I am sorry I have not been on in a while as of late my depression has been hitting me hard making it hard to want to do anything remotely good and only time I have been even a lil bit motivated was when I was with the bf in Minnesota and Arkansas miss them both but having a hard night been crying for a while not sure why I am but have been so gonna go to bed early.

I have had to make a lot of changes and lose a few of my old friends and some new also but every thing must change at some time or another glad to have some great friends to stand with me as these changes have happened

I as of late have been torn have two great furs I know that there mate have either left them or there not sure what to do any more and I try to talk with them every day and check up them but wish I could do more after the 6 fail relationships I have had.

Also had a good friend have her laptop attacked by a burn and run virus the thing that bothers me is it happened right after a big trip and she is working on a big project.

So just wondering if I should even try and start dating again after seeing my friends hurt so badly.

Well I leave in a few hours for my trip to Texas for TFF kinda ready to go but also not never been to a con this large but should be a eye opening experience so if you are there just say Hi and all that to me.

Hey folks if you had not had a chance to check out this very cool project my friends are working on then please do it is a Furry Tarot Deck it is going to be for who ever reserves there spot first so if you want a card with you face on it then order Now!


Because I know which one I want.

http://www.tarotdeckproject.co.nr/

I have been working on a project for 3 months now and running out of time been trying to get a artist to do art for a Sci-fi lifestyle book set that is set to be released by Christmas that will be bigger than 50 shades of gray but can't get a artist to do the art for it grrr...

So for some reason as of late I keep putting my foot in my mouth few friends say i'm not but I can tell the difference when they go real quiet in chat and such...but could just be me being insecure.

I tried to go on a date the other day it didn't go so well and I just not sure if I will ever try again I have all these great friends that are mated or dating some one and sorry to say the last few furs I dated it did not end well

One steals from me the other leaves me for a girl and the last just says its over and leaves am I really that broken and useless that I can be used and thrown away because andy more I have my Con face work face which I wear all over...

Hell don't think any one has seen the real me but one person but have chatted with a few people about some things but it is what it is and nothing will ever change I will continue working on the cons I love and my job.

Because I know now I don't need any one and don't think I will ever find some one.


Grim

So have a friend that is part of the BDSM community and is calling for help finding any where down south and he does not care where he goes never met in real life but if I was able to let him move him in with me I would (Damn Bleeding Heart) but currently stuck with my mother sleeping on her floor so need some one caring to help out even for a little while so he can get out of the current living problems.

Ok so still planning stuff for the new year but it is going to be a great year and I will be on staff once again.

Dear god I post on my profile the way to get a hold of me that are not on that website and they never read it lol so just sent out a lot of messages since I have 47 unopened messages on there.


Hey wish I was able to open your message or any ones messages for that matter but cant afford the fee for this site so if you want to chat my Sk ype is the same as my screen name on here.

Bittergrim

Well thanks to my other I now have to start over again with my files that I had backed up on a flash drive and desktop since she locked up my PC and some how wiped my flash drive which she thought was hers sigh I understand and I move on since it is smaller than a lot of the issues going on the biggest thing is her heart blockage which we are going in for more tests in the morning and surgery next Thursday so that should be fun.

I am going several different ways any more (work,WN,Health) sooner or later some thing will give and I will make some head way.

In other news my own health has gotten better the Doc I am seeing told me that I have a infection in my lungs and he is putting me back on another Z pack..yay...

Yours in life and death
Bittergrim

Well my new job has been a blast love ever min of it but not been online as much due to work but I will be going to wildnights furry con at the end of the month so hope to see old and new friends there.