I've been drawing, but something inside me just stops me from uploading. Maybe I've just become embarrassed about what I like. You know, growth and macro bigness, etc... ^.///.^; Or perhaps I'm just not happy with my own pictures, or I feel like they could be better. o.=.o;

Any tips on how to remove this fear of uploading? I guess it's just stage/internet fright, I want to click the button, but at the same time...

Mmrrrrf. *Freezes up* X3;;

I know it's been forever since I've wrote in here but, uh... here I am. XD Today I turned 20 years old, and wow, I feel... old. o.=.O It's scary knowing my teen years are being left behind. And I still haven't done anything with my life yet. But here's hoping the future is holding something bright for me. ^^;

As for what I've been doing recently, I've mostly been looking for a job, practicing driving, and looking for a college. I've been sketching too, but I haven't really uploaded anything. I need to get on that. o.=.o

Anyways, uh... new journal! Yay! ^.=.^

Over the past week, hives have popped up on my body. They've come and gone, but each time they're getting worse and worse... My skin feels like it's crawling on its own.

I'll probably head into the hospital tomorrow if it continues to escalate.

In other news, I'm having trouble drawing anything as well. I just feel completely useless. Here's hoping I'll come up with something good soon.

Sorry for complaining, but I guess a journal is where one keeps their thoughts... *Sigh/Sai*

It sure has been a while.

My computer broke down, and I just now got it fixed. I've been through some life changing experiences while I've been away. I'm not really sure if it's for good or bad, but whatever it's done to me, I'm back, and I'll be uploading more art soon. At least, that's the plan. It's good to see you all again.

Oh yeah, and happy holidays!

Sorry for always being the bringer of bad news lately, but...
Our dog died today...
Goodbye, Tucker, I'll miss you, buddy...

I am sorry for not being here lately, but I am currently having psychological issues that need resolving. In the past month I have had thoughts of suicide. I know it sounds crazy. I am sorry. I am in therapy at the moment, trying to get over this. Once again, I apologize for not being here and uploading art as I should be. Once this is all over, I should be back again.

I kind of feel like I'm letting you all down. It seems like I'm here for a certain amount of time, maybe a month, and then I disappear again into the shadows. Maybe when I'm finally released from high school I'll be here more often? I don't know. What's going to happen will happen, I suppose.

To let you know what I've been doing when it comes to art, I have been sketching each day on manuscript paper. They're all just sketches though. I don't really think anything is worthy to put up here. I'm still practicing though.

When the time is right, and this therapy is over, I will begin uploading things again. Thanks for your patience, and once again, I apologize.

Thanks so much for all the birthday wishes, it means a lot. X3 *Picks up all of you and hugs* ^.=.^

Yep, it's my birthday. I'm 19! ^.=.^

Weight training at school is going to be the death of me at this rate! I'm writing this journal using my left hand only (I'm right handed) because my right arm can't move without sharp pains. I pulled a muscle today (my right pec) and now I can't move my arm or draw.

Oh, and yesterday my knees had some sort of reaction to the wrestling mats. I have a big rash on each one, so they've been burning all day yesterday and today too. I don't mean to complain, but... OUCH!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1698006/

Another artist is doing 50 free sketches. All you need to do is put your ref and a journal advertising it. Give it a try! ^.=.^

Well, it's not because I don't draw. I try to draw one picture everyday. It's just that they aren't colored, and they're just sketches. But I'm thinking about coloring them in later and then just sending the old one into scraps when it's redone. But I like putting it on when it's fully done, and... I-I just can't make up my mind. -.=.- But I have been drawing! o.=.o

What do you guys think? Should I just put up all my sketches? Or try and photoshop them first?

Oh, and new icon was made by  hyper-foxe3! Thanks Hyper! He's selling them for 5-10 dollars if anyone is interested! Check it out if you want. ^^

Then go here! http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1681662/

Best of luck. ^.=.^