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General | Posted 13 years agoI'm going to be in Maryland this weekend. I leave Friday but I'll be very busy tomorrow getting packed and stuff after work. We're going to see my little sister graduate and visit some friends. :)
I'll be back Sunday afternoon. See ya'll later! Wish me luck on the flight! ;w;
I'll be back Sunday afternoon. See ya'll later! Wish me luck on the flight! ;w;
I have never been so tired.
General | Posted 13 years agoThe last few days have been absolute hell, and I'm exhausted, both emotionally and physically.
I need a vacation.
Gonna be scarce for a bit. Take it easy, folks.
I need a vacation.
Gonna be scarce for a bit. Take it easy, folks.
wat
General | Posted 13 years agoStarted my laptop up just to see if it might work out of half-hearted optimism.
Everything's back to normal.
What.
The Universe has got to be fucking with me. xD
Everything's back to normal.
What.
The Universe has got to be fucking with me. xD
Laptop is broken.
General | Posted 13 years agoCompletely. Can't use it at all.
I'm using Carrot's laptop in the meantime. We're going to try to get some compressed air someday when we can afford it to clean it out and see if that works but we have no idea if that'll help or when that will be, since we're already late with rent thanks to how paychecks worked out this month.
It's saying the cooling fan is broken and shuts down immediately on startup.
I'm so fucking sick of this kind of shit happening. If it's not one thing, it's another.
I'm using Carrot's laptop in the meantime. We're going to try to get some compressed air someday when we can afford it to clean it out and see if that works but we have no idea if that'll help or when that will be, since we're already late with rent thanks to how paychecks worked out this month.
It's saying the cooling fan is broken and shuts down immediately on startup.
I'm so fucking sick of this kind of shit happening. If it's not one thing, it's another.
Meme
General | Posted 13 years agoJust to get my last journal off the page. :I
ALL | ABOUT | ME
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- Name: Bee
- Single or taken: Very much taken. <3
- Sex: Female
- Birthday: 8/29/91
- Sign: Stop!
- Hair color: Brownish.
- Eye color: Hazel, usually green, occasionally bright yellow.
- Height: 5'5"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: None of the above. I am pansexual.
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S P E C I F I C S
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Currently something passion fruit scented by Suave, but I really like the Aveeno kinds. They're too expensive for me to buy right now though. :C
- What are you listening to right now?: Trickling water from my cat's water fountain and the air conditioning.
- Who is the last person that called you?: carrotwolf's dad.
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F A V O R I T E S
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- Animal: African Wild Dog, horse, alpaca, rat, serval. :I
- Color: Purple.
- Drink: Currently Blueberry Pomegranate Gatorade. Overall, though, probably apple cider, even though it makes me sick.
- Element: Fire.
- Food: Good venison steak, the way my dad prepares and cooks it. <3
- Play: Phantom of the Opera.
- Song: Ain't No Rest for the Wicked - Cage the Elephant
- Subjects in school: I enjoyed English, Forensics, and Psychology and Sociology.
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H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
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- Given anyone a bath: Every weekend of my life for like six years xD
- Smoked?: Yup, smoked for about six months before carrotwolf pulled me out of my depression and gave me something to live for. Quit immediately.
- Jumped from a high place attached to an elastic string?: No.
- Made yourself throw up?: Absolutely not. :C Throwing up is the worst.
- Skinny dipped?: No, but I want to. :c
- Ever been in love?: Absolutely yes.
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Never got me out of anything xD
- Pictured your crush naked?: I see him naked pretty much every night, so...
- Actually seen your crush naked?: Yesssss |3
- Cried when someone died?: Yes.
- Lied: Quite a lot.
- Fallen for your best friend?: Yes. <3 Now I'm living with him.
- Used someone?: Sadly yes.
- Done something you regret?: Yes, but life's too short to look back on it.
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C U R R E N T
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- Clothes: Red plaid pajama pants that I stole from my father and a soft black knit shirt I stole from Jake. I never wear my own clothes, lol
- Desktop portrait: Some bigass armored dude throwing his arms open to a dragon and yelling "COME AT ME BRO".
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L A S T | P E R S O N
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- You touched:
- Hugged:
- You kissed:
- You sent a letter to: It's been awhile. Um. Probably my old friend in middle school who went to a different highschool than the rest of us xD
- Talk to:
- You sexed it up with: |3
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A R E | Y O U
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- Understanding?: I try to be.
- Open-minded?: Yes, I think I am. It might take me awhile to accept certain concepts, but I'm open to pretty much any argument.
- Arrogant?: I don't think so. I'm very down on myself.
- Insecure?: Yes. Not nearly as much as I once was, or at least in different ways, but yes.
- Random?: This is a middle school girls' term that has no application to adults :I
- Hungry?: Almost always.
- Smart?: Not really.
- Moody?: Sometimes.
- Organized?: No, but I am neat. If things are super messy I get depressed and panicky. Yay OCD.
- Shy?: Surprisingly, I can be at times. xD When around artists I admire I get very tongue tied.
- Difficult?: Yeah, probably. I'm stubborn and I don't like being told 'no'.
- Bored easily?: Not really.
- Entertained?: Yeah.
- Obsessed?: Very much so. I have a slightly addictive personality. It's hard not to obsess over things I'm really into; I have to be very careful not to dive into things headfirst.
- Lazy?: I can be very lazy, yes. xD
- Angry?: Yup. I'm kind of bitter. There is a lot of hate built up inside of me.
- Happy?: Overall, yes. I love my life. <3
- Hyper?: See "random"
- Trusting?: I used to be, but...not so much anymore, honestly.
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R A N D O M
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- In the morning I: sleep.
- Love is: The most incredible thing I've ever experienced.
- I dream about: nightmares. Almost every night.
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Eyes, smile.
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D O | Y O U | E V E R
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- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Yes, very frequently.
- Wish you were younger?: Not yet xD
- Cry because someone said something to you?: XD Yes, I'm a baby when my feelings get hurt.
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N U M B E R
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: Four.
- Of scars on my body: ...a lot.
- Of bones I've broken: Eight to ten. Most of my toes have been broken at some point or another. xD Damn horses
- Of times you've been on bottom during-: Too many to count; we have sex a lot :3
ALL | ABOUT | ME
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- Name: Bee
- Single or taken: Very much taken. <3
- Sex: Female
- Birthday: 8/29/91
- Sign: Stop!
- Hair color: Brownish.
- Eye color: Hazel, usually green, occasionally bright yellow.
- Height: 5'5"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: None of the above. I am pansexual.
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S P E C I F I C S
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Currently something passion fruit scented by Suave, but I really like the Aveeno kinds. They're too expensive for me to buy right now though. :C
- What are you listening to right now?: Trickling water from my cat's water fountain and the air conditioning.
- Who is the last person that called you?: carrotwolf's dad.
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F A V O R I T E S
____________________________________________________________________________
- Animal: African Wild Dog, horse, alpaca, rat, serval. :I
- Color: Purple.
- Drink: Currently Blueberry Pomegranate Gatorade. Overall, though, probably apple cider, even though it makes me sick.
- Element: Fire.
- Food: Good venison steak, the way my dad prepares and cooks it. <3
- Play: Phantom of the Opera.
- Song: Ain't No Rest for the Wicked - Cage the Elephant
- Subjects in school: I enjoyed English, Forensics, and Psychology and Sociology.
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H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
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- Given anyone a bath: Every weekend of my life for like six years xD
- Smoked?: Yup, smoked for about six months before carrotwolf pulled me out of my depression and gave me something to live for. Quit immediately.
- Jumped from a high place attached to an elastic string?: No.
- Made yourself throw up?: Absolutely not. :C Throwing up is the worst.
- Skinny dipped?: No, but I want to. :c
- Ever been in love?: Absolutely yes.
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Never got me out of anything xD
- Pictured your crush naked?: I see him naked pretty much every night, so...
- Actually seen your crush naked?: Yesssss |3
- Cried when someone died?: Yes.
- Lied: Quite a lot.
- Fallen for your best friend?: Yes. <3 Now I'm living with him.
- Used someone?: Sadly yes.
- Done something you regret?: Yes, but life's too short to look back on it.
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C U R R E N T
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- Clothes: Red plaid pajama pants that I stole from my father and a soft black knit shirt I stole from Jake. I never wear my own clothes, lol
- Desktop portrait: Some bigass armored dude throwing his arms open to a dragon and yelling "COME AT ME BRO".
____________________________________________________________________________
L A S T | P E R S O N
____________________________________________________________________________
- You touched:
- Hugged:
- You kissed:
- You sent a letter to: It's been awhile. Um. Probably my old friend in middle school who went to a different highschool than the rest of us xD
- Talk to:
- You sexed it up with:
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A R E | Y O U
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- Understanding?: I try to be.
- Open-minded?: Yes, I think I am. It might take me awhile to accept certain concepts, but I'm open to pretty much any argument.
- Arrogant?: I don't think so. I'm very down on myself.
- Insecure?: Yes. Not nearly as much as I once was, or at least in different ways, but yes.
- Random?: This is a middle school girls' term that has no application to adults :I
- Hungry?: Almost always.
- Smart?: Not really.
- Moody?: Sometimes.
- Organized?: No, but I am neat. If things are super messy I get depressed and panicky. Yay OCD.
- Shy?: Surprisingly, I can be at times. xD When around artists I admire I get very tongue tied.
- Difficult?: Yeah, probably. I'm stubborn and I don't like being told 'no'.
- Bored easily?: Not really.
- Entertained?: Yeah.
- Obsessed?: Very much so. I have a slightly addictive personality. It's hard not to obsess over things I'm really into; I have to be very careful not to dive into things headfirst.
- Lazy?: I can be very lazy, yes. xD
- Angry?: Yup. I'm kind of bitter. There is a lot of hate built up inside of me.
- Happy?: Overall, yes. I love my life. <3
- Hyper?: See "random"
- Trusting?: I used to be, but...not so much anymore, honestly.
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R A N D O M
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- In the morning I: sleep.
- Love is: The most incredible thing I've ever experienced.
- I dream about: nightmares. Almost every night.
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Eyes, smile.
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D O | Y O U | E V E R
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- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Yes, very frequently.
- Wish you were younger?: Not yet xD
- Cry because someone said something to you?: XD Yes, I'm a baby when my feelings get hurt.
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N U M B E R
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: Four.
- Of scars on my body: ...a lot.
- Of bones I've broken: Eight to ten. Most of my toes have been broken at some point or another. xD Damn horses
- Of times you've been on bottom during-: Too many to count; we have sex a lot :3
Some personal thoughts.
General | Posted 13 years agoWARNING: THIS IS FULL OF PERSONAL THOUGHTS AND INFORMATION. IF YOU ARE AFRAID OF READING SOMETHING THAT MIGHT BE "TMI", PLEASE DO NOT READ ON. DON'T COMMENT ALL BUTTHURT BECAUSE YOU DISAGREE OR ARE OFFENDED - YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
So, there will be quite a bit more male Bee art forthcoming, and I think it's fair to explain why here so that people don't have to comment on my submissions in confusion and betrayal because of the sudden lack of ladyparts.
I don't think it'd be fair to try to align myself with the communities of transgenderism because I'm not sure that's exactly my situation.
Similarly, I don't think just calling myself a 'tomboy' is accurate, so I can't really be satisfied with that.
What it comes down to is that no matter what, I'm just unsatisfied with my body. I'm not saying that being male would necessarily help that; I might be just as insecure with a male body. And being male would also extinguish Carrot's and my hope to one day have our own children, which is already going to be tough enough given my endometriosis. But I very much dislike the way I feel in the body I've grown into - my chest is the biggest issue, but I also find myself extremely dissatisfied with having female genitals. They hurt, they're fragile, and due to my past abuse I have to take precautions and be super careful and it's just a massive pain.
Sexually speaking, it's tough to be as dominant as my personality and my fantasies drive me to be when I'm the one "taking" it. :I And despite what porn might tell you, strap-ons are only so stimulating. Most of my satisfaction when pegging Carrot comes from mental stimulation, less so physical. I can't help feeling like we're missing out on a whole other spectrum of experiences I might feel a lot more confident taking the upper hand in, and it's exceedingly frustrating to have no ability to explore those experiences, no matter how satisfying and wonderful our sex life as a heterosexual couple is (and oh god is it ever).
As I put it to another friend earlier, I don't know how willing I'd be to change my body via surgery or whatever. I've dreamed about having children my whole life, and I certainly will never do anything now that would wreck that possibility. But if I was to be given the option of choosing my "dream" body, to have been born with and for everyone to have always perceived me with including myself, I think I'd definitely switch to male.
So, while I will never, ever deny myself to be female IRL, nor will I do any sort of surgery or hormone therapy to try to change my appearance or physical identity other than diet and exercise, there is going to be a lot more male Bee art. Furry art is one of the few ways in which I can indulge these fantasies with no limitations, and I intend to take full advantage of that, because honestly, what else can I do?
TL;DR -- bawww having gender identity issues, watch out for more gay porn featuring my usually female fursona as a guy with a big glowing dick.
So, there will be quite a bit more male Bee art forthcoming, and I think it's fair to explain why here so that people don't have to comment on my submissions in confusion and betrayal because of the sudden lack of ladyparts.
I don't think it'd be fair to try to align myself with the communities of transgenderism because I'm not sure that's exactly my situation.
Similarly, I don't think just calling myself a 'tomboy' is accurate, so I can't really be satisfied with that.
What it comes down to is that no matter what, I'm just unsatisfied with my body. I'm not saying that being male would necessarily help that; I might be just as insecure with a male body. And being male would also extinguish Carrot's and my hope to one day have our own children, which is already going to be tough enough given my endometriosis. But I very much dislike the way I feel in the body I've grown into - my chest is the biggest issue, but I also find myself extremely dissatisfied with having female genitals. They hurt, they're fragile, and due to my past abuse I have to take precautions and be super careful and it's just a massive pain.
Sexually speaking, it's tough to be as dominant as my personality and my fantasies drive me to be when I'm the one "taking" it. :I And despite what porn might tell you, strap-ons are only so stimulating. Most of my satisfaction when pegging Carrot comes from mental stimulation, less so physical. I can't help feeling like we're missing out on a whole other spectrum of experiences I might feel a lot more confident taking the upper hand in, and it's exceedingly frustrating to have no ability to explore those experiences, no matter how satisfying and wonderful our sex life as a heterosexual couple is (and oh god is it ever).
As I put it to another friend earlier, I don't know how willing I'd be to change my body via surgery or whatever. I've dreamed about having children my whole life, and I certainly will never do anything now that would wreck that possibility. But if I was to be given the option of choosing my "dream" body, to have been born with and for everyone to have always perceived me with including myself, I think I'd definitely switch to male.
So, while I will never, ever deny myself to be female IRL, nor will I do any sort of surgery or hormone therapy to try to change my appearance or physical identity other than diet and exercise, there is going to be a lot more male Bee art. Furry art is one of the few ways in which I can indulge these fantasies with no limitations, and I intend to take full advantage of that, because honestly, what else can I do?
TL;DR -- bawww having gender identity issues, watch out for more gay porn featuring my usually female fursona as a guy with a big glowing dick.
Hey guys!
General | Posted 13 years agoI love you all and I adore getting notes and stuff, but please, if you're commissioning me or have already commissioned me and want to check up on the status of your art, please message me over at my art only account! X3;;
ALL ART/COMMISSION RELATED CONVERSATION GOES OVER THERE, PLEASE C:
From now on, inquiries about commissions made to this account will be ignored. <3 Please take notice! :3
Elliot's Spring Gathering Wrapup
General | Posted 13 years agoSo! After an absolutely exhausting three days, I am a very happy, but very tired wolf. @w@
The first day started out really promising but as soon as we got there, I was starving. I shelled out five bucks for a hot dog at the hotel food bar thingy they had set up and omnommed it pretty slowly as I took a glance around the arcade, dipped briefly into the artists' lounge, and then was ushered into and watched a puppeteering seminar with mintbutt.
Shortly after finishing said hot dog, I found myself pleading with miyuu to go lay down in the room she was sharing with several others. I was very, very sick. BAM. Food poisoning that lasted until around 8pm. :( Worst first day of my first con ever. I couldn't even walk without needing to throw up ;~; Poor carrotwolf was super worried about me and wanted to take me to a hospital! But my buddies took good care of me, and miyuu and mintbutt even went out and bought me a special purple toothbrush to help me feel better. c: It worked.
Luckily I was feeling much better by that evening and decided to sit in the then-empty artists' lounge to doodle a bit. I did a few freebies for a few random people, found myself really enjoying drawing, and decided I might try to actually reel in a few commissions the next day. By the time we headed to bed I'd done quite a bit of drawing and a bit of a crowd had accumulated in the room so it was nice to meet some new people! tartii even showed up and started doodling at the table behind me! ;w;
I met some really incredible people that night and the following day - amethystthedragon flopped down next to me and drew me a supercute badge, marcius and zeeka were super adorable and supportive and gave me lots of hugs and money and love over the weekend, and we finally got to meet zanderwolf and his lady in person! :P
So, the morning of the second day, I planted my ass at a table with catldr24 (iwho was making calligraphy fans with kanji on 'em) and started drawing. To my shock (and pleasure) I wound up making over $100 sitting at that table doing traditional badges and sketches. O_____O WHAAAT. I couldn't believe so many people liked my crappy messy sketches! ;w; Thank you all soooo much. It really made me feel a lot more confident about my artwork and I found myself really enjoying drawing for the first time in a really, really long time.
We hung out there til pretty late, and carrotwolf and I messed around in the arcade for a bit. We walked around for a little while and checked out the suiters, and saw some SUPER cute ones...and I got my shoes stolen by tartii! >:C She hid one of them under a table and I had to go find it. Silly cat!
I spent most of this morning sitting in the lounge again, makin' some more cash, before we headed off to Disney World! That was...a little confusing at first xD We got some misinformation and rather than taking the shuttle from Downtown Disney to Magic Kingdom (since three seperate Disney employees insisted it didn't exist) we just drove there and parked. We had an AWESOME day though - we hung out with a TON of furries (Lieutenant Asshole, Dick Asshole, Evil Jesus, Rose, am I missing anyone?) and even though it rained like crazy for a bit, we had a great time. <3 Even though I was pretty sure I might die on Space Mountain.
When we got back to mintbutt's house, we packed up our stuff...and one of her cats. Yep, we took a kitty home this weekend! :D She's a beautiful tortoiseshell kitten named Adler (we call her Addie) and we both love her so fuggin' much ;w; Even though I have awful allergies and my eyes look like a stoner's right now cuz of all the kitty fur, I'm very excited. We're gonna take very good care of her. <3 Right now she's stalking around our room meowing at our clothes and taking occasional nibbles of food. xD And begging Carrot for pets and attention!
So, all in all, a pretty incredible weekend. <3 I had the best time and I'm really looking forward to Megaplex, which we will most definitely be attending. |3 Thanks everyone who made this weekend amazing, and I can't wait to see a bunch of you from the area, since I KNOW we're going to be hanging out soon! c:
Aaaaand sleeptime. -w-
The first day started out really promising but as soon as we got there, I was starving. I shelled out five bucks for a hot dog at the hotel food bar thingy they had set up and omnommed it pretty slowly as I took a glance around the arcade, dipped briefly into the artists' lounge, and then was ushered into and watched a puppeteering seminar with mintbutt.
Shortly after finishing said hot dog, I found myself pleading with miyuu to go lay down in the room she was sharing with several others. I was very, very sick. BAM. Food poisoning that lasted until around 8pm. :( Worst first day of my first con ever. I couldn't even walk without needing to throw up ;~; Poor carrotwolf was super worried about me and wanted to take me to a hospital! But my buddies took good care of me, and miyuu and mintbutt even went out and bought me a special purple toothbrush to help me feel better. c: It worked.
Luckily I was feeling much better by that evening and decided to sit in the then-empty artists' lounge to doodle a bit. I did a few freebies for a few random people, found myself really enjoying drawing, and decided I might try to actually reel in a few commissions the next day. By the time we headed to bed I'd done quite a bit of drawing and a bit of a crowd had accumulated in the room so it was nice to meet some new people! tartii even showed up and started doodling at the table behind me! ;w;
I met some really incredible people that night and the following day - amethystthedragon flopped down next to me and drew me a supercute badge, marcius and zeeka were super adorable and supportive and gave me lots of hugs and money and love over the weekend, and we finally got to meet zanderwolf and his lady in person! :P
So, the morning of the second day, I planted my ass at a table with catldr24 (iwho was making calligraphy fans with kanji on 'em) and started drawing. To my shock (and pleasure) I wound up making over $100 sitting at that table doing traditional badges and sketches. O_____O WHAAAT. I couldn't believe so many people liked my crappy messy sketches! ;w; Thank you all soooo much. It really made me feel a lot more confident about my artwork and I found myself really enjoying drawing for the first time in a really, really long time.
We hung out there til pretty late, and carrotwolf and I messed around in the arcade for a bit. We walked around for a little while and checked out the suiters, and saw some SUPER cute ones...and I got my shoes stolen by tartii! >:C She hid one of them under a table and I had to go find it. Silly cat!
I spent most of this morning sitting in the lounge again, makin' some more cash, before we headed off to Disney World! That was...a little confusing at first xD We got some misinformation and rather than taking the shuttle from Downtown Disney to Magic Kingdom (since three seperate Disney employees insisted it didn't exist) we just drove there and parked. We had an AWESOME day though - we hung out with a TON of furries (Lieutenant Asshole, Dick Asshole, Evil Jesus, Rose, am I missing anyone?) and even though it rained like crazy for a bit, we had a great time. <3 Even though I was pretty sure I might die on Space Mountain.
When we got back to mintbutt's house, we packed up our stuff...and one of her cats. Yep, we took a kitty home this weekend! :D She's a beautiful tortoiseshell kitten named Adler (we call her Addie) and we both love her so fuggin' much ;w; Even though I have awful allergies and my eyes look like a stoner's right now cuz of all the kitty fur, I'm very excited. We're gonna take very good care of her. <3 Right now she's stalking around our room meowing at our clothes and taking occasional nibbles of food. xD And begging Carrot for pets and attention!
So, all in all, a pretty incredible weekend. <3 I had the best time and I'm really looking forward to Megaplex, which we will most definitely be attending. |3 Thanks everyone who made this weekend amazing, and I can't wait to see a bunch of you from the area, since I KNOW we're going to be hanging out soon! c:
Aaaaand sleeptime. -w-
Diet/Exercise Tips?
General | Posted 13 years agoSo...I'm going on a diet. And I'm going to start exercising too.
I hate my body. I hate knowing what I've done with it, what's been done to it, how it looks, how bad I am at taking care of the mess that's left of it. I hate the general make of it; I'm built to be heavy and curvy and super feminine and I don't want to look that way anymore. Unfortunately, cutting my hair won't do much for me; I can't change my bone structure or my height.
I'll start with the little bit I can change, which is my weight. I want to drop something like thirty pounds, most of it from my bust, if possible. I'd like to get back down to a C cup and 135 lbs at the most, which is what I weighed when I was actively riding and in good shape.
Everything I'm reading says to really burn myself out on cardio and reduce my calorie intake by a lot. That seems obvious, but is there anything else specific you guys would recommend? Some good low-calorie foods and meals I can make would be helpful too - I'm used to super carb-heavy, sugary, sporadic eating habits and that's not gonna cut it anymore.
I'd like to get a bike in the near future, but for now Carrot's convinced me to at least do sprints in our backyard. I'm reading some more stuff that says I should do upper body workouts to help shrink my chest but I'm not really sure where to start on that. I've never worked out before and I don't really want to build muscle, besides getting toned.
I can use any tips ya'll can supply me with. Thanks!
I hate my body. I hate knowing what I've done with it, what's been done to it, how it looks, how bad I am at taking care of the mess that's left of it. I hate the general make of it; I'm built to be heavy and curvy and super feminine and I don't want to look that way anymore. Unfortunately, cutting my hair won't do much for me; I can't change my bone structure or my height.
I'll start with the little bit I can change, which is my weight. I want to drop something like thirty pounds, most of it from my bust, if possible. I'd like to get back down to a C cup and 135 lbs at the most, which is what I weighed when I was actively riding and in good shape.
Everything I'm reading says to really burn myself out on cardio and reduce my calorie intake by a lot. That seems obvious, but is there anything else specific you guys would recommend? Some good low-calorie foods and meals I can make would be helpful too - I'm used to super carb-heavy, sugary, sporadic eating habits and that's not gonna cut it anymore.
I'd like to get a bike in the near future, but for now Carrot's convinced me to at least do sprints in our backyard. I'm reading some more stuff that says I should do upper body workouts to help shrink my chest but I'm not really sure where to start on that. I've never worked out before and I don't really want to build muscle, besides getting toned.
I can use any tips ya'll can supply me with. Thanks!
Elliot's Spring Gathering Meme
General | Posted 13 years agoWhere are you staying?
-At a friend's house near the con. :3
What day are you getting there?
-Friday
Who will you be with?
-I'm staying with
and we'll be attending with , 
, and 
as well.
Who will you hang out with during the convention?
-Our little group of course, as well as any others we might pick up. :3 Don't be shy!
Are there any panels you might be attending?
-Unsure
Are you attending any stage or public performances?
-Unsure
Will you be suiting?
-No :c Maybe next year.
Do you do free art?
-If you run up to me with a sketchbook I might doodle something >w<
What is your gender?
-Female
How tall are you?
-5'5
Are you taken? Are you looking for a 'mate'?
-Taken and will be there with, my boyfriend/"mate".
Can I talk to you?
-Of course! I'm lookin' forward to meeting people!
Can I touch you?
-Please don't be creepy ;w; General rule of thumb: if you put on deodorant this morning and took a shower within the past twelve hours, you're more than welcome to give me a friendly hug or pat my head, but please don't be smelly. :3
How can I find you?
-I'll be taggin' along with my boy who'll be wearing cuffs and a bright orange yarn tail xD Just look for Carrot. I look pretty much like how I draw Bee except a little fatter and not bright red.
Can I visit your room?
-Naw, not staying in the hotel.
Can I buy you drinks?
-YES. :D
Can I give you stuff?
-Pff sure :D I love free stuff.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
-Hugs are totally fine as long as you introduce yourself c: But snuggles might make a little grumpy.
Are you nice?
-I try to be!
How long are you going?
-The whole con, I think. :D
Do you have an artist table?
-Nuh, but if you have a sketchbook and want me to doodle something in it I'd be more than happy to do so. c:
Will you have art in the Art Show? General or Adult sections?
-Nope.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
-I'll probably perk my ears to either "Bee" or "Maskedpuppy" but since Bee is actually my real name, that's your best bet.
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
-Stickin' close to my friends' sides. Probably finding small fuzzy things to pet and whine about wanting.
What/where will you be eating?
-Wherever everyone else wants to eat. I'm not that picky, but I love food @.@
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
-If you're invited by the group then of course! But please don't invite yourself along with us unless you know us personally c:
Can I look in your sketchbook?
-I don't plan on bringing a sketchbook, but if you find me drawing, feel free to look over my shoulder c:
Can I draw in your sketchbook?
-I won't have one, but has a HUGE one he'll be givin' out to all you other artists to scribble things in :3
Can I take your picture?
-I'll look like shit, but okay ._.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
-I'd like to meet a few new people >w< I haven't met a ton of people since moving here and I'd like to make some new friends in the area.
-At a friend's house near the con. :3
What day are you getting there?
-Friday
Who will you be with?
-I'm staying with
and we'll be attending with , 
, and 
as well.Who will you hang out with during the convention?
-Our little group of course, as well as any others we might pick up. :3 Don't be shy!
Are there any panels you might be attending?
-Unsure
Are you attending any stage or public performances?
-Unsure
Will you be suiting?
-No :c Maybe next year.
Do you do free art?
-If you run up to me with a sketchbook I might doodle something >w<
What is your gender?
-Female
How tall are you?
-5'5
Are you taken? Are you looking for a 'mate'?
-Taken and will be there with
, my boyfriend/"mate".Can I talk to you?
-Of course! I'm lookin' forward to meeting people!
Can I touch you?
-Please don't be creepy ;w; General rule of thumb: if you put on deodorant this morning and took a shower within the past twelve hours, you're more than welcome to give me a friendly hug or pat my head, but please don't be smelly. :3
How can I find you?
-I'll be taggin' along with my boy who'll be wearing cuffs and a bright orange yarn tail xD Just look for Carrot. I look pretty much like how I draw Bee except a little fatter and not bright red.
Can I visit your room?
-Naw, not staying in the hotel.
Can I buy you drinks?
-YES. :D
Can I give you stuff?
-Pff sure :D I love free stuff.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
-Hugs are totally fine as long as you introduce yourself c: But snuggles might make
a little grumpy.Are you nice?
-I try to be!
How long are you going?
-The whole con, I think. :D
Do you have an artist table?
-Nuh, but if you have a sketchbook and want me to doodle something in it I'd be more than happy to do so. c:
Will you have art in the Art Show? General or Adult sections?
-Nope.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
-I'll probably perk my ears to either "Bee" or "Maskedpuppy" but since Bee is actually my real name, that's your best bet.
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
-Stickin' close to my friends' sides. Probably finding small fuzzy things to pet and whine about wanting.
What/where will you be eating?
-Wherever everyone else wants to eat. I'm not that picky, but I love food @.@
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
-If you're invited by the group then of course! But please don't invite yourself along with us unless you know us personally c:
Can I look in your sketchbook?
-I don't plan on bringing a sketchbook, but if you find me drawing, feel free to look over my shoulder c:
Can I draw in your sketchbook?
-I won't have one, but
has a HUGE one he'll be givin' out to all you other artists to scribble things in :3Can I take your picture?
-I'll look like shit, but okay ._.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
-I'd like to meet a few new people >w< I haven't met a ton of people since moving here and I'd like to make some new friends in the area.
Tattoos.
General | Posted 13 years agoI forgot a little bit how much I want to do them. I miss my old equipment. I had about $1200 worth in machines, a nice power supply, gloves, needles, grips, tubes, etc...but all of it was stolen by the guy who fucked me over.
So I'm replacing it with cheap shit.
I bought some cheap needle tubes in a dozen on an impulse just now. I have one machine (a gift from a friend who knows next to nothing about machines...she picked an okay one and I love it) I'm going to try to tune up. I found a $20 LCD power supply on Ebay that's most likely a piece of shit. It'll probably tattoo oranges okay though so I'm going to buy it.
Wish me luck guys. <3
So I'm replacing it with cheap shit.
I bought some cheap needle tubes in a dozen on an impulse just now. I have one machine (a gift from a friend who knows next to nothing about machines...she picked an okay one and I love it) I'm going to try to tune up. I found a $20 LCD power supply on Ebay that's most likely a piece of shit. It'll probably tattoo oranges okay though so I'm going to buy it.
Wish me luck guys. <3
Sleep therapy?
General | Posted 13 years agoSo lately and I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping.
He can't stay asleep; he wakes up super early and can't fall back asleep at all, and gets random panicky urges to check the time every time he gets close to dozing back off. I fall asleep, but I sleep fitfully, waking up for ten-to-thirty minute intervals every hour or two all night, and have horrible nightmares the little bit of time I manage to stay asleep.
We're not sure why this is happening. Maybe just stress, maybe noise from our roommate's computer gaming and skype calls (he stays up a lot later than us), maybe our new bed, maybe a combination of all three or something completely unrelated.
We've tried going to bed earlier and later. We're considering putting on some kind of soothing noise before falling asleep using his laptop.
Anybody have any other tricks or tips on how to get to sleep and stay asleep? x.x Experience as a couple is a huge bonus.
Thanks~
and I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping. He can't stay asleep; he wakes up super early and can't fall back asleep at all, and gets random panicky urges to check the time every time he gets close to dozing back off. I fall asleep, but I sleep fitfully, waking up for ten-to-thirty minute intervals every hour or two all night, and have horrible nightmares the little bit of time I manage to stay asleep.
We're not sure why this is happening. Maybe just stress, maybe noise from our roommate's computer gaming and skype calls (he stays up a lot later than us), maybe our new bed, maybe a combination of all three or something completely unrelated.
We've tried going to bed earlier and later. We're considering putting on some kind of soothing noise before falling asleep using his laptop.
Anybody have any other tricks or tips on how to get to sleep and stay asleep? x.x Experience as a couple is a huge bonus.
Thanks~
Discomfort (vent)
General | Posted 13 years agoI don't understand why some people think it's okay to use me to get to carrotwolf. This has happened on more than one occasion, namely with his own mom.
I'm a person too. I hate feeling like everyone who watches us both or knows us both who talks to me is only trying to grow closer to him. Yeah, he's a "popufur" and all but getting me to like you isn't going to up your chances of getting art with him or whatever these people seem to want.
His mom emailed back and forth with me for MONTHS, seeming super interested in getting to know me, sharing details of her own life and past (including things I did NOT want or need to know). I received countless pictures of his family, of his childhood...then, perplexingly, her new home with her new husband who Carrot does not know or care to know. She offered her home as a wedding location multiple times, when no mention of marriage ever came up from my side, and sent me dozens of emails loaded to the brim with God and Jesus talk.
I put up with the uncomfortable stuff thinking she was just excited to get to know her son's girlfriend. Jumping the gun a little, but I could put up with that. But as it turns out she just wanted to get me on her side. Like a middle schooler, she came to me and pushed her side of things on me as much as she could, seeking reassurance and sympathy for the "hard life she's been through". I awkwardly provided as much openness as I could, repeatedly telling her that I really didn't have much say in Carrot's decisions when it comes to acceptance of her choices. I dodged her demands of "You believe me, right?" when it came to her ranting about how abusive his (ridiculously sweet and friendly) dad.
Then when we finally went to Texas, she barely said a word to me. She spent the whole drive from Carrot's sister's house to his dad's screaming at him while I sat there in shock and listened to her. I got out of the car after awhile to help his dad put stuff together while they finished fighting and when Carrot finally came inside, she just peeled out without a word to me.
Tonight is the first time I've heard from her since, and all she did was ask me to tell Jake to email her.
I hate feeling used. I hate feeling so insignificant that she didn't even bother to TRY to say goodbye to me while I fumbled frantically with the door handle so I could get out of that car. My own family has been hard enough to come to terms with; my mother and I are not close at all and it's taken years for me to trust my dad to the degree I do now, and my sister and I are all but estranged. I miss my family, despite their flaws, and I was hoping that this really was a step into being accepted into a functional family who might actually care about me as an individual. Instead I was made to feel awkward, guilty, and left out.
At least his dad is awesome. :/
Furries do the same thing, messaging me to talk about Carrot or to ask me to get him to respond to their messages. Even genuine friends of mine do this on occasion. It's one thing to ask me to pass a message on because I'm online and at my keyboard and he's not...but it's another to constantly message me to ask him to get online and talk to you. Yeah I may be the dominant one in our relationship but I can't force him to talk to you, and I won't try anymore.
I feel like the only place I really belong without question is with him. And that's incredibly great and reassuring. But at the same time it'd be nice to be taken seriously by other people, and not just used to climb the ladder to popularity with my boyfriend.
That's all. Sorry for the rant. xD
I'm a person too. I hate feeling like everyone who watches us both or knows us both who talks to me is only trying to grow closer to him. Yeah, he's a "popufur" and all but getting me to like you isn't going to up your chances of getting art with him or whatever these people seem to want.
His mom emailed back and forth with me for MONTHS, seeming super interested in getting to know me, sharing details of her own life and past (including things I did NOT want or need to know). I received countless pictures of his family, of his childhood...then, perplexingly, her new home with her new husband who Carrot does not know or care to know. She offered her home as a wedding location multiple times, when no mention of marriage ever came up from my side, and sent me dozens of emails loaded to the brim with God and Jesus talk.
I put up with the uncomfortable stuff thinking she was just excited to get to know her son's girlfriend. Jumping the gun a little, but I could put up with that. But as it turns out she just wanted to get me on her side. Like a middle schooler, she came to me and pushed her side of things on me as much as she could, seeking reassurance and sympathy for the "hard life she's been through". I awkwardly provided as much openness as I could, repeatedly telling her that I really didn't have much say in Carrot's decisions when it comes to acceptance of her choices. I dodged her demands of "You believe me, right?" when it came to her ranting about how abusive his (ridiculously sweet and friendly) dad.
Then when we finally went to Texas, she barely said a word to me. She spent the whole drive from Carrot's sister's house to his dad's screaming at him while I sat there in shock and listened to her. I got out of the car after awhile to help his dad put stuff together while they finished fighting and when Carrot finally came inside, she just peeled out without a word to me.
Tonight is the first time I've heard from her since, and all she did was ask me to tell Jake to email her.
I hate feeling used. I hate feeling so insignificant that she didn't even bother to TRY to say goodbye to me while I fumbled frantically with the door handle so I could get out of that car. My own family has been hard enough to come to terms with; my mother and I are not close at all and it's taken years for me to trust my dad to the degree I do now, and my sister and I are all but estranged. I miss my family, despite their flaws, and I was hoping that this really was a step into being accepted into a functional family who might actually care about me as an individual. Instead I was made to feel awkward, guilty, and left out.
At least his dad is awesome. :/
Furries do the same thing, messaging me to talk about Carrot or to ask me to get him to respond to their messages. Even genuine friends of mine do this on occasion. It's one thing to ask me to pass a message on because I'm online and at my keyboard and he's not...but it's another to constantly message me to ask him to get online and talk to you. Yeah I may be the dominant one in our relationship but I can't force him to talk to you, and I won't try anymore.
I feel like the only place I really belong without question is with him. And that's incredibly great and reassuring. But at the same time it'd be nice to be taken seriously by other people, and not just used to climb the ladder to popularity with my boyfriend.
That's all. Sorry for the rant. xD
@.@
General | Posted 13 years agoJust got back from the 21 hour drive from Texas. ;~; The flight wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it'd be, since carrotwolf was there and comforted me the whole time. <3 And meeting his family was mostly nice, though a little awkward at first. He has a ton of nieces and nephews, and I wanted to take them all back with us! ;;
All in all it was a pretty nice trip. But that was one hell of a crazy drive coming back in the moving truck full of furniture and boxes...
There wasn't a seat for me in the car so I hadda sit cross legged in the middle. 3: And so my knees hurt REALLY badly.
Post your blowjob jokes below.
All in all it was a pretty nice trip. But that was one hell of a crazy drive coming back in the moving truck full of furniture and boxes...
There wasn't a seat for me in the car so I hadda sit cross legged in the middle. 3: And so my knees hurt REALLY badly.
Post your blowjob jokes below.
Frands
General | Posted 13 years agoIt occurred to me the other day that not that many people seem to talk to me. D: I have a lot of friends on Skype and Steam but I worry that I seem unapproachable or somehow unfriendly, since I only actively talk to maybe a third of those people.
Truth is guys, I'm kind of awkward at starting conversations unless we get on a topic I'm super passionate about. ;;
I just don't want people to feel intimidated of me. I know awhile ago someone expressed to me that she didn't feel comfortable talking to me or working toward a better friendship because I seemed like such an angry person with a quick temper. And I AM quick to bitch about things...but it's mostly in a playful manner, and since moving away from Maryland I really am very happy and have all but banished most of my anger issues.
I've been worrying about it a lot I guess. ;; I dunno.
So basically what I'm saying is, if you want to talk to me...please do. <3 I always appreciate people reaching out and showing an interest in building new friendships, and there are quite a few of you I'd love to get to know better but am too shy to outright say so. ;w;
My Skype address is maskedpuppybee, my Yahoo is maskedpuppy, and my steam is maskedpuppy. I'm usually on at least Skype and Steam, if I'm online.
I'd love to hear from you. <3
Truth is guys, I'm kind of awkward at starting conversations unless we get on a topic I'm super passionate about. ;;
I just don't want people to feel intimidated of me. I know awhile ago someone expressed to me that she didn't feel comfortable talking to me or working toward a better friendship because I seemed like such an angry person with a quick temper. And I AM quick to bitch about things...but it's mostly in a playful manner, and since moving away from Maryland I really am very happy and have all but banished most of my anger issues.
I've been worrying about it a lot I guess. ;; I dunno.
So basically what I'm saying is, if you want to talk to me...please do. <3 I always appreciate people reaching out and showing an interest in building new friendships, and there are quite a few of you I'd love to get to know better but am too shy to outright say so. ;w;
My Skype address is maskedpuppybee, my Yahoo is maskedpuppy, and my steam is maskedpuppy. I'm usually on at least Skype and Steam, if I'm online.
I'd love to hear from you. <3
I'll just leave this here for you guys to enjoy.
General | Posted 13 years agoIt all started when our uber geek, Bee, woke up in a bush. It was the ninth time it had happened. Feeling very stunned, Bee grabbed a ninja star, thinking it would make her feel better (but as usual, it did not). Suddenly inspired by the wise teachings of Confuscious, she realized that her beloved candy was missing! Immediately she called her bed-friend, Carrot. Bee had known Carrot for (plus or minus) 550,000 years, the majority of which were saucy ones. Carrot was unique. He was easygoing though sometimes a little... stupid. Bee called him anyway, for the situation was urgent.
Carrot picked up to a very calm Bee. Carrot calmly assured her that most disease-carrying chipmunks yawn before mating, yet venomous koalas usually indiscriminately sneeze *after* mating. He had no idea what that meant; he was only concerned with distracting Bee. Why was Carrot trying to distract Bee? Because he had snuck out from Bee's with the candy only four days prior. It was a sassy little candy... how could he resist?
It didn't take long before Bee got back to the subject at hand: her candy. Carrot sneezed. Relunctantly, Carrot invited her over, assuring her they'd find the candy. Bee grabbed her hippopotamus and disembarked immediately. After hanging up the phone, Carrot realized that he was in trouble. He had to find a place to hide the candy and he had to do it randomly. He figured that if Bee took the tricycle, he had take at least five minutes before Bee would get there. But if she took the Elvis? Then Carrot would be abundantly screwed.
Before he could come up with any reasonable ideas, Carrot was interrupted by five selfish otters that were lured by his candy. Carrot sighed; 'Not again', he thought. Feeling displeased, he recklessly reached for his banana and recklessly attacked every last one of them. Apparently this was an adequate deterrent--the discouraged critters began to scurry back toward the swamp, squealing with discontent. He exhaled with relief. That's when he heard the Elvis rolling up. It was Bee.
----o0o----
As she pulled up, she felt a sense of urgency. She had had to make an unscheduled stop at McDonald's to pick up a 12-pack of dull pencils, so she knew she was running late. With a hasty leap, Bee was out of the Elvis and went indiscriminately jaunting toward Carrot's front door. Meanwhile inside, Carrot was panicking. Not thinking, he tossed the candy into a box of ripened avocados and then slid the box behind his time machine. Carrot was displeased but at least the candy was concealed. The doorbell rang.
'Come in,' Carrot sassily purred. With a quick push, Bee opened the door. 'Sorry for being late, but I was being chased by some stupid flaming idiot in a tricycle,' she lied. 'It's fine,' Carrot assured her. Bee took a seat hilariously close to where Carrot had hidden the candy. Carrot panicked trying unsuccessfully to hide his nervousness. 'Uhh, can I get you anything?' he blurted. But Bee was distracted. Before anyone could take off their pants, Carrot noticed a pestering look on Bee's face. Bee slowly opened her mouth to speak.
'...What's that smell?'
Carrot felt a stabbing pain in his prostate when Bee asked this. In a moment of disbelief, he realized that he had hidden the candy right by his oscillating fan. 'Wh-what? I don't smell anything..!' A lie. A stupid look started to form on Bee's face. She turned to notice a box that seemed clearly out of place. 'Th-th-those are just my grandma's potatos from when she used to have pet 3-legged wallabies. She, uh...dropped 'em by here earlier'. Bee nodded with fake acknowledgement...then, before Carrot could react, Bee aimlessly lunged toward the box and opened it. The candy was plainly in view.
Bee stared at Carrot for what what must've been ten nanoseconds. Like a drunken sailor at happy hour, Carrot groped sassily in Bee's direction, clearly desperate. Bee grabbed the candy and bolted for the door. It was locked. Carrot let out a curious chuckle. 'If only you hadn't been so protective of that thing, none of this would have happened, Bee,' he rebuked. Carrot always had been a little funny-smelling, so Bee knew that reconciliation was not an option; she needed to escape before Carrot did something crazy, like... start chucking bananas at him or something. A few freaknasty minutes later, she gripped her candy tightly and made a dash toward the window, diving headlong through the glass panels.
Carrot looked on, blankly. 'What the hell? That seemed excessive. The other door was open, you know.' Silence from Bee. 'And to think, I varnished that window frame five days ago...it never ends!' Suddenly he felt a tinge of concern for Bee. 'Oh. You ..okay?' Still silence. Carrot walked over to the window and looked down. Bee was gone.
----o0o----
Just yonder, Bee was struggling to make her way through the secret vineyard behind Carrot's place. Bee had severely hurt her scalp during the window incident, and was starting to lose strength. Another pack of feral otters suddenly appeared, having caught wind of the candy. One by one they latched on to Bee. Already weakened from her injury, Bee yielded to the furry onslaught and collapsed. The last thing she saw before losing consciousness was a buzzing horde of otters running off with her candy.
About seven hours later, Bee awoke, her armpit throbbing. It was dark and Bee did not know where she was. Deep in the mysterious disease-infested jungle, Bee was very lost. Like a drunken sailor at happy hour, she remembered that her candy was taken by the otters. But at that point, she was just thankful for her life. That's when, to her horror, a misshapen otter emerged from the magical cornfield. It was the alpha otter. Bee opened her mouth to scream but was cut short when the otter sunk its teeth into Bee's double chin. With a faint groan, the life escaped from Bee's lungs, but not before she realized that she was a failure.
Less than six miles away, Carrot was entombed by anguish over the loss of the candy. 'MY PRECIOUS!!' he cried, as he reached for a sharpened ripened avocado. With a calculated thrust, he buried it deeply into his prostate. As the room began to fade to black, he thought about Bee... wishing he had found the courage to tell her that he loved her. But he would die alone that day. All that remained was the candy that had turned them against each other, ultimately causing their demise. And as the dew on melancholy sappling branches began to reflect the dawn's reddish glare, all that could be heard was the chilling cry of distant otters, desecrating all things sacred to virtuous men, and perpetuating an evil that would reign for centuries to come. Our heroes would've lived unhappily ever after, but they were too busy being dead. So, no one lived forever after, the end. :'(
Carrot picked up to a very calm Bee. Carrot calmly assured her that most disease-carrying chipmunks yawn before mating, yet venomous koalas usually indiscriminately sneeze *after* mating. He had no idea what that meant; he was only concerned with distracting Bee. Why was Carrot trying to distract Bee? Because he had snuck out from Bee's with the candy only four days prior. It was a sassy little candy... how could he resist?
It didn't take long before Bee got back to the subject at hand: her candy. Carrot sneezed. Relunctantly, Carrot invited her over, assuring her they'd find the candy. Bee grabbed her hippopotamus and disembarked immediately. After hanging up the phone, Carrot realized that he was in trouble. He had to find a place to hide the candy and he had to do it randomly. He figured that if Bee took the tricycle, he had take at least five minutes before Bee would get there. But if she took the Elvis? Then Carrot would be abundantly screwed.
Before he could come up with any reasonable ideas, Carrot was interrupted by five selfish otters that were lured by his candy. Carrot sighed; 'Not again', he thought. Feeling displeased, he recklessly reached for his banana and recklessly attacked every last one of them. Apparently this was an adequate deterrent--the discouraged critters began to scurry back toward the swamp, squealing with discontent. He exhaled with relief. That's when he heard the Elvis rolling up. It was Bee.
----o0o----
As she pulled up, she felt a sense of urgency. She had had to make an unscheduled stop at McDonald's to pick up a 12-pack of dull pencils, so she knew she was running late. With a hasty leap, Bee was out of the Elvis and went indiscriminately jaunting toward Carrot's front door. Meanwhile inside, Carrot was panicking. Not thinking, he tossed the candy into a box of ripened avocados and then slid the box behind his time machine. Carrot was displeased but at least the candy was concealed. The doorbell rang.
'Come in,' Carrot sassily purred. With a quick push, Bee opened the door. 'Sorry for being late, but I was being chased by some stupid flaming idiot in a tricycle,' she lied. 'It's fine,' Carrot assured her. Bee took a seat hilariously close to where Carrot had hidden the candy. Carrot panicked trying unsuccessfully to hide his nervousness. 'Uhh, can I get you anything?' he blurted. But Bee was distracted. Before anyone could take off their pants, Carrot noticed a pestering look on Bee's face. Bee slowly opened her mouth to speak.
'...What's that smell?'
Carrot felt a stabbing pain in his prostate when Bee asked this. In a moment of disbelief, he realized that he had hidden the candy right by his oscillating fan. 'Wh-what? I don't smell anything..!' A lie. A stupid look started to form on Bee's face. She turned to notice a box that seemed clearly out of place. 'Th-th-those are just my grandma's potatos from when she used to have pet 3-legged wallabies. She, uh...dropped 'em by here earlier'. Bee nodded with fake acknowledgement...then, before Carrot could react, Bee aimlessly lunged toward the box and opened it. The candy was plainly in view.
Bee stared at Carrot for what what must've been ten nanoseconds. Like a drunken sailor at happy hour, Carrot groped sassily in Bee's direction, clearly desperate. Bee grabbed the candy and bolted for the door. It was locked. Carrot let out a curious chuckle. 'If only you hadn't been so protective of that thing, none of this would have happened, Bee,' he rebuked. Carrot always had been a little funny-smelling, so Bee knew that reconciliation was not an option; she needed to escape before Carrot did something crazy, like... start chucking bananas at him or something. A few freaknasty minutes later, she gripped her candy tightly and made a dash toward the window, diving headlong through the glass panels.
Carrot looked on, blankly. 'What the hell? That seemed excessive. The other door was open, you know.' Silence from Bee. 'And to think, I varnished that window frame five days ago...it never ends!' Suddenly he felt a tinge of concern for Bee. 'Oh. You ..okay?' Still silence. Carrot walked over to the window and looked down. Bee was gone.
----o0o----
Just yonder, Bee was struggling to make her way through the secret vineyard behind Carrot's place. Bee had severely hurt her scalp during the window incident, and was starting to lose strength. Another pack of feral otters suddenly appeared, having caught wind of the candy. One by one they latched on to Bee. Already weakened from her injury, Bee yielded to the furry onslaught and collapsed. The last thing she saw before losing consciousness was a buzzing horde of otters running off with her candy.
About seven hours later, Bee awoke, her armpit throbbing. It was dark and Bee did not know where she was. Deep in the mysterious disease-infested jungle, Bee was very lost. Like a drunken sailor at happy hour, she remembered that her candy was taken by the otters. But at that point, she was just thankful for her life. That's when, to her horror, a misshapen otter emerged from the magical cornfield. It was the alpha otter. Bee opened her mouth to scream but was cut short when the otter sunk its teeth into Bee's double chin. With a faint groan, the life escaped from Bee's lungs, but not before she realized that she was a failure.
Less than six miles away, Carrot was entombed by anguish over the loss of the candy. 'MY PRECIOUS!!' he cried, as he reached for a sharpened ripened avocado. With a calculated thrust, he buried it deeply into his prostate. As the room began to fade to black, he thought about Bee... wishing he had found the courage to tell her that he loved her. But he would die alone that day. All that remained was the candy that had turned them against each other, ultimately causing their demise. And as the dew on melancholy sappling branches began to reflect the dawn's reddish glare, all that could be heard was the chilling cry of distant otters, desecrating all things sacred to virtuous men, and perpetuating an evil that would reign for centuries to come. Our heroes would've lived unhappily ever after, but they were too busy being dead. So, no one lived forever after, the end. :'(
meme
General | Posted 13 years agoStolen from 
We've all seen what you can do, now lets see what makes you tick :) Answer the following questions (honestly!) and share with the world who you really are. Ready? Go!
1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? Whats your name?
Bee is my real name, actually, sort of. My full name is Bethany, but I don't really go by that; my mother and my boss are really the only ones who do.
2. How tall are you?
5'5"
3. Natural hair color? (if you can remember it)
Darkish brown.
3. What about eye color?
Hazel. Usually greenish.
4. What orientation are you?
Pansexual.
5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Very much taken. <3
6. What do you do in your spare time?
I stream myself drawing pretty constantly. Other than that, I really love reading, and despite not being very good at them I enjoy video games as well. I also like playing catch outside with Carrot. :P
7. What's your job?
Besides doing art commissions, I work for Gamestop.
8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
I don't do things by halves or dabble in things, if I'm going to get into something I get 100% into it. Once I get focused on something I can usually stick with it til it becomes impossible or I achieve it.
9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
It's really, really hard for me to focus. xD I have the memory of a goldfish with alzheimer's and it makes me mad. I get frustrated at things really easily because of it.
10. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
Probably that I'm a lot shyer and less outspoken irl than I am online until you get to know me. Once I'm comfortable around someone I'm loud as shit. But if I'm worried about making a bad impression on you or something, I tend to be really quiet and sometimes a little awkward because of it.
Good! Hold on, yer coming up on some deeper questions now... ready?
11. Of what faith/religion are you(if any at all?)
Religion is dicks. I grew up in a very Christian household, said fuck that and became a pagan and then lived in a very Pagan household for about a year. Fuck that too. Religion is all the same and it's all outdated. We could do so much better as a society if we stopped trying to rationalize things with irrational, but easy, explanations.
12. Do you drink?
Not really. I like some drinks every once in awhile, but I have no desire to ever be drunk. Gross.
13. Do you smoke?
Used to back when I didn't give a shit about myself, but I quit.
14. What are your fears?
Losing Carrot, falling or jumping off heights, and I'm terrified of cars.
15. What are your dreams/goals?
I want to be a tattoo artist. I'm a little sad that I can't really pursue that right now (need a car and money for equipment first...) but that's really all I want to do as far as careers go. On the other hand, I really want to have kids. Reeeeally badly.
16.Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
Yep. I've dated a few people, got engaged once, realized that was fucking stupid and now I'm with the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I'm pretty happy.
Almost done!!! Time for some lighter topics now :D
17. Who's your best bud?
has been my closest friend for most of my life. x3 Other than that, I'm dating the other one. The rest of my good friends can be found on my profile :3
18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
Nutella, chocolate, cheese nips, pickles, or a jar of honey. :3
19. Favorite drink?
Cherry Coke
20. Favorite color?
Purple.
21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Gotta agree with StrawberryNeko on this one xD Shapeshifting!
22. Favorite movie?
In no particular order: The Breakfast Club, Little Shop of Horrors, Beetlejuice, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, Pulp Fiction, Harry Potter 1-8, 101 Dalmatians, The Lion King, Oliver & Company, aaaand Mary Shelley's Frankenstein.
23. Least favorite food?
Anything involving sour cream or meat that's more well done than rare.
24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
Roast chicken, smoked salmon, my dad's venison steak, and my mom's mashed potatoes
25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
I just need something with wheels at this point. ;;
Last 5 questions. You're in the homestretch, come on, you can make it! Lets see what gets under your skin.
26. Most disliked bug?
All of them. :| Mostly wasps and bees (shut up I know it's ironic but I'm allergic), but also ants and spiders and beetles and roaches. uuuugh.
27. Most hated pet peeves?
People making noises while eating, loud snoring, metal on metal scraping, and Virginia.
28. Dislike in life?
This question's really vague. :c I guess I hate the fact that teeth are so fucked up.
29. Most annoying?
Backstabbers and Virginians. (exception Joey c: )
30. Mot disliked TV show?
I can't stand The Boondocks, Delocated, or CSI: Miami.
We've all seen what you can do, now lets see what makes you tick :) Answer the following questions (honestly!) and share with the world who you really are. Ready? Go!
1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? Whats your name?
Bee is my real name, actually, sort of. My full name is Bethany, but I don't really go by that; my mother and my boss are really the only ones who do.
2. How tall are you?
5'5"
3. Natural hair color? (if you can remember it)
Darkish brown.
3. What about eye color?
Hazel. Usually greenish.
4. What orientation are you?
Pansexual.
5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Very much taken. <3
6. What do you do in your spare time?
I stream myself drawing pretty constantly. Other than that, I really love reading, and despite not being very good at them I enjoy video games as well. I also like playing catch outside with Carrot. :P
7. What's your job?
Besides doing art commissions, I work for Gamestop.
8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
I don't do things by halves or dabble in things, if I'm going to get into something I get 100% into it. Once I get focused on something I can usually stick with it til it becomes impossible or I achieve it.
9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
It's really, really hard for me to focus. xD I have the memory of a goldfish with alzheimer's and it makes me mad. I get frustrated at things really easily because of it.
10. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
Probably that I'm a lot shyer and less outspoken irl than I am online until you get to know me. Once I'm comfortable around someone I'm loud as shit. But if I'm worried about making a bad impression on you or something, I tend to be really quiet and sometimes a little awkward because of it.
Good! Hold on, yer coming up on some deeper questions now... ready?
11. Of what faith/religion are you(if any at all?)
Religion is dicks. I grew up in a very Christian household, said fuck that and became a pagan and then lived in a very Pagan household for about a year. Fuck that too. Religion is all the same and it's all outdated. We could do so much better as a society if we stopped trying to rationalize things with irrational, but easy, explanations.
12. Do you drink?
Not really. I like some drinks every once in awhile, but I have no desire to ever be drunk. Gross.
13. Do you smoke?
Used to back when I didn't give a shit about myself, but I quit.
14. What are your fears?
Losing Carrot, falling or jumping off heights, and I'm terrified of cars.
15. What are your dreams/goals?
I want to be a tattoo artist. I'm a little sad that I can't really pursue that right now (need a car and money for equipment first...) but that's really all I want to do as far as careers go. On the other hand, I really want to have kids. Reeeeally badly.
16.Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
Yep. I've dated a few people, got engaged once, realized that was fucking stupid and now I'm with the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I'm pretty happy.
Almost done!!! Time for some lighter topics now :D
17. Who's your best bud?
has been my closest friend for most of my life. x3 Other than that, I'm dating the other one. The rest of my good friends can be found on my profile :3 18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
Nutella, chocolate, cheese nips, pickles, or a jar of honey. :3
19. Favorite drink?
Cherry Coke
20. Favorite color?
Purple.
21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Gotta agree with StrawberryNeko on this one xD Shapeshifting!
22. Favorite movie?
In no particular order: The Breakfast Club, Little Shop of Horrors, Beetlejuice, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, Pulp Fiction, Harry Potter 1-8, 101 Dalmatians, The Lion King, Oliver & Company, aaaand Mary Shelley's Frankenstein.
23. Least favorite food?
Anything involving sour cream or meat that's more well done than rare.
24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
Roast chicken, smoked salmon, my dad's venison steak, and my mom's mashed potatoes
25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
I just need something with wheels at this point. ;;
Last 5 questions. You're in the homestretch, come on, you can make it! Lets see what gets under your skin.
26. Most disliked bug?
All of them. :| Mostly wasps and bees (shut up I know it's ironic but I'm allergic), but also ants and spiders and beetles and roaches. uuuugh.
27. Most hated pet peeves?
People making noises while eating, loud snoring, metal on metal scraping, and Virginia.
28. Dislike in life?
This question's really vague. :c I guess I hate the fact that teeth are so fucked up.
29. Most annoying?
Backstabbers and Virginians. (exception Joey c: )
30. Mot disliked TV show?
I can't stand The Boondocks, Delocated, or CSI: Miami.
I need advice!
General | Posted 13 years agoSomeone commissioned me a couple weeks ago for a fully colored piece and was extremely dissatisfied with the result (didn't match a few refs since they were feral and I don't draw ferals in adult situations, clearly stated in my TOS, my anatomy was bad, I made one character look too similar to another breed, and I drew the bottom in a bottoming position from the top although he had wanted him in a topping position, which was a misunderstanding on my part).
One of his main complaints was that I hadn't sent him a WIP sketch, which isn't really a practice I follow having been cheated on it before and seeing so many other people go through similar issues. Had he requested this prior to me starting the commission I'd have been glad to work it out for him, but it isn't something I do by default. I let him know this and he made it clear that was not acceptable.
I responded to his initial three notes within fifteen minutes stating that while I unfortunately can't redraw the whole piece for him (while I see why he was upset and I feel bad it wasn't what he wanted, I did work pretty hard on it and was fairly proud of the finished product) I'd be happy to offer him another piece of free lineart more according to his specifications with the option to have it colored either by me or by a better colorist. I told him that if he wanted it colored by me I'd knock the price down to $10, which is cheaper than what I know some other artists charge for colors alone; all I was asking was to be paid for about half of my time.
His reply stated that he thought it was a disservice on my part to expect more payment when my initial product had been so disappointing in the first place. He also requested that the finished product be removed permanently from FA as he felt it reflected badly on his character as such a poor portrayal. I told him I'd still be very happy to do the lineart for him and I'd send him a sketch by tonight and removed the previous commission from my page.
I'd simply offer a refund if I could, but sadly I can't afford to do that much work for free and I feel that getting two pieces for the price of one (even if one wasn't exactly what he wanted) is a pretty decent compromise. I'm worried about the free lines as it is, since I think part of the problem is that I'm simply not as well developed as an artist as he would like. I'm not sure if he just saw a single example that was somehow exceptional, or if he didn't look at my gallery, but I'm very concerned that maybe this commissioner expects more out of me than I'm capable of. This isn't me self-bashing, it's just that I need a lot more practice and experience before I can compare to most of those artists. Judging by the quality of the references he sent me he's used to commissioning people with more skill than myself. I do plan to work very hard and do the best work I possibly can on the replacement lines.
My question for you guys is, am I handling this situation properly? Should I color the piece for free to appease him or stand by my TOS and hope it's good enough? I'm trying to be as professional as I can be, but I can't help feeling a little helpless about the whole situation. I'm open to any and all suggestions, as this'll help me out a lot if this situation crops up in the future as well.
Thanks!
One of his main complaints was that I hadn't sent him a WIP sketch, which isn't really a practice I follow having been cheated on it before and seeing so many other people go through similar issues. Had he requested this prior to me starting the commission I'd have been glad to work it out for him, but it isn't something I do by default. I let him know this and he made it clear that was not acceptable.
I responded to his initial three notes within fifteen minutes stating that while I unfortunately can't redraw the whole piece for him (while I see why he was upset and I feel bad it wasn't what he wanted, I did work pretty hard on it and was fairly proud of the finished product) I'd be happy to offer him another piece of free lineart more according to his specifications with the option to have it colored either by me or by a better colorist. I told him that if he wanted it colored by me I'd knock the price down to $10, which is cheaper than what I know some other artists charge for colors alone; all I was asking was to be paid for about half of my time.
His reply stated that he thought it was a disservice on my part to expect more payment when my initial product had been so disappointing in the first place. He also requested that the finished product be removed permanently from FA as he felt it reflected badly on his character as such a poor portrayal. I told him I'd still be very happy to do the lineart for him and I'd send him a sketch by tonight and removed the previous commission from my page.
I'd simply offer a refund if I could, but sadly I can't afford to do that much work for free and I feel that getting two pieces for the price of one (even if one wasn't exactly what he wanted) is a pretty decent compromise. I'm worried about the free lines as it is, since I think part of the problem is that I'm simply not as well developed as an artist as he would like. I'm not sure if he just saw a single example that was somehow exceptional, or if he didn't look at my gallery, but I'm very concerned that maybe this commissioner expects more out of me than I'm capable of. This isn't me self-bashing, it's just that I need a lot more practice and experience before I can compare to most of those artists. Judging by the quality of the references he sent me he's used to commissioning people with more skill than myself. I do plan to work very hard and do the best work I possibly can on the replacement lines.
My question for you guys is, am I handling this situation properly? Should I color the piece for free to appease him or stand by my TOS and hope it's good enough? I'm trying to be as professional as I can be, but I can't help feeling a little helpless about the whole situation. I'm open to any and all suggestions, as this'll help me out a lot if this situation crops up in the future as well.
Thanks!
Sorry for the art spam! >w<
General | Posted 13 years agoEverything that has Bee's current markings is now up, I think. I'll submit some more stuff tomorrow, I didn't want to spam TOO much in one night. XP
Thanks all of you who've watched me! I hope ya'll enjoy all the art! :3
Thanks all of you who've watched me! I hope ya'll enjoy all the art! :3
New Account!
General | Posted 13 years agoFinally got ahold of this account! >w<
I'll be using this to post any commissioned or gift art of my main character, Bee, as well as submitting my own art of her in the scraps. :3 This will be my personal account from now on.
If you're looking for streams/commissions, check out , and if you're looking for my other characters, check out 
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Thanks! <3
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