CW Anxiety disorder I don't want to burden anyone with this but my psychological tank is full and threatens to overflow.

I'm currently terrified, paralyzed, of losing my apartment, not because of rent arrears, but because I'm not good at keeping it tidy. Yes, I am messy, certain groups of people would say.

I'm afraid of losing everything I've done over the last three years. I barely had time to get it all sorted last week; I had too much organizational work to do with the youth fire brigade.For those who didn't know, I'm the third youth leader of the youth fire brigade. It's a lot of responsibility and takes up a lot of time.

I have no idea how rational my mind will remain in 24 hours.I just want to say thank you to my friends, thank you to all the clubs where I was able to help, it was great.

Thank youv and goodbye.

~Bisam97

Yes today ist my 28 Birthday. And Its lay totaly in my currend down phase. I will Out oft the metal industry i Like CNC Milling but the personnel skills of my supervisor are just crap. And that's the problem that's why I hate the job...
I am currently looking around to see if I can find a retraining program for another profession, but I don't know yet if I dare to change my job.

I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a good start to 2025

Since I am currently deleting my data from X, I thought about how people can find me on social media

Mastodon:
Normal: @bisam97@mastodon.bisam97.de
AD: @bisamaferdark@mastodon.bisam97.de

BlueSky
Normal: "@bisam97.de"
AD: "@ad.bisam97.de"

Telegram: bisam97
Discord: bisam97

Merry Christmas everyone

Yes, today I have become a year older again.
25

Currently makes  hellloverss a raffle which goes until 01.03.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45580113/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45580113/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45580113/

Happy new year to everyone

Created with http://meme.fursuiters.net/

Where are you staying?
2A Hostel

Means of transportation?
by train

Sharing a room with:
3 Randoms

What is your gender?
male

Relationship Status:
singel

How old are you?
22

How tall are you?
1.86m

Which languages do you speak?
German English A little Bit japanese

Where will you be most of the time during the day?
Run to many Panels and Photograf many Fursuits

Who will you be with?
A lot of People

Do you do free art?
Nope

Do you do trades?
Nope

Do you do commissions?
Nope

Do you have prints/ CDs?
Nope

What suit(s) will you have?
nothing but I hope in one year

Can I dance with you?
yes

Can I touch you?
maby

Can I talk to you?
yes

Can I hug you?
yes

Can I take photos of you/with you?
yes

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
when you will

Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
A little bit Alc. I don't Smoke

Can I give you lots of money?
Sure...? OwO? but you do not have to

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
yes

Can we hang out?
yes

Are you nice?
I hope

Attending any events?
maby

How can I find you at the con?
look for a person who is totally nervous and with Cydo depends ^ ^

Can we go out for a dinner?
sure

Are you buying art?
maby I hope I find Sticker for my Car

What do I have to watch out for, when I am meeting you?
Be nice and then is good ^^

What is the best way to contact you?
Twitter (bisam97)

May I kidnap you to my room?
Ok and then...? UwU?

You look pretty tired, are you ok?
Yes this is normal for me ^^

Last time/last con/last meet/last chat we talked so much and now you forgot my name? Why???
I can remember bad names

Will you tell me your room-number and can I surprise visit you?
-

I have a personal question for the convention. May I ask you that?
Aks me on Twitter via DM or here

in Germany is just a heat wave and since my room is hit in the afternoon directly from the sun will first avoid the PC for a few days.
I try to Finish the Requests in the Weekend morning.

I use for a lot of the Pictures Blender and 3d Models, in this journal I have a currend list of used models and with the Texture.
"modelname.zip/images" are the current texture directory and "modelname.zip/images_commend" are other textures directory. The Command say what is in.
"modelname.zip/modelname.fbx" are the Model in fbx format (you can use this format with blender or with Paint3D)

My OCs:

Gensou: http://bisam97.de/models/gensou/gensou.zip

Not my OCs:

Blueon by  blueblurbird: http://bisam97.de/models/blueon/blueon.zip Note: The Currend texturemap off the Body has a very big resolution (12400x6200 Pixel)
Protoruff by  blueblurbird: http://bisam97.de/models/protoruff/protoruff.zip
Bubbelw by  blueblurbird: http://bisam97.de/models/bubblew/bubblew.zip
Bubbelm by  blueblurbird: http://bisam97.de/models/bubblem/bubblem.zip
Mischief by  blueblurbird: http://bisam97.de/models/mischief/mischief.zip
Pampstat by  blueblurbird: http://bisam97.de/models/pampstat/pampstat.zip
Gloweon by  blueblurbird: http://bisam97.de/models/gloweon/gloweon.zip