I'd upload today but I can't on account of I can't make this gif. The usual way I make them I can't do anymore. Sorry to anyone who was waiting for a post but maybe I can figure it out tomorrow. I'm tired from doing all of this anyway. Posting everyday is hard.
It's too bad though because this was going to be my first cardiophile piece since my return.

Back for now

I have to go now

Never mind. I can't post today. Too busy.

I have to keep this vague, no not because it's anything illegal, but because it's really personal.
There are two things that may or may not happen later tonight and early tomorrow that'll determine whether or not I continue uploading and if I'll upload consistently.

Possibility 1 : There is a slim chance this will be happening so if it doesn't I'm not to bothered as I didn't have much of a chance anyway.

Possibility 2 : Is a much likelier scenario and the one that I am most excited about.

If it's both then I'll upload everyday (or at least try to). If it's only #1 then more consistent uploads. If it's only #2 then I'll continue uploading but it won't be very consistent. If neither ....

I really really need possibility #2. As of late it's become one of my main motivations to live. It's what's been keeping me out of my usual suicidal relapse for the past week. If #1 happens and #2 doesn't I'll still be sad. This anticipation is killing me. Everything feels like a sign and I just want today and tomorrow to be over already! I'm so scared to even do anything. I feel like if either of these things happen then my life can finally move on. I haven't had something this exciting in my life in a while. And if neither happen then I'll be tempted to try suicide again. Please understand it's my only chance. I don't know what I'll do to myself.

I will be uploading today and after that if you don't hear back from me on Sunday then

I kinda regret taking that break because now no one's looking at my stuff. It was only ten days but I guess that's enough to kill your account. Oh who am I kidding, I've had a slowed growth on here for a month now. Not sure what the hell that's about considering that I upload more kink stuff now than I did then. And I know someone's gonna comment "but it's not about the views/favs/watches. It's about doing what you love". Well duh but the whole point of me putting what I love out here on the internet for everyone to see is for everyone to see it. Why should I even bother posting when I feel like my work isn't being supported. And what the fuck is with the algorithm always skipping me over. I swear it doesn't matter what site I use I still get fucking shafted. I thought that this break would help but now i hate returning.

I've been gone for a bit and without any explanation and I apologize for that. Right now I'm trying to get my life together and I just need a break from uploading.

Besides that I'm also working on my artstyle. I'm completely re-learning how to draw and I hope that by the time I get back there's a difference.
There is a piece that I finished on the first but still haven't uploaded yet. Will probably post it with my new art.

I should return by the 8th but I make no promises.

I had a dream last night that I deconstructed my DNA with my mind and became a god. Well I mean that wasn't the whole dream just the highlight of it.

Anyway that's all I wanted to share.

Hi my name is Bloo and I'm relatively new here. I had moved here from Deviantart because I'm wanted to find a space with more like-minded people.

And I've gotta say....


I'm glad I did! :3

You see my problem with DA is that it's really hard to get noticed on there. I mean I've been on there for 6 months and I only have 23 watchers on my main account if that gives you an idea of how bad it is. I literally feel like I'm being drowned out amongst all the other artists on there. No one sees my work and it's hard to get any kind of fanbase, feedback, or attention whatsoever. That sight is too catered to digital painters, long time residents, and fanart. If you're new and you want to make your own thing and get popular on DA, without having some popular artstyle, you're screwed. I don't know if anyone else has had as much bad luck on Deviantart as I have but I really wish that it helped out the new users a bit more and would stop it with the shitty algorithm. The only time I got attention on my DA is if I drew pokemon and posted 2-3 a day and as you can imagine I got really sick of that. It's as if the site's algorithm can stand a diversity in what the user uploads. At some point I began to hate it and I stopped uploading for a month. Then I came back and got disappointed again. Not to mention it's way too catered to kids, I mean there's a lot of children on there. Way too many children. Children who ask for free stuff and don't understand anything about adult life. Plus I gotta make my stuff safe for them. And then there's those annoying people who send me notes about free requests. Without even watching me or liking just one of my pictures. If you're going to demand free art you could at least support me.

But here it's much different. I actually get seen for once! I've only been on this site for a week and I already have over 50 likes, ten watchers, and almost 100 views on my page. I actually feel like I'm making art for an audience as opposed to just throwing my stuff out there and hoping that at least someone sees. And adults! There's lots of people my age here. The people here are respectful (likely due to the userbase being largely late teens-adults) and mature too.

And the kink communities are thriving! I mean I knew I'd meet other voraphiles but I did not know that there's a cardiophile community here too! I should've known, after all this is the furry fandom we're talking about here, home of every fetish imaginable. But still I'm pleasantly surprised. Meeting all of these fellow cardiophiles really sets my demonic heart ablaze <3
Being a cardiophile can be pretty tough. Not only is it a relatively rare fetish but I'm a female cardiophile while 90% of others are male. Infact the most cardiophiles I've ever seen in one place was on Tumblr but that was before the purge. After the porn ban there a bunch of fetish communities disappeared. At least I saved tons of screenshots ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°). There's also some cardiophiles on Archive of our own if you want to check it out. Btw I never had an account on Tumblr I just lurked around the site for free porn. But anyway I'm glad to see that Furaffinity has become a stronghold for all of us displaced cardiophiles.

In conclusion I really love my experience here! So far I have no complaints and only good things to say about Furaffinity. I think I'll stay a while <3