So yes I'm still alive and yes I know have a blaze 2.0 fursuit
I don't use DA that much anymore but I will be uploading some new photos when I remember to

As Of today 10/7/2018 Blaze us now one years old

Life is busy but I'm alive and good and will be at ac next month

I've been meaning to upload a bunch of photos but been lazy or busy with other things going on. So I'm going to try and start uploading a few photos a day.
hoping to start some tomorrow.

Update
I will choose a few pics to upload a day because fa is a pain in the ass
Update 1/16/2018
Well I'm back at school tomorrow I might try to update the info on the pics

Update 1/20/2018

I still have more to upload and info to update its going to take me a bit to finish all of the uploading

With school over I have some free time now so might be uploading all pics I have been meaning to upload

Blaze birthday is October 7,2017

Ya, it been a while since anything has been uploaded. But I have been really busy with school. So it's hard for me to do other things at times. I will give a more detailed explanation later but for now I need to try and keep up with school.

But I am getting a fursuit so be on the lookout for that it should be done in like 2 weeks. I am getting a partial with sleeves, paws, and a head and I already have picked up the paws and sleeves. (maker does not live far from me.) I will be back eventually so later.

Linkin Park is my all time favorite band. Hearing this news my heart has shattered into a million pieces.

So I'm back again with another life update yay!!! But ya lets get down to business.

Going off from the last update journal. I am still currently on that new medication and it is still working. I also have been taking off one of my turrets meds as well. Which my one doctor believed that it was causing a lot of my depression. I think it was because I feel a lot better these past few weeks. I am not getting as deeply depressed as I use to. So I am really happy with these results. I also have noticed that I am not as hungry as I use to be. I believe I have lost weight but I have yet to check. But ya I am happy with these results. It is now a year that I have work with my job so yay and I already got 2 raises this year. Still currently working 2 days a week until more work picks up, To me it sucks but I am enjoying my summer more than I did last year.

Home life has been good nothing has really changed.

Went to a furry meet not to long ago and met a bunch of new people I have like 3 pics from that. I will upload them eventually. Also, meet the person who made this for me https://www.furaffinity.net/view/19404955/. ( OMG as I am typing this the artist got bored and made a new one for me. Thanks again. pic will be uploaded later).

Sexuality wise I am BI I really don't know what I want to spend the rest of my life with. I have feelings for both so just time will tell. Also, I just refuse to get a date because I am not ready to handle it. Also just don't have enough free time. I just need to wait till the time is right.

Well from my computer fiasco a couple months ago it is still running and I am starting to game on it a bit.

But otherwise to everyone I have met and made friends with I really appreciate it knowing each and every one of you.


ALSO, I WILL BE AT ANTHROCON NEXT WEEK!!!!!! SEE YOU ALL THERE.

Till next time bye....

So Life has been ok lately. I was put on a new medication and this helps out with anxiety and depression. just last week my doctor decided to raise it again as it seems to be working. So its been good these past few weeks and its the end of the school year so yay. well I'm kind of broke this month just from other stuff but ya I still have money in savings I just dont want to touch it. I will give a better update later this week.

Till next time.

Ever since the last life update journal nothing has changed. I am 19 years old now but mentally I'm 17. My sexuality I might just be jumping to conclusions to fast. Really I guess I don't know what I really want. I have enough shit to worry about already. For my friends on Facebook after posting about what happened at work last Friday march 17. I never have had a feeling of betrayal like that before and I was crying the entire drive home and just sat on the couch crying more. That really put me in just a lot of depression that weekend. To the point where I'm fucking worthless and thought about hurting my self again. but multiple times in just 4 days. My parents help and support me. Well also not helping is that a recent study in with the mixture of my turrets and anxiety medication ( just these 2 specific ones I take) Doctors have seen a lot more depression form more just from that mixture of the 2 pills. after seing my doctor the otehr day we are changing my meds around and now giving me a med that helps anxiety and depression.Now these past few months have felt nothing but shit. just money and family wise. money wise My PC took a dump when i upgraded it to windows 10. to come find out that it was the graphics card driver that kept causing it to blue screen every time i turned it on. so it took me about 4 days to find out what the problem was. I had a little money saved up to upgrade my PC a bit. I got windows 10 pro ($40) then ended up having to buy an a small ssd ($50) to use to boot windows 10 and help solve the problem. The only bright side from that is the boot time off an ssd is a lot faster than a regular HDD. so having to buy a new GPU I did have my birthday but not everyone could come because they were sick. so I'm still missing money. (i only know my dad side of the family since my mom refuses to talk to her side after how she was treated growing up. I only know my grandma and step grandpa who is an ass hole). so I found a sale on a decent GPU with in my range of $200. It was on sale for $150 but the next day when I made the decision to order it the sale ended and costing me total $180 instead of like $150. was not happy but needed a new GPU so I got it and love it. but that was all total my birthday money and money i had extra saved up. total was like $400 in parts.

Its just one thing after another once something good happens the next day its fucking shit all over again.

Well I did go to a fur meet and had fun and now I'm in a DnD group.

to be hounest I fucking hate these past few months and it's still driving me carzy. I want that time back but that will never happen.

Right now it looks like I will not be working full time over the summer. But my manger still wants me there to work( really because I'm the only person doing what I do at work) but its fine with me I may just work with my dad some of thoes days.

My plan is still to go to anthrocon so I hope I will be able to go still once it reaches.

WARRNING THIS JOURNAL IS SCATTERED i DO NOT PLAN THESE OUT WHEN I WRITE ABOUT MY LIFE!!!!!

PLEASE READ THIS JOURNAL THIS PERSON NEEDS A LAWYER FOR THE RECENT EVENTS THAT HAPPENED IN PENNSYLVANIA.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:51986209

Well last year the only things that I really was happy about was.
My cousin getting kicked out (I hope he die's).
Graduating High School.
They finding out my sexuality. Gay!

These are like the only good things about 2016. But how will this year work?

Well I would love to find a boyfriend even in the ABDL community and be a furry and if he could live close to me. But I don't handle stress well and my anxiety is horrible (I am taking medication for it.) and I'm still a 16 year old (mentally) even though I will be turning 19 on March 3rd. I really wish me head would catch up by now but its a lot better than doctors and my parents ever thought it would be. I've made new friends and I have a car now so I can try and make some more furry meets. I've also come out more in the ABDL community (my parents have no idea about this) and I love the community and I guess with me mental state is why I joined it. My dream is to be babied when I'm home with a mate and just live my life to the fullest. No I don't wear diapers while out of my house because I don't feel comfortable doing that and I don't have the money to really get any and have any alone time in my house to use them.

Still I fell like I'm not ready for a relation ship.

But I'm hoping for a good change for 2017.

My goals are..

Have enough money saved up for a fursuit currently in progress.
Go to Anthrocon 2017
Save up to go to MFF 2017 (I don't really think I will bw able to go ATM)
Maybe find a boyfriend
and so on

I don't know what else to say for now guys so see you guys in the next journal.

Again fa just make everything look Fucking retarded.


Sounds like they really don't care on how it looks

I will be updating my FA page info soon. stay tuned!

sorry for no warning but this was a list minute decision to update my page

So it's been a while since i posted a journal about the seven shepherds.
But i have not touched since the beginning of summer. working full time all summer and bunch of things going on over the weekends and grad parties. I have not been in the mood to touch it at all. and with my first day of college starting on Monday i don't know when i will get back to it. just have not been in the mood at all to touch it. so in that case i dont know when i will have a chance to work on it again but when i do. My editing skills are horrible and i had to remove someone from the story after being accused of something that some how go me dragged into. But it did not change how the story is going to be written its still on the same path with a few changes. But anyway i will hopefully have the first chapter edited with or with out help hopefully released in the next 2 or 3 months.

But no promises.

So everyone hope you all have a good. Any questions note me on fa or my twitter blushepherd

Ok Blaze signing out

so i decided to ask  Baumarius some questions on writing and i decided to come to the decision. also with working 40 hours a week and having really no free time.

The Seven Shepherds ch1 release date will most likely not be by the end of summer.

i also plan on doing all the editing after ch6 is done which wont be for a while.

but i am thinking of commissioning a piece of art work for each chapter

yes everyone was ok including me and im the one that caused the accident. i was only going about 5mph and i look away for about 2 seconds and i bumped into some one
as of right now we are still waiting to hear back how much its going to cost us out of pocket. the only damage was scuff marks of my whole license plate and 2 tiny holes most likely from the screws on the back bumper.
we are not making a claim becuase if we do and since its my fault my insurance will sky rocket.
my parents are not mad at me and they are paying for the damage. i cant afford to pay for anything.

my car is fine i just lost my front license plate and need to get new ones.

im not scared to drive im perfectly fine