If you truly know me you will fined me

It looks like another team got the V8 5.0 ford tear down job and my team is on oil changes and othere stuff

So I tuck my hart med's and my flue med's and yeah that's a bad way to kick off my day so sorry if I don't post stuff from the shop today I hope to be better by tomorrow and back at the shop

im dooing good just still a bit down but on the bright side is that im going back to school for Automotive in August 5 so yeah that's what's bin up with me, Have not worked on art, gundams, or nothing im just not feeling nun of it

For 22 year iv bin living with failing hart and the sign's are starting to show more and more by the day, the feeling of won's hart failing to move the blood is a feeling of a burning and stinging and at the same time of cold coursing throw my body slow mental brake down and the sapping of straight, your stings of feeling sharpens feeling your hart beet start to skip the mined starts to go in to the thought of knowing that these mite be it the moment death says hi for the last time in my life, but in a glimpse of the loved won that have past I'm at rest my hart slows and falls back in order the pain is gone. In acceptance of death and knowing that I'm happy with the life iv had, death loosens his grip upon my heart and allows me to live owns more and in the hope of sum day i may leave my mark on these world we call home, but i do not fear death as won that has seen, felt, and extrinsic death first hand, I will greet death as an old friend that has bin with me from birth. the only thing's I fear are the simple of thing not finding love, leaving my family with out a plan B not seeing my loved won's grow old, losing family and friends and knowing that there in a better place, and knowing that I don't have much time cus for fate has no sense of time. If that day com's i don't want people crying over sum thing small and simple but to be happy that you where part of my family my life and i say thanks for all the good times we'v had and to keep living with the fire in your hart. Its not to often that i open up like these but its times like these that i feel more alive then ever before and it make me happy to know that have the memory's of a happy life. (^_^) but till then ill see where life takes just yeah?

1. Im alive
2. still single
3. graduation is on June 18th *yay*
4. going back to school for Automotive
5. people from my past wont stay in the place
yeah that is all

well i got no job but im now just waiting to go back to school

I mite get a job at the shop that im doing my internship at

I GRADUATE IN MARCH 13!!!!! YEAH now to fined a job sad yay fuck

today was Josh's and his brothers funeral and tomorrow is Shannon's and Thursday is the burial so im not going to be posting art, metal work or gundum builds eney time soon

Well sum people got what they wanted to Christmas and spent it with family and friends. I spent my Christmas at a candle lighting in the memory of tow of my life long friends Shannon, Joshua the best fends that sum won cud evere wish for, and Joshua's brother also past away in the night a good man going in to the army, he'd make a grate member to are armed forces. These 3 grate people where lost in car crash, a drunk driver that hit them on the night before Christmas and the rest of us how grow up with them are hart's a for evere going tk have a broken part in them, so I beg to you my fellow artist and friends of FA don't drink and drive or if you have a bad feeling about sum won that you think is driving drunk do the right think and call the copes you mite as well be saving a life or tow.

From a Krogan with a heavy hart, Be safe

if anyone cares this is what has happened, lost a big part of my life and family, my uncle has past away don't know if I put that in the last journal, that was a big blow to the family,
School: well all is good except for the fact that I mite not get my Pipe certifications but I don't need that to graduate so not a big deal for the job I want in restoring armored fighting vehicles
Home:all is good same shit defrent day but I wish I had a girlfriend/loved won to spend time with when the only tow other people that live in the house stay in there room for the entire day so it get really fucking lonely here .
health: I'm doing way better with my hart meds, but a simple car ride hurts like there's no tomorrow cus my back is that fucked up.
Friends: I can say I have the best friends in the world I like to call them the family I wanted, they're the won that helped me in the lowest of time's and helped me with family things and are always there to brighten my day I love them to bits and are know helping me to fix my hell spon of a pc the fucked it self over 42 hrs ago.

Iv tryed to ceep these from most of my friends and I now I cant hold it in for to long, for a week now iv hand to deal with the loss of my uncle and it's bin tearing me apart in side and now I can't just can't hold it in, these is won of the times I fined my self in the darkest corners of my mined and can't fined a way out but yust to drink my mined in to a num state and forget what has happened, my uncle was a big part of my life and now that he's gone do to his ptsd, it's hard to fined a point past these, I just don't know what to do, at times like these I just wish I had sum won to cry on or won that hold me in my time of pain, I do my best to help my frinds in there time of need but I can't fined the won to help me in my time of need but I'm stuped to spend my time on peoe that won't take notes of my feelings, life at time seas to be agent me every step of the way by losing family or being lost along the way. It's hard being the out cast at times
from a Krogan with a cold and broken hart

I give up on looking for a mate I say fuck it I don't care iv had it with superficial people and people that take for fucking ever to note back damn.

First: Iv bin the the hospital for the past 2 weeks getting my hart looked at. I'm doing better now and back at work doing my best but these sum thing i cant do by my lone sum so i got a helper so that's cool i think.
Second: I'm still looking for a mate *sad yay*
and Last: the hummer build fell throw not getting payed for the blue prints *shakes fist*, but meh. so yeah time to take it slow

well iv hit the wall of life and i hit it hard, at time's i wonder if my dad was still alive or if i had died at birth like i was meant to would life be the same or have bin defiant, its just won of thew's day i just need to be with people the say " these like being with me" but im not, im just out here with a family that all we seam to do is fight. just me and my back pain and work to keep me alive on a point less path in life.

Pain keeping me for needed rest, a mined in a loop of flash back of the past and loved wons lost to the sands of time, a hart haunted buy hate and males, eye set to see only the darkness and not the light, wounds that never heel, a sol afraid of being alone with out a partner , time slowly fading. A point of meditation

Bizy at the shop these munch back is killing me but taking new med to help with that, Nutting all that new exempt for my baby's as sum of you have seen there getting a bit bigger, and in enny way that is just an update on what's going on

The 5th print is going to be delayed till the build starts I hope to get my damned krogan hands on a cheep H3 for the build cuz I'm not touching my baby these build, if yall where thinking that Ha i laugh at you HUE HUE HUE.
But in truth iv always wanted to build the warthog sins Halo 1 and now that i got the skills to pull off the build i think i mite have a chans to pull these off! so fuck yeah wish me luck yo

as yall can see

back to the shop

See ya

These thing loves to burn out cables and I know it's the cable do to the fact the the pin is still tracking on my smaller screen. That's a good thing

Eat, work, class, home music, games (-_-) and next week im off........ fucking heal 6 hr's strati of rock damn

just got small thing to do at the shop in the line of pipe work, but its putting a strain on my back and the way i look at it is that for won to gane the a good life won has to go throw pain.
but in time it will pass i must meditate on my plans