I'm sorry to say this but to those who wish to see any art from me this account's basically dead as I don't use it anymore and moved on into a different name and wanting to be a little more organized (well organized soon on my other account).

If wanting to see anything done by me please watch me at the new account .

AGAIN this account is no longer in use thus moved to there.

Seeing that my supposed ride MIGHT or MIGHT NOT be my ride down to Motor City Fur Con due to some sudden and recent occurrence deal (depending but annoying as hell) I 'm looking for anyone that I know that I can catch a ride down to MCFC. If you're coming though or near Lake City PLEASE contact me and let me know that you'll be open for a little car pool to and from the con. I will give as much as I can for gas money and looking for someone that is heading out early Friday seeing my hotel room will be open on that day.

To all those came and watch me, if you want to see artwork I do not post anymore artwork on this account, this is for either random stories and or furcon/fursuit pics. If you want to see more artwork head over to for more stuff. Other then that thanks for all the watches and so as well as HAPPY NEW YEARZ everyone~

Well, looks like someone unfollowed me on here and now starting up shit that personally I'm not happy about. To whom reads this take note that a CERTAIN someone is starting up shit about me cause of one badge COM, ya sure I don't have it done yet but I suffer still from my depression and even after MFF which was kinda hard on me afterwards cause I broke down crying I wanted to at least get stuff for my own cause well, that's what I like to do and show close friends and family what I got this year at cons.
Plus don't be bitching about 'oh I didn't help cover for the room, food, gas etc etc' when for:

1) You said that you covered everything and all I needed to pay her back was for the entrance badge which you (referring to that certain someone) me and my mom agreed that I would pay her back when we came back up, even my mom out of her heart gave her an extra 10 bucks for both of ya'z back home for extra gas money.

2) you said that you had the room covered and invited me at a late notice if someone didn't reply to you about being down there, sure enough that happened and I felt like you were at least repaying me back from those months that I let you stay in me house out of the goodness of my heart, HE still owes me his share of the rent (barely only payed twice out of the 8 months he lived with me) But did I hound him about that. No, cause I thought he was at least returning a bit of the favor but I guess I was wrong about that he did it just cause.

3) He only paid for one alcohol drink THAT he said that I could get before we head down out of his kindness or whatever, he's treating it like I over spend his money on booze alone...

4) Really all of this just for one badge COM and those refs were more like requests that now I'm starting to maybe decline cause of his dick move. Ya I know I'm a sloppy commissioner atm cause of my bloody depression and I can't do nothing cause people doubt me thinking that I'm lying about my depression, seriously at points in my depression not even working on art would cheer me up its that bad. I can't do nothing esp during the winter time cause I don't have any means to get out on my own leisure... Thus an un- happy artist means slow ass work, its to the point that I'm fighting myself to still be an artist cause after MFF I'm doubting myself hard and I'm fucking up my own mentality. I don't want to do that... I maybe slow but I will get it done once I feel happy about myself.

5) About that food, I only snatched one slice of that one pizza order cause the zoo or where ever that they cater food for the con goers (which he told me about and is now bitching up a storm a little) wasn't open yet or so and I was near desperate hungry to start myself thus carry myself till it did open. The only one that paid for pizza out of his good heart to cater not only me but also you and everyone for that one room party was my new friend Chibi Splash. Don't you dare think that he didn't and you paid for everything and he didn't.

6) I AM STILL WAITING contacts to do that ref art but I need info from her to make her official fursona ref sheet, my skype is fucked up from my computer, which again is fighting to still work for me still until its fixed again. Until that time you should of noted me on here or on furaffinity with all she would requested of her fursona, again wasted move and words when you should of been a bit smart about this. I'm greatful that she let me use her laptop despite my quota that I hoped for via COM cash and I did say to her that if I got very little in money I have a deal to go and buy stuff cause well its a freakin' con, I would like to get some stuff to share and so on. I felt bad saying that but she understand a bit and even if I did get more money I would of paid her my fair share for gas money and that would be it. Once I make a promise I keep it but if I need info to do something I will wait until that said part is fulfilled and I get to work, I do not want to blindly wing it and disappoint her in the end.

7) I barely posted during the time you requested for the badge COM and when FA took a shit on us, stop making it seem that's the only thing I'm doing and neglecting your COM, again I'm in a very stressful point atm and I didn't need to see you bloody post nor would feel that your pushing me to my brink which atm I am feeling sick cause I need to re-do everyone's COM from MFF cause my SD card done and been a dick for me for not saving the pics I drew at there, I almost thrown up tonight from constant all nighters remembering what people wanted, drawing them out, trying to finish them and barely getting any healthy sleep cause of it. So from that and my depression I'm forcing myself to sketch to make myself to draw so I can get happy again and thus feeling comfortable to work, and well if some of these sketches or full cleaned art appealed to me then its like any other common artist to share those certain few.

Either way point being ya I'm extra slow with working on COM cause I'm negatively bashing myself and trying to get out of that loop pole but I will get it up and around and now even seeing his post on FA, really... Ok ya I know tossing my sock around like that I am sorry but everything else oh my god... *facedesk* Seriously no wonder some don't like you Shadowpaw or now aka Raven...

Its official (god damn late though..) that I will be at MFF this year, going to leave tomorrow and will be around.
If want to know where I am just follow me on my twitter account ToxicSakuraWrks, I'll be posting where I would be when I want to get some socializing done with others~

Ello everyonez~
I'm looking forward to going to MFF this year but I don't know if my pay will work with me to support myself for the con. So I'm opening up affordable COMs to help me raise up enough to help me out on that.
Here's what I'm offering~
Full body sketch with two/three choices of color (for the line, character fill and background.) HTML's and or color swatches are a must if you want a specific color choice. Those I am running for $10

A bust/waist badge, Cell shaded with a slight hint of ambient shade/lighting, nearing the average length of 8 inches. That I'm running for $12.

But please DO NOT ask for it to be shipped for I don't have a good printer/laminate machine nor anywhere that's really close to me via a print shop.

Either way these COMs will be quick (average maybe within a few hours to within a day/two depending on how much work I get.) and with good quality to present.

If interested please note me 1st at my art page with what you would like with refs (please be pictures if don't have any be basic but precise on what the design would be in the written ref.) And I'll send you my paypal. Payment must be at front but if you don't have the pay atm I will work out something til you do get the cash, either way until that time I'll hold the COM until the pay.

Also I'll hold this as a raffle to the 1st 10 people that are for sure that they're gonna go to MFF that reblog or share this link to this journal will be entered into the drawing that I'm holding. The drawn winner will get 2 pictures to their wish and presented to him/her at MFF for free as a token of my thanks for supporting me. These will be hand drawn and inked traditionally and sealed up for protection til that said person comes up and says that he/she is the raffle winner. The drawing will end and the winner will be announced on Tuesday 19th when that's said note me asap with what you would like for me to be drawn up with the planned character(s) (limit's 3 per page and please only basic background's all I request since I will be drawing these things up before I leave around the 21st.)~

If I'm not around Artist Alley or I am or all in all want to come and meet up with me I'll post up my stats about that on my twitter, esp to the raffle winner to meet up and so. Go find me under ToxicSakuraWrkz over on twitter for news and so~

Again thanks for participating and helping out~

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If anyone's looking for one more person for a roomie around MFF from any means, please let me know and how much I would have to pay for my part. But please be reasonable, I'm kinda running low on pay but this is only if Stryx can't make it for this Con. But either way let me know just in case ok~

Head on over to for more info as well as please pass out this information to others, I want to at least try to get some stuff up and running.~

http://www.furryconnectionnorth.com.....e-announcement

As some of the Michigan Furs have heard or dedicated people that loved to go to the Con FCN will be gone for good.... *screams* WHY?! Ya I know what it said but still why couldn't they just get new members for the senior staff, found a better location to contain the growth in population of attendees etc etc. I mean COME ON that's my means of meeting people that is cost efficient for me ;A; This is really a heart breakin' deal plus I had plans with friends that now I gotta talk with them about somewhere else. Sure ya I'll be moving down with my boyfriend within this month BUT STILL....

Not cool people, really not cool... I just hope that maybe they'll find some people worthy to continue this Con...

I thought why not... Just pop up any question and she'll respond (gonna draw via artwork~ )) But please keep it reasonable and clean etc.

I've been debating about this for quite some time but I'll be moving my artwork page to a new account on here solely for my best work and COMs, I will be barely using this account (other then maybe photos and stroies) So if you guys and gals want t ocontinue to see my artwork go over to my new account  TranceHybrid I'll be moving some of my best work from here to there so follow me there if you want.
Again that account will be solely used for all things art; Art Trades/COMs/Collabs/ Gifts etc.~

Coming to the last day of this month and though a week I'll be over at Stryx's place celebrating my birthday. He lives near the Ypsi/Ann Abor region so if you can make between the 31th- 3rd (or 5th depending ^^; ) of Sept then let me know on here, gathering friends to celebrate it with me cause well, previously I RARELY had any friends over my birthday since it lies within a Labor Day week but if a few of you can make it it'll be the greatest gift really for me.~ So let me know either way if some of you can make it (close friends more or less) and if you want to bring a few please make sure that their responsible, I know as much as I won't like it but Stryx as well have to kick someone out because they're acting like an ass etc on purpose.

Ask away, bored wolfy's bored and saw a few friends do this in the past so why not. l3

As of this year Biorave will be on hiatus for a while to make room for my werewolf sona Richelle Crawford that will be appearing sometime soon, now don't worry she's not gonna retire I just want to broaden my other sonas and give them the better spotlight now. But other then that if everything goes well I might be able to make it to MFF this year that is if things go out well. Plus also I finally got myself a tablet and my COM Page  ToxicSakuraWorks Will be opening up again real soon once I made an upgrade to my commission pricing but either way I'll be posting both on here and over there journals saying that I'm open and at least help spread the word~ But other then that, blarg :B

I love you Michigan but sometimes you're Bi-polar weather does hinder me a bit, Whole week, NOT EARLY SPRING temps of mid 70 F now dropped down to almost 50F esp around the nights good gods has to be maybe around mid 40 F or so, either way you need some meds, you don't normally act like this, lake effect weather bi-polar love comes when summer hits :I Either way my body's getting confused by this and its way too damn early...

helloz~
Its confirmed that I'm going to FCN and all that jazz. I'm really hoping to get in all of the three days at the artist alley. But either way if you want to try to get a hold of me just send me a message through twitter but do not spam me or any freakin bad PMs on there OK, or just to keep up on what I'm doing or so. Either way hope to see all of my friends again~

I have commissions open on my COMs page (toxicsakuraworks) and no luck with anyone barely requesting, and I need of the money to restock on mediums and a new drafting table, my last small crappy one broke a few months back... Either way PLEASE help out spreading the word but ONLY with my COM name, I officially don't do commissions on this page anymore...

Just looking for some of you peeps that are ok with adding me on either of these counsels and such, I have WIFI so I'm happy with that. Here's the listings that I'm more on and playing:
Wii (Monster Hunter Tri/ SSBB)
Skype
Xbox 360 (just want to get some good friends up and saved)
3DS (Kid Icarus Uprising but planning to get more games soon)


That's all I can think of ATM that I'm most active on, please let me know if you want to add me on and so on with a NOTE ok.
Thank you~

ok, I'm starting to get a bit antsy with some that I asked for with badges that I requested from FCN this year. It's August and not yet received any of the two (Lord Fenirn [sp?] and Sazume) if you guys are having money issues still I can atleast understand, but please tell me, but my patience is running a bit thin now but I'll keep it up on the brighter side. But please send them once you do ok guys.

As to the ones who have COM requested me, believe me I'm so sorry to keep you waiting, I'm having money issues myself cuz some jerks that borrowed money from me haven't paid me back the last few weeks, so fuck it I'm gonna get paid today or tomorrow thus I can just hit the store later on this week, but I will be sending them out this weekend or next week... it'll be quicker if I knew how to fuckin' drive but no... no one wants to make me learn how to drive around my family and I have to rely on my mom -_-...... But I will let you guys know ahead of time.

I don't care if this is a plea or me being a drama bitch, then again I'm a bit sorry. But ever since this break up I'm more broken and just.. want to kill myself. And not having a way to drive or anything like that and I've finally hit that emotional brick wall. If that damn kitsune is loving this break up I hope he burns emotionally and such.
I've just.. I don't know how long I'll stand up like this anymore, taking all of that in person was a bad choice for him, cuz I don't know how much I can take this pain anymore. I actually don't know if I can live another day like this in barely any happiness when I'm now still living in emotional pain and shear confusion.

Will I ever find a guy that won't play me for a fool or badly as a rag doll, being tossed around with thoughts of the future to later on find out that all of it was a false romance. Or I should just give up for a few years and forever be single tormented by the fact.

I just don't know anymore, sometimes I just feel like all of this bad luck was put onto me by purpose or I have to deal with a hidden punisment, either way if I'm doomed forever to roam around with a dream of having a family but never to have a good man then let it be then...

After the ditch break up last month I'm not really in the mood for this site as much as ever, so this account will be partially dead until I can get my name out there, both with this and my ToxicSakuraWorks account. I'll still check up here and there but due to the fact that everything back fired and now trying to make emergency COMs (which RARELY I get any.. just got one...) to open my own paypal account and such, sorry to say but... you guys are gonna barely hear from me until I can at least get some outside attention from conventions and such. I'm just not a happy fur at the moment...

I know this sounds like a useless plea but honestly, I really need these commissions to help me open up an account at the bank. Setting my goals and like I said I need a new paypal to further these commissions effectively. If I can get atleast around $200 to set me up for it then it would be enough. PLEASE help out on any means of form, taking some/spreading the word, I know money orders are not a good way but what else could I do really. This is my 1st top priority at the moment.

But I'm just doing $10 line art up until I get a new account, please help out guys

please, if anyone can help out in any way possible to further up my commissions and such, ever since the break up I don't have a paypal thus have to get back around using money orders, I know its not smart but I REALLY need the money to get a few things to help me boost up in commissions, namely a tablet, a flat scanner etc etc, until I can crate a paypal (which will be soon but in a slow process..) I have to do money orders -_-; Please help out guys, in any way possible please.

sorry guys but now I'm not going to be on here again more, yesterday Xavier ditched me near the bus station in Grand Rapids when I JUST got off all happy to see him again, taking only the things he felt was fully his (when some before he said that they were intentionally mine if I pay them off) now I know that Jaz needs his tablet back so he can do commissions to get out of his place, but how Xavier sank so low and being a cruel heartless person started to say stuff that I would never of thought of him, from saying that I didn't like to help out with his family ( I DO LIKE HELPING OUT) to what I like to eat ( idiot gave me a choice to order pizza like that even though I was giving second thoughts he freakin' pursited) among other small things that I did apologized for and I thought we gotten things straightened out but no, apparently not, so he just takes the laptop and tablet and just left me there at the bus station in a bad part of GR, leaving me crying my heart out from anger,sadness and confusion.
Oh and another thing, the feeling betrayed part, I don't care now I'm being Ms.Blunt here, he stated that a couple of people, Jazken and Sanura for some, said that he should dump me cuz I'm worthless to him. Now if you two have anything to say other wise, unwatch me, if you believe that I'm worthless even to you two, then its for the best that you forget about me too.... I'm so torn ot shreads from yesterday that I feel like I thought I got out of that stupid 8 month long depression and nearly committed suicide 5 freakin' times, now its gonna be like that all over again....-_-