So yeah XX still trying to learn how to drive, the old man wants me to learn and swears on his life that I know how to drive stick so automatic can't be that difficult but somehow that broke down into a debate about evolution vs creationism I wanted to eat so I ended the conversational I got mad but I got over it because game of thrones was on. Man the world today is pretty weird. I've been listening to the radio and watching YouTube videos gun debate is pretty out there some excuses on both sides and claims are pretty mind you I live in California and I can understand why some one would what to keep their fully customized and personally tailored AR15 I really don't understand the need to the need for those 100 round drums I've seen online but the argument for the 30 round clip being cut should be left to the states in my own opinion, but I'm not a lawyer. Well today is my dads birth day so I'll be out and about watching the evil dead movie and hopefully not end up as scarred as I was when I saw it at age 8.

In the time that has passed one of my partners who shares my interest in comics I found out was out of town but has now just returned home if I happen to find focus well probably work on a h script that we had started, if not that then something nice and vanilla. like a manual to raise cat-girls etc, or maybe something ecchi. we'll see what she says.

Went job hunting and got an on call job for 10 dollars an hour, but I cant have more than 60 hours a year still need to do my taxes and get a real job my license . yeah...

I need a serious reclassing being a bard sucks! I can do everything at a lousy level and have mastery of nothing. Mother you were right I should've been a cleric. jk but seriously I need focus again, maybe I should just join job corps or something.

Happy Easter!

Well Ill just have to keep trying so tomorrow is going to be the day that me and a friend are going to at least look through the wanted adds and see where to attack. If this falls into place then somehow everything else will just seem to fall into place with a car job and classes. But like any good piece of fiction I;m sure someone or something will come in my way. I really am to critical of my own work I mean I tried to draw the worst thing ever and I just kept stopping myself but its a process its not like i'm going to be showing what i'm drawing to anyone, and I always seem to know exactly how something should look in my head and the process to do it but my hands are just too clumsy. but I preserver. so two things if there is anyone out there who reads this and cares to comment, how many hours do you think I should put into it? Oh and some personal info now top five things I wanted to be when I grew up swordsman, geneticist, writer, surgeon, candy maker. There are pictures of me with swords since I was able to walk, I loved Jurassic Park so much that I wanted to make dinosaurs myself, I used to watch THC back when they showed nothing but prerecorded surgeries and thought that maybe I could do that too, I liked being able to make up my own original ideas and see where they could take off as a kid, and finally after watching Willy Wanka in the chocolate factory who did't want to make candy. And now in rapid succession why I didn't follow through with any of them, no local schools, failed chemistry, failed English twice in college and can't focus when writing a story, no where near enough money even with veterans benefits and chemistry, and I don't know where to start with that do I apply to la cordon bleu and I also failed chemistry in high school. Living the American dream here.

Well that was quick I started writing and totally forgot to submit, but now I got my radio class stuff to do. And now I'm gonna work on a fake ad for "The Art of Manliness", Que radio static and Teddy Roosevelt in a message to the men of america talking about the secret languages of flowers. I feel like I'm snow balling it in with that one but meh. I'm also looking for work in my home town, I used to be in the military, long story worthy of another journal entry, but now that I've left I've been in school for like a year I still don't have a degree or certificate, and I have been given the get a job and pay me more rent or get out ultimatum by my folks. I have some friends who are in the same situation, so I'm probably gonna stay with them as soon as we all get jobs, hopefully there relationship won't be a problem they're a couple been together since before Christmas 2012, but they party a bit so that might be an issue. My dreams seem way out of reach for now but I could at least attempt to do somethings in the mean time, like drawing to the point that I no longer suck ass, actually new goal if or when I do become better at drawing I want someone to request something from me or hell commission something from me, I doubt anyone will read this nut if you are out there I guess you're first in line. I just have to get over being so self conscious about the things I make and do.

So today I'm going to try and write in this journal in one way or another, but I'll work on it either way hopefully I'll right some more for you fine folks later.