My dear little bro is in desperate need of help and has started a GoFundMe page. He is gonna become homeless and needs help to tie him over.

Here is his journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9238543/

GoFundMe is here: https://www.gofundme.com/f/fluffy-foxxo

A while ago I made a Discord server dedicated to sharing gaming news. I also have sections for art sharing, voice chats and video sharing. It is open invite, so, if you wanna join my server feel free to and invite others you might feel are interested.

https://discord.gg/xajzfxZ

I've returned home and keeping myself safe. Hope everyone is doing okay.

Tomorrow I am going in for my foot surgery and I'll be in hospital over night sadly.

So.... where have I been...? Well... The second week of June I said I was going for councilling which I did do for a long time but I also had a lot of battles at work and at home too... But, thankfully I have managed to win those battles... even the ones where I attempted to kill myself... multiple times... I do have the physical scars of those battles sadly which'll always remind me of those times... But... Yes... I have managed to win these battles like I said and my concilling has ended (mostly due to money reasons but I also feel ready not to need it for now).

As for the future... Well... I have a date for my foot surgery now... August 13th is when I go into hospital to go under the knife and I'll be out of action for 3 weeks minimum. So, that's something to look forward to I guess. I already have made plans on what I am gonna do for those times and that's to work on my future. Study for my driving theory and look into future jobs.

Speaking of the future, does anyone have a flowchart program they can recommend? Preferrably one that allows pictures as I am wanting to make a diagram I'm calling the Spirit Tree.

I've made some major changes to Blaze's story and I wanna make a Spirit Tree diagram to introduce these changes.

TLDR: Been for councilling, surgery on August 13th, need a flowchart program (pictures preferred) and changes to Blaze's story have been made.

Edit: I've made the flowchat

Please help out my little bro, he is desperate. Even if you can only boost, that'll be a big help http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9188835/

Gonna book myself some councilling... Been very suicidal and it's getting harder and harder to escape... My job is hell because my boss is a lazy and nasty piece of work and is making it difficult for me to leave... I need help and I'm gonna talk to someone tomorrow

Shinies??? Well, I'm no artist so I guess I'll activate them if you guys wanna help with future commissions of characters you guys wanna see art of.

Looks like I've gone to the magical number of 25! Gonna spend the time with family as we all enjoy a big family meal out. <3

April is here and my birthday will soon be here too. Best bit is, my birthday is on April 21st which is also, that's right, EASTER SUNDAY!!! \^o^/

Chocolate eggs make the bestest presents

Some of you may know that I am really into Yu-Gi-Oh! and Pokemon and I really love collecting their respective cards from their TCGs. Well, I have also recently gotten into the idea of custom cards as well, especially in the Yu-Gi-Oh! TCG. Now, I'm no competitive player, mostly a collector so I play just for fun.

As you can see here: http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....h-Custom-Cards I have already got some custom Yu-Gi-Oh! cards made and I have more in the works. Some may be broken due to their effects and some may just be lame but I don't mind that at all.

Now, my question is this... Is there a service online somewhere where I can send these custom card ideas and have them made as custom Yu-Gi-Oh! cards to add to my collection and play casually?

Okay, so, I have slept on it and I have made my decision...

I think it'll be good if I put the stories on my secondary account, as it'll keep that account active plus it'll also keep the stories on FA so everyone can reach them easily.

Now, this doesn't mean you'll need to watch my secondary account as I'll be posting links to the stories in my submissions in the description.

This is a follow-up journal from my last one, so, if you haven't read that then here is the link to catch you up to speed. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9045777/

So, from what I have decided, I think I have come up with a better idea. So, my secondary account, is pretty much a dead account right now. So, what I am thinking is using that account to post stories and backstories as I post the pictures here on my main account.

How do you all feel about that?

The stories stay on FA and saves me making an entirely new account on a completely new (to me that is) website where some people may be unable to view some stories due to ratings.

Okay, so, I have a few questions involving my account and how I submit pics I get. I'm gonna first of all throw my questions out there first then I'll explain why I'm asking and what I'm thinking.

1. When I post art mostly to do with new characters, do you read the mini stories/backstories I post in the description?

2. I've heard about the site SoFurry but not looked too much into it, is it a site mostly for stories?

3. Would you prefer me to post pics with a small description and a link to SoFurry that holds a bigger and more detailed description of the story/backstory?

So, yeah, I'm thinking of starting up a SoFurry account and just posting about Blaze's story and backstories of my characters there but providing links of the submissions in future relevant submissions I do here.

I'd love to hear everyone's input on this and suggestions if anyone has any for me.

Looking back at a past journal (especially since the dark thoughts have crept back into my mind again and I am feeling depressed again) and decided to look up the definition of the phobia to passing time...

Here's the journal in question: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8917814/

And he is the definition I found...

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"What does Chronophobia mean?

Chronophobia is defined as the persistent and often irrational fear of the future or the fear of passing time. Since time can be considered as a “specific object”, Chronophobia falls under the category of specific phobias. The word Chronophobia is derived from Greek 'chronos' meaning time and phobos meaning fear."

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Does this sound relevant to my fear???

Does some fantastic art and is a full time artist but is in need of some support. Go check them out as they have adopts up and are open for commissions.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9025628/

A fantastic artist is hosting an art raffle here, come and check it out! <3

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9018932/

My little bro, Fray is holding a raffle where you can be very close to his cute Pix self <3

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30062515/

Been a while since I boosted a raffle

My mistress is hosting a raffle where you get to be in a pic with two pretty ladies. You just need to vote between two and post a ref, check it out.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9007521/

With 2018 all wrapped up I have given it a ton of thought and it was hell....

With 2019 here I plan on starting anew and what I mean by that is by getting a new job. My current job is awesome but our new boss that started working with us (or against us as it has been) back at the beginning of 2018 has caused nothing but trouble.

So, I have made plans to get a new temporary job as I'll use that job just to keep me afloat, money wise, as I plan to become an accountant. I'm very good with numbers and money plus I am fantastic with working on a computer.

But, with all that said, WELCOME TO 2019!!!

I hope you all have a fantastic year and that things look bright ahead of you.

Merry Christmas everyone!!! I hope you all have a wonderful day and get lotsa Christmas goodies. **Gives everyone a Christmas cookie while dressed up like SantaVee**

Also, it is my 6th year anniversary since joining FA on this very day. I've made so many fantastic friends and I have commissioned lots of pics which have come out brilliantly which I'm eternally grateful. I know I have a few projects in the works and I assure you I will get back to them soon.

Thank you all so much for the fantastic years and here's to more to come.

I don't suppose anyone is taking still icon requests are they???

Just wanting a pic of BlazeVee looking grumpy is all.

I don't know what this is... I don't know whether this is a call for help or just a fucking vent....

I just.... I just hate where I am in life.... I'm fucking terrible... I'm a terrible person... I let too many people walk all over me and I am terrible at sorting myself out... Heck.... I'm my own worse enemy... I'm constantly going on and on about saving money but all I do is spend spend spend! I can't help myself!

I'm always leaving work miserable... I'll either have a good day and something comes up to spoil it and I let it ruin my day or I get a shit day at work and I just feel fucking shit...

I'm not independ and I'm always relying on my parents because I'm fucking shit at this game called life... I've got physical problems with my left foot and now my right knee is very damaged....

I'm constantly always trying to make others happy and always putting my happiness on the back burner because I always believe others come first... Is that a good way of thinking??? I seriously am asking that...

I am a terrible friend as I make so many promises that I cannot keep and I make plans that I cannot keep... I need to learn to shut up and not make plans/promises as I always fall out of the mood or something else comes up....

I just.... I wonder... Is it worth carrying on in life.... Have I actually got a life worth living... Those answers are escaping me a lot...

Currently... right now... my heart is racing... my left foot is throbbing... my right knee is aching... eyes hanging... and all I wanna do is roll over and cry...

I know I need to stay strong and be there for others... I can't let my own emotions keep me from helping others... I need to keep bottling in... I need to keep it away... hidden far away...

Looking for an artist to do some cute icons for me to use on Discord involving my feral BlazeVee form.

I'm hoping to get some opinions. I'm gonna be getting a ref sheet of BlazeVee and I am undecided on what colour his paw pads will be.

Here's a strawpoll I've made in hopes this helps: https://strawpoll.com/s2hh8y58