I hope you are all doing well! I personally just got done with a lot of work and I'm excited to just rest and enjoy this time of the year. It's my favorite so I'm hoping it doesn't fly by too quickly.

The chastity cage I talked about in my previous journal arrived and I've been wearing it a lot. I'm not wearing it 24/7 simply because I don't think I'm ready for that yet, but the smaller cage really has been wonderfully comfortable. When I got it, the size of it surprised me, I knew it was small, but even I had to do some work to squish into it. It's weird though when it's on, it's like my clit doesn't exist, there's no bulge, my pants are just flat. If I reach down and feel myself all I feel is my balls. It's so strange. But it's been so much more comfortable compared to my previous one, I think it's maybe because it's not as big so it's not adding as much weight. I have been wearing it to sleep though, it's difficult to get a full night's sleep, but it's possible. I currently have nearly zero urges to cum, the cage does it's job well and even when I look at things I like my clit doesn't feel like it moves at all. I feel like I'll be ready for Christmas though, my restrictions will be lifted and I'll be able to cum as much as I please.

Well when I found out it existed, I knew I needed to get it. Holy Trainer has made a cage smaller than their nano variant called, 'the nub'. On top of just wanting a tighter, more constricting cage (I mean who doesn't want that?~) I think it would fit me better than the nano does.

When I'm soft I have a very small clitty that struggles to get even halfway down the length of the cage, so maybe the the nub it'll feel right at home~

I apologize for disappearing for so long again, I didn't really intend it. After my trip in August I was so exhausted that I didn't feel like writing up a journal and eventually months passed and now I'm finally here. I'll see if I can sum up things pretty quickly.

Playing with a friend was pretty great. He bound me to a bed with chains I could not break, and I was naked and exposed in the hot summer air. I was blindfolded, gagged, my hands were in mitts, and my ears were plugged. I only had my senses of smell and touch available to me. My friend took his whip and painfully struck my thighs, nipples, and clit over and over... I was left trembling and flinching at swings that never came. All the while I was hard and leaking. It was a fun time and I wish it could have gone on a lot longer and harsher than it had.

The months after have been filled with ups and downs. But we all have struggles and I don't necessarily need to get into them here, I already have a couple great friends I'm able to talk to so I'm not trying to deal with things on my own.

I hope all of you have been well.

Right now I'm in chastity until Christmas, I love all the "Do not open until..." art and I thought it would be fun to do in real life. My friend (the same one that toyed with me in the above paragraph) has also decided to take his place as my "pseudo-master". I'm wearing my cage, but not 24/7, I wasn't able to clean it properly before and the constant wear did cause some pain and damage, so I'm wearing it during the day and sleep with it off at night. I've also been given 15 minutes each day to touch myself (but not cum of course!) just to spice things up a little and hopefully by the time Christmas gets here I'll be going crazy for pleasure~

I still have about a month left in chastity before I'm allowed out and able to cum again. I was supposed to be let out at the end of this month, but a couple of mistakes extended it by 16 days. These last two days though I've been in my cage 100% of the time. I've slept in it two nights in a row and it's been relatively great. The first night was perfect and I had no problems, last night I woke up at 5am with a painful erection, but after a while it past and I was able to get back to sleep. I've been wearing my cage all day long today too and I'm about to wear it for a third night in a row.

I'm really glad to be able to wear it the way it was meant to be worn. It's reduced the hassle of my morning routine and has made the cage and what it's doing to me just feel more meaningful in general. In addition to my chastity this month I have to bind myself before bed each night. Nothing two crazy, just some cuffs on my wrists and ankles with loose ropes that let me rest how I need to, but short enough that I'm reminded of my binds if I try and move a bit too much. My arms are linked to the same rope as well, if I move one hand down, the other must go to the head of the bed so I can't always sleep exactly how I would like. When I wake up in the mornings I have to unbind myself and press a vibrator to my cage for 5 minutes, then I have to wait 10 minutes before I can do it again. I have to do this a total of 4 times, so 1 hour. I'm not allowed to cum so I have to pull the vibrator away when I get close; this exercise is to make me nice and horny so by the end of my chastity I'm begging to cum.

Barring no more mistakes my chastity will end while I'm meeting with a friend, and this friend also happens to be my keyholder. For two weeks he's going to bind me up and tease me however he pleases and the best part is I'll have no say in the matter. I rarely get to be tied up by someone other than myself and it's exciting to be put in binds I cannot escape from on my own. I'll be tied down with metal chains that are locked with padlocks, gagged with my own panties that are soaked with my pre, blindfolded and forced to listen to girls moaning as I sit in the dark barely able to move. My clit will be locked up in its cage, barely able to reach a vibrator if I stretch hard enough. I'll hopelessly hump the air, but all I'll manage to do is make a puddle on the floor.

21 days after my emlalock timer started I finally got to cum again. Sadly my keyholder had accidentally put a limit on how long the timer could last (He was far more upset about that than I was.) and so I was let out today. However I didn't know I was going to be let out today, but I was made aware that it was going to be "soon" and I better be awake in the morning if I wanted to cum, otherwise I'd miss my chance. I nearly did too, last night I was up until 5am but I somehow woke up only a few minutes after he asked me if I was ready for my challenge. I was really tired, but in the end the desire to cum outweighed my desire to sleep.

The challenge was to write a 500 word story, which I've posted here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27905081/ within an hour. The topic was "How I want to be treated." So I tried to write a little excerpt of what part of my slave fantasy life would be like. I finished writing about 10 minutes before the hour was up and so I only had 10 minutes to cum. To be honest, after 21 days I could cum in an instant if you wanted me to, so that part of the challenge was fairly easy for me. However, my keyholder is also holding the key for someone else and despite finishing their challenge with about the same time as me they weren't able to cum in time.

After the challenge I was ordered to put my cage on again, because we're both starting a full month of chastity. What I didn't know was that what we wrote determined how we're going to be treated throughout this month. I think I might have doomed myself not receive any play time whatsoever, I think I might just be stuck with my own thoughts and nothing else.

This current round of Chastity wont be on emlalock so I can't offer a link for you guys to extend it. I am interested in the idea of setting up a session where you all can extend the time as much as you want without any limits, but that scares me a little haha. To be honest, this last session wasn't too bad, 21 days isn't a whole lot, I'm pretty used to going many months at a time. The times it did get bad were the times when I let it get bad. If I focus on it a lot and don't achieve much during the day, then the only thing I can think about is naughty things, but it's totally my fault when it happens.

Here's the link to the story again:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27905081/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27905081/

But I'm still laying here, all caged up and horny because of you guys <3

My keyholder said he accidentally put a maximum limit on how long I'm supposed to be locked away, he's been very clear about how disappointed he was by that. Apparently you guys reached that limit too. I don't know how long I have left, it could be one month or even two. (But I don't think it's that long.) I did try to guess what it was once, but he added three days to the timer because I did. Today he let me fondle my cage through my underwear for five minutes, I got so hard and it was actually pretty painful, but I wanted more, he ended it with letting me use a vibrator for just 30 seconds. It felt so amazingly good, but I had to pull it away before the time was up because I nearly came. --My cage is feeling very tight right now while I type this... The inside of my cage is so slick with pre, I just want to touch myself for days on end without stopping, I just want to enjoy the pleasure that I can feel being denied right now as my clit presses against this tiny, tiny cage.

I asked to play too much today and now I've been told that I wont be able to feel anything for three days. Up until now I've not been allowed to cum, but short bursts of teasing have been granted, so this lack of feeling is going to seem like an eternity...

I'm very curious to know what you all think. I'd love to be teased more, it would fill me with unending frustration, I'm not sure why I crave it so dearly.

Have passed since I locked my key away. I have run into a couple problems though so my chastity has not been as perfect as I had hoped it would be. I had one day in particular where I don't think I took the proper time and care to prepare myself for the cage and things got fairly painful. It was nothing major, but I had to get my emergency key and let myself heal for a good portion of last week. I have not cheated however, I've not had an orgasm and the only time I touched myself was because I had been given an order to tease myself one night, but I wasn't allowed any release. The other thing is I just can't wear my cage to bed, I keep waking up several hours too early in a fair bit of pain because I'm hard and will not get flaccid again, the last day I couldn't stand it and had to take it off... Both of those things I mentioned led to me also have constant pain throughout the day as well, simply walking, sitting, standing, or any other basic movement would lead to a lot of painful pinches. I feel like I'm just not biologically set up right to wear a cage full-time despite how much I would really like to.

I've put my cage back on again today and plan to continue wearing it long-term again, but I'm going to be placing limits on when I wear it. I'm going to only wear it during the day, so from the moment I get out of bed to the moment I go to bed I'll be wearing it. At night I have a set of little infant socks I can put on my clit to make sure I can't feel anything when I sleep. (They're cute and pink.) So my clit should always be secured inside something with very little time where it's free~

I am happy though that I'll be able to properly clean myself and the cage each night. I'm also going to be abiding by the emlalock timer still, just because I have access to the key doesn't mean I'm going to get to cum. You guys can still add to that timer by the way, there's no way I'm posting the link though if you really want to add more time to my chastity you can find the link on your own :p

So far the chastity has been fine. I haven't been very aroused actually so I haven't felt any considerable urge or need to touch myself these past few days. I've had to go out in public a few times, the knowledge of it being in my pants makes me nervous that I'll get caught, but I've had enough confidence that I haven't been very worried about it. The worst parts have been early in the mornings, Just last night I woke up twice a few hours before I wanted to because I had an erection and it was painful. There's just nothing I can do about them aside from endure and hope they go away soon, but they don't and I end up waiting for a while. It doesn't feel dangerous, I wouldn't be trying to endure it if I thought it was causing harm, but it's definitely not pleasant. I'm kind of wondering what will happen when I start to get really horny. I've always thought that chastity cages would really just make it easier to handle urges because they take away the temptation to touch and so far that's been true. I'm really used to not touching myself for long periods of time and as long as I don't feel anything it's easy enough to maintain that, I'm thinking that is what's happening now and the cage is making it easy.

Apparently you guys clicked the link in my last journal a lot. I'm not sure how much time you all added, but I fear that I'm going to be stuck in this cage for a few more weeks than I had originally planned... The link is still on my last journal if you haven't clicked it yet. Should I be saying that? I wonder if I'll regret it...

If you're unaware, emlalock.com is a website that allows you to lock yourself in chastity if you don't have someone to be your physical key holder. You put the key into a box with a combination you can set yourself. You spin the numbers, take a photo of them and upload it to the website where it will lock away the image for a set amount of time. (You do all of this without looking at the lock or the picture of course.)

My friend  flameoffurious is my key holder for this session. I think he set it to keep me locked up for 2 weeks, but I'm not sure. He also gave me a link to give out that allows each of you to extend my chastity for two more days. As you can imagine if enough of you join in, I could be locked up for a very, very long time. I can check to see how long I have left on my chastity, but it'll add a random amount of time to the clock if I do so I'm going to try my best not to do that.

If you would like to keep me locked up, you can visit this linK:

http://emlalock.com/#/f/ny2r1
http://emlalock.com/#/f/ny2r1
http://emlalock.com/#/f/ny2r1
http://emlalock.com/#/f/ny2r1

Edit: Please be careful if you decide to pass that link around. If shared enough it could keep me locked for months.

So the size changes I made worked out perfectly. The cage is actually very comfortable and I can almost forget it's there. One problem a lot of cages have is that when you get hard your clit pulls the ring away from your body tugging your balls. Well this cage is the perfect size for my clit meaning there's nowhere for things to expand and it's pointed downwards so it's already forced to stay smaller than usual. This is keeping the cage right in between my legs and it's not moving. Even when I get hard I don't feel any pain and there's no change in the size of the bulge in my paints.

I've been wearing the cage since I got it in the afternoon yesterday and I don't think I'm going to be allowed out of it again for a long time. Last night I did have some pain, but it was minor enough that I got a little bit of lube to help it and things have been fine ever since. I think I look really good wearing it too, it makes me all nice and small~

I meant to add that the cage almost feels like it's constantly constricting my clit. Imagine you leave your fingers curled up or your elbow bent for a long time and you just want to stretch it. It feels a lot like that, my clit has been kept perfectly in place for so long, it's a feeling I'll need to get used to.

It's been a few days now since I've worn my Holy Trainer, I tried to wear it at night again and the ring started to tug against me, it was extremely painful. I had to take it off so it wouldn't cause any damage and I've been letting myself heal a bit, I mostly just feel a little sore. I ordered one more cage and it should be here tomorrow, it's a larger ring and a smaller tube, hopefully it'll fit better and I wont have anymore problems. If it doesn't work though I'll probably give up trying to wear cages since if this doesn't work, I doubt much else will and I've already put too much money into these things.

I think though my last ring was just a little too small, when I measured it I was right at the upper limit of that ring, but I didn't want to get the next size in case it would be way too big. Otherwise the cage has been pretty comfortable with only a little tugging on just one side that I could almost totally get rid of with some lube. My other issue was having erections in my sleep, I know they're not supposed to be comfortable, but they're definitely not supposed to be excruciatingly painful, the larger ring should help. There's just a fine line between letting things move comfortably and being so loose that you can just slip out accidentally, my old cage was like that when I tried to use larger rings.

I really don't think the tube is all that important unless you want a perfect fit. The tube I have now is the normal one, but I really don't fill it out, which is a problem when using the bathroom, it's a lot easier to make a mess. You'd think you'd fill it out when you have an erection, but nope, it just gets stuck where it's at and it's pretty frustrating. I didn't think I'd fit well in the small tube either so I went ahead and got the nano tube. If it's way too small then I can just go back to the longer tube and deal with it, but I think it'll be fine.

If all goes well after putting it on tomorrow then I'm going to try and sleep in it and I'll make another update.

My Holy Trainer chastity cage arrived in the mail today. It somehow got from Sweden to my house in the US in just three days. (I ordered it Friday, but it officially shipped on Monday and got here Wednesday)

So far so good. I think I'll be able to wear this cage 24/7 pretty soon, right now I'm getting used to it, making sure it's safe to wear, but I really like it. I had some discomfort when I first put it on, but things got better over time and it's very comfortable. It's not quite perfect, but it's almost there. It's very interesting not being able to touch at all, with the other cage I could more easily move things around if I needed to, but this one denies absolutely everything. The only gripe I have is that I should have gotten the smaller cage, but it does still fit very nicely.

I'm looking forward to the days where I'm desperate to play but it's simply impossible.

I have a little bit of an update so I figured I'd post a new journal.

I know it seems like I haven't really been around much for like a really, really long time, but I still frequent this site every day and leave a comment here and there on my other account. I just haven't had anything to share here in a while so this account has been very quiet and I'm sorry about that, but with other interests taking my time I haven't really had anything left for new art.

I've recently been given a little more freedom to do what I want in terms of playing and my chastity and I took a pretty big leap yesterday. I purchased a Holy Trainer chastity device for myself and it should be here on Wednesday. I'm really excited about it and I'm hoping that it'll be really comfortable, fit just right, and not try to kill me like that cheap one I bought did. It was pretty expensive so I'm really hoping it works and I got everything measured correctly! I also got a little cheap lock box off of amazon and a little vibrator to play around with. I have a friend who's going to 'virtually' hold my key hostage by using emlalock.com and the lock box I purchased so that should be fun. If anything interesting happens I'll be sure to post an update if anyone is still interested. I might at some point allow you guys to extend my time locked up too, I'm used to not cumming for months at a time so hopefully I can take the torture~

I hope you guys are doing well, it's nice to post an update again. I think I'll post another update once everything gets here just to let you all know how the new cage is working out for me.

Oh I forgot to mention, starting last night I've decided to try and sleep with my wrists and ankles bound every night. I have my wrists connected by a long rope which is looped around some metal poles on my bed. If I want to move one hand towards the foot of the bed the other has to go to the top, and if I lower both of my hands I can't go any farther than my chest. I have my feet bound the same way. It's kind of fun, it lets me sleep without getting sore, but I'm still limited in how much I can move around!

NOT MINE! XD A friend of mine is having her birthday soon and to celebrate she's holding a raffle! Also for this month only she's discounting her commissions, so check this out while you can :D

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8319007/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8319007/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8319007/

This year has been a rough one in many ways for many people, but we're still here and we still have each other, and for that I am grateful. I hope all of you are able to have a good Christmas, even if you're not able to spend it with family (perhaps that's a good thing :p) I hope you're able to snuggle up in a warm blanket and just enjoy the day, I know I'll probably be doing that and eating lots of chocolate too ;3

As sort of a Christmas present for a friend of mine, I wanted to share an awesome artist with you all.  cybercat is a really sweet and amazing artist. She even has several tutorials on youtube you can watch if you're interested in learning how to draw, they actually helped me a lot back when I was trying to learn. I think you guys might really like her art and I hope you check out her page! (She even has a super adorable dog named Skywalker!)

One other note I'd like to add here for the raffle winners: It's been a super busy and hectic last few months and I wanted to thank you all for being so patient <3 It's all still on it's way and I'll send out updates when I can :3

My emotions are so strong right now. It's like a constant fire in my stomach that wants to do every kinky fantasy I've ever had and it doesn't go away. It's like the feeling of nervousness you get when you stand in front of a lot of people and every time I think about something else that's even remotely kinky it just tugs on that knot in my stomach more and more. I even get lightheaded sometimes, just from thinking about something that really turns me on, the excitement of it fills me completely and then I think about all the potential things that could happen and and-- I'm surprised that I haven't passed out yet.

All I can think about is this. My want, need, and desire to cum is so incredible, but all I can do is wait. I'm supposed to use this energy I have to cum towards other things, but so far I haven't really had any success in that.

It actually feels a lot like a constant noise. Something that's always there and can't be ignored, it prevents me from thinking clearly and makes it harder for me to get calm. These things come in waves, once every month or so, it's not exact, but I've noticed that as they go on, they get worse and worse.


(also raffle winners, your art is still on it's way :3)

I'm planning on making a new raffle that's much like the last one, it'll be starting on Wednesday and ending on Saturday night and I'll pick the winners on Sunday. Yep, there will be two winners. One will be selected by random.org, the other will be chosen by me. Also to make things fair, the winner of the previous raffle will no be eligible to enter into this one.

Thanks guys and I can't wait to get it started again!

So I'm not really sure how to do this or if this is even a proper way to do this, but I wanted to say that I'm single and I'm looking for someone to spend my life with.

I've really wanted to meet someone for a long time now, but I've never really had the courage or would even know how to explain to someone that I'm a furry. It's made me feel like the only way I could meet someone is here or on fetlife, though I think I would rather meet someone here on fa. I just feel more comfortable here. I was hoping to meet someone physically close to me, but I'm willing to travel as much as I can to make a relationship work.

A little about me:
I'm a very subby male tiger who also likes to look pretty and cute (in case you haven't seen my gallery :p) I'm straight and only looking for girls. Aside from being tied up, I also like to cuddle and hug and I'd really like to spend an entire day just hugging and snuggling :3 I'm pretty goofy, I like to play games and I'm very interested in neat little gadgets and how they work. I also love to watch movies and tv. Mostly things like Game of Thrones, everything Marvel, Doctor Who and many other sci-fi's and great dramas.

If you would like to ask me something, please don't be shy, I'm probably far shyer! (shier, shyer?) I'd love to get to know you :3

(A little disclaimer: Mme is still my owner, nothing has happened between the two of us. It was agreed upon that I would be allowed to look for a partner while under their care :3)

 Dlost is having some major computer issues, it appears to be totally dead.

They're offering a couple different pwyw commissions, traditional and digital media (digital when things are working again of course).
If you're interested in seeing what they're offering head on over to their journal here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7551162/

I'm feeling really horny again. My cage has really made me crave pleasure. I used to feel things, little touches here and there, but now it's locked up at least 16 hours of the day. Not cumming is one thing, but never feeling anything is another. A few days ago I had 3 wet dreams in a row, two of them on the same night, back to back. It's only been a month, but things are feeling really different than they have been.

Starting January first, early in the morning, Mme told me to put on my cage. It's been two days now and I can already tell this year will be rough, I haven't been able to test it out in public yet, but Monday when I go to work I'll have to. The worst part is I can always feel it. It's a constant presence, it's always reminding me that I can't touch and that I belong to Mme.

It's a very different feeling than I'm used to. I was already in chastity before this cage, but now I have to change how I live to accommodate it. I can only sit when I use the bathroom now, standing is out of the question, I'll just make a mess, the way I walk is a little different, and the way I sit is even different. It used to be I could look at porn and even though I couldn't touch, my clit would still press against my pants giving it some sort of pleasure. I can't do that now, when I get excited all I feel is my cage, it's a constant pressure that's always there. When I move my hand down to adjust I don't feel my clit, instead I feel the unforgiving silicone that my cage is made out of. I can't feel pleasure anymore at all.

I'm allowed to remove my cage at night to clean it and sleep, but as soon as I wake up it goes right back on. I'm actually wishing I was tired right now so I could take it off, but I'm not...

I remember wanting this. I bought the cage so long ago and never being allowed to try it. Mme waited six months before letting me cum again and as soon as I did the cage went on and it only makes it worse. Now that I've cummed I want to touch even more, my brain thinks more pleasure is coming, but in reality it's probably months away. This will be the first time I've ever gone totally without pleasure before. It's a new thing for me and I don't know how my mind will handle it.

It was brought to my attention that some of you might think that Mme and I are a couple and so I'd like to clear things up a little.

I'm a pet, and my job is to serve Mme. We're not a couple in any way, in fact, Mme is more of a mentor than anything else, that's why I called them that and not a master on my profile page. I'm still very much waiting and looking for the love of my life <3 and it's understood that once that happens I wont be Mme's pet anymore. The stories I write and the things I say about Mme and I are simply that. Stories. Some bits a true here and there, but it's mostly just fantasy.

I hope I haven't caused too much confusion or mislead you all, it was never the intention <3

The other day I thought my sexuality might be a little confusing for people that don't really know me (heck people that do know me probably don't know). Maybe no one cares, but once I thought about it, I kinda decided that I should make something to clarify, in case anyone is interested.

To put it very simply, I'm straight. In no way am I gay or desire to be with another guy. But where it gets a little complicated is in the art I get. You'll see some pictures have me either tied to or serving another guy. Well that's where my fetish for being a submissive comes in. I find it exciting to be told I have to do something with someone else, I'm not allowed to say no, I just have to. In real life I can't do this, in my head it sounds fun, but if it were to actually happen I think it would be an experience I really wish I hadn't had. Another thing is that this stuff I get is art, it isn't real. It's a way for me to escape and explore my fantasies without hurting anyone, including myself. Also I just find furry art kinda cute, seeing a real guy tied up is a lot less attractive than a helpless little femboy tiger to me.

That's about it, I hope it clears up some things if any of you have ever wondered :3

It's my birthday and Mme has given me 24 hours to do whatever I like~
I've bound my hands and feet with cuffs and I'm... touching myself. It feels so good, I forgot how good it felt, it's been so long...

I've decided that I'm going to start writing more. I'm probably going to be mostly writing smut because it's the only thing I feel like I can do well enough to share, but there may be some clean stuff on my other account as well. I hope you all enjoy the stories!