Wow, guess it's really been a while since I posted a journal, huh. TIME TO FIX THAT! Gonna start using this as a place to rattle off whatever bizarre nonsense my brain comes up with, maybe I'll actually be inspired to write this shit out more often!

So I've decided I want to enjoy the things I do more (yeah, I know that's vague, just hear me out). I'm tired of people always focusing on the negative aspects of things (myself included), so I've resolved to keep looking on the bright side and think about what I have instead of what I don't! It's a remarkably simple change, but it's done WONDERS for my general mood and outlook on life; more than anything else I've tried in recent memory. I also wanna meet new people! I need more friends! I've been with the same small group of friends for ages (some of my friends I've known for over thirteen years), and while they're all awesome and I love them all to bits I feel that I could go with some more diversity in my life. So hey! If you're reading this, and I don't really know you, say hi! I'm quite nice, and I won't bite! Usually! =P

I also really wanna do some more art. I haven't really touched the tablet pen in MONTHS, and it feels kind of awful. So, my new goal is to do at least one piece of art a week for the foreseeable future, and see where that takes me. Who knows, maybe I'll be back in to the "one piece of art a day" like I was back in High School?

Anyways, that's it for now! If you read this, thanks for your time! I know there's not many of you out there who bother with my journals, and I really do appreciate it! Hope you all have awesome times doing awesome things!

-Blitz

I HAVE A BOYFRIEND YAY! His name is Sam, he's Australian, and he's one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Ever. I feel... safe with him. Safer than I have ever felt before. It's all so wonderful, in ways I could never have foreseen. I can finally be -me-, no one else but who I really am on the inside. It's quite an incredible experience, so much so that to be honest I'm finding it hard to commit it to something as restraining as words. Might do some art about it, who knows. BUT what matters more than all of that is that I am happy again. Truly and completely happy. In spite of all the shit that's gone wrong, being forced from my house, losing almost everything I own, I am happy. Blissfully, euphorically happy. Anyway, that's all I really have to say here. So, to the one or two people that actually took the time to read these semi-incoherent ramblings, thank you. Hope you all have a good time with life!

After some long, hard thought, I came to the conclusion about a week ago that my current relationship was not working for me, and I ended it there. It wasn't pretty, it wasn't fun. I felt like shit then, I still feel like shit now, and this week has been bluuuuuuuuuuugh... I feel... used. Even now, after the fact. Can I please have one sexual encounter that doesn't in some way scar me emotionally/physically/both?

Ive temporarily relocated down to Medford to stay with my best mate, and it's really been awesome to get away from all of this shit. However, other personal issues have come back from the past to haunt me once more, and its made things difficult. Really, I'm just rambling here because its nice to be able to just -say- something even though I know that very very few people will even bother giving this the light of day. If anyone out there is actually reading this, I thank you for your time.


Side note: If anyone knows any Furs in Oregon, I want to meeeeet them!! (you don't count, LionBear =P). T'would be nice to know that there are more furs in my state than just me and him.

So recently one of my old friends from 3rd grade til frosh year called me up. i hadnt heard from him in 3+ years, so i was glad to chat him up. we were talking for a while, and then at some point in the conversation he discovered that I was gay. after an awkward and lengthy pause, he called me a "fucking faggot" and hung up on me. I lost a friend i had had for seven years in a fifteen minute phone call. what. the. fuck. Im really god damn tired of this shit. its not fair to condemn someone just for living their life, even if its NOT what they themselves do. Im tired of all this shit. I feel like I was stabbed where it hurts the most....

bah, im sorry for dumping this out here (although i dont expect a large ammount of people will read this anyhow). just had to get it out

Well, it finally happened. My lappy got a virus. So I had to do a full system restore, losing all of the files on my C Drive, including my Litestep themes and whatnot. Needless to say, im friggin pissed >.< At least i got to keep my D Drive.....

I figured, hey? Why not? So my commissions are now open. I do Sketches for $5, and flat colors for $7, and I'll draw pretty much anything. I still need to practice my shading in SAI to really offer anything more than that, but anyway. Send me a message if you're interested! Thanks!

I turned 18 today! Hurray for being a legal adult. As anyone whose reading this has probably seen, I recieved both a new collar and a new tail from my love, AEtherBreather. Also, on a more nerdy topic, I recieved Lunar: Silver Star Harmony for the PSP as well as a $20 PSN card, which I used to purchase Final Fantasy VII, Spyro the Dragon, and Spyro 2: Riptos Rage. Those were nice, but the real gift was the collar and tail. AEtherBreather, I love you so much! Anyway..... yeah.... not much else to say here..... oh well! I wish happiness upon all of you!

As my eighteenth birthday approaches ever closer, Ive started wondering what its going to be like. My love has some sort of absurdly extravagant event planed, so that should be interesting >.< but I have to wonder if its going to be any different? I dunno. Unrelated note, my psp collection is growing. Picked up God of War: Chains of Olympus (FINALY), Rachet & Clank: Size Matters, and Final Fantasy I. good haul, methinks. anyway, I have to go back to slaying my foes as the Ghost of Sparta......

So ive become completely and utterly addicted to monster hunter Freedom Unite recently. Seriously, Id forgotton how much fun it was. Planning the capture, engaging the foe, using your superior technique to dominate, this game above all else requires the utmost skill to be good at. Way to much fun. anyway, random rant over. must...... slay...... Yian Kut-Ku......

Well, this is my first journal on FurAffinity, so here it goes!

Just a bit about me-

I recently came to terms with my own Bisexuality, something that I've kept repressed for around three years now, and im FAR better off for it. The self-imposed repression had been eating away at my soul, and as a result I hadnt been truly happy in that entire time. But a song from my favorite band (Muse) and encouragement from some absolutely wonderful people (points to lionbear01) have released my heart from its shackles, and I've never been happier. I wish you could type your own "mood" into your profile page here, because "Over the Fucking Moon" isnt an option XD. On to other topics, as you might have guessed (>.>) my favorite band is Muse, but Im also a big fan of Judas Priest, Iron Maiden, Modest Mouse, Coheed and Cambria, and Dragonforce. and pretty much any other band even remotely like those. My art style is my own, but ive borrowed heavily from the style of Akiyoshi Hongo (no idea how to spell his name >.>), the creator of Digimon. My art equipment consists of a sketchpad, a bunch of graphite sticks, an Intuos 3 tablet, and Paint Tool SAI. Im a big videogame nut, and my favorite series are The Legend of Zelda, Castlevania, Metal Gear Solid, Pokemon, Metroid, and Resident Evil. I currently own a SNES, N64, Gamecube, Sega Dreamcast, GBA, and DS lite. Im also a huge book reader, and love me some fantasy novels. In particular, Im a big fan of the Dragonlance novels by Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman. Im also a fan of George Orwell's works. Currently, Im reading A Game of Thrones.

On to my fursona-

His name is Rezner Marklain, nicknamed Blitz Runner (hence my name), and he is, unlike me, completely gay. He currently has a love interest, Lozk Granduhl (another character of my invention) who is a standard red fox. Rezner never wears a shirt, for reasons that im still working out in my head, and always keeps his arm bandaged (again, for reasons currently
undisclosed).

Anyway, glad to be on FA. Im happier now then ive ever been, and id love to meet some new friends here. Good day to you all, and please comment on my art! I cant get any better if you dont comment!
~Blitz