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Bro whyyy do people keep shilling Pokémon
General | Posted 2 weeks agohttps://x.com/Pokemon/status/1995857060261433663
Dude, okay, this shit broke me. This is the actual last straw for me after all these megas. This is the dumbest design ever. Again such bad colors, weird af design choices, it looks like they tried to make a weird emo deviant art oc. What even is the thing on its head?!
People were crying about Anubis from Palworld, but somehow this is just an objectively worse design and people still like it, and I already see art of it!
HOW??!!!
I'm so fucking done with this (the Pokémon) community like 20 times over. Seriously considering only drawing Digimon and other properties like Monster Hunter and just never touching Pokémon again.
I used to be here for the art and good designs well after the games stopped being good. But we can't even have that anymore. You people make me sick.
Dude, okay, this shit broke me. This is the actual last straw for me after all these megas. This is the dumbest design ever. Again such bad colors, weird af design choices, it looks like they tried to make a weird emo deviant art oc. What even is the thing on its head?!
People were crying about Anubis from Palworld, but somehow this is just an objectively worse design and people still like it, and I already see art of it!
HOW??!!!
I'm so fucking done with this (the Pokémon) community like 20 times over. Seriously considering only drawing Digimon and other properties like Monster Hunter and just never touching Pokémon again.
I used to be here for the art and good designs well after the games stopped being good. But we can't even have that anymore. You people make me sick.
It's been 10 years since the accident, it's time to let go
General | Posted a month agoI guess in a way this is sort of me rambling.
So I think it was as of either yesterday or the day before, November 16 or 15, I don't remember, but it was about that time, ten years ago, that I was forced by my parents to go on a church mission. Something that very much derailed my life and I've been trying to correct ever since.
It really did feel like my experiences that followed just kind of sucked the life out of me, the true joy and drive I once had, the ability to enjoy hobbies or enjoy anything, I've been trying so hard to reclaim.
I know it's time to move on and stop letting what happened get in the way, and just accept that it happened and try to just find joy in things again.
I mean I guess that's what I'd been trying to do ever since, it's just been hard. I'm always anxious that doing art is a waste of time (thanks parents) and I could be doing something else more productive or that there's a million things I have to see or play because with so much media there's just a constant backlog of stuff that I'll never be able to keep up, and so I have massive executive dysfunction for things to prioritize that it feels like art is constantly at the bottom. I guess it also doesn't help that I feel like I just suck at it, and also that there's so much bloat of artists now, Jesus Christ there's so many now, I can't even keep up with that, but because of that it feels like it's just useless to put out my ideas or stuff cuz it doesn't even matter. And so all that and the fact that the act of drawing feels like such a struggle and just literally takes forever for me, it just constantly ends up on the bottom of my priorities list and idk how to get it back up there.
The problem is, a part of me WANTS to. And honestly I have a Google doc of like 500 ideas I've come up with over the years so it's not like I have an art block in the sense that I can't come up with anything. I just have a serious mental block that I can't get past.
And every time there's stuff that comes up like Halloween or NNN or even the fact that it's been 10 years and it feels like a prime time for a comeback (even if everything is against us now with shitty algorithms and governments trying to censor us forever now), it's like I have those things in the back of my mind that I wanna release stuff for them, but the fact that I'm working a job to survive and tired a lot and all the aforementioned blocks, a month passes by the time I end up maybe doing something and by then it's too late and so I drop working on such a thing because I missed the date/chance.
Like I wanted to do Halloween, I wanted to do kinktober, I wanted to do something NNN related, earlier this year I thought it would have been nice to finally join art fight for once or the like. But it just feels like time flies so fast man.
Idk, I'm trying. And eventually I'll do art again I think. I'm just tired and distracted.
I also appreciate you guys sticking around though. Even though I know I did an art purge like I said I'd never do. I've just been so depressed about my art and my thoughts have been chaotic that I just felt a strong urge to do so. I still have all of it in like my mega drive, but just trying to figure out what to do with that too. Idk if I necessarily want to just have all the ultra HD pics publicly accessible. idk.
Thanks for coming to my Ted talk
So I think it was as of either yesterday or the day before, November 16 or 15, I don't remember, but it was about that time, ten years ago, that I was forced by my parents to go on a church mission. Something that very much derailed my life and I've been trying to correct ever since.
It really did feel like my experiences that followed just kind of sucked the life out of me, the true joy and drive I once had, the ability to enjoy hobbies or enjoy anything, I've been trying so hard to reclaim.
I know it's time to move on and stop letting what happened get in the way, and just accept that it happened and try to just find joy in things again.
I mean I guess that's what I'd been trying to do ever since, it's just been hard. I'm always anxious that doing art is a waste of time (thanks parents) and I could be doing something else more productive or that there's a million things I have to see or play because with so much media there's just a constant backlog of stuff that I'll never be able to keep up, and so I have massive executive dysfunction for things to prioritize that it feels like art is constantly at the bottom. I guess it also doesn't help that I feel like I just suck at it, and also that there's so much bloat of artists now, Jesus Christ there's so many now, I can't even keep up with that, but because of that it feels like it's just useless to put out my ideas or stuff cuz it doesn't even matter. And so all that and the fact that the act of drawing feels like such a struggle and just literally takes forever for me, it just constantly ends up on the bottom of my priorities list and idk how to get it back up there.
The problem is, a part of me WANTS to. And honestly I have a Google doc of like 500 ideas I've come up with over the years so it's not like I have an art block in the sense that I can't come up with anything. I just have a serious mental block that I can't get past.
And every time there's stuff that comes up like Halloween or NNN or even the fact that it's been 10 years and it feels like a prime time for a comeback (even if everything is against us now with shitty algorithms and governments trying to censor us forever now), it's like I have those things in the back of my mind that I wanna release stuff for them, but the fact that I'm working a job to survive and tired a lot and all the aforementioned blocks, a month passes by the time I end up maybe doing something and by then it's too late and so I drop working on such a thing because I missed the date/chance.
Like I wanted to do Halloween, I wanted to do kinktober, I wanted to do something NNN related, earlier this year I thought it would have been nice to finally join art fight for once or the like. But it just feels like time flies so fast man.
Idk, I'm trying. And eventually I'll do art again I think. I'm just tired and distracted.
I also appreciate you guys sticking around though. Even though I know I did an art purge like I said I'd never do. I've just been so depressed about my art and my thoughts have been chaotic that I just felt a strong urge to do so. I still have all of it in like my mega drive, but just trying to figure out what to do with that too. Idk if I necessarily want to just have all the ultra HD pics publicly accessible. idk.
Thanks for coming to my Ted talk
(Update) Thank God.... we're okay (for now)
General | Posted 3 months agohttps://x.com/veldatssick/status/19.....53495453102195
^ Picture context
Okay... so I texted my property manager last night and thankfully they responded almost as soon as they were open (usually after 10am) and said they made that note by mistake I guess? idk if it was intended for someone else or what. But they say to disregard the note and make sure I've paid in full by the 19th (which I get paid next week) and then it should be good....
I'm not totally out of the woods yet though. I'm still going to need to make sure I'm caught up and have enough money for next month too. Which I'll try and take as much overtime as I can, but this week I wasn't even able to get much hours because... well I work a security guard job now and I guess it's a bit more volatile than I expected. Last week I was able to pick up a lot of hours, but this week I've been on call, so I dunno if I can barely squeeze by in three weeks or not....
I will try and see this time besides that to start making furry content and that maybe I can get some that way... after all, it was partially the reason that I switched careers, thought it would still give me enough time to do that too, especially for positions that you're not really doing anything the whole time, I've heard people I've known say that they either draw or play on their steam deck or something.
But anyway... for now I'm okay. I was having a total panic attack last night over that and really pissed off too.
Love you guys.
I'll try not to kill myself....
^ Picture context
Okay... so I texted my property manager last night and thankfully they responded almost as soon as they were open (usually after 10am) and said they made that note by mistake I guess? idk if it was intended for someone else or what. But they say to disregard the note and make sure I've paid in full by the 19th (which I get paid next week) and then it should be good....
I'm not totally out of the woods yet though. I'm still going to need to make sure I'm caught up and have enough money for next month too. Which I'll try and take as much overtime as I can, but this week I wasn't even able to get much hours because... well I work a security guard job now and I guess it's a bit more volatile than I expected. Last week I was able to pick up a lot of hours, but this week I've been on call, so I dunno if I can barely squeeze by in three weeks or not....
I will try and see this time besides that to start making furry content and that maybe I can get some that way... after all, it was partially the reason that I switched careers, thought it would still give me enough time to do that too, especially for positions that you're not really doing anything the whole time, I've heard people I've known say that they either draw or play on their steam deck or something.
But anyway... for now I'm okay. I was having a total panic attack last night over that and really pissed off too.
Love you guys.
I'll try not to kill myself....
So fucking done / Literally going homeless
General | Posted 3 months agohttps://x.com/veldatssick/status/19.....91263809302589
^ Pictures for context.
Basically, I fucked up first because I quit my job because it was just too much, and it took some time to get a new job. Now I finally have one, and I was able to come to an agreement that I could do a payment plan with my land lord. I couldn't make the first payment on time because A) their site wouldn't let me do a partial payment and B) I wouldn't have had $400 because I had to take expense for getting my cat food and litter and a bit for me to still eat one meal a day and gas to just be able to drive to work.
They said that if anything changed then I should let them know and we'll work it out. I told them and it took a few days for them to respond and they're like "okay, we opened your account back up to make partial payments, and we'll give you a payment plan with a 3-day notice and you just make sure you're caught up by the 15th". Cool. I get the notice and... they tell me just to pay $1460 in full! That's not a payment plan, and that's fucking insane!! So now because of all this and them lying to me and being unreasonable, I'm about to get kicked out and be homeless!!
Dude what the fuck... I'm so fucking done.
This whole situation with the land lord (which has been a factor for at least the past month) has stressed me out, that I just haven't been able to bring myself to doing content if I wanted to to try to sort of "earn" the help if anyone was gracious enough. Plus I worked like 60+ hours last week doing a lot of overtime to try and get things on track and it feels like nothing I do is enough.
I just don't know what to do. None of my family can help me. Nobody I've ever known has the capacity for me to have temporary living arrangements while I get my life together, nor the resources to help me with this. I can't get assistance officially because it was technically my fault. I feel just so alone and useless.... I think I might actually kill myself just cuz I have no way to come back from this and I feel so useless and suck at life....
^ Pictures for context.
Basically, I fucked up first because I quit my job because it was just too much, and it took some time to get a new job. Now I finally have one, and I was able to come to an agreement that I could do a payment plan with my land lord. I couldn't make the first payment on time because A) their site wouldn't let me do a partial payment and B) I wouldn't have had $400 because I had to take expense for getting my cat food and litter and a bit for me to still eat one meal a day and gas to just be able to drive to work.
They said that if anything changed then I should let them know and we'll work it out. I told them and it took a few days for them to respond and they're like "okay, we opened your account back up to make partial payments, and we'll give you a payment plan with a 3-day notice and you just make sure you're caught up by the 15th". Cool. I get the notice and... they tell me just to pay $1460 in full! That's not a payment plan, and that's fucking insane!! So now because of all this and them lying to me and being unreasonable, I'm about to get kicked out and be homeless!!
Dude what the fuck... I'm so fucking done.
This whole situation with the land lord (which has been a factor for at least the past month) has stressed me out, that I just haven't been able to bring myself to doing content if I wanted to to try to sort of "earn" the help if anyone was gracious enough. Plus I worked like 60+ hours last week doing a lot of overtime to try and get things on track and it feels like nothing I do is enough.
I just don't know what to do. None of my family can help me. Nobody I've ever known has the capacity for me to have temporary living arrangements while I get my life together, nor the resources to help me with this. I can't get assistance officially because it was technically my fault. I feel just so alone and useless.... I think I might actually kill myself just cuz I have no way to come back from this and I feel so useless and suck at life....
Gallery sites?
General | Posted 3 months agoHey there, so I guess I've been gone a while, and the individuals I've asked this never had an answer for me.
When I left, it was my understanding that everyone was making an exodus from FA mostly because of the Pokémon rules and stuff, and I thought everyone was going to move to move to itaku. Is this still true, or did everyone decide it was too bad of a site? Or that the effort was futile?
I ask because in the event of me maybe posting art again, I want to know what my main site ought to be for hosting my gallery. I just wasn't sure about FA because well it's FA and there has been so much drama on it.
Thanks guys.
When I left, it was my understanding that everyone was making an exodus from FA mostly because of the Pokémon rules and stuff, and I thought everyone was going to move to move to itaku. Is this still true, or did everyone decide it was too bad of a site? Or that the effort was futile?
I ask because in the event of me maybe posting art again, I want to know what my main site ought to be for hosting my gallery. I just wasn't sure about FA because well it's FA and there has been so much drama on it.
Thanks guys.
Good riddance
General | Posted 2 years agoIt all sucked anyway
Everyone should just unfollow me at this point....
General | Posted 2 years agoNot that you should have followed in the first place because of my shitty art but anyway....
Honestly I just feel bad for stringing everyone along all this time because of my internal conflicts. But I have to admit for real that I just have to face the facts.
I'm not an artist anymore....
Paired with my ADD and the fact I'm just kind of afraid of doing art at this point, thinking I don't really know what I'm doing and feeling like I've forgotten how. And also the fact that my battle with myself has literally affected people in my life negatively and made most everyone kind of hate me...it just sucks to have to admit.
Because there is a part of me that strongly desires to be creative. To the point I keep getting so many things to make it so I can do art in every medium and even so I could have physical things to hand out or maybe even sell. But I'm just tired of fighting this war with myself. I just need to give up so I can actually live my life and survive, because I'm too overwhelmed by everything that I know it's never going to happen and the economy too terrible and my loans and bills too high that I never could.
So I'm sorry for misleading everyone and thinking I even had the capacity to do it... The show is over. And in my mind it ended in 2015 and has been a failing revival act ever since.
The show is over, go home.
There is no more Veldazik. He's dead, Jim.
I understand and even encourage everyone to unfollow, as who knows that there will ever be anything that ever gets made. At this point I'm just trying my best to stay alive working a full time job at like $20 an hour and constantly anxious I don't get fired. Just like everyone else I guess. But now that I know how much pain my actions have caused, I'm now fully committed to the grind, and equally still as tired and overwhelmed.
So thank you all for your support. And I hope you have a good life.
-Vel
Honestly I just feel bad for stringing everyone along all this time because of my internal conflicts. But I have to admit for real that I just have to face the facts.
I'm not an artist anymore....
Paired with my ADD and the fact I'm just kind of afraid of doing art at this point, thinking I don't really know what I'm doing and feeling like I've forgotten how. And also the fact that my battle with myself has literally affected people in my life negatively and made most everyone kind of hate me...it just sucks to have to admit.
Because there is a part of me that strongly desires to be creative. To the point I keep getting so many things to make it so I can do art in every medium and even so I could have physical things to hand out or maybe even sell. But I'm just tired of fighting this war with myself. I just need to give up so I can actually live my life and survive, because I'm too overwhelmed by everything that I know it's never going to happen and the economy too terrible and my loans and bills too high that I never could.
So I'm sorry for misleading everyone and thinking I even had the capacity to do it... The show is over. And in my mind it ended in 2015 and has been a failing revival act ever since.
The show is over, go home.
There is no more Veldazik. He's dead, Jim.
I understand and even encourage everyone to unfollow, as who knows that there will ever be anything that ever gets made. At this point I'm just trying my best to stay alive working a full time job at like $20 an hour and constantly anxious I don't get fired. Just like everyone else I guess. But now that I know how much pain my actions have caused, I'm now fully committed to the grind, and equally still as tired and overwhelmed.
So thank you all for your support. And I hope you have a good life.
-Vel
