i am
rly

im getting paid next week, i wanna buy commissions
cute commissions
dirty commissions
all commissions i want a million pics of blizzard

kinda
sorry, lmao, i just havent drawn furry stuff lately and i dont wanna flood the place with my shitty elves/humans. ill do shit soon hopefully.

i also have money now so i kinda wanna get some commissions of blizzard and by commissions i mean some cute art and then porn cause im a gross fag B]]]]]

im still alive
but im barely drawing
everything ive done is a wip and im like "should i show them" but ehh
plus none of it is furry stuff its literally all dragon age or some humanoid-esque species i made

thinking about moving to a new account, I don't like my username anymore and I haven't been super active on here anyways. I gotta get back into drawing Dx if I do move I'll make a journal showing where I am so if you wanna rewatch me you can~

me: *wants to do commissions or adoptables because i need money*
me: *has no art skills*
me: *stares at the abyss called my student loan bills + income tax*
the struggles of being a jobless loser

I wanna get better at art, so feel free to request art from me so I can try and improve u w u anyone can request art, the more the merrier!

i have no motivation to draw
and i wanna make another fursona
a space one
and edit slushie a bit
and draw all three of my fur nerds together
cries

i made an f-list for blizzard oops
https://www.f-list.net/c/bliiizzard/
if u have f-list feel free to add him idk

update: paint tool sai is being a piece of shit again and i dont know how to fix it

i hate being sick ; o ; i feel like garbage aaahhhhh

when i stop feeling this way i wanna post an update on blizzard
i might change his colours, im not really feeling the white and pink anymore. idk.
ill draw him up eventually and see what i like better.

for now ill just drown in my own snot ; o ;

anyone have a download link to a new version of paint tool sai, preferably with brushes installed? i got one, but its so old it doesnt have transparency :T all the issues i had before are gone though, so thats a thing.

update on the whole paint tool sai thing
still broken
i uninstalled it, found a new sai, installed it, still freezes after every few strokes until i minimize it. it like, things im holding it there or something? sometimes it does the thing as if ive been holding the pen down and does that ripple thing. ugh. i downloaded photoshop too and got no sweet clue on how to use it :I fml

i should really learn anatomy
especially to draw porn
ech
also sai is like, broken
whenever i lift up my tablet pen it like freezes and i can only use it again if i minimize it then bring it back
its literally the most annoying thing :I my tablet is fine, its just sai.

i wish my art was good enough to do commissions
i want money to buy commissions
i need ref sheets

RULES :
1. Pick one of your OCs.
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your OC.
3. Tag four people to do this meme!
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal

OC CHOSEN:
indi

QUESTIONS:

1. What is your name?
blizzard indi kiddway, or just indi/blizzard

2. Do you know why you were named that?
blizzard cause the huge homo im a sona to goes by blizzardfur online and idk indi he just likes the name.

3. Single or taken?
single ; o ;

4. Have any abilities or powers?
nope. just gay deer. though blizzards unsure if he wants to make me a full dude or trans like he is so sometimes i have lady bits and sometimes i have a dick

5. Stop being a Mary Sue!
w0w rood

6. What's your eye color?
blue

7. How about hair color?
fur is white and pink, hair is pale blonde

8. Have you any family members?
nope. id be a disgrace anyways oops.

9. Oh? How about pets?
nah. unless you count slushie. we own each other.

10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like.
intimidating people, being made fun of or yelled at, being pressured (cause i always say yes ; o ; ), bugs, being alone, being single, being scared, getting hurt

11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
i like vidja games, drawing, tumbr-ing, and sleeping

12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
i hope not D:

13. Ever… killed anyone before?
dood id cry before i did anything

14. What kind of animal are you?
deer

15. Name your worst habits
im super sexual for a virgin
im lazy
i don't wanna do anything with my life
im easily discouraged
i cry easily
im shy

16. Do you look up to anyone at all?
i have a few senpais but im not saying omfg cause i also have crushes on them

17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
huge homo but also bi-romantic

18. Do you go to school?
i go to college ugh

19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?
YESSSS~

20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
a few people said they liked me so thats a thing

21. What are you most afraid of?
being single for the rest of my life

22. What do you usually wear?
nothing . _ .
but also hoodies, t-shirts, skinny jeans, lolita dresses

23. What's one food that tempts you?
candy omfg i looovvvee candy

24. Am I annoying you?
nope u v u

25. Well, it's still not over!
okay

26. What class are you (low class, middle class, high class)?
low id say
im poor

27. How many friends do you have?
idk like 3

28. What are your thoughts on pie?
hella

30. Favorite drink?
fruitopia, fruit punch arizona, and mountain dew

31. What's your favorite place?
my bed u v u

32. Are you interested in anyone~?
so many people oh gosh

33. That was a stupid question.
okay?

34. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
lake
oceans stink

35. What's your type?
type of what? love interests? uhm, nice, tall, handsome, protective, wont mind the fact im always indecisive, patient, +5 if they're spanish/middle eastern, just willing to control my life cause i dont wanna handle it

36. Any fetishes?
im not saying omfg mine are gross

37. Seme or uke?
i am not the yaois
i am bottom all the time id cry if i had to top

38. Camping or indoors?
indoors u v u

39. Who are you gonna tag?
no one cause ihave no friends lol

so the only thing ive done on here is draw my fursona and answer people commenting on my stuff and i get two assholes commenting on my stuff and just being huge shitfaces instead of idk, giving me contructive criticism on why my deer apparently look like dogs to them? like, seriously, i know my art is bad but im trying to have fucking fun on here and all im getting is shit because these elitist fuckers think its funny to comment on my stuff with 'woof woof'. wow you can fucking draw deer well im trying, dont be an asshole about it. i hate my art enough from someone insulting me before about it on deviantart and i really dont want to stop again because some piece of shit makes me feel bad for trying. if you dont want to be nice please fuck off and leave me alone, im doing absolutely nothing to you except try to improve myself.

People saying I have a cute fursona thank you so much Ily it means a lot to me <3

i feel like i have to start drawing porn in order to get noticed on here