Heya everyone, I’ve thought about this and decided to add two more slots to this big Chonky YCH.
So, make sure to come and claim one! :3

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51310526/

Would appreciate the support with my YCH here ( .w.)/ ✨

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51106695

Come and get the last slot to this YCH: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51106695/
18+ only of course, but come along and claim this! :3

Heya everyone~ (mostly to the big lads I guess) x3
For the first time in forever, after thinking about doing this sort of thing in 2020..... I have finally gotten around to my first YCH ever! :D
It will be NSFW 18+ only. But there will be a future YCH for everyone, so peps can pay with prepaid cards, like eShop cards and such.
There will be only four slots, so first come first serve!~ 💙✨ :3
Remember, its tomorrow at 4PM MST (Mountain Standard time) use either google, or a proper clock app to check the time for that ;3
(sharing this journal would be appreciated, thx) x3

Hope on over if you wanna see me working on a drawing of a big thicc lad over on: https://picarto.tv/Bigbulbasaur ;3 💙✨
Today's drawing is one of my Dino lad Thavidu all big and chonky. This time is digital because I have no traditional setup for streaming/recording So be sure to hop on over~💙💙✨✨

There will be a fair few times upcoming, where I'll stream some of my Art process live using airserver for my ipad :P
Hopefully with that setup I'll still be able to stream the screen in 1080p without much lag or whatever else lol

Either way, here's the link to my profile: https://picarto.tv/Bigbulbasaur/profile ! :D ✨✨✨💙💛🤍💙
I know its the exact same as my FA profile, but tbh I like this name, since it also shares history in being my first ever online username :P
Anyway~ Follow my picarto, and so forth, and be ready for some upcoming streams of me drawing big bois~ 💙 uwu
Note: The streams will be marked 18+ most of the times.
I will most definitely notify when its gonna be a mature or general stream~

I was gonna do those drawings this week a bit, but due to personal reasons.... They'll be worked on another time, possibly not the week end, most likely starting next week
Sorry I've been taking too long, my issues are too presented with myself physically, my process is all messed up with trying to sleep more normally, and other factors make it hard to feel like doing Art :\

Might eventually make a YCH, where Sakku, Xaiku, and Zahku are surrounding someone, them being all big thicc and horny✨💙✨ uwu
Though it will be 18+ only x3

I swear, this happens far too much on my FA :S
Someone either comments on one of my drawings, replies to a comment of mine on someone else's submission, or journal... then deletes it.
It's even MORE awkward and concerning when it's on one of my own submissions. I only wonder what the hecc the comment was about, something like that just makes me VERY nervous XP
It gives me flashbacks to when someone posted a comment on the 1st drawing/sketch collage I posted of a younger Sakku :S
So, don't comment unless it's something you're gonna delete a bit after posting, cuz the site still shows the notification till I clear it :S

even though I brought all of my Art supplies when on vacation, it was fairly difficult to even try working on any of my things when I wanted to
I basically worked at a table with my lamp, with these basic seats that were no fair comparison to my comfortable and adjustable chair. I was able to make 1 new thing while I was up there, but was still fairly time consuming due to the improper setup, and because I worked off of the references on my ipad which I could only look at one pic at a time, where on windows, I could have multiple windows open and displayed
So now that I'm back, I'll do more of my stuff and the last two raffle pics in a few days

Gonna be away for two weeks visiting family up at the Cabins :P
So I won’t be able to chat or anything since there will be no internet nor service
But, while I am gone, and whenever I feel like it, I’ll also work on some of my own stuff and post them if I ever do decide to draw :3
So for now, I’ll see all of you later~

A while ago, I finished a pic feat. Cousin Emerald, my big greenie derg who has 5 tails lol
I started the sketch forever ago, but finished the full thing a month ago pretty much lol... but I forgot to post it. so expect that to come tomorrow if I can hopefully get the new scanner to work :P

Looking at dinos is making me think of my own dino Thavidu x3
like.... look at him~ Beefy Dino thavidu Big thicc dino Thavidu
need to do more of him eventually x3
and... maybe even draw up a sibling .w.

SO back here I updated you on the status on my me streaming Art I would do (right over here: "UPDATE ON THE LAST JOURNAL: might have to wait longer XP" ) I'd have to wait and buy air server, so I could fully have the ability to airplay my ipad (the thing I draw on) onto my PC for streaming.
WEll besides that.... My wrist has a problem
It's been acting up again, and I thought, maybe by the weekend or another time this week, if I felt like it, I'd stream me trying to work on this one big Pride month piece I wanted to do. but because of that... I can't :S
which sucks, because it's been a whole two months since I had gotten this stylus pen but also still not entirely used to this thing so hopefully this stupid wrist will heal quickly, over me watching only YT and such :S

so back on this journal: NEWS FLASH....
I noted on how I updated my Picarto, wellll.... now I'll have to wait a while to buy Airserver XP
I'm nowhere near able to afford a capture card, and I don't think apple has any official airplay apps for windows and obviously I don't use Mac lol so, I'll have to wait and buy that eventually :P
Which btw, I did research, and even though other free alternatives exist, and are safe... everyone considers this air play app to be the most reliable, trusted, and capable out of all :P
I'll keep you all posted on that part

my picarto has been updated x3
So, sometime eventually I'll try and stream Art whenever :P
also little challenge... try to find my picarto before I directly link it lol that'll be easy cuz the icon x3

So in case you don't follow my twitter....
I got a stylus for my ipad! :D 🎉🎉🎉🎉 seen right here lol
Now that means over time, I'll slowly be able to do Digital Art, and hopefully more quickly x3
That doesn't mean I won't completely stop doing Traditional, part of that will still keep a place in my heart~💙 after all... that is how I started~ 3, and soon to be 4 years in December lol since I've been doing Art again traditionally~ I still wanna use it and also learn how to better myself with those pencils, and even do my first few rounds of commissions with traditional x3
Lets hope I can get this new style of art down soon then :P

If you ever do ask about Art from me, I don't do requests, but that doesn't mean I won't do commissions in the future :P
I appreciate that some people would consider me good enough to make them art. lol.
Maybe whenever I get my tablet pen, I'll open those... but, I do also wanna try commissions Traditionally x3

aka birthday x3
But I go beef day cuz better x3
but yeah~ It's my birthday~ I'm now 24 whole years old 🎈 uwu 🎂

oh heccily dooo, its horny o-clock 👀💦💦

I want to admit to something I've thought of sometimes, or just give reasoning... maybe even explain
I am openly admitting to these, but something just recently sort of "triggered this"
I want to establish something, I don't want people do be deeply rooted or personally involved with me, don't get me wrong, I love the people I know now, and appreciate you all~ and sometimes I even want to have that close friendship, enjoy each others companionship, and all of that. But I still want to keep thing under wraps because of how seriously personally they are. The reason I don't show my face, the reason I use and go by a different name, and even super important stuff I keep secret, because It might even cause some of my incredibly nice and kind friends stress and worry, besides the one thing which is that I'm Celiac, pretty sure everyone knows that. but like... that is the reason why I keep some things secret, its my own thing to worry and stress about... But, it me just 'saying this' makes you worry & stress, you don't need to... I have it all handled, its been sorted for years even.
Now... what was the thing that triggered me exactly?
One of my other friends is the one that brought it up, and that showed how little he really knew about me, besides just surface level stuff, which other friends have mistakenly just thrown out there. They were under the impression, that I don't understand how easy things are for me. And that, is where I snapped. HE doesn't get that I DO. the reason why things are easy, is because of my Kick ass parents, despite the all of the times that I annoy them, or even in the times they annoy me, I still appreciate EVERY. THING. THEY'VE. DONE! they could've just kicked me out at anytime. could've done it when I turned 18, but didn't. and I love them every step of the way.
One other thing I'll admit, is that believe it or not, at some point when I Was my own free bird, out and about, with my own place, I Was gonna cut them off completely. Cuz I had YEARS of built up regrets, thoughts, and all sorts of things revolving around them, I was ready to do that kind of thing. But now, I could never think of it. they've done too much for me, that I couldn't bare to do it. And even, back then I had thought about giving them paycheck after paycheck if I actually got a job, but them being the Kick ass parents they were, didn't care if I got a job for the longest time... its 1 regret I have, and one they might even have too... But, even at that time, I had an inkling. an insignificant thought, of after doing that plan of the paycheck thing... to abandon them. leave them completely, cut off any ties to them. But it really was that insignificant of a thought back then, until not long ago, where it exploded into an "I hate and love them. I wanna escape this" kind of rebellious crap, where that thought became my life's goal instead...
But no I'm thinking, "why should I even do that? these two have done more than they should've for my lifetime so far"
I don't typically like to vent, or anything. but I Feel like this is important. I also don't expect you all to read this, but please do, if you want to know more about me, and how I tend to work... This doesn't spell it all out perfectly... but... it should help~
Side note, I doubt my parents would ever see this, and even if they do... this... this is well needed

Now I guess we'll all have to wait for them to deal with this.... hopefully
do the twitter admins even realize what's happening?

I completely forgot to make a journal about me streaming something a few mins ago on youtube XP
Next time If I remember to do it, would you guys here join the stream?
Anyway~
since I didn't link the stream, here's the vid~ Megaman 1 & 2 stream vid

So after reinstalling apps and what not for the printer I use to scan my art. The settings must've been reset, or auto adjusted to be better, so now supposedly the colors of the characters should come out a bit more 1:1 when they're Scanned :3
Just letting you guys know~

Much more recently, I've been having sort of an 'Artist Crisis' and I guess also a partial Art block at the same time...
This Crisis has gone off and on actually for a full year, but it hasn't felt this intense since now.
The way I draw bodies on characters is weird, I don't have many base shapes when I do them. Its always "circle for the head, and then the pecs come in" which isn't exactly easy for when I do something new
I've been thinking about getting a new sketch book, and just filling that with small sketches of bodies, trying to get a better feel for things.
By that, what I'm saying is a reason why I might not be able to finish the raffle prizes for all 4 winners too soon...
Hope you all understand~