ok so since Furaffinity wouldn't allow me to post it here, i have posted the entire Zebra Queen comic on sofurry:

https://www.sofurry.com/browse/fold.....p;folder=44683

There is my Account too.

Lyrics:
Moscow, Moscow, throwing glasses at the wall
And good fortune to us all, Hoh-hoh-hoh-hoh-hoh, Hey!
Moscow, Moscow, join us for a Cossack Show
We'll go dancing 'round the clock, Hah-hah-hah-hah-hah, Hey!
Moscow, Moscow, drinking vodka all night long
Keeps you happy, makes you strong, Hoh-hoh-hoh-hoh-hoh, Hey!

https://static1.e621.net/data/dd/19.....f784e8c756.swf

OK so first things first, Hello I am Benji's Other side, we have a sort of split personality, I don't usually come out unless Benji is under a lot of emotional stress; as he was when he learned about a close friend's boyfriend's death. That was eight hours ago, I usually stay active for about one to two hours while Benji recovers. it is relatively unnerving to still be here when Benji should be active. the news of the death seems to have hit him hard, a lot harder than previous deaths have. Benji is supposed to be active more than me, i don't really know how to react to his absence, but, it's lonely without him.

I just thought I'd let people know what was going on at the moment for me and Benji.

one way i could explain is to tell to to look at the great scale of the universe,
if it is too big to perceive, de-construct and reconstruct your perceptions to fit,
then zoom into yourself standing there, zoom out again and look at everything your
fears and anxiety are meaningless in the face of the universe, then look back at you
and see how they control or guide you, simply look at the things that they don't
control and experience more of them. once you find out that you don't need to
rely on your vulnerability to survive, the human mind searches for the
next thing, but if you block off everything else, it will create it's
own reality, from the freedom of nothingness, it is then that you can
looks again at the vulnerability and see that actually that is a great
part of your mind and could benefit your life if you simply accept it as
part of you, don't skip any part of that, that is the way i went through it, and
when my mind split into multiple versions of it'self all vying for control,
i simply said out load, "i accept you all"
and i have never cried with so much joy in my whole life since then.

when you feel completely neutral, and have just tried to commit suicide, it is little consolation to find out that your seizures have stopped.

Ok so this will be one of the first posts from my youtube:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oiQ.....ature=youtu.be

Enjoy if you want to,
don't if you don't.

<3

so apparently there are certain things that i find it easier to write about,

overall i think i find it easiest to write about Rattapedes
next it would have to be characters
and after that is would be worlds
but then comes all the other shit i have on my account.

not really sure what this journal was about,

that seems to be a resounding thing of these journals

preconceptions and how to completely eviscerate them.

many science fiction shows and films would have you believe that landing a ship on a platform in ZeroG is as easy as flipping a switch and three seconds later, you're on the pad. however Star Citizen offers a more realistic approach. i present to you "how to land a ship in less than two hours" Fighters version

it is a good idea to be aware that fighters are the most manuverable craft on star citizen and to have the landing process take about one hour give or take is on one hand: "i landed a ship, horray" and on the other hand: "It took an HOUR to land that ship :("

it is gong to be very interessting to fly and land battleships when they come to star citizen.

Hey guys

My younger sister has been having anxiety attacks about going to school for the past two or three weeks, and panic attacks during which we cannot get her to even think about going to school. Every day that she doesn't go she gets more and more anxious and paranoid about the school kids reactions if she went back to school.

it has got to the point where she is getting violent towards inanimate objects and family members, i have turned off my emotion for now, but that is only temporary before i start shouting too.

What should we do?

!!Please Help!!

Thank you

One of Benji's Snakes

MISSI SHORT FOR MISTRESS - THE MISTRESS = THE MASTER!!!!!!!!!!!


THE MASTER IS FEMALE QUE THE FAN ART AND FAN FICS THAT THIS FANDOM CAN CREATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.furgather.com/BenjiSmaridge

i found this though Rega,

Look look, we've invaded facebook :)

Listen to this Puppy howling for the first time:

http://www.puppieswoof.com/I-Have-S.....elt-Your-Heart

You will be melting with cutes!!

oh and someone should pick it up and cuddle it. it is lonely.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6QFwo57WKwg

four teenager break into a swimming pool and get high, but why would that be bad?

Hey

Some of you will have asked me to roleplay and i have said yes but it has never really happened.

This is partially because I don't role-play these days, it has nothing to do with you guys, you are the nicest people and furs that I know,
but role-playing doesn't really interest me when done through typing.

I am an auditory learner, or, I learn through hearing and speech. so when I see words on the screen, they're just words, like a photo of a hot cup of coffee, it is just a photo, I can see the vapour coming off it but I can't feel the heat.

With role playing, I am able to alter character perceptions and details, changes I'll feel bad about later

Because of how my mind works if I make a mistake in a character, it can be rectified but if I alter the character's behaviour that is fixed, and the character will now have those alterations. when I was role-playing with a sexy reptilian, I went through about 15 characters.

Sufficed to say, I have had bad experiences with role playing, this reptilian was extremely focused on being the slave and being mind controlled, and even though that subject turns me on, I don't like it. I prefer the idea that both partners are just that partners not one being a bit dominant and the other being a mind controlled bimbo slut. It was through role-playing with her that I adopted and re-created The Zebra Queen, but getting the commission has caused quite a bit of stress for me and the artist because I kept changing my mind on body parts.

I did have a lot of energy with that type of role-play, but it was distorting my view of reality, and stopping me from functioning as well in every day life.

Realizing I was gay was a good step in the right direction because I could focus on work and stuff, but role-playing took a large hit. if I can role-play in the future, I will, but I will usually set my Skype to "Role-playing Open" so that people I role-play with can see it.

Sorry to all of you who like to role-play I just need some time to mature in myself.

Hey Hey Look here to see Me and my Dad get showered in Ice water:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TXU.....ature=youtu.be

Gotta say, it wasn't that bad.



Also please will someone tell me what TMI means?