I am going to the first AZFC and will debut blur husky so keep an eye out for me if your going! XD

SO after some misaps i finally got my partial blur husky in. Im not sure about the fur con coming up next month cuz of money issues but im hoping i can make it. Ill post pictures of him soon so everyone can see. As far as anything else its good so far. the holidays are right around the corner so that means more hours for me (even though im already fulltime) which means more money. cant think of anything else at the moment so ill take my leave. XD

ok guys go here

https://www.facebook.com/Blurphotogragphy

to check out the pictures i took from Saboten con 2013 please!

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE CHECK IT OUT!

This con was absolutly amazing i cant even explain how much fun it was to be with everyone and hang out. I have a ton of new pictures from there and since theres so many i decided to open a facebook page with all the con pics i take which means yes ill be going to more cons but the ones i dont make it to i hope ill have someone helping me out with that. anyways ill post the link tomorrow but i will post some of my fave pics from the con as well.

as i watch them fall more and more in love im thrown back to the days when i felt the same. the way they hold each other they way they smile at each other i remember it all. her kiss her touch. im happy for them really i am but i cant help but remember her....and with those memories comes the nightmares that follow. im torn in half. yes im over her but i will always lover her so why do i still hurt? im not sure i suppose. it sucks for sure.

i guess in a way i miss it. the touch of someone who truely loves you. the chill when they say your name in a way that cant be matched. when that person smiles only for you. cries for you. tries to help you hold your world together. i miss it all. i dont miss her per say i just miss the company of a lover next to me. the sheer fact knowing when i feel weak and doubt myself i can find strength in her...


i do wish them the best in the future though for their love story may very well continue till the very ends of time and beyond.

that is my hope and will....so mote it be

i get jelly sometimes. am i at fault? i am human you know. sometimes i wish i had a nice couple picture with someone kinda like halo and neru and simetimes i just want to me kinda popular like halo and neru. who wouldve thought id be jelly of those two huh? eh oh wells i just need to vent a lil but im supper excited about blur coming in!!!! soon it will happen and the world will fall to its knees....laughing at my stupidity lol

i said it once and ill say it again. you just cant choose who you love. it just happens. in the blink of an eye it could happen. the one. Her or him. You two could be complete opposites but for what ever reasoning your heart screams love for that person. ive seen it. ive watched it happen and unfold before my very eyes. in some cases its a grand wonderful thing...but in others its only pain and misery. i know ive been there with her but those days are over. I guess what im trying to say is this. Who ever your with if you love them then stay with them. fight for them. LIVE for them. fight may happen but get over it. pain will ensue so toughen up against it. Love...is a wonderful thing when you have so hold on tight and dont let go. :)

well this blows ass. i need five days of for the con 3 for the con one day before and after. thing that sucks is that i cant get that many days off without cutting into the vacation time i dont have. sucks that i might not be able to go cuz i wouldnt have a ride back home to be prepared for work DX and the suit? the guy i was gonna have do it is giving neru problems and its really just like discouraging to me and now im just like "i guess ill be in a partial for awhile then" eeeehhhhhh just when it was looking good my bad luck seems to come in and fuck me in the ass

well i finally got an iphone so if i didnt text you or you just want my number to text me drop a note ok?

im doing this late as hell so why not you guys too?

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4682428/

go check it out!!!

hey everybody! a friend of mine is new to the site and she needs some help think anyone can help???

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4687187/

SO! today has just gone great! it started last night when i got my one year evaluation and completly passed it all with no bad marks plus a 40 cent raise. then i got to leave work early cuz all of us at work finished so early we were just wasting time so the boss said to go. which is fucking awesome extra sleep for me! im getting more and more excited about blur being made into an actual suit now cuz we just finished making his ducktape dummy and now halos mom is taking us out to dinner!!!!! wish days like this happened more often XDD

love you emily!!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4658504/

go go go ^^ i hope i win

why? why do you even bother? why show your face? noone in my family really wants you around? you say you hate me and dont want me around so why keep ties to MY FAMILY? isnt that the same as keeping me around still? isnt that the same as holding on to memories of you and i? the same memories you wish to destroy? so why? why show your face to me after talking your shit? I had to leave my own parents house just so i wouldnt ruin my moms day yelling at you or worse. so tell me. WHY? little do you know i couldve killed you and not even blink. i wouldve ended you and not shed a single tear. you helpped make me who i am. you made me the monster i am today. i hope your happy cuz karma is coming and when it happens i hope im there to see the out come so can laugh like youve done to me. ugh you make me sick you worthless BITCH

please feel free to ask me anything im more then willing to answer any sorta question even rhetorical questions! XDD

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4602219/

go go go dudes its crazy!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4578915/

go get some free art from my buddy mint!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4564735/
go hurry click here and enter noobs!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4551420/ Go! Do it!

its hard to honestly think that its been 6 years since we meet. since i got the balls to ask you to be my girlfriend. I still remember the day so damn well...the place and the time. engraved in my heart forever along side your name. A whole year has gone by now that youve been gone from me...when you left me for my friend. so many words i still have locked up just waiting to never be said. i miss you. i still love you. I HATE YOU. You were my best friend and i wanted nothing more then to beg for you not to go when you killed a part of me...as much as i hate you for betraying me the way you did...i only hope you have the best in life...only the best.

i dont understand how i can love someone so much when they hurt me so damn bad

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4513651/ go watch her for a chance to win. DO ET NOWS!

i know ive dated and messed up if noy some in all my relationships. i guess right now im just kinda done looking for it. if i find it ill find it but i hope...i hope shes the right one. i hope she likes the same music i do. i hope she plays video games with me and enjoys them like i do. I hope i wont need to say when i need to be comforted around her. i hope we can communicate with just a glance. i hope ill always be able to make her smile and blush and giggle insanely. i hope to show her a side of me noone gets to see. i hope shell love me for me the person i truely am and not someone else. This is my ultimate wish. its just sad that i think they girl i want is only a dream. something my soul calls out for only to never recieve. where are you? when will i meet you? are you real? or just a lie?

Its been one year today that i was released from jail. One whole year. One year since that faithful phone call. one year since i was able to dress into my cloths once more and wear my family necklace. One year since i was able to taste my first fresh breath of air. I didnt think id last more then a few days before i got locked up again but IM STILL HERE!! Alot has happened since then. I reunited with my friends i lost and my fiancee left me for a friend. Me and my dad get along now and ive even made some new friends! I have a stable job and i even moved out (again) and things are going great for me. I look back at it all and smile. How ive managed to make it this far is beyond me honestly. All i know is that without you guys everyone of you Id probably wouldve sunken into my own darkness and died so...from my heart to yours all of you

THANK YOU!

https://petitions.whitehouse.gov/pe.....1P#thank-you=p

SIGN PLEASE AND HELP A HUSKY! XDD well and everone else too

sometimes i wish youd understand me. understand the feelings i had for you from the start. The first day i met you...i swear i remember that day. locking eyes with you. amiling. laughing. all the days after that as well were happy for me. you where my best friend but i wanted more. betraying my heart i locked away my feelings for you never to think of it again but one day...they came back. stronger then ever as if it was just building up inside. But you didnt care. and you still dont. you say you love me but only as a friend but you use me as a tool. im onlky needed by you when you want something otherwise im put on a self left there to see you go off with other guys. i try my hardest to keep my heart in check but i cant not around you for some reason. i see something in you that would make me so happy to have you in my arms. but...i guess somethings arent ment to be. Guys the nice guy always does finish last huh?



-sorry about this i just needed a place to vent my mind on a personal matter. What with the would be 6 year anniversary of me and my ex coming up along side the day she broke up with me a year ago and now another girl coming into my life just to fuck my brain up it gets hard keeping a smile on my face soooo im sorry about this.