Got a few fetishes on the brain right now: bondage/submission, hypno, and forced transformation for starters. So little art time...

To those who didn't pull out, we salute you! Happy father's day! :)

Shaved clean. I think they're coming for my bear card! http://bigfatstripeycat.tumblr.com/.....ge/50387688096 Yeah, I went there. Just started scraping and off it sent...

Kinda digging it. I may update and take an old fursona out of the mothballs,  fatmacraccoon . Maybe redraw him, clean him up a little, and blue him up. ;)

Wierd thing of the day: eating and drinking and feeling it on my upper lip. Last time it was bare was about 1991.

So I was looking to regrow my beard. Decided to blend in the goatee, and made it match the stubble. Now...I may just mow it all down and try going clean faced. Not done that sinceI was 19...

http://bigfatstripeycat.tumblr.com/.....ge/50306789843

If anyone feels like chatting, I got the IM clients up while I draw. Addresses in the account info page here.

So I got two pieces in blue line, ready for inks and colors. Whichever gets the most votes by midnight EST 11-24-12 goes first.

One, single male, in a bathroom, easing some tension.

Two, M and F couple, she's riding him.

Four hours--just enough time to run an errand and get a few McRibs. Totally forgot those was back.. ;)

Since I'll be on my ass most of the weekend, eating and digesting, expect new art outside Orange and Black Friday...

...and if I get more than a handful of replies, I might do a few of them just because I'm that fat and awesome to people paying attention to me. ;)

So last year, the response sucked... Come on, I'm offering free art here.

Here's the deal: Looking for more than two replies first. Answer a few questions to give me a framework for the piece. I'll make the decision and get to it ASAP.

1) Ref sheet for the character?
2) Thoughts on a simple pose?
3) If a lardassed tiger inserted himself in this piece, what might he be doing?
4) Most favorite things about fat furs or being fat?

That's it. I'll take a look through the replies Saturday morning and whip something out on the tablet.

So being now 40 and graying in the beard, do I officially qualify for my "Daddy" card? ;X)


...and if anyone wants to do some birthday art of Big Blue, I would not at all object. ;X)

Been listening to Sirius-XM's Star Wars Celebration coverage all weekend, and I had a thought...


If you're in a Jedi family and separate yourself from your Force kin, could you refer to that as a circumcision?

.....but god damn if I don't got badgers on the brain tonight...

http://bigfatstripeycat.tumblr.com/.....ge/29243703587

Head totally buzzed now. Thinking about steel in the ears now...

...and maybe below the belt. ;X)

I swear that one day I'll find a must that won't have me up until 4:30am doing bluelines in photoshop for future ideas.

...but until then, I got caffeine and e-cigs. ;X)

Now, I'm going to be the adult here. I'm not going to identify this person...just as I didn't identify her then, I won't now. However, she's been the busy little bee in the comment section of the entry that precedes this, so if you want to know who this is about...well, she's not hiding her identity.


So a few days ago, I wrote about how I'd been looking for a few people to do some fursona commissions, and that two artists kicked them back because because I was too fat for them to draw. Anyway, I saw some activity on my message center tonight, so I jumped in to see. The next thing I know, I've got someone posting comments about how "unhealthy" I am, and how dare I ask people to draw that? I did the usual troll control there--delete and ban--and did some thinking. I have no idea who this person is, but my tail starts a'twitching, so I went to check something. On a whim, I went back to one of the artist's page and saw a mini tantrum about bad I was for anonymously venting about her...complete with link to my page for would be white knights to go attack on her behalf.

As I'm going back to my own page, I see more activity. The artist was in a snit on my journal because I clipped her friend's troll attempt and banned her from posting more, and a tantrum was in progress in the comment section. I started to think about the things she said, and I started composing. And it got a little too big for a single comment. So I want to make it here:

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How can I put this in terms that a teenybopper can understand...

1) I never named you in the journal. Originally, I was as vague and neutral as possible because I didn't want my readers trying to "defend" me elsewhere. You ID'd yourself as one of the flakes in question. You were never being attacked, hence no need for a net-white-knight to come in and "defend" you. You did that when you linked to the journal and identified yourself both there and here. If I wanted to attack, I'd have linked right to you and sent people in. I vented without identifying any involved parties. It's called class. Maybe you'll learn a little as you grow up. Of course now that you've chosen to make an issue, and channel your friends to attack me, you're going to have to deal with the fallout. It's time to own your shit...all of it.

2) Sending flying monkeys in to attack me (again, you ID'd me and linked to my journal. I allowed you your anonymity) by harping about how unhealthy I am is trolling.

Neither you nor your little buddy know anything about me, or my health, or my health history. I draw my fursona fat because I'm fat. It's what I see every day in the mirror. I spent most of my teens, twenties, and thirties hating myself for it. I starved myself. For two decades, I took pills and supplements that could have damaged internal organs up to one degree or another (google "phen-phen" for example) and definitely slowed my metabolism because of the perpetual yo-yo'ing. I harmed myself in ways that you'll never know because I didn't look in the mirror and see "thin" staring back at me, and I internalized the message that I had no human value because of it. Moreover, everywhere I looked around society, I saw messages that told me that I was worthless because I was fat. So I ate even less, exercised harder, and found new herbal concoctions all to hit that ole elusive magic bullet that would make me look like everyone else.

...and then in my thirties, I decided to stop hating myself because I didn't fit society's ideal. It was society's problem, not mine. At forty, I have amazing blood pressure, my blood chemistry is one that many thin men my age would kill for, I have no signs of diabetes, I require no maintenance medications of any sort, and my organs (heart included) are performing solidly--in spite of the herbal/supplemental escapades of my younger years. If that's "unhealthy," I'll stick with it. But instead of "unhealthy," what you probably are trying to say in adolescently clumsy, coded language is that I'm "unaesthetically pleasing" to your eyes. Once I realized that society had the problem with me being fat, I stopped having a problem with it. I learned to love who I was--body and personality. My yo-yo'ing stopped. Yes, my metabolism influenced my current weight, but it's stable. And for the first time in a long time, I can look in a mirror and like the person I see there. Your discomfort and projection, meanwhile, suggests otherwise.

...and while many other physically morbidly obese furries hide behind fursonas whose image conforms to the societal norm, they're the ones with the fetish--the fetish to be thin and "acceptable" to society at large. It drives their existence to the point where they can't even think of their idealized form in a means that even reflects their true body and shell. Take the pills. Work out harder. Eat less. Chase the carrot. One day you'll be thin and all your problems will go away! This is the fetish--that sole drive for physical gratification--that motivates them. Yes, they say they want to be healthy, but what they really want is to be "pretty." The illusion of health is just a side effect.

We call that a fantasy, dear. Mine is a world of reality. Fat, middle-aged man. Fat, middle-aged fursona. What you see is what you get. And with the tons of people who try to craft fake bodies, fake lives, fake realities, and fake existences in this fandom, true reality is rare.

You say that I'm "flaunting" ("This being said I probably would of looked past it and taken it anyway and tried it if he didn't flaunt and draw some disturbing images which I thought were disgusting that he was proud to be something that was so unhealthy") my obesity by drawing my fursona as fat.....sorry, "unhealthy." I say that I've stopped apologizing for who and what I am. That's your problem, not mine. Furthermore, I am proud of who and what I am. You don't get to take that away from me. It's mine. I've fought for it. I've earned it. I've paid for it with tears and decades of physical and emotional self-flagellation. Deal with it--on both counts.

Yes, Virginia, like it or not, there are fat people out there. And some of us don't give a flying fuck what you think about us. But if you (or your little buddies) attack, some of us will attack back. It's called provoking a response. Google it. I spent my adolescence and twenties letting obnoxious little twats sling verbal arrows at me and make me feel like less or a person, unworthy of dignity and human merit for being fat. Now that I've developed some self esteem, I've learned to sling them back.

And yes, I have explicit art in my gallery. I'm forty, an adult. I get to enjoy that right. My sole mistake was not noting that you were sixteen when I approached you. My apologies. The nude image (screencapped and URL clipped) in your gallery left the impression that you were both of adult age and comfortable working with nude characters. PS: great female frontal nudity on your front page image (also screencapped and URL clipped), BTW. So yeah, I saw the nude couple, assumed that you were comfortable with nudity...and of adult age. But if you're sixteen, you shouldn't have that mature bit set...and shouldn't be seeing the mature art in the first place...right? ;) Wait, what is this on the settings page? "Users caught falsifying their date of birth will have their mature art locked down until they can otherwise prove their age." Oh, Lucy. Jou got some a'splainin to do... So are you lying about your age, or are you showing art and doing commissions that you shouldn't be doing? And what's the text under that "Content Maturity Filter" line say...something about signifying that you're over 18? Never mind, that's an admin issue...

If mature/erotic/dirty/nasty art bothers you, turn off your mature bit. Isn't that easy? Of course, this also begs the question of what a 16 year old is doing with an 18+ account to see them in the first place (all of my explicit stuff is flagged accordingly, so had I caught your age when I originally sent the inquiry, you shouldn't have seen any of the explicit pics in the first place), but we'll leave that for the admins to deal with if they choose. I don't know what the age of majority is in the UK. But here in the US, where the servers are, it's 18. If you're not ready to see the mature art, don't lie about your age then squeal like a stuck little pig when you see something disturbing. It's called a "mature" filter for a reason, and I tag all of my dirty art with it.

Here's what this all boils down to, since you've chosen to baw because I cut your friend's witty little comment then ban her: I know that assumptuous teens are a dime a dozen here on FA, but in my little artistic space, I control both the horizontal and the ban button. You have a voice because I allow you to have one. Act impolitely, and I take it away from you and silence you in the process. Now be a good little guest and leave. You're neither wanted nor welcome here.


...and by the way, if you really want to have a "professional" conversation, and come off as "professional," making a public scene in your journal probably isn't the best place for it.

Do think about the perception of yourself that you've created by writing that. Someone sees your banner ad, they surf in, and there you are attacking a former prospective customer because you didn't like the job they approached you to do...or that you admitted that you didn't have the technical skill to do it. Good luck with that, I suppose...

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Now first of all guys, I know that some of you are thinking about going to her page and causing grief. Don't. We're better than that. She's an immature, stupid sixteen year old girl doing immature, stupid sixteen year old girl things (namely a really bad cyberbullying attempt here), like she's in a furry remake of Mean Girls ("durr hurr, I'm gonna send my friends to be rude to him while I sit back and watch! No one's ever thought of this before!"). Let her stew in her own venom and piss. She's obviously an unhappy person on the inside. That's a bigger hell than anyone can dish out to her. Let's only hope that as she grows, she sorts her baggage and becomes a better person in the future in spite of her current self.

The real reason I wanted to post this is two fold. One, "why the fat fursona?" There you go--your answer.

Two, I'm no longer apologizing for who I am. I'm fat. My characters are fat. Don't like it? Don't look. Go elsewhere.


....and other artists, protip for you: "No thank you" or "I'm not interested in that job" works just as well as "Euuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuw! OMG euuuuuuuuuuuuuuuw! This is too _______________________________! I can't draw that! Euuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuw!" and preserves both your dignity as well as the public illusion that you're a flexible and talented craftsman with your "professional" trade. When the infamous "Bondage Bob" came to my table at Confurence East 96, and wanted me to draw my comic characters for him doing things that made even me blush, a simple "I'll pass.....and I have full copyright on those characters" worked just as well as adolescent histrionics.

Something to think about, kids...

(Oh, and if this teenybopper thought that the stuff I currently have in my gallery was "euuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuw," she should be glad she didn't surf over in a week or so. I've got some stuff coming that's extreme even for me. Hopefully her M bit gets yanked so she can't surf in and further traumatize herself... *grins* We gotta protect the kids...)

So I been looking to get some art done of me, like the completely awesome did recently. Even been using the banner ads because I thought those were supposed to be the available people.

Two inquiries sent, and two responses along the lines of "oh, I can't/don't draw that body type." So who says that RL attitudes can't influence art, huh?

Or is it a sadder statement that artists here would rather keep cranking out the same cookie-cutter body shapes they've been doing instead of pushing their skills?

Or is it just a very polite way of saying "Ew...fat people.....icky"?

Ah well. I guess I'll take the money I was going to put into commissions (unless I get someone who's both decent and affordable who wants to respond here) and put it into ...me. Feed the fat tiger...and make myself more undesirable to the masses. Fuck the cookie cutters. Pass the cookies. ;X)

Thinking of a story idea. Need species suggestions for a fat, small town, redneck sheriff and his skinny deputy. Ideas?

http://www.facebook.com/bigfatstripeycat

Yup. Add away folks. :X)

So I'm feeling like doing something for a little fun. Something bugging ya? Ask Poppa Tuck. http://askpoppatuck.tumblr.com/ All questions replied to. Fire an email, and I'll reply back to it as soon as I can!

Anyone still playing? Anyone on Virtue, hero side?

Okay: Words with Friends, Hanging with Friends, Draw Something, Scramble with Friends: Bigfatstripeycat. Add me. Looking for games. :X)

So I'm looking to expand m skills a little here. Not doing commissions yet, but I'll do some trades with people--single fig drawing for single fig. I'll open up for three people and rotate more slots in as I finish. Give a reply! :X)

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So rumor has it that a certain fat feline has an account on the Tube of X, wherein he does things that might shock, offend, or otherwise disturb the moral majority and other good, righteous christian folk.

...if you want details, just note me here. ;)

https://twitter.com/#!/fatstripeycat

Posting art and other things that the AUP prevents me from posting. ;)

Also regrowing the beard and pondering doing something with the hair...

https://twitter.com/#!/fatstripeycat

Posting art and other things that the AUP prevents me from posting. ;)

Also regrowing the beard and pondering doing something with the hair...

Hair: chopped.
Face: down to a goatee.

Still a fatboy. ;)

I'm hating shaving (razorburn city), but liking the overall look. The hair is just long enough to comb over, but I'm thinking that I may buzz it down this spring.

I have missed wearing hats. With the long hair, I couldn't wear hats, since my head's too big for most. But now, I can wear a few. Need to find a way to post pictures and not incur the wrath of the image police...

Oh yeah, still drawing, kind of. I have a few projects fighting for my time, and I've not been able to focus on one. I really want to get "Mulligan" going, so I may exclusively push there.