Well, it's been one year since I last posted here... but why is that? Well a lot has happened. I came home from EUROCOM, did a lot of training, deployed to PACOM, came home, and wound up mutually ending the marriage between Yuni and I. Since then, even before then really, I've been buried in work. Non stop training broken up with tall work orders and near endless paper work and reconfiguration of the entire commands assets and hardware.

But I'm doing good. I've handled the stress rather well, considering. I honestly do enjoy my job and line of work, and my advancements have been excellent.

I hope to get back into the swing of things with art and the community here. I'm in a good place to get my personal time back to where I want it.

I hope everyone had had a better and easier time then I have. How to get back in touch with you soon.

Well, it's that time of year again. Another successful year of not dying. What better way to celebrate than in the warm Southern waters of Japan. (Pics later, maybe). The down side of having such a cool place to celebrate my birthday is that I will be without  Yunicoon I'm still very unfamiliar with the surroundings, so I have no idea what I will do to celebrate it... other then a bottle of Captain Morgan Private Stock, don't see much else on my agenda tonight.

If you get a chance, be sure to drop by and wish  Yunicoon a happy birthday today. =D

Here's hoeing it will be a good one. >__>

I call upon the strength that is not showing,
to take me off the path I should not be going.

Like and arid field that's struck with drought,
seems my motivations has also done without.

It's doubt against facts,
a storm in the calm,
and a prism of grey.

Weak with strength,
confused with certain,
lost in where I stay.

I feel so uncertain, when it should be ever so clear.
Yet my confidence fades, when no one is near.

A few more days gone, of just feeling depleted.
Perhaps soon, I'll be somewhere I'm needed.

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Sorry, not always the type to be blunt with myself. But if you need a rough translation... I'm feeling oddly miserable. Sometimes value and purpose can be such fickle fleeting things despite what should be obvious to show likewise. I mean no offense to those how have shown support and cared before... sometimes things just get complicated and can't be avoided.

My very best to you all.

Hardship falls upon our command as the lose of one of our brothers in arms is being prepared to be flown home and laid to rest. The mortality of human life is always such a powerful, yet meek thing. How much it can endure and overcome can be so quickly dashed by tragedy. It happens by fate, by foe, by choice, and by chance. And in all times, when it comes down on those who do good and live in service to others, it can feel even more demoralizing and crushing.

One could argue I'm somewhat fortunate, being that we were not close, and shared formalities only briefly. It is however, regrettable that it's all we would have.

It's a back that I'll never have the honor of watching out for, and someone who won't be there to watch mine. It's knowing that crowds of family and friends will not greet all of my command when we return home, we will forever be lacking one more shipmate. One less pair of boots on the ground, one less set of hands on deck, and one spot within our ranks... that will be uncomfortably stood in by another.

It is within these times that we stand together, and with a heavy heart, acknowledge a loss to our service, our country, more notably... the loved ones left behind.



I hope this brings extra light to my previous journal of when we question life. Life is such an amazing and wonderful thing. It's the most important thing that you can NOT afford to lose, let alone just give up on. A life lost does not bring release. It does not leave you with freedom. It brings horrible horrible pain. It leaves misery and regret. A loss like that, a loss of life, brings a domino affect in all directions of pain and hardship. I ask here humbly and honestly, with great earnest... to please PLEASE value your life and to cherish those who are around you. If ever there was anything worth fighting for, it is life itself and the pursuit of its betterment. I beseech you, if ever in doubt to seek help. There are toll free numbers to dial, groups for support, clinics to help, and comforting hands to assist you that can be found in friends, family, and various community services.

In the past 30 days I've encountered at least three individuals with either attempted or contemplated suicides. Two I've talked with personally about, both of which are in more stable situations no, or at least I hope. But the third... the third is one that I was oblivious to and have since been separated from due to reasons shall remain unspoken so as to keep anonymity (but to be clear, it's not someone on here). Now sadly, I know I've encountered others with problems that feel so big they don't think they can handle them. There are those without the tell tail signs of sitting on the edge. Those among us who where a pretty mask everyday to hide their pain, and thus go without the much needed help and support they need. With that in mind, take some extra kind and effort to show kindness to strangers. Engage those who are just an acquaintance with the kind of pleasant nature that would make them think there are reasons to be glad to be alive. It doesn't take much to have a powerful affect. It can be very easy to mean a lot with very little effort.

I'm sorry that I'm not able to share more positive stories or random thoughts, but I thought this was more worthy of attention.

My very best to you all.
Blaits

Just fallow the lings and follow the rules: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3320536/

Could Blaits be a Bouncer? <__<

There is nothing more terrible or wonderful than life itself. Through it, we can experience all of the greatest joys and pleasures known to man... and just as easily suffer it's cruelest fate. I like to believe for most of us, despite our short comings and trials in life, we have it pretty good. There are too many good things to be had in life to let the bad stand in our way. Even less of a reason to just up and end it all.

That is not to say that I can't relate with being pitted against a horrible past, loneliness, heart break, uncontrollable feelings, feelings of abandonment and the nagging feeling that everything you've done was for nothing and that you're just spinning your tires. But still, I don't think I could bring myself to ending my own life. There is too much worth fighting for.

Yet still, there are those around me that I have, and still do, look up to that have found themselves at that edge of that choice. Beautiful, wonderful, gifted people, confiding into that they have considered it or have even gone as far as deciding how they would do it. Despite my composure or well constructed words... I don't think anyone involved really could grasp the gravity of just how much that reality hurt me, or just how much of a mournful impact it would have cast upon me.

Thankfully, through a comforting conversation or other means outside of my control, no such act took place. But I mean, there has been more than just one person I've talked with about this... It perplexes me that I've come across this as much as I have, and in such a short period of time on top of that. I guess that really I'm just glad I was able to help in some way and give some support.

I won't say who or how many, or even if they're in the fandom or not. Privacy like that should be respected.

I dunno... if I even should be talking about this, but the thought of it all has been weighing on my heart and mind. Has anyone else been experiencing anything like this? What could be causing it all? Besides just offering a a shoulder and a helping hand, is there anything we can do?

Well, I'm on my first deployment. Currently I'm in Spain. Can't really say just where or for how long or where/if any other movements. I can say that besides the cold mornings, I'm doing pretty good. The spaces here that I work in are better than the ones back at home. I'll be stepping out later while I"m here to actually get out and see the sights and such.

Hope everyone else has been doing good. See you all around I guess.

Well, that about says it all. I hope everyone here and all of your loved ones have a very Merry Christmas and can enjoy the rest of the holiday Season safely.

Me... I'm still kinda sick, so I'm roughing it out with  Yunicoon Hard to complain when I'm with her. So, My very best to you all. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

I woke up this morning and I was 27.... That's the first time that's ever happened to me. How weird. @__@

Here I sit in this empty air port at 2:00am, waiting for my early flight to take me home. I finally graduated out of my A-school, am officially rated (sorry, not giving out my rating just yet), and can take some time off to be with my wife again. God is been too long...

Funny thing is that my training isn't even done yet. I still have even further training to do my job in Cali and another 3-4 weeks of combat training in Mississippi.

... I'm going to miss my fellow graduating shipmates that are going to different commands. We all had too much fun together.

... will be spent on base for duty. Oh well, could always be worse. Hope everyone out there has a fun and safe 4th of July to all my fellow American furs. Also, to all other fellow furs serving near and abroad, thanks for doing your part, and stay safe won't ya.

Later all.

Just wanted to say Ooh YAH! to US Navy SEALs doing their part to take out Bin Laden.

Every night I have homework. Almost every night I have some type of inspection to get ready for... and yet... I want to watch MLP. WTF is wrong with me? I still don't even know why I like the show. I mean, I like a lot of animated shows... but MLP?

Stupid entertain show with your addictingly enjoyable characters and episodes that draw attention away from where it should be. DAMN IT! >__<

Yeah... I'd talk about this problem outside of FA if I wasn't afraid of being laughed at by my peers. <__<

Okay. So I'm looking for someone to commission for a bad ass picture of Blaits. I'm looking for more of a hard edge kind of style. Someone with really good detail or a sleek style. Any suggestions?

Thank God! No more RDCs yelling at my division to quiet down... and no more division to be in that can't keep quiet! Uh, what an experience Boot Camp was. I'm not only glad that I did it, but also glad that I'm done with it. Kind of a cool thing was that I wasn't in the Gen Pop (General Population) of the recruits. I was lucky (or unlucky) enough to make it into a Staff Division. As a staff division we were the ones who help put on the graduation ceremonies. Not only that, we took CNO gold (That just means we preformed better than all the other 14 divisions we were paired up against in our tests, marches, and inspections. Sure we don't get any bonuses or anything else like that we can show off with outside of boot camp... but it was cool at the time.

Anyway, I'm in A-School right now. I'm waiting on getting set up for all my classes and being fully processed into the camp. I'm not saying much about where I am or what I'm doing/learning, but I got a cool job I'm in a nice warm place.

Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas, a Happy New Year, and that all the rest of the time that I missed was good to.

Later Yall!

SA Blaits

2010 12 06. Two more days until I ship out. I just wanted to take this time to give my final farewells and address properly a few people with a thank you and give them my best.

You have with out a doubt been my best friend here from FA. We've joked and shared a lot in the years I've known you and was fortunate enough to befriend you. I so greatly wish for nothing but the best for you, as you really are a person who truly deserves no less. You skills and talent are surpassed only by your heart.

You’ve been a great friend to Yuni and I here while in Phoenix. I regret not having more time to spend with you and the boys. You’ve been insightfully, helpful, gracious, and a great person to talk to and trust. I doubt we can ever thank you enough or thank you properly. Please don’t ever stop what you do and all you do for your friends, your loved ones, and our community. Also, please send my love to Narse and all the BD guys. They were an awesome group to hang out with.

& Sorry to bump you two both together, but I do so for thanking you for both of the same reasons. You both have been great for your encouragement, advice, and great friendship. I feel terrible not being able to capitalize on it more and gotten to know you both better or spend more time with either of you. You're both shining examples of health and fitness, and I hope you can continue to encourage and assist more people in the future. Thanks for everything.

: necrodrone13Icon: I’m glad to have gotten to know you as much as I did and chatted with you like we have. It sucks only chatting with you off and on every few months… but that is bound to happen as busy as both our lives are. I hope only the best for you in all your endeavors.

You two have been awesome every time we got together. It's people like you two that help make a gather (and even more so a party) as fun as possible. Thanks for being a Blast every time. Oh yeah... Regi... you still owe Yuni and I a pic/conbadge/something/anything from AC 2007. =P

You were one of the other Furs we could see outside of a convention, and you're kinda like a big sister to Yuni, so that's even cooler. Sorry that getting to hang out with each other was always such a hassle it seems. Work, money, and the combination of time and space are to blame, but when it did work out, it was always great.

Other thank yous:
Why am I thanking you? Well, because I just think you're an amazing person. Outside of your talent (both illustration and your spell casting voice) you are a great contributor to our community. Also, your vocal talents, in my own opinion, have set both new goals and new standards for singers here on FA. Don't ever change a thing about you. You are one of those people that can help remind us that that humanity is not lost, and there are people still worth saving. Thank you.
&
All of you wonderful musicians I have fallowed and listen to for what seems like the longest time. I’ve play and replayed so many of all of your songs so many times. I hope you know just how much your wonderful creations bring to our community. I wish there was a better way to help support and give you praise for your amazing works… but I’m broke and can only write so much before people lose interest… So thank you again. I hope to come back and see and hear your skills only improving.

Now… I know I’ve left out a lot of names and a lot of special people and I’m sorry for that. I feel it a great dishonor and an even greater lack of character to properly thank all of my friends I’ve made here, my followers, and people who have come to know me and vice versa. Weather it was partying together, discussing health and fitness, art, or just regular conversations… I truly thank you and appreciate it all.

My only request is to you all is to help look after my while I am away. Poke her, surprise her with a hello, keep her company, and help keep her sprits high as I am off and away.

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, and Bless you all. I love you and miss you all already.

Sign:
Future Sailor Blaits

Welp... counting down my final week here. The closer the time comes, the more I start to miss everything... and really by everything I mean  Yunicoon who is my everything. But hey, you guys are nice too! I'll miss taking part of this community on a regular basis.

I'll probably have only one more journal up later to say my final good buys. ='(

Thought I'd take the time in advance to bid everyone here a loving farewell in advance. No, I have not grown weary of this site, the community, or anything in particular like that. I'm not giving you all up or just moving on. I am however, enlisting into the United States Navy. They're are many reasons as to why I chose to join the armed forces, and just as many reasons why I chose Navy over other equally respectful branches. I don't feel it necessary to go into much detail as to just what I'll be doing, where or when I'll be going, or things like that.

I will say that I am very happy and very proud to serve my country, and look forward to seeing just where it will take me. Depending on where I go, my job within the Navy, and my schedule I may be able to come back with updates or new uploads or the like... but no promises.

A few friends and some other contacts with opinions I value and trust have known for a while, and may know a little more (for those of you who may know more, please refrain from sharing it as per my request) but I figure this amount of info and timing is best for everyone else.

So... as I have learned to say:
I am a United States Sailor.
I will support and defend the Constitution of the United States of America and I will obey the orders of those appointed over me.
I represent the fighting spirit of the Navy and those who have gone before me to defend freedom and democracy around the world.
I proudly serve my country's Navy combat team with Honor, Courage and Commitment.
I am committed to excellence and the fair treatment of all.

Thank you. I will surly miss you all.

Okay, so Val and I promised to share some pics of the wedding... Well, here's a good section of pics taken just after the ceremony all the way through the reception there after. Also, some kind words left by our photographer.

Things to look forward to in the gallery:
-Me dancing like an idiot
-Yuni wielding a big ass knife with murderous intent
-An old Italian guy with an accordion
-Me looking like a total fag
-My very beautiful bride
-And of course... Me getting nailed in the face with a cup cake

Linkage --> http://blog.exposurebyjtalley.com/w.....scotts-wedding

... I'm married now. =D

Okay, for all of you not here in Vegas with Yuni and I... you are soooo missing out. The weather is great, the rental house is amazing, lord knows I love the company I keep, and the wedding is tomorrow! I hope everyone has a good Friday, and an even better weekend. Yuni and I will probably upload a pic or two if we have the time. Otherwise we love and miss you all!

Forgot who I saw had this first. I dunno thought it would be a good way to kill some time. Oh yeah, I leave for Vegas tomorrow. Wedding is only 3 days away. Good lord.

1. What do you think my character would have a job/career in?
2. What is unique about my character that you enjoy?
3. What are his/her flaws?
4. What are some changes you would like to see?
5. What would you like to see my character doing in future pictures?
6. How old does my character look?
7. On a scale of 1-10, how attractive is my character?
8. On a scale to 1-10, how sexually attractive is my character?
9. On a scale to 1-10, how well does my character fit me?
10. If you could, how would you personally change him to fit me better?

Good god! For those of you not in the know... I'm getting married in only 20 days. ONLY 20 DAYS!!! That's not enough time for me to back out now. I'm so excited I can't wait! Just about everything is ready, paid for, or at least registered or secured. Sadly... it will be a small wedding as so much of my family and I don't believe any of my friends (outside the fandom) can make it. But that's not the point of it. The whole point of this event is to secure my relationship with my  Yunicoon when we exchange our vows. That's all I really care about. Not who's there, where we have it, or anything else... I'm just ready to spend the rest of my days with her.

So yeah. September 18th, but sure to wish us both good luck and not to get too messy with the wedding cake. ^__^