200 Páginas visualizadas!!!
200 Prosmotrennyh stranits!!! 200 Pēji no hyōji!!!
200 Pagini vizualizate!!! 200 Mga pahina na natingnan!!!
200 Przeglądane strony!!! 200 Sivuavausta!!!

As you can see I'm very excited about this...

It is Thanksgiving Week and I am happy. We'll be going to my aunt's house for Thanksgiving dinner and you know what that means? HIPPIES!!!

Yes, this year for Thanksgiving, we're all going to my aunt's house dressed as hippies. It will be interesting. My aunt loves planning themed Thanksgiving dinners. The first year she moved into town, it was pirates, another year was greasers, now we're hippies.

I have another reason for excitement. It is also ninja week. Wachowski Brothers' Ninja Assassin premieres in theaters this week. I must see it for the sake of witnessing such an awesome looking film.

I'd just seen Law Abiding Citizen starring Gerard Butler and I was pleased. I was even caught off guard at points through out the film. Gerard Butler was this awesome, chess-master of a villain who had figured out ways he could kill people without even being in the same room. He's that good.

3/5

awesome villain, nice seeing Colm Meaney again, Jamie Foxx could have done a lot better. He just didn't seem all that into it.

Heidy-ho there readers! My slow but efficient ingenuity has finally come through! It's story time again. Just please, from this point on anyone that reads please let me know how you feel about my fiction. I'm open to various criticisms.

Did that sound to desperate?

I've just come back from seeing one of the worst movies ever. Paranormal Activity. BULLSHIT! I see more paranormal activity taking out the trash! Really! Some doors slamming and spooky footsteps were the best they could come up with? I mean granted the ending caught me by surprise. But, as much as I love the suspense and all that, they seriously underplayed what could have been a cool idea.

2/5
That girl's hair is the scariest thing in this "movie".

I've just seen one of the funniest damn movies since I saw that Repo the Genetic Opera. I love weird shit like that. The movie I am talking about is Trick 'r Treat. It's from the guys who made Superman Returns and X2. It's basically about the most messed up Halloween Night ever. Seriously, it starts with a girl getting killed for saying she hates Halloween and it just gets better from there. This movie promises everything horror fans love and i mean everything. If you're interested, you can check it out at your local Blockbuster.

This coming weekend is the final performance for our student-directed project, Jackpot! These past few weeks had been interesting. Last night was the first showing, tonight my parents came to see me. My character was a gay vampire named Dante it as cool!

Today was another of those crappy autumn rain days. For the second day in a row, we were unable to do any constructive work in scene shop. I got one of my good shirts all wet. Bumster!

Betcha can't guess what scary cartoon about dolls being chased by nightmarish machines I recently got back from seeing. That's right, I just saw Shane Acker's 9 last night and I have to say I was thoroughly impressed. It's not often we ever actually get to see animation like this in a mainstream world. I was however disappointed in seeing that there were still a whole bunch of kids when I went, oh but it was such sweet music to my ears hearing them crying for their mommies. I'm now thinking about going to see that Astro Boy. I am interested at the very least. I'm also looking forward to The Fantastic Mr. Fox and The Princess and the Frog (which is going to have none other than Keith David playing the villain, Dr. Facilier.) I myself am also interested in the prospects of animation, well first I would need to take major lessons in animation and art. I want to be able to bring traditional animation back to the mainstream at the same time to make animation that only adult viewers would be able to understand or even enjoy. I will not allow anything or any man to stand in my way. I must overcome low-tone muscles and achieve my success, but I cannot do this on my own. anyone interested in helping me please send me information about any good arts and animation schools you know and when/if I'm on the oscars accepting a little golden bald statuette I'll be sure to include in my thank you speech.

I'm on YouTube listening to Disturbed, in my opinion one of the best bands around, and you know sometimes like to scroll down read some of the comments people put there and what are the people talking about? Religion! People just touting all this holy bull shit and getting cussed out by some one, THEN THEY CUSS'EM BACK!!! I'll be the first to say I have no problem with religion, but, what is with all the violent words? I'm sitting here. All I want to do is to listen to some good modern hard rock and all these religious nuts and atheist sign wavers are just cluttering up the damn place! I mean god, this is metal playing here, I'm tryng to forget my problems and THEY gotta be bringing me down with all of this negative shit. Have mercy!