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Posted 3 years agoTL; DR
I will start working on the backlog on december and will take me roughly 2-3 months to finish all the pieces I owe, here's the trello for the commissioners I owe pieces to, if there's anyone else missing in here, let me know and I'll add you right away, if you wanna change your original idea that's also possible, just let me know.
https://trello.com/b/6VMseAkn/blazi.....-ifrit-backlog
It's time for me to update here and briefly talk about what's been going on over the past few months given I updated in here nearly a year ago but things didn't go according to plan, I was raising money at a decent pace, but things at my place were pretty hard to manage due to the mental health of my friend, so I started thinking about moving out, and that just blew in my face as my friend found out before I was able to tell her due to her cousin seeing a post of me on facebook looking for places, and well, my friend decided to leave however since she hadn't been working for a few months, she didn't pay her part of the bills/rent.
I moved on january 27th to a new place, however since there were still electricity bills left on the previous place that I coudln't afford at that time, I had to keep on renting that place until I cleared the debt, which took me till the end of april, so pretty much all money I got from january till april was split between paying bills and rent for two places, but was worth it since being able to live on my own allowed me to work more freely and have a better schedule.
Since my mind was pretty much fully occupied with paying bills for those months I didn't really think much about the fact that my relationship with my former best friend completely fell apart, she'd been the only person I've been really able to call family and have known her since 2004, she stopped talking to me pretty much beyond the absolute necessity near the beginning of 2021 , so living with her was pretty bad for me too, we hurt each other cuz both of us were in a pretty bad spot and we couldn't really met our needs, as I was trying to move forward and she was holding on to the past.
All of that sink in around may this year, where all of the sudden I could barely sleep, what started with me waking up every 3 hours or so , but still sleeping about 7 hrs total, ended up with just 2 hrs of sleep a night, sometimes going without sleep for 2-3 days, that went on for 5 weeks, needless to say I barely was able to work for that time, I started racking up debts in electricity bills, I took a trip at the end of july to visit the last member of my direct family, my aunt, whom I haven't seen since I moved here 14 years ago in the hopes of that helping me a bit to improve my mental state since I was left with no friends whatsoever in this city.
While reconnecting with her was really great, it had a few downsides as I relived a bunch of memories of my past that really had such a huge effect in me and is really the main reason I moved out from my hometown in the first place, that talk I ahd with her and my cousin really shook me to my core, and been thinking a lot about that ever since, my huge issue with communication has a lot to do with that, and I'll probably talk more about it later on.
The biggest thing about the trip however, was the fact that I lost my phone and got my debit card cloned, without the phone I wasn't aware of what had happened with my debit card, cuz after I got back, I had no idea my money had been stolen until I went to an ATM to withdraw money only to find my account was empty, not only that I could not get paid or the money would get stolen once again, so that was an issue it took me a while to deal with, thankfully a commissioner reached out to me so I could get a job and get a new phone+food, and get everything with my card sorted out, and I'm finally here.
After all that has happened in the past few months, and specially the trip back home, it made me realize a lot of stuff I need to deal with , specially to deal with my anxiety when it comes to dealing with people, also since I've been working a lot for the past months, I've picked my speed back up, which will allow me to finally clear the backlog once and for all.
I'll start working with the backlog on december, and I'm pretty much gonna finish all of it in roughly 3 months, why until december? cuz I wanna first clear my debts I got from the move in january (bed, phone, some appliances) before the debt get so large is impossible for me to pay, since I haven't been able to pay for a few months now, I wanna tackledthat first rather than getting a bunch of commissions to keep an ongoing debt, that way I'll be able to fully focus on each task and make it in a better way, I've already finished a couple pieces in there and I'm confident I'm in the best position to finish it , specially in terms of speed+quality.
I will start working on the backlog on december and will take me roughly 2-3 months to finish all the pieces I owe, here's the trello for the commissioners I owe pieces to, if there's anyone else missing in here, let me know and I'll add you right away, if you wanna change your original idea that's also possible, just let me know.
https://trello.com/b/6VMseAkn/blazi.....-ifrit-backlog
It's time for me to update here and briefly talk about what's been going on over the past few months given I updated in here nearly a year ago but things didn't go according to plan, I was raising money at a decent pace, but things at my place were pretty hard to manage due to the mental health of my friend, so I started thinking about moving out, and that just blew in my face as my friend found out before I was able to tell her due to her cousin seeing a post of me on facebook looking for places, and well, my friend decided to leave however since she hadn't been working for a few months, she didn't pay her part of the bills/rent.
I moved on january 27th to a new place, however since there were still electricity bills left on the previous place that I coudln't afford at that time, I had to keep on renting that place until I cleared the debt, which took me till the end of april, so pretty much all money I got from january till april was split between paying bills and rent for two places, but was worth it since being able to live on my own allowed me to work more freely and have a better schedule.
Since my mind was pretty much fully occupied with paying bills for those months I didn't really think much about the fact that my relationship with my former best friend completely fell apart, she'd been the only person I've been really able to call family and have known her since 2004, she stopped talking to me pretty much beyond the absolute necessity near the beginning of 2021 , so living with her was pretty bad for me too, we hurt each other cuz both of us were in a pretty bad spot and we couldn't really met our needs, as I was trying to move forward and she was holding on to the past.
All of that sink in around may this year, where all of the sudden I could barely sleep, what started with me waking up every 3 hours or so , but still sleeping about 7 hrs total, ended up with just 2 hrs of sleep a night, sometimes going without sleep for 2-3 days, that went on for 5 weeks, needless to say I barely was able to work for that time, I started racking up debts in electricity bills, I took a trip at the end of july to visit the last member of my direct family, my aunt, whom I haven't seen since I moved here 14 years ago in the hopes of that helping me a bit to improve my mental state since I was left with no friends whatsoever in this city.
While reconnecting with her was really great, it had a few downsides as I relived a bunch of memories of my past that really had such a huge effect in me and is really the main reason I moved out from my hometown in the first place, that talk I ahd with her and my cousin really shook me to my core, and been thinking a lot about that ever since, my huge issue with communication has a lot to do with that, and I'll probably talk more about it later on.
The biggest thing about the trip however, was the fact that I lost my phone and got my debit card cloned, without the phone I wasn't aware of what had happened with my debit card, cuz after I got back, I had no idea my money had been stolen until I went to an ATM to withdraw money only to find my account was empty, not only that I could not get paid or the money would get stolen once again, so that was an issue it took me a while to deal with, thankfully a commissioner reached out to me so I could get a job and get a new phone+food, and get everything with my card sorted out, and I'm finally here.
After all that has happened in the past few months, and specially the trip back home, it made me realize a lot of stuff I need to deal with , specially to deal with my anxiety when it comes to dealing with people, also since I've been working a lot for the past months, I've picked my speed back up, which will allow me to finally clear the backlog once and for all.
I'll start working with the backlog on december, and I'm pretty much gonna finish all of it in roughly 3 months, why until december? cuz I wanna first clear my debts I got from the move in january (bed, phone, some appliances) before the debt get so large is impossible for me to pay, since I haven't been able to pay for a few months now, I wanna tackledthat first rather than getting a bunch of commissions to keep an ongoing debt, that way I'll be able to fully focus on each task and make it in a better way, I've already finished a couple pieces in there and I'm confident I'm in the best position to finish it , specially in terms of speed+quality.
Game Plan
Posted 4 years agoAfter my previous journal I've been thinking a lot about what would be the best way for me to deal with the whole situation so I can actually move forward at last, by far the hardest thing has been talking to people, any kind of people, I get overwhelmed very quickly, but I'm trying my best, on that same level, is trying to revive my accounts, since I haven't posted regularly since 2016, besides those short bursts of posts on 2020, my art is all over the place since I have been getting a lot of commissions on forums or discord channels, so there's not much consistency which makes it hard to get an appealing gallery if you were used to only seeing muscular men, but oh well, I guess in the end is a good things since I actually like variety.
Now the important thing, since I haven't forgotten about it at all, quite the opposite, I've been thinking about how I'm gonna tackle the backlog. Over the past month I've been analyzing stuff to figure out what I need to not just keep on a perpetual state of barely getting by, but actually slowly climb back out of this hole, so I need to make roughly 2k USD each month, which is not that hard, but in order to achieve that consistently, I need to stick to just 'simple' pieces, drop backgrounds unless is extremely simple, and stay away from anything beyond silver tier for a while, that'll allow me to work fast and in doing so also regain my speed and be able to do multiple pieces a day, which I used to do back in 2016 .
I will divide my month in , for now, roughly 2/3 of it, to gather money, and the rest to work on the backlog, at least until I get away from the danger zone I've been in for years now, to get to a point where I can spend more time on those, since they're all basically what now I define as Gold Tier (which is a fancy way of saying just full color/soft shading with some linework). I've set up a trello account to show what I owe, and progress on the pieces. The level of completion is all over the place, since different circumstances occurred when I was working to cause that, some pieces are easier than others, but in the end I will complete each and everyone, but it's gonna take a while, that's why spent the last month trying to figure out the logistics of it, cuz in the end I need to prevent the same thing from happening again.
The first month has been slow, mainly cuz yeah, trying to revive accounts has not been an easy task, I've looked closely at the numbers, level of engagement and it's clear to me what you guys mostly like from me, and most of the pieces that are popular, are the gold tier ones, and those are quite old now, so the process is gonna be slow, I'm not sure, I might also need to try and reserve some time for personal pieces to help grow my galleries again, in the end I just wanna bring quality content to you.
Here's the link to the Trello Site https://trello.com/b/6VMseAkn/blazi.....it-commissions , I know I missed some commissions, so if you find yours ain't there, please drop me a DM on discord since it's the quickest way to get a hold of me.
Now the important thing, since I haven't forgotten about it at all, quite the opposite, I've been thinking about how I'm gonna tackle the backlog. Over the past month I've been analyzing stuff to figure out what I need to not just keep on a perpetual state of barely getting by, but actually slowly climb back out of this hole, so I need to make roughly 2k USD each month, which is not that hard, but in order to achieve that consistently, I need to stick to just 'simple' pieces, drop backgrounds unless is extremely simple, and stay away from anything beyond silver tier for a while, that'll allow me to work fast and in doing so also regain my speed and be able to do multiple pieces a day, which I used to do back in 2016 .
I will divide my month in , for now, roughly 2/3 of it, to gather money, and the rest to work on the backlog, at least until I get away from the danger zone I've been in for years now, to get to a point where I can spend more time on those, since they're all basically what now I define as Gold Tier (which is a fancy way of saying just full color/soft shading with some linework). I've set up a trello account to show what I owe, and progress on the pieces. The level of completion is all over the place, since different circumstances occurred when I was working to cause that, some pieces are easier than others, but in the end I will complete each and everyone, but it's gonna take a while, that's why spent the last month trying to figure out the logistics of it, cuz in the end I need to prevent the same thing from happening again.
The first month has been slow, mainly cuz yeah, trying to revive accounts has not been an easy task, I've looked closely at the numbers, level of engagement and it's clear to me what you guys mostly like from me, and most of the pieces that are popular, are the gold tier ones, and those are quite old now, so the process is gonna be slow, I'm not sure, I might also need to try and reserve some time for personal pieces to help grow my galleries again, in the end I just wanna bring quality content to you.
Here's the link to the Trello Site https://trello.com/b/6VMseAkn/blazi.....it-commissions , I know I missed some commissions, so if you find yours ain't there, please drop me a DM on discord since it's the quickest way to get a hold of me.
So this is what happened.
Posted 4 years agoTL;DR: I've been underpricing due to an accident I had back in 2013, putting myself in a never ending cycle where I couldn't move forward, also I suck at communicating due to personal issues, I've been attending to therapy and coaching to work on resolving those issues, and here I am, trying to fix everything, will take time, but I will make it up to everyone.
Back in 2013 I was working fulltime as a hentai artist in hentai foundry and doing well enough where I didn't have to worry about getting new jobs,as I had a steady influx of clients, and had prices I felt comfortable with, however that just lasted a few months, since one day, my cats were fighting, and I panicked since they were really mad at each other that time, and I tried to separate them, however one of them bit me on my drawing hand, so bad that I felt the big crunch and he didn't let go for a brief period, that resulted in me having a nerve slighly damage, enough for me to lose all sensation on the thumb, as well as being unable to move it freely or with enough control for around 6 months, working was very painful and it got to a point where putting more pressure around the area to hold the pen became unbearable, till I stopped working completely, which of course got me in a pritty bad situation where I accumulated debt, specifically rent and electricity.
-Here's my hentai foundry page, as well as my old price list from 2013-
http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-3W3kczCo6.....et+smal00l.jpg
https://www.hentai-foundry.com/user.....gIfrit/profile
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I was really scared, as I didn't know if I was gonna be able to work again, being able to rest, however, allowed me to be able to pick up the pen again and start sketching again, but was still hard to control it, as not having feeling on my thumb, made it hard to control the pen with precission, I begun losing all my confidence as an artist, not to mention I didn't know what to do, as I was getting a bunch of commission requests that I had to turn down since I Wasn't able to do what got me there, and I Reached a point where I couldn't afford food, so I turned to a friend for advice, and told me to try doing sketches to the best of my ability and try furaffinity as there was a lot of work in the furry community, so I tried, however since all I had was hentai work, of course I didn't get noticed, even after I uploaded a couple furry sketches (you can check the beginnings of my gallery for that). I managed to get a commission on the furaffinity forums, and you can see the dramatic drop in quality:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/12361631/ (from a 700USD piece)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/12347005/ (to a 50 USD 2 character piece, yeh, 25 per character, plus an awful drop in quality)
It wasn't until months later ,when I got another commission on the forums, which after I posted it, it made me gain a large following overnight, and got a bunch of commissions requests, and from that point onwards, I set my price point at 50 USD, which remain unchanged for years to come.
With the huge stream of commissions, I managed to be able to purchase a new computer, since the one I had at the moment was giving me a lot of BSOD, until the HDD finally died near the end of 2014, which is when the backlog started,since I was supposed to get the new computer just days after the purchase, but it got delayed until january due to the case being damaged and waiting for a new one+testing from the assembly team. That delay had big repercussions as it disrupted the flow of commissions as I was doing around 2 pics per day, and having to spend all the money I got from the commissions in the new computer, got me again in a position where I could not afford rent or food, so again I had to take more commissions, and so on.
Then a bit later that year (2015) I hurt my back while working out, and after a few minutes I was not able to stand properly, I called my friend, and by the time she arrived I wasn't able to stand anymore, since I didn't had money at all, I couldn't afford medical care, so I stayed on the ground for around 3-4 days, then I Was taken to a doctor to get a corticosteroid shot, and after a couple days I was able to start walking again, did some rehab exercises, but I've had chronic pain since.
A couple months later, I started developing allergies, first while being in contact with the dogs of my then girlfriend, which were pretty mild, to then having allergic reactions to all sort of things, from insects, to toilet paper, to styrofoam, each time worse than the last, resulting in anaphylaxis. For a little over a year, I had constant allergic reactions to so many things, that I got scared of even going out of my apartment, being almost on a weekly basis on the red cross hospital getting corticosteroid shots to deal with the anaphylaxis, which ended up causing me to gain about 40 pounds over the months, which I was unable to loose, which in turn caused more issues like headaches, lasting up to a week.
All that had a pretty negative impact on my capacity to work properly, and I Started to slow down a lot, even tho my hand was completely recovered at that point, and was close to being at my previous level, I never felt confident enough in raising my prices, since due to all that had been going on over the span of nearly 2 years, I was in severe debt, I did a few tests to increase prices when getting commissions over the forums, but anything past 200 was getting me rejected constantly, so my confidence kept going down, and I was never really sure if I could make it out of that hole of constant debt and having to keep getting more commissions just to barely survive (while having months of overdue rent).
On 2016 my situation was slowly improving due to a series of commissions I got over the forums, which allowed me to slowly pay the overdue months of rent, and having to take less commissions to survive, which allowed me to clear the backlog a bit more, however I still felt hesitant of actually increasing my prices on my main page, even tho I was overdelivering quality, that got me to a point that people got used to expect a certain level of quality for dirt cheap, and I Wasn't in a position mentally to just test things out, since if I didn't get commissions not only I would be unable to afford food anymore, but also it was a way for my already extremely low self worth to prevent it from going further down (which really started after me being unable to produce the quality I Was used to after the hand accident).
Then when I was feeling ready to finally increase the prices, in october 2016, my best friend/roomate's mom was killed, and that broke hell loose again, since we had to deal with a lot of situations that we weren't really mentally prepared to handle, I went over it on a previous journal, but in short, due to all the ramifications of that event, I wasn't able to be at home much for around 3 months, which again caused me to not be able to work, not to mention my health wasn't improving, as I tried everything to lose weight but failed, while also having even worse health effects. At that point I stopped posting on furaffinity altogether, the whole situations combined was too much for me to handle, cuz even while I tried to help my best friend, she was the only one that knew the whole thing I had been going thru, after what happened, we both crumble.
- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/20378357/ despite my increased quality, I was still charging the same-
On 2017,My friend got a dog as she got heavily suicidal, and got adviced to get a pet so she could be responsible for someone else, and while it helped her, since we already had a small dog, once the new one grew, things got messy, as I wasn't able to sleep much due to constant barking+headaches, I was severely sleep deprived so my health only went down more and more, until I had to ask my friend to move out, cuz I wasn't able to just work much due to that, I was in such a bad spot that wasn't able to offer much help to her anymore.
I started picking up a few commissions over the forums, which allowed me to survive, and also started following a plant based diet, which for some odd reason helped both to stop the allergies, and also managed to start losing weight, so while the physical health part of the equation was slowly improving, my mental health was at an all time low (at the time at least), it took me a long time to recover from it, cuz I really felt worthless for being unable to work the way I wanted.
That year, while trying to figure out what to do in regards of work, I started working for a very popular League of Legends streamer and coach, Nick de Cesare, AKA, LS, to whom I did a bunch of twitch emotes, https://www.deviantart.com/vergil-a.....otes-712859205 and other miscelaneous work, my mental state was in the gutter, which made me also fuck up that relationship, despite not owing anything to him, he shown a lot of care to me, constantly asking me why I didn't post any work online (at the time I had been inactive anywhere for about a year), and never felt confident about telling him the situation I was going thru, specially what happened with my friend, since that was the main reason for me feeling terrible atm, which eventually ended up with me not responding anymore to him, fucking up that relationship as well, and up to this day I feel like I owe something to him, cuz he was one of the few people that showed a lot of appreciation towards me as an artist and as a person, but my stupid self at the moment didn't know how to handle that either, and as always I just pulled away.
Then 2018 came, and boy this was a rough one, I live in a city without much rain at all, so raining from march to october caused a ton of power outages,which lead to my power supply and video card to die in may, effectively shutting down my ability to work, on july a friend of mine from another state let me borrow a video card which allow me to use my computer again, and started doing 50bucks flat color pieces, since anything shaded crashed my computer due to it being an entry level card and didn't work well with photoshop, however thanks to that I Was able to raise enough money for a new card, however the power outages kept going on for a few months, having to shut down my pc constantly for hours, up to a few days on a certain ocassion where my whole block was without power for a days.
-https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34190154/ (pieces like this which are my current gold tier, was being sold for around 50 usd per character, despite the increased quality)
-https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34189908/ (pieces like this I were charging around 200, despite taking me weeks to complete)-
All that of course caused me to get even farther behind in rent. Once the raining season finally ended, I Started pumping more bronze tier commissions , and I finally divided my commissions in tiers again as I used to in hentai foundry years back, so in 2019 I begun getting more of those commissions over discord, for the first time feeling hopeful again, managed to do a few of my best pieces to date, and at the time, my best friend was at a very very low point in her life, just getting worse each time, however me not living with her anymore, and dealing with my own mental health issues, I Wasn't really aware of the severity of it all.
At around halfway of that year, I met someone who I fell for, for the first ever I opened up to someone, which made me fell closer, that helped me boost my confidence and that year was really looking brighter, or it seemed. I managed to get enough work to finally been able to pay my debt with the landlady after 3 years of constant overdue rent, however at that point, she decided to evict me, having to look for a new place on the spot, and at the time as I was feeling better, I wanted to repay my friend for all the times she took care of me while my health was declining, and asked her to move over with me again, since she wasn't doing well at all where she was currently living, she accepted.
Then 2020 came, and when my friend learned I had fallen for someone from another place, things went south, I was oblivious of her mental state and how bad it was,ever since what happened with her mom in 2016, she got in a huge denial state, constantly convincing herself that her mom was still alive, and since things for the most part were the same ever since (me being in a constant bad state for several reasons, living in the same place, she living in the same place, etc), allowed her to survive, however moving to a new place (her mom used to take her to my apartment before, so she had a strong link to that, and her memories of her mom), and being in love with a completely new person (I hadn't fall for anyone other than my ex for over 13 years) was too much for her to handle, and had a mental breakdown, becoming extremely suicidal, which also had a huge effect on me, feeling like I was doing the wrong thing, and I basically had a breakdown too, even tho I started posting again at the end of 2019 on furaffinity after 3 years of hiatus, what was happening was too much for me, and became suicidal as well, I stopped working altogether for a few months, seeing my friend commit self harm constantly broke me, and eventually that lead to my long distance relationship falling over, I Felt like my whole world fell apart, since that was basically the only thing holding me together, and reached my lowest point in my entire life, which in turn was so bad and unbearable for me, that actually made me reach for help for the first time, started going to therapy and tried to slowly work things out, but things were so bad for so long, even tho I started opening up, it wasn't easy, I wasn't even aware of how much I had been holding up for so long.
Started working more regularily again, and even tho things with my friend fell apart, I was trying to focus on myself, and when 2021 came, I was feeling some semblance of hope, mostly cuz I started doing things I hadn't done for ages. Changed therapist, and it really helped me, as I started looking at things I didn't really wanna look at, namely, traumas I've had since I was a kid, the main reason I don't really talk to anyone about anything. It's been a long process, and things aren't much better, but at least mentally I'm in a very different place, and still figuring things out, for a while this year I tried having an 'stable' job , which didn't go as planned, that even tho further sunk me down in a financial hole, it helped me in other ways, and here I am now, trying to change things for good.
I wasn't in a position to take that job in a safe way for me, since up to that point I've been dragging issues for years, and I just made things harder on myself.
Clients that became friends over the years have told me I'm worth more than the art I produce, but I Still can't fully believe that, me never talking about what was going on has been the reason of most of my struggles, as people had the wrong idea of me, friendships fell apart, as well as client relationships, and understandably so.
That's why I've been thinking a lot on how to finally get out of this situation, as over the years also underpricing (which is completely tied to my low self worth after the hand incident) had be the main reason of this never ending cycle of not being able to move forward whatsoever, dissapointing clients and overall ruining everything in my life. So here I am tyring to put an end to that so I can repay all the clients I still owe work to, and keep been able to not only just survive but hopefully do good, I know my reputation has gone to the ground and I'm the only one to blame, but that means I'm the only one who can make something to change it.
I will work hard and contact each and everyone of you who I still owe work to, and slowly work up to either complete the work I owe you or pay you back, but I need some time, since as you may be able to guess from all this info, I'm completely broke, so I will change my approach to things, and adjust my prices to reflect my skill level, and also don't open slots as I used to, I'm at a point where I can complete pictures each day, so people won't have to worry about waiting for a commission to be delivered, and I will be fully transparent on how things are going, cuz again, I need some time to get some semblance of stability, I know you have been waiting for a long time, and I kept making promises that I was never gonna be able to fulfill cuz I've never had enough money to even eat for a couple weeks without having to take a new commission, so I dug myself into a hole.
I know now I should have spoke long ago, but I wasn't able to, and that has probably little to do with my art career at all, since I have never kept friends since I was a kid for reasons that have to do with my upbringing, I've been working those things in therapy, and I know I will have to work at it more and more, since communication is my biggest weakness, cuz I don't deem myself worthy of listening to, unless I have something to give.
I know I screwed up, and I'm adamant on making things work in any way I can.
Back in 2013 I was working fulltime as a hentai artist in hentai foundry and doing well enough where I didn't have to worry about getting new jobs,as I had a steady influx of clients, and had prices I felt comfortable with, however that just lasted a few months, since one day, my cats were fighting, and I panicked since they were really mad at each other that time, and I tried to separate them, however one of them bit me on my drawing hand, so bad that I felt the big crunch and he didn't let go for a brief period, that resulted in me having a nerve slighly damage, enough for me to lose all sensation on the thumb, as well as being unable to move it freely or with enough control for around 6 months, working was very painful and it got to a point where putting more pressure around the area to hold the pen became unbearable, till I stopped working completely, which of course got me in a pritty bad situation where I accumulated debt, specifically rent and electricity.
-Here's my hentai foundry page, as well as my old price list from 2013-
http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-3W3kczCo6.....et+smal00l.jpg
https://www.hentai-foundry.com/user.....gIfrit/profile
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I was really scared, as I didn't know if I was gonna be able to work again, being able to rest, however, allowed me to be able to pick up the pen again and start sketching again, but was still hard to control it, as not having feeling on my thumb, made it hard to control the pen with precission, I begun losing all my confidence as an artist, not to mention I didn't know what to do, as I was getting a bunch of commission requests that I had to turn down since I Wasn't able to do what got me there, and I Reached a point where I couldn't afford food, so I turned to a friend for advice, and told me to try doing sketches to the best of my ability and try furaffinity as there was a lot of work in the furry community, so I tried, however since all I had was hentai work, of course I didn't get noticed, even after I uploaded a couple furry sketches (you can check the beginnings of my gallery for that). I managed to get a commission on the furaffinity forums, and you can see the dramatic drop in quality:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/12361631/ (from a 700USD piece)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/12347005/ (to a 50 USD 2 character piece, yeh, 25 per character, plus an awful drop in quality)
It wasn't until months later ,when I got another commission on the forums, which after I posted it, it made me gain a large following overnight, and got a bunch of commissions requests, and from that point onwards, I set my price point at 50 USD, which remain unchanged for years to come.
With the huge stream of commissions, I managed to be able to purchase a new computer, since the one I had at the moment was giving me a lot of BSOD, until the HDD finally died near the end of 2014, which is when the backlog started,since I was supposed to get the new computer just days after the purchase, but it got delayed until january due to the case being damaged and waiting for a new one+testing from the assembly team. That delay had big repercussions as it disrupted the flow of commissions as I was doing around 2 pics per day, and having to spend all the money I got from the commissions in the new computer, got me again in a position where I could not afford rent or food, so again I had to take more commissions, and so on.
Then a bit later that year (2015) I hurt my back while working out, and after a few minutes I was not able to stand properly, I called my friend, and by the time she arrived I wasn't able to stand anymore, since I didn't had money at all, I couldn't afford medical care, so I stayed on the ground for around 3-4 days, then I Was taken to a doctor to get a corticosteroid shot, and after a couple days I was able to start walking again, did some rehab exercises, but I've had chronic pain since.
A couple months later, I started developing allergies, first while being in contact with the dogs of my then girlfriend, which were pretty mild, to then having allergic reactions to all sort of things, from insects, to toilet paper, to styrofoam, each time worse than the last, resulting in anaphylaxis. For a little over a year, I had constant allergic reactions to so many things, that I got scared of even going out of my apartment, being almost on a weekly basis on the red cross hospital getting corticosteroid shots to deal with the anaphylaxis, which ended up causing me to gain about 40 pounds over the months, which I was unable to loose, which in turn caused more issues like headaches, lasting up to a week.
All that had a pretty negative impact on my capacity to work properly, and I Started to slow down a lot, even tho my hand was completely recovered at that point, and was close to being at my previous level, I never felt confident enough in raising my prices, since due to all that had been going on over the span of nearly 2 years, I was in severe debt, I did a few tests to increase prices when getting commissions over the forums, but anything past 200 was getting me rejected constantly, so my confidence kept going down, and I was never really sure if I could make it out of that hole of constant debt and having to keep getting more commissions just to barely survive (while having months of overdue rent).
On 2016 my situation was slowly improving due to a series of commissions I got over the forums, which allowed me to slowly pay the overdue months of rent, and having to take less commissions to survive, which allowed me to clear the backlog a bit more, however I still felt hesitant of actually increasing my prices on my main page, even tho I was overdelivering quality, that got me to a point that people got used to expect a certain level of quality for dirt cheap, and I Wasn't in a position mentally to just test things out, since if I didn't get commissions not only I would be unable to afford food anymore, but also it was a way for my already extremely low self worth to prevent it from going further down (which really started after me being unable to produce the quality I Was used to after the hand accident).
Then when I was feeling ready to finally increase the prices, in october 2016, my best friend/roomate's mom was killed, and that broke hell loose again, since we had to deal with a lot of situations that we weren't really mentally prepared to handle, I went over it on a previous journal, but in short, due to all the ramifications of that event, I wasn't able to be at home much for around 3 months, which again caused me to not be able to work, not to mention my health wasn't improving, as I tried everything to lose weight but failed, while also having even worse health effects. At that point I stopped posting on furaffinity altogether, the whole situations combined was too much for me to handle, cuz even while I tried to help my best friend, she was the only one that knew the whole thing I had been going thru, after what happened, we both crumble.
- https://www.furaffinity.net/view/20378357/ despite my increased quality, I was still charging the same-
On 2017,My friend got a dog as she got heavily suicidal, and got adviced to get a pet so she could be responsible for someone else, and while it helped her, since we already had a small dog, once the new one grew, things got messy, as I wasn't able to sleep much due to constant barking+headaches, I was severely sleep deprived so my health only went down more and more, until I had to ask my friend to move out, cuz I wasn't able to just work much due to that, I was in such a bad spot that wasn't able to offer much help to her anymore.
I started picking up a few commissions over the forums, which allowed me to survive, and also started following a plant based diet, which for some odd reason helped both to stop the allergies, and also managed to start losing weight, so while the physical health part of the equation was slowly improving, my mental health was at an all time low (at the time at least), it took me a long time to recover from it, cuz I really felt worthless for being unable to work the way I wanted.
That year, while trying to figure out what to do in regards of work, I started working for a very popular League of Legends streamer and coach, Nick de Cesare, AKA, LS, to whom I did a bunch of twitch emotes, https://www.deviantart.com/vergil-a.....otes-712859205 and other miscelaneous work, my mental state was in the gutter, which made me also fuck up that relationship, despite not owing anything to him, he shown a lot of care to me, constantly asking me why I didn't post any work online (at the time I had been inactive anywhere for about a year), and never felt confident about telling him the situation I was going thru, specially what happened with my friend, since that was the main reason for me feeling terrible atm, which eventually ended up with me not responding anymore to him, fucking up that relationship as well, and up to this day I feel like I owe something to him, cuz he was one of the few people that showed a lot of appreciation towards me as an artist and as a person, but my stupid self at the moment didn't know how to handle that either, and as always I just pulled away.
Then 2018 came, and boy this was a rough one, I live in a city without much rain at all, so raining from march to october caused a ton of power outages,which lead to my power supply and video card to die in may, effectively shutting down my ability to work, on july a friend of mine from another state let me borrow a video card which allow me to use my computer again, and started doing 50bucks flat color pieces, since anything shaded crashed my computer due to it being an entry level card and didn't work well with photoshop, however thanks to that I Was able to raise enough money for a new card, however the power outages kept going on for a few months, having to shut down my pc constantly for hours, up to a few days on a certain ocassion where my whole block was without power for a days.
-https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34190154/ (pieces like this which are my current gold tier, was being sold for around 50 usd per character, despite the increased quality)
-https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34189908/ (pieces like this I were charging around 200, despite taking me weeks to complete)-
All that of course caused me to get even farther behind in rent. Once the raining season finally ended, I Started pumping more bronze tier commissions , and I finally divided my commissions in tiers again as I used to in hentai foundry years back, so in 2019 I begun getting more of those commissions over discord, for the first time feeling hopeful again, managed to do a few of my best pieces to date, and at the time, my best friend was at a very very low point in her life, just getting worse each time, however me not living with her anymore, and dealing with my own mental health issues, I Wasn't really aware of the severity of it all.
At around halfway of that year, I met someone who I fell for, for the first ever I opened up to someone, which made me fell closer, that helped me boost my confidence and that year was really looking brighter, or it seemed. I managed to get enough work to finally been able to pay my debt with the landlady after 3 years of constant overdue rent, however at that point, she decided to evict me, having to look for a new place on the spot, and at the time as I was feeling better, I wanted to repay my friend for all the times she took care of me while my health was declining, and asked her to move over with me again, since she wasn't doing well at all where she was currently living, she accepted.
Then 2020 came, and when my friend learned I had fallen for someone from another place, things went south, I was oblivious of her mental state and how bad it was,ever since what happened with her mom in 2016, she got in a huge denial state, constantly convincing herself that her mom was still alive, and since things for the most part were the same ever since (me being in a constant bad state for several reasons, living in the same place, she living in the same place, etc), allowed her to survive, however moving to a new place (her mom used to take her to my apartment before, so she had a strong link to that, and her memories of her mom), and being in love with a completely new person (I hadn't fall for anyone other than my ex for over 13 years) was too much for her to handle, and had a mental breakdown, becoming extremely suicidal, which also had a huge effect on me, feeling like I was doing the wrong thing, and I basically had a breakdown too, even tho I started posting again at the end of 2019 on furaffinity after 3 years of hiatus, what was happening was too much for me, and became suicidal as well, I stopped working altogether for a few months, seeing my friend commit self harm constantly broke me, and eventually that lead to my long distance relationship falling over, I Felt like my whole world fell apart, since that was basically the only thing holding me together, and reached my lowest point in my entire life, which in turn was so bad and unbearable for me, that actually made me reach for help for the first time, started going to therapy and tried to slowly work things out, but things were so bad for so long, even tho I started opening up, it wasn't easy, I wasn't even aware of how much I had been holding up for so long.
Started working more regularily again, and even tho things with my friend fell apart, I was trying to focus on myself, and when 2021 came, I was feeling some semblance of hope, mostly cuz I started doing things I hadn't done for ages. Changed therapist, and it really helped me, as I started looking at things I didn't really wanna look at, namely, traumas I've had since I was a kid, the main reason I don't really talk to anyone about anything. It's been a long process, and things aren't much better, but at least mentally I'm in a very different place, and still figuring things out, for a while this year I tried having an 'stable' job , which didn't go as planned, that even tho further sunk me down in a financial hole, it helped me in other ways, and here I am now, trying to change things for good.
I wasn't in a position to take that job in a safe way for me, since up to that point I've been dragging issues for years, and I just made things harder on myself.
Clients that became friends over the years have told me I'm worth more than the art I produce, but I Still can't fully believe that, me never talking about what was going on has been the reason of most of my struggles, as people had the wrong idea of me, friendships fell apart, as well as client relationships, and understandably so.
That's why I've been thinking a lot on how to finally get out of this situation, as over the years also underpricing (which is completely tied to my low self worth after the hand incident) had be the main reason of this never ending cycle of not being able to move forward whatsoever, dissapointing clients and overall ruining everything in my life. So here I am tyring to put an end to that so I can repay all the clients I still owe work to, and keep been able to not only just survive but hopefully do good, I know my reputation has gone to the ground and I'm the only one to blame, but that means I'm the only one who can make something to change it.
I will work hard and contact each and everyone of you who I still owe work to, and slowly work up to either complete the work I owe you or pay you back, but I need some time, since as you may be able to guess from all this info, I'm completely broke, so I will change my approach to things, and adjust my prices to reflect my skill level, and also don't open slots as I used to, I'm at a point where I can complete pictures each day, so people won't have to worry about waiting for a commission to be delivered, and I will be fully transparent on how things are going, cuz again, I need some time to get some semblance of stability, I know you have been waiting for a long time, and I kept making promises that I was never gonna be able to fulfill cuz I've never had enough money to even eat for a couple weeks without having to take a new commission, so I dug myself into a hole.
I know now I should have spoke long ago, but I wasn't able to, and that has probably little to do with my art career at all, since I have never kept friends since I was a kid for reasons that have to do with my upbringing, I've been working those things in therapy, and I know I will have to work at it more and more, since communication is my biggest weakness, cuz I don't deem myself worthy of listening to, unless I have something to give.
I know I screwed up, and I'm adamant on making things work in any way I can.
Commissions open
Posted 4 years agoHey guys, happy new year, I'm open for commissions rn, just a few slots, 5 for bronze, 2 for silver, 2 for gold, remember, you can upgrade from bronze to silver or gold at a later date!
Bronze Tier
1.
Ambilaterality
2.
pumafgt
3.
Tabra
4.
Mandure
5.
Silver
1.
Group17
2.
Gold
1.
GoldenBoy1223
2.
darkwargreymon
Will update on current state of events later on.
Bronze Tier
1.
Ambilaterality2.
pumafgt3.
Tabra4.
Mandure5.
Silver
1.
Group172.
Gold
1.
GoldenBoy12232.
darkwargreymonWill update on current state of events later on.
Commissions open
Posted 4 years agoHey guys, happy new year, I'm open for commissions rn, just a few slots, 5 for bronze, 2 for silver, 2 for gold, remember, you can upgrade from bronze to silver or gold at a later date!
Bronze Tier
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5.
Silver
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Gold
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Will update on current state of events later on.
Bronze Tier
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Silver
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Gold
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Will update on current state of events later on.
Bronze tier Slots
Posted 5 years agoHey, here's the updated slots!
As previously stated, I only contact people once I'm done with the previous slot, that way I don't have you waiting a long time with a sketch, so when I contact you, you'll have the piece that very same day given that our back and forth communication is quick enough!
1.@roo_ranga on twitter (huge commission, 2 pieces+3 alts per piece+18 side panels) done
2.@extremenyoom on twitter (commissioner just leave it at a clean sketch stage)done
3.Anamus on discord (cahira) done
4.Thartalas on discord (on pause due to funds)
5.pumafgt pumafgt (contacted)
6.@RozSinRedone on twitter
7.@CarpoGryphon on twitter
8.GoldenBoy1223 GoldenBoy1223
9.BentleyMutt BentleyMutt
10. Pandsky Pandsky
11.Endoktrinatoer Endoktrinatoer
12.Cyberia Cyberia
13.TheDeafDriver TheDeafDriver
14.tsii tsii
15.Pirun Pirun
16.lucamew lucamew
17.@sovykurosei on twitter
18.Foxera Foxera
19.
20.
As previously stated, I only contact people once I'm done with the previous slot, that way I don't have you waiting a long time with a sketch, so when I contact you, you'll have the piece that very same day given that our back and forth communication is quick enough!
1.@roo_ranga on twitter (huge commission, 2 pieces+3 alts per piece+18 side panels) done
2.@extremenyoom on twitter (commissioner just leave it at a clean sketch stage)done
3.Anamus on discord (cahira) done
4.Thartalas on discord (on pause due to funds)
5.pumafgt pumafgt (contacted)
6.@RozSinRedone on twitter
7.@CarpoGryphon on twitter
8.GoldenBoy1223 GoldenBoy1223
9.BentleyMutt BentleyMutt
10. Pandsky Pandsky
11.Endoktrinatoer Endoktrinatoer
12.Cyberia Cyberia
13.TheDeafDriver TheDeafDriver
14.tsii tsii
15.Pirun Pirun
16.lucamew lucamew
17.@sovykurosei on twitter
18.Foxera Foxera
19.
20.
Another update
Posted 5 years agoHey everyone, sorry for the abscence, been working hard, after the covid test and all that jazz, I ended up testing negative, thankfully, but sadly due to the downtime of work due to the constant going out to the doctor and so, I lost the first two spots of the commissions, I felt pretty bad about it, felt like evertyhing was slippin thru my hands again, had bills to pay, thankfully one of the commissioners offered to help and expanded his slot, but went kinda overboard with it (in a good way), he ended up asking for two flat color pieces, but with a few tweaks.. 3 alt versions (states of undressing) for each pic, and 3 side panels for each alt version, for a whopping 18 side panels , so needless to say it became a huge thing and lots of drawings for a single commission lol, so that's what I've been up to for the past couple weeks, however since it's a private commission, I can't show it, but now I wanted to mention that if anyone is interested in something like that, I'd definitely be up to that kind of thing, it's super fun and it's a great alternative to full blown comics, which, while fun, they take a long time to do.
so yeah, now that I finished finally that first huge slot, I'll be messaging everyone, as I mentioned previously, I want to just message people that I'm immediately gonna work on their piece, so as to keep things controled and just do one thing at a time, and finish/Getting paid per pic.
Thanks for your understanding! today's been a long day, but hey, I'm moving forward slowly but surely. Love you all.
so yeah, now that I finished finally that first huge slot, I'll be messaging everyone, as I mentioned previously, I want to just message people that I'm immediately gonna work on their piece, so as to keep things controled and just do one thing at a time, and finish/Getting paid per pic.
Thanks for your understanding! today's been a long day, but hey, I'm moving forward slowly but surely. Love you all.
Update
Posted 5 years agoHEy everyone! sorry I haven't been around lately, I've been contacting people in order so I don't make it too hard on myself, since there's so many people to manage, that way I can focus on one at a time.
Also, my friend's been pretty bad lately, since it was nearing the bday of her mom(if you have read my journals, you may know what it means), so her cousin came to stay with her on thursday, resumed work over the weekend, and at the same time cousin started feeling unwell, on monday I took my friend to the neurologist to get an electroencephalogram as directed by the psychiatrist, and also since her cousin was pretty bad already, we made an appointment to get her checked, since we live in mexico, given the whole pandemic, she wasn't being given any medical attention unless she was getting tested for covid, so we did that, and on tuesday we got the results for her, she tested positive for covid, so friend and I were scared , so I went to stock goods just in case, and on wednesday we got tested for covid, just got the results today, and thankfully we both tested negative, altho we got told it might be because the exposure to the infected person wasn't that long ago (thursday), so we have to keep the guard up.
So yeah, quite a week, but for now I'm back, and since I'm doing self quarantine I'll be here every day, so I can focus fully on work! so expect a lot of new art very soon! and all people who claimed a slot, will be contacted once the previous slot has been dealt with, again just so I can give my full attention to each one, I will also be updating the status of that in a posterior journal, for now just wanted to let you all know what's been going on!
Stay safe, and again, thanks for your support!
Also, my friend's been pretty bad lately, since it was nearing the bday of her mom(if you have read my journals, you may know what it means), so her cousin came to stay with her on thursday, resumed work over the weekend, and at the same time cousin started feeling unwell, on monday I took my friend to the neurologist to get an electroencephalogram as directed by the psychiatrist, and also since her cousin was pretty bad already, we made an appointment to get her checked, since we live in mexico, given the whole pandemic, she wasn't being given any medical attention unless she was getting tested for covid, so we did that, and on tuesday we got the results for her, she tested positive for covid, so friend and I were scared , so I went to stock goods just in case, and on wednesday we got tested for covid, just got the results today, and thankfully we both tested negative, altho we got told it might be because the exposure to the infected person wasn't that long ago (thursday), so we have to keep the guard up.
So yeah, quite a week, but for now I'm back, and since I'm doing self quarantine I'll be here every day, so I can focus fully on work! so expect a lot of new art very soon! and all people who claimed a slot, will be contacted once the previous slot has been dealt with, again just so I can give my full attention to each one, I will also be updating the status of that in a posterior journal, for now just wanted to let you all know what's been going on!
Stay safe, and again, thanks for your support!
Update
Posted 5 years agoHey , I want to first say thank you for all the support you've been giving me, it really means a ton to me, I know in the past I've been gone plenty of times, I've also explained why, I still need to deal with the backlog, and I'm doing that slowly, reason I'm opening commissions right now is because I haven't done much work over the past few months apart from my last update on november, been investing a lot in therapy and it's paying off, I feel way too different, and I'm really hopeful that things are gonna get better this time around, cuz I at least know now why it all started, cuz it's been an ongoing issue for pretty much all my life (yeah, child issues can screw you for life .. :C) but now I'm dealing with all that and I've been doing a lot of stuff, working, taking care of myself (physical and mental health) and I know it's gonna be a long road, but I'm grateful to have you share this journey with me, and don't doubt, I'll be sharing all that with you too, since I wanna specially teach a lot when it comes to art, which is a big passion of mine for a long time as well as fitness, never too late it seems!
Backlog will be slowly updated over the next several months, it's gonna be a slow process cuz I don't wanna just make quick pieces, I know I Was paid around 50 bucks per pic back in the day when the backlog started, and you'll be getting several times more than that, please be patient, in the end it's gonna be worth it, I promise, some of those pieces have been already delivered, one of them is been done for a few months, but lost the original commissioner, I'm waiting for the FA forums to get back up to retrieve the contact info, since he doesn't seem to have a fA page (name's cygote).
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For the new slots I opened to pay for bills and food and all that good stuff, so there's 20 total, next week probably, I'll open also silver tier slots, which are basically bronze with cel shading, and can be upgraded from bronze all the way to gold.
HEre's the list of the claimed slots.
1.@MakeoSobo on twitter
2.@extremenyoom on twitter
3.Anamus on discord
4.Thartalas on discord
5. pumafgt
6.@RozSinRedone on twitter
7.@CarpoGryphon on twitter
8. GoldenBoy1223
9.
BentleyMutt
10.
Pandsky
11.
Endoktrinatoer
12.
Cyberia
13.
TheDeafDriver
14.
tsii
15.
Pirun
16.
lucamew
17.@sovykurosei on twitter
18.
Foxera
19.
20.
Backlog will be slowly updated over the next several months, it's gonna be a slow process cuz I don't wanna just make quick pieces, I know I Was paid around 50 bucks per pic back in the day when the backlog started, and you'll be getting several times more than that, please be patient, in the end it's gonna be worth it, I promise, some of those pieces have been already delivered, one of them is been done for a few months, but lost the original commissioner, I'm waiting for the FA forums to get back up to retrieve the contact info, since he doesn't seem to have a fA page (name's cygote).
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For the new slots I opened to pay for bills and food and all that good stuff, so there's 20 total, next week probably, I'll open also silver tier slots, which are basically bronze with cel shading, and can be upgraded from bronze all the way to gold.
HEre's the list of the claimed slots.
1.@MakeoSobo on twitter
2.@extremenyoom on twitter
3.Anamus on discord
4.Thartalas on discord
5.
pumafgt6.@RozSinRedone on twitter
7.@CarpoGryphon on twitter
8.
GoldenBoy12239.
BentleyMutt10.
Pandsky11.
Endoktrinatoer12.
Cyberia13.
TheDeafDriver14.
tsii15.
Pirun16.
lucamew17.@sovykurosei on twitter
18.
Foxera19.
20.
Update
Posted 5 years agoHi there, first of all, I'm really thankful for all your support, the main purpose of this journal is to inform you that I've just created a brand new account where I'll be submitting art featuring females, since as you all know and the main reason most of you follow me here, is for my male pictures, and while I do love working on males, i do love creating female artwork too, so if you're into that kind of thing, you can follow me here 
ifritharem , I'll be hosting an auction for an adoptable female lioness as per suggestion of a friend, since I'm raising funds (info on why is on previous journal)
A quick summary on what's been going on lately, I've taken my friend to 2 psychiatrist last week, didn't workout very well, she's actually even worse, and barely talks to me, my cat ended up dying despite the vet's best efforts, his kidneys went into complete failure :c. I've also started going to therapy, and it's helped a lot, I realize now , at least partially, why i always shut down when things regarding emotinal significance goes wrong, since it's something I've been carrying for pretty much as long as I've had memory, so yeah, at least now I'm aware of it and I'm taking action, reaching out was the first step, but it's gonna be a hard battle, but here I am, tyring my best, i really don't know what's going to happen but I'm here, and I really thank you all who have shown and given their support to me, it means a lot, even tho for me it's hard to see that, cuz all I've think of me is a big failure and being worthless, but now I'm slowly changing that, I can't thank you enough, but what I can do is work hard and show you that it does means a lot, and I'll make sure I turn things around.
Thank you.
Ifrit~
ifritharem , I'll be hosting an auction for an adoptable female lioness as per suggestion of a friend, since I'm raising funds (info on why is on previous journal)A quick summary on what's been going on lately, I've taken my friend to 2 psychiatrist last week, didn't workout very well, she's actually even worse, and barely talks to me, my cat ended up dying despite the vet's best efforts, his kidneys went into complete failure :c. I've also started going to therapy, and it's helped a lot, I realize now , at least partially, why i always shut down when things regarding emotinal significance goes wrong, since it's something I've been carrying for pretty much as long as I've had memory, so yeah, at least now I'm aware of it and I'm taking action, reaching out was the first step, but it's gonna be a hard battle, but here I am, tyring my best, i really don't know what's going to happen but I'm here, and I really thank you all who have shown and given their support to me, it means a lot, even tho for me it's hard to see that, cuz all I've think of me is a big failure and being worthless, but now I'm slowly changing that, I can't thank you enough, but what I can do is work hard and show you that it does means a lot, and I'll make sure I turn things around.
Thank you.
Ifrit~
Update
Posted 5 years agoUpdate 18/08/20
My friend will have a therapy session tonight at 8pm, also she has an appointment with a doctor tomorrow at 6:30. Still wondering how bad it is cuz she still having chest pain after the blood vomit incident,will inform any progress.
Update 19/08/20
Therapy session was awful, only made her feel worse due to something therapist said, I guess she didn't mean it that way but yeah, friend just felt horrible afterwards, need to find another one /:
I'm unsure how to approach this, so I think the best way is chronological order.
After my last journal, and once my hand got better, I was really excited and working on new projects, everything seemed to be turned out for better, also finally I Was gonna able to take care of my best friend who has been struggling for a long while. I had some major offers, one of them being from
togepi1125 (why i even mention this, will be aparent very soon). Things were seemingly looking up.
Once my best friend was gonna move back to me (she was living with another mutual friend), things got pretty bad, so more context is now necesary to understand the why.
The city I'm currently living right now isn't my hometown, I moved here back in 2008 chasing after a girl, things turned out pretty bad for a while, and ever since it was a back and forth thing between yes I want you, no i don't, that relationship started back in 2006, and once things got pretty bad, I was trying to make things up, but it was a long distance relationship, so that complicated things, and sunk me into a deep depression, I come from a deprived home, we had no money, I lived with my mom and my uncle, him having severe alcoholism made things bad since I was in elementary school, never met my father or even know who he was, mom never told. My relationship with her was pretty bad, i never really had a conversation with her, she always refused to engage into a deeper relationship, at the time I just felt bad, but now looking back, and after knowing what a real mom-kids relationship is, I realize how that actually have an effect in my life to come.
So after I moved here, things didn't got better, in fact they got worse, and kinda resumed back in 2010, and were up and down since, my best friend was also a friend with this girl, and was always supporting me and her.
For thelongest time, I Was blinded by trying to fix things with her, as a matter of fact, me being an artist was just the way I was able to raise money to come visit her in the first place, and why I actually decided to pick art as a career, so it'd allow me that freedom of being anywhere.
That being said, I was pretty much stuck and I Was never able to realize it.
As mentioned on a previous journal, in 2015, for her, her only goal in life was to rebuild her relationship with her mom and brother since it was damaged by some events years prior, which lead to her living with me in the first place, she's also an artist, so I wanted to help her, her whole motivation was that, to one day be able to mend things up with her family.
Logically, what happened crushed her in a very deep way, however, her mom was in pain too, so she was there for her, but both were in denial. However what happened, made them closer then ever, her mom was full of pain and willing to die with the intention of finding out what happened to her son, my friend tried to help, but she was in pain too, and didn't know what was best to do, she steyed with her for a while and got closer than ever, however after a few months, her mom was killed too, and that had a severe impact on her, you know that part of the story since a previous journal told that story, cuz I Was involved in that time frame, which is why i stopped being around furaffinity (or any othersite) altogether.
What I didn't know, is that since her brother passed, she's been in a deep denial, a defense mechanism by her brain trying to protect her from all that and keep her alive, she always kept things for herself, since what happened is just the last thing she could endure of a long life of horrible events, most of which I never knew, or anyone for that matter (more on that later).
Since that time, all she did was basically live in a bubble where her mom and brother were still alive (early 2015) and whatever information, image, situation , etc, showed her that in fact, it was not 2015, would trigger a cascade of anxiety depression and all the negative things u can imagine. The things is,due to some events i will not disclose happening at en early stage in her life, she learn to keep things for herself, put on a mask and act as if nothing is wrong.
Earlier last year, my situation with the girl I was trying to fix things with, reached an all time low, and I Was at the brink of really contemplating suicide too, work was very hard for me to do, cuz as mentioned, the whole reason I Started this journey in art, was her, so I reached a point where I could no longer stand that, I Was severely depressed, working little by little, but considering just getting a 'normal' job here (living in mexico, that'd net anything from 100-400 tops, a month)and I Was entirely broke, so I Was really considering what to do, also yes I kept that to myself.
Around may, I met one person, and due to several things, pretty much all that was going on at the time, all I can say is I 'woke' from that state I've been in since october 2006, but did't know what to do with my emotions at the time, I never considered ever being with someone else until that point, for a long while I Was utterly confused. But I fell in love with this person, for the first time I Was truly happy, i was able to be myself, and once again I went back to do all that I dropped due to depression.
You see, the only contact I have with people, is my best friend, my ex, and a friend from another state, that's it, no family contact or anything(mom died 2010, aloholic uncle blamed for it, from that point onwards I felt even worse and stopped contact with my family, he turned the other part of my family against me because lies that prevented anyone to know he had alcoholism). And then, this girl I met in may, who thanks to her support, changed my life for the better.
So I was a mess, it took me a while to process everything, I didn't talk to anyone about it, until I decided to move forward, which was when I posted the journal, I felt confidence in myself again, until that, i thought of myself as worthless, undeserving of everything (which is why I even drop my prices int he first place when moving from hentaifoundry to furaffinity). I felt as myself again, something I hadn't felt for over 13 years.
I Was happy cuz I thought things would get better, and I could also share that with my best friend, cuz I knew I Wasn't there when she needed me many times, and once I Wasn't blinded by depression and I could see all that in retrospective I wanted to make antyhing in my power to turn everything around.
So that being said, once I told Vale about this new person, she felt horrible, cuz she wanted to have peace, she wanted to move back in with me, and keep feeling as if it were 2015, where I was in the constant chase for the other person, her supporting me, andthinking her family was alive and well.
From that point (january 9th), she clearly stated she wanted to die, that she couldn't deal with reality, all she wanted to do is go back to her mom's house and die. I Tried talking to her and things just got worse, also I broke too, cuz I Felt like I should've just remain the same, but at the same time I Actually fell in love again, I Was torn, and seeing my best friend, the only person I've come to actually consider family, the one she cared for me when I Was in the lowest point, bot emotionally and when my health was at it's worse. I basically felt like I bursted by the seams and I wanted to die too, the more I Tried talking to her, the more things got worse, she just wanted to be left alone and die, it was better than having to deal with the reality of the thing she valued most in her life, being gone.
Since she was a kid, she wanted to kill herself, and swore to herself to not do it until her mom died, cuz she didn't want to cause any distress to her, now with that finally ocurring, shefelt there was no need to be alive anymore, and while her brain tried to protect her by isolating her from reality, now even being with me also let her know, things really did happen, this is not 2015 anymore, and there's nothing that can bring that back.
Things got worse, I ended up wanting to kill myself too, my new found relationship was quickly falling apart and I Was pretty much neglecting my own feelings in order to try and help my friend, I felt utterly useless and unable to do anything, I tried talking, tellingher I Was there, cuz the whole reason I even asked her to move back in was because I Wanted to help her and get her to therapy cuz I knew part of the story and her being in denial, but not tho that extent, previous therapist have told her grief would last x amount of time, but that wasn't case, it has gone for just about 5 years so far.
Things got so bad, she started cutting herself a lot, so we ended up going to a psychiatrich hospital, that has a pretty bad reputation and also we experienced ourselves that, we only have a 18 minutes interview and after that they wanted to get her commited, we refused , but got medication.
She started taking meds but apart from the first few days they stopped working and things got bad again, I ended up breaking too after many incidents(specially disregarding my own feeligns and needs, and the person I wanted to be with, in favor of trying to right a wrong), which caused me to also fall into depression, I didn't took the commissions I had been offered, like togepi's mentioned earlier, to date it'd be my most expensive commissionand I always wanted to do a work for him, and I Wasn't even able to function properly anymore.
I was caring for her, stopping her from cutting herself when I could but I couldn't really handle that, it has really take a huge blow on my mental health as well to the point where I became suicidal as well being unable to help, felt like all that that hope I had for a better future got crushed.
Things have been like that since january and only gotten worse and worse over time, she has opened up more , told me things she hasn't told anyone, and that only filled her with more despair, for the past 2 weeks or so she stopped getting out of bed almost altogether for anything other than going to the bathroom and ocassionally accepting food.
A few days ago, she disclosed her plans to commit suicide at one of 2 dates, next month, september 23rd, or next year, april 17th , as she feels is the way to end a cycle that should have ended since she was a kid. After that I started reaching out to another friend, I always kept everything up to msyself, but also I Realized i need help too and can't do this alone, hence why I'm coming here, first and foremost, to explain the reason of my abscence, second, since atm I'm entirely broke and unable to help after I spent all money I had moving again on july 9th(the house we were previously living in, where I moved back at the end of december last year, was put on sale without any prior notification, owner got scared because the whole covid thing so decided to sell to get as much money as possible so I had to look for a new place and move within just a few days ).
Yesterday she almost overdosed on medication, induced vomit on herself, and aside from the pills, the vomit however, had a few streaks of blood, I Was adviced against taking her to the red cross since we live in one of the states hitted hard by the covid pandemic, with the red cross clinic being shut down a couple months ago after all personel got infected due to low safety measures, which is a reality we live here in Mexico, so I'm also trying to raise money to get her medical attention in a private hospital.
A friend suggested to open up an auction for an adoptable I designed a while ago to help raise funds so I can get her to a therapist asap, since my original plan was to do a commission but time is of the ssence right now given all the previous stated facts.
I'll post all the details of the auction if anyone is interested, I just don't know what else to do , I have hit a super low point and I needed to open up, there's no way I can do this on my own anymore.
Will edit this in the next few hours to update on the current situation, sorry in advance if this journal seems a bit messy but I've been writing on and off after going to the next room to check on my friend.
My friend will have a therapy session tonight at 8pm, also she has an appointment with a doctor tomorrow at 6:30. Still wondering how bad it is cuz she still having chest pain after the blood vomit incident,will inform any progress.
Update 19/08/20
Therapy session was awful, only made her feel worse due to something therapist said, I guess she didn't mean it that way but yeah, friend just felt horrible afterwards, need to find another one /:
I'm unsure how to approach this, so I think the best way is chronological order.
After my last journal, and once my hand got better, I was really excited and working on new projects, everything seemed to be turned out for better, also finally I Was gonna able to take care of my best friend who has been struggling for a long while. I had some major offers, one of them being from
togepi1125 (why i even mention this, will be aparent very soon). Things were seemingly looking up.Once my best friend was gonna move back to me (she was living with another mutual friend), things got pretty bad, so more context is now necesary to understand the why.
The city I'm currently living right now isn't my hometown, I moved here back in 2008 chasing after a girl, things turned out pretty bad for a while, and ever since it was a back and forth thing between yes I want you, no i don't, that relationship started back in 2006, and once things got pretty bad, I was trying to make things up, but it was a long distance relationship, so that complicated things, and sunk me into a deep depression, I come from a deprived home, we had no money, I lived with my mom and my uncle, him having severe alcoholism made things bad since I was in elementary school, never met my father or even know who he was, mom never told. My relationship with her was pretty bad, i never really had a conversation with her, she always refused to engage into a deeper relationship, at the time I just felt bad, but now looking back, and after knowing what a real mom-kids relationship is, I realize how that actually have an effect in my life to come.
So after I moved here, things didn't got better, in fact they got worse, and kinda resumed back in 2010, and were up and down since, my best friend was also a friend with this girl, and was always supporting me and her.
For thelongest time, I Was blinded by trying to fix things with her, as a matter of fact, me being an artist was just the way I was able to raise money to come visit her in the first place, and why I actually decided to pick art as a career, so it'd allow me that freedom of being anywhere.
That being said, I was pretty much stuck and I Was never able to realize it.
As mentioned on a previous journal, in 2015, for her, her only goal in life was to rebuild her relationship with her mom and brother since it was damaged by some events years prior, which lead to her living with me in the first place, she's also an artist, so I wanted to help her, her whole motivation was that, to one day be able to mend things up with her family.
Logically, what happened crushed her in a very deep way, however, her mom was in pain too, so she was there for her, but both were in denial. However what happened, made them closer then ever, her mom was full of pain and willing to die with the intention of finding out what happened to her son, my friend tried to help, but she was in pain too, and didn't know what was best to do, she steyed with her for a while and got closer than ever, however after a few months, her mom was killed too, and that had a severe impact on her, you know that part of the story since a previous journal told that story, cuz I Was involved in that time frame, which is why i stopped being around furaffinity (or any othersite) altogether.
What I didn't know, is that since her brother passed, she's been in a deep denial, a defense mechanism by her brain trying to protect her from all that and keep her alive, she always kept things for herself, since what happened is just the last thing she could endure of a long life of horrible events, most of which I never knew, or anyone for that matter (more on that later).
Since that time, all she did was basically live in a bubble where her mom and brother were still alive (early 2015) and whatever information, image, situation , etc, showed her that in fact, it was not 2015, would trigger a cascade of anxiety depression and all the negative things u can imagine. The things is,due to some events i will not disclose happening at en early stage in her life, she learn to keep things for herself, put on a mask and act as if nothing is wrong.
Earlier last year, my situation with the girl I was trying to fix things with, reached an all time low, and I Was at the brink of really contemplating suicide too, work was very hard for me to do, cuz as mentioned, the whole reason I Started this journey in art, was her, so I reached a point where I could no longer stand that, I Was severely depressed, working little by little, but considering just getting a 'normal' job here (living in mexico, that'd net anything from 100-400 tops, a month)and I Was entirely broke, so I Was really considering what to do, also yes I kept that to myself.
Around may, I met one person, and due to several things, pretty much all that was going on at the time, all I can say is I 'woke' from that state I've been in since october 2006, but did't know what to do with my emotions at the time, I never considered ever being with someone else until that point, for a long while I Was utterly confused. But I fell in love with this person, for the first time I Was truly happy, i was able to be myself, and once again I went back to do all that I dropped due to depression.
You see, the only contact I have with people, is my best friend, my ex, and a friend from another state, that's it, no family contact or anything(mom died 2010, aloholic uncle blamed for it, from that point onwards I felt even worse and stopped contact with my family, he turned the other part of my family against me because lies that prevented anyone to know he had alcoholism). And then, this girl I met in may, who thanks to her support, changed my life for the better.
So I was a mess, it took me a while to process everything, I didn't talk to anyone about it, until I decided to move forward, which was when I posted the journal, I felt confidence in myself again, until that, i thought of myself as worthless, undeserving of everything (which is why I even drop my prices int he first place when moving from hentaifoundry to furaffinity). I felt as myself again, something I hadn't felt for over 13 years.
I Was happy cuz I thought things would get better, and I could also share that with my best friend, cuz I knew I Wasn't there when she needed me many times, and once I Wasn't blinded by depression and I could see all that in retrospective I wanted to make antyhing in my power to turn everything around.
So that being said, once I told Vale about this new person, she felt horrible, cuz she wanted to have peace, she wanted to move back in with me, and keep feeling as if it were 2015, where I was in the constant chase for the other person, her supporting me, andthinking her family was alive and well.
From that point (january 9th), she clearly stated she wanted to die, that she couldn't deal with reality, all she wanted to do is go back to her mom's house and die. I Tried talking to her and things just got worse, also I broke too, cuz I Felt like I should've just remain the same, but at the same time I Actually fell in love again, I Was torn, and seeing my best friend, the only person I've come to actually consider family, the one she cared for me when I Was in the lowest point, bot emotionally and when my health was at it's worse. I basically felt like I bursted by the seams and I wanted to die too, the more I Tried talking to her, the more things got worse, she just wanted to be left alone and die, it was better than having to deal with the reality of the thing she valued most in her life, being gone.
Since she was a kid, she wanted to kill herself, and swore to herself to not do it until her mom died, cuz she didn't want to cause any distress to her, now with that finally ocurring, shefelt there was no need to be alive anymore, and while her brain tried to protect her by isolating her from reality, now even being with me also let her know, things really did happen, this is not 2015 anymore, and there's nothing that can bring that back.
Things got worse, I ended up wanting to kill myself too, my new found relationship was quickly falling apart and I Was pretty much neglecting my own feelings in order to try and help my friend, I felt utterly useless and unable to do anything, I tried talking, tellingher I Was there, cuz the whole reason I even asked her to move back in was because I Wanted to help her and get her to therapy cuz I knew part of the story and her being in denial, but not tho that extent, previous therapist have told her grief would last x amount of time, but that wasn't case, it has gone for just about 5 years so far.
Things got so bad, she started cutting herself a lot, so we ended up going to a psychiatrich hospital, that has a pretty bad reputation and also we experienced ourselves that, we only have a 18 minutes interview and after that they wanted to get her commited, we refused , but got medication.
She started taking meds but apart from the first few days they stopped working and things got bad again, I ended up breaking too after many incidents(specially disregarding my own feeligns and needs, and the person I wanted to be with, in favor of trying to right a wrong), which caused me to also fall into depression, I didn't took the commissions I had been offered, like togepi's mentioned earlier, to date it'd be my most expensive commissionand I always wanted to do a work for him, and I Wasn't even able to function properly anymore.
I was caring for her, stopping her from cutting herself when I could but I couldn't really handle that, it has really take a huge blow on my mental health as well to the point where I became suicidal as well being unable to help, felt like all that that hope I had for a better future got crushed.
Things have been like that since january and only gotten worse and worse over time, she has opened up more , told me things she hasn't told anyone, and that only filled her with more despair, for the past 2 weeks or so she stopped getting out of bed almost altogether for anything other than going to the bathroom and ocassionally accepting food.
A few days ago, she disclosed her plans to commit suicide at one of 2 dates, next month, september 23rd, or next year, april 17th , as she feels is the way to end a cycle that should have ended since she was a kid. After that I started reaching out to another friend, I always kept everything up to msyself, but also I Realized i need help too and can't do this alone, hence why I'm coming here, first and foremost, to explain the reason of my abscence, second, since atm I'm entirely broke and unable to help after I spent all money I had moving again on july 9th(the house we were previously living in, where I moved back at the end of december last year, was put on sale without any prior notification, owner got scared because the whole covid thing so decided to sell to get as much money as possible so I had to look for a new place and move within just a few days ).
Yesterday she almost overdosed on medication, induced vomit on herself, and aside from the pills, the vomit however, had a few streaks of blood, I Was adviced against taking her to the red cross since we live in one of the states hitted hard by the covid pandemic, with the red cross clinic being shut down a couple months ago after all personel got infected due to low safety measures, which is a reality we live here in Mexico, so I'm also trying to raise money to get her medical attention in a private hospital.
A friend suggested to open up an auction for an adoptable I designed a while ago to help raise funds so I can get her to a therapist asap, since my original plan was to do a commission but time is of the ssence right now given all the previous stated facts.
I'll post all the details of the auction if anyone is interested, I just don't know what else to do , I have hit a super low point and I needed to open up, there's no way I can do this on my own anymore.
Will edit this in the next few hours to update on the current situation, sorry in advance if this journal seems a bit messy but I've been writing on and off after going to the next room to check on my friend.
Sorry for the little abscence
Posted 5 years agoHey everyone! I didn't leave again (well not for a long time, that is) I was dealing with the move, had a lot of issues, if you're interested in knowing a quick recap, I posted about it on my twitter account https://twitter.com/IfritLair/statu.....64190027739137 , my hand is better now, just was able to work again yesterday, so I'm glad at least I'm back in business again just at the very end of the year. Need to catch up, just wanted to update you all.
I hope you're having a great holidays!
Ifrit~
Below I will list all of the commissioners I owe art to, if I miss anyone, please drop me a note, it's gonna take a while to go thru all of it tho, and will also take me a while to finally complete all the missing work, but I plan on doing at least one a week starting january, for this month I need to raise some money so I can move and there's just a couple weeks left. All will be done in a very high quality.
Pieter Flerackers-hentai foundry: 2 girls sucking cock -20%
Flack the Jack-furaffinity : horse femboy-40%
York Indayla-furaffinity: cyborg horse-50%
Zz-furaffinity: shark female ref sheet-80%
Jens Tunnat-furaffinity: Muscle Dog curling.-15%
Moz-furaffinity: Cold war scene -15%
Onistina-furaffinity: Character piece
Shyloc-furaffinity: couple -15%
Ailith Winter-furaffinity: wallpaper scene -20%
Nifsara-hentai foundry: subject changed, waiting for details.
Alexander-discord: Alex Lion -20%
Summer-discord: flat color piece, will be upgraded-20%
Drakesblood Drakesblood 2 character piece
VORTIGANSHINE VORTIGANSHINE fun in the armory
I hope you're having a great holidays!
Ifrit~
Below I will list all of the commissioners I owe art to, if I miss anyone, please drop me a note, it's gonna take a while to go thru all of it tho, and will also take me a while to finally complete all the missing work, but I plan on doing at least one a week starting january, for this month I need to raise some money so I can move and there's just a couple weeks left. All will be done in a very high quality.
Pieter Flerackers-hentai foundry: 2 girls sucking cock -20%
Flack the Jack-furaffinity : horse femboy-40%
York Indayla-furaffinity: cyborg horse-50%
Zz-furaffinity: shark female ref sheet-80%
Jens Tunnat-furaffinity: Muscle Dog curling.-15%
Moz-furaffinity: Cold war scene -15%
Onistina-furaffinity: Character piece
Shyloc-furaffinity: couple -15%
Ailith Winter-furaffinity: wallpaper scene -20%
Nifsara-hentai foundry: subject changed, waiting for details.
Alexander-discord: Alex Lion -20%
Summer-discord: flat color piece, will be upgraded-20%
Drakesblood Drakesblood 2 character piece
VORTIGANSHINE VORTIGANSHINE fun in the armory
I'm back, finally
Posted 6 years agoHello everyone, it's been a while, I never intended to leave this place, however life got in the way, it's time to shine some light in the events not only leading to that but also what prevented me to coming back before, the purpose of this is not to be a sobstory or cause sympathy or make excuses, I just want to let you know the whole story so you can understand what happened, just bear in mind, it'll be a long read, so if short on time , skip to the end for the good 'ol tl;dr.
Furaffinity wasn't the first time I used the nickname BlazingIfrit, it was however, first used on hentai foundry, back in 2013, even tho I wasn't there very long, I was becoming very popular and thriving, my prices were fair for my quality and my work received, howver that didn't last long, since after a few months in, my 2 cats at the time, had a very bad fight, they weren't letting go of each other, so I tried to break them apart, in my attemps, one of them bit my hand very hard, it was so bad that it damaged the tendon on my right hand(I'm right handed), also part of the nerve was slightly damaged, which caused that for a few months I wasn't able to draw at all since I wasn't able to move my thumb/grip the pen. I didn't think at first it was that bad, but trying to work just caused me a lot of pain, so I had to take a forced hiatus, while still being able to post comissions I had thone, I realzied I wasn't able to draw much some works I still tried to do them, but it was very painful, so what used to take me a few days/up to 2 weeks, became couple months of slow painful work but in the end I couldn't work anymore so after a couple months of not working, money quickly disapeared and I was in a very bad spot since I could no longer afford food.
I started drawing again but I wasn't able to do clean linework since my hand was a bit shaky, my main source of income were highly polished paintings , but couldn't do them anymore, out of desperation I reached to a friend so I could get some suggestions, and she suggested me to try furaffinity, which I did, obviously coming from HF, I had no furry works to show, so my gallery was quickly dismised (you can still go all the way back to my gallery and find those hentai works tho lol). So I tried doing some sketchy samples, since it was pretty much all I could handle at the time.
One day, after a lot of time without look findig work, I got a commission from the furaffinity forums, this one https://www.furaffinity.net/view/14542241/ for
bacent , while my rates were fair (http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-3W3kczCo6.....et+smal00l.jpg ) , at the time my confidence was on the ground since I was no longer able to do the quality of work I was doing before, and I could no longer even afford food, so I accepted that commission for the price of 50USD, which became my only rate I charged while on furaffinity, I wasn't familiar with the fandom orgeneral rates of artist, nor was I had the guts to up my prices risking not having work, since at the time I had several months overdue on rent and electricity (I live in Mexico, my landlord has been very understanding, not to mention that when I moved to this apartment I couldn't even have internet due to a debt left by previous tenant which greatlyu affected my ability to get work for the first 2 months living here, but also the way the electricity company works here, I supose since we live in a 3rd world country, they know we can't really afford to pay the bills a lot of the time, so not only they take a long time to cut the service, but even when you get it suspended, you can get an electrician to restore it for you, even the own guys from the company that cut the service advice you to do so lol), so I was buried in debt, and couldn't honestly risk raising my prices, cuz it was my only source of income, so I stuck with it.
Having cheap prices and high quality make me become very popular quickly here on furaffinity, altho quite a sizeable amount of clients told me I was offering way more than any other artist at that price range, I didn't had the confidence to adjust prices for the aforementioned reasons, and that really became the beginning of the hole that up to this day I haven't been able to get out of.
Near the end of 2014, my PC was having a lot of issues, I live in a cheap apartment complex, and electric infrastructure sucks here, so whenever there's even a small rain, power outages occur, at the time, those weren't frequent, since I live in Culiacan, having a very hot weather year round, and barely any rain, if at all. However when it happened, it was very sudden, sometimes even caused by wind , all those power outages took a toll in my pc, damaging the hardware, so I had many instances of the PC shutting down by itself, so I took a bunch of commissions to get a new pc since I knew I needed to replace it soon, at the time Iw as doing a lot of work (some of you that have known me since those days, may remember that I used to do up to 2 pics a day) , I was pretty fast by that time, so I felt confident in accepting a bunch of work since I was gonna finish it real soon.. then one day my PC no longer booted up, took it to the tech, but the whole thing was dead (motherboard, processor and video card) except for the hard drive (thankfully), thanks to a bunch of commissions I got from here, and one I took from hentai foundry, I was able to order a new pc, which was suposed to arrive in 5 days, however due to being close to xmas, plus some issues with the seller, my pc took 3 weeks to get to me, so from doing 1-2 pieces a day, I couldn't work at all for all that time, and I spent all of the money I raised on the new pc, that's when I started having a backlog. Once I got the new PC, I also had several issues moving my old stuff back to the new pc, I was running windows 7 before, and the new one came with windows 8, after a lot of tech support from the company and they suggested me to update to windows 8.1, I was able to work again, but by the time I was in a forced hiatus of a month, and sure enough, I was working fast again, but was completely broke, and again not able to afford food/rent or internet, so I have to accept even more commissions to manage to survive.
I managed to do a lot of work in january, but march came..and I had a very very bad back injury while working out (I work out at home), I suddenly felt a pop in my back, and was very sore, but still able to move, tried some mobility exercise but the pain only grew stronger, I messaged my best friend (who was also my roomate, but at the time was visiting a friend), and she came home to find me laying ont he ground, I wasn't able to stand up or move very much, due to all that previously happened, I didn't have money, so I coulnd't afford going to the hospital, I stayed there in the floor for 3 days straight, my friend took care of me and after the third day I was able to go see a doctor with herhelp, got a shot and the muscles relaxed, and was able to move a bit again, to this day that injury prevails.
However that was not enough for that year, as since you may already know given my previous journal, that's the year when I started having allergies, first, the dogs of my partner gave me a weird rash on my way home, didn't think much of it, sinceit looked like a bug bite or something, until past an hour, it extended, covering several parts of my torso, got some meds, and went on my merry way home.
Over the next several weeks, it went worse and worse, what started as small dots, over a month became anaphylaxis each time I was near the dogs... and then all sort of things caused the allergies, from stirfoam cups, to ants, to flowers and tissue paper. That year I spent almost every week or even twice a week at the hospital, sometimes having the ambulance come from me, and got a ridiculous amount of steroid shots over a small time, which in turn caused a whole lot of side effects, from really strong headaches lasting up to a whole week, to a rapid weight gain (50 pounds) within about 2 months.
I wasn't able to work much with all those health issues, which also meant I couldn't afford to get treatment or even tested for the allergies, so I was relying a lot on the red cross for treatment. My best friend was also my roomate, so she took care of me during that time, and also help me a lot getting some jobs (she's also an artist) to pay for food. However, come july of that year, Her brother was killed in a car robbery. That of course caused a very bad depression, but also on her mom, who became obsesed trying to find out who did that to her son(this will be relevant later on).
Allergy related issues continued during the next several months, but I was able to work, albeit at a slower pace, my health was quickly declining due to the gained weight, and was unable to lose it despite exercise/dietary changes. After several attempts to lose weight, I tried the very popular back then, Keto diet, which helped me lose a few pounds, things seemed to be improving since I Was also slowly clearing the backlog. Losing the weight and exercising again, helped me a lot, I was able to work slightly faster, and things were looking up, I remember this time very clearly, since the new pokemon game was coming out at the end of the year, I also started getting some commission from the forums at my old rates, and was slowly gaining back my confidence of finally updating my prices, then, on October, while my best friend was visiting our friend, she got horrible news, her mom was just been killed too. She was destroyed, my best friend became my roomate years ago, cuz her whole life what she wanted was to prove her family (mom and brother) that she could make it as an artist, and I decided to help, she improved a ton over the first few years she lived with me and I tutored her, but she always struggled with severe depression. So after that, she was in a very very dark place. That's when everything got really bad, since we had to go to the morgue to identify the body, not to mention do a lot of paperwork so we could retrieve it, we had no clue what to do since it was so sudden, to make matters worse, the rest of her family has been always money driven, so all they did was say 'look at the bright side, now you can sell the cars and house so you can buy one for yourself!' We had to do a lot of paper work and go around town doing stuff to get the funeral sorted out.
During the next couple months we still had to do lots of paper work since we had to retrieve her mom's car that was seized by the police, since a lot of important documents were on the vehicle, not to mention that around december, her mom's house was robbed, causing a lot of pain to my friend, since she couldn't even bring herself to go into the house, she didn't wanted to disturb it, as it was like a time capsule , being completely still since last time her mom was there, the thieves trashed the place, leaving my friend heartbroken. We make sure to reinforce the windows and doors, while again having her family doing stupid remarks to her about being a fool for not selling the stuff, and blaming her for what just happened (the house robbery).
For all those months, I didn't work at all since I was all the time with her dealing with all the issues, that's the reason I stopped posting on the site, and from that point I've been meaning to come back, but things just kept going south, also I didn't wanna disclose what happened with my friend those months but I got her permission, since it seemed like I just ran away with the money of my commissioners, which wasn't the case.
During the next several weeks, after things calmed down a little, I started working again, also my health was not as good, since the keto diet also made me feel pretty bad, getting bunch of headaches, and weight loss stoped.
Since I was pretty desperate about it, and the weight gain had even caused me troubless when it comes to sleep, I decided to try one last thing, which was going plant based, and it actually worked, since doing that I never had allergies again, so I was able to get my health back on track, working again , clearing the backlog while taking new commissions from notes I still had on my gallery+getting a few from the forums, however at this point my friend was under severe depression and suicidal, she read that having a puppy and raising it would help her, so she got a bull terrier, and it really helped her, she seemed happy for the first time in months (this was around january), however after the dog was around 3 months old, it started causing issues since she also had another dog, a small chihuahua, and I have several cats, the 2 dogs were competing , both are females, so sometimes they had fights, and I also wasn't able tosleep because of it, which caused me to not been able to work much, since I was no longer able to work and so get enough money to suport both of us, she had to go live with our friend for a while. After getting back my sleep schedule, I started pumping work again, and by the end of the end of the year, things were looking up, after all that time IW as eager to go back here, and finally was able to pay all my debts, and waslooking for a new place big enough to fit my friend's new dog without an issue, but I had no luck finding such place, this was around the last couple weeks of december.
Around mid January(2018), my best fried had apendicitis, so I spent all the money I had in the hospital stay and meds, but couldn't afford the surgery, however a friend ofher let her borrow money so we could finally pay for the surgery, however I was out of funds again, and I was unable to work during my stay at the hospital with her.
In april, we had very uncharacteristic weather, having lots of strong rain for a few days causing lots of power outages, and the first few days of may, one of those outaged damaged my pc, while I took it to the tech, they tested the hardware but they were unable to boot my pc cuz they didn't have a suitable power supply, nor could I afford one at the moment, a friend of mine let me borrow some money to purchase one, and once they booted it, the tech let me know not only the power supply was dead, but also my video card, and at the time they were super expensive due to miners. I was again unable to work, my best friend let me borrow her mom's pc, however it wasn't very powerful, so even tho I tried opening up my files there, it wouldn't load them, and have constant crashes, so I wasn't able to work at all, another friend let me borrow a spare video card so I could work on my computer, andwhile it wasn't enough to properly handle my big paintings, I was able to do flat colored pictures, I got a lot of work thanks to bacent recommendations on discord, finally raising enough money to purchase the new card and getting back to work again. By the end of the year I was finally able to do big paintings like I used to back in my hentai foundry days, only picking up works on the forums, while still trying to complete the backlog, but due to all that had happened all this time, the list was very slow moving, and I had already accumulated a big debt again cuz I could only afford food and pay a little bit of rent.
Then it comes finally 2019, and again this year brough heavy rain weather, even worse than the previous year however now I have a UPS, so while I'm kinda safe with the power outages, if instead the electricity has a low power (?), like when light flickers, then the pc shuts down, and that happened to me alot this year,losing a lot of progress on a specific painting that I had to restart close to 15 times due to file getting corrupted due to all the electrical issues and pc shutting down due to faulty ups (it's a mexican brand, the only one I could afford to buy when I bought the video card, they didn't make the warranty valid :/), so to be safe I had to turn off my pc whenever we had theslightlest rain, which it lasted all the way from april till last october, and here I am now, when things were getting a bit better, my landlady is no longer willing to wait since I'm several months behind in rent, so she's not renewing my contract, and I need to look for a new place to live within the next couple weeks before the end of the year.
That even tho took me for surprise, means I will also leave this place that caused so much issues for me, and during the past couple months I've gained enough confidence due to some commissioners praising my work, since as you all that have ever commission me, know that I have always strive to produce high quality content, and now I 'm willing to go back to my old rates and charge what's fair for what I offer.
I know I have let many of you down by making you wait so long for your art, but I wanted to explain exactly what's been going on, and I will try my best to make you whole, each and everyone of you who I still owe art to, will receive work that is worth more than you originally paid for, and I hope I can regain your trust. It was never my intention to just disappear, but all this really was out of my control, specially when it comes to health reasons.
While my current situation is far from good, I've accumulated a lot of experience, and my health is pretty good right now, I still follow the same diet since 2017, and haven't had any more allergy issues, also got my weight in control again.
I'm able to work properly now since the weather is stable , and also work much faster and higher quality than ever, so even financially right now I'm in a pretty bad place, I'm confident things will be better moving forward.
I will be contacting all of you who are still waiting for your commissions, I hope you can forgive me, and I really will make it up to you with the best art I can produce for you. It will take a while to cover all the backlog+still earning money to make a living, however moving forward I will adjust my rates so I don't get back in to the hole never again, so all I ask of you is to have a little bit patient, I know this all looks bad, but I also know if you commissioned me in the first place was cuz my art catched your attention, and many of you are also repeating costumers, now you finally know the reason behind what has been going on for the last several years.
I hope too, that you can understand the step change of prices, but I hope you also see that reflected in the work I have, and will continue to produce.
TL:DR: I used to be a thriving artist back in 2013, charging up to 300 USD per character, getting lots of work, after a hand injury I could no longer work , got into a lot of debts, and had to lower my prices all the way back to 50USD since I could not even afford food. I've had many health issues during the following years+ the double edge sword of charging so little for a high quality work. Life got in the way time and time again, price again being what kept me in the same never ending cycle unable to improve my life even a little. Moving forward prices will be adjusted and all clients who's been waiting for their art will be make whole.
Below I will list all of the commissioners I owe art to, if I miss anyone, please drop me a note, it's gonna take a while to go thru all of it tho, and will also take me a while to finally complete all the missing work, but I plan on doing at least one a week starting january, for this month I need to raise some money so I can move and there's just a couple weeks left. All will be done in a very high quality.
Pieter Flerackers-hentai foundry: 2 girls sucking cock -20%
Flack the Jack-furaffinity : horse femboy-40%
York Indayla-furaffinity: cyborg horse-50%
Zz-furaffinity: shark female ref sheet-80%
Jens Tunnat-furaffinity: Muscle Dog curling.-15%
Moz-furaffinity: Cold war scene -15%
Onistina-furaffinity: Character piece
Shyloc-furaffinity: couple -15%
Ailith Winter-furaffinity: wallpaper scene -20%
Nifsara-hentai foundry: subject changed, waiting for details.
Alexander-discord: Alex Lion -20%
Summer-discord: flat color piece, will be upgraded-20%
Drakesblood 2 character piece
VORTIGANSHINE fun in the armory
Furaffinity wasn't the first time I used the nickname BlazingIfrit, it was however, first used on hentai foundry, back in 2013, even tho I wasn't there very long, I was becoming very popular and thriving, my prices were fair for my quality and my work received, howver that didn't last long, since after a few months in, my 2 cats at the time, had a very bad fight, they weren't letting go of each other, so I tried to break them apart, in my attemps, one of them bit my hand very hard, it was so bad that it damaged the tendon on my right hand(I'm right handed), also part of the nerve was slightly damaged, which caused that for a few months I wasn't able to draw at all since I wasn't able to move my thumb/grip the pen. I didn't think at first it was that bad, but trying to work just caused me a lot of pain, so I had to take a forced hiatus, while still being able to post comissions I had thone, I realzied I wasn't able to draw much some works I still tried to do them, but it was very painful, so what used to take me a few days/up to 2 weeks, became couple months of slow painful work but in the end I couldn't work anymore so after a couple months of not working, money quickly disapeared and I was in a very bad spot since I could no longer afford food.
I started drawing again but I wasn't able to do clean linework since my hand was a bit shaky, my main source of income were highly polished paintings , but couldn't do them anymore, out of desperation I reached to a friend so I could get some suggestions, and she suggested me to try furaffinity, which I did, obviously coming from HF, I had no furry works to show, so my gallery was quickly dismised (you can still go all the way back to my gallery and find those hentai works tho lol). So I tried doing some sketchy samples, since it was pretty much all I could handle at the time.
One day, after a lot of time without look findig work, I got a commission from the furaffinity forums, this one https://www.furaffinity.net/view/14542241/ for
bacent , while my rates were fair (http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-3W3kczCo6.....et+smal00l.jpg ) , at the time my confidence was on the ground since I was no longer able to do the quality of work I was doing before, and I could no longer even afford food, so I accepted that commission for the price of 50USD, which became my only rate I charged while on furaffinity, I wasn't familiar with the fandom orgeneral rates of artist, nor was I had the guts to up my prices risking not having work, since at the time I had several months overdue on rent and electricity (I live in Mexico, my landlord has been very understanding, not to mention that when I moved to this apartment I couldn't even have internet due to a debt left by previous tenant which greatlyu affected my ability to get work for the first 2 months living here, but also the way the electricity company works here, I supose since we live in a 3rd world country, they know we can't really afford to pay the bills a lot of the time, so not only they take a long time to cut the service, but even when you get it suspended, you can get an electrician to restore it for you, even the own guys from the company that cut the service advice you to do so lol), so I was buried in debt, and couldn't honestly risk raising my prices, cuz it was my only source of income, so I stuck with it.Having cheap prices and high quality make me become very popular quickly here on furaffinity, altho quite a sizeable amount of clients told me I was offering way more than any other artist at that price range, I didn't had the confidence to adjust prices for the aforementioned reasons, and that really became the beginning of the hole that up to this day I haven't been able to get out of.
Near the end of 2014, my PC was having a lot of issues, I live in a cheap apartment complex, and electric infrastructure sucks here, so whenever there's even a small rain, power outages occur, at the time, those weren't frequent, since I live in Culiacan, having a very hot weather year round, and barely any rain, if at all. However when it happened, it was very sudden, sometimes even caused by wind , all those power outages took a toll in my pc, damaging the hardware, so I had many instances of the PC shutting down by itself, so I took a bunch of commissions to get a new pc since I knew I needed to replace it soon, at the time Iw as doing a lot of work (some of you that have known me since those days, may remember that I used to do up to 2 pics a day) , I was pretty fast by that time, so I felt confident in accepting a bunch of work since I was gonna finish it real soon.. then one day my PC no longer booted up, took it to the tech, but the whole thing was dead (motherboard, processor and video card) except for the hard drive (thankfully), thanks to a bunch of commissions I got from here, and one I took from hentai foundry, I was able to order a new pc, which was suposed to arrive in 5 days, however due to being close to xmas, plus some issues with the seller, my pc took 3 weeks to get to me, so from doing 1-2 pieces a day, I couldn't work at all for all that time, and I spent all of the money I raised on the new pc, that's when I started having a backlog. Once I got the new PC, I also had several issues moving my old stuff back to the new pc, I was running windows 7 before, and the new one came with windows 8, after a lot of tech support from the company and they suggested me to update to windows 8.1, I was able to work again, but by the time I was in a forced hiatus of a month, and sure enough, I was working fast again, but was completely broke, and again not able to afford food/rent or internet, so I have to accept even more commissions to manage to survive.
I managed to do a lot of work in january, but march came..and I had a very very bad back injury while working out (I work out at home), I suddenly felt a pop in my back, and was very sore, but still able to move, tried some mobility exercise but the pain only grew stronger, I messaged my best friend (who was also my roomate, but at the time was visiting a friend), and she came home to find me laying ont he ground, I wasn't able to stand up or move very much, due to all that previously happened, I didn't have money, so I coulnd't afford going to the hospital, I stayed there in the floor for 3 days straight, my friend took care of me and after the third day I was able to go see a doctor with herhelp, got a shot and the muscles relaxed, and was able to move a bit again, to this day that injury prevails.
However that was not enough for that year, as since you may already know given my previous journal, that's the year when I started having allergies, first, the dogs of my partner gave me a weird rash on my way home, didn't think much of it, sinceit looked like a bug bite or something, until past an hour, it extended, covering several parts of my torso, got some meds, and went on my merry way home.
Over the next several weeks, it went worse and worse, what started as small dots, over a month became anaphylaxis each time I was near the dogs... and then all sort of things caused the allergies, from stirfoam cups, to ants, to flowers and tissue paper. That year I spent almost every week or even twice a week at the hospital, sometimes having the ambulance come from me, and got a ridiculous amount of steroid shots over a small time, which in turn caused a whole lot of side effects, from really strong headaches lasting up to a whole week, to a rapid weight gain (50 pounds) within about 2 months.
I wasn't able to work much with all those health issues, which also meant I couldn't afford to get treatment or even tested for the allergies, so I was relying a lot on the red cross for treatment. My best friend was also my roomate, so she took care of me during that time, and also help me a lot getting some jobs (she's also an artist) to pay for food. However, come july of that year, Her brother was killed in a car robbery. That of course caused a very bad depression, but also on her mom, who became obsesed trying to find out who did that to her son(this will be relevant later on).
Allergy related issues continued during the next several months, but I was able to work, albeit at a slower pace, my health was quickly declining due to the gained weight, and was unable to lose it despite exercise/dietary changes. After several attempts to lose weight, I tried the very popular back then, Keto diet, which helped me lose a few pounds, things seemed to be improving since I Was also slowly clearing the backlog. Losing the weight and exercising again, helped me a lot, I was able to work slightly faster, and things were looking up, I remember this time very clearly, since the new pokemon game was coming out at the end of the year, I also started getting some commission from the forums at my old rates, and was slowly gaining back my confidence of finally updating my prices, then, on October, while my best friend was visiting our friend, she got horrible news, her mom was just been killed too. She was destroyed, my best friend became my roomate years ago, cuz her whole life what she wanted was to prove her family (mom and brother) that she could make it as an artist, and I decided to help, she improved a ton over the first few years she lived with me and I tutored her, but she always struggled with severe depression. So after that, she was in a very very dark place. That's when everything got really bad, since we had to go to the morgue to identify the body, not to mention do a lot of paperwork so we could retrieve it, we had no clue what to do since it was so sudden, to make matters worse, the rest of her family has been always money driven, so all they did was say 'look at the bright side, now you can sell the cars and house so you can buy one for yourself!' We had to do a lot of paper work and go around town doing stuff to get the funeral sorted out.
During the next couple months we still had to do lots of paper work since we had to retrieve her mom's car that was seized by the police, since a lot of important documents were on the vehicle, not to mention that around december, her mom's house was robbed, causing a lot of pain to my friend, since she couldn't even bring herself to go into the house, she didn't wanted to disturb it, as it was like a time capsule , being completely still since last time her mom was there, the thieves trashed the place, leaving my friend heartbroken. We make sure to reinforce the windows and doors, while again having her family doing stupid remarks to her about being a fool for not selling the stuff, and blaming her for what just happened (the house robbery).
For all those months, I didn't work at all since I was all the time with her dealing with all the issues, that's the reason I stopped posting on the site, and from that point I've been meaning to come back, but things just kept going south, also I didn't wanna disclose what happened with my friend those months but I got her permission, since it seemed like I just ran away with the money of my commissioners, which wasn't the case.
During the next several weeks, after things calmed down a little, I started working again, also my health was not as good, since the keto diet also made me feel pretty bad, getting bunch of headaches, and weight loss stoped.
Since I was pretty desperate about it, and the weight gain had even caused me troubless when it comes to sleep, I decided to try one last thing, which was going plant based, and it actually worked, since doing that I never had allergies again, so I was able to get my health back on track, working again , clearing the backlog while taking new commissions from notes I still had on my gallery+getting a few from the forums, however at this point my friend was under severe depression and suicidal, she read that having a puppy and raising it would help her, so she got a bull terrier, and it really helped her, she seemed happy for the first time in months (this was around january), however after the dog was around 3 months old, it started causing issues since she also had another dog, a small chihuahua, and I have several cats, the 2 dogs were competing , both are females, so sometimes they had fights, and I also wasn't able tosleep because of it, which caused me to not been able to work much, since I was no longer able to work and so get enough money to suport both of us, she had to go live with our friend for a while. After getting back my sleep schedule, I started pumping work again, and by the end of the end of the year, things were looking up, after all that time IW as eager to go back here, and finally was able to pay all my debts, and waslooking for a new place big enough to fit my friend's new dog without an issue, but I had no luck finding such place, this was around the last couple weeks of december.
Around mid January(2018), my best fried had apendicitis, so I spent all the money I had in the hospital stay and meds, but couldn't afford the surgery, however a friend ofher let her borrow money so we could finally pay for the surgery, however I was out of funds again, and I was unable to work during my stay at the hospital with her.
In april, we had very uncharacteristic weather, having lots of strong rain for a few days causing lots of power outages, and the first few days of may, one of those outaged damaged my pc, while I took it to the tech, they tested the hardware but they were unable to boot my pc cuz they didn't have a suitable power supply, nor could I afford one at the moment, a friend of mine let me borrow some money to purchase one, and once they booted it, the tech let me know not only the power supply was dead, but also my video card, and at the time they were super expensive due to miners. I was again unable to work, my best friend let me borrow her mom's pc, however it wasn't very powerful, so even tho I tried opening up my files there, it wouldn't load them, and have constant crashes, so I wasn't able to work at all, another friend let me borrow a spare video card so I could work on my computer, andwhile it wasn't enough to properly handle my big paintings, I was able to do flat colored pictures, I got a lot of work thanks to
bacent recommendations on discord, finally raising enough money to purchase the new card and getting back to work again. By the end of the year I was finally able to do big paintings like I used to back in my hentai foundry days, only picking up works on the forums, while still trying to complete the backlog, but due to all that had happened all this time, the list was very slow moving, and I had already accumulated a big debt again cuz I could only afford food and pay a little bit of rent.Then it comes finally 2019, and again this year brough heavy rain weather, even worse than the previous year however now I have a UPS, so while I'm kinda safe with the power outages, if instead the electricity has a low power (?), like when light flickers, then the pc shuts down, and that happened to me alot this year,losing a lot of progress on a specific painting that I had to restart close to 15 times due to file getting corrupted due to all the electrical issues and pc shutting down due to faulty ups (it's a mexican brand, the only one I could afford to buy when I bought the video card, they didn't make the warranty valid :/), so to be safe I had to turn off my pc whenever we had theslightlest rain, which it lasted all the way from april till last october, and here I am now, when things were getting a bit better, my landlady is no longer willing to wait since I'm several months behind in rent, so she's not renewing my contract, and I need to look for a new place to live within the next couple weeks before the end of the year.
That even tho took me for surprise, means I will also leave this place that caused so much issues for me, and during the past couple months I've gained enough confidence due to some commissioners praising my work, since as you all that have ever commission me, know that I have always strive to produce high quality content, and now I 'm willing to go back to my old rates and charge what's fair for what I offer.
I know I have let many of you down by making you wait so long for your art, but I wanted to explain exactly what's been going on, and I will try my best to make you whole, each and everyone of you who I still owe art to, will receive work that is worth more than you originally paid for, and I hope I can regain your trust. It was never my intention to just disappear, but all this really was out of my control, specially when it comes to health reasons.
While my current situation is far from good, I've accumulated a lot of experience, and my health is pretty good right now, I still follow the same diet since 2017, and haven't had any more allergy issues, also got my weight in control again.
I'm able to work properly now since the weather is stable , and also work much faster and higher quality than ever, so even financially right now I'm in a pretty bad place, I'm confident things will be better moving forward.
I will be contacting all of you who are still waiting for your commissions, I hope you can forgive me, and I really will make it up to you with the best art I can produce for you. It will take a while to cover all the backlog+still earning money to make a living, however moving forward I will adjust my rates so I don't get back in to the hole never again, so all I ask of you is to have a little bit patient, I know this all looks bad, but I also know if you commissioned me in the first place was cuz my art catched your attention, and many of you are also repeating costumers, now you finally know the reason behind what has been going on for the last several years.
I hope too, that you can understand the step change of prices, but I hope you also see that reflected in the work I have, and will continue to produce.
TL:DR: I used to be a thriving artist back in 2013, charging up to 300 USD per character, getting lots of work, after a hand injury I could no longer work , got into a lot of debts, and had to lower my prices all the way back to 50USD since I could not even afford food. I've had many health issues during the following years+ the double edge sword of charging so little for a high quality work. Life got in the way time and time again, price again being what kept me in the same never ending cycle unable to improve my life even a little. Moving forward prices will be adjusted and all clients who's been waiting for their art will be make whole.
Below I will list all of the commissioners I owe art to, if I miss anyone, please drop me a note, it's gonna take a while to go thru all of it tho, and will also take me a while to finally complete all the missing work, but I plan on doing at least one a week starting january, for this month I need to raise some money so I can move and there's just a couple weeks left. All will be done in a very high quality.
Pieter Flerackers-hentai foundry: 2 girls sucking cock -20%
Flack the Jack-furaffinity : horse femboy-40%
York Indayla-furaffinity: cyborg horse-50%
Zz-furaffinity: shark female ref sheet-80%
Jens Tunnat-furaffinity: Muscle Dog curling.-15%
Moz-furaffinity: Cold war scene -15%
Onistina-furaffinity: Character piece
Shyloc-furaffinity: couple -15%
Ailith Winter-furaffinity: wallpaper scene -20%
Nifsara-hentai foundry: subject changed, waiting for details.
Alexander-discord: Alex Lion -20%
Summer-discord: flat color piece, will be upgraded-20%
Drakesblood 2 character piece
VORTIGANSHINE fun in the armoryStatus Update
Posted 7 years agoI'm not dead, thankfully.
I've been meaning to update this for a while, but stuff keeps piling on, seems like I can't really seem to have a decent month even.
I was hesitant on giving a full disclosure of what lead to me being away for this long, cuz it involves someone else, but things just scaleted quickly out of reach ever since october 2016. Since I will sharing no names I think it doesn't really expose anyone, but I need to come clean, cuz I've already given the wrong impression here.
Back in october 2016, my roomates's (who's also my best friend) mom was killed in a car robbery, almost exactly a year after her brother passed away, dealing with that was too much for her so she has a pretty bad breakdown, that's when things began, since that night we had to go identify the body, and we had a hard time trying to evern retrieve it, since she had a bad relationship with her family, so we were alone trying to figure stuff out, and given the whole situation in which it happened, things got more complicated.
After we got that sorted out, the funeral brought it's own issues, as my friend had to deal with her family, and since her bad relationship with them stems from her mom not getting along with them, you can imagine how the funeral went, she was destroyed, and we had a lot of stuff to sort out, with her mom's business, as well as what was gonna happen with her house and other stuff.
In short, from october till january, we were dealing with all sort of stuff, and things didn't went good at all, my friend got suicidal and has been under severe depression ever since, with that downtime I enter in a lot od debt, as well as wasn't able to keep up with the work backlog, and to make matters worse, my health wasn't good , as you may remember on my last journal, the whole thing with the allergies and all the meds,left my body in a pretty bad spot, and my hard drive died at the end of the month.
From that point onward, everything just spiraled out of control, in the end my friend had to move in with another friend since I could no longer help her, I was barely getting by with a couple jobs I get from friends, and couple commissions from the forum and things kept like that for most of last year, things seemed to improve a bit at the end of last year, but nope, old injury I had in my back in 2015 still was causing issues, I have cronic back pain since, but sometimes it gets unbearable.
This year seems to be no different, as earlier this year my video card got fried in a power outage, howver a friend let me borrow his card for a while, so here I am, I'm gonna try my best to make things right, and make a last ditch effort trying to fix eveyrthig.
Sorry for being away this long, but it was out of my hands, so to my commissioners, I'll be messaging ytou all during today and tomorrow, I've lost quite a few of the progress I had with ost of the pics, but I've sent a good deal of screenshots that will allow me to restart them.
Ifrit.
I've been meaning to update this for a while, but stuff keeps piling on, seems like I can't really seem to have a decent month even.
I was hesitant on giving a full disclosure of what lead to me being away for this long, cuz it involves someone else, but things just scaleted quickly out of reach ever since october 2016. Since I will sharing no names I think it doesn't really expose anyone, but I need to come clean, cuz I've already given the wrong impression here.
Back in october 2016, my roomates's (who's also my best friend) mom was killed in a car robbery, almost exactly a year after her brother passed away, dealing with that was too much for her so she has a pretty bad breakdown, that's when things began, since that night we had to go identify the body, and we had a hard time trying to evern retrieve it, since she had a bad relationship with her family, so we were alone trying to figure stuff out, and given the whole situation in which it happened, things got more complicated.
After we got that sorted out, the funeral brought it's own issues, as my friend had to deal with her family, and since her bad relationship with them stems from her mom not getting along with them, you can imagine how the funeral went, she was destroyed, and we had a lot of stuff to sort out, with her mom's business, as well as what was gonna happen with her house and other stuff.
In short, from october till january, we were dealing with all sort of stuff, and things didn't went good at all, my friend got suicidal and has been under severe depression ever since, with that downtime I enter in a lot od debt, as well as wasn't able to keep up with the work backlog, and to make matters worse, my health wasn't good , as you may remember on my last journal, the whole thing with the allergies and all the meds,left my body in a pretty bad spot, and my hard drive died at the end of the month.
From that point onward, everything just spiraled out of control, in the end my friend had to move in with another friend since I could no longer help her, I was barely getting by with a couple jobs I get from friends, and couple commissions from the forum and things kept like that for most of last year, things seemed to improve a bit at the end of last year, but nope, old injury I had in my back in 2015 still was causing issues, I have cronic back pain since, but sometimes it gets unbearable.
This year seems to be no different, as earlier this year my video card got fried in a power outage, howver a friend let me borrow his card for a while, so here I am, I'm gonna try my best to make things right, and make a last ditch effort trying to fix eveyrthig.
Sorry for being away this long, but it was out of my hands, so to my commissioners, I'll be messaging ytou all during today and tomorrow, I've lost quite a few of the progress I had with ost of the pics, but I've sent a good deal of screenshots that will allow me to restart them.
Ifrit.
Update, so what's the deal?
Posted 9 years agoHello, first, I wanna start telling you, this isn't a sob story to gain sympathy or anything, I do it because I need to explain what's ebing goign on behind the scenes, why I went from working on pics on a daily basis to literally a couple months without any word or anything from me, specially cuz that's have caused some people to lose trust in me, and rightfully so, that's why I wanted to give a good explanation of the whole situation.
Alright,while the health issues didn't start until february 2015, the whole thing started at december 2014, that's when I got quite popular here, and started getting tons of work, and I was pumping on average 3 drawings a day, but my pc started to die, until one day it just suddenly fried, so I started getting a bit backlogged, I ordered a new computer, but it got delayed to weeks, so I got pretty delayed on works, once the new comptuer arrive I resumed work and started clearing the queue, which was at the time, the last week of january 2015, on february, I got a pretty bad back injury, which left me unable to move from the ground for two days straight, I was alone at home and I had to call my best friend, but since she's a girl she couldn't help me stand up, it was until later that week that I could get some medicine but stil couldn't walk for a few weeks, and obviously, couldn't work at all ( I tried tho, using my friend's laptop while laying on my back lol). , I finished a few pictures, but then , on march the real problems started, cuz out of nowhere, I had for the first time ever, an allergic reaction, which that time was caused by a friend's dog, and it was no common allergy, it ended in anaphylaxis, but It was controled with chlorphenamin, but it was just the beggining, as after that incident, I started having more and more allergic reactions in a lot of different situations, so far, paper tissues, a shirt, a local stray cat, a Styrofoam cup, and most recently (yesterday) an insect bite, have caused worse and worse reactions, on two ocassions ambulance had to come cuz I was dying, it really sucks, cuz even going outside of my hme is dangerous, specially since february this year, cuz I don't know if somebody moved nearby or something, but I've gotten allergies just by stepping outside my appartment.
I haven't been tested, because I can't afford it, all that time without being able to work, left me broke, broke to the point I've lost internet connection several times, water and even electricity supply for a week, so it's been pretty rough for me, cuz everytime it seems like things are getting better, and I'm uploading stuff (like last time you saw a bunch of new art), another allergic reaction takes place, from a different source.
Also, due to the excess of medication I've been given (dexamethasone, hydrocortisone, betametasone, and others I can't remember ) I've had some side effects ranigng from headaches that have lasted up to 30 hours at a time, to a huge gain in weight (50 pounds).also my immune system is shit atm , and have gotten stomach, throat and ear infections.
Due to all that , I haven't been able to work as much as I used to, but I still am, but I still owe a few pictures to a fw of you, I decided to post this, cuz I've have some disbelief, but really, I didn't just run away with your money, and lack of communication has been mainly cuz I ahven't have internet several times.
-Beware, graphic photos below, cuz some people still thought I was lying)
Some people even have proof, so , I have a couple pictures, one is from a reaction I had last year, one of the first (graphc, my back all covered in hives) https://www.dropbox.com/s/d89h356mq.....157_n.jpg?dl=0
This one is from the one I had yesterday :https://www.dropbox.com/s/8875on16j.....664_n.jpg?dl=0 ( the other arm was worst, but my friend was way to freaked out to look at it lol)
This one was taken after I got back from the hospital. https://www.dropbox.com/s/ub72rj38z.....306_n.jpg?dl=0 as you may see, there's a huge difference in weight gain. Also you can see my gallery there, just to be sure.
So anyway, the whole reason for me posting this, is to explain what's been going on, and way the lack of communication/work, I'm still working, but all I want is to ask you to be a bit patient, there's nothing that'd make me happiear than been able to pump as much work as I can , so I can please more people with my art, but I've been unable to do so.
With that being said, I hope you enjoy the art I'll be uploading soon, and also, to the people I still owe work to
, I'll contact you asap, just need to see who it is cuz some people on paypal don't leave notes specifying thei fA name so I need to research that, but still I do know which drawings needs to be done. Rest asured I'm working on them.
Alright,while the health issues didn't start until february 2015, the whole thing started at december 2014, that's when I got quite popular here, and started getting tons of work, and I was pumping on average 3 drawings a day, but my pc started to die, until one day it just suddenly fried, so I started getting a bit backlogged, I ordered a new computer, but it got delayed to weeks, so I got pretty delayed on works, once the new comptuer arrive I resumed work and started clearing the queue, which was at the time, the last week of january 2015, on february, I got a pretty bad back injury, which left me unable to move from the ground for two days straight, I was alone at home and I had to call my best friend, but since she's a girl she couldn't help me stand up, it was until later that week that I could get some medicine but stil couldn't walk for a few weeks, and obviously, couldn't work at all ( I tried tho, using my friend's laptop while laying on my back lol). , I finished a few pictures, but then , on march the real problems started, cuz out of nowhere, I had for the first time ever, an allergic reaction, which that time was caused by a friend's dog, and it was no common allergy, it ended in anaphylaxis, but It was controled with chlorphenamin, but it was just the beggining, as after that incident, I started having more and more allergic reactions in a lot of different situations, so far, paper tissues, a shirt, a local stray cat, a Styrofoam cup, and most recently (yesterday) an insect bite, have caused worse and worse reactions, on two ocassions ambulance had to come cuz I was dying, it really sucks, cuz even going outside of my hme is dangerous, specially since february this year, cuz I don't know if somebody moved nearby or something, but I've gotten allergies just by stepping outside my appartment.
I haven't been tested, because I can't afford it, all that time without being able to work, left me broke, broke to the point I've lost internet connection several times, water and even electricity supply for a week, so it's been pretty rough for me, cuz everytime it seems like things are getting better, and I'm uploading stuff (like last time you saw a bunch of new art), another allergic reaction takes place, from a different source.
Also, due to the excess of medication I've been given (dexamethasone, hydrocortisone, betametasone, and others I can't remember ) I've had some side effects ranigng from headaches that have lasted up to 30 hours at a time, to a huge gain in weight (50 pounds).also my immune system is shit atm , and have gotten stomach, throat and ear infections.
Due to all that , I haven't been able to work as much as I used to, but I still am, but I still owe a few pictures to a fw of you, I decided to post this, cuz I've have some disbelief, but really, I didn't just run away with your money, and lack of communication has been mainly cuz I ahven't have internet several times.
-Beware, graphic photos below, cuz some people still thought I was lying)
Some people even have proof, so , I have a couple pictures, one is from a reaction I had last year, one of the first (graphc, my back all covered in hives) https://www.dropbox.com/s/d89h356mq.....157_n.jpg?dl=0
This one is from the one I had yesterday :https://www.dropbox.com/s/8875on16j.....664_n.jpg?dl=0 ( the other arm was worst, but my friend was way to freaked out to look at it lol)
This one was taken after I got back from the hospital. https://www.dropbox.com/s/ub72rj38z.....306_n.jpg?dl=0 as you may see, there's a huge difference in weight gain. Also you can see my gallery there, just to be sure.
So anyway, the whole reason for me posting this, is to explain what's been going on, and way the lack of communication/work, I'm still working, but all I want is to ask you to be a bit patient, there's nothing that'd make me happiear than been able to pump as much work as I can , so I can please more people with my art, but I've been unable to do so.
With that being said, I hope you enjoy the art I'll be uploading soon, and also, to the people I still owe work to
, I'll contact you asap, just need to see who it is cuz some people on paypal don't leave notes specifying thei fA name so I need to research that, but still I do know which drawings needs to be done. Rest asured I'm working on them.
Update
Posted 9 years agoHello everyone, I'm Ifrit's behalf, I'm her best irl friend and I'm currently taking care of him, don't be scared is nothing too serius but he's currently scka nd has been unabel to be around the computer too much, he'll be on tonight and deliver some work he had done for a while now, and I'can't do that for him since I'm not sure whos the owner of each pic atm
HE ask me to post this so you guys wouldn't worry,he'll be online tonight once he wakes up, and he'll finish up the queue this week.
HE ask me to post this so you guys wouldn't worry,he'll be online tonight once he wakes up, and he'll finish up the queue this week.
Commission slots
Posted 9 years agoHey everyone, sorry I have been not very active lately, ther'es been a couple power outages lately that caused me to lose a few pics and had to start 'em over, but that aside, I want to let you know that I'm opening 6 commission slots!, if interested, send me a note .
Some samples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19099554/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18979848/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18990549/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15056971/ < COMMISSION INFO
At the moment I'll just offer color sketches, more complex pics like :
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19224192/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18882812/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18604646/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18604657/
Will be available probably around the end of march, as for now I need to do simple stuff while I solve some health issues, so stay tuned for them once they're open, I'll be also uploading more complex samples with bg and all in the upcoming weeks :D!
Also,I know some people send me notes in the last couple months asking for commissions, sorry I did not get back to you, I'll send each of you a note even if you might not be interested anymore , but I want to thank you a lot for the interest! unfortunately I've been having a lot of health issues the last few months that kept fucking up my schedule, that's why I 've been very unconsistent, but I'm hoping I can get back to do the usual pic a day I did last year, also I have a lot of plans for this year including more compelx pictures and animation :D, so stay tuned!
Thanks a lot for your support guys, and sorry again for not replying to some notes/messages :c.
Some samples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19099554/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18979848/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18990549/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15056971/ < COMMISSION INFO
At the moment I'll just offer color sketches, more complex pics like :
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19224192/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18882812/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18604646/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18604657/
Will be available probably around the end of march, as for now I need to do simple stuff while I solve some health issues, so stay tuned for them once they're open, I'll be also uploading more complex samples with bg and all in the upcoming weeks :D!
Also,I know some people send me notes in the last couple months asking for commissions, sorry I did not get back to you, I'll send each of you a note even if you might not be interested anymore , but I want to thank you a lot for the interest! unfortunately I've been having a lot of health issues the last few months that kept fucking up my schedule, that's why I 've been very unconsistent, but I'm hoping I can get back to do the usual pic a day I did last year, also I have a lot of plans for this year including more compelx pictures and animation :D, so stay tuned!
Thanks a lot for your support guys, and sorry again for not replying to some notes/messages :c.
Update
Posted 9 years agoSo , I'm not dead, yet xD, been pretty sick tho, and had another allergic reaction that coulda ended up with me not coming back, so , I'm gonna open a few slots for commissions to do this week, if interested, let me know.
Status Update
Posted 10 years agoHello everyone, just letting you know I'm not dead, just no internet atm, I'm much better of my back but got suck a few days ago, anyway, I'm still working on finishing up the queue, I?m down to 2 if I'm nor wrong which are one from shylock and one from red might, which are quite old, my bad for taking so long but those two pics are quite complex, so I Wanted to save them for the end so I can focus proper attention to them, besides them, there's a couple more that are recent, so please be a bit patient, the next 5 days or so will be enough for me to finish them up.
I'm gonna officially open commissions again next week, not sure when, probably wednesday or so, I have a few notes that I'll reply now that I almost cleared my schedule, as you may remember from a past journal, I try not to open new notres until I'm ready for new work, that way I can keep track of stuff that I need to do much easier, cuz sometimes my inbox is a mess xD
Anyway, thabks for understanding, and I will continue producing more cool stuff, specially once I finish my queue, I'll update my commissions so I'll offer not only sketches but finished paintings :d, i'm excited about that :D
Ifrit~
I'm gonna officially open commissions again next week, not sure when, probably wednesday or so, I have a few notes that I'll reply now that I almost cleared my schedule, as you may remember from a past journal, I try not to open new notres until I'm ready for new work, that way I can keep track of stuff that I need to do much easier, cuz sometimes my inbox is a mess xD
Anyway, thabks for understanding, and I will continue producing more cool stuff, specially once I finish my queue, I'll update my commissions so I'll offer not only sketches but finished paintings :d, i'm excited about that :D
Ifrit~
So I hurt my back
Posted 10 years agoLol as the title says, I had a back injury that was quite bad, so I wasn't able to even sit for almost a week, I'm much better now but it set me back again, althou I'm almost done with everything, so expect more pics now :D, just wanted to let you know guys I'm not dead (not yet at least xD)
Update, commissioners please read!
Posted 10 years agoHeu guys!
I'm not dead, can't say the same about my PC thou, it died last week, that's why I haven't uploaded anything the last few days or been able to communicate with my commissioners, I had a new computer being built, and was suposed to arrive on Monday but due to some issues with the case, it arrived til the end of Wednesday, so up until now I was installing stuff and retrieving all my files so I can continue with commissions I had already sketched, so now I'm resuming work and will be finishing everything within the next 5 days.
Sorry for making you wait guys, but my PC just died, but rest assured, you'll have your pictures pretty soon! I'll be doing about 3~4 a day, so stay tunned :D
I'm not dead, can't say the same about my PC thou, it died last week, that's why I haven't uploaded anything the last few days or been able to communicate with my commissioners, I had a new computer being built, and was suposed to arrive on Monday but due to some issues with the case, it arrived til the end of Wednesday, so up until now I was installing stuff and retrieving all my files so I can continue with commissions I had already sketched, so now I'm resuming work and will be finishing everything within the next 5 days.
Sorry for making you wait guys, but my PC just died, but rest assured, you'll have your pictures pretty soon! I'll be doing about 3~4 a day, so stay tunned :D
Commissions+update
Posted 11 years agoHello!
Sorry for being away last few days, last Thursday I had an incident with my cat , who decided to pee on my keyboard while I was out, and when I came back my keyboard was dead, reason why I haven't been posted or communicate with my commissioners this past days, I was waiting for some money to transfer from paypal, and here I am finally today, so I'm gonna catch up with work, thanks for your patiente!
In the mean time, commissions will be at 50 USD per character, I'll be opening 10 slots for the next few days, so note me if you want to get one :D.
So here's the details:
-Price is per single character
-I have the right to upload a small version of the picture to display in my gallery.
-Private commissions have an extra 30% fee.
-Complex characters (with lots of appendages, scales, armor, etc), will cost an extra 10 bucks.
-Payment is upfront once I've accepted the commission.
-Delivery time is usually up to 24 hours once I've accepted the commission, communication with the client greatly affects this, so I encourage you, if you want, to use skype or any other im service to make the process quicker.
-Provide all the info you can, pose, refs or any other description you see fit, to keep the price low, try to keep revisions at minimum, once I do the rough sketch and you approve it, I pretty much can't go back, since on the painting stage I only take about 3 hours to finish, so make sure to give me all the details needed beforehand (like colours or stuff like that)
-To get a slot, send a note with the title 'COMMISSION' and we'll take it from there.
Feel free to message me if you have any doubt, I'll be happy to answer :D
That's all, I hope you keep enjoying my art, I've found this site to be really nice, thank you all for visiting me and leaving comments :D.
Note: Your notes might not get read for up to 2 days, that's not cuz I'm ignoring you, but I like to open them once I finish the pictures I might be working on, so the note keeps highlighted until I'm ready to get to work on that, which is never more than 2 days ;D, so be patient if I don't reply right away! Thank you.
Sorry for being away last few days, last Thursday I had an incident with my cat , who decided to pee on my keyboard while I was out, and when I came back my keyboard was dead, reason why I haven't been posted or communicate with my commissioners this past days, I was waiting for some money to transfer from paypal, and here I am finally today, so I'm gonna catch up with work, thanks for your patiente!
In the mean time, commissions will be at 50 USD per character, I'll be opening 10 slots for the next few days, so note me if you want to get one :D.
So here's the details:
-Price is per single character
-I have the right to upload a small version of the picture to display in my gallery.
-Private commissions have an extra 30% fee.
-Complex characters (with lots of appendages, scales, armor, etc), will cost an extra 10 bucks.
-Payment is upfront once I've accepted the commission.
-Delivery time is usually up to 24 hours once I've accepted the commission, communication with the client greatly affects this, so I encourage you, if you want, to use skype or any other im service to make the process quicker.
-Provide all the info you can, pose, refs or any other description you see fit, to keep the price low, try to keep revisions at minimum, once I do the rough sketch and you approve it, I pretty much can't go back, since on the painting stage I only take about 3 hours to finish, so make sure to give me all the details needed beforehand (like colours or stuff like that)
-To get a slot, send a note with the title 'COMMISSION' and we'll take it from there.
Feel free to message me if you have any doubt, I'll be happy to answer :D
That's all, I hope you keep enjoying my art, I've found this site to be really nice, thank you all for visiting me and leaving comments :D.
Note: Your notes might not get read for up to 2 days, that's not cuz I'm ignoring you, but I like to open them once I finish the pictures I might be working on, so the note keeps highlighted until I'm ready to get to work on that, which is never more than 2 days ;D, so be patient if I don't reply right away! Thank you.
Sketch Commissions Open
Posted 11 years agoHello everyone :D, first of all, I'm thankful for all the great comments I've gotten lately, I'm glad you've been enjoying my work so far, I took down my commissions journal cuz I had no internet for a week and I was finishing some stuff the last few days, not I'm done with all the pictures that needed to be finished, and now, since I've seen people interested, I'll be opening some slots for the colour sketches I've been doing so far.
I'm rather new to the site, which is why this is the only type of commission I've been offering, once I get going again, and have some free time, I'll start doing some samples for you, and hopefully offer more complex types of commissions, which I hope you'll enjoy!
In the mean time, commissions will be at 50 USD per character, I'll be opening 10 slots for the next few days, so note me if you want to get one :D.
So here's the details:
-Price is per single character
-I have the right to upload a small version of the picture to display in my gallery.
-Private commissions have an extra 30% fee.
-Complex characters (with lots of appendages, scales, armor, etc), will cost an extra 10 bucks.
-Payment is upfront once I've accepted the commission.
-Delivery time is usually up to 24 hours once I've accepted the commission, communication with the client greatly affects this, so I encourage you, if you want, to use skype or any other im service to make the process quicker.
-Provide all the info you can, pose, refs or any other description you see fit, to keep the price low, try to keep revisions at minimum, once I do the rough sketch and you approve it, I pretty much can't go back, since on the painting stage I only take about 3 hours to finish, so make sure to give me all the details needed beforehand (like colours or stuff like that)
-To get a slot, send a note with the title 'COMMISSION' and we'll take it from there.
Feel free to message me if you have any doubt, I'll be happy to answer :D
That's all, I hope you keep enjoying my art, I've found this site to be really nice, thank you all for visiting me and leaving comments :D.
Note: Your notes might not get read for up to 2 days, that's not cuz I'm ignoring you, but I like to open them once I finish the pictures I might be working on, so the note keeps highlighted until I'm ready to get to work on that, which is never more than 2 days ;D, so be patient if I don't reply right away! Thank you.
Ifrit~
1.-bahamut6sic6 (for december 5th)
2.-RossCiaco
3.-nolan
4.-Zhu
5.-nightPhaser
6.-generation4200
7.-Drunklion
8.-Redmight
9.-
10.-
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I'm rather new to the site, which is why this is the only type of commission I've been offering, once I get going again, and have some free time, I'll start doing some samples for you, and hopefully offer more complex types of commissions, which I hope you'll enjoy!
In the mean time, commissions will be at 50 USD per character, I'll be opening 10 slots for the next few days, so note me if you want to get one :D.
So here's the details:
-Price is per single character
-I have the right to upload a small version of the picture to display in my gallery.
-Private commissions have an extra 30% fee.
-Complex characters (with lots of appendages, scales, armor, etc), will cost an extra 10 bucks.
-Payment is upfront once I've accepted the commission.
-Delivery time is usually up to 24 hours once I've accepted the commission, communication with the client greatly affects this, so I encourage you, if you want, to use skype or any other im service to make the process quicker.
-Provide all the info you can, pose, refs or any other description you see fit, to keep the price low, try to keep revisions at minimum, once I do the rough sketch and you approve it, I pretty much can't go back, since on the painting stage I only take about 3 hours to finish, so make sure to give me all the details needed beforehand (like colours or stuff like that)
-To get a slot, send a note with the title 'COMMISSION' and we'll take it from there.
Feel free to message me if you have any doubt, I'll be happy to answer :D
That's all, I hope you keep enjoying my art, I've found this site to be really nice, thank you all for visiting me and leaving comments :D.
Note: Your notes might not get read for up to 2 days, that's not cuz I'm ignoring you, but I like to open them once I finish the pictures I might be working on, so the note keeps highlighted until I'm ready to get to work on that, which is never more than 2 days ;D, so be patient if I don't reply right away! Thank you.
Ifrit~
1.-bahamut6sic6 (for december 5th)
2.-RossCiaco
3.-nolan
4.-Zhu
5.-nightPhaser
6.-generation4200
7.-Drunklion
8.-Redmight
9.-
10.-
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