Would be interesting to meet up with people again. Last time, I just ran into people.

Hey everyone. Only two weeks until TFF. I’ll be there, and I’m usually looking to meet new people and friends there. Anyone who watches me going?

So I bought Mice Tea on a steam sale.

Holy cow what a good game! I'd say I avoid visual novel, but really they never hold much interest to me. This one however, is a transformation based story, and each one of the paths actually explores a different aspect of the transformation genre, well so far, I've only gotten two of the possible endings. However, I'm incredibly happy with my purchase. I've clicked with all of the characters, even ones I started out hating. I loved the romance in both chapters so far, and the sex scenes are actually engaging. They're not cringe like I was expecting. The artists for this is a group of experienced tf and tg artists who did an amazing job!

Over all , I loved the daylights of this game. If you're a fan of transformation, and have ever enjoyed a graphic novel, Mice Tea is actually on sale now on Steam!

So I ran Gorgeworld. The TTRPG by  phealgud you can get here. https://www.drivethrurpg.com/en/pro.....482/gorgeworld

We had a blast. We were shaking out the mechanics, but it's a really simple game that made it easy to get right into the weight gain. The one downside was, I used a forcefeeder enemy, and they didn't want to fight it ^^ Good problem to have. It'll be tiring to run something where I just don't have a module to work from, but I had a blast. Pheal was able to give me a real play/ wg fiction story to act as an example of encounters and such which really halped me get a feel for how the game should flow. Also, we used the included rapid weight gain rules which did end up being fun, even if we didn't have occasion to make use of the girth.

Also, I have never done any sort of in person exploration of my sexuality. So even something as light as describing one of the characters weight gain, felt like something of a major event in my life. I'll def be eager to run it again, just so long as I get a module built out. Something to work on through December.

Any Takers? A friend tried to run a game, but that fell through. Most of the people I rp with are good at playing with wg in a pretty sfw way. There's probably a way I could run a game of this with the right people. Though I'd want to use voice chat.

Anyone even mildly interested?

But I never thought I'd honestly believe hope to be a poisonous lie. That's kind of all optimism has ever gotten me though

I just got the starter set from their Bluesky bundle, and I'm kinda interested in playing, though right now the entire community seems to be a telegram chat.

Does anyone who follow me play the game?

https://store.steampowered.com/app/.....nt_To_Be_Fast/

You should absolutely give this game a shot. It's an old 90's educational adventure game, about turning a bad story about staying healthy, into a heart warming story about being yourself. It's also free and super short.

Also, I'd describe it as Doki Doki Literature Club made by a fatfur living in Zootopia. Take that as a review too.

I have to say, hate playing the latest Atlas game just reminded me that not falling for the game design tricks of JRPG's really sucks.

I think all of them fall into one of two camps for me. The ones where you mash the A button, and the ones where you role play as a shell script.

For the first half, I'm thinking of stuff like FF6, Pokemon, games where there are a thousand mechanics, so instead of properly balancing all of them, they just make them game really easy. For my money, I think I made it through most JRPG's feeling like this is what they were. There's no thought process, I just select the move that does the most damage and use it.

The second type is stuff like persona or FFX where all combat has a correct solution. Flying monsters are weak to Wakka's Blitzball, this boss is specifically weak to this poison spell, that is useless in every fight. This also doesn't require any thought. Either you have the moves or you need to go grind, meaning doing the exact same thing for hours (currently grinding just to be able to make it through Metaphor on the easy setting and it's taking hours, but literally, all I did for that entire time, is fight the only enemy type that appears in this dungeon, minotaurs, and at the end, there wasn't a noticeable combat difference other than the single new move I learned).

And all of their stories are garbage. Not to say they don't have interesting things to say, but, take FFX, it's supposed to be an exploration of being a side character in someone else's adventure, and then stepping up to save the day because that's the right thing to do. Awesome, sign me up.

Except no it's not. It's also about professional sports, organized religion, racial oppression. There's a bizzarre subplot about an undead pervert that refuses to die, and people refuse to burn his corpse. It can't be about anything, because the game has to constantly derail itself to talk about the dozens of other things it wants to touch on.

I hate whatever personality defect does this to me, because everyone else is having fun and I'm just an asshole.

I have been kind of astounded over the past years at how many millions of dollars being thrown at games that there will never be any reason to play. Bethesda recently released Starfield. A hundred million video game that wears out its welcome in hours and descends into dull time wasting from there on out. It's the result of a game studio that had a hit, didn't understand why it was a hit, lost their way, and now the people who run the studio are too out of touch to realize they don't have any idea what people want.

Atlas just released Metaphor, a game with the design doc of the persona series but an original setting. To note, it copies their design doc and all of its superficial trappings. It kept none of what made P5 a memorable experience, and instead created a bland lifeless setting that it feels no care went in to. After 9 hours I can't remember any of the characters, as they are all, wholly one note, and feel like archetypes that were ripped out of a better game. The only one I can remember are Louis, the necromancer, and your pixie. I remember your fairy, because unlike other atlas characters in this role, she's not teeth grindingly annoying from minute one. I remember the two bad guys because I kept agreeing with them and everything they had to say while all the main characters act like naive idiots every chance they get.

The world has no substance at all to it. So far there hasn't been a single story beat to sink your teeth into. A king of a country I've never heard of has been betrayed and killed, by a character who's obviously guilty and no one does anything about it. The first cutscene has a team of lords and knights around a dead kings bed, and yes I am interested in the revolutionary who is rightly pointing out that they're worthless idiots. I've been instantly sold on the bad guy on accident. From there we move onto the world. The world is series of races and their structure in the world, which is a real shame as the game features no actual racism.

And I need to say this again, there has as of yet, been no real racism. Someone got hanged unjustly, I was politely asked to leave a high end weapon shop my first time there, and everyone is very dismissive of me. That could be because the main character is an oppressed minority, or just because he's a teenager, because in this oppressive super racism obsessed world, there no racism. No one, outside of the opening muggers have been mean to me, and they were mean to me because they were robbing me. How about while I go down the street something interesting happens to illustrate the horrors of societal wide racism. How about someone calls me a slur, or just be's mean to me?

And that's it, the gameplay is P5, except that un streamlined it. Now you manage an entire parties worth of spell sets and loadouts like I'm playing FF8. It took persona management, which was snappy and fun, and turned it into a grind session.

So now I need to connect this back to my opening. Why play this? The world and story are painfully generic, the gameplay is a marked step down from every other SMT games, and to top it all off, this is the first Atlas game I've played that has a god awful soundtrack. It just sucks to see game designers identify and focus on the worst parts of their game as the parts we enjoy the most. You enjoyed persona management? Yes because it was quick, and fun. Archetypes? Make sure to constantly cycle through them, drastically changing your attack loadout every battle, meaning you can never get into a grove with the game. They took a fun system, expanded on it because they thought they were supposed to, and ruined it.

If I'm going to compare this to any other game, it'd be FF8's constant paperwork with the functioning system. If it were a movie, it'd be Batman V Superman, a film convinced it had something to say, that was vapid and empty.

I played the demo and was miserable the entire time. I bought the game anyway, because it feels like all Atlas games have incredibly bad openings. Heck, P5's opening is still way worse than this. Now I once again feel like I bought a game because I tricked myself into thinking I should like it. I looked past the bad intro because I thought something interesting would happen, and was wrong.

Well I look forward to doing this again next year when Civ 7 comes out and we find out Sid Meir has found a way to add even more pointless decision making to the endgame of the latest version.

So in a nice change of pace, I actually found some media this weekend that sparked some joy. The Dragoness says sit is a pretty fun and small comic about a human being adopted by a dragon. It’s pretty fun, and I have to say I was instantly hooked.
https://dragonesssayssit.com/

I really wanted to like this game, but 7 hours in of desperately trying and nothing is clicking. Here are the three big issues that if fixed (which I'm sure can be done with advice) will make the game fun for me. . I'm putting them here because I tried to post the subreddit, and the mods blocked it. If you read this and can give me some easy advice on how to fix my clearly broken game play, please say so.

I'm clearly using the magic wrong. The following is a description of what it feels like to me. The stun spell has to be used when a boss finishes a combo. This guarantees they will be standing perfectly still. This spell does not interrupt animations, and neither does the damage dealt during the stun. They will move on and instantly attack, and because you're so close and in a combo you can't dodge out of, they get a free hit. I swear half the time, I realize the boss started an animation, and if I go into to strike, I'm going to take way more damage in return, and it just put the boss fight on hold. But even if I got the timing correct all the time, it stops the game play I go in and do a set amount of damage. Remember all those interchangeable abilities from Mass Effect that just set off an explosion and decreased a health bar somewhere. That's honestly what this feels like. It's incredibly tedious, at least in Mass Effect, I was managing 20 cool down timers at once, so it was still engaging. I don't have an issue timing attacks in any other game I've played, here it's an issue and I don't know why. That's just the stun. I also unlocked the first transformation and the frog and poison boss transformations as well. They're all equally lame. The bosses always dodge the frog, kill the snakes with an AOE, and every time I turn into the fire dude I spend so much time worthless twirling my staff over my head I keep waiting to be murdered by Indiana Jones. Again I must be screwing up the last one, everyone told me it would make the game way easier.

The controls feel non responsive, and the game lacks visual feedback to me. - When I first hit the Y button, and saw a 4 second, easily interruptible, easy to doge heavy attack action, my first reaction was to see how I could fix it with upgrades in the skill tree. Nothing is available at my level, and level grinding the worthless overworld enemies sounds miserable, so I'm stuck with it. I complained about this overly long animation you're married to back when I first played Castlevania as a teenager (it was 2007 VC buy on the wii). This is 100 times worse than that ever was. Maybe it wouldn't be a problem, but the heavy attack features (focus points, stamina) have no real-estate on the screen. They're tiny, and stashed aways in opposite corners of the screen. I can't see when my stamina is out, because the main character acts almost exactly the same with no stamina as with it. He can even still fucking attack like a madman. It took three hours of playing for me to figure out I could actually dodge out of some of my combos, I just couldn't dodge before because my stamina was out and I didn't notice. Is there something I could do for this? All I could figure out is a mod to move the UI into the center of my monitor.

The pace of all the boss fights is being set by the boss, which is making them very slow paced. I can't reliably interrupt or effect combos. I can't even dodge out of the attacks because if you free yourself from their attack animation the boss cancels it (The frog boss would always jump back three times unless I dodge in in front of the boss where it was safe, then it stopped and two and immediately switched attacks). So it feels like there's no reason to go in and mix it up with the enemy. That has always a mistake for me. Every boss fight, if I stand perfectly still (the enemy will come to me, I can dodge, get a full combo in and get a focus point. Even after I do that though, I need to break contact, run away from the enemy, and hit the Y button to charge. Thing is, the held charge will last through me running, and not dodging, so when the enemy starts a combo I can't run around and have to dodge, I've wasted my focus points, which is my fault for being to fast to hit the Y button, but this entire process has taken 40-50 second, I'm incredibly bored. It's hard to keep focused for so long when nothing is happening. Thing is this still feels like the fastest and most effect way to put points on the board. This must be wrong but I can't figure out how to do anything in these boss fights unless I'm reacting to something the enemy is doing.

Those are the three massive things holding me back. If it sounds like I'm a fucking idiot who's playing the game good! I mean it when I say I want to like this game. If there are easy corrections I can make great! I'd love to enjoy this game

You can ignore this, I get super frustrated every time a super popular game comes out and I can't stand, so I'm gonna post my steam review of Black Myth here. I thought the game just has a really bad opening. After six hours, I just need someplace to yell. If you're enjoying the game, obviously, good for you :) I'm out sixty bucks and can't even refund the game though after everyone I knew kept telling me to give this game a chance.

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I do not understand the appeal of this game at all. This combat is incredibly slow and stilted. The heavy attack has a 4 second long animation, despite the fact that every other combat animation in the game takes less than a second, meaning the attack is pointless to time. The game play is pretty standard hack and slash three kingdoms stuff, except there's no hoards of week enemies, only the bosses. This leaves game play designed for frenetic button pressing be repurposed to incredibly slow boss fights with non responsive controls. When I say non responsive, I mean it. I'll hit the Y button to start charging the attack. Hal of the time it will start charge, and half the time, nothing will happen. There is a visual flourish that happens when you start charging, but sometimes that doesn't go off and the charge happens anyway, meaning I can't trust the visual feedback on screen.

The game is based entirely around it's dodge mechanic. So if you don't like it in the first hour, refund the game, that part never changes. Every boss battle is just memorizing when you can do the perfect dodges, and the exact moments when it's safe to heal or use a spell. This game also has awful magic. There's no way to restore mana, so I hope you made it to the boss full (actually pretty easy despite the atrocious walk back).

Even basic world design is broken. The first area is this giant open jungle area with no signposts. You just wander through, occasionally find an abandoned temple, and that's it. There are signposts that stand out from the environment.
i got turned around constantly, because I can't tell the generic temple I'm coming out of, from the generic temple I'm walking to.

This game is exploding, and I am honestly baffled. My entire time with the game has felt like a dull exercise in misery. Also I never read "Journey to West" Rather than being any kind of an introduction to the subject matter, the game 100% expects you know who these creatures are and already care. This wasn't a problem with Dark Souls, or any other game that had an obtuse plot that couldn't hook me without a fan community to back it, but for some reason a game based on the most famous piece of literature in human history having a story I couldn't get into wasn't lost on me.

So we're on the same page, I 'm not leaving FA. I'll comply with whatever BS policy this site puts in place, and find ABDL stuff elsewhere if I have to. However, I am getting more interested in social media now that Bluesky has provided a pretty nice environement to do so so here's my other accounts.

Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/biffiea.bi.....two.furry.camp
Cubhub (just made today) : https://cubhub.social/@Biffiea64

What surprised me was how many people seemed interested in what I have to say about random bs. I've never engaged with Social Media before, and it turns out, with the right tools and people, it's kinda fun

So apparently there's been another unexplained purge of user, the criteria and reasoning of which will never be explained, and no second chances will be given to people breaking rules they do not know exist. Who the fuck is running this site, and what is they're goddamn excuse for telling us nothing? This isn't youtube. This isn't a billion dollar international corporation where every word has to be pressed through layers of red tape. They can make a post on the front page telling everyone here are the new very specific guidelines that don't leave room for guess work.

If you post to this journal, and we don't regularly speak and you have any notion of keeping track of me I'm https://bsky.app/profile/biffiea.bi.....two.furry.camp on Bluesky.

If there's anything in my gallery you like download it before I get rid of it in a week

Howdy everyone,

Well now that I can kinda approximate joy again, I can post something fun. So I got my own post covid place recently, and I'm still decorating it. I've got an entryway themed around kobolds, a pokemon bookshelf, etc, but I need some Legend of Zelda stuff. Luckily, if you're not a furry, LoZ will fix that. In terms of non human options for the hero of time to transform into, you're spoiled for choice. Are there any good posters of Link looking like a Harelquin Romance Novel cover? Like shredded wolf man link? I supposed if any of you know anything that'd make for good wall art I could print it out. The search function on FA though, is really letting me down. I think the two terms, Wolf and Link, throw it off.

Okay ,

so I've had plenty of time to calm down. The main problem with me was, looking for a job. So I'm still looking, still hoping, but also looking into going back to school to see what I can get from that. The other thing is, a year ago I moved into my own post covid place. I made it a personal goal to meet more people, and get more connections in the community. In short, I had felt very powerfully that no one was reaching back out. I'm by several people this is very normal, give it time and some luck. So I guess I'll do that.

For reference, friendship is hard work to maintain especially as an adult. If someone seems like they're deliberately trying to make a connection with you, consider reaching back out if you can. My little pony teaches that friend ship is something worth working for, the reason that show took off is because that's also a good lesson for adults. Treat friendship the way you treat money. You're always looking for ways to make money. Try treating friendship the same way. I can very literally say my friends are the reason I'm still alive today.

And for everyone who reached out to me over the past few days, you are one of those friends and the fact that we barely know each other shouldn't take away from that.

Hello Everyone,

After a very long weekend, I've finally managed to calm down a bit. At least I'm not longer actively looking for excuses to be angry and lash out at people, and I've got the suicidal ideation under control. Of the outstanding job opportunities available to me, one has yet to reject me, when they do I sense I'll start spiraling again, but I'll try to keep it together. I'm so sorry to everyone I was a jerk to, and thank you to everyone who tried to reach out to me, though considering a large source of my pain was that I felt ignored, people I hadn't talked to in years coming out of the wood work to give me their well wishes, fueled the fire.

I'm going to suck the next few weeks. Life's gonna suck. It's gotten to were the only time I'm enjoying myself is when I'm actively exercising, and the shine is wearing off that too. I'm lucky that my immediate friends and family are very worried about me and consistently checking in.

For light hearted news. I've trying to teach myself how to draw. So far everything sucks, but people tell me that's the point.

Why do I drag myself to these furcon? I am not a member of the community. I repost g rated porn , hordes or strangers who don’t give a shit about me or anyone here favorite it. I made an honest goddamn effort to actually have friends, be some body, really have fucking roots. I spent weeks this year just trying to be more social in the fandom only to realize I fucking hate the idea of discussing anything in the same wheel house as intimacy with a physical human being and I even if I did I wouldn’t want to go around doing it with complete strangers, which is what I’m doing even fuckjng being here.

I don’t like meeting other people in the community. The few times I met people I knew online in real life, they were incredibly friendly people I’d be more than happy to have a life long relationship with, and my skin was crawling the entire time I was talking to them. People I considered life long friends, and I just wanted to get run over by a damn car

I’m not meeting people, and even if I did, I know the exact reward for putting yourself out there. Nothing. Flat dick. In the coming up on two decades I don’t think I’ve ever had anything close to a meaning ful relationship. There are time, times when I felt like I had something. Times when it felt like I really had a friend, or maybe someone I could get close to, I can not say hi for two days, and they’ll never say hi or reach out to me again. I’ve had exactly two people who went out of their way to say hi to me just to say hi, and 100% it’s because they wanted me to do something for them. It’s clear whatever the hell I want out of this, it’s completely one goddamn way. Not once notnfucking once have I ever been asked a question about me. I don’t think any one fuckjng anyone has asked me what I go to school for, or my job, or what I do outside of pretending to be a fat Pokemon.

But I’m not gonna learn am I? No, here I am making a journal on FA acting like anything is going to come of this other a thousand random people hitting select all and clear on their messages, because that’s what these things boil down to, screaming in a damn dessert.


I hate that I’m like this. I hate that I move in these stupid fucking cycles. Here’s how the next few months will play out, one or two people will force themselves to make posts, out of the five people who bother to click on this and read it after seeing the wall of text. Then we’re gonna forget about it. Everyone is going to move on with their days, because no one has the mental capacity for a stranger on the internet whining on a journal about their fucking hang ups. I’ll go dead silent for two years, before kicking off another gargantuan effort to make connections, and failing. Hopefully next time I’ll remember to just hit myself in the head with a hammer.

Hello All,

Last week I made a journal asking for idea for flash fiction. And everyone came through! I wrote three stories, of the two written response has been positive. And I'm getting the third one ready to go out soon.

However, you know what I love Kobolds. I think they are awesome, cute, adorable, and I love them. If I could turn into a kobold now I would. However, despite making a playing dozens of little scaly guys over the years, I have never come up with a solid story idea for a Kobold. So in the vain of last weeks success, and my belief that anyone who actually reads my stuff is pretty awesome, I need some story ideas.

So do you want a free story, specifically about a kobold. I need pitches, so that I can get a structure down, divorced from my own creativity, because every time I sit down to try to write about them, I write four pages, of what feels like a novella, and stop.

So lend a kobold lover a hand?

Anyone want to pitch ideas for flash fiction. I want to do some writing exercises and the prompts would be nice

Howdy everyone! I’m heading out to anthrocon tomorrow. This is my second fur con, and really the first one of a decent size. I’ve been to pax before, but obviously that’s a bit different.

Funny thing is, apart from the person I’m traveling with, I only know a single person who’s going to be there. Well if you are going, let me know.

Also my two online dnd and pathfinder games are once more full! I’ll post a journal if we have more openings

Howdy, so I was wondering, do any of my watchers live in OK? Probably not but I was curious. Of course please do not share any info that gives away specifics.

Hello everyone! I’m running two games that have open spots for players.

First is a DnD 5e game that runs Thursday nights 7-10 CST. We’re doing Rhyme of the frost maiden, currently at level 3.

Second is A Pathfinder 2e game Sunday evenings at 6 CST. The AP were running is extinction curse. Currently at level 8.

We use Discord for voice chat, and Foundry Vtt to actually play. New players welcome!

Hello everyone! I’m running two games that have open spots for players.

First is a DnD 5e game that runs Thursday nights 7-10 CST. We’re doing Rhyme of the frost maiden, currently at level 3.

Second is A Pathfinder 2e game Sunday evenings at 6 CST. The AP were running is extinction curse. Currently at level 7.

We use Discord for voice chat, and Foundry Vtt to actually play.