I don't know who is gonna read this, it's been a while.

After the quarantine for the corona virus here in Italy, I've been slowly detoxicating from work (well I still work from home but I don't have to waste 3 hours per day to go there).

The silly fact here: I was slowly resuming my drawing when something happened. A dear friend of mine pointed me to a netflix anime: beastar. I was, meh a furry anime with some hardvore?

Turned out to be a love story, non convetional... yet somehow it left me emptied, hollow. Like when you have to leave home for good.
I hadn't felt like that in decades. I don't know how to explain it, maybe somebody who feels the same could understand... it's like watching/reading something which describes all you fantasies you always had since you were a kid... but not the sexual one, the opposite side... maybe spiritual, I don't know.

Our vore fetish is triggered with vore, for some of us it has to be fatal... but when the prey is spared because of friendship or love? what does that trigger in you?
Now I'm here, almost 40 years old, losing appetite with the feeling that nothing really matters. Yeah I know, these feeling come when yuo've been in love and lost it.
Maybe some of you experienced this too after watching a movie or a cartoon that touches his heart this much.
For most of you it might sound overreacting and it is, but it can't be helped.

The quarantine will last at least another two weeks, I hope to get back in my usual self and finish my drawing.

Take care of yourselves guy.
This quarantine is waking me up from my slumber.

Looking back at my almost 10 years into the furry/vore community, I'm trying to understand whether it's been something positive or negative.
I met a lot of people, nice, interesting, lovely... most of them have disappeared without reason and some have just stopped chatting with me. I'm left with only three of them and only two still talks to me. Many had fooled me, some got me depressed: every time I lost one, I kept asking myself why... was it my fault? I kept wondering what I did wrong and eventually grew so insecure that I stopped approaching people.
And here I am now, depressed once again for the joy of those who wanted it. I'm so sorry for those who are watching me because I could draw more but it feels pointless at the moment.

I don't even know why I'm writing this, at 1 am, useless journal that sound just like a whining and maybe it is.

It leaves such a bitter aftertaste, after all these years wishing not having found the furry/vore community at all. Some happy moments, even love... but mostly disappointment.

Goodnight to whoever managed to read so far.

Up and running

Those of you who draw stuff... are you happy with what you come up with?

Personally I'm never satisfied x3

bah I don't understand why I let people like Ronin_Talbain ruin my day. To hell.

I didn't want to leave you without something drawn before xmas... so... well another strip of the principal in the showers is ready! I just need to make it "furry"... looks pretty nice to me. Can't wait to post it :3

I should start smoking...

anybody willing to portrait my blue wuff with brown jacket and hat, maybe at night, under a streetlight... smoking a cigarette under the snow? .3

Thanks to all the nice guys who are enjoying my art in these days :) I didn't expect that so many people were into this weird stuff :3

That makes me so much inspired and willing to draw more! ^-^ (and also the fact I'm rather sick *yipsneezes* and got plenty of freetime)

Thanks again.

And it was a blast! I've been so busy that the con looked so short :\

Once a year I'm grateful for being able to see my friends again :) vore or not doesn't matter, I don't have many but each of them is special.

I was wondering... some people do broadcast drawing... I could do the same what do you think? :3

I don't know why I feel in the mood to write something here...

Maybe I just want to look back at these year spent in the vore/furry community and this is the best place since very few of you will read this... so it will be like writing something to myself.

Many questions floats in my mind... what has happened to me after coming here? was I living better before this? Have I lost too much?
I have a few fantastic friends but our friendship developed outside this (vore was only a starting point). Most people I enjoyed spending my time left me, most without a reason, many without saying goodbye. It feels like a tree losing its leaves... winter is coming? :)

I always tell myself that somebody feels alone when he has something to say, but is unable to find somebody among his friends suitable to listen to him.

xD I remember telling everything to my irl best friend... I was expecting acceptance or burnt friendship, but I wasn't prepared to the worse: denial.

I guess that after almost 30 years he couldn't just quit our friendship, so he just pretended it was something temporary. At first I didn't know whether to feel as flattered as sad... was I skilled enough to completely conceal this, for all this time?
Shame and doubts are chains that gets heavier with time... when you speak or anything you do, you always think twice as it might break the veil of lies that conceals you. Lies are a comfortable piece of cloth... aren't them? even though I admit, it's a suit that requires a lot of maintenance :)

Am I happy to have joined the vore community? probably not... despite all the marvelous friend I found here, I was happier before... maybe because I thought I was alone because I was different... now I know I was wrong, because I'm one of you.

1) Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your FA page for 10 seconds.
2) Tell you a color you remind me of.
3) Tell you my first memory of you.
4) Ask you a question.
5) Tell you something I like about you.
6) Tell you the object that is in front of me.
7) Dare you to do this yourself in your own journal.

Happy new year to everybody...

This year must fix stuff that need to be fixed!

it seems that the more I play with people the thinner my trust becomes. Yeah it's funny because the firs rp I try after my break results in another disaster: 6 hours without digestion nor disposal. To hell my kinks that expose me so much to get fooled every damn time. No matter how much and how many times you underline that's what you want: they always say "ok no problem" then they get what they want and d/c.
I often wonder what am I doing wrong with people, maybe I'm just another sociopath... there's lot around so I'm in good company anyway xD
What about you guys? do you have problems with people? if you do... willing to share? Blue wuffs are always happy giving it a try understanding people... considering it's not hard, it's impossible.

Ok, being into digestion sucks. Just got tricked by an asshole who kept me rping until 2 am just to say gtg after he got what he wanted.
I guess I'm going to take a looooooong break from vore. Sorry guys, this is something too frustrating for me.

Take care all!

Ok, being into digestion sucks. Just got tricked by an asshole who kept me rping until 2 am just to say gtg after he got what he wanted.
I guess I'm going to take a looooooong break from vore. Sorry guys, this is something too frustrating for me.

Take care all!

With the new year I decided to give it a try!
Ask for commissions then!

I'm am very sorry... I haven't drawn again since I lost a very good friend...

I'll try to go back to that soon.

Thanks for watching.

Corso.