I have an opening in my commissions if anyone is interested in commissioning me.

I have two sides, the side that can sketch and plan out a piece and the side that does the detail work. Usually I can work in tandem with both sides but as of now there is disharmony between both sides of me.

I can sketch and prepare an image all I want, and have the forms set and ready to go, but my other side, the side I call Zarek won't help me out. Does anyone else suffer this kind of artblock?

I doubt anyone does.

I've been juggling games and art, especially while I've been out in Montana trying to make money. I'm trying to not overwhelm myself by taking things in stages and not getting too hung up on what's owed to whom. I'm hoping to complete a few side projects in the coming days as well as get out the only commission I've been working on. If you still wish to participate in the ask me journal you can as well. Just go back a couple journals you'll see it.

Honestly. If I had to put it into words, I've mostly been depressed, I feel my art has stagnated though I have been practicing to improve the quality. I need to put more effort into it though. I want to see results rather than guesstimate my improvements.

I want to practice more quick sketches so I wanna do an Ask me anything. Let's get to know eachother and specifically my main sona. My Lord Zarek, reaper king of etherian realms

I'll be taking on line art for $30 if anyone is interested. Please comment below. I'll only be doing 5 this time. Sale ends Tuesday

Holding a sale on couple pieces.

SFW shaded art 60$ for two character with simple background.

NSFW shaded art 70$ for two characters with simple background.

60$ shades for Valentines day.

SFW couples. With a simple background. Can be any pose.

70$ for NSFW.

Looking to take on 5 commissions.

I have the urge to create more artwork of Hetero couples, so... if you're interested in getting art of you and your partner let me know. Prices will be as followed

Shaded: $80
Flat: $50
Line Art: $45

If you want artwork of samesex couples the prices are as follows
Shaded: $90
Flat Color: $60
Line Art: $45

My latest YCH https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62861363/ for Fucksgiving 2025 will be closing on Sunday. Please get your last bids in before then.

What are your opinions on it. What would make it more appealing?

It seems to not have any traction at all. People.biew it but don't fave it or even interact with it... I'm trying to figure out why.

Comment your thoughts and get a free sketch.

I'll take on 10 10$ sketches of fursonas in costumes if you are interested. I'm also holding a lottery for those who purchase a sketch to have it as a fully shaded commission. If interested message here with your costume idea and a number between 1 and 50.

I've started the sketch process for my Fucksgiving image. This will be the 4th year that I have done something for Fucksgiving. I'm excited because it seems they each get a little better.

Fucksgiving 2024 "Turkey Stuffing"
Fucksgiving 2023 "Spit Roast"
Fucksgiving 2022 "Fuckluck"

I've mainly forcuse on "Turkeys" and dinners in the previous years, This year's theme will be Desserts, specifically Creampies. Im debating on going for more than 5 individuals for the image, I'll be throwing one of my characters in it this year, specifically my Snep. Hopefully I can find more interested parties to participate.

On top of bills and shit, my dog got hurt and is now at the vets office to see what happened. They're having trouble seating him so they can shave and view the wound. So far the bill is about 1000 and that doesn't include treatment.

If anyone is interested I've reduce prices on my commission work.

50$ for a shaded piece.

30$ for a flat color piece

And badges for $20 for digital, $35 for physical, includes lamination, mailing and a key ring.

For the badges, if your attending Further Confusion or Pawcon you can grab them from me directly there and it will only be 25$ for physical.

My dms are open. Let me know.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61974269/

Doing some art to shore up the bank account for upcoming bills. check out what I have on sale and see if your interested. or share it around,

I was working on something for a friend whom I had a falling out with. Seeing as how I'm no longer friends with them, I no longer want to give them what I was trying to make as a gift. So, after some alterations and color changes, I'm gonna be offering it up as an adopt. I'm unsure of how to price it though. Should it be auctioned or should I just do a flat price?

A friend was kind enough to set up a gofund me for me to replace several items stolen from my car. While some of the damaged due to the theft will be covered the items stolen probably will not be.

https://www.gofundme.com/f/join-us-.....-zarek-rebuild

If you can help, I thank you. Let's hope to get this behind me, and move forward.

My Luca was found tonight, 4days after he was stolen. The thief still in the vehicle. They'd removed nearly all of my things. Theyd broken in the back window. They cleared out so much of my stuff, stuff i wont be able to replace easily. I still had a few of my thermal bags, but I noted several of them missing, mainly my Costco bags. I lost my Pokedevice that I use for walking and catching pokemon, my car charging cables, several letters, car manual, the original receipt from car purchase, the cart I used when doing my instacart work. My notebooks, my air compressor. I had a sound bar and a fan that I had taken to host a small gaming thing, and my clothes were also missing.

As well as the binder I kept all my receipts in. Chances are tossed in a trashcan somewhere.

I knew life was feeling too smooth. Things were going my way for once. Had a few extra dollars and life was looking positive.

Now my car is gone. My wallets gone. My card are gone, and while I didn't lose my switch Xbox or projector, I'm out something way more important.

I lost my Luca. 8years old. I bought it myself. I made every payment on it. With help from others but still I made a majority of the payments. It's only the first day of it being gone but... that was my boy. My car. Every dent, ding, minor crack in the glass, are memories. I lost 8 years of memories. I put so much into that car. I have so much work shit in that car. Now im... bereft.

What am I going to do for work? What am I going to do period?

I hate my life. My first thought was pills and the half bottle of tequila. But what will that do? Make problems for other people is what it will do. Still... tempting, because wtf. Why can't shit go my way for once? I locked my car, my windows were cracked because of heat, but my doors were locked. I was parked under a light, in a decent neighborhood.

Parked at midnight, by 2am it was gone. Cars weren't used. They're locked now. And I'm just... fucking done with life.

Im gonna try to get whats been "done" by Eggos18, aka Sharkellion on X, or Red paste bean, idc what name they go by. Looking at his X page, hes taking other work and completing other pieces and just... hasn't responded to me in a month. So i rather get what I can, take the fucking L in life, and when I get it, I'll improvise off what they've done. More than likely I wont post it and just.. set it off to the side into a hell oblivion. I'm done trying with this guy.

Last year for my birthday, as a gift to myself, I purchased refs for Wulfette and Zarek... sadly they were never completed, which again makes me sad. One of the reasons I rarely commission anything is I've had terrible experiences with people. This is the second time someone took my money without completing my pieces. If they had an FA I'd probably put a beware on them. I've had others disregard my wishes completely. And well... it gets tiresome.

This year's ych will be up soonish. I'll post the WIP to see the response to it.

The moment I stop,
That's when it will hit,
Like a car crash around the bend,
I won't see it
But it will happen
I'll walk away
Battered
Broken
Bleeding
But still alive
Mercilessly alive
To deal with the new pains
To tend to the new wounds
Forcing myself to smile
Forcing myself to say I'm fine
All the while screaming inside
I want to hear silence again
I want to numb my pain
I want to go back
10 years when I was naive
20 years when I was whole
30 years when I was young
To the start when I was nothing

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59233907/

My In honor of the Holidays Sale ends soon

None of my partners that I rp with are interesting or catch my attention. They bore me with lack of attention to details or responses to my actions... zarek needs stimulation or he... fucks off into the void.

Hey everyone.

I'm wishing you all a Merry Christmas Eve anqd Happy Holidays to you all.

This year seems to have flown by. Its been an amazing year and I hope, despite the future conditions and challenges of next year, we all thrive and survive.

Enjoy your holidays. Enjoy your friends and family. Have fun and tell those close to you, you love them. I love all of you.

Sincerely,
Zarek and family.