Hello, all.

For starters I had an awesome time at Babyfur con and met a lot of friends and folks that enjoyed the art I've commissioned over the years and met with artists and content creators that I've been seeking to meet for the first time in ages including FJF and Kairis. the drawback is I spent a lot on merch and still on the recovery process.

I'm still struggling to find a job and while I've been reached out to a bunch of employers and people I'm really starting to lose my patience and I'm starting to think about becoming a content creator and Twitch streamer in the future and start making money that way. I am hoping to get rehired by Boeing by the end of the year, I just need to wait for the duration of my layoff to be at least a year from that day.

Meanwhile I've set up some wishlists on Amazon, Throne, and Etsy so I can get some birthday surprises! My birthday is this Friday (October 3rd).

I'll post the 2 Amazon ones here:

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/.....?ref_=wl_share The standard list, half of it's pricey so even if you're a generous billionaire. You don't have to get the PS5 and games for me.

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/.....?ref_=wl_share This is all of the ABDL stuff I wanna get. the cheap stuff.

Now for the thrones and Etsy lists that I'm still working on. But here's the links.

https://throne.com/betowolf For Throne

https://www.etsy.com/registry/MTY0M.....fDI4NzI1NTIwNw For Etsy

Have fun browsing! And Lastly I'm gonna need some to relearn streaming and using OBS and find ways to make more money to also start influencing (RESPONSIBLY While respecting boundaries and especially respecting the cultures and boundaries of other countries.)

That's all I have to share here. PEACE!!

What's up, diaper butts? Sorry there hasn't been any major or positive updates or any uploads. Life and the job market still has left me mothballed. I've been dumping applications all over LinkedIn and Indeed etc to get the job I need to continue my quality career and livelihood. I'm still on unemployment but the state unemployment system has not been cooperative. I have signed up for other places that would help me find a job along with staffing agencies but I kept being left in the dark. It also doesn't help that I don't drive and rely on family, brother and eventually friends to get me to places. My brother doesn't want to drive too far or head to places that he deems "Sketchy." I know I should really start to learn to drive, but the roads and highways just scare me and having to memorize traffic laws and controls.

For Life in the fandom. I wanna continue to make content and ideas with the help of artists across some platforms. I even wanna start doing Twitch streams again and really get into the content creator bandwagon. But I need to relearn OBS as well as build a new PC and upgrade to Windows 11. My current PC is not compatible for the upgrade and they're gonna discontinue 10 in October.
I also wanna create my own Lore into my Betowolf OC for the ABDL community. I'm no longer feeling as kinky with diapers these days as I'm more into cute, wholesome moments when it comes to art. An innocent, wholesome kiddo in diapers looking for adventure. I guess being kid core as played a part in being in the Babyfur/Diaperfur ABDL community.

I also plan to set up a Throne account once my content kicks off for real but I rather not be begging at this point as I still feel confident about getting a job soon... (I hope)

And Lastly. I will be at Babyfur Con (BFC) in San Jose next month! I'm very nervious but quite excited. I'll be flying with hardhatJac and landing to meet with his partner, Greyden_fluffy.

That's all for now. Peace!

This has been going on Twitter and Blusky about how banks and credit card companies are trying to restrict on what we're purchasing online. So far it's for video games but it's clear things could escalate. in the UK, there's already a law implemented that's forcing people to show proof that they're 18+ or old enough to uses Blusky and discord, and it's becoming a huge mess and violates rights.

for those in North America, sign here: https://chng.it/x8vMVzrnT2

For those in the UK, go here and sign: https://petition.parliament.uk/petitions/722903

Sign and pass it along!

"Censorship is telling a grown man he can't have steak because a baby can't chew it." -Mark Twain

Never point a Roman Candle or a bottle rocket at anyone or anything but the sky.

Learn how to safely and properly set up fireworks and pyrotechnics before you light them.

And don't stick your head over the launch tube assuming it's a dud!!

With Firework season, even though many of us rather not celebrate it during this political climate. I just want everyone to be safe and keep their eyes, digits and especially their heads on and intact during America's independence day.

So whatever, Happy Red White and Blue day.

DON'T BE FUCKING STUPID!!!

https://youtube.com/shorts/74WayCH7.....TQB5_kr9B309JU

I regret to announce that my job position did not work out and I was unable to meet expectations. It turned out to be far too difficult and pressuring it seems.

I don't know where my future lies at at this point... I'm honestly seeking to room with others as I'm no longer feeling politically compatible with my brother and parents (though I love my mother very much)

Fuck this year to hell...

I am fearful for the fate and safety of foreign pals that want to come here to visit us and enjoy conventions but with the shit that has been going on with Trump back in power I cannot blame them for being too afraid to come here, but to any foreigner not giving a fuck about it and coming here despite of the risks and threats... God bless you to righteousness Because now our Tourism industry is being threatened along with my new job! The Tariffs are making the goods we love and hold dear more expensive (especially the ABDL Diapers and Try agains).

Right now it sucks to be me because I'm dependent on a Republican family along with my Trump Supporting father and Especially my Trump supporting brother so I'm suffering big time here but they still (except not exactly my dad) let me keep my stance of being a pansexual and in the furry fandom and LGBTQ. My sister and her family on the other hand supports my lifestyle and I'm proud of her.

Lastly to everyone taking part in the anti-TRUMP protests this weekend, Good luck to all of you, But I better see "End All Tariffs NOW" Written on those picket signs!... As well "Defend our foreign visitors" etc.

Stand up against GOP Tyranny, bring back the true meaning of America!! (and keep it as woke as possible.

That is my shout for today, Beto out!

I wanted to announce that I got a job! :D

Hope everyone is doing well.

Unwatch and unfollow me right now and fuck right off. I want nothing to do with you. This Tyrant is destroying what America is known for. The LGBTQ+ revolution is now being threatened and he's turning America into a hermit nation cutting us off from being part of global aid and W.H.O. and eventually NATO.

Also Fuck Elon Musk. Nobody voted for him.

The thought of Being Laid off right as the orange guy returns to power... that's what happened to me last time... My resume is stronger sure but I'm fearful for the future. I'm now 36 but already I'm feeling too damn old for these levels of bullshit. God help us all now...

yep... As part of Boeing's plan to reduce the entire workforce by 10 percent... As I feared I was one of them. My 6 year career with Boeing has came to a close. I'm very heartbroken but I understand how deep of the crisis has been. They did give me a generous package to keep me paid and covered through the rest of the year and into January. Not sure how long I can keep the insurance but I can still get paid up into March.

Disturbing coincidence... the last time I was laid off in 2016 is when Trump last got elected... now a cycle repeats...

Just read the update. Honestly their new rules are a pile of BS. I'm gonna be reuploading elsewhere. I'll update on where else I'll be uploading later on but for now I'm dead tired. this is gonna be another busy and tedious week of work for me.

And with that... FA is pretty much dead to me. they took down like six of the commissions I got way back then. at this point. I'm done with this site. I'll already posted links in my last journal of where to find me https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10957255/

I'm also on Babyfur . me. you can follow me here as well https://babyfur.me/profile/Betowolfey

What I will be doing now is creating a file of bookmarks to artists' websites, galleries, and contact info. Once I'm convinced that I obtained everyone's I will most likely close down this account.

Hope all is well and don't be shy to reach out to me!

Yeah it's gotten worse. They're spreading the purge to even the most notable and respected babyfur artists out there including  babystar. So while I decide where else to upload (and if you can give me suggestions to where) here are other places you can find me:

Twitter (x):
https://x.com/BetoWolfey Normal
https://x.com/BetowolfAD lots of diaper stuff

Blusky:
https://bsky.app/profile/betowolf.bsky.social Normal (not well posted)
https://bsky.app/profile/betowolfad.bsky.social Lots of diapers

And I'm also on Telegram as https://t.me/Betowolf. I'll be adding more places and I think I should really move over to other abdl friendly places including babyfur . me.
Going back to video games. Catch y'all later....

Aparrently artists I know of other fields of themes and kinks including Macro and Vore are also getting penalty stuck. mainly an old friend,  Sparky_the_chu

went on the FA discord server to ask about this, All I got was folks asking me not to bring that up in the chat, but I did get one answer from Conger. Here ya go:

If for any reason, your account is suspended, banned, restricted, blocked (via users), or otherwise disabled by Fur Affinity, you may not create another account with the intent to bypass these limitations without our permission. Any effort to evade these limitations yourself or on behalf of another user may result in a suspension or the length of your current suspension being extended or changed to a permanent ban. When permanently banned, you may not use Fur Affinity as a registered user nor create accounts.

All decisions are made based upon your history, the severity of your offense, and the discretion of the Moderator.

If you disagree with the decision of a Moderator, you may appeal his decision by opening a Trouble Ticket under the Dispute Administrative Action section. If your account is currently inaccessible due to a Suspension or Ban, you may email appeals@furaffinity.net. Disputes must be filed within 6 months of when the decision took place."

This was probably the same thing you got over and over. they're pretty vague on the rules but here's one link: https://www.furaffinity.net/aup

I don't know how often FA response to these appeals these days, hell I don't know where to go to post any art anymore. The only safer place I can think of is Inkbunny, but there's too much cub porn on there and I don't like it. If you got suggestions, let me know. -_-;

Man that was a real mess. Never seen a hack and compromise go this far to not only redirect the site to a crypto scam site but also compromise the X (twitter) account of FA as well as Dragoneer's 2 weeks after he passed. Gotta say they were scummy, but I heard not only the hacker got themselves doxxed but they drained their whole crypto wallet just to do this. Anyway I hope they face justice but I also hope they get cursed to suffer an eternity of softball sized kidney stones for this one.

work was not easy for me today as I woke up this morning to see a message from my first friend in the fandom telling me about Dragoneer's fate... as well as reminding me as to how fucking evil and corrupt the American healthcare system is especially in Virginia. I joined the fandom in 2008. I always relied on FA to find friends and commission and upload content since then. I know things have been edgy especially about changes in rules in babyfur uploads, I know Fang was suspended over some innocent comic. Either way, while I haven't been too happy with how he has handled things lately it still breaks my heart that the man who crated one of the first art sites to connect furry artists has passed at 44.

Rest well dragoneer

Yeah, it has been a while. Might as well update a journal and update what's going on.

So for starters my final grandmother passed away late last year, shes finally with her husband after being widowed for 13 years, Another thing is our Golden Retriever, Twister had to be put down last month due to cancer that spread throughout his body, he was 12. And lastly I really got carried away from my spending on going to furry cons and ABDL events and I fell deep into debt... (and it doesn't help that I was scammed over a fake room runner for MFF... I wanted to raise awareness about that). And lastly, if you watched the news about a certain Aerospace company, We've really fell into the worst spot since the Pandemic and MAX crisis and the levels of stress has negatively effected my physical and mental health and it kept getting worse and worse... but at least nobody was killed in this crisis so far... (Except for 2 whistleblowers who died of unrelated causes out of nowhere)

So yeah.... Keeping it slow this year. I'll be out of debt by the fall and I've been pretty good at saving up so far. I'll be posting an update about myself and the fandom later on. I hope everyone has had a good weekend so far.

so I now only have ONE content creator left that's still active. But Patreon (and this shithead named Robin) decided that all diaper content weather it's NSFW or SFW or even innocent, is considered pedophilia or sexualizing minors and have officially banned every abdl content creator from their platform. their one and only reliable source of income is now gone.

I'm just sickened by this and it doesn't help that this is all happening on the day before I fly to Chicago for MFF. It makes me more and more uncomfortable that people still accuse us as being child predators.

I'm now going to move my social media and what not to other platforms including Mastodon and Blusky and just keep off of twitter (Now X). But with MFF coming I need to focus on packing and getting ready.

Hope everyone is having a safe one.

Eyyyeah.... SO FA has a new policy update that is mostly concerning babyfurs or any "underage looking" characters in certain situations. I'm seeing a lot of artists and users announcing they're moving their art elsewhere and even nuking their galleries.

I don't know where to go from here. When did FA's mods start screwing users so hard now? this is bullshit! I have made a mastodon for the babyfur community, but i haven't used it much. I don't know where to find any community that could at least be more tolerant.

if you have any suggestions on where I can go and move my gallery over to, let me know in the comments. I'm so done with this.

RIP...  warpwarp1929 /  foxypoof

You were a wonderful, wholesome artist... I always adored the fanart you've made for me over the many years. May God watch over your soul...

Farewell...

Good friend... TT_TT

Hi, all. Hope everyone is well. I'm doing OK and therapy is going well. I meant to make an update about myself and how I was raised but I keep losing motivation to type it up and I get that motivation from work and of course lose it at the end of the day.

Anyway I am looking for someone who could help make or reskin some VRchat avatars. I wanna get more into VRchat and I even plan to invest in a Valve index this year. I wanna be more in these virtual hangouts and really be part of the fun.

I also want to get back into Twitch streaming but I haven't done it in over a year and forgot how to work with OBS studio. I don't think I wanna switch over to streamlabs because I don't think streamlabs has enough features. I also really want to learn how to make layouts to my twitch streams like other Vtubers and even get my own Vtube model made and have my own channel point redeems and emotes.

I wanna start a new way in sharing content and maybe even do a side hustle with Twitch eventually. I do miss commissioning art as well and I might comission new emotes, art and and stream layout. I really want to be part of the community of Vtubers and content creators and do my own line of content.

if you can suggest me somoene who can do a re-skin of some models I bought, please let me know! <3

Hello, Everyone. Hope your autumn months have been decent.

It's been 3 months since my last journal update so I thought I'd post one before new years.

Anyway Therapy has been going well and we had conversation about why I had problems with understanding boundaries. As I admit I have been really really bad with boundaries even especially when joining the fandom. Having lost trust and relations with artists, friends and groups over the years. I'm not going to mention their names but I will talk about how I've been raised. When I was growing up, even in social studies and English and with family, Not only I was never ever taught about boundaries, but I was like never EVER allowed to have a boundary especially in School. Having to interact with students or people that I was never comfortable with, Having to deal with their crude behaviors in Special Ed, Or forced to be social to people that I rather not be friends with.

After graduation from high school I was really getting lonely and depressed which is why I always depend on the internet and online games. Then I found the furry fandom and I was able to find people with interests similar to mine, It did took me a while to get into the babyfur community because I was shy and all and Worried about judgement and trolls. Eventually I really got into it and I was going to furry cons and hanging out with nice people. But of course I have been carried away and not understanding comfort zones or boundaries. I was blinded with love and I was then learning about obvious disconnects and it really left me very depressed. I was able to make new friends along the way but most came and went, I have several friends pass away like Kyufox and Ivan Fenrir which was really painful. I miss them dearly still. And another thing is I have a tendency to just not let things go and that's really hard for me especially when I have been close to certain people and then a huge mess broke out. I've also been called out multiple times on Twitter for certain mistakes I've made and statements. I still have a lot of trouble understanding the society of the fandom and in these groups.

I'm still in therapy and I'm gonna start to learn further about using filters and understanding and making boundaries, Though currently my therapist is going through a chest infection so it may be postponed for a little bit. But this is something that I will work on.

Anyway I finally got to try out VRchat and played on my desktop. I don't have a VR headset yet so I was giving desktop a shot first. it was cool although it didn't show a whole lot of features, props or objects compared to Second Life. But it's definitely something I want to expand on and get my own custom avatar and hang out with groups. and eventually invent in a valve index to really immerse in it.

Lastly I wanna start getting back into Twitch streaming and gaming, I really gotta break out my RingFit again and start exercising. But I also want to set up my space and start streaming video and computer games again and start becoming part of the Twitch Streaming community. Of course I want to get a Vtube avatar for myself done, Have a twitch stream layout, And making this a side hustle for making more money. Of course it's gonna take time, knowledge, effort and surely more cash to make this work out.

That's all I got for this Journal. I may upload several pics I got since I haven't uploaded anything for like a year. Hope everyone has a fun and safe winter and Christmas and... stay warm!

Hello, Everyone.

I hope you all had a nice summer this year despite the record heat and drought across the planet among other issues.

Therapy has been going smooth so far and it has been very helpful to find out how to understand my feelings and who I am. I often have trust issues with people IRL and online especially with how lame my social life has been when I was going through school. I was told that a lot of my issues could be from negative experience from being "shamed" during my childhood and how "childhood shaming" can have such an impact on someone especially being High functioning autistic and Neurodivergent. I was shamed quite a bunch growing up especially having a crappy tutor for my 3 years of middle school. I also Remembered one incident in 2nd grade where i upset my teacher somehow and she told the entire class to yell my whole name at me as punishment.

So yeah, I also have a father who was tough on disciplining me and my siblings. But I was often a loner in school since I couldn't understand like the cultures and I've felt less compatible with it.

As for my online activity I'm still avoiding twitter. Only coming on it occasionally to see updates. I have since uninstalled it from my phone to avoid the negativity. I'm also aware that they posted about me in KiwiFarms which explains why I had a few trolls on me. (and it won't matter now that KiwiFarms is getting wrekt LMAO)

I believe that's all I have to say for now. I also want to share my thanks everyone who has helped me out and stuck with me during the time of my mental outbursts and once again I'm sorry for the things I've said 3 months ago.

Hope everyone has a chill one! peace.

Hello everyone....

I hardly update anything on here since I'm often busy with other things and Haven't had all interest in this site lately...
So Yesterday thing's Escalated horribly on Twitter and I've let my emotions get the best of me.
As you remember when Tato was cancelled away from here and the fandom over the accusations of him being a "Nazi Sympathizer" with all the photos discovered on his tumbler and other sites that were from over 7 years ago, A friend brought it up on Twitter and despite being a year since people still bring up about their ex hobbies and the images and just kept dragging the arguing thread on and on and on and... That's where I lost my emotions and hope for humanity that I went careless and Made horrible messages to people just hoping for the world to just end, hoping for more shootings. I even told another person to just stop taking anti-depressents so she could just get rid of herself.
What I've said was repulsive, inexcusable an, I can only think, unforgiving.
I've lost a whole bunch of followers, friends and blocked by many good artists and lost a lot of trust for doing that and it lead to the point of me calling the suicide hotline for the first time right in the middle of work hours. I had a huge meltdown.

I absolutely regret what I've done and I'll never forgive myself for carelessly losing it. I know I'll probably receive a lot of hate over the evidence that's already been shown on there.

SO at this point, I'm staying off of Twitter Indefinately and now finally seeking therapy. I found the nearest therapist and will be having an appointment with them on Wednesday. Wish me the best of luck (or a living hell should you believe I deserve to be down like with Tato. I don't care...)

Once again, I'm Very sorry for what I've done.

Peace.

Morning all. I'm planning to post a huge art dump of all the art I've been holding in my dropbox this whole time. It's mostly gonna be of Tato and I know what some of us felt after what was exposed but if you give me grief about it you will be removed from my spaces.
I won't lie, I really wish for Tato to return, they still receive a bunch of support. I was very disappointed about their past but I wish it was all deleted before this all happened. They did a lot of charities that helped so many people. but I'm not going to dwell on that. But in all seriousness I had lost so much faith in this community since the pandemic divided us that I lost my humanity and began making my own threats, even wished death upon people involved in the doxing and those in the fandom. But I won't get into that.

When I was at MFF I saw very VERY positive signs that we are socially recovering. I'm honestly very proud in many of us that we did not ensue any drama and we started caring about each other more. Thanks to MFF I got more of my humanity back because I learned there is hope for us after all.

Anyway I am also moving to a new house to better suit my future as this pandemic comes to an end. I still need to learn to drive so I can have more independence and not depend so much on family to drive me to places. I also plan to start twitch streaming again because I get more positive vibes as I watch streams with Vtubers and friends. I also plan to get a vtube avatar and learn the mechanics on Twitch more.

All and all. I really hope we all start forgiving each other as the pandemic ends. Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and may 2022 bring back trust and happiness.