also catching up on payments for adoptables while illness was kicking my ass. If i owe you money please yell at me so i can pay you!!

well its been a while. had several deaths in the family and dealt with covid myself. had alot of changes this past year. so sorry i have been gone.

So. I did a thing. I made a twitch channel. I stream planet zoo, monster hunter, and other fun things. I am on during the evenings. Till midnight on all days but sundays, and wednesdays. On those two night I will stream longer into the night as I have the next day off.


https://www.twitch.tv/polykimo

so yet again it's been a few years. So much has happened. I survived another abusive relationship, sadly my son was taken from me. Abuse is a bitch to prove in court. I was left for a home wrecker. I learned what real polyamory and what real love is. It was painful and hard. So unbearably hard. I miss my son every day , but there is little chance custody will change with the way the courts are
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I have been in a new healthy relationship for two years now. And together we made my second son. I was so damaged, afraid, and bitter after all my accumulated pain and abuse that I was very afraid. I wanted to run, I doubted I could be a good mother. Turns out I can. My mate tanek is amazing. I have never had support like this. It's refreshing to be with someone that loves my good and bad. That builds me up and encourages me to work on my issues, and to grow. It's amazing but so new. I have gotten to learn that the "poly " relationship I was in with my first son's father wasn't real poly. It was full of abuse, and manipulation, and lies. I learned real poly is about communicating, honesty, understanding, and expressing emotions in healthy ways. We are happily looking for new pack members.
On the note of mental health I have been seeing a shrink and it's been great for me the last two years. I have been diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety disorder, and adjustment disorder. Now that I have a diagnosis it has been much easier to treat and deal with my issues. Group therapy, individual sessions, and zoloft have helped me feel like me again. If I ever made you feel small, or upset during one of my PTSD panics I am so very sorry. I am sorry I brought your stress like that . I own my bullshit now. If you yourself have ptsd please get help. You and those around you will feel so much better. If you need someone to vent to, I am always here. Please reach out.
These days I am happily being a mom and job hunting. I also love to game. Monster hunter world is my Main game. I main as hammer , and bow on there. Hit me up if you want to hunt.

I will also say thank you to a certain family in Maine. You know who you guys are. I know I was unpleasant to be around and full of panic, fear, and spite when I was with you guys. But you guys helped me survive and I am forever thankful. I am so very thankful for every single thing you did, every kindness. If any of you ever need help please message.
Anyway I am back and will be more active with art and such. Hit me up and let's chat about the big things ♡

So i dont speak often, but things have massively changed in my life in the last few months. I met a great guy, and things have been going well. we have a rather relaxed poly relationship. However life likes to throw curve balls. I recently found out i am going to be a mother. because of this i have had to make the hard decision to move back to saint charles missouri. We were sadly not able to find a roomate up here, or an acceptable place to live for a decent price so south we are going. I would like to have lunch or some sort of get together with my maine friends before i go. I love you guys.