In-between projects now, I've decided to basically purge my gallery of any old stuff I felt no longer is representative.

I'm working on compiling refsheets for ALL my characters now, including a whole cast of new faces. Some characters are getting re-invented from the ground up, while others will be making a debut appearance.

But again, for as much hentai as I plan on drawing and eventually posting here, I still like to actually tell a story sometimes.

Is FA really the place for that, though...? I wonder...


At least here, I doubt anybody would judge my works unreasonably.


So yeah.


CURRENT SERIOUS STORIES I AM ACTUALLY WORKING ON:

- Undertale / Deltarune tribute
- Political commentary / science fiction project
- Medieval fantasy w/ vampires


Commissions returning, soon-ish.


But I need to upload the new faces, first.

In-between projects now, I've decided to basically purge my gallery of any old stuff I felt no longer is representative.

I'm working on compiling refsheets for ALL my characters now, including a whole cast of new faces. Some characters are getting re-invented from the ground up, while others will be making a debut appearance.

But again, for as much hentai as I plan on drawing and eventually posting here, I still like to actually tell a story sometimes.

Is FA really the place for that, though...? I wonder...


At least here, I doubt anybody would judge my works unreasonably.


So yeah.


CURRENT SERIOUS STORIES I AM ACTUALLY WORKING ON:

- Undertale / Deltarune tribute
- Political commentary / science fiction project
- Medieval fantasy w/ vampires


Commissions returning, soon-ish.


But I need to upload the new faces, first.

Or at least, the first chapter that was recently released.
Even for a work in progress, I was blown away.
I won't give anything away for those who haven't yet tried it. But.... WOW.


Just... Wow.


So much to take in.
So many possibilities.
So many questions.


I've officially decided, that I'm going to take a ((((SMALL)))) break from drawing hentai. It's time to switch gears back to art and inspiration. So, with that in mind, I've committed to the goal of writing, illustrating, possibly even animating a fan-series of my own. Not just a fan-fiction, but more like a spiritual successor to Undertale and Deltarune. Set in the same universe, and using some of the original characters. But told with a new protagonist. Note, that this will NOT be a pornographic hentai-parody. This will actually take some effort and imagination, in order for me to create a legitimate and worthy adventure.

This continuation of that digital universe will also have it's own name.


I am open to comments, criticisms, questions or concerns.
I will answer them all. I'm always here.

....Uhhhh, I will get back to commissions soon.

Very, very soon.
I promise.
Ineedmoney,too.

Jeez, 8 months since an update? 0.0 That's bad even for me.

Okay so I guess an explanation might be in order.

Since around last year-ish, I've been spending less and less time here on FA. More and more on 4chan. Plus, over in RL I'm currently in-between summer and fall quarters of community college. I mean, it's not great, but it's not (that) bad. It might be Marxist-liberal dogma, but it's better than working at Amazon.

I've also been working off-and-on on an actually kind of serious project. I'm trying to write and illustrate my first full-length graphic novel. But that's probably not what you've come here for. (if you're reading this at all, pfffheh) This is where I have, and will continue to post my porn and sexualized fanart. Also, It might be noted that in my travels, I've acquired a few new found fetishes along the way, surely with more eventually to come.

However, as is the main topic in most if not all FA journals, I've come again to shamelessly advertize my services. Commissions are always open, and prices may vary due to visual complexity, but I'm gonna start the prices at $15.00 per character. I may have to charge extra if your character is a visual challenge to draw. Like, I'm not good with SCALES. o_____o" imjustnot. Whenever I try to draw a character that's reptilian or otherwise covered in scales, I... uggghh. It takes so much longer than I always predict. So, there may be some particular instances where I may charge extra. But I'll try and give you a heads-up with the things I struggle with.

I MIGHT HAVE TO CHARGE A LITTLE MORE IF YOU WANT:

- Scales
- Wings
- Backgrounds
- Anthro ponies
- Very very VERY hairy pussies
- Anything Undertale except what's in the following section


AND I ABSOLUTELY WILL NOT DRAW THE FOLLOWING, EVER:

- Knots / Bestiality
- Sexual gore/ Guro
- Anal Vore/Cock Vore/Oral Vore/Any kind of fucking VORE
- Lolis
- Scat/Piss
- NTR
- Non anthro ponies
- Extreme femdom/emasculation
- Stink porn
- Feet/Foot Fetish shit
- Rape
- Racemixing
- Absolutely ZERO BBC kind of shit
- Absolutely NO Asriel/Fem Frisk and or Chara/Sans and Papyrus porn.

ON THE CONTRARY, I MIGHT OFFER YOU A DISCOUNT IF YOU LIKE/WANT:

- Weapons/guns
- Pregnancy/breeding
- MILFs
- Mechs/robotics
- Anything Halo related
- Anything aryan/fascist (includes Anzio and Girls Und Panzer stuff)
- Any war related non-porn
- Cyborgs/androids
- Anything cyberpunk and a e s t h e t i c

It's Christmas day.
I haven't slept in about 40 hours. I'm not sure exactly. Lost track.
Couldn't sleep on christmas eve.
Got scant hours the night before. Dreams are getting worse and more vivid.
Still no scanner of my own. Only able to scan occasionally at a buddy's house. That's not gonna change soon.
Still no comments on the only thing I submitted 3 days ago now. The first thing I've uploaded in over a year.

Still not looking forward to the obligatory family gatherings with family that condemns and confounds me.
Still definitely not looking forward to being asked by my baby-booming elders why I don't have a job and have yet to go to college.
Or their inevitably protractive and invasive queries about my take on the RECENT ELECTION.

I know this is gonna come off as Adam Jensen-tier angst and pointless complaining, but I've found myself in a rut:

I see a lot of people, talented, quality artists on here, who around this particularly stressful time just so also happened to be cursed with the weight of something else emotionally massive. Whether it be poverty, the loss of loved ones, or even acting on suicidal thoughts -- I've seen men and women among us go through so much for their families, and with their families.

I agree whole-heartedly, but can't exactly say it's the same for me.

My family is splintered and divided. My father's a hypocritical non-practicing Semitic jewish stereotype. He has become less and less a part of my life ever since I was 18. He used to be the sun in my sky, my voice of reason. Now he has become the embodiment of everything I hope NOT to become as a future father. He lives with his young girlfriend on the far outskirts of the city. I never see him, and when I do on rare occasions, neither of us have anything to say.

My mother is something else entirely. She may not be a crooked, full-blown kike like my father, but she has all the negative attributes of one, without the jewish critical mind. My father has this, to be certain, but he has always used it to twist the truth to his own benefit from out beneath him. He looooooves doing that to win arguments that have no foundation whatsoever. But she lacks all sense of foresight or coordination; A heavy mouth breather who refuses to cover their coughs and sneezes, whom drags their feet constantly when she walks. The kind of emotionally-unstable slag who will spend over 100 dollars a month on Ice cream or 300 dollars or more a month on cigarettes alone, but then busts my ass whenever I try to earn money with chores for a $8 bag of weed. She kicked me out of the house not once, not twice, but THREE TIMES in the passed two years just because of dirty dishes.

But where does all this malice and resentment go? Well, I'll tell you.

I don't know what it's like to have no family at all -- but neither do I know what it's like to have a family that I can feel comfortable around, or at home amongst. In technicality? Yes. I have a father, and I have a mother. But, this -- unidentifiable abstract expectation we call "family"....

.....

.....Well, Merry Christmas.

So yeah


I disappeared fir a while


Well - as if life wasn't existentially twisted enough


I recently finished UNDERTALE


So yeah


EEEEEEEE FUCKING KILL ME



Or, alternatively; You can commission me so I won't seem like a total failure in the eyes of my already-condenscending peers.

; u ; That'd be nice.

$20 per character
Inked drawing: $35-40 per character
Backgrounds / Scenery: [regular price] + $10
Comics: $45 per page

Yup. It's that time again. Financial crunch. Ooooooooboy.
So if anyone out there knows me or is wondering if Im dead, no, I'm not. Just broke.

Sketch: $30 per character
Inked drawing: $35-40 per character
Backgrounds / Scenery: [regular price] + $20
Comics: $65 per page


Anything helps. Please comment and don't be afraid to order anything~! : 3

Well, My cat got an infection along the side of his face, and the welt of puss swelled up over several days, before today, it finally popped.

He bled everywhere. It was horrible. I was afraid he was going to die. thankfully, we were able to get him to the vet, but it cost what little rent money my mom had left. The rent's already passed due. Now, we're in danger of being evicted.


White-knuckle time.


I need to VASTLY increase my market, and raise commission prices in order to help pay the rent. ( this does not count for the commissions I already owe, this is for all those hopefully soon to come )



Sketch: $30 per character
Inked drawing: $35-40 per character
Backgrounds / Scenery: [regular price] + $20
Comics: $65 per page

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

srsly tho, gotta stay in business. ;u;



I'm currently working on one commission, but I have room for more. I've got some new pens so inking ought to be easier now~


Who wants some porn?

Yuri?
Yaoi?
Futa?
Anybody?

Alright. So, I've been having some roadblocks with Paypal recently. I keep trying to withdraw from the account; to "move" the digital money I've made into my pocket, so to speak. I've tried linking it to my bank account directly, and even though the cards are linked, the accounts aren't. SOMEhow.

It won't let me request money or send money to myself. And since it won't link to my bank account, I need some way of sending a physical check to my own mailbox. I know I've done it once, but I can't remember how I did it. If I could re-create this and remember it, I'd be set.

If there's anyone out there, ANYONE at all who knows how to work with and through Paypal, PLEASE leave a comment. I know practically everyone and their cousin on here has a Paypal for the same to similar reasons. Please be a mega-bro and help me out a little, here. There's nothing better than doing what you love for a living, and there's nothing I love more than to draw. (Hopefully some of you can relate) but Paypal is just being a real asshole right now. Either that, or it's som,ething incredibly obvious and I've just overlooked it. : x ...either way, help would be brutally appreciated.



~~~~~~~


Aaaaaaand now the boring, less-important part; Life updates: Well, I've thrown up about half a dozen times over the passed four days or so. Beginning to think that might be a stomach virus. If not insomnia.

Oh yeah, did I mention the whole 'can't sleep' thing...? Pretty sure I did. If not, I'm sure I mentioned it in passing on my DeviantART: http://deustisofshadows.deviantart......usly-532812056

Either way, the physical inability to sleep is beginning to slowly take a toll on me. It's become much harder to focus, to see straight, to read right and draw correctly -- That, and my appetite is diminishing by a massive percentage. And I weigh like, 95 pounds, max. At 21 years, mind you. Not particularly healthy to be eating LESS.

Also my balls kind of hurt for some reason. Maybe 5 to 6 times a solar cycle ( I don't say 'day' or 'night' at this point, it gets too disorienting ) might be a bit excessive. Hmm.

I need to raise enough money to buy a new pair of headphones. If you like my stuff and have a little change to spare, send a request my way and I'll draw you a thingy. But I WON'T draw ANY of the following:




-Scat
-Watersports
-Shota/Loli
-Rape
-My Little Pony (unless it's a friend request)
-Guro
-Vore


The slots are open indefinitely. Please don't be afraid to buy.

After doing my fist commish, I felt it necessary to update this journal.


So please help a faggot out. I'm willing to negotiate prices at first, until things become a little more solidified. the only things I WON'T draw are:



-Scat
-Watersports
-Shota/Loli
-Rape
-My Little Pony (unless it's a friend request)
-Guro
-Vore


**I added Vore to the list, because it simple doesn't appeal to me, and it's physically difficult and unfamiliar to draw. I'm fine with a lotta stuff, but Vore, whether oral or otherwise, is just not in my realm. You'll find literally NONE of it in my favorites. So please ask for something else. Other than that, I'll be happy to take your commissions, potential customers!


And that's about it, for now. Please stop by and order something. I can have it done in a couple days if I remember.
....
No, I don't ALWAYS remember. Feel free to swing by and pester me to get it done if I forget. I forget a lotta things, sadly.

Anyways, enjoy the artwork, guys. I need to stay occupied to improve and feed myself. Please don't hesitate to stop by and say 'Hello!'

I have my doubts that anyone will actually comment on this, but I'm pretty curious as to what the major kinks of my watchers are. But anyone who visits my page, I invite you to spread the lewd news. Please leave whatever you feel like, I'm not here to judge, but observe. And if we can relate, I'll draw you something.


Wooooooo~

That's right. I got a new PC from a good friend o' mine, armed to the teeth with Sai, Photoshop and Livestreaming capabilities! Unfortunately, Paypal's giving me shit about my dead and inactive account, and since my previous bank card became lost abnd is presumed long-stoplen, I'll have to make a new paypal account.

BUT IN THE MEANTIME, I wanted to show you all that I have returned from beyond the grave. And until I can do commissions (which I need VERY, VERY badly) I'll be doing livestreams every other day now, and am open to suggestions, as well as requests.


Hopefully somebody out there cares. >_>

Mhmm. Soyea. Back to square fuckin one. I only have a smartphone with iffyy wifi and dwindling minutes.
No more iscribble or pot for some time, im afraid.
But ive been drawing a lot more, & have three new OCs on the way. All irken males.

Now if I can fight the urge to kill myself for another year, Imight just be able to figure out how the shit im gonna pay for all this.

:I .....Who wants to screw my characters? Be specific. I need something to do.

just dont make it stupid.

Okay, things in my brain have sorta re-stabilized for the time being. Let's pop a joint and see whatever other loonies want to see.

Since my gallery is actually beginning to kind-of-expand, I'm curious as to what you people think of it, and what you'd expect/want out of me in the future.

So meh.

Three months.

That's three month now of suicidal thoughts.

I have seen the face of my bloodline's deceptive ways.
The self-destruction of six generations in two families.
I found the responsibilities of a workforce, and consequently resentment of the system has multiplied exponentially. Not only that, but my hatred and detachment for human beings has grown to a vast oblivion.

I scrub the shitstains from urinals to entertain self-righteous old farts with an eighth my IQ
WHO THE FUCK THROWS A 2-YEAR OLDS BIRTHDAY IN A DARK, ALCOHOLIC PUG ARIUAERTYGOUE7892Y

job aside

My mother nearly killed a man last week out of racist spite.

So yeah. Knowing that she's insane, I need to accelerate my escape.

I can't say here.

I long to leave her and this world far behind me.
FAR behind me.


Let me decide, for once in my life. Take the slightest bit of significance into the plot of life I wreathe.

I long to feel the freedom of free fall. The obsolescence of flying down. Sweet oblivion - deliverance from slavery, and a haunted future.

Not only this, but I fear the sin of failure. Of repeating the cycle set out for me. I fear having children, in fear that they will inherit the same inherit faults.

I see no worth in a perpetuating existence without progress. Living when a thirst for survival is the only treasure.



Fuck this false life and all it's NOISE.


So yeah, not planning, or... thinking about immideatly COMMITTING to this but... I'm so close. So. Close.

My depressive history has always linked directly to my environment, and could be described as a 1 to 10 scale. Right now I'm riding at a solid 8.5, which has been much, much more damaging within the passed two years then the previous worst - the apex of high school nihilism. Which I'd say brought me to a 6 at my absolute worst. Those years divorced many friendships and broke many bridges. But The worst was the fights with my Dad. Cryptic-ass old goat. Our relationship is healing, but now there's nobody in my family who I can fully trust or remotely sympathize with. My sexuality I think is also irrevocably dented. Too many psychopathic defacto-Exes, and FAAAAAR too much hatred for my mother. I'll give heterosexual romance one last shot, then we'll... do. Something else.

But life has been so heavy. So full of broken ideals and irresponsible, subhuman cuntcreatures.
I long to rejoin the universe. To become stardust once again; raw elements of the cosmos from whence I truly came.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yyJWK2DFy5M

Mkay, just as an update for anyone who still follows me or still cares...

I'M NOT DEAD. Just slightly miserable.

During my errands in RL, I managed to land a job at a pub. The first of many to come, I imagine. The pay is abysmal, the hours are inconsistent and it's some of the most pointless busywork to stain the face of the earth. But it's still something for my resume, and to feed my pockets in the short-term. But I still don't make nearly enough. I get to keep less than 20% of what I make. Not nearly enough to save up for anything.

so uuuughh.


On a more positive note however, I finally got my new laptop working - and successfully downloaded GIMP. As a shoutout to Zealot-Elite , I'm doing some touch-ups and editing to your commish on gimp now. So it should be up by tonight or tomorrow. I'm still getting used to the new program.


Sorry again for inconsistency, I've just been trying to stabilize my life a bit. Over the passed two years things got pretty fucked up, and it's far from over, but I'm just trying to survive. Flourishing comes later.

In order to help me keep my house and continue buying art supplies, I need to make money in the now. As in, RIGHT NOW. Don't hesitate to ask if you have money to spend. I'll make your product is as vivid as it is to your liking. My prices are negotiable, varying on content and characters used.





LIST OF THINGS I WILL DRAW:

= Hetero

= Yuri

= Futanari

= Roleplay

= Sizeplay

= Anthros

= Xenophilia [Aliens]

= Technophilia [Cyborgs,Androids, ect.]

= Breast expansion

= Lactation

= Pregnancy (This will cost you extra. I'm not a fan)

= Mild Bodily expansion (Mild to moderate inflation is fine, but don't go too crazy xp )


= Light bondage (Ribbon and ropes. Nothing extreme here)





I ABSOLUTELY WILL NOT DRAW:[/b][/u]

= Animal penises

= Loli/Shota/Cub

= NonCon/Rape

= Scat/Watersports/Diaper

= Vore/Unburthing

= Macro/Micro

= Hyper/Inflation (But Breast Expansion is Okay)

= BDSM/pain/heavy bondage

= Incest

= Genital mutilation

= Bestiality

= My little Pony porn

= Otherwise retarded requests or people I don't like

This really is nothing short of a cry for help. I need, repeat, NEED to start making some money ASAP. I'm still trying to find a job, but I'm opening myself to commissions officially in the meantime. But that means I need an audience. I need a steady flow of customers if I'm gonna stay fed. Now-- for specifics.


LIST OF THINGS I WILL DRAW:

= Hetero

= Yuri

= Futanari

= Roleplay

= Sizeplay

= Anthros

= Xenophilia [Aliens]

= Technophilia [Cyborgs,Androids, ect.]

= Breast expansion

= Lactation

= Pregnancy (This will cost you extra. I'm not a fan)

= Mild Bodily expansion (Mild to moderate inflation is fine, but don't go too crazy xp )


= Light bondage (Ribbon and ropes. Nothing extreme here)





I ABSOLUTELY WILL NOT DRAW:

= Animal penises

= Loli/Shota/Cub

= NonCon/Rape

= Scat/Watersports/Diaper

= Vore/Unburthing

= Macro/Micro

= Hyper/Inflation (But Breast Expansion is Okay)

= BDSM/pain/heavy bondage

= Incest

= Genital mutilation

= Bestiality

:/

I won't have access to my scanner for about a month, but I'm working on it.

Been drawing lots; Yautja, Irkens, futa and more.

So expect that.



One "upside" I suppose in my current situation is that with all the time on my hands, I'm more shameless and pent-up than ever before.



Perfect fuel for Xenohentai.


I also need to find a goddamn icon for an avatar. Because this is just bullshit.

Okay, I guess now that I'm actually contributing to this site and somehow managed to get a couple watchers, I suppose I should ask what the people want. I've got some pretty bad art block right now, so in the meantime I wanted to get a little input from the community.

What hentai sounds good, guys?




Human?

Irken?

Yautja?

Sangheili?

Tentacles?



Should I do a self-portrait, or create an avatar? (I'm rather hesataint for this. >>; )

I need some backbone, guys. :/

Alright. I'm beginning to plant myself in this site. I'm submitting some smut, with more on the way.