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Discord Clean-up/Friendship Changes
Posted 4 months agoHello! A bit heavier of a journal be warned-
I'm.. the sort of person that has a hard time letting go.
But i'm changing that.
Or, trying to at least.
I've slowly gone through my discord friend's list and open DMs, and have begun narrowing them down. Closing old groups and chats that I used to desperately hold on to, for either the memories, or hope that a friendship could still potentially blossom or re-arise. I'm done wishing for something so... unrealistic.
And instead, I will create a reality in which I can reset myself. And hopefully, find more love for who I am now.
If i've un-added you as a friend there, either intentionally or by mistake, feel free to reach out to me if you've the motivation or desire to do so. I will give you an honest and blunt truth about my perspective of you, my regrets, and the reasoning behind my decision. Most of you I unfriended is because we haven't interacted in a really long time, or a heavier conversation needs to happen.
I do worry I may have made fair mistakes here, but for the sake of a full reset, I went very gun-ho. I am SO sorry if you were one of those mistakenly unadded.
My future goals in relation to this are to improve my social skills, and focus more on making like-minded and caring close friendships. I only want to share my time with those I can interact with both professionally, and personally. I want to be a real friend. Fantasy is fun, but Real friendship, is what I truly desire. The future is going to be better. I very, very very very veeeery much, look forward to getting to spend it with all of you that I can manage.
I'm.. the sort of person that has a hard time letting go.
But i'm changing that.
Or, trying to at least.
I've slowly gone through my discord friend's list and open DMs, and have begun narrowing them down. Closing old groups and chats that I used to desperately hold on to, for either the memories, or hope that a friendship could still potentially blossom or re-arise. I'm done wishing for something so... unrealistic.
And instead, I will create a reality in which I can reset myself. And hopefully, find more love for who I am now.
If i've un-added you as a friend there, either intentionally or by mistake, feel free to reach out to me if you've the motivation or desire to do so. I will give you an honest and blunt truth about my perspective of you, my regrets, and the reasoning behind my decision. Most of you I unfriended is because we haven't interacted in a really long time, or a heavier conversation needs to happen.
I do worry I may have made fair mistakes here, but for the sake of a full reset, I went very gun-ho. I am SO sorry if you were one of those mistakenly unadded.
My future goals in relation to this are to improve my social skills, and focus more on making like-minded and caring close friendships. I only want to share my time with those I can interact with both professionally, and personally. I want to be a real friend. Fantasy is fun, but Real friendship, is what I truly desire. The future is going to be better. I very, very very very veeeery much, look forward to getting to spend it with all of you that I can manage.
Heavy Updates And Gratitude
Posted 4 months agoHI!!! Been a while since i've done one of these!!! WOOOO
I was uh- originally supposed to post this on my birthday, Feb. 7th- but hey, at least i'm getting this out there now.
That aside, lots has been happening with me!
WORK: I was able to flex my work schedule to where it's significantly more comfortable, yay!! Still working a fair amount tho, 44-48 hours a week! Only days, no longer any nights!! Veeery nice change tbh. I'm still fairly miserable at my full-time job,, but I'm gonna keep pushing until I can land better!!
EUROPE: I also, survived my first Europe trip last year!!!! And I did have an alright time B) It's sooo different from my middle of nowhere American world,, but honestly, it's eye-opening to see just how different things are, as well as the similarities!!
PAST: I won't repeat everything said in my last life update journal but- 23, was a truly wonderful year of my life. Obtaining an alright full-time and semi-close to home job, as well as all my financial and personal accomplishments [more on that over here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10958171/ ], i'm, wondering how i'm gonna top it being 24..
RAMBLING/GOALS:
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I do, very much look forward to travelling even more this year! I will be travelling to Europe twice this year, to meet 2 more of my closest confidents. Already got both trips booked/paid for!! 1st one comes up SUPER soon!!!~ Less than 2 weeks away!~ Can't fuggin WAIT AAAAAAAA- I really do love to travel, and it's even more amazing that i'll get to meet these really special people in my life. Maybe i'll look into becoming a travel agent someday? Would love to share the joys of travel with others, I do book my own trips!
Travel aside, i've come to the decision, that I will be going back to college as soon as possible. The field I plan to pursue is within the health sciences field, specialized and extremely competitive to get into, and tbh I am still very mixed about pursuing it given my interests. I'm going to try tho! As I would make approx. 2.5x-3x my current income.. hooooly... I am hopeful all goes well! May share more down the line as long as things work out! Otherwise I won't ramble on it too too much as everything's still being worked out hehe.
My main goal for this year tho, was to simply work a lot, and save up money to afford my very own space! I could afford to be on my own now honestly, but[t]- owning a house would be better than renting, I believe? Truthfully- If I go back to college it may have to be an apartment,, which would kinda be aaah to me cuz I do very much just want my own house,, but I guess we'll just have to wait and see. Life's so damn expensive nowadays.
I still live with my family right now. And I love my family! I'm very lucky and grateful to have them, it beats not being completely alone. Ftmp! I do very much prefer my privacy. (you can imagine why hehehe~) Am very much looking forward to my own place so I may invite some very lucky/special goobers over someday. I, don't really have friends outside of those i've made here! I desperately hope that more of you peoples, with similar interests, and a love for real life, can be in my real life someday. That would be the dream.
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Tl;dr of the above:
My goals for the year - Travelling more, Going back to college, Making good money, Having own space/place, Making more real connections
With all that said and done...
This year didn't come without a cost. [Heavy talk incoming so skip this section if ya wanna avoid mental reflection!!]
MENTAL HEALTH:
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I've noticed.. i'm not enjoying things like i used to enjoy. Specifically, gaming, and some other social relationships/aspect of how I handle social situations. I, have come to develop strong symptoms.. of depression. Now- I do believe i've put myself on a path towards combating it. And I am still able to be happy. But my anxiety and fears, have been fluctuating so severely lately. I hold on too strongly to my past, and it fills me with the feelings of regret. Like I could have done better... I also know. That in regretting, i'm not allowing myself to move on. What's in the past, is in the past. It happened. And it cannot be changed. What matters is the present, not the past, or the future. It's.. hard to say that with how painful the past is, or even the dark thoughts of what could happen in the future. Dark thoughts in general just keep working there ways to the forefront of my thoughts, it's exhausting, disabling really.. but i'm done with it. I will change this around. I will not allow my metal health to remain this shitty. I committed to betterhelp therapy! ..admittedly i'm deeply upset with that platform as it didn't do shit for me unfortunately lmao. I have however been listening to Huberman Lab and other self help podcasts. Some of them i've found to be very educational and extremely helpful for diverting my thoughts back to more positive places. In the end, it's all up to me, and how strongly I wish for these changes in my life. Finding answers is never easy. But all we can do, is do our best. So I will!
Another thing i've been struggling with lately, is social avoidance, and failure to deal with social conflict like I used to. I feel too afraid to face conflict with my socials. I still ghost people. And it is a painful feeling inside. One I can't seem to shake. I don't want to hurt people period, even if I don't like the person!! Truthfully, I don't like many people!!! That's the honest truth!!!! Maybe it's just me lacking social skills in general? There is no easy way to tell somebody you don't like them... so instead I ghost them. Avoid them. This often happens because I can't find a way to let the negative feelings that follow through dealing with it, pass through. They stay with me, almost haunting me. I need it to stop bothering me. Or rather, I need to stop it from bothering me. I need to find a way to become socially stronger. Tell people off. And just be honest, even if it's harsh. I feel like i'm answering my own dilemmas through typing this all here but- honestly i'm not sure I can push myself to start that. Back to researching I guess! I do enjoy and value mental health help. And although I am struggling, I do love myself. And who I will be once i've conquered these mean mean demons inside.
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Tl;dr - I have developed depression :( but(t) I will persevere and overcome!! Love yourself
I enjoy this journey of life we're all on friends.
I hope and pray for the best alllll your ways my dear readers. Thank you all for reading or caring enough about this silly mint catboy, you can certainly expect aloooot more fun and love to come~
I was uh- originally supposed to post this on my birthday, Feb. 7th- but hey, at least i'm getting this out there now.
That aside, lots has been happening with me!
WORK: I was able to flex my work schedule to where it's significantly more comfortable, yay!! Still working a fair amount tho, 44-48 hours a week! Only days, no longer any nights!! Veeery nice change tbh. I'm still fairly miserable at my full-time job,, but I'm gonna keep pushing until I can land better!!
EUROPE: I also, survived my first Europe trip last year!!!! And I did have an alright time B) It's sooo different from my middle of nowhere American world,, but honestly, it's eye-opening to see just how different things are, as well as the similarities!!
PAST: I won't repeat everything said in my last life update journal but- 23, was a truly wonderful year of my life. Obtaining an alright full-time and semi-close to home job, as well as all my financial and personal accomplishments [more on that over here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10958171/ ], i'm, wondering how i'm gonna top it being 24..
RAMBLING/GOALS:
--
I do, very much look forward to travelling even more this year! I will be travelling to Europe twice this year, to meet 2 more of my closest confidents. Already got both trips booked/paid for!! 1st one comes up SUPER soon!!!~ Less than 2 weeks away!~ Can't fuggin WAIT AAAAAAAA- I really do love to travel, and it's even more amazing that i'll get to meet these really special people in my life. Maybe i'll look into becoming a travel agent someday? Would love to share the joys of travel with others, I do book my own trips!
Travel aside, i've come to the decision, that I will be going back to college as soon as possible. The field I plan to pursue is within the health sciences field, specialized and extremely competitive to get into, and tbh I am still very mixed about pursuing it given my interests. I'm going to try tho! As I would make approx. 2.5x-3x my current income.. hooooly... I am hopeful all goes well! May share more down the line as long as things work out! Otherwise I won't ramble on it too too much as everything's still being worked out hehe.
My main goal for this year tho, was to simply work a lot, and save up money to afford my very own space! I could afford to be on my own now honestly, but[t]- owning a house would be better than renting, I believe? Truthfully- If I go back to college it may have to be an apartment,, which would kinda be aaah to me cuz I do very much just want my own house,, but I guess we'll just have to wait and see. Life's so damn expensive nowadays.
I still live with my family right now. And I love my family! I'm very lucky and grateful to have them, it beats not being completely alone. Ftmp! I do very much prefer my privacy. (you can imagine why hehehe~) Am very much looking forward to my own place so I may invite some very lucky/special goobers over someday. I, don't really have friends outside of those i've made here! I desperately hope that more of you peoples, with similar interests, and a love for real life, can be in my real life someday. That would be the dream.
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Tl;dr of the above:
My goals for the year - Travelling more, Going back to college, Making good money, Having own space/place, Making more real connections
With all that said and done...
This year didn't come without a cost. [Heavy talk incoming so skip this section if ya wanna avoid mental reflection!!]
MENTAL HEALTH:
--
I've noticed.. i'm not enjoying things like i used to enjoy. Specifically, gaming, and some other social relationships/aspect of how I handle social situations. I, have come to develop strong symptoms.. of depression. Now- I do believe i've put myself on a path towards combating it. And I am still able to be happy. But my anxiety and fears, have been fluctuating so severely lately. I hold on too strongly to my past, and it fills me with the feelings of regret. Like I could have done better... I also know. That in regretting, i'm not allowing myself to move on. What's in the past, is in the past. It happened. And it cannot be changed. What matters is the present, not the past, or the future. It's.. hard to say that with how painful the past is, or even the dark thoughts of what could happen in the future. Dark thoughts in general just keep working there ways to the forefront of my thoughts, it's exhausting, disabling really.. but i'm done with it. I will change this around. I will not allow my metal health to remain this shitty. I committed to betterhelp therapy! ..admittedly i'm deeply upset with that platform as it didn't do shit for me unfortunately lmao. I have however been listening to Huberman Lab and other self help podcasts. Some of them i've found to be very educational and extremely helpful for diverting my thoughts back to more positive places. In the end, it's all up to me, and how strongly I wish for these changes in my life. Finding answers is never easy. But all we can do, is do our best. So I will!
Another thing i've been struggling with lately, is social avoidance, and failure to deal with social conflict like I used to. I feel too afraid to face conflict with my socials. I still ghost people. And it is a painful feeling inside. One I can't seem to shake. I don't want to hurt people period, even if I don't like the person!! Truthfully, I don't like many people!!! That's the honest truth!!!! Maybe it's just me lacking social skills in general? There is no easy way to tell somebody you don't like them... so instead I ghost them. Avoid them. This often happens because I can't find a way to let the negative feelings that follow through dealing with it, pass through. They stay with me, almost haunting me. I need it to stop bothering me. Or rather, I need to stop it from bothering me. I need to find a way to become socially stronger. Tell people off. And just be honest, even if it's harsh. I feel like i'm answering my own dilemmas through typing this all here but- honestly i'm not sure I can push myself to start that. Back to researching I guess! I do enjoy and value mental health help. And although I am struggling, I do love myself. And who I will be once i've conquered these mean mean demons inside.
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Tl;dr - I have developed depression :( but(t) I will persevere and overcome!! Love yourself
I enjoy this journey of life we're all on friends.
I hope and pray for the best alllll your ways my dear readers. Thank you all for reading or caring enough about this silly mint catboy, you can certainly expect aloooot more fun and love to come~
BattleSquadChamp -> MintyMiloCat
Posted 4 months agoHi!!! The new username appearance is kiiinda epic~
Just a small heads up as the journal title implies, this will be my username appearance here, and most other places moving forward!!
Although.. I guess the base roots here at least are unchangeable? In the sense if you're going to credit me in an art piece or as a commissioner, it's still gotta be put as |
BattleSquadChamp | and not | 
MintyMiloCat | ..that's gonna be interesting moving forward oh boy, we'll see what happens i guess!
P.s.
Update journal coming soon!!
Just a small heads up as the journal title implies, this will be my username appearance here, and most other places moving forward!!
Although.. I guess the base roots here at least are unchangeable? In the sense if you're going to credit me in an art piece or as a commissioner, it's still gotta be put as |
BattleSquadChamp | and not | 
MintyMiloCat | ..that's gonna be interesting moving forward oh boy, we'll see what happens i guess! P.s.
Update journal coming soon!!
Leaving America, EUROPE VACATION!!!(+updates!)
Posted 12 months agoBeen a looooong time since i've done a proper one of these!! Hello world! Friends!! Supporters!!! Random freaky freaks!!!!
It's nice to poke here again
Lots has changed with me! Spent the last half year working 60 hour weeks. Not the most fun i'll admit, but i'm glad to say i've survived and thrived because of it~
This year, I finished paying off my college loan in full, I bought and completely paid off my new car which i LOVE , and, by the time I’m posting this; i am currently in transit, travelling to Europe~ Leaving America for the first time in my life for a 2 week paid vacation…. It's SUPER exciting!!!!!! I'm, a nervous wreck about it, hahaha; but i feel i truly deserve this vacation, and i hope i can have lots of fun meeting my first real discord friend, in person~ also, hoping to re-piece together what it is i want to do with myself and where i would like to go with my life! I'm content with the 2 jobs i work now as they are close to home, and that i've now balanced it to be a bit more comfortable!! (About 45 hours a week instead of 60, yaaay) but i'm definitely, wanting a job where i feel more.. alive . Where i feel passion and joy in what i'm doing. That said i do value what i have now and will probably stick with it for another year or two, i just feel like i have more purpose elsewhere, and i need to make a push and find out what that is. I feel this Europe trip will be very enlightening!~
Ngl, It's been exhausting trying to manage socials,, in fact i haven't really managed them too well outside the very small handful of people I feel really do care about me. I am so happy and grateful to talk to them, and hang out with them every time i get a chance too. Thank you to all that have made it that far in my bubble, and a huge sorry to those that haven't found their way in! I am more selective than I used to be! I need to be. 1, because i'm bound to huge time restraints, 2, because i feel a lack of personal care or interest from them, 3 i feel i'm somewhat the problem myself, not being entirely honest with people. I’ve ghosted a few to fair amount of people in my years here and on discord. I’m, not proud of it, but I feel it was and is a necessary evil.. but, I don’t *want* to stay that way. I wanna start to be, more blunt, even if it prevents potential friendships. As much fantasy fun as I like to share and enjoy, I am very much a real boy, and this boy wants to live out a good reality. Lots of traveling cat times these next few years~
I want to upload here more! And be better about doing so too, I let it get so backlogged or wait a great many months before finally getting the motivation to post again,, it sucks! Because I truly do love sharing my commissioned arts with the world, especially to all of you reading this!!! Maybe someday I can spread Milo arts allll over the places, and have a lot more of you amazing peoples in my life~
Until then, thank you all so very much for reading this, and know this mint cat is wishing you alllllll the best in life~
It's nice to poke here again
Lots has changed with me! Spent the last half year working 60 hour weeks. Not the most fun i'll admit, but i'm glad to say i've survived and thrived because of it~
This year, I finished paying off my college loan in full, I bought and completely paid off my new car which i LOVE , and, by the time I’m posting this; i am currently in transit, travelling to Europe~ Leaving America for the first time in my life for a 2 week paid vacation…. It's SUPER exciting!!!!!! I'm, a nervous wreck about it, hahaha; but i feel i truly deserve this vacation, and i hope i can have lots of fun meeting my first real discord friend, in person~ also, hoping to re-piece together what it is i want to do with myself and where i would like to go with my life! I'm content with the 2 jobs i work now as they are close to home, and that i've now balanced it to be a bit more comfortable!! (About 45 hours a week instead of 60, yaaay) but i'm definitely, wanting a job where i feel more.. alive . Where i feel passion and joy in what i'm doing. That said i do value what i have now and will probably stick with it for another year or two, i just feel like i have more purpose elsewhere, and i need to make a push and find out what that is. I feel this Europe trip will be very enlightening!~
Ngl, It's been exhausting trying to manage socials,, in fact i haven't really managed them too well outside the very small handful of people I feel really do care about me. I am so happy and grateful to talk to them, and hang out with them every time i get a chance too. Thank you to all that have made it that far in my bubble, and a huge sorry to those that haven't found their way in! I am more selective than I used to be! I need to be. 1, because i'm bound to huge time restraints, 2, because i feel a lack of personal care or interest from them, 3 i feel i'm somewhat the problem myself, not being entirely honest with people. I’ve ghosted a few to fair amount of people in my years here and on discord. I’m, not proud of it, but I feel it was and is a necessary evil.. but, I don’t *want* to stay that way. I wanna start to be, more blunt, even if it prevents potential friendships. As much fantasy fun as I like to share and enjoy, I am very much a real boy, and this boy wants to live out a good reality. Lots of traveling cat times these next few years~
I want to upload here more! And be better about doing so too, I let it get so backlogged or wait a great many months before finally getting the motivation to post again,, it sucks! Because I truly do love sharing my commissioned arts with the world, especially to all of you reading this!!! Maybe someday I can spread Milo arts allll over the places, and have a lot more of you amazing peoples in my life~
Until then, thank you all so very much for reading this, and know this mint cat is wishing you alllllll the best in life~
Comm My Friends!!! Chance for Raffle!!!
Posted a year agoBingo Commission Opportunities hosted by my good buddy 
AxisDragon that also features 
Tenshi64
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55011733/
Highly Recommend Checking them out!!!!!!!
AxisDragon that also features 
Tenshi64 https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55011733/
Highly Recommend Checking them out!!!!!!!
2/7/23: but(t) i'm feeling 22
Posted 2 years agohttps://youtu.be/AgFeZr5ptV8
I had to
I HAD to
I'm very happy to be turning 22, simply so i can sing this whenever someone asks me my age, lmao
I'm going to abuse this for the next 365 days >:))))
Reflection! 21 went fast ,,, i drank a few times! but not a lot, which is good!! alcohol sucks but it can be fun in a safe environment! Not something to use lots cuz thaaat's when it's big oof, besides post drinking headaches ain't no fun at all hahaha. I'm hoping 22 goes slower,,, even if it's more crazy with workloads or what not, i'm craving more productiveness, more variety, and most of all, more fun!!! I want it all!!!!
Btw! I've been doing way better since my last journal thankfully!!! I refuse to live my life in fear, besides, I am happy to be here~
Still trying to figure out where to go now, cuz i gotta find something that is certainly more comfortable and safe! and hopefully fun!! I'll be honest, I sorta enjoyed working at 7-eleven when i did, mainly cuz i developed a steady routine and it worked well for me! The people made it what it was, equally awesome and awful haha. I'm excited to use the skills i've learned from there wherever i pursue next! Currently, I'm looking into post office jobs to hold me over, and am also pursuing a profession i don't wanna super talk about or go into yet cuz it's a tad idealistic: voice acting. I think it'd be fun and that i could do really well with loads of different areas of voice over, but we shall see! I am gonna stay realistic with myself. Taking a course on the field so i'll see what i can learn and if i can realistically put it to use it or not!~ Otherwise it's more searching for meeee. Just gonna keep doing my best and aim for better always!
I alsooooo, Got a biiiig backlog of art once again to prepare for uploading here!~ And i've had a bit of it prepared for a while now, but gotta keep on it cuz i'm big dumb for not just uploading stuff right away, aaaaaa. I'm gonna try and do better about that this year as well as keep getting fun stuff for me and you beautiful people reading/watching to hopefully enjoy tons~
I appreciate you all!!! Keep spreading the BEST vibes!!!!!!!
I had to
I HAD to
I'm very happy to be turning 22, simply so i can sing this whenever someone asks me my age, lmao
I'm going to abuse this for the next 365 days >:))))
Reflection! 21 went fast ,,, i drank a few times! but not a lot, which is good!! alcohol sucks but it can be fun in a safe environment! Not something to use lots cuz thaaat's when it's big oof, besides post drinking headaches ain't no fun at all hahaha. I'm hoping 22 goes slower,,, even if it's more crazy with workloads or what not, i'm craving more productiveness, more variety, and most of all, more fun!!! I want it all!!!!
Btw! I've been doing way better since my last journal thankfully!!! I refuse to live my life in fear, besides, I am happy to be here~
Still trying to figure out where to go now, cuz i gotta find something that is certainly more comfortable and safe! and hopefully fun!! I'll be honest, I sorta enjoyed working at 7-eleven when i did, mainly cuz i developed a steady routine and it worked well for me! The people made it what it was, equally awesome and awful haha. I'm excited to use the skills i've learned from there wherever i pursue next! Currently, I'm looking into post office jobs to hold me over, and am also pursuing a profession i don't wanna super talk about or go into yet cuz it's a tad idealistic: voice acting. I think it'd be fun and that i could do really well with loads of different areas of voice over, but we shall see! I am gonna stay realistic with myself. Taking a course on the field so i'll see what i can learn and if i can realistically put it to use it or not!~ Otherwise it's more searching for meeee. Just gonna keep doing my best and aim for better always!
I alsooooo, Got a biiiig backlog of art once again to prepare for uploading here!~ And i've had a bit of it prepared for a while now, but gotta keep on it cuz i'm big dumb for not just uploading stuff right away, aaaaaa. I'm gonna try and do better about that this year as well as keep getting fun stuff for me and you beautiful people reading/watching to hopefully enjoy tons~
I appreciate you all!!! Keep spreading the BEST vibes!!!!!!!
Scary shit, but there will be better days
Posted 2 years agoHi all!! Been a while since i've posted a journal, but i'm still here!
Thankfully! I'm, very happy to be alive.
I,, feel the need to bring this up somewhere, because i don't wanna like, dm or disturb everyone on discord about it, but i do want people to know,, cuz i've told the story what feels to be about a hundred times now,, and it just gets more painful each time. I'm way more shaken than I'd like to be.
This gets real below, please do not read if you're sensitive to this kind of stuff, because it is real, scary shit, and i don't want others to stress too too hard over me. (Will have a safer less detailed tl;dr version underneath the spoilered telling of the incident below)
For those that didn't know, I've been working overnights at my local gas station for a little over a year now. I live in the middle of nowhere in a safe and secluded village that i'm really grateful to have grown up in, separated from most of the scary shit in the world. On 12/21/2022, I worked overnight that night, and I was robbed. A disguised customer, who i'm 100% certain isn't from around here, came in with a sledge hammer, not a gun thank god,,, but he was very verbally threatening, and he even threatened my life. He demanded me to give him the money from the register and the most expensive cigarettes,, all the while smashing in things with said sledge hammer. I, obeyed, and was very compliant, because i believe my life more important than anything in that store. Even so,, i just, feel awful. Like i wish there was more i could have done,, but i followed the store's rules to a T, and i'm alive because of that. Everytime i play it back in my head i'm hit with emotion and fear,, because any one of those things he smashed, could have been me... It's terrifying to think about, but i can't stress enough, to others AND myself, that i am okay, and i am safe, i'm just very, understandably shaken by this horror of an incident.
The safer tl;dr is that i got robbed working at the store i work at, i was threatened, and could have lost my life. but i didn't, i am safe, and i will be okay,, I just, need to take some time to recover.
I want to thank you all for supporting me, not just because of this shit, but through all the years i've been around and present on FA and discord, I truly love all my friends, respect all you acquaintances and peaceful strangers, and i most certainly appreciate all of you that don't rob stores and traumatize others like this. Thank you all for all the support.
I'm going to keep spreading the good vibes, got lots of fun stuff ahead once i'm through the nastiness! Until then, please keep up the positivity, because happiness makes life worth living. It's something I value greatly and want for all, and i can't wait to be through this mess to hopefully, keep making y'all smile.
Thankfully! I'm, very happy to be alive.
I,, feel the need to bring this up somewhere, because i don't wanna like, dm or disturb everyone on discord about it, but i do want people to know,, cuz i've told the story what feels to be about a hundred times now,, and it just gets more painful each time. I'm way more shaken than I'd like to be.
This gets real below, please do not read if you're sensitive to this kind of stuff, because it is real, scary shit, and i don't want others to stress too too hard over me. (Will have a safer less detailed tl;dr version underneath the spoilered telling of the incident below)
For those that didn't know, I've been working overnights at my local gas station for a little over a year now. I live in the middle of nowhere in a safe and secluded village that i'm really grateful to have grown up in, separated from most of the scary shit in the world. On 12/21/2022, I worked overnight that night, and I was robbed. A disguised customer, who i'm 100% certain isn't from around here, came in with a sledge hammer, not a gun thank god,,, but he was very verbally threatening, and he even threatened my life. He demanded me to give him the money from the register and the most expensive cigarettes,, all the while smashing in things with said sledge hammer. I, obeyed, and was very compliant, because i believe my life more important than anything in that store. Even so,, i just, feel awful. Like i wish there was more i could have done,, but i followed the store's rules to a T, and i'm alive because of that. Everytime i play it back in my head i'm hit with emotion and fear,, because any one of those things he smashed, could have been me... It's terrifying to think about, but i can't stress enough, to others AND myself, that i am okay, and i am safe, i'm just very, understandably shaken by this horror of an incident.
The safer tl;dr is that i got robbed working at the store i work at, i was threatened, and could have lost my life. but i didn't, i am safe, and i will be okay,, I just, need to take some time to recover.
I want to thank you all for supporting me, not just because of this shit, but through all the years i've been around and present on FA and discord, I truly love all my friends, respect all you acquaintances and peaceful strangers, and i most certainly appreciate all of you that don't rob stores and traumatize others like this. Thank you all for all the support.
I'm going to keep spreading the good vibes, got lots of fun stuff ahead once i'm through the nastiness! Until then, please keep up the positivity, because happiness makes life worth living. It's something I value greatly and want for all, and i can't wait to be through this mess to hopefully, keep making y'all smile.
Lots of Art Incoming! and Life Update!
Posted 3 years agoHey there! This journal is just to say, be ready, for lots of 'spaghetti'. Idc if that was lame i'm going for it, anyways that's codeword for I got a lot of neat art backlogged that's finally going to be posted starting tonight! and more in-progress coming within these next weeks!! and even more new arts coming after that!!! So look forward to it :D
Now that college for me is over, I plan to be a little more present here. I haven't been keeping up with a lot, with college I just couldn't make time for it. I Sacrificed a lot for college, and am happy to have obtained my associates degree after 3 intense years between part-time and full-time classes. Covid really threw a wrench into my plans, but honestly, I'm still very happy with what I have accomplished and to finally go on with my next steps in life. Heck, I even finished my last semester with straight A's, which was a very nice way to end it omggg. My plans have completely changed since I started college, but that's not a bad thing, for I still have ideas and have learnt more about the kind of stuff I enjoy and would make a successfully living off of! Nothing is ever really set in stone, but Above all else, I am going to do my best to keep up the good stuff!!! Wishing the best for all y'all out there, and thanks for reading and/or appreciating my gallery over the years! Keep keeping the good vibes~
Now that college for me is over, I plan to be a little more present here. I haven't been keeping up with a lot, with college I just couldn't make time for it. I Sacrificed a lot for college, and am happy to have obtained my associates degree after 3 intense years between part-time and full-time classes. Covid really threw a wrench into my plans, but honestly, I'm still very happy with what I have accomplished and to finally go on with my next steps in life. Heck, I even finished my last semester with straight A's, which was a very nice way to end it omggg. My plans have completely changed since I started college, but that's not a bad thing, for I still have ideas and have learnt more about the kind of stuff I enjoy and would make a successfully living off of! Nothing is ever really set in stone, but Above all else, I am going to do my best to keep up the good stuff!!! Wishing the best for all y'all out there, and thanks for reading and/or appreciating my gallery over the years! Keep keeping the good vibes~
Hitting that big two zero~
Posted 4 years agoWith posting this journal, my date of birth has passed yet again~ I am now a 20 year old. hooooooly dicks
It was truly a really good birthday!!! Already better than last year cuz I got to spend a lot of great time with my family!!!
At the same time it was strange, outside of my family, friends/others i've talked to on the norm haven't said a word to me, and honestly that feeling kinda sucks. It's just a day and all and i'm probably just being a tad too emotional but i feel the need to express my thoughts somewhere at least to give me some peace of mind..
Birthdays have always had a special place in my heart, one bigger than any other holiday because it celebrates the existence of both myself, those i hold dear to me, and all of life really. I just wanna say i'm thankful to all of you who have been in my life. Even despite my oof feeling i feel great! I want people to know that they have influenced me for the better and that their life in this world matters to me. Thank you to all supporting me
Thankfully I still have a good, honest, and realistic mindset for the approaching future! 19 was a great year of life for me and i can't wait to see what the big two zero has in store for me~
I fully intend to make this next year of my life another amazing one by building up my life skills and furthering my knowledge/education of how I will become the future me i wish to be, the me that'll run a hella nice ice cream business~
I'm looking forward to the good and great things that await and thank you all so very much again for supporting me and my silly shenanigans thus far! Expect more fun to come!!!
It was truly a really good birthday!!! Already better than last year cuz I got to spend a lot of great time with my family!!!
At the same time it was strange, outside of my family, friends/others i've talked to on the norm haven't said a word to me, and honestly that feeling kinda sucks. It's just a day and all and i'm probably just being a tad too emotional but i feel the need to express my thoughts somewhere at least to give me some peace of mind..
Birthdays have always had a special place in my heart, one bigger than any other holiday because it celebrates the existence of both myself, those i hold dear to me, and all of life really. I just wanna say i'm thankful to all of you who have been in my life. Even despite my oof feeling i feel great! I want people to know that they have influenced me for the better and that their life in this world matters to me. Thank you to all supporting me
Thankfully I still have a good, honest, and realistic mindset for the approaching future! 19 was a great year of life for me and i can't wait to see what the big two zero has in store for me~
I fully intend to make this next year of my life another amazing one by building up my life skills and furthering my knowledge/education of how I will become the future me i wish to be, the me that'll run a hella nice ice cream business~
I'm looking forward to the good and great things that await and thank you all so very much again for supporting me and my silly shenanigans thus far! Expect more fun to come!!!
FA submission issues [Fixed for Now!]
Posted 4 years agoFA's being strange right now, granted its almost 7 am my time but be wary of uploading things until FA fixes itself.
I may be deleting/reuploading some of my more recent pieces because of this, will update journal when I figure out what exactly is going on, be ready for a FA crash just in case
btwwwww Merry Christmas, happy holidays, and happy new year to all!~ Best wishes from this silly mint and Let's make the most of it everyone~
EDIT:
I logged on today and everything appeared to be resolved! I think FA is good for now, it must've been some kind of late night downtime perhaps? The issue I had last night was with the tags while uploading the piece, they wouldn't show up on the right or through the tag search even after I had already put them into the submission. Because of this I was alarmed when I tag searched for my piece and it wouldn't show up, which bothered me since that's how I rely on sharing my gallery with those who are interested in seeing it. I'm still not 100% sure why I was having trouble with getting the tags to show up in the first place but it did happen for my most recent submission. It appears to be fine now and I'm glad it is working properly again!
I may be deleting/reuploading some of my more recent pieces because of this, will update journal when I figure out what exactly is going on, be ready for a FA crash just in case
btwwwww Merry Christmas, happy holidays, and happy new year to all!~ Best wishes from this silly mint and Let's make the most of it everyone~
EDIT:
I logged on today and everything appeared to be resolved! I think FA is good for now, it must've been some kind of late night downtime perhaps? The issue I had last night was with the tags while uploading the piece, they wouldn't show up on the right or through the tag search even after I had already put them into the submission. Because of this I was alarmed when I tag searched for my piece and it wouldn't show up, which bothered me since that's how I rely on sharing my gallery with those who are interested in seeing it. I'm still not 100% sure why I was having trouble with getting the tags to show up in the first place but it did happen for my most recent submission. It appears to be fine now and I'm glad it is working properly again!
11/09: Milo Cat's Day of Creation~
Posted 5 years ago11/09/2019 is the day that Milo the Cat was created!~ Today is 11/09/2020, meaning it has been a full year since the day of Milo's creation~
It's crazy to envision that it has been a whole year since this minty goofball came into the world~ I look back at all the pieces of this heck and it fills me with such happiness to see how much growth and amazingness this goofball has gone through over the times
There is always room for more improvement and I strive to keep up all the goodie goodness as the times go on~
Thank you to all of the friends I've made on this lively adventure, Thank you to all of the artists that have helped bring life to Milo Cat, and Thank you all so very very much for supporting this minty goofball over the course of his silly journey~
Know that there's much more minty silliness in store for the future and I wish you all the best as time goes on!!!
It's crazy to envision that it has been a whole year since this minty goofball came into the world~ I look back at all the pieces of this heck and it fills me with such happiness to see how much growth and amazingness this goofball has gone through over the times
There is always room for more improvement and I strive to keep up all the goodie goodness as the times go on~
Thank you to all of the friends I've made on this lively adventure, Thank you to all of the artists that have helped bring life to Milo Cat, and Thank you all so very very much for supporting this minty goofball over the course of his silly journey~
Know that there's much more minty silliness in store for the future and I wish you all the best as time goes on!!!
KAN0101 Raffle!
Posted 5 years agoThe lovely and amazing 
KAN0101 is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37891638/ Feel free to join and show support!!!
KAN0101 is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37891638/ Feel free to join and show support!!! Thank you All for your Favs!!!
Posted 5 years agoI've been receiving an ENORMOUS amount of Favs as of late!!! Normally I go and leave shouts thanking each and every individual for the favs but due to the 100+ faves (Holy heck) in such a short period of time I'm making a journal!~ I think i'm done with leaving shouts for now too, but always know that i will forever be grateful to any favs you all award and honor my gallery with~
I truly appreciate the support I receive from all of you out there~ I plan to get more silly masterpieces as time goes on and I'm happy to see that others also enjoy in my weirdness~ Thankies again!!!~
I truly appreciate the support I receive from all of you out there~ I plan to get more silly masterpieces as time goes on and I'm happy to see that others also enjoy in my weirdness~ Thankies again!!!~
LittleBadWolf Raffle!
Posted 5 years agoThe lovely 
LittleBadWolf is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37076422/ Feel free to join and show support!!!
LittleBadWolf is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37076422/ Feel free to join and show support!!! Opunea Raffle!
Posted 5 years agoThe lovely 
Opunea is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36762630/ Feel free to join and show support!!!
Opunea is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36762630/ Feel free to join and show support!!! SiriusSternweg Raffle!
Posted 5 years agoThe lovely 
SiriusSternweg is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36827050/ Feel free to join and show support!!!
SiriusSternweg is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36827050/ Feel free to join and show support!!! There's 100 of you?!
Posted 5 years agoI looked at my watch count tonight and holy heck!!! Thank you all so very much!!!!!
100 watchers is a pretty amazing milestone for a random heck like myself~
I fully intend to keep putting out the pieces I continue to get overtime and I'm truly happy that all of you are supporting me on my strange journey!~
Thank you all so very much~ Stay awesome and Best Wishes!!!~
100 watchers is a pretty amazing milestone for a random heck like myself~
I fully intend to keep putting out the pieces I continue to get overtime and I'm truly happy that all of you are supporting me on my strange journey!~
Thank you all so very much~ Stay awesome and Best Wishes!!!~
ZoomkaWoker Raffle!
Posted 5 years agoThe lovely 
ZoomkaWoker is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36541715/ Feel free to join and show support!!!
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Posted 5 years agoThe lovely 
Tischa is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36630117/ Feel free to join and show support!!!
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Posted 5 years agoThe lovely 
Elessa is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36596381/ Feel free to join and show support!!!
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Posted 5 years agoThe lovely 
HieloDogWolf is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9459939/ Feel free to join and show support!!!
HieloDogWolf is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9459939/ Feel free to join and show support!!! Impfangs raffle!
Posted 5 years agoThe lovely 
impfangs is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9454685 Feel free to join and support the goal!
impfangs is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9454685 Feel free to join and support the goal! Public Customize-able Discord Server
Posted 5 years agoAfter long internal debating, I have decided to create my very own public discord server! I made it so those who enter may customize their accesses to whatever they want so that you're only able to view and use the channels you'd like to use rather than one's you may prefer not to use~ Here is the link, I honestly don't who or how many may join but know that I'd welcome you all and I appreciate anybody who does~ Link to Mint Mansion Here: https://discord.gg/gJP9d5P
Whimsinix raffle!
Posted 5 years agoThe lovely 
whimsinix is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9408180/ Feel free to join if you feel like it!
whimsinix is hosting a raffle here! https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9408180/ Feel free to join if you feel like it! Moving up in the world~ XD
Posted 5 years agoI was born today, Feb. 7th... yaaaay~ Not sure if I'm ready for a whole new year of life but hey, I will make the most of it~ Thank you all so very much for supporting me and Stay Awesome y'all~
