People been asking me what's in my head ? idk sometimes it's good sometimes it's naughty I may be bad but I'm perfectly good at it. I ain't judging anymore but respect is respect.

Im sorry for our stinking thinking and forgive you me. <3

So yeah I make mistakes and lie about being tuffer than I am. it's somthing I'm working on stopping because I have been abused emotionaly and physicly. I think it protects me. when in actuality I've hurt myself alot threw it. don't act unless you can step up. that's what I learned this october, in my anger at myself that I am only hurting and pushing others away because I'm scared to cause hurt or pain to others. I'm always struggling with right and wrong I know what the differences are but when I feel comftorbal I feel like I am doing the wrong thing. to anyone I've improperly communicated to. I'm working on a better way love an hope no one hates me to much. thank you to all our frontlines for all you do💝💜😟

Today I really just wanna give up...this year my bad habits my new years resolution is to never be who I was again ever and show myself the love and worth I desearve. so it is with a heavy heart I will be taking a break go idk how long but will post again soon. love all the furry fam. that's what my depressed me thinks. the real me just wants a big group hug pets and good laughs. the other me wants to be self loathing. so when I think this way I have a good hug with my Big Lion King and life is back to Normal. I'm done lashing out at the people who already love and accept me and I accept who I am 100% fully. I'm so sick of seeing this world eat itself it cause me to eat at myself in such an unhealthy way I'm done doing it forever. my BPD1 can't take the hatred. if you ever loved me i am sorry for how I treated you I love you each and every day. not a moment passes I don't wish to come home....to my online family but I have been bad to myself and others collecting hearts and leaving scars. I've caught my cold this year and from now on I'm done with acting as I have twords others. I will return once my life is more in order to post art and be around. stay safe be well, don't hurt, life is good and do the right thing get help befor Deppression TRYS to lie and take your happiness. which is love trust confidence and pride.

Honestly feel more bullied then ever who cares...fake It till you make it they say . no one cares anyway.

Good things do happen. I'm learning after these last Few days, good friends can be made again. that's all I can think to write right now. keep learning and growing anyone who reads this. and yeah I find it cringy too.. ;3 <3

On a plot of land under the full moon, noises echo. Pushing the night ever further into darkness. *Gravel sifting, the sound of frail dead bones reanimating. Shoveing it's decayed flesh through the cold soft soil. Groans of agony breach through mother Gias womb. A crying howl gasps out for breath, and the winds sweet kiss passes there scorched lips. His Pale, glazed, and bloodshot green eyes gaze up at Luna, all her Beauty shining apon him once more filling him with color.*
The creature new what had happend. He was only slepping, able to still see this world. "How many year's have I been down there? alone while you danced in the light.. (pauses with a deep sigh) no matter, we exsist to help you." His green, and purple eyes stared apon a young Man an Lion Knelt befor a canvis covered book gazing back at him. The man stood up and spoke "Hey Rin it's been a long time." Standing 8 feet in hight Rin Looked with moderate Contemp at the man, "Hmff... mortal you have summoned me for what purpose?" His eyes had made contact with the Lion feeling powerful energy flowing threw them . "I see you didn't come alone this time." The man looked back ashamed that he had hurt his oldest friend. " For now I just want to make amends and live with you again in my life. would that be okay?" Mathew wasnt assured from the current situation, if this awakening was wise. Deep down he still wanted his friend to walk with him in life. But life was always crule to Matthew in friendships. " Arn't you scared of what could happen if we join together once again? " -Rin ....
"No, this is Dino he helped me stop being afraid." All three stood together."Guess I can tag around again sleep was boring anyway
"-Rin -
Sweet let's go draw and play together!" -Mathew

Walking around my house to tired to sleep to sleep to tired no sleep. Drawing must drawrawrrr.........*Falls on face * zzzzzzzzz