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Me, my Art and a Apology.
Posted 2 years agoHello all or at least those that still bothers to keeping and eye out after some signs of life and art from me still.
Uhm... I know I shouldn't feel like I need to say this but in a way I do.
I apologies for the lack of activity and lack of art the last few years, my drive and motivation to draw has been very low to pretty much non existent.
As well that most if not all recent art being non-furry related, now I still consider myself furry and love the furry community even though I don't participate much in it, I wish I did though but life and a mind full of anxiety hinders me.
Which is why I'm still happy to at least have my art, but as said the last few years have been very lackluster of that content as well.
The few pieces of art I have done have been mostly fantasy related but if most of all RP centric since I started the RP life through the game Conan Exiles.
As I wrote last year I had planned to get a screentablet but unfortunately last year burnt all my savings because of veterinary bills, first my old lady Sienna got hurt at the beginning of the year and then at the end of the year my sweet boy Ceasar got bladder issues 2 times, so bad I almost thought I'd loose him, but he's doing well now with a changed diet, but that doesn't mean I still worry because if he gets issues again I probably wont be able to pay the bills for it and have to say goodbye to my little man.
All I can wish for is as many years as possible for him.
But yes that plus several dentist appointments for myself burnt all my savings to ash and such crushed my hopes of being able to upgrade my art station as the current way of drawing for me isn't the most optimal or comfortable, but I make do when I get a spurt of inspo from the RP I do.
So again I apologies for the lack of activity, I do want to get into the groove of drawing more and more diverse things, but it is a uphill struggle.
I'm still here though, I'm not planning on leaving anywhere or nowhere even though I don't show much sign of life here.
BlueTiggy <3Summer!
Posted 3 years agoI live!
I am doing alright, covid hasn't gotten me and sure hope it never will.
Art is still slow and only when I get a spurt of inspo, but I am planning to get a screentablet soon.
Uhm, not much else to say about life, just taking one day at the time and trying to uuuh not stress out about what is going on in the world <.<'''
I am avoiding the news like the plague...
I had a lil scare a month ago with my my older cat who is 10 ish now, she is fine now, all went well.
Well except my wallet that is, eh he he he... *looks at the burnt whole after the vet bill and cries*
What happened without too much gross tmi is that my cat got a extremely swollen chin which turned out to be a infection of sort, no clear knowledge what caused it but guess is a unfortunate scratch during a tussle with the youngster cat.
But yeah waking up to a bleeding mess when she burst the swelling was not fun...
I can only hope for a fun, sunny summer but time will tell. ^-^
Another year another lvl (belated b-day to me)
Posted 4 years agoHehe oops, a bit belated but yes another year another lvl up, still hate getting older, ugh.
I'm alive, slowly doing art whenever I have the splurge of inspiration and RolePlay has certainly helped with that for those that have noticed or still care about my art.
But yeah, I'm still here just very quiet. ^-^
Happy Birthday to Me!
Posted 5 years agoYep, 33, still alive and another year down.
Lets hope next year will be MUCH better, ugh, this years started so good...then come summer and everything just went straight down to a inky puddle of depression that took months to get out of, like my brain is so confused about the summer months, and I'm still recovering from it even now. I am much better though but then there are some days that just brings you back to it all...
Bleh, eff this year... at least this year seem to end on a better note, if only the covid vaccine could come about a bit quicker, but at least it is coming with strong strides.
But yeah I'm still alive and about just not suuuper active with the arts but it is getting better at that front as well, slowly but surely.About Me and My art
Posted 5 years agoHi guys!
As you know I've had it rough the last year art wise and PC wise. I'm still not used that I have a proper Pc to work with now, I've played some games every now and then but doing art not much.
Need to get a better chair for doing longer hours and a larger desk to fit everything, right now the new Pc is...well, not standing in the most proper ways but it's safe at least ^^;
~ What does that mean in the long run? Commission will be on indefinite hiatus!
~ Does that mean there wont be any chance of getting art by me? No, I'll be having/making YCH every now and then when I feel up for it!
~ Can I PM you about art ideas? No! I'm saying it right here for all because I hate having to feel bad for say No in PMs. (and some peeps can't take a No for a answer...)
I've just been feeling very bleh about commission the last year and so, people asking for things I don't want or feel comfy to draw and people not filling out the Commission Form properly or at all...
Like it's there to make it easier for both you and for me, what's so hard about that?! (seriously there was one guy that altered the Form even...)
If you don't understand the questions in the Form just ask for clarification or leave them empty!
Well that's just what I wanna have said for now, hope everyone have a good year.
Merry Yule! <3
Posted 5 years agoMerry Yule and happy holidays everybody!
Hope you have a nice day and gets something nice, be it big or small! ^w^
Burfday!
Posted 6 years agoHappy B-day to me!
Another year down and nothing different really =p
Aaaaahhh
Posted 6 years agoIt's already just 1 more week?!?
Time flies toooo effing fast ToT
1 more week till my b-day!I'm not dead!
Posted 6 years agoSeriously, I aint!
For those that wonder my absence from posting anything the last like 4 months, it was because my poor laptop isn't up to snuff anymore so is now pensioned to chat/surf/watch pc, it can't do more than one thing without over heating and crashing on me.
BUT! I'm now back in action with a spanking new built stationary PC, all thx to 
and some other donation giver.
TwT I'm not worthy!
Right now I'm still fiddling getting stuff fixed, tested some gaming and soon gonna get back into drawing again. Think I've gotten most of the things I need in.
Only thing being a little B is the Elgato game capture... I do think and hope it's just that I need a second screen but if not I'll be VERY annoyed >:C
Once I get everything fixed I'll be sure to start streaming again, I do miss it very much as it actually got me to finish drawing stuff and play games much more!
Small life update!
Posted 6 years agoI've gotten a little brother!
I had guessed another little sis judging by how many more women it is in our family than men, but surprise! :DPC scare...
Posted 6 years agoI hate this so muuuuuch, got a fricking scare by my laptop freaking out in a way I've never seen it do before ToT
Had to hard restart it, luckily it let me save my art progress during the freak out...
I so need a second PC.... I don't wanna have to go through the same stress like last year T_T
Please, plz, if you have anything little laying around feel free to donate ---->> Ko-fi
...Also it would appreciated if you spread the word T-T
so tired....
Posted 6 years agoof everything, just so tired...
I want to do so much but don't have the means too so this crawling, never ending stress of mine makes my body freeze and curl up into a ball of anxiety...
sleep is fucked, goes to bed around 2-4 am and wakes around 11-12... for most it would still be a decent sleep but me, I'm more of a 10 hour sleep person and then I MIGTH feel well rested...
so fucking tired...
I'm just...gonna sit and cry for a bit...need to let out some...Donations, just one will do.
Posted 6 years agoYou know what?
If all my watchers, which are over 2000, would donate 1 $ I would easily have a new PC to play around with easy peasy.
A Ko-fi is just 3 $, it might not be much but it mean a whole lot for me.
I'm not pressuring you to donate.
I'm just saying if you have some spare bucks laying around it's just a few clicks to make those pennies worthful.
>>> Ko-Fi <<<
...gaming sorrows and pains...
Posted 6 years agoI really wish I had a better PC to play games and stream on...
can barely play any game for a hour until I can start frying eggs on my poor laptop T-T
and I really wanna try getting my way into the game RP community...been watching some RP twitch streamers for over a year now and I so wanna be able to join the fun than just watching T___T
I always miss out on doing fun stuff because things cost money D:< 2 Half-Body Commission Slots OPEN!
Posted 6 years agoI NEED MONEY!!!
Donations are very welcomed! >>> Ko-Fi <<<
HALF-BODYS ONLY!
Commission info!
TOS & Will and Wont!
Start: Flat Color: 45 $
+ Full Shaded: 40 $
= 85 $
Examples: X X X X
No extra character.
No specific background.
No Extra Stuff: Overly complex clothing or accessories
Crazily detailed markings/huge tattoos
Wings
Slot 1:
Full shaded: DONE - PAID
Slot 2:
Flat color: DONE - PAID
Slot 3:
!!!Remember read my commission info, TOS and will and wont before submitting a Form, I don't wanna have to say NO just because You didn't read!!!
Just copy-paste the Form, do NOT alter it! Thx you!
Commission Form
~Username:
~E-mail/Paypal address:
~Can I Stream this com?:
~Is the com SFW or NSFW?:
~Flat color or Full shaded:
~Character References (urls/links pls):
~Character Species:
~Additional details that must be accurate:
~Please sign with any of your FA/Weasyl/DA username below to signify you have read and understand my Terms Of Service and agree to them:
!!!Remember read my commission info, TOS and will and wont before submitting a Form, I don't wanna have to say NO just because You didn't read!!!
Donations are very welcomed! >>> Ko-Fi <<<
HALF-BODYS ONLY!
Commission info!
TOS & Will and Wont!
Start: Flat Color: 45 $
+ Full Shaded: 40 $
= 85 $
Examples: X X X X
No extra character.
No specific background.
No Extra Stuff: Overly complex clothing or accessories
Crazily detailed markings/huge tattoos
Wings
Slot 1:
Full shaded: DONE - PAIDSlot 2:
Flat color: DONE - PAIDSlot 3:
!!!Remember read my commission info, TOS and will and wont before submitting a Form, I don't wanna have to say NO just because You didn't read!!!
Just copy-paste the Form, do NOT alter it! Thx you!
Commission Form
~Username:
~E-mail/Paypal address:
~Can I Stream this com?:
~Is the com SFW or NSFW?:
~Flat color or Full shaded:
~Character References (urls/links pls):
~Character Species:
~Additional details that must be accurate:
~Please sign with any of your FA/Weasyl/DA username below to signify you have read and understand my Terms Of Service and agree to them:
!!!Remember read my commission info, TOS and will and wont before submitting a Form, I don't wanna have to say NO just because You didn't read!!!
Patreon, Help! PLz!
Posted 6 years agoI need a bit of help and advice.
I've been wanting to get myself a Patreon page even if it mostly might be a glorified tip jar. ('cause my Ko-fi sure aint getting any love *cough*)
But I am cautious due to the whole Paypal bs about Adult content and being that I would be a International page owner I will not be able to choose "Direct bank deposit" as a payment method for myself, meaning I'm stuck with PP...
Soooooo if any of you are a International Patreon user I am glad for any advise on what to do and how it all works!
'Cause I'm a scared baby when it comes to do new things...Sorry....
Posted 6 years ago...for being selfish, needy and annoying....
...gonna shut up...I want Fanart too.....
Posted 6 years agoI don't wanna have to fricking beg for it but that seems to be the only things that works...
...of all the years on FA I can count all the fanart I've ever gotten on one hand...
...also feels like my art just isn't appreciated... I may be a slow artist but that just means I put so much work into it and I barely get any recognition.......
....just doesn't feel worth it or fun anymore, just stressing myself out for no reason....A New Year
Posted 6 years agoAnd hopefully new beginnings?! One can dream *sighs*
2018 was not a good year for me artvise, barely got anything done, sure I had a bit of a boost in May-June was it? 'cause...reasons <3 *chuckles*
But else it's been a disaster, only did 1 secret art stream early spring, buuut I did start doing some game streaming when I had PC down time due to harddrive going RIP which wasn't a cheap story...
But yeah I liked doing the game streams and I wanna keep doing them 'cause it gets me to play some fricking games which was bought but never touched...
Just like why I started doing art streams to get art done and while I wanna do stream both things I find myself being too out of energy and not having enough time in the day, even though I really do.
For those that know me best I am a very low energy person, I'm like always at 50% battery but many days I find myself even lower due to me stressing over things I WANT to do...
Like my brain LITERALLY thinks there aren't enough time in the days to do more than one thing, be it a chore, cooking or just something I find fun, that's it, no more energy to do anything else...
This is a big reason why I don't wanna live alone so I don't have to stress myself from having to do EVERYTHING myself, just to have someone to share the burden you know?!
I'm really spending most of my days and energy being indecisive...
Haaaaaaaaappy Birthday to Meeeeeeeeeeee!
Posted 7 years ago Yep, it's that day of the year again ^-^
One year older, one more year down the crapper.
Can only hope this year will bring some happy life changes that I want, not depressing stuff that some people want to push onto me <.<
Anyway.
Happy Birthday to Me!
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Save the Net! Article 13
Posted 7 years agoSave the Net! Spread the it over the World! Do NOT let the big companies do this to Us!
#SaveYourInternetWhy bicycle people can be such asses!
Posted 7 years agoOn a serious note, if you are one to ride a bicycle.
Please be considerate!
I had to stop and comfort a boy around 13yr-ish because of a asshole blasting past, giving a sharp whistle and barking at the kid to not be in the middle of the street... the kid was nowhere near the middle but as me was on the outer sides of the street.
Now I dunno if this could be because the kid was poc, but anyway by pure instinct I asked if he was okay and he was crying so I stop to hug and comfort him. He was terrified, he thought he was gonna be run over and I don't blame him I would too.
He calms down after a few mins and I tell him "There are morons for everything. Now go home, get something good to eat or drink and do something fun." I really wished I could have walked him home but I was on my way to Drives ED.
What baffles me though is that asshole, like how the hell did he get up to that speed when 1. He had both legs up on the steering 2. In his arms he held a pair of crutches! Like whaaaat?!
Also shortly after he blasted past me I heard the same sharp whistle and barking at someone, I didn't see who since it was behind a garage shed.
But yeah, that was my day =P
sorry for the rant XP I needed to went it somewhereBlaaah
Posted 7 years ago2 more weeks till my birthday
yup
.p.Sad but not Upset... RIP Grandma
Posted 7 years agoYesterday I got a call from dad saying grandma has gotten sick and stopped eating, today dad called again with sad news that she had passed during the night silently in her sleep.
I am sad but not upset, we have been kinda waiting for this since a couple of years now since grandma first got really sick and ended up in the hospital, where she then fell and broke her hip so she went into surgery. The anesthetic didn't do well with her and the creeping dementia was in full bloom. So much that my dad rarely wanted to go see her since it pretty much was impossible to talk to her. I felt the same way so I didn't get to see her that much these last few years, though I am glad that when I saw her this summer she was pretty clear minded in my opinion. I'm glad I didn't get to see her in her worst when she got malnourished after the hip surgery and so on.
I will always remember her with good health, a strong voiced woman if at times a little intimidating ^^; we are a loud voiced family that is for sure, it's just me and sis that is the most timid ones. *chuckles*
Rest in peace Grandma, Dagny, you deserve it <3Boooooo~bs!
Posted 7 years agoHappy Halloween everyone!
Sadly my arting hasn't gotten back into the right swing yet so no spoopy art this year....
But here is boobs 'cause I feel like people missed seeing this one since I of course posted it during the Con season =p
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27843743/